Spike held Willow while she slept.  He felt good again.  He had his fire
goddess forever.  He knew Willow had significantly broken Graham.  Other than
a soft whimper, Graham was almost not there. He could careless what Willow
wanted now.  He was glad to have her. He had wanted to bring her across for
some time. He wished he were in town to see vampire Willow. He would have
taken her then.  He knew she still had some ideas up her sleeve. He enjoyed
holding her as her body temperature cooled.

He smiled when her eyes fluttered.  He was glad that the sun was almost
down.  He would hunt with her, showing her everything he learned.  He knew
her darkness would probably rival his sire's. At the though of Angelus, he
pulled her closer to him.  He knew Angel would be pissed when he found out
what he did to Willow. Maybe not. Maybe he sire would wrack himself with
guilt over not being there for her. Fuck him, Spike though to himself.
Willow is mine and I'll kill for her.

Spike was brought out of his musings by a moan coming from his mate. He
smiled.  He moved a crimson lock from her face.  Yea, my mate he said aloud.
He watched as Willow opened her eyes.  He grinned when the ridges formed on
her face. "Spike." She said.

"I'm here Princess."

"My belly.  It hurts." She said.  He saw the twinkle in her eye.

"It's the hunger. Let's get my girl a bite to eat." Spike said.  Willow
licked her lips.  Spike saw how she looked at Graham as if he were a steak.

"Hungry now." Willow pouted.  Spike kissed her hard.  He loved being able
to not hold anything back.  When she was alive, he was always afraid that he
would hurt her. He growled when his kiss drew blood.

Spike finally broke the kiss, leaving Willow panting. "Let's get you
dressed, shall we?" Spike said.

"Please," Willow said.

Spike took his time dressing her in tight leather pants.  He loved how
the leather hugged her body.  He then put the corset on and gave her a
leather duster all her own.  He dressed her to kill, quite literally.

Willow walked over to Graham who was still chained to the wall.  He was
crying. "Miss me lover?" Willow said.  She kissed him on the cheek and walked
away.

"We'll be back, don't go anywhere." Spike said following Willow out into
the night.

Spike walked with Willow, enjoying her getting used to her new senses. He
watched as she hunted with ease.  He knew he had taught her a lot while she
was still alive. He liked how she truly loved the hunt.  Tara liked it too,
but she used her magic a lot during the hunt.

He watched as she feed off five people.  Two of them were friends of
Graham that knew Willow by name.  They were also trained Initiative fighters.
He knew she was truly his equal. She was not broken or fragile. She was
volatile and fun. He knew she would bring chaos back into the planet. Spike
loved being out with her. They headed out to Ripper's house.  Willow saw the
place was vacant. Willow smiled when she went over to the desk.  "Xander got
my note." Willow said giggling.

They headed back to the lair. Willow looked forward to spending time with
her family. She missed spending time with them.  Tara ran over to her and
gave her a hug. Spike watched as the two vampires kisses passionately.
Ripper shrugged his shoulders. Willow broke the kiss off. "I missed you too."
Willow said smiling.

"Mistress, welcome to our family." Tara said.  Spike watched as Tara bore
her neck.  Willow looked at Spike.  He nodded.  Willow let her fangs lengthen
and sunk them into Tara's neck.  Willow purred as she tasted Tara's blood.
She pulled her fangs back.  She looked at Ripper. He bared his neck for her.
Willow purred as she tasted Ripper.  She rubbed herself against the prominent
erection. Spike missed watching Willow and Ripper. He really loved watching
Willow and Tara.  Then again something about watching two women always got
him riled up.  Dru didn't like that very much.  She liked women, she just
didn't let Spike watch.  Spike then gave Willow a smack on the ass, causing
her to break the kiss.

Spike pulled Willow close to her.  They would have time later.  Spike
wanted her now.  All her, he was not in the mood to share. She was fed, now
she needed to be fucked, Spike thought to himself.

Xander went to get Buffy.  He stopped. Graham word's echoed in his head.
He remembered Spike's chip.  How could Spike rape Willow with the chip in his
head? He had seen them together. There was no force involved.  Willow had
willingly went to Spike and allowed him to touch her.  He knew that blow job
couldn't have been one of force. He remembered that Willow had mentioned
being afraid.  Was she afraid of Graham?  He knew Anya was.  She hated the
whole Initiative.

He went back to the dorm.  Buffy and Riley were just waking up. "Willow
has lost it." Buffy said, rubbing an injured shoulder.

"Buffy, what happened?" Xander asked.

"Willow, she freaked out and did this spell, knocked us out.  Graham went
to find her. She went crazy.  She said her and Giles were lovers." Buffy said.

"They were." Xander said.

"What do you mean?" Buffy asked.

"I caught them a couple of times.  They asked me not to tell you." Xander
told her.

