Rating: NC-17

Author: ~Lady Alexia V~

E-Mail: alexia_versillia@hotmail.com

Disclaimer:  BtVS and AtS are owned by the great and powerful Joss.  I own nothing and make no profit, so please don’t sue; I’m very, very broke.

Pairing:  Willow/Spike (for now)

Summery:  Willow has a secret

Dedication:  To Diana and all my fan, sorry I have not written in awhile.  Hope you like it I’m kinda rusty.

Author’s Notes: AU, Spike is still chipped and forced to help Buffy, Riley and the Initiative are still there, Buffy and Willow are in collage, Oz left and Tara never appeared.  Warning: Violence and rape insinuated.

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~Part One~  Painful Secrets
 

“Bloody hell, damn Slayer always threatening me cause she knows I can’t rip her heart out.  Self-centered little bitch, didn’t even notice that Red hasn’t been around lately.”
 
 

Spike smiled slightly as he thought of the little redheaded witch.  She had been the only one to treat him kind after the Initiative de-fanged him even after everything he did to her in the past.  It wasn’t hard to see why.  Her angelic soul forced her to show compassion even to a soulless demon as himself.
 
 

He had really been worried about her lately.  She wasn’t round much, and even when she was, she seemed disconnected somehow.  He really wished that the Gang would pay more attention.  Even Giles and Xander had not noticed, and that really pissed him off.  They all concluded that she probably just needed time to herself to get over her breakup with Oz.
 
 

Having been walking aimlessly around Sunnydale he noticed that he was coming up on the hospital, not really paying attention till a flash of red came into his sight.  Turning his full attention he found that it was Willow leaving the hospital, her heartbeat was slightly erratic and his vampire eyes caught the glimpse of tears running down her face as she walked down the street toward her house.
 
 

As he followed her home, to ensure she safely made it there, his mind raced with questions of why Willow would be at the hospital so late at night.  After she let herself in and locked the door Spike made his way to her balcony.  His wait was short before the light flashed on.  He watched as Willow rushed into the room dropping her bag to the floor before throwing herself to the bed and crying profusely.  He watched her continue to cry till her heart slowed and she fell asleep.
 
 

He then decided that what ever was wrong with Willow was bigger then her breakup with Oz, and he intended to find out what was wrong.

“What ever is wrong Red, I am going to help you.”

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            The day had been very long for Willow, on top of classes she tried to avoid meeting Buffy or Riley in the halls.  After finishing her paper she left the library, it was the night of a new moon so it was darker then usual.  She made her way toward her house, stake firmly clutched in her hand.  She began to feel as if she were being watched.  No sooner then the thought came to her mind she heard a voice.
 
 

“Ello Red, how’ve you been?”
 
 

            Willow turned around to meet Spike ice blue eyes.  She watched as he took few paces to catch up to where she was.
 
 

“Fine Spike, What do you want?”
 
 

“Can’t a soulless demon miss his friend?”
 
 

“I’m sorry Spike, I’ve just been busy with class, and clubs-“
 
 

“And hospitals.”
 
 

“You spied on me.”
 
 

“Nope just happen to be in the neighborhood, seen you leaving there.  What’s up Pet?”
 
 

“Nothing Spike.”
 
 

“Doesn’t seem like nothing to me.”
 
 

            Willow turned and walked away, however Spike just fell instep beside her.  He continued to talk to her as they made their way through the park.  He was about to ask her again what was wrong, when he heard a snap followed by a voice from behind them.
 
 

“Hostile 17, what the fuck do you think you are doing with my girl?”
 
 

            Both Willow and Spike spun around.  Spike meet with a fist to his nose by Riley Finn before being shot by both Forrest and Graham’s blasters.  He watched as Riley grabbed Willow roughly.  His demon roared in protest, which caused both Graham and Forest to shoot him again.
 
 

“Don’t kill him, just knock him out and let the sun take care of him, I want him to suffer.”  Riley said angrily.
 
 

            As Forrest and Graham began to beat Spike unconscious he heard Riley begin yelling at Willow.

“You like that hostile you little fucking whore?  Huh, you let him touch you?”
 
