Now or Never

Author: Tequesta

Co-Author: Epiphany (Part 1)

Rating: NC-17

Disclaimer: I own nothing. All the characters belong to the creator Joss Whedon. All bow down to Joss! And of course, Fox Networks, Mutant Enemy, UPN and WB.

Feedback: It's what I live for baby.

Pairing: Willow/Spike then Willow/Angelus.

Time Frame: Season 4. Willow hasn't met Tara and never will HAHAHA (evil laughter) it's my story I do what I want :p Oz just left and this is after Pangs, so Spike in being held hostage at Giles's house. But before Something Blue so no messed up My Will Be Done Spell. Yet. HEHEHEHE.

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~Part: 1~

"Could someone. . .please get me some blood. . .I'm so hungry." Spike asked pathetically.

"Not until you tell us about the commandos." Buffy replied, her voice echoing though the hallway into the bathroom where Spike was chained.

Spike rolled his eyes and lie back down.

 {It's no bloody use either way. She's going to kill after I tell her what I know. Which isn't a lot. Or I starve to death. Um. . .right.}

"S-L-A-Y-E-R! FUCKING FEED ME ALL ALREADY!" Spike screamed. "Bloody stupid bint" he mumbled.

Buffy emerged from the main room in Giles's house and appeared in the doorway of the bathroom. Looking extremely pissed off. Giles followed behind her.

"Buffy maybe we should feed him, it has been four days, even if it is Spike." Giles stated.

"Giles. ." Buffy began.

"Yeah what he said." Spike intervened.

" Shut up!" Both Buffy and Giles yelled together.

Giles and Buffy both began bickering back in forth, slowly making there way into the main room. Unbeknownst to them Willow had arrived and heard the whole fight. She quietly made her way into the kitchen and heated up some blood in a mug for Spike. She grabbed a straw and swept past the fighting duo and made her way into the bathroom.

{God, Buffy can be such a bitch sometimes. I mean I know this is Spike. But we're the good guys. We aren't supposed to starve our prisoners for info.}

Willow walked into the bathroom and kneeled down next the tub where chained Spike laid. He started to talk. But Willow put a finger to her lips telling him it was time for silence. She dropped the straw into the mug and put it near his face. He instantly went into game face from the smell of the blood. He sucked on the straw and looked at Willow.

{What does this chit thinks she's doin'. Feeding a Master Vampire at that. OH god, blood. Tastes so good. Even if it is pig's blood. I'm going to owe Red a favor for this.}

When Spike was done, Willow took back the mug and gave him an overall nice Willowy smile. And for some reason unknown to Spike he in return gave a genuinely nice smile back.

Willow heard that Buffy and Giles were done with their argument and quietly sneaked out of the bathroom, giving Spike a small wave first. She washed out the mug and dried it. Just as she finished Buffy came in mumbling about `stupid watcher' and `retarded vampire'.

"Hey Buffy. Is everything alright?" Willow asked.

"What? Oh yeah everything's just peachy." Buffy said.

"Whatcha doing?"

"I have to feed Spike. Cause Giles says so." Buffy rolled her eyes.

"If ya want I'll do it. I mean. . .I'm bored anyway. And maybe I'll get something out Spike" Willow said.

"Are you sure? Cause that would be great Wills!"

"Yep. No problemo."

"Alright here's his blood."

"Okay."

Willow made her way into the bathroom yet again to feed Spike.

"Hey."

"Hello, pet"

"Um you still hungry?"

"Always love" he leered at her.

"Not funny."

"Wasn't meant to be, Red."

She kneeled down again and leaned over to hold the mug for Spike. This time Spike got an excellent view of her cleavage. With him drinking blood and Red's breasts only a very few inches away he found himself growing hard with need.

Willow couldn't look away from those blue orbs. He was everything she should be afraid of. But she wasn't. Then she noticed the lust in his eyes and where exactly he was looking. She felt herself grow wet.

"Will! Giles went to the magic shop for supplies and I have to patrol would you mind staying here watching Spike until Giles comes back?"

"Sure," She yelled back.

"k see you back at the dorms."

"K" she mumbled quietly. And looked back at Spike.

{Okay it's now or never. You have to get over him he's never going to come back. And there's a sexy vampire here who can't hurt you who's tied up. You can do this.}

Willow reached her hand down and it landed on Spike's upper thigh. He fought back a moan. It had been weeks since he had any contact. Besides arrows and Slutty the Vampire Layer's man handling. Willow crept her hand up higher until she felt his hard bulge in his jeans. Spike closed his eyes as Willow unzipped his pants and popped the button open and took out his now swollen, hard cock with never letting go of the mug and with her eyes never leaving his.

She ran her hand over his hard length. He finished eating and Willow threw the cup against the wall shattering it. She jumped up and quickly stripped of her sandals and thong. She lifted her long silted skirt and walked into the tub and sat on Spike's cock. Spike not being able to participate but not complaining either, moaned at the contact of her hot, wet slit on his member.

Willow looked at him asking quietly with her eyes permission. Spike nodded, smirking. She lifted herself a little bit and grabbed his cock and guided herself onto him. Inch by inch his thickness filled her. She stilled getting accustomed to having something this large within her. Spike moved his arms a bit and was able to put his hands on her hips. Willow grabbed onto his shoulders and started moving back and forth and up and down. Spike helped her along the way.

