R/NC-17ish
Disclaimer: Until my minions have successfully kidnapped Joss and make him hand over the rights over to me, BtVS belong to him
Summary: Angelus needs one true moment of happiness to get his soul back and of course there are repercussions also gonna put some songs in.
Paring: Willow/ Angel(us)
Feedback: Always!
Dedication: To anyone who read What if? And didn't hate it.
Author's note: This part is an alternative ending to the episode "Surprise"
scratch that this is the way "Surprise" * should * have gone
Prologue
I love you. Did you know that? Of course not, if you did you would turn and run the other way. As it should be. I don't deserve even the chance to love you. I do, I can't help it. It's an instinct. I know it's wrong and maybe if I were stronger I would try to fight it, but I don't want to. I'm addicted to your presence. In some way I'm glad when a vampire attacks you. It gives me the chance to save you and then look directly into your eyes and ask you if you're okay. Then for only a second you look into my eyes and smile and thank me for saving your life. I live for those moments they make me realize that my existence is not pointless that I am here to protect you. That's what I am, your own personal protector. Each night I make sure that Buffy gets her patrol done on time so she can walk you home when your studying late or researching on the latest demon. I would do it myself but I don't trust myself alone with you. I make sure you're safe no one can hurt you. Not even me.
That's the real reason I'm with Buffy. When I am with her my demon and I fight. He is repulsed by her touch, it's a kind of torture I use on him to keep me in control.
When I'm with you we fight for a different reason. We both want you. I have to be careful when I'm around you, one step to close or if I smell your scent for one more second I could lose control. I can feel him plotting, waiting for a mere moment for me to lose control and for him to come out again. He would take you and make you his.
I can't let that happen. You're too innocent too gentle too beautiful. You deserve so much more that what I can give you, what anyone can give you for that matter. I really don't know why you're with Oz he's alright, but he's always touring and leaving town. It takes every bit of will I have not to find him and rip his throat out every time you miss him. If you were mine I would never leave your side I would
No, I can't think like that. That's when * he * starts taking control. Listen to me I'm a 247 year old vampire and I'm mooning over a sixteen year old girl. You're not just a girl, you are a goddess my fire goddess. The one whom I adore and love. Would you listen to me? I'm rambling not in the cute way you do though.
God, I love you.
Buffy and I are in my apartment now sitting on my bed. "Just kiss
me" she says. I do what I always do. In my mind's eyes the girl before
me no longer has blond hair, it's red now, her skin isn't tan but like
porcelain her eyes aren't blue there green like emeralds.
She's you.
I kiss you feeling your tongue with mine. I want you so much. Our clothes come off soon and I lay you down on the bed. I kiss your neck and you moan throwing your arms around me and say my name. I lay a trail of kisses down your neck and I kiss your breasts, I suck on our nipples as you spread you legs for me. I thrust into you and you scream urging me onward. I go faster and faster wanting you to climax with me I want give you pleasure. I want to make you happy. You thrust back wanting it too.
"WILLOW!" I cry out and collapse.
You make me so
happy.
****
Chapter 1
"I've found something!" Willow proclaimed triumphantly.
"What have you found?" Xander asked while eating yet another ding-dong his girl friend Cordelia raised an eye paying attention she would have done anything to stop researching. Buffy had stopped from her workout to listen. "A way to reverse the curse on Angel I mean Angelus" Willow said.
"Really you can bring his soul back? I can have my Angel!" Buffy said.
"Well it's not that kind of reversing spell. I can put a spell on Angelus, if he has one true moment of happiness he gets his soul back" Willow said.
"You mean no more kill kill, grr grr anymore" Cordelia said happily. Angelus was responsible for killing at lest ten people and no knew the extent of damage his gang had done. Angelus had only been around for a couple weeks and everyone knew things would only get worse until something was done.
"Hold on here, how exactly is Angelus going to get one true moment of happiness?" Jenny Calendar asked.
"Duh, the same way that Angel did. I'll just go patrolling in the grave yard in a mini-skirt and let nature take it's course" Buffy said mentally planning her outfit.
"Self absorbed much?" Cordelia commented.
"Great, Angel takes on a new psychopathic personality killing and maiming for the last few weeks and how to we punish him? Buffy has to give him a happy, remind me to turn evil one of these days. Ow- I was just kidding Cordy" Xander said rubbing his shoulder, Delia could hit hard.
"I absolutely forbid it" Giles said.
"Why? It's the perfect solution" Buffy said.
"Willow you are a witch just discovering her powers we have no idea what you can and cannot handle. Besides gypsy magick is highly volatile and we don't know the consequences of using this kind of magic " Giles explained. Jenny nodded "He's right I'm a descendent from the same gypsies who cursed him and I have difficulty using magic" she said.
"Who cares what you can do? Willow wants to do it and she should" Buffy declared.
