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Disclaimer: Okay, I do not own anything other than the plot. The characters belong to the man known as Joss. The lyrics belong to Tracy Byrd.
Distribution: willangel, forbiddenlovers and anyone else who already had my work. Anyone else, please ask.
Author's Note: Okay, this is the first in an yet untitled series of songfics chronicling the love of Angel and Willow.
Summary: Willow and Angel's POV on their relationship.
Feedback is greatly appreciated. This is my first POV and songfic. Let me know if I did okay.
Okay just so you all know, this is how this works. Lyric-Willow's POV lyrics-Angel's POV so on. Pretty easy really.
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It was no accident me finding you
Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew
I still remember the first time I saw you. You were standing in a dark corner, trying to blend into the shadows of the Bronze while you were watching us. I saw how you looked at us, clearly wishing that you could come over and join us and my heart went out to you. I think that was when I first fell in love with you, or at least the idea of love. I could see so much in your eyes. In your case, they truly showed your soul and I could see so much pain and guilt and I wanted to do nothing but give you friendship. I wanted so much to invite you to join us, but I was afraid that you would turn my offer down, so I stayed put, not saying anything. How I regret that now. All that wasted time. Maybe if I had gotten over my fears, you wouldn’t have felt the need to be with her.
I knew that your relationship with her was doomed from the beginning and I think you did to. That’s why you always tried to push her away, no matter what she said. Then after everything that had happened when you weren’t exactly yourself, I knew that things couldn’t go back to the way they were. Everyone wanted to punish you, to make you go away, but I couldn’t bring myself to do that to you. You were my friend and I cared for you. I wanted you to be happy and I was going to do everything possible to make sure that you were. While she pushed you away, I drew you in. And we got closer.
Now I just can’t believe you’re in my life
Heaven’s smilin’ down on me
As I look at you tonight
You always intrigued me. You knew exactly what was going on at night and yet you always seemed to have this youthful optimism that never diminished. An inner glow that attracted me to you. All those times when she thought I was lurking, watching her, it was really you that my eyes focused on. I could see the heartache behind them when the stupid boy would hit on every girl at the Bronze except for you. And you were the reason that I let things go as far as they did with her. You seemed generally happy for us and I didn’t want to disappoint you, but that’s what happened. And yet, you still forgave me. You refused to let me sink into that pit of dispair that I was feeling after, as you called it, "wasn’t myself." While the other ignored me, you invited me in.
You talked to me. No pressure for anything other than friendship and I adored you for it. You made me accept that part of me that the others hated or refused to see. You made me realize that I didn’t need to live with my own self-recrimination. And here you are, right where I’ve always wanted you. In my arms.
I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doin’
When he joined these two hearts
The first time you told me how you felt, I thought you were joking. I couldn’t believe that someone like you would care for me. I never saw myself that way, but you convinced me with your words and actions that your love was real. I don’t think I was ever so happy. And the first time you kissed me, I could feel it through out my body. That’s when I knew, that no matter what the consequences, you and I were meant to be. Maybe the relationships we were in before helped make ours so special. Yours had all the fiery passion but none of the friendship, while mine was the reverse.
Because of the way those had turned out, we knew that both friendship and passion is needed to make a relationship work. We complete each other. Everything you can offer me, is exactly what is missing in my life and I love you so much for all that you have given me.
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I’ve got all I’ll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars.
I was so afraid of your reaction to my telling you how I felt. After everything I had done to you and your friends, I couldn’t assume that you felt the same way. I was terrified of losing your friendship, but as I held you in my arms after that vampire attack, I couldn’t stop myself from telling you how much you meant to me. The words just poured forth. When I looked down at you, I could see your mind trying to take everything in. Your emotions playing on your face. I could see the doubts in your eyes, but I also saw the hope, so I did the only thing I could think of to convince you of my sincerity. I kissed you. I had only meant to make it a light kiss, but when our lips met, it was like fire. I had never had someone effect me the way you do in all my life, both mortal and vampire. I think this is the reason for my continued existence. Why I could never bring myself to meet the sunrise. As I sit here, you curled up in my arms, I for once am thankful for my immortality, because it has allowed me to meet you.