 

“No, no I didn’t.”
 
 

“I think you need to be reminded of who you belong to.”
 
 

            Spike listened helplessly as he started loosing consciousness.  The last thing he heard was the sound of clothes ripping and Willow cries of pain before complete darkness enveloped him.
 

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            As Spike senses came too, he realized that a warm body was pressed against him.  As his mind flashed back the events he last remembered his eyes flew open.  He noticed that all his wounds had been cared for.  Then his eyes gazed down at the redhead sound asleep on his chest.  He evaluated her body only covered in a pair of shorts and a tank top and growled in rage.
 
 

            His eyes roamed over the various bruises, scratches and cuts that marred her pale flesh.  Suddenly Spike heard her whimper as her body began to shake.  He watched as her hands balled up into fists.  She screamed as she shot up.
 
 

“Spike, no.”
 
 

            As Willow became aware of her surroundings she turned to Spike and found him awake.  She embraced him tight as if she were holding onto a life preserver for dear life.  As she continued to hold him she began to speak.
 
 

“I was scared that you would not wake up again, oh Spike I am so sorry for what they did to you.  It’s all my fault.  I should of run from you before he saw us together.  Spike, I’m so sorry, so very, very sor-.”
 
 

“Hush Pet none of it was your fault.”
 
 

“But.”
 
 

“No, Willow don’t blame yourself.”
 
 

            Gazing at her face marred with bruises reminded Spike to ask Willow a few questions.  He looked at her gently with compassionate eyes showing no sign of judgment.
 
 

“Red?”
 
 

“Yes.”
 
 

“Finn hurt you badly.”
 
 

            Spike watched as Willow lowered her head in shame.  He took his hand and caressed down the side of her face till it rested under her chin before he gently pulled it up forcing her eyes to meet his.
 
 

“Finn hurt you.”
 
 

“Yes.”
 
 

“Before that night.”
 
 

“Yes, but it is my fault, I led him on I just didn’t realize it.”
 
 

“No, what happen happened because he is a monster, worse then even me or Angelus, because he still has a soul.  But never you mind because if I die doing it I will ensure he never hurts you again.”
 
 

            Willow saw the sincerity and love in Spike’s eyes and began to cry softly into Spike’s chest.  Spike allowed her to continue crying knowing she needed some release.  Suddenly Spike felt something change.  She had stopped crying.  He felt her lips move on his chest.  He realized that she was kissing it.
 
 

            Spike still frozen in shock felt Willow’s lips move up his chest to his neck.  Her hands began to roam down his body.  Spike finally came out of his shock and gently pushed Willow up.
 
 

“We shouldn’t do this, not after what you have been through.”

“I’ve been defiled by a man I hate.  I want to be touched by the man I love.”
 
 

            She said it, Spike thought he was dreaming, but in his heart he knew he had heard right the woman of his dreams loved him.  He looked into her jade green eyes, he knew he could easily fall into them.
 
 

“Red I love you too.”
 
 

            With that said he kissed Willow with such passion.  He felt her heart speed up as he smelled her arousal.  He flipped them over so that she was beneath him.  He moved his hand up her shirt slightly grazing her sensitive nipple electing a moan of pleasure from the petite redhead.  Bringing his hand to the top of her shirt he brought one fingernail forward as he slowly mover his hand back down gently cutting open the tank top from top to bottom.
 
 

            Moving the material away exposing her perfect breast admiring her body as he became proudly aware of her lack of shyness toward him.  He kissed her again, more demanding this time.  He moved from her lips to her neck and down to her breast.  Willow’s moans of pleasure encouraged Spike’s attentions.  Spike quickly got up to remove his pants then made his way back to Willow removing her shorts.  He was pleased to find that she was not wearing any underwear.  Once again he tended to her breast, first one then the other before making his way down her stomach to her hot wet slit.  Using his talented vampiric tongue to bring her to her first orgasm.
 
 

“Spike!” She screamed in pure ecstasy as she came.
 
