Day 1
I'm standing in front of the shop; I should just open
the bloody door. I've got to stop being such a poof
and just go in. All that makes logical sense of
course. But what about the part of me that says they
only tolerated me because of the slayer and she wasn't
here now. Worse what if they blamed me. I was
supposed to protect Dawn, and I didn't. I let that
damn demon throw me off of that tower. What the hell,
I'm going in.
I'm walking in; the Watcher looks up and sees me but
doesn't say anything. Anya's walking over to me.
"Are you going to buy something Spike?" She asks.
"No."
"That's unpatriotic." She stated.
"What?" I reply confused. "Oh, bloody hell, I'm not
American."
"Oh yeah."
Red's coming this way now, well at least she usually
makes sense.
"Hello Spike."
"Hi Red."
"Did you need something? You haven't been here since."
She says nervously.
"No, I mean well." I start.
Bloody hell, why do I sound like a nervous teen-ager.
"I'm here because I heard you guys have decided to
fight evil without the Slayer." I said.
"Oh. Yeah right we are." Willow said not sure what I
was getting at.
"I thought you might need some help." I finish.
"Really, oh my god, Spike really."
"Well sure."
"We didn't think you would you know. still be
interested in fighting evil without Buffy."
"It may have started because of her. But I want to
help you with this I really do." I say.
I still can't believe I want to fight evil. I am
evil. I'm supposed to be the Big Bad.
Spike came into the shop. I wonder what he wants. He
looks so nervous. Not like him at all. I'm just
going to go over there and ask him. Oh god, Anya's
over there now. She's telling him he's un-American.
I swear I will never understand what Xander sees in
her. I better go rescue him before she starts her
lecture on capitalism. Hate to have his chip activate
because he tries to kill her.
Wow, he wants to help us patrol. He wants to fight
evil. I thought about going to see him about
patrolling before but figured he wouldn't be
interested. Who would've thought the Big Bad would
decide to fight evil instead of creating it.
At least this means I don't have to patrol with Giles
anymore. He doesn't want to patrol anyway, but he
thinks it's too dangerous for me to patrol alone.
Xander patrols with Anya so that leaves me with Tara
but she still isn't really up to it. So she stays
home with Dawn. That means Giles has to go with me.
But I'm sure he'll be glad to let Spike take over that
job.
"Giles Spike wants to patrol with us." I call to him
as he comes down the stairs.
"Really." Giles says eyeing the vampire suspiciously.
"Bloody hell Watcher. I want to help. I promised the
Slayer I would protect her sister. The best way I can
do that is to help fight evil." Spike says.
Spikes getting angry. I hope they don't make him so
mad he leaves. I think all the stuff about just doing
it because he promised Buffy is a lie anyway. He
wants to help.
Why the bloody hell don't they ever believe me. I
offer to help, for free I might add, and they act like
I plan on killing all of them. They need my help.
They can fight alone, but they will get much farther
with some super human strength if they face anything
really bad.
At least Red believes me. She seems to want my help.
I never could understand why she's so insecure. Well
at least she got rid of the ex-demon. She's pulling me
over to the table to tell Harris. Yeah like he's
going to be happy about this.
"Spikes going to help us Xander." She says so
enthusiastically.
"What?" The boy says.
"Spike wants to patrol with us." Willow says more
slowly.
"No. I don't want dead-boy junior out at night with
me."
"Fine he'll patrol with me." I hear the witch say.
"That's crazy Will. He. Is. Evil." Xander says to
her.
"He says he wants to help. What does he have to do to
prove he changed, does he actually need to let the
next hell god kill him for you to believe him." She
says angrily.
She's defending me. I don't think anyone has ever
done that before. Not really. Great now here comes
the Watcher again.
"That's enough Xander. If Spike wants to help, we
need all the help we can get. Until he gives us
reason to not trust him, I think he has proven he can
be of service."
Well not exactly a glowing recommendation but at least
he's not staking me.
"Spike we have all begun training. Since we all
patrol we all need to train. Xander and Anya have
been training and patrolling together and I have been
training and patrolling with Willow. I think it best
if maybe you take my place with Willow for the time
being. That is if it's okay with her." He said.
"That's fine." Willow says to Giles.