"Oh Christ pet. . .yeah just like that. Yeah, that's my girl"

"Spike oh god"

Panting and groans filled the roomed. Their bodies started slamming together more forcefully. Spike grabbed her hips to still her and pumped into her hitting just the right spot to throw Willow into ecstasy.

"Oh fuck spike!" Willow screamed in release.

Spike plunged into her faster and harder and when her inner muscles clenched around him, he came shooting his dead seed into her with pure pleasure.

"So. . ." Willow said.

"So. . ." Spike said.

~Part: 2~

After calming down some Willow finally thought about what she has just done.

{Oh God he's going to kill us.} Willow thought.

Willow couldn't say anything she simply jumped off of Spike then rearranged her clothes and walked out of the bathroom without a single word to Spike.

"God! Red gets me all worked up and she doesn't even has the audacity to dress me back. I think the whole bleeding slayer gang is crazy even it she was a good fuck."

Willow walked back into the front room and sat on the couch. She couldn't believe what she just did that was so unWillowy of her.  The whole now or never deal was a way to forget about him but the only thing Spike did was make it worst. If he ever came back to her he would properly kill them without a doubt.

"I doubt that hell even come back," she said to herself as she turned on the televsion waiting for someone to come back. Things have gotten way out of hand and she was the cause of it.

***

Los Angeles

"Do you think we did the spell right Cordy?" Gunn asked as they stared at the figure on the floor of the cage.

"Yes he should be Angelus now and his soul is trapped in this bottle," Cordelia explained as she held the bottle that now held Angel soul.

"Good we need to find out about the beast and what he know about it," he replied.

"That's the plan. I am going to put this in a safe place," she spoke deviously.

"Fred baby I'll be back. Wesley and I have to find Connor," Gunn spoke as he walked up to his girlfriend and kiss her on the cheek.

"Ok," she sighed, "I know he might not like us bring back Angelus but try to explain to him that it is for the best."

"It will be ok," he told her as he walked up the stairs closing the door behind him.

Angel was knocked out the second the spell had finished. He stirred on the floor in the cage that he was trapped in. When he opened his eyes he didn't know where her was.

"Angelus it that you," he heard a voice called from the other side of the cage.

He pushed himself off the floor and looked at Fred.

"Yes, it's me know why don't you open the caged door bitch so I can kill you slowly," he spoke with mockery in his voice.

Fred rolled her eyes before answering, "The only bitch I see in here is you and I wouldn't be so quick to call someone names when I am not the one that is locked in the cage. I could kill you right now," She augured.

"What ever. Come in here and try me but I don't think that little boyfriend of yours is going to be able to save you," Angelus told her.

"I don't have time for this shit," Fred spoke as she stormed upstairs the minute Cordeila came down.

"Fred what's wrong?" Cordelia asked.

"Nothing I just need to go get my dust buster for later," she replied looking back at Angelus as she shut the door behind her.

Cordelia looked at Angelus as she stepped of the last step. She already knew why Fred would be so mad.

"Angelus?" she asked stepping a little closer to the cage.

"Yes it's me. What do you want with me?"

"I let you out," she explained.

"I know so I *might* take petty on you but I doubt it," he told her.

"I need your help and those other want to know about the beast."

"No to the first part and I don't know anything about a beast now let me out of this damn cage," he snapped.

"Or what?" Cordelia shot back.

"Look I don't have time for this Cordelia."

"Why are you in a rush? You act like you have something to do or somewhere to you are suppose to be," she suggested.

"Actually it's more like someone to do."

"If you say so. You might as well get us to it you will be lock up for a while," Cordelia explained as she begin to walk away.

"Cordy," Angelus called out.

"What Angelus," she asked.

"I think I do know something about the beast. It's coming back to me and it might help you," he lied.

"What is it?" she asked as she walked closer to the cage not really thinking about it at the time. It was like his eyes were calling her.

Before she knew it his hands flew out of the cage and grab Cordelia shirt banging her head against the railing with a loud bang knocking her unconscious. He reached in her pockets and grabbed the key out of her pocket before dropping her to the floor. After opening the door he pulled her in and locked it.

"Well if you want to know Cordy the beast is going to destroy you and this whole gang of dumb ass crew," he smirked as he walked up the stairs.

~Part: 3~

Angelus slowly walked out of the basement trying to see if anyone was around. He wasn't scared of any of them; he just didn't want to have to postpone his trip back to Sunnydale. Seeing that everyone was gone, he headed for the front door, but was stopped by an eerie feeling that he was leaving something behind. Angelus turned and followed his feeling, which lead him up to the safe behind the picture above his desk. He opened the safe and was confused by what he saw inside. It looked like a jar full of smoke, nothing that would interest him, but he wondered why he felt he had to come back for it. He reached into the safe slowly and picked the jar up to look at it.

"My soul," he said to himself.

Angelus closed the safe and smiled as he threw the jar across the room, smashing it against the wall. He watched as the soul floated around in mid-air for a couple of seconds not knowing what would happen, then the soul came back full force and reentered his body. Angelus closed his eyes and shivered when a cold rush went through him. After the feeling passed, he opened his eyes and looked around.