"Buffy I don't think you've thought this through. This could be very dangerous also we don't know if Angelus is attracted to you the same way, Angel was"
"You just don't want me to me to be happy! You want me to be the Slayer 24-7 and protect you people and this stupid town" Buffy spat and walked out.
"Buffy" Willow cried and went after her.
"Buffy come back. Giles and Jenny don't want any of us to get hurt that's all. I'm sure once they seem I'm ready to do the spell they'll let me do it" she said.
"You don't understand you have Oz. I have no one. Every night I go out patrolling and protect the innocent and save your lives on a weekly basis. All I ask for in return is for you to do a little spell and you won't even do it" Buffy said playing the black mail card.
"Of course I would! After all you've done for us it's the least I can do" Willow said.
"Great when do
we start?" Buffy smiled knowing she had won.
****
<I shouldn't feel bad I was helping a friend> Willow thought, she had been feeling guilty about disobeying Giles. She had done the spell during lunch while Giles and Jenny were in the faulty lunchroom. Now Buffy had to play her part and say hello to Soulboy again.
<I'm sure Giles won't be too mad he'll realize I was doing it for Buffy.? Was she? Of course she wasn't doing it for herself. Sure she would love to see Angel again. Angel her friend. Willow would never let herself think of him more than that. It was ludicrous, she the shy computer mouse and he the brooding vampire. Besides he had Buffy, but sometimes Willow fantasized that
<Stop>, she
told herself these thoughts would lead her nowhere and also they would
be unfair to Oz. Her first boyfriend, she wasn't counting the computer
demon. He was in a band, which was a very cool thing. Sometimes, Willow
wished he wasn't in a band he was always touring a lot. At the thought
of Oz, Willow walked faster home for her usual present. It was their six
month anniversary she had been a little disappointed when all he sent her
was a card and some pez. But then he had more than made up for it
the next day. There on her bed was covered in rare and exotic flowers with
a note. The next day a box of expensive chocolates and another note
each day there was something waiting for her on her bed. She had no idea
how he was doing she had meant to ask him but whenever she tried to call
him the phone was always busy. Willow rushed up to her room to see
what was in her room today. There in the middle of her bed was the
most adorable teddy bear she had ever seen. It was so soft Willow
couldn't help but cuddle out. The bear was holding a box and a note.
She opened the box first and gasped. It was necklace with a diamond
chain in the middle was a ruby as large as her thumb nail. Oz must have
robbed a back to afford this Willow thought. She opened the note and read.
I'm coming for you, tonight.
Your soon to be lover
Your soon to be lover? Willow read again. She and Oz had talked about taking the next step in their relationship but decided that they would make a decision when he came back. Willow felt like the oldest virgin in Sunnydale. She knew what Cordelia and Xander was doing were doing in the janitor's closet, Giles and Jenny were definitely getting it on, and Angelus living proof that Buffy and Angel had sex.
Was she ready?
Yes, she was. Willow wanted to take the next step. Making the decision Willow felt better and then giddy. She was going to have sex! Willow wanted to call Buffy but the sun was setting and she would be going out patrolling/seducing Angelus. I need to get ready she thought. She in such a good mood now turning on the radio not caring what radio station and turning it on full blast she stepped into the shower.
"For all you Blue Eyes fans out there here's "Black magic" "
That old black magic has me in its spell,
That old black magic that you weave so well
Those icy fingers up and down my spine,
The same old witchcraft when your eyes meet mine,
The same old tingle that I feel inside
And then that elevator starts its slide,
Down and down I go,
Round and round I go,
Willow stepped out of the shower putting on a robe she dried and brushed
her hair until is shone. Looking through her closet reaching all the way
in the back she pulled out a dress that she never thought she would wear.
It was red with black lace on top, it was sleeveless the kind of dress
meant to be worn with out a bra, the back was all straps giving an almost
a full view of her back. Putting it on she looked at herself I hope
Oz likes it. Putting on the necklace as the finishing touch.
Like a leaf that's caught in the tide.
I should stay away but what can I do,
I hear your name, and I'm aflame,
A flame with such a burning desire,
That only your kiss can put out the fire.
'Cause you're the lover I have waited for,
The mate that fate had me created for,
And every time you lips meet mine,
Darling, down and down I go,
Round and round I go,
In that spin of love that I am in,
Willow heard a noise downstairs. Oz is here already? How could that
be I'm sure I locked the front door. Taking a stake out the drawer
she went downstairs the front door was open. Looking around she saw
nothing, the wind she concluded and closed the door. Willow turned around
and dropped the stake.
"Hello Kitten"
Under that old black of love.
Chapter 2
I wanna make you holler
Imagine us together (let me see you holler)
Don't be afraid to play my game..
Goddess he's going to kill me I need to call the others, how? I need
to think of a plan.