So I will patrol with Red. That is definitely better
than patrolling with Xander or Giles.
I changed out of my skirt and into my patrolling
clothes. I've decided to wait for Spike downstairs.
He said he would come and get me, instead of me
walking to his crypt alone after dark. Oh, he's
already here.
"Hey, you're early." I say as I reach the bottom of
the steps.
"I know I left right after sunset." He says.
"You could have come upstairs, I would have gotten
ready sooner."
"It wasn't a problem." He says watching me, "You
ready?"
"Lets go." I say.
We head outside and back toward the cemetery.
One of us should probably say something. We haven't
said a word in like ten minutes.
"Spike, can I ask you a question?" I decide I might as
well start.
"What?" He asks. He stops walking and looks at me.
Great now I'm nervous. Why did he have to look at me?
"Well, Buffy said you told her about before. when you
were human."
"Yeah, what of it?" Okay why is he getting defensive
now?
"She said what you told her. That you were different
than you are now, that she thought you had been hurt,
that's why you are the way you are now?"
Great Buffy told her I was a poof. No wonder she
always looks at me like that.
"I wasn't different." I say.
I sound angrier than I should. I know that. She's
just trying to talk to me.
"She said you wrote poetry."
"Yeah. So." I respond.
"Spike she thought you were different then. Not in a
bad way." The witch is saying.
"I wasn't a poof."
"Didn't say you were. Tell me about the girl. The
one that hurt you. Tell me what happened."
God why does she want to know this. I should just
tell her to sod off. That would be the smart thing.
"You really want to here this Red?" I ask instead.
"Yeah."
We start walking again. Only now I'm telling her
about my life. She wants to know everything. She
wants to know about when I was a little boy. About my
mum, and my sisters. I tell her everything she wants
to know. I answered all her questions. I tell her
about Cecily. Only unlike Buffy she expresses
sympathy. She says tells me that Cecily was a fool.
I can't believe he told me all this. He is smart. He
was sensitive. Actually I think he still is. I can
see in his eyes that it still hurts him, what the girl
said to him, what all those people said. That was a
hundred years ago and it still bothers him. I do
think that's why he's the way he is. God now I feel
so bad for the way we treated him after Buffy found
out that he loved her. He had been trying back then
he really had. And we all turned around and treated
him like dirt.
"I can't believe she was so cruel to you Spike." I
say.
"It was a long time ago." He says, "It doesn't matter
anymore."
"It does. Feelings always matter."
"Yeah, right."
"I'm sorry Spike." I finally say.
"For what?" He asks.
"The way we all treated you. After Buffy told us
about." I trail off.
"I don't blame you. I can imagine how it must have
all sounded when she told you." He says. "Anyway it
didn't hurt as bad as when she."
"She what?" I ask.
What had Buffy done that caused him that much pain?
I can't believe I told her all this. I can't believe
any of this. But it feels good to have someone around
that wants to hear what I say. That listens to me.
That understands what I say.
"What did Buffy do?" I hear her ask again.
"Nothing, it doesn't matter." I say, not sure I want
to talk about this.
"Spike I want to know, and I told you it matters."
This time she stopped walking and grabbed my arm.
"The night I told her that story about Cecily. She
took those words and threw them back in my face." I
tell her and turn to walk away.
I hear her running to catch up to me. I slow down and
let her catch up.
"Spike she did that, really?" She asks panting.
"Yeah." I say and continue walking.
"Oh god. I can't believe she hurt you like that."
God the chit looks like she's going to cry. I don't
believe this. I really don't. Someone is crying for
me. Me. Hell even Dru in a hundred years never cried
for my pain. Caused it sure but never cried.
"I think it's time to take you home." I say.
"Okay." She says.
We turn and head back to her dorm. We walk the rest
of the way in silence. When we get to her dorm she
turns and looks at me.
"Will you train with me tomorrow, it'll be Xander and
Anya's night to patrol. So I think it would be a good
idea if we train a little. I know it isn't like
training with Buffy, I won't really be much of a
challenge but I do need the practice even if you
don't." She says without taking a breath.
"Relax Red. I'll train with you. And please quit
comparing yourself to the slayer. You can't be her.
Ever. But that doesn't me you're not worth anything.