"That was different. Kinda turned me on," he said out loud.

He turned and headed back out the door and spoke again once he opened it, "Welcome back Angel." Angelus closed the door and headed into the night. It was just after sunset, which gave him enough time to get to Sunnydale.

***

When Angelus made it to Sunnydale he didn't have enough time to find Willow. He barely made it to his old apartment in time for sunrise. Angelus was excited to be back here, close to the one he had wanted for a year now. Angelus groaned as he undressed and laid down for a nice unpeaceful sleep.

***

"Where the hell is he?" Gunn asked as they walked down and saw Fred kneeling beside Cordelia in the cage.

"Oh my God," Fred screamed after seeing all the blood.

"Go call 911," Gunn called back up to Wesley.

Wesley took off at top speed to call for help.

"What happened?" Gunn asked Fred.

"I don't know. I went to my room for a few minutes and when I came back, I found her like this."

"This doesn't look good," he told her.

"I know," she replied as Wesley came downstairs, telling them help was on the way.

They all stood by Cordelia's side and waited for the paramedics to come. When the paramedics arrived they put Cordelia in the ambulance, Fred, Gunn and Wesley jumped in to go with her. None of them thought to call and warn Giles and the rest of them to watch out for Angelus.

***

The Next Night

Sunset couldn't come fast enough for Angelus, he tossed and turned all day trying to sleep. He was excited about seeing his Willow, Angel within him was also excited, which made him a little jealous. After showering, he dressed in some of Angel's old clothes and walked out of the apartment in search of his Willow. He had to hurry and find her, he hoped the L.A. crew hadn't called and warned them yet.

***

Giles Apartment

"Willow, do you mind watching Spike while I go to the magic shop for some supplies?" Giles asked.

"Why can't Buffy watch him?" Willow whined.

Willow really didn't want to spend anymore time alone with Spike. She knew what happened yesterday and she regretted it..well a little. She only went back to Spike yesterday to straighten out his clothes before she left. He tried to talk her into going another round or two, but she ignored him and walked out.

"Buffy is patrolling tonight and not coming here until afterwards. I need to get to the shop before it closes," he explained.

Willow thought for a second before answering. "I guess so. Just hurry back," she pleaded.

"No problem. I will return soon," he told her as he grabbed his jacket and headed for the door. Willow watched as Giles walked out of his apartment, closing the door behind him.

"Great," she mumbled. "Well as long as I stay down here I don't have to worry about Spike," she sat on the couch and grabbed the remote and clicked on the television.

"Yippee, Charlie Brown's on," she thought as she sat back on the couch, hoping Giles would hurry.

***

On the way to the magic shop Giles ran into Angelus who pretended to be Angel. After noticing Giles wasn't running from him he figured that he had heard about his return. Angelus lied, saying that he needed to talk to Willow about some spell book that Wesley needed as soon as possible. Giles told him that she was at his house. Angelus thanked him and made his way there.

***

Twenty minutes later Angelus knocked on Giles' door.

"Who is it?" Willow called out hoping Giles forgot his key or Buffy was there to get on Spike watch so she could go home.

"Angel," he had to lie. He couldn't say Angelus, just in case someone else was there or if they knew and hadn't talk to Giles yet.

{Angel, what the hell is Angel doing here?} She thought.

Willow composed herself. She didn't want to see Angel, not now anyway. She always wondered if he remembered anything that had happened between Angelus and her. It could be embarrassing if he did remember, but he hadn't said anything, or even looked her way the next day, he had treated her the same as usual. Willow knew that something had to be wrong when he moved to LA the following day without an explanation to Buffy. She took a very deep breath before walking to the door and opening it.

"Hiya Angel," she tried to sound casual. "Come in."

"Hello Willow," he spoke with a devilish grin as he walked inside. He looked around and listened for anybody else in the house. After noticing no one was there he spoke again, "But I prefer to be called Angelus."

Willow closed the door in shock. Had she just heard him right?

"Angelus, is it really you?" she asked as she looked at him.

"Yes baby, I'm back," he told her as she ran into his arms.

"I've missed you so much," she told him. Angelus was about to say the same but his nose flared up after he smelled her and without warning Angelus growled and pushed Willow back.

Willow was confused, she didn't know what he could be mad about, he was happy a second ago. Angelus walked up to Willow and grabbed her around the neck applying enough pressure for it to hurt. Willow grabbed his arm trying to move it, but it was to no avail. Willow knew Angelus could kill her in seconds and there wasn't a thing she could do about it. She began to wonder was he mad about them being together? If he was mad about that then..why? He came to her that night, not the other way around. Willow finally looked up at him with tears in her eyes.

"YOU FUCKED HIM," Angelus growled out, making her body begin to shake.

"Wha..what are you talking about?" She choked out already knowing what he was talking about, but she didn't want to tell him.

"You fucked Spike. I can smell him on you."

"I.I didn't.I thought," Willow couldn't even form the words to explain.

"I can't believe you fucked him. And it was often," He told her pushing her back against the couch. "You know what you did, Willow?" he asked.