Soft moonlight on you face oh how you shine
It takes my breathe away
Just to look into your eyes
As I sit in front of the fire, your arms wrapped around me, I try to remember a time when I wasn’t this content, but I can’t. Everything before you and I seems to have disappeared. My childhood crush on my best friend. The insults always thrown my way. None of it seems to matter anymore. I just think of you and it all vanishes. You make me feel so secure. Safe. I’ve never seen you in the sunlight, but I don’t regret it. The two of us are made for the night. The darkness welcomes us because it’s magickal, just as we are. After everything that we have gone through, the brightness of the sun seems to hurt. It is easier for people to hide from the world during the day. It’s only at night that the truth comes out. It’s at night that we thrive. I can see the night in your eyes. It’s always there, but there is also the light. You’ve told me often, that I have given you that light and I am proud that I have done so. You mean so much to me and I want to give you all that I am, no matter what the others say.
I know I don’t deserve a treasure like you
There really are no words
To show my gratitude
I know how much you love your friends and you’re afraid of the reaction tomorrow when we tell them about us. Especially Buffy and Oz. I’m afraid that they will make you choose between them. I know you would refuse to make that choice, but I can’t but feel a small pang of guilt when I think of everything that you have had to give up because of me. I’ve tried to show you how much you mean to me and I hope that you understand that there will never be anyone other than you. I will do everything I can to make tomorrow easier on you. I wonder if any of them even suspect anything. You’ve told me often that they still see you as the little hacker and that surprises me. How could they miss the woman that you have become? Self-confident and strong are only two of the words that I would use to describe you. Fiery and sexy are two others. You’ve changed so much since that first time I saw you and my love for you grows more each day.
I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doing
When he joined these two hearts.
Tomorrow is going to come much too soon. They’re going to react badly. She’s going to try and hurt him, I know it. And, goddess, Oz is going to be so upset. He was so hurt when I broke up with him. This is not going to be easy, but as long as he is by my side, I’ll get through it. Just his presence makes me feel better. When he’s holding my hand, I feel like I can take on the world. Besides if they are really my friends they’ll be happy for me. They’ll be glad that the two of us are together, because it’s what’s right.
Fate brought us together and who are we to argue with the Fates. If they think about it, it’s only natural that we love each other. One completes the other. His darkness to my light. His quiet power to my bubbling exuberance. While we are opposites we are the same. We finish each other’s sentences. We don’t need words to communicate. How many can say that about their significant other? We are meant to be.
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I’ve got all I’ll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars
She’s thinking again. I can always tell when that mind of hers is working overtime. She becomes quiet, but starts to squirm. I know what she’s thinking and I wish there was an easier way to deal with the coming events but she and I both want the others to know about us. We are both so tired of having to hide our love. I’m tired of having to hide my affection for her. I want to be able to walk into the Bronze, holding her hand and letting everyone know that she has claimed my heart for eternity. I want to be able to comfort her when they find out about another prophecy. I’m just glad that she feels the same way. After tomorrow there will be secrets. We tell them everything. About our love. About her moving in. And about her magick. There really will be no choice about that last one. They’ll have to know that she is so much more powerful than they ever thought. So powerful that she was able to anchor my soul permanately, which is very good because I have found complete happiness in her arms.
It was no accident me finding you
Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew
The Fates smiled down on the unusual couple sitting in front of the fireplace. They had a purpose for bringing the two of them together. The Fates had thought that their plan had gone awry when he had fallen for another, but eventually, things sorted themselves out. They knew that the two people who had stolen their hearts were something special and that the world will be a much better place because of their love. They knew that the time had come to leave the couple alone, but waited long enough to hear the words that were spoken between the two lovers.
"I love you Willow."
"And I love you, Angel."
The End