Come and let me take you to my fantasy room
Your gonna like it there and all the things that I'll do
I'll treat ya right all through the night
We can do anything
I'll take you all the places you wanna be (I'll take you there, I'll take you there)
I'll be your fantasy, everything you want you will find in me
If you play my game
I wanna make you holler and hear you scream my name
I'll give you rules to follow so you can play my game
Imagine us together, be driving you insane
You will give into me, don't be afraid to play my game
So what ya gonna do? Now that I got ya with me
Okay if he wanted you dead he would have killed you by now. He probably wants to take you as a hostage and lure Buffy into a trap. That still doesn't mean he can't do nasty undead things to you.
Start from the bottom and work your way up slowly
Don't be afraid to play my game
We can go all night long
Doing things you thought you would never do ( I won't tell nobody)
I won't tell anyone, what we do its just for me and you
So come and play my game.
Goddess he's coming! Willow thought in fear.
We can go all night long
Doing things you thought you would never do ( and I won't tell)
I won't tell anyone, cos everything is just between me and you
But you gotta play my game
I wanna make you holler and hear you scream my name
I'll give you rules to follow so you can play my game
Imagine us together, be driving you insane
You will give into me, don't be afraid to play my game.
Damn radio was still on. That was the least of her problems right now. Willow's mind screamed for her to run but her body was frozen in fear. Angelus's eyes raked over Willow's body. "I love the dress Kitten. I always knew you were a goddess underneath all that fuz" he said coming closer. He put his hands on each side of her, trapping her against the door. Willow opened her mouth to say something but never got the chance. Angelus's mouth covered hers, his tongue slipping into her mouth taking her by surprise, even more to her surprise she as kissing back reaching for his tongue with her own. Angelus pulled back slightly and smiled he hadn't expected things to go this easy, then again it was Willow's destiny to be by his side there was no real point in fighting. He traced the top half of her breasts with his finger, leaving a trail of goose bumps. Willow shivered making Angelus chuckle he looked at her neck. "I'm glad you like the necklace Kitten I knew it was meant for you the second I saw it" he said. Willow eyes widened " * You * sent it I thought "
"You thought what?" Angelus's face darkened.
"I thought Oz sent it with the note" Willow said softly. The grip on her arms was so tight Willow was sure that there would be bruises. His game face was on. "Well you were wrong Kitten. It was me, it's always been me. Wanting you, needing you and I'm going to have you" he yanked her closer to his body as he opened the door. Angelus was practically carrying her with one arm around her waist in a grasp so strong Willow found it hard to breath. She would have screamed, then thought better of it, she didn't want to make him any angrier than he already was.
They entered the mansion Willow she saw some vampires as she was whirled through the hallways of the mansion. Finally they reached their destination outside a door was a vampire who looked about twenty-five but with vamps you could never tell. "Master everything is as you requested" the vampire said.
"Good. Where are Spike and Dru?" Angelus asked.
"They are out hunting Master"
"No one is to disturb me not even my childer" the "or else" didn't need to be said. The vamp nodded and stepped out of the way. Smiling Angelus opened the door and set Willow down. Walking away few steps she looked all around the room. It was candle lit and there was some jasmine scent in the air. Of course the main attraction was the bed, the old-fashioned four-poster bed kind with black satin sheets and rose petals on top. If Willow hadn't been afraid she would have found her surroundings very romantic.
The spell! She had forgotten all about it. It wouldn't even have a chance of working if Angelus's didn't have one true moment of happiness. "Hey, Angelus don't you want to go to the graveyard?" she asked, if anything this would but her time.
"Why would I want to go there, Kitten?" he was slightly confused now.
"Buffy's going to be there in a mini" Willow said hoping that would catch his interest.
"I repeat why would I want to go there? When the one I want is right here" he said.
"ME? You want me?" Willow stated. In her heart of hearts she had always fantasized about her and Angel but never in her wildest dreams had she ever thought about Angelus wanting her.
"More than you know" he said his lust filled gaze made her blush and she dropped her head to the floor. Staring at it she noticed something there was a marking on it stepping back she saw what it was. A huge pentagram the bed was at the center of it.
"Angelus what is this?" Willow said pointing to the floor.
"It's for the ceremony" he said casually.
"What ceremony?"
"I love you Kitten and I want you with me for the rest of the eternity. Here's the problem if I turn you into a vampire you wouldn't be Willow anymore you would be a demon. This ceremony lets me take on a human mate" Angelus explained.
"What exactly do you mean by mate?" Willow said taking a step back for every step he was taking toward her.
"We will be linked. You won't age and you will live for as long as I do. We'll never be apart" he said with a smile.
"What if I don't wanna be your mate?" Willow questioned.
"Do you think you have choice?" Angelus said in a dangerous voice. Willow gulped well the answer was obvious. Not knowing what else to do she ran for the door, she knew it was stupid, desperation made you do stupid things. Her hand was about to touch the doorknob, when she felt an arm grab her waist.