"No," she said grabbing her throat.

"You fucked up." He looked at her with golden eyes. "Do you know how many nights I talked to Angel about coming to you? Do you know how many nights in the past year Angel had to sleep with a raging hard on because I reminded him how good you felt? How good you made us feel? He wanted you badly..but he wouldn't come to you. He wouldn't come to you because he did everything in his power to stop me from being happy. I tried for a year to get to you and look what you do; you go and fuck my child." The last words spoken through clenched teeth.   All Willow could do was cry. This wasn't the lovable and caring Angelus she was with a year ago. This was the extremely pissed off Angelus that she knew when he first came.

"I'm sorry," were the only words she could form.

"Sorry," he snorted, "Sorry isn't good enough, you will be punished for this, you can bet on that."

He walked up to her, anger flowing through him. He knew why she would have sex with Spike. Spike was the closest thing to him, but he wanted her to know that wasn't ok for her to do it.

"By the way, are your parents home?" He asked coming up with a plan of punishment.

"No," she answered shaking her head.

"We can go there then. It's more private than Angel's apartment," He told her as he decided on going there if her parents were gone. He knew Angels' apartment wouldn't be a good place for noise and he hadn't checked out the mansion yet, so her house was the next in line.

He turned back and looked at Willow, "So where is Spike, anyway?"

"Upstairs," she told him, still not taking her hand from her throat.

"Good," He looked at her with golden eyes. "Come here Willow."

Willow hesitated for a second, should she really be going to him? He was crazy if he thought she would just hop to her death. Willow didn't sit too long; she jumped up when Angelus called her again, that time not as nice as the first one. Before Willow had a chance to react, Angelus morphed into game face and bit into her neck with such anger that it made Willow scream at the top of her lungs. Willow fought to separate Angelus from her neck but it wasn't helping. The pain was unbearable to the next thing she saw was everything going black.

Angelus withdrew his teeth and went back to his handsome face. He didn't take much blood from her. He knew that she had passed out from the pain, not the blood loss. Angelus knew the wound he had inflicted would take time to heal and would never go away as his other bites had. That would let other vampires know she was his, plus, she had betrayed him and needed to be punished.

Angelus laid Willow down on the couch before walking towards the stairs. Anger flowed through him as he grabbed one of Buffy's stakes off the counter before heading to the bathroom.

***

Spike on the other hand was growling, trying to break himself free since he heard Willow screaming. He thought some demon or something had gotten to her, and out of all of the Scooby Doo gang he didn't want her dead, especially after yesterday. All effort stopped when the bathroom door flew open and a very pissed off Angelus stood there.

{Oh shit! Who has gone off and made the poof mad?} Spike thought ass he looked closer and realized that this wasn't Angel, just dressed like him.

"Angel?" Spike called, not really sure.

"Angelus, thank you," Angelus corrected as he walked into the bathroom. Angelus felt his anger go off the scale when he smelled Willow's arousal. It was weak now, but still enough to piss him off even more.

"Angelus, I hope you didn't kill the red head?"

"Why, Spike? So you can fuck her again?"

"Why do you care?" After those words had left Spike's mouth, Angelus growled and flew to Spike and staked him right over his heart.

"Awe..shit.what the hell did you do that for, mate?"

"I care because she is mine, Spike," he spat as he stepped back and looked at his child. Absorbing that little bombshell, Spike would have pissed on himself if he could.

{Shit, why in the hell didn't she tell me? I wouldn't have let her do it} he thought. Angelus watched as his child paled more, if he could, as he digested this new and disturbing information.

"I didn't know, mate. She came in here and was feeding me, then just took what she wanted."

Angelus walked back up to Spike pushing the stake in his shoulder, making him scream again. "So, you are telling me that she made you have sex with her?"

"Christ!" he yelled. Angelus stopped pushing on the stake. "Yes, Angelus, she did," he told him the truth.

"Look Spike, I am going to release you. You have until tomorrow night to get the hell out of town. If you don't, you will not live another night," Angelus told him as he pushed the stake once more before he began to untie Spike.

After Angelus released Spike, he pulled the stake out as he followed Angelus downstairs to see Willow still passed out on the couch. Spike was about to run to her side, but didn't because he knew Angelus would be pissed more. Seeing the way Spike looked at Willow, he ordered Spike to pick Willow up, take her to her house, tie her down to her bed and then get the hell out. Spike was about to protest, but seeing the anger still in Angelus' eyes, he obeyed.

***

Angelus walked through his town looking for a quick meal before Willow's punishment. He couldn't believe he had gotten so angry with her. Who did she think she was going around fucking somebody else? She should have known when she gave him her virginity, she gave him her life, and it was supposed to be dedicated to him, whether he was around or not. Angelus understood that it had been a year, but Angel had gone that long without a woman, so he knew that she could. It wasn't like he had mated with her until a couple of minutes ago. If he had mated with her a year ago, then Angel would have come to her or the other way around. Angelus cursed himself. He hadn't wanted to mate with her that way. He had wanted her to enjoy every minute of it. Angelus wanted her to beg him to do it. He couldn't help it, no other woman had ever gotten to him the way Willow had, and he didn't want another man or vampire to touch her again.ever. Angelus turned another corner and spotted a target for his next meal. Maybe after he ate, he would calm down some. He had to, or he would really hurt her.

