Runaway Train
Author: Poppy
E-Mail: Slayerkitty@yahoo.com
Disclaimer: Joss owns BTVS, Soul Asylum owns the lyrics to "Runaway Train"
Rating: PG-13. Character death.
Summary: Song fic. Sad fic. Willow makes a choice...
Spoilers: None.
Archive: Anyone who wants it.
Feedback: Yes, please. But be kind.
Dedication: To James, this one's for you. Thank you for the smiles you gave me.  I miss you.
Notes:  I was listening to the song, and a story idea popped into my head. The song's depressing anyway (the video is an effort to locate missing children, and luckily, it has helped.) and I thought of a sad fic.  Here it is:
 
 

Willow sat on her bed in her room, tears running down her face.  She looked at the blackness outside her window.  Everything was gone.  She had nothing.  He left.  There was nothing left to keep her around.  She turned on her radio.

    Call you up in the middle of the night,
    Like a firefly without a light,
    You were there like a slow torch burning,
    I was a key that could use a little turning.

Willow began to sob.  She went into the kitchen.

    So tired that I couldn't even sleep
    So many secrets I couldn't keep
    Promised myself I wouldn't weep,
    One more promise I could keep.

Willow came back with a knife.

    Its seems no one can help me now
    I'm in too deep
    There's no way out
    This time I have really led myself astray.

She turned the knife over in her hands, marveling at the sharpness.

    Runaway train never going back
    Wrong way on a one way track
    Seems like I should be getting somewhere
    Somehow I'm neither here no there.

She cut her wrist, watching the blood bubble up.

    Can you help me remember how to smile
    Make it all seem worthwhile
    How on earth did I get so jaded
    Life's mystery seems so faded

She slashed her other wrist.

   I can go where no one else can go
   I know what no one else knows
  Here I am just drownin' in the rain
  With a ticket for a runaway train

It was getting hard to breathe.  She closed her weary eyes.

    And everything seems cut and dry
    Day and night, earth and sky
    Somehow I just don't believe it

Spike walked into her room, back for her, to tell her he loved her.

    Runaway train never going back
    Wrong way on a one way track
    Seems like I should be getting somewhere
    Somehow I just don't believe it.

He was too late.  He lost her.  She left him.  He picked her up and carried her to the belcony.

Buffy found Willow next to a pile of ashes the next morning.

    Bought a ticket for a runaway train
    Like a madman laughin' at the rain
    A little out of touch, little insane
    Just easier than dealing with the pain.

Buffy hoped they were together, wherever they were.  They both got the rest they so deserved.

                        THE       END.
 

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