"Bad move Kitten" Angelus said he was angry now, Willow could see his game face was back on. With his free hand he tore the straps of the dress with nothing to hold it together it began to fall from the front revealing the skin from her neck to her waist. Angelus smiled as he ripped the lower part of the dress ignoring Willow's protests, her simple cotton underwear tore off easily. He threw her on to the bed. Willow flushed with embarrassment and tried to cover herself with her hands. Angelus growled and put her hands over her head, giving him a full view of her naked body. His game face melted off as he took off his shirt. Willow almost forgot her fear while admiring his muscled chest. His pants were off now and he got back on the bed. Willow's emotions were jumbled into a mix of fear, confusion and most of all passion.
Gradually he forced her thighs apart and positioned himself between her legs. Willow could feel his erection against her. She squirmed making him even harder. Angelus bending down and pressing his body on hers he kissed her, his tongue taking captive of her mouth. He could smell her arousal now he was very aware of the growing wetness in between her thighs. Removing his mouth from hers he licked the skin of her throat going down further to her breast swirling his tongue around her nipple and then giving the other breast the same treatment.
Willow was on fire she unconsciously rubbed her sex against his cock and threaded her fingers through his hair. Moaning Willow urged Angelus on as he parted her folds with his hand and began to rub her clit gently she felt something build up inside of her ready to explode. "Please" she whimpered. Seeing the need in her eyes Angelus knew he had her.
He bit her at the same time her trust into her. The pain was gone quickly replaced by pleasure, in the time it took for her to get used to her being in her. Angelus cut him self on the side of his throat. "Drink" he ordered. Willow obeyed at that moment she would have done anything for him. His blood didn't taste bad at all, it tasted sweet, Willow licked the cut clean. She could hear him chanting some words she didn't understand as he pumped into her. Willow began to move her hips wanting more of him inside her. Now all Willow was hearing was inhuman growls she barely noticed the pentagram on the floor glowing with the completion of the spell. Willow wrapped her legs around his waste and was thrusting as hard as he was. Closing her eyes, she needed something she couldn't quite describe. She needed
Wave after wave
of orgasms hit her, she cold feel his cold seed spilling into her. "WILLOW"
she opened her eyes to see his eyes blazing into a gold color.
That was the last thing she remembered before she fell unconscious.
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Chapter 3
Just keep your eyes closed as long as you don't see, it not real. This is all just one big nightmare; well not all a nightmare having incredibly hot sex with Angelus was fabulous. No! Bad thoughts go away! Willow commanded herself. She had been awake for an hour now and refused to open her eyes. Somehow not seeing that she was in the mansion and in bed with Angelus, who was possibly Angel depending on if the spell worked or not, would not make it real. Deciding that she was going to have to face reality sooner or later Willow opened her eyes.
The first thing she was * him * with his dark hair and perfect body. He was still asleep he almost looked innocent Willow thought. Looking around she saw the door it was locked but she could break it with a spell, even if she got through that there would be minions waiting outside. Since that was no longer and option a shower seemed like a good idea, she felt sore and ached in strange places. Careful not to disturb him Willow got up and headed towards the bathroom. Turning on the light Willow looked at herself in the mirror, her hair was a mess, her arms were bruised from were Angelus grabbed her, on her neck was a bite mark it still looked fresh. Willow winced as she touched it.
Somehow the walk from the bed to the bathroom drained all her energy. I'm so tired maybe I should go back to bad, NO bad idea take shower she thought. Turning on the water to the hottest temperature and stepped in. The shower didn't help her feel better it made her feel sleepier. Willow couldn't see where the soap was through all the steam the hot water was producing. She was about to go unconscious when the shower curtain opened.
"Willow" it was
Angel she knew it the second he said her name. "Oh god what have
I done?" Angel stared at her bruises and then he saw her bite mark.
The mark that claimed her as his. Willow collapsed Angel caught her
he positioned her body against his and took the soap and began to lather
her creamy skin. "Angel.." she murmured. "Shh let me help you little
one" he said in a soothing tone. Willow closed her eyes and nodded.
Angel was hesitant about washing the dried blood between her thighs, he
did it very quickly yet still being very tender. Taking the shampoo he
lathered her hair after washing that out, Angel turned off the shower and
wrapped her in a towel. He carried her over to the bed and began to dry
her starting from her feet and working his was up by the time he got to
her arms Willow was asleep.
When Willow woke up she was alone. She remembered what happened Angel found her in the shower and took care of her. Angel. The spell worked! Wait what about the other spell? Were they mates? Sure at this very moment she wanted to feel him inside her but that was just lust wasn't it?
The door opened, it was Angel in his hand was a stake. "Um I took care of the minions" he seemed uncomfortable around her he wouldn't look at her.
"What about Spike and Dru?" she asked in a small voice she wouldn't look at him either.
