*Indicates thoughts*

Willow stared out at the rain that drizzled down the windowpane. It had been two weeks since Oz had left her, and still her heart remained very broken. A knock on the door stirred her from her thoughts, "Come in." she called without much enthusiasm.

"You know Pet it’s not a good idea to invite someone in with out seeing who it is first." *Spike! What have I done?* Willow whirled around to see him close and lock the door behind him. "Buffy…"

"The slayer has just left to go on patrol, Pet. It’s just you and me now."

"Good."

"Do what?"

Willow sighed heavily. "I said good, I was hoping something or somebody would come end my misery."

"And why would I do that?" Spike asked her; concerned that he was walking himself into a trap.

"You’re going to kill me, right? That’ll end my miserable pointless life."

"How is your life pointless?" Spike sat down on the slayer’s bed across from Willow. Willow stared at him for a second. "Are you serious? If you want to hear it’s a long list." She stated softly, near tears. He handed her a Kleenex and nodded yes. "Firstly I’m just the slayer’s little lackey, nothing important there. Secondly I’m so pathetic even demons pity me."

"How do you get that Pet?"

"You’re here listening to me complain, and Oz didn’t love me, it was only pity he felt." At this Willow started crying, tears streaming down her face. Spike reached over and pulled her into his lap. "C’mon Pet its not that bad. At least you still have friends to talk to."

"Friends? What friends? Xander? He spends all his time having sex with Anya. Buffy? She’s always on patrol, or with Riley. I don’t have any friends to talk to."

"I don’t have any friends at all. Dru left, all my minions were either entrees for the judge, went with Dru, or are dead. Thanks to the slayer."

"Really? Who do you talk to?"

"Right now you. Other than that, myself."

"Wow. And I thought I had nothing." Willow whispered quietly. *I’m sitting on Spike’s lap discussing our screwed up lives or un-life for him, and it feels nice. Whoa! Did not just have sweet feelings for him! But he IS really cute. And I like this side of him, the nice side of him.*

"Hey! You’re not supposed to feel sorry for me. I’m Spike, remember?"

"Sorry. Um, are you gonna try to kill me now?"

"Do you want me to?"

"Which answer results in me living? ‘Cause it’s that one." Spike laughed and pulled her up with him "Come on Pet. Let’s go catch a movie."

"Sure." Willow chewed nervously on her bottom lip "Um, Spike?"

"Yea Pet?"

"Could you please not call me Pet. It reminds me of Dru."

"Sure thing Red." *Damn this girl has guts. Not to mention a nice body, I bet she’d be bloody marvelous in bed…NO! Do not start thinking of Red like that! Remember you want to kill her, not fuck her. Why couldn’t you do both? Shut-up!*
 
 

******After the movie, back at the dorm******

"Spike?"

"Yea Red?"

"Thanks for cheering me up, and not killing me when you had the chance."

"I didn’t think it’ve been very nice to kill you after you poured your heart out to me like that." Willow reached up and kissed him quickly on the cheek, than blushed and stammered out a hasty "’Night Spike" and shut the door.
 
 

Spike stood there for a second with a goofy grin on his face, than walked away smiling. *Wow! I can’t believe she kissed me! That girl is incredibly amazing, too bad the next time I see her she’ll prob’ly try to stake me. If she let me shag her, I’d help her jam the stake in. Pity it won’t happen.* He looked at her window "’Night Willow."

Willow lay on her bed a smile on her face *I kissed him. Oh, why did I do that? Now he’ll prob’ly try to kill me now. But it was worth it. Too bad I didn’t kiss him on the lips.* She pulled on her oversized baseball tee that she slept in, and crawled into bed. She shut her eyes and fell asleep thinking about the events that evening.
 
 

******The next night******

Willow heard a knock on the door, than saw it open "Red?" Spike called her. "Spike! What are you doing here? If Buffy showed up, she’d stake you!"

"I had to see you again." *Please don’t ask me to leave!*

"Really?" *Maybe he wants to kill me, but he still came to see me!*

"Um, Red do you want me to go?" *Say no!*

"No! I mean stay awhile, its nice to have someone to talk to." *And you’re really hot in that tight black T-shirt.* Spike smiled at her, and came in to the dorm room. Willow smiled at him for a second "Oh! Do you want something to drink? I mean non-blood ‘cause the only blood here is mine, and I like it where it is."

"No, I’m fine. I came to see if you wanted to go to another movie tonight. Do you?"

"Sure! Just let me get my jacket."

******On the way home from the movie******
 
 

"Red, you go on ahead something’s not right."

"O-OK"
 
 

******Spike disappears down an alley******

"Well, well, well look at this the little witch all by herself, with no slayer to protect her." Willow turned around to see a vampire come out from behind her, vamp face on and armed with a sharp knife. She started to back up away from him.

