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I never saw it coming, ever. We were just casually strolling through the park when he attacked us. There I stood not being able to do a bloody thing! I hated myself for that.
Everytime I hit her attacker it hurt, the worst hurt in the entire world. I take that back seeing the love of my life being attacked hurt more. The vampire tossed her around like a rag doll, like a rag doll and I just stood there?
She tried her damndest to fight back, but it wasn't working.I lunged at the vampire one last time my head feeling as if it was splitting in two. I held my head as I watched my love being ripped into with sharp fangs.
The vampire tossed her to the side and smiled, he wiped his mouth and said; "Mmm, tastes like chicken," I heard him laugh as he walked off, "I left a little for ya' english."
I ran to Willow's side I could feel tears welling up in my eyes, I hadn't
cried in decades. I tried to hold them back. She looked up at me, I knew
her life wouldn't last much longer. Oh how I wanted to give her immortality,
but only if she asked.
She looked up at me with those beautiful green eyes of her, eyes I
would stare into for hours.
She tried to speak, but sounds were'nt coming out of her mouth. My tears became evident as I scooped her up in my arms. She only stared at me as I carried her off, I didn't know where I was going, but I was on my way. Her eyes were on me the whole time, and then when I realized where I was I started a quicker pace to my new confidants.
Suddenly her eyes rolled back into her head and I knew she was gone.
I began to sob hysterically, "No! Oh please?". My pace quickened even more.
I got to the door and kicked it open to see her friends. I will forever
see their faces as they screamed her name and ran towards me. I gently
laid her down on the couch, tears still falling.
"Giles is there anything we can do, any spells?" I begged for my love.
I knew that I would get blamed for her death right away.
"How could you do it?" Xander ran at me full force knocking me down. I just stood there letting him beat on me, taking out everything on me. I wasn't even going to defend myself.
The slayer sat there next to her friend calling her name over and over, hoping she'd come back to her. I was hoping she would too. Xander finally got off of me to grieve his friend.
Giles, poor Giles, always keeping it together. He called the ambulance, in hopes.
I sat down next to the slayer, "Slay...Buffy, I couldn't stop him." I began to sob.
I began to mumble about the pains over and over again.
Her burial was yesterday and I couldn't be there for it, damn I hate this!
I don't want to be a vampire anymore, I don't want immortality.
So this is my last entry to the world.
I decided to go peacefully, I'm going to her grave tomorrow morning, when the sun's out.
Every moment that I am here on earth I see her face and that horrid night. I see her friends mourning her.
I hate every second of it.
Don't worry Willow I will be with you soon enough.
Spike