"Dru took one look and said something about me not being her daddy anymore she and Spike took off. I don't think they'll come back" he said.
"Oh" was all Willow could think of to say, well that wasn't true she could think of a lot of things to say.
"We should go see the others maybe they could help us sort this out" Angel said, he didn't trust himself alone with her. There she was naked in his bed he wanted to put his scent back on her.
"I can tell you that. I put a spell on you if Angelus ever had one moment of happiness then your soul would come back permanently" she explained.
"Thank you" he said simply Willow nodded understanding.
"Um what about the whole mate thing I mean are we mates or what?" Willow said.
"I don't know I remember Angelus looking up the spell I can't remember the details" Angel said, his memories of what Angelus did were fuzzy at best, all except for the part of dragging Willow off and making her his mate * that * her remembered clearly.
"You're right we should go" Willow said. Walking up she wrapped a sheet around her. Her dress was on the floor ripped to shreds she could even find her underwear. Seeing her dilemma Angel went into the closet and fetched her black leather pants and a black silk top. It was the same outfit he was wearing.
"Here" he said handing the clothes to her. Willow went to the bathroom. The clothes were too big the shirt kept falling off her shoulder and every time she pulled it forward the neckline would plunge down.
"I'm ready " she said. Angel nodded and opened the door for her.
He still wouldn't look at her.
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Chapter 4
She must hate me, Angel thought. Willow, sweet beautiful Willow who had her whole life ahead of her was tied to him forever. She deserved better, a lover who could walk out in the sun, some one who had warm skin, some one who didn't have all this baggage attached to him. Still a part of him was overjoyed knowing that she would live forever he would never have to see her grow old and die. Another part lived in fear he had enemies, very powerful ones by being his mate Willow became a target. They may not be able to kill her some things are worse than death. Her life will never be the same again and it's all my fault Angel thought.
He must hate me Willow thought. Here he is and all he wants to do is be with Buffy the true love of his un-life and he's stuck with me for the rest of forever. He can't even stand the sight of me. Oz! Goddess what am I going to tell him? Willow thought Honey there's a really funny story I have to tell you. I'm Angel's mate now and you won't believe how * that * happened. So considering the circumstances I think we should break up oh and let's still be friends.
They both headed for the school. Angel walked behind Willow close enough to reach her if some baddie came out to attack her but far enough to be no where near touching her. In the library the whole gang was there.
"Willow where have you been? I tried calling you last night and you didn't come to school" Giles said concerned.
"What's with the leather look?" Cordelia would have said more when Angel came out from the shadows.
"Willow look out Angelus is behind you!" Xander cried out.
"He's Angel now you guys don't have to worry" Willow said trying to calm them all down.
"How do you know that?" Jenny asked realizing she was right if he were Angelus they would all be dead by now.
"I did the spell you and Giles told me not to do and it worked" Willow said in a small voice.
"Wait a minute that means deadboy had a moment happiness and Buffy was patrolling with us last night so she couldn't have " Xander trailed off putting two and two together.
"You bloody bastard!" Giles swore.
"It wasn't him it was Angelus, there not the same person" Willow said defending Angel. All this time Buffy was silent everyone now turned to her to see her reaction. I see right through you little bitch, you planned this all along you think you can take him from me Buffy thought, well you're not as smart as you think you are.
"All that matters is that Angel's back and that we can be together" she said.
"There's another problem, when I was Angelus I mated with Willow" Angel said.
"What exactly does mated mean?" Buffy asked in a tight voice.
"It means that Willow will never grow old and never die unless Angel does. There are only four accounts of a vampire taking on a human mate. I'll go look them up" Giles said grateful for the excuse to leave the room he need a drink preferably scotch.
"Willow sit down you've been through a lot" Jenny said.
"Yeah doing the horizontal mambo must take a lot out of you" Cordelia said.
"Eww nasty mental image thanks Delia" Xander said. Willow smiled well this was the best she could have hoped for. It was almost like a regular Scooby meeting Willow took a seat and Angel stood behind her almost as if he was guarding her. Giles came out with some books and the gang began to research all except for Buffy who was already planning on how to get herself back into Angel's arms.
This wasn't over
not by a long shot.
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Chapter 5
They had been researching for three hours and for three hours Angel and Willow didn't say a word to each other.
"Here it is" Ms Calendar said. "What does it say?" Willow asked eagerly. "According to this you and Angel are mates but you haven't completed the ceremony" she said.
"What do you mean?" Angel asked.
"Don't get me wrong you two are mated there's no way to reverse that. The first time you make love it results in a physical link, you have to make love a second time to make the mental link and a third time to make the link spiritual and complete" Jenny read from the book. There's no way that's going to happen Buffy thought trying to move closer to Angel.
"That means Willow can go on with her life I mean she can still see Oz and Angel and I can be together" Buffy said.
"I suppose so. There has never been the case were the link hasn't been completed" Giles said looking at the record book.