 

            Spike’s lips reached Willow’s mouth again, letting her taste herself on his lips.  Positioning himself at her entrance he looked down at her asking the silent question.  Seeing her answer in his eyes he entered her gently.  He allowed her to adjust to his size before he started his piston motion.  Once the need started to grow he speed up faster and faster as their ecstasy began to build.  They were in complete sync with each other screaming the other’s name as they both exploded in orgasm.
 
 

“Oh Goddess Spike that was incredible.”  Willow panted.
 
 

“I know what you mean Red.”
 
 

“Want to go for three?”  Willow said grinning.
 
 

“Hell ya.”
 
 

            Willow laughed.  That made Spike very happy.
 

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            Willow woke up cuddled against the cold body of her lover.  Slipping quietly out of the bed she made her way downstairs to the kitchen.  After fixing herself a croissant pocket, grabbing a can of orange Slice and warming a mug of blood for Spike she made her way back up the stares.  Entering her room she found Spike awake waiting for her.
 
 

“Wondering where you went.”
 
 

“I was hungry and after last night I thought you’d be hungry too.”  She said as she handed Spike the mug of blood.
 
 

“Spike I have something to tell you.”
 
 

            Willow looked at Spike very intensely.  This caused Spike to become very curious.  Sitting down on the bed facing him she began.
 
 

“A couple of weeks ago I hacked into the Initiative computer system and copied the files of what they did to you.  I’ve been studying them since and I think I’ve found a way to remove the chip.”
 
 

            After the initial shock Spike looked at her in awe.
 
 

“You would give me my bite back?”
 
 

“Of course, what they did to you is cruller then death.”
 
 

“Aren’t you afraid I’ll kill someone.”
 
 

“Spike, you’re a vampire and when I told you that I love you I meant it.  That means accepting who you are and what you are.”

            Spike embraced his little redheaded witch tightly.  Both he and his demon truly loved this woman.  This sweet, smart, strong, compassionate loving woman who accepted him demon and all.  She was his, and when the chip was out he planned to make that bastered who hurt her pray for death.

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Three Weeks Later:
 
 

            Spike dropped the body to the ground as he made his way out of the park.  ‘Gods below it felt so good to taste fresh human blood, though nothing compared to the sweet nectar that was Willow.
 
 

            Willow had removed the chip earlier in the morning and allowed Spike to drink from her.  To Spike it represented the true and flawless trust she had in him.  He could have no greater gift.  Over the past weeks Willow had changed.  She had him teaching her how to fight.  She started smoking and they had been spending great amounts of money shopping.  Between the two of them they had enough money to live easily for half a century, this didn’t even include the money Willow had invested in Microsoft and IBM, which steadily gained interest.
 
 

            Over the weeks they had come up with a plan to bring down Riley and his marry banned of idiots.  Willow had started acting like the old normal Willow, which made everyone happy once they finally began to notice that something was wrong.  She kept so busy with the Gang and staying in public places that Riley had no chance to get to her and lately it begun to show through.  Everyone other Spike had left except for Riley who thought he was dead.  Spike basically knew both the Slayer’s and the Initiative’s patrol patters, so that when he hunted he could avoid them both.
 
 

            Spike stepped inside the house he and Willow now shared, her parents had given it to her as a parting gift when they told her that they planned to tour the world and would not be coming back to Sunnydale.  The downstairs was dark so he knew that Willow was upstairs since he heard her heartbeat.
 
 

            He entered their room and his jaw dropped as his gaze fell on the redhead before him.  There she stood in skin-tight black leather pants, a tight low-cut v-neck black velvet tank top, black doc martins, and a ankle length leather duster that matched his own.  Her blood red hair was wildly done, well applies red tinted eye shadow graced her eyes which were lined in black as were her lips which were coated in a deep red lipstick.  Her vampire double had nothing on her.
 
 

“Spiky Red wants to play.”

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Cordelia sat at her desk organizing her paper when a head splitting vision suddenly interrupted her.  Images flashed through her mind with such a force that she wanted to die just so the pain would stop.  Finally it did, Angel Wesley and Gun had been at her side waiting for it to end.  Angel looked at her before speaking gently.
 
 

“Cordelia what did you see?”
 
 

“Willow’s funeral.”
 

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