Reflections II

PAIRING: W/S

RATING: PG

DISCLAIMER: I own nothing :-(

SUMMARY: Spike's and Willow's thoughts about each other.

For everyone who asked for a sequal.

Spike

Christ this is ackward. We've been walking for ten bloody minutes and she hasn't said a damn word! I should say something, but what? It's not like we've really had alot of things to talk about. I pretty much avoid talking to them whenever possible. I wish something would jump out and attack us just to break the bloody tension!

Willow

Why did I agree to let him walk me home? He isn't even talking to me. Okay, so it's not like we've ever really had a conversation that didn't revolve around the latest demon we're researching. Still, he could say something! Right about now I'd be happy if we ran into a pack of Vampires! At least it would break the tension.

Spike

This is bloody ridiculous! I want the girl and yet I can't talk to her? I must be out of my bleeding mind! There was a time when I would have just taken her! See her, want her, take her! Easy as that. Course now I have to be all gentle about it. Have to make sure she wants me first, otherwise my brain get fried and then my ass gets staked! Fuck! I hate those stupid comandos!

Willow

I wonder what he's thinking? I've watched him closely enough lately to know when he's lost in his own thoughts. He's been thinking about something pretty involved for the last little bit. He seems a bit pissed about it too. I wish I was brave enough to ask him, then again mabey I don't want to know. He's probably thinking about Buffy. I know they slept together, Tara told me. She's worried about Buffy. I'm more concerned about Spike. Sounds bad I know, but think about it. Buffy doesn't love Spike, hell I don't think she even likes him much. He was conveinient, you know, someone to hold her when she needed it. It would never be anything more, he could never be what she wanted, he could never be Angel. I understand that. Tara was much the same for me after Oz left. I grew to love her, but it was never that all encompasing love that two people who are meant to be together share. Spike loves Buffy, or at least he thinks he does. He doesn't handle being rejected well. I wish there was some way to help him get past this Slayer obsession. It'll never work out, he should know this. Oh, almost home. I really should say something.

Spike

Her house is just down the street. She's staying at her parents place while they're out of town. Guess she figured the Slayer and Nibblet needed some time to them selves. I really should say something to her, mabey if I start up a conversation she might invite me in to talk.

"Um...Spike?"

"Yeah luv?"

"I, well... I know about Buffy. If you want to talk about it..."

"Oh. She told you?"

"No. I just sort of figured it out. I thought mabey you could use a friend right now."

"You volunteering? You want me to pour my heart out to you? Tell you how bloody miserable I am without her?"

"Yeah, um I mean no? Look, I'm just trying to help here! I like you and I thought you might want to talk to someone who would understand."

"Okay, that'd be good."

"Really?"

"Yeah. So we're here. You gonna invite me in?"

"Sure. Come on in Spike."

Spike

Yes! I'm in the door! Didn't even have to start the conversation! Okay, so she wants me to cry on her shoulder over Buffy. Small sacrifice to make. Hell, mabey she'll even try to comfort me? Could be interesting.