"Well there's a first for everything. Willow you look tired why don't you go home" Buffy practically ordering her.
"I'll drive you home" Jenny said and Willow nodded leaving with her. Angel stared after her he didn't notice as Buffy latched on to his arm.
"It's a good thing her parents aren't home" Xander said.
"She's so lucky! If my parents were in Europe I could throw so many parties" Cordelia commented, yes Willow was a lucky girl in more ways than one.
"She's home alone?" Angel said a little shocked no wonder it was easy for Angelus to come and kidnap her, then again that probably was a good thing since he would have killed anyone who stood in the way of him and Willow. Presently being alone was not an advantage it put Willow in a lot of danger especially here in Sunnydale.
"Her parents
are never home. She's used to being alone. Hey Angel where are you going?"
Buffy cried as he shrugged of her arm and marched towards the Rosenberg
home.
"I know you've been experienced a lot in the last twenty four hours. I truly believe everything will work out for the best" Jenny said turning left. Willow smiled slightly "Thanks I hope so" she said the car stopped at the drive way and Willow got out.
"Bye I'll see you at school tomorrow" she said.
The door was still busted from when Angelus was there. Willow was surprised that burglars hadn't come. They could she thought, any number of monsters could come stomping in. She began to get scared this is silly I've been alone more times than I can count. I'll be fine she told herself. Making her way to the bedroom she was stunned to see Angel there.
"Pack a bag you'll be living with me from now on" he said his voice sounded harsher than he had meant it to sound. Great going could that have sounded anymore like a command he thought. He wouldn't have a problem living at her house except there were way too many windows.
"Ok" she said and pulled out a suitcase from under the bag and began to pack. Perfect she thought a few hours as your mate and Angel's already taking care of you when he could be with Buffy. Still I'm glad I won't be alone. Willow finished quickly taking only a few days worth of clothes, toothbrush, labtop and a few pictures she figured she could come back in the day to get the rest of her things.
"All set" she said. Angel took her suitcases for her. They were at the mansion in fifteen minutes.
"You can have any of the rooms" Angel said. Why won't you look at me? Willow thought I know I'm not Buffy. Am I that repulsive?
"Thanks" she said taking the room across from his. Angel opened the door and collapsed on the bed. It had been a long night. Taking a deep unneeded breath he inhaled the scent of Willow. Despite the fact that he was tired he couldn't fall asleep he was slightly cold. He needed Willow. He tossed and turned in the bed for almost and hour when the door opened. "Angel I can't sleep um can I sleep with you. It's okay if you don't want to I understand in fact I'll go back to my room have a good night" she rambled
"Willow come back, it's okay" it was there link. He needed her warmth and she needed his coldness. As she stepped closer Angel could see she was wearing light blue cotton pajamas. Pajamas never looked so sexy. Willow's eyes widened at the sight of him, she could see his chest clearly and the sheet was a little below his waist. Angel was naked. That didn't seem to bother Angel who was staring at Willow. At least he's looking at me she thought. Willow slipped into the bed trying not to notice that he was naked, she needed to be with him.
Angel couldn't
help it he wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her near, throwing
one leg over her he nuzzled the back of her neck. Feeling his coldness
made her feel less fidgety. Feeling her warmth made him feel less restless.
They were both soothed. Even with the major physical contact sex
was not on the agenda for tonight. They simply slept, content to
be in each others embrace. It was enough, for now.
****
Chapter 6
It was actually Buffy's idea for them all to go out to the Bronze tonight. Willow was surprised on how well Buffy was taking this all. She's that confident on Angel's love for her, Willow thought. She had been living with Angel for almost two weeks. He always treated politely asking how her day was, trying to make friendly conversation with her. He never asked or said anything personal. Neither did Willow she was afraid of breaking their delicate friendship/half-way-mates relationship so there was never any real substance said, still it was more than she ever got at home. Everyday she knew there was someone waiting for her some one who cared. Come to think of it Angel had always been there for me, Willow thought as she entered the Bronze with him.
Cordelia was there, wearing a short red dress with straps looking attractive as always. Next to her was Buffy her outfit was beyond sluty. She wore a black skirt so short there was really no point in wearing it, a tight brown halter-top that gave anyone who cared and didn't care to look a view of nearly all of her bosom. "Angel!" she squealed and hugged him almost pushing Willow out of the way.
"Let's dance"
she said and led him out to the dance floor before he could respond.
This was part one of Buffy's plan to get Willow out of the way. The
music was so loud everyone could feel the beat.
He loves me, He loves you not.
He loves me, He loves me not.
He loves me, He loves YOU not.
HE LOVES YOU NOT.
Give it your all girl, give it all ya got.
Take your chance take your best shot.
Say what you want girl, Do what you do.
He's never gonna, gonna make it with you.
Pulling petals off a flower trying to get your way.
Keep pulling til' it says what you want it to say.
