Ronin: Within You Part 14b ((All info disclaimers in 14a. Split for length
                  only))
 
 

                  ::I was in Prague at an outoor market when I found the stone in one of the
                  little stalls they have...you remember those, dont you, Spike? How we used to
                  find ones full of pretty baubles...and eat the keeper? I got so many of my
                  beautiful necklaces that way....:: Spike was grinning.

                  Angel cleared his throat. ::The stone, Dru?::

                  ::Oh yes, it was just lovely! All smooth, and shiny and green...Daddys
                  favorite color, you know. And it wanted me. I could hear it. It wanted to be
                  with me. The old man didnt want to part with it...well, perhaps he didnt want
                  to part with it for free... Or maybe, he just didnt want to die. Whichever.
                  He tasted like hummus. I hate hummus..... ::

                  <<And this is my Princess *not* crazy. Behold!>>

                  :: When I took it home with me, it got louder and louder. Then the dreams
                  began. And the visions. It became all consuming. It chased away Bealcho.::

                  ::Beal-who?:: Angel asked. He realized his error too late, as Spike winced.
                  The Fungus demon Dru had left him for.

                  ::At first I feared it. I fought the magic within it. But then, it taught me
                  things. And I
                  stopped being afraid.::

                  Angels voice was soft. ::Taught you what kinds of things, Dru?::

                  ::I learned everything about what I am. What we are. It gave me all the
                  secrets of the
                  Universe. ::

                  Angel nodded sympathetically. Yup. Still nutty as a March hare.

                  Spike broached the important question. ::Thats great, pet. How do you hold it
                  all in that pretty little head of yours, hmm? Now, by chance, did it tell you
                  how we get out of here?:: Angel could tell the vampire was making an effort
                  to restrain himself, but his voice had cracked lightly on the last words.

                  :: I know you two think Im still insane. But Im not. The Essence demon
                  cleansed me. It showed me all of my sins and now I am whole again.::

                  Angel cringed. Sin and redemption; Druscillas Essence. The young girl he had
                  casually and systematically destroyed in a Catholic church over a century
                  ago. Come to haunt him even now. Gods finest punishment for him, really.

                  ::Its not about that Angel!:: She cried, jumping up and grabbing the dark
                  mans face in both her small hands. ::Its about creating what you want. It
                  showed me all my hopes and dreams, all my plans and creations. And it showed
                  me my offenses. It showed me and my soul shook.... ::

                  ::Uh..Dru, love of my black heart.:: Spike commented. :: Were vampires,
                  sweets. We dont have souls.:: He thrust a thumb in Angels direction. :: Cept
                  o course for Nancyboy over there.::

                  ::But thats where youre wrong Spike!! We *do* have souls. Well, you and I do.
                  Maybe some others. We have a part of our souls anyway, not complete like
                  Angel. But its because of Angel that we have any at all...::

                  Spike made a faint noise of frustration. He did not like the turn this
                  conversation was
                  taking. He was willing to pander to his dark goddess on almost any count.
                  Sin, redemption and soul-having were not among them.

                  ::Listen to me Spike! When he made us, he neglected to perform certain
                  rituals. Some by choice, some by chance, but the end result was the same. We
                  retained a larger part of our humanity than most vampires. Dont you remember
                  what the Judge said about us? About our feelings for oneanother?::

                  Spike snorted loudly now. ::That big, stupid assembly required demon? What
                  the hell did he know?::

                  Angel answered quietly. ::Apparantly enough. I didnt bury either of you. You
                  never rose. And...your families. Neither of you made them your first meal.
                  Family blood is a pretty well accepted rite of passage.... I didnt realize it
                  would effect the strength of your demons...::

                  He choked back the familiar taste of guilt. Of course Druscilla hadnt killed
                  her own family. Angelus had already done it for her. And Will never had one
                  to kill, which made him all the more easy a target for predators. Such as
                  Angel himself.

