Author's Note #2- There will be a sequel to this!
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Spike looked up at his ceiling in disgust, he was so much more then
an idiot
that he couldn't even think of a word to describe himself. Actually
he could,
lots of them, there were just too many to name. How could he do something
so
stupid? So…. him.
He had cheated on a beautiful goddess who deserved to be worshipped
and loved
like no other. Yet he had had her, been with her in every imaginable
way, he
even had her love. Yet, he let her get away by making a choice he didn't
think was still possible.
Kissing Drusilla.
He knew that it wasn't the biggest or worst thing that he could do,
but it
was still horrible none the less. And to Willow, it was ten times as
bad. She
had caught them two weeks ago and refused to give him another chance,
she was
too depressed and upset to hardly talk to him.
So, she yelled. She had screamed at him, saying that he was scum, asking
how
he would've felt if he had caught her kissing Oz, Xander, hell she
had even
mentioned something about Riley. Then he did the second dumbest thing
in his
life, he yelled back.
He said that Drusilla was his first love and that he could never forget
her
and that she knew it. She knew that one day Dru would come back and
he would
have at least one last fling with her. That was the breaking point,
and also
8 days ago.
He hadn't heard one word from Willow, which he was still wondering if
that
was a good or bad sign. He had watched her, well technically followed
her,
every night to make sure she got to and from places safely. He had
also gone
to the Watchers' while she was there, but she still refused to talk
to him.
Grabbing his duster he walked out and headed towards Willow's dorm.
Stopping
along the way, he picked up vanilla ice cream and "Bye Bye Love" her
favorite
ice cream and movie, hopping that it would earn him some points for
not
avoiding her.
He took a few deep breaths as he knocked on her door, wishing and praying
that she wouldn't slam it in his face.
**
Willow heard the knock at her door and went to it. Opening it slowly
to
reveal the bleach blonde vampire, Willow took a sharp intake of breath.
Every
time she saw him, he seemed to get more handsome.
"Spike. What are you doing here."
"I thought we could talk," he stopped when he saw the look in her eyes,
"or,
ya know, hang out?" He said holding up the movie and ice cream.
Willow thought for a second, she never could turn down a good movie
and ice
cream, especially vanilla. She held the door open a little wider, silently
inviting the vampire in. When he came in she said, more mean then she
meant.
"Using food and movies to talk to me is a little weak don't you think?"
The
look in his eyes was only there for a second, but Willow knew what
it meant.
She had hurt his "pride" something he, and every other guy that she
knew,
valued like life.
"I just wanted to make it up to you." He said softly.
"Yeah, well you've done enough of that…making up that is. I just need
some time
to figure a few things out."
"Time? What the hell have I been giving you then? Because I thought
that we
were making some progress!"
"Gave me time? You gave me shit Spike! Two weeks in not time, that's
just the
beginning!" Willow felt tears form up and pushed them back down, she
would
not cry!
"Beginning of what Willow? Of the end? The end of us?"
"I don't know, maybe." Both of them felt their hearts break.
"Why?" He asked with his voice full of sadness.
"Maybe because what you said was true. You and Drusilla will always
be
perfect for each other and that'll never change. Besides, you're a
vampire
I'm a human…that'll never change, ever."
"Never?" He asked, both of them knowing what he meant.
"Never." She said, her voice cracking.
They stood there for a few minutes looking at each other before Spike
walked
to the door, stopping he said, "I will always love you, always." He
then
walked out and away from Sunnydale…. forever.