"This is crazy, we have to find her." Riley said.  The three of them
headed to Giles house.  Xander winced when he saw the kicked in door. "We
missed them." Riley said.

Xander watched them leave. This made no sense to him.  Buffy told him
everything that Willow said. Xander found it incredible that Buffy thought
Willow was crazy. Xander winced when Buffy compared her to Dru.  He saw the
note sticking out from the desk. He pulled it out and read it.

Xander,

I hope that you find this.  Leave town.  Get out of here.  They aren't
stable. The Initiative.  Graham namely.  I am sorry I kept so much from you.
I hoped you would understand. I know you saw Spike with me earlier.  He heard
your heartbeat. Graham is crazy.  He killed Tara.  He poisoned her with
enough insulin to bring her to permanent coma land.  I hate leaving like
this. I wish I could hug you and say goodbye.  I need to leave Sunnydale.
Graham will kill me.  IF he finds me.

I need to lay low for a while.  Spike knows how to hide. Be careful,
Xander. There is so much I want to say, but time won't let me. I love you
Xander.  You were always there for me. Especially after Rupert died. Thanks
for keeping what you saw to yourself. I will keep in touch with you. I have
to go.  Take care.  Give Anya my love and protect her.

Love

Willow

Xander cried when he read the letter.  He let his friend down.  Not just
any friend, Willow, let Willow down.  He folded the letter up in his pocket.
He needed to find Anya.  He knew this town changed.  He knew it was bad when
Willie disappeared.  No one ever heard from him again.  He thought Anya was
being to paranoid.  He was glad to find her home, sleeping.

He called the last person he expected. "Angel Investigations.  We help
the hopeless." Cordelia said.

"Cordelia.  Its' Xander."

"Yeah, I remembered the voice."

"I need to talk to Angel."

"Everything ok?"

"NO, its gone to hell."

"The mouth still closed."

"Yes, but this place ain't what it used to be." Xander said.

"Hang on, I'll get the brooding one." Cordelia said. Xander took a deep
breath.

"Xander, what's up?" Angel said.  He could hear the tension in Xander's
voice.

"Angel, I didn't know where else to turn.  I failed, Angel. I failed them
all."

"Xander, you're making no sense."

"I'm sorry.  I don't know how much you know about his town, since you
left."

"Vampires. Buffy kills them."

"Have you heard about the Initiative?"

"The Initiative?"

"Yeah, its like that movie, Firestarter."

"Firestarter?"

"Yeah, Stephen King, ring any bells?"

"Not really."

"You read more books than Giles, and yet...nevermind. The Initiative.
They are this secret government organization.  They do little experiments on
vampires."

"Experiments?"

"Yeah, they got Spike."

"Will, is he?"

"He is undead.  They put a chip in his head.  He can't hurt a living
creature without intense pain.  He lives via bloodbags."

"Bastards." Angel spat.

"Huh?"

"Its more demeaning than that anything the gypsies gave me."

"I guess." Xander said.

"I am sorry, Xander, you called me because of trouble."

"Yeah, anyway.  After Oz left Willow, she made some special friends.  I
know she was dating this girl Tara.  She was really nice too.  Anyway Tara is
god only knows where.  She disappeared after insulin poisoning. Willow was
also dating Giles."

"She liked him for a long time. They seemed like an ideal match."

"Anyway, then Willow started dating Graham.  I don't think she liked him
very much.  I mean she acted totally different around him. I know after she
hooked up with Graham, Giles and Tara got serious.  They were good together.
Angel, Buffy is dating one them."

"It really doesn't surprise me."

"He's ok, but he's not you."

"Is that a compliment?" Angel asked.

He grinned at Xander's chuckle. "It gets worse.  Graham, he's crazy.
Willow is terrified of him.  She says that he and Forrest raped her."

"WHAT?" Angel bellowed.  He cared for Willow. She was truly the most
noble of the group.  With Giles, it was his job, Xander did it because he
liked Buffy.  Willow did it to be helpful.

"I didn't know about the rape.  She left me a goodbye letter.  That's how
I knew.  I am not sure how long she has been seeing Spike, but they are
leaving town together.  I wish I knew what to do.  Anya as you might know I a
former vengeance demon.  I am afraid that they will hurt her.  Willow warned
me to leave town.  Buffy thinks Willow is nuttier than Dru." Xander said.  He
was crying now.  Angel's heart went out to Willow.

"Oh, Jesus." Angel said.

"Willow, I let her down.  I wasn't there when she needed me.  Angel, I
would run to Giles, but talking to his grave will get me nowhere." Xander
broke down crying.

"Xander, you and Anya are welcome to come up for awhile.  But, if you do,
no Buffy or this Initiative."

"Thanks Angel.  We will be up there soon."
 

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