Girl you can pick a field full of daisies,
But he'd still be my baby.
Instinctively, I know what you're thinking,
You'll be giving him an open invitation,
But my baby won't be taken in.
It was a fast song but Buffy clang to him as if it were a slow dance.
Willow felt a pang in her heart. I'm jealous, I'm truly jealous no one
should be allowed to touch my mate. NO ONE. Willow stopped herself
before she got up. Calm down it's just the link. Think Willow
your good at that you would never have had the feelings if not for the
link. Right?
You can pout your cherry lips,
Try to tempt him with a sweet kiss.
You can flirt your pretty eyes,
He ain't got his hands tied.
No chains to unlock,
So free to do what he wants.
He's into what he's got.
He loves me, he loves you not.
No matter what you do, he's never gonna be with you.
He loves me, he loves you not.
You're the kind of girl that is always up for do or dare.
Only want him just because he's there.
Always looking for a new ride,
The grass is greener on the other side.
You're the kind of girl who's not use to hearing no, (no)
All your lovers try to take you where you wanna go. (go)
It doesn't matter how hard you try, you're never gonna get with my guy.
If I needed air I would be unconscious now and that would be better
than this, Angel thought. Buffy had him in a Slayer death grip, she
was rubbing her body against in an attempt to turn him on. It was having
the opposite effect. He couldn't even pretend she was Willow. He
had the real thing it was impossible to go back to a cheap imitation. His
demon was screaming at him. Go back to Willow he said. Angel wanted
to badly. He wouldn't push her he promised himself. She had broken up with
Oz a few daze ago, he could wait until she was completely over the werewolf.
He would have all of eternity with her. At the thought Angel smiled.
Buffy saw the smile and assumed it was for her.
No chains to unlock,
So free to do what he wants,
He's into what he's got( that's me )
He loves me, He loves you not.
No matter what you do, he is never gonna be with you.
He loves me, he loves you not.
Doesn't matter what you do,
He's never gonna be with you.
Give it your all girl, give it all ya got.
You can take your chance, take your best shot.
Say what you want girl, do what you do.
He's never gonna make it with you.
"Are you okay? You looked liked you were in pain for a second there" Cordelia said, then she looked at what Willow was looking at. Angel smiling a Buffy.
"That outfit is really skanky and coming from me that's real insult" Delia observed.
"I'm sorry what did you say?" Willow tore her gaze from Angel and Buffy.
"I said- never mind. How are you doing living with Angel and all? I wonder what he wears to bed?" she said.
"Nothing" Willow answered without thinking. Cordelia smiled "Go Wills! So you guys full mates now?"
"It's nothing like that. We sleep together literally, I wear pajamas"
"You expect me to believe you sleep in the same bed together one of you naked and there is no pelvic action at all"
"I told you it's not like that. The link between us is complicated, weird, hard to deal with" Willow said there were really no words to describe their link.
"It your looking for sympathy you won't find any. Here you are mated to a gorgeous vampire who worships the ground you walk on. To top that all off, you're going to be young and beautiful forever. Hey maybe I should get me a vamp, no I love Xander too much. Don't you * dare * tell him I said that" Cordelia warned. Willow stuck her two fingers off. "Scout honor" she said and couldn't help smiling.
"Hey I heard my name. What are you guys talking about?" Xander said coming from behind Willow.
"You're late! Come on let's dance. I'll talk to you later Wills" Cordelia
said. With no one to talk to Willow looked at Angel and Buffy. Is
it my imagination or dose Angel look uncomfortable? Willow thought.
You can pout your cherry lips ( yeah )
Try to tempt him with a sweet kiss ( sweet kiss )
You can flirt your pretty eyes ( pretty eyes )
He ain't got his hands tied.
Good she's looking Buffy thought. Thanks to Slayer speed she caught
Angel off guard with a kiss. He was to surprised to push her away
at first. Keeping his lips shut he neither gave nor took from the
kiss. Buffy might as well kiss a cold fish for all the participation
she was getting. Nevertheless it did its job. Willow saw.
No chains to unlock,
So free to do what he wants.
He's into what he's got,
He loves me, he loves you not.
No matter what you do, he's never gonna be with you.
He is into what he's got,
Willow looked away not wanting anyone to see the tears in her eyes.
She couldn't leave the others would notice. She had to stay and endure
this.
He loves me, He loves you not
He loves me, He loves you not
He loves me, He loves you not
The words echoed in Willow's mind.
****
Chapter 7
It's perfectly clear that Angel wants to be with Buffy and I'm only standing in the way, Willow thought. The kiss at the Bronze proved it. Willow shook her head, she needed to concentrate she was researching for Giles at the library.
"Hey Willow!" Buffy said as she entered with a smile on her face. It was time to rid herself of the red-headed bitch.
"Hey Buffy, Giles will be here soon he told me he'd be late for practice" Willow said.