***

Spike walked up to Willow's house carrying her. He jumped up to her balcony door and opened it. Willow was always so trusting. He walked in and laid Willow down on the bed, then looked around for something to tie her up with. He found some rope in a drawer downstairs and walked back up to Willow. He tied her arms first, then her legs. As he tied the last knot she began to stir.

"Awe! My neck is killing me," She said out loud, then she thought about it. "Angelus!" She shouted as she tried to jump up, but couldn't.

"Take it easy, pet," Spike told her as he walked up from the bottom of the bed.

"Spike, what's going on here?"

"Angelus told me to tie you up and he'll be here in a few."

"But.Awe!" She tried to grab her neck.

"Take it easy, pet. He took a pretty hard bite out of you and it's going to take some time to heal," he told her as he examined her neck.

{Bastard went and mated with her} he thought. "Don't move your neck too much or it will start bleeding again," he advised her.

"What is he going to do?"

"Shhhh..pet, I have to go, he is on his way here and I have to leave Sunnydale."

"Why do you have to leave Sunnydale, Spike?"

"Because Angelus told me to and I have to do as he says. Christ! Willow! You should have told me about you and him, then I would have stopped you yesterday," he stood and looked at her and let out an unneeded breath. "But trust me pet, he's not going to hurt you as long as you do what he says. I promise to call you as soon as I get somewhere."

Spike turned and walked towards the door, not wanting to leave Willow, but he could feel Angelus. He was close, and still a little pissed. As he walked to the balcony, Spike could hear Willow's pleas for him to stay, but he couldn't. As Spike jumped down, Angelus was walking up with a smirk on his face.

"Bye Spikey, have a nice trip," he teased as he jumped up on the balcony.