You are as strong as she was just in different ways."
I say then I turn and walk away.
Day 2
I walked into the training room. Training, who ever
would have thought that me, Willow Rosenberg, would be
training to fight? Magic sure, but actual physical
fighting. Xander spent the entire afternoon telling
me how stupid I was to train with Spike. He'll hurt
me. I keep telling him that's ridiculous he can't
hurt me even if he wants to. I love Xander but he
isn't really very open-minded considering he's dating
an ex-demon.
I hear a noise behind me and turn around. Spikes
standing there looking at me. Okay I don't look great
dressed like this, I'm wearing spandex shorts and a
really big t-shirt, but I don't think it renders
staring like I have two heads.
"Hi." I say.
"Hi, ready?" He says moving into the room.
"Yeah, were do you want to start?" I ask.
"Punching bag?" he suggests.
"Okay."
He grabs the gloves and helps me put them on then
moves to hold the bag for me. I know I'm not hitting
it hard enough to warrant him needing to hold it but
he doesn't say anything.
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God, does she know how she looks in that outfit. No,
of course not, we are talking about Red here. She
thinks of herself as the ugly duckling. She looks
pissed when she sees me looking at her. So I suggest
we start with the punching bag.
I hold it still for her. She really does need to work
on the punching, she can hit harder than that I'm
sure. She just needs some incentive maybe.
"Hey Red, What happened with you and the dog-boy?" I
ask.
I already know this answer but maybe it'll get her
angry enough to really hit the bag.
"What?" She asks breathing hard.
"Why'd he leave? You not good enough for him? Couldn't
please him maybe?" I ask.
"No, I. Couldn't please him? You mean?" she asks.
Its working she is starting to really hit it now. So
I just keep egging her on.
"Yeah, you know not woman enough maybe? Or maybe the
whole lesbian thing was the problem?" I suggest.
"Spike. I am more than woman enough for him. It wasn't
that. It was the wolf thing." She says and stops
hitting.
I move from behind the bag. Damn, she's crying. I
didn't mean to do that. She was supposed to get
angry, punch the bag or me, but not cry.
"Red, I. don't cry okay." I say.
"I'm sorry."
"Right then your turn."
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Spikes putting on the gloves. I can't believe I cried
like that. I should have known better than to let him
upset me that way. Okay he says he ready so I move
behind the bag.
"You don't have to hold it Red." He says.
"I can do it."
So I hold the bag and he starts to hit it. He's not
punching hard at all. I know he can it harder than
that. I tell him so. He says if he hits hard he'll
hurt me and in return the chip will hurt him. So we do
this for a while and then stop to rest.
"Want a soda?" I ask, " I would offer you blood but I
doubt Giles has any."
"Sodas fine Luv." He says sitting on the bench.
We sit down and drink the sodas in silence. After we
finished he asked what we were going to do next.
"It doesn't matter. I pretty much need work with
everything." I say.
"Right then. Stakes or hand to hand?" he says.
"Stakes." I reply.
He walked over to the cabinet and looked through it.
Finally finding whatever it was he was looking for he
tosses it over to me. I look at it.
"It's plastic." He says.
"Plastic?"
"Don't want any accidents do we Red?" He says.
"Oh right." I say embarrassed.
We move on to the mats and begin moving around each
other. I lunge for him a couple times and he easily
avoids my attacks.
"Gotta be faster Luv." He says sidestepping my attack.
We do this for a while before I say I need a break,
Its getting late now. He suggests we call it a night
and offers to walk me home.
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I actually am enjoying working with the witch. She
isn't bad at all. She actually could have hit me with
that stake a couple times; she just doesn't have
enough confidence to attack without hesitating.
We decided to call it a night and I walk her home. We
agree on a time to meet tomorrow, this time at the
magic shop again instead of her dorm. I leave her at
the door and head back to my crypt. I still feel bad
about he wolf comments; I really didn't think they
would hurt her feelings.
I think what we need to work on her confidence, if she
had more confidence she could be a real fighter. She
just needs someone to force her to see that. I just
need to find a way to make that happen. Well tomorrow
we patrol, but the day after we train again. I'm sure
I can think of something by then. I grab a bag out of
the fridge and empty it into a cup.
