*I thought that you'd be loving me.
I thought you were the one who'd stay forever.
But now forever's come and gone
And I'm still here alone.*
Willow was in the dorm room, crying. She couldn't believe it. After Oz had left, she met Tara. Then Tara who left without a note. Just left. But then Spike came along, and he helped her. He made her feel loved, needed, like a Goddess even. He was her everything. She never thought something like this would happen. In a million years.
*'Cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.*
The tears slid down her cheek, and she laid her head on her pillow, sobbing. First Oz, then Tara, now Spike. What was wrong with her? Was she bad for love? Was she ugly? Granted she didn't have Cordy's style in clothes or Buffy's self confidence, and stuff, but she thought she was still ok. Another sob escaped her lips.
*It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.*
She still couldn't believe he had done that to her. Not even Oz was this bad. She didn't know how she would survive this. Spike was even there to help her with Oz. But no one can help her with this. She wouldn't let anyone help her. Not anymore.
*I thought that I'd be all you need.
In your eyes I thought I saw my heaven.
And now my heaven's gone away
And I'm out in the cold.*
She can still remembered as clear as day. She and Spike were walking through the park, and thats where they met up with Drusilla. Willow didn't know what to do, she was in shock. Drusilla had stepped closer to Spike, told her she had been waiting for him, and then Spike looked at her. At his Willow, and just shrugged her off. Like she was a Harmony. Nothing that mattered, just something to keep the bed warm.
*'Cause you had me believing,
You had me believing in a lie.
Guess I couldn't see it,
I guess I couldn't see it till I saw goodbye.*
How could he? How could he just leave her? She thought he loved her. She loved him, so much. She didn't even love Oz as much. Spike was something totally new to her, he showed her everything, and then he just shrugged her off? Why?
*It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
It was you who broke my heart in pieces.
It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.*
Willow was numb. Numb from the pain, from the love that had once been but left so fast you couldn't dare catch it again. She still couldn't believe how he left her. After he looked at Willow and shrugged, he went towards Drusilla and kissed her. Exactly like he kissed Willow. That was one thing that hurt her most. That kiss told her, it was over. Never to come back. But then again, never to leave. Willow never stopped loving him. Thats why she was still in shock. Still in tears.
*'Cause you were only playing,
You were only playing with my heart.
I was never waiting,
I was never waiting for the tears to start.*
Willow still hadn't forgotten what Drusilla had said to her. After they kissed, Drusilla walked slowly up to Willow, and bent down to her ear, and whispered
"I won."
Then she looked in Willow eyes, and Willow just stood. Not daring to move. As they walked away it took all of Willow's power not to cry right then. She wasn't going to give them the satisfaction.
Buffy walked into the dorm room. She was still crying. She hadn't eaten anything for a week. She refused to leave the dorm room. Buffy had been forced to get all her schoolwork, which Willow did numbly. Buffy only wanted to do one thing. Stake the bastard for doing this to her best friend. She wanted to stake all of them. Oz, Tara, and Spike. Maybe Drusilla as an including. They all hurt her byond anything. No 19 year-old should go through this kind of pain. No one should go through this pain.
*It was you who put the clouds around me.
It was you who made the tears fall down.
Only you who broke my heart in pieces.*
*It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue
Oh, I never should have trusted you.*
Willow heard Buffy walking in, but she didn't move. She couldn't. Not anymore. She was to weak to do anything, she knew she had to eat, but she didn't know why. Why would someone want to live, when someone who they loved so much left them. This happened three times, all in less than 3 years. Willow was surprised she's lived this long.
*It was you, it was you who made my blue eyes blue.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.*
Buffy went over to her friend and hugged her.
"It'll be alright Will's. Please, eat something. Please live." Buffy said. Willow turned to her friend.
"Why?" She asked. Her throat was dry.
"We need you. Yes, I spoke correctly. Do you know the gangs been falling apart? We are having fights everyday. Giles is on the edge, Xander is depressed, Anya and Xander haven't even had sex in two weeks. Thats a record for them. Everyone is so sad about what happened, even Anya. We want you to make it through this...... Can I ask you something?" Buffy said.
"I can't exactly stop you." Willow said weakly, eyes brimming with tears again.
"Can I stake him?" She asked. Willow laughed weakly.
"I doubt he will be coming around here anymore." Willow said, as she turned to look out at the dark rainy night.
*Oh, I never should have trusted you.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.
Oh, I never should have trusted you.*
read the sequal 'Tears of Pearls'