Pairing: none
Summary: Angel's daily fight within.
Disclaimer: Joss owns the characters. I own the poem. It's an original creation by me.
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Author's Notes: The poem belongs to me. I wrote it years ago. lol It's a look into the internal struggle of Angel/(us).
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I'm going mad. Angelus is tormenting me with images of his days. Did I let him out? Did I let my guard down? Is this just another one of his games? I don't know! How do you fight yourself? I can't just rip him out. He's there, a part of me. Always.
~Fight me
Your evil inside
Turn around
Look yourself in the face~
I can't let him out again. He will destroy everyone I care about. Oh my God. What have I done? No, it's not real. He's playing with me. I think. This is maddening. I know. I'll find the shackles. Confine myself. I can't let him out. I just can't.
~See the pain
Feel the madness
Blink, see if it's real
Tormenting yourself~
He wants to play. I don't want him to. I live with this everyday. One of these day's he might break me. I can't do it. I have to fight him back. Put him in his cell within me. Lock the door. Throw away the key. He didn't get out. Ha. I knew he was playing a game.
~Fight me
Your evil inside
Turn around
Look yourself in the face~
No, I will not do this. Not again. Hell was better then sitting back watching him go about killing people and tormenting the ones I love. I have to get away from here. I can't help them if I kill them. I mean if he kills them. I mean...shit! Angelus! How dare you? Where are you? Why are you laughing?
~Tears form in the corner of your eye
No where to run
No where to hide
Scared yet?
You should be
No everyday you get to meet yourself~
"Angel?" Buffy asked. "Are you ok?"
I look around at all the faces staring at me. Fuck. I did it again. No, he did it again.
"Yeah, fine," I say to the group. Angelus just laughs at me. Shut up Angelus. You're not out.
~Fight me
Your evil inside
Turn around
Look yourself in the face~
The End