"Bye," Spike said dryly as he watched Angelus close the balcony doors, "bleedin' poof," he mumbled as he made his way to his crypt.

~~~*~~~

Angelus closed the door and headed to the bed where Willow was tied up. He smiled as she looked at him with fear in her eyes. He sat on the bed beside her, still smiling.

"Ang.Angelus," she whispered, not knowing what Angelus was going to do to her.

"No talking Willow, just listen," he told her. "I am very disappointed that you would go and sleep with someone other than me. But don't worry, Willow, I am going to punish you, not torture you, which is getting off easy. Torture means bringing out some equipment that I don't think you could handle as a human," He looked at her, making sure she understood before continuing, "I am going to fuck you and you will not cum unless I tell you," He smiled looking into her eyes, "If I let you cum."

He stood, taking off his clothes. She watched his every move, but she didn't speak. He then walked up to Willow observing her clothing. "I hope you are not fond of your clothes, Willow. If you are, too bad," he told her as he took off her wrap around skirt, which was easy. Then tore her shirt, bra and panties off, tossing them on the floor.

"MMMM..just as I remembered, Willow. I came here yesterday to make love to you, but it looks like that will have to wait until later."

Angelus laid on top on Willow and kissed her hard. He bit her bottom lip to make her open her mouth, so he could slip his cool tongue into her warm mouth. Willow couldn't help but moan. She had waited a year for him, and the kiss alone was too good, but the bad part was she couldn't cum unless he said so..if he even let her cum at all.

Angelus moved down to the valley between her breasts, biting to draw small beads of blood up to the surface. He licked the blood off, then moved down to her stomach slowly. By the time he reached her red curls, Willow was moaning, wanting to beg him, but she couldn't speak. Angelus smiled, as he smelled her arousal coming off in waves. She wasn't this aroused when he had taken her a year ago. He inhaled deeply as he made one pass over her clit making her buckle under him. He moved lower and kissed her inner right thigh. He pulled back and looked up at her. She had her eyes closed, trying to concentrate on his orders. Angelus took no pity on her when he morphed and bit the inner part of her thigh, making Willow arch off the bed, almost screaming as she tried to control her orgasm.

Angelus didn't stop drinking until her back touched the bed again. He turned back to his handsome face and looked at her juices which were now flowing from her like a river. He moved up and licked them from her. He started licking, penetrating her with his tongue. Angelus could feel Willow's walls clamping down on his tongue as he moved it inside of her, lapping up all of her juices.

Angelus stopped his torture and ordered her to open her eyes and look at him. Willow complied, but it was hard.

"You almost came, didn't you Willow?" he asked, already knowing the answer. She looked at him, but didn't speak. Remembering what he had said earlier, he gave her permission to speak.

"Answer me, Willow," he growled.

"Yessss, " she answered truthfully. When he bit into her, it was amazing and she would have come if he hadn't told her not to.

"You know, I would have been pissed off if you had," he told her as he moved up her body inserting two fingers into her and began a slow torture.

Willow could only moan as he held her on the brink of an orgasm. Angelus bit slightly into her breast getting her attention back. "You seem to forget that I want an answer when I ask you something, Willow."

"I knew you.you would have been mad, Angelus, that's why I didn't," Willow answered as she looked into his eyes. Everything seemed to freeze when she saw anger, hurt, betrayal, and the one thing she thought she would never see.Love..did Angelus love her? Is that why he was doing this to her?

Angelus got off the bed and kneeled by her face. Without any words, Willow opened her mouth and stuck out her tongue teasing the head before taking him into her mouth. Angelus moaned as she began to move faster and apply more pressure. Willow was trying to please him as much as she could, even if her neck was hurting. She let him set a pace on how fast he wanted to go. Angelus was now growling low in his throat and she knew it wouldn't be long before he came.

"Willow," he warned but she didn't listen, she just moved faster.

Angelus threw his head back and came as Willow swallowed every drop. Angelus let Willow finish before moving and laying back on top of her. She looked at him as he bent down to kiss her again. Willow could feel him growing hard again against her leg. She wanted nothing more than for him to take her, but she was being punished for fucking Spike. She had to let Angelus do whatever made him feel better.

Angelus grabbed his cock as he continued to kiss Willow. He touched her soaking passage and Willow moaned into his mouth. He entered her with one quick hard thrust. Willow closed her eyes, she couldn't take this type of punishment. Her walls were clamping down on him, wanting nothing more than to feel release. Angelus was also fighting his impulse to just pound into her. He knew it was hard for her to hold out as long as she had, and she was guaranteed to come if he went too fast or too hard. He kept his strokes slow and shallow not hitting those places he knew would make her fall over. Angelus stopped kissing her and looked down at her, "Open your eyes, Willow. Don't make me say it again."

Willow complied and looked up at him. "I want you to see who it is making you feel this way. I want you to see who you belong to, and you can't see that with your eyes closed."

Willow only nodded her head as she fought the impulse to come as he continued his slow pace.

"Did he make you feel this way, Willow?" Angelus asked.

Willow shook her head.

"Did he, Willow?"

"No, Angelus," She almost shouted, hating this type of punishment.

"Did you think he could?"

"No," She moaned out. "You are the only one that can make me feel this way."

Angelus smiled as he continued with his slow strokes.

"Please! Angelus," she cried out after ten minutes of slow torture.

"Please what, Willow? Please don't make you feel like this? Please don't punish you anymore? Please let you cum? You tell me," he moaned out the last part as he felt her walls grabbing him like vise grips.

"I want to cum, Angelus. I don't think I can hold it much longer," She pleaded with him, looking into his now half golden eyes.

"You better Willow not. You did this, not me," he explained.

Angelus was so close he couldn't hold out any longer if he wanted too. He grabbed Willow's hips hard, knowing they would bruise, and began to pound into her.

"Now, Willow. Cum," he told her. Willow didn't even let the words leave his lips before she screamed out his name as she came harder than she ever did before. Angelus moaned out her name as he filled her with his dead seed.

Angelus let go of Willow's hips and rolled off of her. Willow was almost asleep before she felt him releasing her from the bonds. Willow looked at Angelus as he laid back down and grabbed her so that her back was to him.

"Trust me, you got off easy," he told her.

"I'm glad," she said as he began to play in her hair. "What are we going to do now?" she asked.

"I don't know, but don't worry about it, we will leave here as soon as the sun sets tomorrow."

Angelus moved to her neck and began to lick at the wound. It started to bleed again, he was going to apologize, but she was already asleep. He just would have to wait until she woke up.

~Part: 4~

Angelus woke up by a knock on Willow’s balcony door. He stood grabbing his pants to put them on. Once he was dress he walked to the door. As he opened it he was not surprised at who he saw.

He walked out onto the ledge quietly not to distrust Willow. “Thank you for knocking her out her,” the beast told him.

“I did you a favor. Now you can leave,” he almost snapped.

“What about the rest of them? What about what you promised me years ago?”

Angelus sighed and looked back at his sleeping lover.

“Things change. I wanted this planet sent to hell just as much as you do but when you have something or somebody you care about living on it things change,” Angelus explained.

“Understandable. When you need me and you are ready let me know. I am in you debt for helping me,” the beast told him and disappeared into the night.

Angelus walked back in while shutting the doors. He didn’t know how this woman could change his hold perception of life. Angelus and the beast made this commitment to destroy the Earth years ago. It was way before he knew Willow but now he wouldn’t even think about it.

He laid back down without waking her. She whimpered as he pulled her back up against him. He went straight back to sleep.

~~~*~~~

Willow was awaked hours later by someone knocking at her front door. She jumped up and looked around for something to wear. When she put on her shirt she felt something on her neck. Willow reached up to touch it and looked back at her fingers; she noticed that her neck was still bleeding. She had no time to think about that now she knew Buffy and the rest of them have a key and would come in without heisting and she didn’t want them to see Angelus there in her bed naked. Willow quickly finished dressing and grabbed a towel for her neck. She looked at Angelus then ran out the room door.

Willow almost trip going downstairs. Upon opening her door Buffy and Xander grabbed her in a big hug without a word.

“Love you too guys but breathing becoming an issue,” Willow told them.

“Sorry,” they both said as they let her go.

“What’s the problem?” Willow asked as she invited them in.

“We thought Spike had got you,” Buffy stated.

“Why would Spike have me?” She tried to act surprised. She knew Spike was gone and she had to come up with an excused why she left.

“He has escaped last night. Giles said that you where with him and when he got there you where gone.”