"What scared of me?" He mocked her "Not so tough now, are you?"

"Leave her alone!" Spike called out from behind the vampire. The vamp turned around to see who interrupted his dinner. "Spike." He hissed through clenched teeth. "Right, now run-along Sean."

"Not likely Spike, this is my prize."

"Not well I’m ‘ere."

"Than leave."

"How about you leave before I kill you."

"You and what army?" Spike came closer to the vampire and put his "game" face on. The vampire attacked, Spike sent him spiraling into the side of the ally. Sean jumped up and stabbed him with the knife in the back. Spike turned around and snapped his neck. Spike glanced at Willow standing there staring at him "Go home!" He ordered. She was shaken up a bit. "Spike?"

"Go home!"

"Are you OK?"

"I’ve lost too much blood."

"Where are you going to get some?"

"I have some at home."

"Here let me help you." Willow started to walk towards him. "No! Stay back!" Willow kept walking towards him. She leaned over and pulled him to his feet "Come on."

"Willow get back!"

"I trust you." *She trusts me? What the hell is she thinking? I could kill her in an instant! But I won’t. God damn it! I can’t, I…I think I’m in love with her. Where the hell is that coming from? I can’t love her! But I do. I love Willow.*

*I trust him? Where the heck did that come from? But I do. Somehow I know he won’t hurt me. I think I have feelings for him. I can’t! Not another demon! I won’t fall for him! I won’t! I won’t! I won’t!*
 
 

******Spike’s Place******

"Thanks for fixing me up Red." Spike looked at the bandage Willow had wrapped around his chest. "No problem. You did save my life." Spike looked at her, his shirt was on the floor beside him and she was leaning very close to him. He could smell the shampoo she had used, sweet and flowery. He pulled her onto his lap and kissed her on her mouth as softly as he could. When she didn’t fight back he pulled her head closer to deepen the kiss. *She’s so perfect! I wish I could make love to her right now. There’s no way, but I have to try.*
 
 

*What am I doing?!?! I shouldn’t be kissing Spike, but it feels so good. No one ever kissed me this sweetly, not even Oz.*

Spike pulled his mouth away from her mouth and ran it down her neck; he started to slide his hands up her waist. When he felt Willow start to stiffen he pulled away "Please." He leaned in and brushed her lips with his. He whispered it against her mouth, "Please."

Willow pulled away and stood up, she started for the door. "Red, wait!"

"No! I’m not going to get hurt again!" Than more softly "Good-bye Spike." She turned on her heel and walked out the door. She ran home and threw herself sobbing on to her bed crying her heart out because she had fallen in love with another demon. *This one will leave me too, only this time I know he’ll leave me. It’s better to stay away from him now and only hurt a little, than be with him until he leaves and hurt a lot.*

Spike sat there stunned. *She doesn’t want me. God, I love her so bloody much and I can’t have her. At least I can watch her, keep her safe.*

So it went on, whenever Willow went out at night Spike followed her to keep her safe.
 
 

******A couple weeks later******

Spike threw the vampire into the wall, than grabbed him around the throat "Why are you following her?"

"Put me down!" He cried. "Why. Are. You. Following. Her?" He growled choking the vampire even more. "She has to die." He croaked, right before Spike snapped his neck.

"Why are you following me?" Willow demanded. Spike whirled around, to see her standing there holding a very sharp stake. "I’ve been trying to protect you." He answered, knowing it didn’t matter what he said, he was going to die, and very soon. "Why?"

"Because I love you." He didn’t look at her; he couldn’t look at her and see the hate he knew would be in her eyes. "I’m serious." She growled. "So am I. I’ve been in love with you since that night that you invited me into your dorm. I just didn’t know it, until you said you trusted me."

"You don’t love me. No one loves me. Everyone leaves me. Oz did. And you would to."

"I’m not Oz. I’m Spike! When I say I love you I mean it. And I won’t leave you, not ever!" He walked over to her, and wiped the tears off of her cheek with his thumb. "You will. You’ll get bored of me and leave." Spike pulled her close, up against his chest "I swear, I won’t leave you Willow. I love you more than anything." She looked up at him with big eyes "You, …you called me Willow."

"I love you Willow. Please believe me. I need you in my life." He leaned down and kissed her. She reached up and wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling herself closer to his mouth. After a moment she pulled away "You really love me?"

He grinned "More than anything." She let go of the stake and kissed him hard. "I love you Spike." He picked her up and carried her back to his place, which was only down the street, and laid her softly on the bed and kissed her. He knew he had to be careful with her, she had been hurt before. He had to show her that he loved her.
 
 

He spent all night making soft, tender love to her. When the sun started to come up he pulled her close and whispered into her ear "I love you Willow, more than anything. I swear I’ll never leave you." She smiled and replied "I love you too Spike, more than anything." They fell asleep dreaming of their future…together.
 
 

The End

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