"Spike doesn’t love me any more." Willow started pacing in front of Kaylin. "Why doesn’t he love me any more? I mean I gave him everything, and he doesn’t love me anymore. Did he ever love me in the first place? I mean I’m just Willow, no one loves me. Especially not Spike. Why doesn’t anyone love me?"

"Willow. Where-? How-? Willow there is no way Spike doesn’t love you anymore." Kaylin was trying to follow what Willow was saying. Kaylin had been living with her Grandsire for about two months now. He had asked her to stay with Willow, while he and Spike had dealt with a very powerful demon. Kaylin was still weak from killing Druscilla. Apparently Dru had created a magical backlash on her death. Whoever killed her got an extremely powerful jolt, and Kaylin had still not recovered completely from it.

"Than why hasn’t he phoned me in." Willow checked her watch. "15 hours and 38 minutes?"

"Willow…"

"No. I don’t want to hear it. Spike doesn’t love me; all he wanted was something to keep his bed warm. Now that he’s back with Angel, he doesn’t have to pretend that he loves me anymore." Willow sat down and started sobbing. "God, why do I keep falling in love with them all? First Oz and the whole-cheating-with-another-werewolf-than-leaving-and-coming-back-after-I-moved-on-but-leaving-again-because-I-cause-you-to-change-instead-of-the-full-moon-thing, than Tara and the whole I’m a demon-that-wants-to-reopen-the-Hellmouth-by-using-your-powers-thing, than the whole falling-in-love-with-Spike-the-sexiest-thing-to-ever-walk-on-the-face-of-the-earth-thing. Why can’t I just find someone who loves me, for me?"

Kaylin took Willow’s hands in her own. "Willow, Spike loves you. He rescued you from Druscilla, he’s helping the slayer, hell he’s even attempting to not kill Angel right now." Willow looked at Kaylin like Kaylin had grown an extra head. "Spike’s probably trying so hard not to kill him, that they are fucking each other like wild animals." Kaylin considered this image for a moment. It was very appealing. "I know Spike, he loves you too much to get involved with Angel again without making sure it's okay with you first."

"Than why hasn’t he phoned me?" Willow demanded. "I don’t know. But Spike wouldn’t fuck Angel without making sure you were okay with it, that’s how come he lost Dru in the first place when he was in love with me." Kaylin realised what she had said and clamped her hand over her mouth. "What?" Willow asked in a strangled voice. "No-no-nothing." Kaylin stammered. "You and Spike?" Willow looked like she was about to start crying. "Willow, Dru made him fuck me to punish me for breaking one of her damned dolls. But than we both liked it so…God, I’m so sorry." Willow looked into Kaylin’s eyes; she could see that Kaylin meant it. "How many times?"

"Only a couple. Dru was furious when she found out. Spike lied and said he forced me, so Dru wouldn’t kill me. Spike loved me, but Dru threatened to kill me if he kept being with me, so he broke it off." Kaylin was crying softly. "You still love him?" Willow tried to look at Kaylin, but Kaylin avoided eye contact. "Yes. He was the first one who didn’t leave the next morning. But I swear, there’s nothing between us anymore." Willow tried to breathe, but was finding it difficult. She loved Spike more than anything, and here Kaylin was telling her that she loved Spike. Willow shook her head, there was no way she could handle this right now. "That’s why you helped him? Because you wanted to repay him for being there for you?" Kaylin nodded. "God, Willow I’m so sorry."

"Kaylin? When you said Spike wouldn’t do anything with Angel unless I said okay," Willow closed her eyes, blinking back tears. "He asked me if it was okay if he tried to fix the relationship between him and Angel before he left. I said okay, I didn’t think at the time that he would want to have sex with him, but now…." Kaylin looked at the petite redhead. She could honestly say that this was her best friend. She sensed Angel and Spike at the front door. She slipped downstairs to let them in.

