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RATING: PG
DISCLAIMER: Joss, God of wonder and torture, and the rest of them.
SPOILERS:1st season Angel, 4th season Buffy.
DISTRIBUTION: Inertia; anyone else, just ask.
FEEDBACK: Please. I want to know if anyone finds this sad, or have I failed in my quest?
NOTE: Willow is dying and her time is near. She is with the one she loves for the last time - Angel.
-(name) - denotes who's narrating
Songwords © Trent Reznor.
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Staring at the sea
Will she come
Is there hope for me
After all is said and done
-Angel-
I have called her. Buffy's on her way. I watch the ocean water hit
the rocks in the beach below. I walk away from the hospital window, and
take my seat beside the bed. Willow looks at me with weary eyes, her sore
and cracked lips turn at me with a smile. Leaning forward, I take her hand
and try to stall the tears that threaten to fall.
Anything at any price
All of this for you
All the spoils of a wasted life
All of this for you
This is my fault that she is where she is. It's my fault that Willow lays here, slowly fading. I had brought her into this. I needed her help, but she got caught in too deeply. I damn my demon form - damn all of the vampires that walk this Earth. I want so much to grasp onto her so tightly to prevent the inevitable, as if I could make it could stop. I stare into her eyes.
"I love you." I whisper for her to hear.
All the world has closed her eyes
Tired faith all worn and thin
For all we could have done
And all we could have been
My body feels so tired. I wonder how long I can go on without her. I wipe the once firey-red hair away from her face, her eyes say the thankyou she can't manage to speak. I look at her, loving her. The time we've had together was more than I could wish for. She loved me so much, so much more than anyone I have ever known. I would wonder what I did to deserve this. Her bright smile always made my day, made the fight and continual battle seem easier to face. Always encouraging, she loved me whole, and I felt that way about her too.
Willow looks at me, knowing that I'm reminiscing. She frowns slightly at me, to discourage my 'brooding'. I can't help but chuckle - she's always had that effect on me. I stroke her face with my free hand, and I see the sparkle in her eyes. That lifts me for a second - I put that there.
Ocean pulls me close
And whispers in my ear
The destiny I've chosen
All becoming clear
The currents have their say
The time is drawing near
Washes me away
Makes me disappear
-Wilow-
The time is near. I can feel it now. I'm no longer afraid of death,
for I have stood before it many a time before. The only thing that keeps
me here is he, my love. Angel strokes my face, and I warm at his touch.
I want to cry, but I don't want him to see my tears fall. He's so strong.
I love him so much. I want to tell him to take care, but I can't find my
voice. I know Buffy will be here soon, but by then I will be gone. I watch
Angel, wanting to remember him in the time after. I don't know where I'm
going, but I know that I will be somewhere, watching him.
I squeeze his hand with the strength left in me. It's my signal - my goodbye. I try to lift my head up, but the pain and weight is too much. Angel sees this, and leans in further towards me. He gently lifts my head. His blood tears streak his face, and at the sight of this, mine start to flow.
I descend from grace
In arms of undertow
I will take my place
In the great below
"I love you." I muster with all the energy left in me.
"And I love you, forever sweet Willow." He whispers back.
He leans towards me as my eyes feel heavy and fall. I feel his lips on mine before it all fades to black.
I can still feel you
Even so far away
-Angel-
I kiss her lips. As I do so, I feel the last amount of life slip from
her body. I place her head gently back on the pillow, and sit on the bed.
My tears fall more freely now, Willow's not here to see them. I cover her
body with mine, and stain the sheets red. I can't believe my Willow is
gone. Her body lies limp under mine, but I can still feel her warmth. I
love her so much. And now she is gone.
After a few minutes, I regain composure, and standing, I cover her with her blanket. I kiss her forhead one last time, and make my way back to the window. A storm lulls over the sea. It seems appropriate now. The world has lost its finest creature. Though I know that she's not here, I can still feel her. Eventually a time will come when I can go join her.
I can still feel you
Even so far away
The End