“Nope I’m here good as can be,” Willow tried to sound casual.

“Why did you leave anyways?” Buffy asked.

“I was feeling a little bad, so I feed Spike and left,” Willow lied.

“Spike was still there when you left?” Buffy asked.

“Yep,” she told them as they all sat of the couch.

“He must escape after you left then,” Xander cut in.

“Had too,” Willow spoke.

“Also Wesley called me and we believe that Angel…well Angelus is free,” Buffy told her, “Giles said Angelus asked him about you and where you were so we thought that he had you and let Spike go.”

“Not that I know of,” Willow tried to joke. “{Oh yeah he had me alright. He had me to scream his name out} She thought. “Angelus must have come after I left,” Willow told them trying not to remember a naked Angelus in her bed.

“Anyways they said that Angelus knocked Cordelia out and it looks like she isn’t going to make it,” Buffy explained.

“What!” Willow almost yelled.

“Yeah she has some internal bleeding in her head and the doctors can’t stop it.”

Angelus smiled from the stairs as he watched Willow’s friends tell her about him.

“Oh my God! Do you think Angelus did it?”

“With out a doubt.” Xander spoke up.

“I am going to the library and see what Giles want me to do. I want you to stay in the house when night falls…got it,” Buffy explained.

“Yeah,” Willow spoke.

“All right girl I have to go. You look like you need to eat you are looking paler than usual.”

“No problem. I am getting ready to eat,” She lied.

Both Xander and Buffy stood and walked out.

Willow walked up stair to see a smiling Angelus looking at her. She walked in and closed the door.

“Why did you do it?”

“It wasn’t intentionally but I had to get out of that cage,” he told her as he sat on her bed and pulled her down it his lap. “I didn’t if for two reasons.”

“What are they?”

“I did it because you friend Cordeila was pregnant by Connor and if the baby was born it would had destroyed the world and that’s not what I wanted anymore.”

“And you killed her to stop it?” Willow asked.

“I didn’t really kill her the beast did. I just wanted her stationary for the beast to find her and he took the baby. He is now waiting for me to give him the word and he would bring the baby back to this world to destroy it.”

“Are…going….to?”

“No love. There are things I chariest now.”

 “Thank you….so what was the other?”

“I had to get to you.”

“I am glad you changed you mind about the world,” Willow spoke as she smiled at him.

“Me too,” he told her as he moved the towel from her neck and begin to lick at the blood that escaped from the holes. Willow wasn’t mad about the bit but she could help but wonder why he did it.

“Angelus,” She called out.

“Yes,” he purred out as he continued to nurse her wound.

“Why is it still bleeding like that?”

Angelus stopped what he was doing and took and unneeded breath. “Well Willow I was very upset yesterday and hurt to know that you slept with someone else. When I did it, it was out of anger but it is also that I mated with you.”

“I see. I am sorry about that I won’t have if I knew you where coming back but it had been a year and Angel acted like he was going to let you go.”

“I know and I…..,” Angelus almost screamed out as the pain flowed through him.

“Baby what’s wrong,” she asked in panic as she jumped up from the bed.

“God damn spell. They are…” That was the last thing he said as everything went black.

“No baby, please don’t leave me again,” Willow cried as she walked back up to him and grabbed him in her arms.

Twenty minutes later Angel opened his eyes and looked at Willow sitting on the bed beside him.

“Willow what happened?”

Willow just looked at him. She knew that he wasn’t Angelus. He just held her lovers body and face but he wasn’t him. Willow stood and began to back away.

“Wi….llow,” Angel called out.

“Look Angel I know you don’t know what’s happening but when nightfall’s I want you gone.”

She turned and was getting ready to walk out the door before she heard him talk, “I do know Willow.”

She stopped at the door and hung her head, “If you do then I am sorry for that but I am not sorry for sleeping with Angelus.”

“But…”

“But nothing Angel. Just leave that’s all I ask ok,” Willow told him as she walked out of the room door and headed into the sunlight where she knew Angel couldn’t follow her.

~Part: 5~

Willow sadly walked into the library because the love of her life came back to her last night and was taken away from her already. {Shit….we did even make love yet. I was punished but that’s different} she thought as she sat down.

“Willow I thought you were going to eat you still look pale,” Buffy asked her.

“I…Oh..I wasn’t hungry,” she told her and looked away.

“Are you ok?”

“Yeah…I’m fine,” she lied.

Xander sat and looked at Willow something didn’t seem right. Her shirt collar looked like it had blood on it.

“I was going to call and tell you that we did the restoring spell about an half and hour ago.”

“I know,” Willow mumbled.

“What did you say?”

“I said good,” she lied again.

“I hate to tell you that they called about Cordeila and side she died. Giles left to go up there and help out with the funeral,” Buffy explained. “They also said that Connor is also gone, he said something about going away for a while but he’ll be back.”

Willow began to shake. She knew that Angelus did it but he wanted her and he would do anything to get to her.

Xander couldn’t help it he had to see what was wrong with Willow’s neck. He leaned over and pulled her shirt collar down shocking both Willow and Buffy with his movement.

“I knew it?” Xander spoke. “Who bit you Willow?”