Kaylin opened the door and stopped Spike from bolting up the stairs to go see Willow. "Spike?" Kaylin tried to keep the tear out of her voice. "Don’t go yet. She’s really upset." Spike growled and grabbed Kaylin’s arm. "What did you do to her?" Kaylin gulped hard. She stared straight into Spike’s eyes. He knew that she could not be pushed around, but she forgave him for it because she knew that he loved Willow now. "She knows that you were fucking with Angel…andthatyouandIwereinlove." She finished in a rush. "What?" Angel asked. "Willow knows that you and Spike were having sex, and that Spike and I used to be involved." She stared at the floor. Spike ran his fingers though his hair. "Bloody hell." He said almost to himself. "There’s more, Willow thinks you don’t love her anymore." Kaylin tried to look at Spike, but all he did was glare at her. Angel saw the fleeting look of pain flash over Kaylin’s face as his childe glared at her. "This is all your fucking fault Peaches. If you hadn’t asked for my help, Willow wouldn’t be so damn fucking upset right now." With that he went up the stairs to go see Willow.

Kaylin went outside and sat on the steps. She reached into her pocket and yanked out her cigarettes, she stabbed one in her mouth, than searched for her lighter. Angel passed her the lighter that had fallen from her pocket. "What happened?" He asked. "I didn’t mean to tell her, it just slipped out." Kaylin stared to cry. "I didn’t mean to hurt her even more." Angel pulled her into his lap. She lay against his chest lightly, just barely brushing against him. "So you and Spike? When was this?"

"That’s why Dru left him for that chaos demon. Because he loved me more than her. He kept telling her that he was forcing me, that I didn’t want it, so I would live. Some living. I can’t have him. I loved him Angel. I still do." She leaned her against his chest. "But why do you keep helping Willow and Spike be together?" He whispered softly in her ear. "He loves her. He loves her more than me, or Dru, or even you. That’s why I help them be together." Kaylin twisted to stare into Angel’s eyes. She loved to look into his eyes; it reminded her of looking at a puppy. His eyes were so dark and deep; Kaylin could feel herself falling. Kaylin snuggled deeper into Angel’s arms. She remembered a time that she had lain in Spike’s arms like this. He had told her that he loved her. That he would never leave her. "Willow’s happy with him, right?" Angel nodded at Kaylin’s sudden question. "Willow’s my best friend. I want her to be happy, and if being with Spike, makes them both happy. Than I can handle it." Kaylin sighed. "I hope."

Willow sat on the bed crying. She kept flinching whenever Spike touched her. It just hurt to know that he had once loved Kaylin. And Kaylin still loved him. What was to stop him for going back to her? She was beautiful, more beautiful than she was. And he already loved her.

Spike could feel his heart breaking. He loved Willow more than anything. He loved her with an intensity that he had never felt with anyone before. And she was turning away from him. Because of Kaylin. He cursed softly. When he had first saw Kaylin that night so many months ago (when Willow had been kidnapped) he had felt something, a tugging at his heart. Part of him still loved Kaylin. Just like part of him still loved Druscilla and part of him still loved his sire. But Willow knew about his devotion to Druscilla, hell he had kidnapped her to get Dru back. And she knew about the bond was between a sire and a childe. But for her to find out about Kaylin. That was just, how was he going to explain how he felt about Kaylin when even he didn’t know? "Willow? Baby please talk to me." Spike pleaded.

Willow blinked the tears back. "Why?" Was all she could get out. Spike was confused. What did she mean why? What why did she mean? Willow swallowed and looked at him. "Why didn’t you tell me about Kaylin?" She started to cry again. "Do-do you st-still l-love her?" Willow stared into Spike’s eyes, she was so scared that he would leave her, she would never be able to handle him leaving. He was everything to her. Spike looked at Willow, she was sobbing. She was a wreck, and all because of him. He swore to himself. Angel had been right, he shouldn’t be with Willow.

Kaylin was lost in her swirl of emotion. If she closed her eyes it was like Spike was holding her again. She nestled into the arms around her, still thinking of Spike. Angel groaned softly, he had been crazy about Kaylin ever since he had met her.

