TRUE CONFESSIONS (4/?)
 

"Buffy, just let it go" Willow said softly.
 

"Let it go? You shagged my princess and you want to let it go?" Spike said,
looking at her in surprise.
 

"Well, since you were shagging Angelus at the time, I don't really think you
can talk" Willow shot back at him, glaring.
 

"You and Drusilla?" Xander said, "Why?"
 

Willow shrugged, "It was before Oz and I were really dating and it happened.
I did care about her...."
 

"She's the one you loved?" Buffy asked, slightly drunk but suddenly getting
sober.
 

"Yes" Willow said softly, hating this game. "I love her even now. She was my
first....before Oz. Can we please forget this? It's the past....talking about
it doesn't make it easier."
 

"She left you too" Spike said, not sure what he thought about this. Before
hearing her words, he had to confess that he had been falling for her. Now,
things were different. She had been with Dru.
 

"Yes, she did. You took her away, remember?" Willow said, sighing. "Like I
said, can we drop it? It isn't near as juicy as you possibly think. We never
dated. It was purely sexual. It only lasted a couple of months. She left,
going to Brazil. She never came back....."
 

"Sorry" Buffy said, seeing the tears in Willow's eyes. "I just can't
believe...ok. We'll drop it. It was years ago after all. I mean, I had sex
with Angel. Xander had sex with Faith. I'd say we all had some mistakes."
 

"Thanks" Willow said softly, her eyes looking at the floor. "But it wasn't a
mistake. I wouldn't chance it for anything."
 

Spike shook his head, still not believing it. Sure, it made sense. He had
felt the change between him and Dru. He had just assumed it was Angelus. He
had never anticipated it being Willow. "I need a smoke. Come with me."
 

Willow looked up, seeing the look in his eyes. She nodded, standing, "Fine. I
hate this game anyway."
 

Spike followed her out of the basement and outside. He took a drag from his
cigarette, "So, you love her?"
 

"I do" Willow said, looking at the sky. "But, I also cared about Oz. I miss
Dru but she is happy. I got a call from her a couple weeks ago...."
 

"She calls you?" he said, jealous that she hears from Dru while he was
ignored.
 

"Once in awhile. We're friends, after all." Willow said, walking with him.
"She knows my secrets and she does love me."
 

"I can't believe she talks to you but she ignores me" Spike said, glaring the
sky. "I loved her for more than a hundred year yet she forgets about that."
 

"She doesn't forget" Willow said softly, "She asks about you often."
 

"She does?" he glanced at her, surprised.
 

"Yes. She's always asking how her Spikey is and asking if I'm taking care of
you."
 

Spike smiled slightly, "She wants you to take care of me?"
 

"Yep" Willow said, "she doesn't trust anyone else except me. She thinks you
need someone to watch over you."
 

Spike snorted, "Not bloody likely."
 

"I don't know....I think she might be right" Willow said, moving past him.
 

"What? You think I need someone to look after me?"
 

"I don't think you need someone....but I think you'd be happier if you
weren't alone."
 

"And you're volunteering?" he asked, watching her curiously.
 

Willow shrugged, "I hate being alone. We both love Drusilla. I think we could
be friends...."
 

Spike nodded, taking a drag from his cigarette. "I don't like being alone
myself. Fine. We can try the friend thing....but I'm not making any promises.
Don't usually hang out with humans unless I'm shagging them or torturing
them."
 

"I can't promise either" Willow said, looking at him. "But, who knows? Maybe
we'll have more in common than we think."
 

"Come on, Red. Why don't we leave them to their silly game? We can go to my
place and you can tell all about you and Drusilla. I can't wait to find out
how you two got together."
 

"How did I know you'd ask for details?" she asked, laughing softly as he
pulled her close and his arm went around her shoulders. "Come on, friend. We
can talk when we get to your place."

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