“Nobody,” she lied.

“Yes someone did Willow. You have two holes in your neck,” Xander shouted.

“My God girl who did it? Spike?”

“Umm…”

“I did,” Angel told them as he walked from behind the book case. He had grabbed one of Willow’s blankets and ran for the nearest sewer and came here.

“Angel. What the hell are you doing here?” Buffy asked walking in front of Willow in efforts to protect her. “You better be Angel.”

“No need for protection Buffy I am Angel and I…well Angelus is the one that bit her,” he told them. Willow was about to protest but didn’t. Angel seemed different. He seemed to be Angelus but she knew better.

“What the hell is he talking about Willow?” Buffy yelled.

“I ummm,” Willow stumbled and stopped talking.

“ANGEL,” Buffy yelled. Willow looked at Angel stiffen but she didn’t think it was because Buffy yelled at him.

“Don’t worry Buffy it was Angelus that did it. Not me,” he looked at Willow pleading with her. He could feel the effects of them being mates and he had to have her.

“Wil’s your sleeping with Angelus?” Xander asked.

Willow nodded.

“That’s too much for me to handle,” Xander spoke.

“I didn’t mean too…..he came to me and I don’t want to talk about it,” Willow said and walked off but was stopped by Buffy grabbing her wrist. Angel growled at her when Willow wined in pain. Buffy looked at her ex and let Willow go.

“Don’t touch her again Buffy,” Angel growled.

“What…are you worried about her?” Buffy asked as Xander stood up.

“You wouldn’t know what I am going though would she Willow?” He asked Willow knowing that she wanted him because he could smell her arousal across the room. His anger was turning her on.

“What the hell is he talking about?” Buffy asked looking at Willow.

“Nothing Buffy,” she lied. Willow hated that he knew that she was turned on.

“Look Buffy I don’t have time to talk Willow can explain it to you later. If she knows what is good for her she will leave now before it become to much for us to control,” he tried to warn her.

Willow knew what Angel was talking about. She could feel the moisture dripping down her legs as he spoke. He wasn’t her mate but he had the his body and God she was willing to fuck the soul back out of him.

Angel extended his hand to her but Willow hesitated. “Willow….come here,” Willow head snap up. He was really sounding like Angelus to her.

Willow was walking over but was stopped by Buffy. “Angel I don’t know what is going on but she’s not going with you. Angelus is gone.”

“Not really I am Angel and I am Angelus. I am taking Willow with me and this time when my soul is taken it can’t be brought back no matter how many times you do the spell.”

“What do you mean?”

He sighed really not in the mood to explain, “Buffy to make a long story short. I am going and make love to Willow because the gypsy curse had a limit on it. I can only get my soul twice and that’s it.”

“How do you know this?”

“I knew a lot of things I didn’t tell or show you Buffy,” he snapped. “Now let’s go Willow,” Angel called again.

Willow stumbled going up to him.

“Willow if you walk out of here with my ex you might as well not come back…he’s a killer and you know that,” Buffy yelled.

“I agree Wil’s you are my best friend but he is a killer,” Xander jumped in.

“I sorry that you two don’t understand what’s going on but as mates we will be drawn to each other like now and Angel couldn’t hold out the urge to not be with me anyways. I told Angel to leave earlier but I knew he wouldn’t. I was expecting to walk back to the house and he would be there. I didn’t expect for him to come here. I love Angelus and if Angel wants to give him back to me then so be it,” Willow explained as Angel held her hand.

“I don’t give a damn about you being mates. Willow you leave…you leave Sunnydale,” Buffy snapped.

At those last word Angel screamed out in pain making everyone in the library jump but Willow. Willow knew that Angelus would break free he was already too close to the edge.

“No problem slayer,” Angelus spoke. “I wanted you to know that you shouldn’t be mad at Willow, this is mostly your fault. That night that you let her walk home alone, remember the fourth of July when you went home with some guy from the bronze,” Angelus spoke.

Buffy looked at Angelus in shock. She didn’t know that anyone knew about that night. “Yes you remember. Well that night I grabbed her just as she made it home and she fought me with ever thing she had but once I got her a little worked up she was begging,” Angelus told them knowing that it would get to Buffy.

Willow almost moaned as he walked up behind her and kissed his mark tasting her blood.

“We are leaving this town and never coming back. As long as you leave us alone I will let you live,” he spoke.

With those words Angelus pulled Willow back towards the sewer entrance to go back to the mansion until night.

“Willow…I,” Xander called. But Willow just shook her head.

Xander nodded knowing that she didn’t want him to say another word. Once Willow and Angelus was gone the library seemed quite and lonely now knowing Willow would never return.

~~~*~~~

Angelus decided to go to the mansion because it was the only place that had an entrance from the sewers. Once they made it to the mansion Willow squeaked as Angelus picked her up. “So Willow you wanted me to leave?”

“Yes….I thought you were Angel but I knew you wouldn’t go,” she told him.

“Where do you want to live? You know we can’t stay here,” he told her.

“Anywhere is good with me,” she told him.

“Let’s try Rome.”

“Sounds good to me.”

“Me too,” she moan as he walked her toward the room. That night was the first night of their lives.

The End.
 

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