                  ::It didnt effect the strength of our demons, Angel. It did, though, effect
                  the
                  counterbalance. It allowed us to feel love, even if only for another demon.::

                  Spike looked incredulous. He was desperate not to believe this. But it
                  resounded inside of him with a strange and certain familiarity. Bonds between
                  demons, even to the extent of claiming mates, were customary within
                  understood limits. But his feelings for Druscilla had always gone way beyond
                  the traditional model of dominance and sexuality. There were no other
                  soulless demons he knew of who could ally with such a relationship. It had
                  always set him apart. He wondered how much it had contributed to Druscillas
                  lunacy as well.

                  :: When I realized that I had humanity... *within me*, all this time, I
                  was....lost. I
                  wandered for weeks unable to hunt, unable to feed...I was killed shortly
                  afterward by a Slayer in Europe. I didnt even put up much of a fight, really.
                  Hardly worth her effort.::

                  The men were silent as she finished. Then she walked back over to Spike, and
                  lay her dark head in his lap.

                  ::Im sorry, Druscilla.:: Angel whispered. A pathetic offering in exchange
                  for all she had lost. And an admission of further guilt... that after
                  everything which had ever passed between them, he was still releived she was
                  ..... no longer able to hurt anyone else....

                  (dead)

                  Spikes upper lip quivered in a silent growl. Angel knew he had heard the last
                  sentiment, and he could not bring himself to meet the younger vampires gaze.

                  ::Its all right, boys. I promise you, its better now. Im whole again. Im
                  clean.::

                  Spikes growl was audible now. ::Yea? That so? Youre so effin whole n clean
                  then why the hell are you here with us in this rediculous mirage? And how the
                  fuck do we get OUT OF HERE WITHOUT BEING DEAD?!::

                  Druscilla remained unmoved by the familiar loud display of frustration. She
                  merely
                  shrugged. ::Im here because I sent Angel the stone before I was killed. I
                  asked it to help him find peace too. And I could *feel* when it started
                  working on him, and you.... apparantly our Essences are connected to
                  oneanother. Something unresolved with us all. I dont know what it is, and I
                  dont know how to get out of here. I like it here though, dont you? Dont you
                  like being together?::

                  She leaned forward and kissed the younger man again, running her fingers
                  through his hair, and arching against his chest.

                  Angel closed his eyes; his mind was spun with the fantastic tale she had just
                  related. He wasnt sure he believed it. Wasnt sure what he believed. There was
                  a crude sort of fair play in the fact that it had been Druscilla who caused
                  his little exit from reality. Truly poetic justice if such ever existed.

                  According to her tale, however, it had all been quite unintentional. Some
                  grand cosmic accident. Looking back, his life was awash with such fantastic
                  conicidences. Maybe all mortals lives were. Maybe it just seemed that those
                  in his existence were grander somehow, because...they were his. And because
                  hed had more than three lifetimes in which to gather them.

                  He was beginning to feel like hed lived through two of those lifetimes in the
                  span of the last twenty-four hours. He could not recall the last time he felt
                  so completely exhausted. The vampire entertained the idea of sleeping right
                  here and now by the fire, and curled up around one of the fluffy pillows with
                  a small sigh. So what if it wasnt real? It was warm and cozy and his Childer
                  were here......

                  ::Dru-pet? Where are the drapes?:: Spike queried, noting for the first time
                  that a key
                  ingredient to vampire safety was notably absent from the otherwise flawless
                  reproduction of their long ago home.

                  Angel looked up now, startled. Suddenly it occured to him; it wasnt so far
                  fetched a
                  notion that she had brought them here with the intent to kill them too, come
                  sunrise. A kind of empyrean family reunion. It made a Druscilla kind of
                  sense.

                  (Poetic justice.)

                  ::We dont need curtains here! The sun never rises. Its one glorious,
                  everlasting night!:: She leaped to her feet, and swirled around as if to
                  offer it all to them, the house, the memories, the comfort of the night. Her
                  skirts whirled about her slim legs in a carousel of colour. She spun faster,
                  and faster, tossed back her head, and laughed. The childlike sound danced
                  along Angels skin.

                  A shudder ran up him before he could squelch it. Rabbits running over your
                  grave, his
                  mother used to say. Despite the heat of the fire, he shivered again.

                  End Part 14b
 

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