Willow

Okay, so now I've invited a Vampire into my parents home. Well, might as well make the most of it. Mabey he'll break down and cry on my shoulder again. Oooh! Then I could put my arms around him and comfort him! Yeah, real smart. Take advantage of the emotional Vampire. How desperate do I want to look? Mabey this wasn't such a great idea. I want him, oh Goddess do I want him! I'll just have to help him get over Buffy. Then mabey I can get him to see what's right in front of him. I always have 'tight leather and blood play' to fall back on!

~~~*~~~

The morning after

Willow

Wow. I can't believe I spent the whole night talking to Spike! Who'd have thought we'd have that much in common? Okay, so we spent alot of it complaining about how self-centered Buffy can be but still. I wonder if he really meant it when he said he was done obsessing over her? He told me his theories on why he thought he loved her. They made alot of sense. Especially the one where he figured he couldn't kill her so he would have to have her some other way. Personally I think he wanted to get back at Angel as well. I can understand that. He told me alot about Angelus's relationship with Dru, how he would always take her away from Spike just because he could. We talked about my involvement in his Buffy obsession, he still thinks a part of it is because of my 'will be done' spell. He could have a point so I apologised. I told him it could have worse, I could have wished him and Xander together. To say he was unimpressed at my attempt to lighten the situation would be an understatement. But the look on his face! Goddess it was worth the threats that followed! Once we got off the Buffy topic we talked about alot of random things, his life before he was turned, my childhood growing up on the helmouth, magic, and finally my break-up with Tara. It was nice to have a conversation with someone who actually listened to me. Spike is actually pretty intelligent, alot more than we give him credit for. Of course now I'm not just lusting after his body, nooo, I have to be interested in his mind as well!

Spike

Well that didn't go exactly as I'd hoped for. Instead of spending a few minutes pretending to be sad about the Slayer so the Witch would make me feel better (and mabey get a shag out of it) we actually spent the whole night talking. Worst of all, I soddin well enjoyed it! She's a smart one that Red is. I ended up telling her all my theories about the Slayer, we talked about that wanker Angelus or Angel as he likes to go by now. Soul or no he's still Angelus, just poofier. She told me how selfish Buffy is when it comes right down to it. Apparently she's like that with everyone. Red seems to think it's part of the whole 'chosen one' gig. I think it's just a personality flaw. She asked about my life when I was human, I told some of it. Left out the nancy boy poet parts! Made up some interesting shit, you know, told her my family was descended from royalty that kind of rot. What? Did you forget, I am EVIL! Gotta get my rocks off somehow. She told me all about her childhood. I'm honestly surprised she wasn't some Vampire's dinner along time before the Slayer got here. Her and the moron were pretty naive from what I hear. I asked her about her little witchy girl, size up the competion, you know? Seems that she's not interested in reconciling with her. She says that it would be too hard to be around someone who's still into magic. She's not a very good liar. She needs more than that little slip of a girl can give her. She needs a man. Mabey I'll stop by her parents place at sundown.

Late afternoon

Willow

I can't believe I blew off classes today! That is so not me! I was just so tired, I went to bed around 5am after Spike left and then I just didn't want to get up. I wonder if he'll come by tonight? I told him to feel free to drop by anytime. I still can't believe I had such a good time just talking to him. Okay, so I was lost in my fantasy world a bit last night. He told me his family was royalty or some crap. Puh-leeze! I read the Watcher diaries, besides that Angel told me all about 'William the Bloody' (William the Bloody awful poet!) So he doesn't want to talk about his poetry, I can live with that. He could talk about anything he wants to, his voice is so damn sexy I'd listen to him recite the dictionary! (As long as he doesn't say 'effulgent'!) I went to Willy's when I woke up and got some blood just in case he drops by. I hope that doesn't seem too forward. I don't want him to think that I want him. Even though I do. Arg, this is so frustrating. Mabey I should just gather my courage and take a chance for once. I'm not a shy little girl anymore, I dated a werewolf and a witch. I can make a pass at a vampire! Goddess I have the strangest tastes in lovers! Only on the Hellmouth.

Spike

Okay so the sun has set. What to do now? I suppose I could just go over, she said to drop by whenever. This is fuckin' stupid. I want her, she wants me, I'm not playing games anymore. I'll just go over there grab the witch kiss her and tell her she's all I can bloody think about! That'll work. Okay on my way then. I should bring her something mabey? Flowers? Nah, too poofy. Booze? Does she even drink? I don't think so. Sod it. I'm a demon, I don't need to bring her anything. Just walk up to the door mate. Ring the bell and wait for her to answer. When she does, grab her and kiss the hell out of her because she gets a chance to think about it! Right then! Here goes.

"Hey, Spike..."

Willow

Oh wow! Spike is kissing me! I didn't even have to say anything. And what a kiss! I've never been kissed like this before. He's amazing, and so... wow!

Spike

There see, worked perfectly. I got her in my arms, she kissing me back, unlife is looking up! So long as she doesn't want to pretend that there's nothing happening btween us. I refuse to go through that again! Mabey I should take this inside eh? Can't imagine she wants to give the neighbours a show.

"Luv?"

"Mmm?"

"We should go inside, neighbours ya know."

"Oh! Right, of course."

"Look, Red.."

"Spike, if you're going to apologize or something save it. I'm not sorry you kissed me."

"Good. I wasn't planning on bloody well apologizing! I'm glad I kissed you, I want to do a hell of alot more than just kiss you!"

"You Do? Good, I'd like that."

"Yeah me too."

"Upstairs?"

"Lead the way luv."

"Gee and I didn't even have buy tight leather or bleed or anything."

"What's that pet?"

"Never mind Spike, it's not important now."

The End

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