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Summery: Angel reflects on a lost love. <sucky I know! But what ya gonna do?>
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I walk into the lair, its been a long time since I’ve felt the need to come to a vampires lair, what with the soul and everything, I’m the traitor, the outcast, not that it bothers me. The only reason I’m here is for her, my love, my goddess, my red. I know she is around here some where I can feel her, even after all this time, I can still feel her. She used to think that it was weird that I could tell where she was just by thinking about her.
Touched, you say that I am too
So much, of what you say is true
I’ll never find someone quite like you again
I’ll never find someone quite like you, like
you
I knew that she thought that a few things that I did were different from the “norm” but she accepted them, she was the only one that did, not even Buffy allowed me to accept and act the way I wanted when I was near her. I miss her. Sometimes I think when she left she hacked a part of my soul to take with her, either that or she planted herself within and her soul grew with mine, intertwining, mating, taking over. That’s what she did, she came, loved and let me love too. Not many people can say that they got the great Angelus to love, especially someone other then himself. I cannot rest now though, when she left I could not settle, I haven’t had a place that I could call home for ages. Nowhere is home without her.
The razors and the dying roses
Plead I don't leave you alone
The demi-gods and hungry ghosts
Oh god, god knows I’m not at home
That is how strong and important she was to me, she was me, she is me. I know that even if I spend eternity looking for another, they will never be her, but then I don’t want another, she is me, she completes, another wouldn’t, they could try, many have but they still lack the beauty and intelligence that she so greatly gave to my life.
I’ll never find someone quite like you again
I’ll never find someone quite like you again
When I round the corner I see her, she is with him, my demon roars, I knew this was going to happen but seeing it in front of me I want to kill them. I let my guards down and let them know I’m here, they look at me, at first they just stare, then when I move closer her face breaks out into a smile which used to be just for me, only for me. She turns her head and uses that same smile on him! Why? Damn everything. Why does she do this. She turns back towards me but stays sitting in his lap, turning her head but keeping her eyes on me she runs her tongue up his cheek, he closes his eyes in pleasure, that should be me, she should be running her tongue over me. She stands slowly, gliding her body off his, I watch as he smirks at me. I hate him, the ungrateful….my thoughts stop as she stands right in front of me, even after all this time she has not lost the beauty and innocence that I loved so much.
I, I looked into your eyes and saw
A world that does not exist
I looked into your eyes and saw
A world I wish I was in
She runs her hands up my chest, I purr softly and the smirk on her face grows larger, like a blossoming flower waking from its winter nap. How I’ve missed that face, the one I see every time I close my eyes. But even now when I look into her eyes, I know that she isn’t the same person that I fell in love with, they are cold, dead. I remember spending hours just looking into those eyes, and knowing that she was showing me her entire soul. Looking into them now, I see death, blood, lust, there is no love in those eyes, and definitely no love for me, she doesn’t feel love anymore, she can’t.
I’ll never find someone quite as touched as
you
I’ll never love someone quite the way
That I…
But looking into those golden eyes I know one thing, that when she stabs the stake into my un-beating heart and goes back to my childe, my feelings will never change, she is still my love, my life, my death.
Loved you
The End