"Good it will give us time to talk we haven't done that in the longest time. With me patrolling and protecting the town it doesn't leave a lot of time to socialize. That's why I'm so glad to have Angel he understands completely he's so unselfish"
"Yeah he is" Willow agreed, he had taken care of her made her feel safe.
"Still we don't have much time to be alone and when we are together we argue" Buffy said knowing Willow would take the bait.
"What do you argue about?" Willow asked.
"To be honest you" she said.
"Me? Why would you guys argue about me?" Willow said.
"Don't ask me where he got it from, but Angel seems to this weird idea that you're interested in him. Isn't that the funniest thing you've ever heard?" Buffy said.
"Where would he get and idea like that?" Willow asked weakly she tried to fight the tears in her eyes.
"He's says you think that because you two are one-third mates. With the whole physical link thing. Every time Angel looks at you, he feels soooooooo guilty. I told him I understand and that it's just the affect of the spell I know he would never really desire you. No offense"
"None taken, please continue" Willow said
"So anyway he seems to think that the same side effects are in you. Therefore you want him for yourself. Then I got mad and told him that you would never do that to me. First of all you're way to loyal a friend to think about Angel that way. Second you realize it was Angelus who wanted you not Angel. Both Giles and you said it yourselves Angelus is a completely different person. Angel would * never * do the things he did. Then he said " What about Willow breaking up with Oz" then I said "What about it? Willow was just tired of him touring all the time" that's exactly what I said. Then he went on to tell me how you force yourself on him sometimes. Angel feels * so * guilty about what Angelus did to you. He's trying to make it up to you by constantly protecting. So when you get a little too friendly he doesn't have the heart to tell you to back off. That's when I get really mad I tell him that Willow Rosenberg is my friend and she would never to that to me. He's been reading to much into things. Then he gets mad and tell me I don't understand it's the link it makes you both feel and do things you would never do normally. Angel says if things don't change soon that he's going to go to L.A and start over there. We yell some more and then walk off.
Willow he can't leave, he's my life. My friend, my partner my lover I can't live without him I don't think I'd want to. I lost him once I can't lose him again. If Angel's not here anymore helping me patrol some demon could sneak up behind me one night and kill me" Buffy let the tears slide.
"Buffy don't cry Angel loves you" it killed Willow to say those words. What that saying? The truth hurts.
"I know he does it's just all I know is that he can't leave it would be disastrous, for me and the whole town" Buffy was wiping the tears right before Giles came in.
"Buffy are you alright?" Giles said concerned.
"Yes" she said sniffed and then began to work out putting on a brave front.
"Willow did you finish?" Giles then turned to her .
"What? Um yes I need to go home right now I will see you later. Goodbye
Giles" Willow took a long look at him. This was the last time she would
see him before she left. Buffy smiled as she saw Willow walk out those
doors. She had won.
"What the hell is this supposed to mean!" Angel yelled the others stepped away from him as he worked himself into a rage. They all had to remind themselves that his soul was permanent. Angel was reading the letter for the thousandth time, keying in on certain phrases.
I'm doing what's best for both of us.
This link we have was causing us both trouble I know it wasn't your choice and no ones fault.
We both need separate lives.
Be happy.
Happy? How was he supposed to be happy without her? Angel thought. His demon was screaming at him again. * He * would have never left Willow slip away like this.
"This seems so unlike Willow, to simply run away" Jenny said clutching here own letter. Willow had written them all personal letters saying goodbye, for them not to worry and to be happy.
Maybe someone was afraid they were getting too close, Cordelia thought giving Buffy a dirty look. In her letter Willow explained to Cordelia why she left, in the letter it also begged Cordelia not to tell Angel. She knew it wasn't right but she kept her mouth shut, besides she couldn't tell Angel now he was way too angry to even think much less act.
"I didn't think she do it" Buffy said once again tearing up.
"Did she say something to you?" Xander asked it was so hard to believe Willow was gone she was the rock in his life the one who cared weather or not he passed Biology.
"I didn't think she was serious" Buffy said.
"Tell us what you know!" Angel barked at her making Buffy flinch for a second she thought he was going to hit her.
"Willow said that the link between you was horrible for her and that she hated the things she was feeling. She broke up with Oz the boy she truly loved because of it. She said it was too much for her she needed to get away. I didn't know she meant it I would have stopped her!" Buffy said. Angel turned away from her.
Willow left him of her own free will. Angel loved her so much it hurt to be without her. He was going to tell her that. He had been too confident he thought he could wait until she saw that he was the only one for her. He was wrong, now. Willow needed a normal life or at least semi-normal considering she was an immortal now. He couldn't give that to her. Now she was in search of someone who could.
"So she's gone Angel face facts what are you going to do about it?" Cordelia voice snapped him back to reality.
"The only thing I can" he said his voice was so barely a whisper.
"And that is?"
"Let her go"