//Kaylin roared in to the graveyard. She jumped off of her bike and staked the first vamp she met. She gave a quick series of kicks to another, while punching a third. She made her way to the fallen girl. The girl was barely breathing, her heartbeat was sluggish. Kaylin called on the Goddess to help her. Her body glowed gently with a soft golden light, the light spread over the girl, healing all her wounds. The girl sat up. "Wha-? Who are you?"

"I’m Kaylin. Are you alright?" Kaylin helped the girl stand. "Yes. I’m Cordelia, Cordelia Chase." Kaylin smiled at Cordelia. "What happened to the vampires?" Cordelia asked suddenly as they we’re walking towards Kaylin’s motorcycle. "I staked them. Can’t have then telling anyone I’m in town." Cordelia’s head snapped to look at her saviour. "Here." Kaylin handed Cordelia a helmet. "Let’s go." Cordelia swung up behind Kaylin. Kaylin gunned the bike and took off for the hotel where Angel lived.

Angel was talking with Gunn when he sensed Cordelia, with a faintly familiar vampire. His eyes widened slightly as he recognised who it was. He growled and grabbed Cordelia away from Kaylin. "Angel chill! This is Kaylin, she saved me from some vampires." Kaylin smiled at her Grandsire. "We’ve met already Cordelia, about 70 odd years ago, when Druscilla sired me." Cordelia gulped and jumped closer to Angel. Kaylin glanced at the man behind Angel. "Who are you?" He looked at the girl. Damn she was a looker. "Gunn. Charles Gunn."//

Kaylin heard Angel’s soft groan, still lost in her dreams she thought it was Spike groaning in her ear. Angel tried not to, but he couldn’t stop the groan of pleasure that rumbled in his chest. Kaylin had begun to stroke him through the leather of his pants. Kaylin was so lost in her daydream of being with Spike she didn’t even realise that it was Angel who was thrusting into her hand. She undid the zipper on his pants, freeing his hard length. She ran her hand over the tip, tracing her fingers over his hardness. She lightly ran the very tip of her finger on the underside of his cock. Angel shuddered at her light touch, he knew that he was about to cum under her ministrations. Kaylin opened her eyes to look at the night sky. She realised that she wasn’t with Spike, and in fact she had just ruined the love that he felt for someone else. She almost started to cry, than she grinned evilly. She could feel Angel’s hard length in her hand. So Angel wanted to play? She could play. In one swift movement she turned her body around and engulfed his huge cock. She began to suck on him hard, Angel grunted and held the back of her head, pushing her closer. With one final thrust Angel came. Kaylin swallowed the whole load; it was sweet to her. It tasted so much like Spike’s. Kaylin licked the last drop from his now limp cock. She raised her head to look into Angel’s eyes. His head swooped down for a hard bruising kiss.

Angel pushed Kaylin into the wall. His mouth ravaged hers. He knew that this was stolen time, and that he would never have another chance. Kaylin arched against him, she wanted nothing more for him to throw her down and fuck her brains out. Of course, the slayer wouldn't like that. "ANGEL!" Buffy yelped. He turned and growled at her. Kaylin hissed under her non-existent breath. "Slayer." Angel pinned her to the wall with one hand. "Kaylin." His eyes flashed a warning to her. Buffy growled at the vampire. She remembered what Kaylin had said to her those few months ago. "Angel, where is Willow?" Buffy pointedly ran her hand across his chest. Kaylin's eyes were flashing a warning to Buffy, but Buffy ignored it. Kaylin decided she knew just how to piss off this slayer. "Willow is upstairs." Buffy moved to go into the house. "But I wouldn't go up there if I were you, she's busy with Spike. Probably all night and all day knowing the way those two act." Kaylin smirked in triumph at he slayer's shocked expression. Angel than pointedly looked at Buffy. "And I’m busy Buffy, so get going, there's no need for you to be here." He turned and kissed Kaylin soundly. Kaylin glared at Buffy, she knew that the slayer wanted Angel, well she couldn't have him. He was hers, well at least until she had Spike back. That would be after Willow died, she could wait, and until than she could play with Angel. And he was good for the playing.
 

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