Day 3
Tara and I had an argument today. She doesn't want me
to patrol with Spike. I think she's jealous. I told
her not to be. I love her. I do right? Things have
been so different since Buffy died. We fight more. I
don't like fighting with her, but she doesn't
understand. She says my power scares her. I need to
patrol tonight; I need to get away, even just talking
to Spike. He understands better than Tara does.
I'm waiting for him at the magic shop; he walks in and
looks around. I think he's trying to avoid Anya.
Yesterday she tried to lecture him again about being
patriotic and spending money. I wave and he walks
over too me.
"Ready Red." He says.
"Sure" I say and rise to leave.
We walk out of the shop and head toward the park
tonight. I'm actually hoping to run into some vamps
tonight. I need the fight. We didn't have to walk
long before this vampire comes out of the bushes and
grabs me.
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Bloody hell I can't believe I didn't see him coming.
Now I have to dust it without hurting Red. All of a
sudden I see him move his hands from her and fly back
towards the tree he had been hiding behind. Willow
turned and looked at me.
"Wanna stake him please?" She says smiling.
The vampire starts to move forward so I throw the
stake at him and we watch him turn to dust.
"Damn, Red that was impressive." I say.
"Thanks. Can't do much physically but magic can help
a lot."
We continue walking. I decide tonight it's her turn to
tell her story, so I ask about her childhood.
"You don't want to hear about it. It's really not
that interesting." She says.
"Yes it is Red. Your life is as interesting as mine
I'm sure?" I say.
She starts talking about when she was a little girl.
Her life wasn't bad, not really, but her parents
weren't exactly up for the number one parent award.
She told me about being left with sitters and nannies
as a little girl. About meeting Xander in
kindergarten. She told me about high school. I
couldn't help but think that she had been even bigger
of a poof than I was. That is until she met Buffy. I
realize she has changed so much since that time.
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He actually wanted to hear about my life. My life,
not exactly exciting story there, but he listened.
"So Red when did the magic thing start?" he asks.
"When?" I say, " Not sure really. I guess after I met
Buffy. Until then I didn't think magic or vampires or
demons were real. They were monster movie stuff you
know."
"Yeah, kind of shocking to find out that the monsters
under the bed as a child were real isn't it?" He asks
smiling at me.
"Definitely."
We walked through the park stopping at the playground.
We stopped to rest on the swings for a few minutes
before heading back home.
"What other little magiks do you have up your sleeve
Red?" he asks me.
"What do you mean?" I say not sure what he wants to
know.
"Well I know you can do parlor tricks like levitating
objects, and the big black magic stuff, from Glory.
But what else can you do?"
"Oh. Lots of stuff. Like throwing that vamp. I
found out that is a helpful spell for lots of
situations. I'm still working on the ball of sunshine
idea for patrolling." I say then realizing I'm
patrolling with a vampire, " But I guess that won't
work for us uh? Xander and Anya could use it though.
Oh and I'm still trying to turn Amy back."
"Amy?" he asks.
So as we head back to the dorms I tell him about Amy
and how she turned herself into a rat. He says he
thinks it's cool that I want to try and change her
back. We say goodbye when we reach the door and I head
inside for bed. We are going to meet after the shop
closes tomorrow to train.
Day 4
It's just after sunset so I guess I should head over
to the magic shop now. Willows probably already
waiting for me. God I hope she's wearing more than
she was last time. Those tight little shorts. Right
then, I shouldn't be thinking about this, about her,
that way. I'm supposed to help her patrol and train
that's it right. Not thinking about how cute she
looks in those little shorts or little skirts that she
wears.
I walk into the shop and see her sitting at the table
reading a book. She looks very deep in thought I hate
to disturb her. I just watch for a minute.
"Red." I say quietly moving behind her.
"Oh, Spike, you startled me. I didn't hear you come
in." She says.
She set down her book and stood up. We move into the
training room. She's wearing sweat pants today and a
sleeveless top. She says she wants to do the bag
again. So she grabs the gloves and puts them on.
"Okay this time don't hold back Luv. Remember I can
take anything you can dish out." I tell her.
She starts hitting the bag. She's doing better than
before. I can feel the punches this time. We
continue for a while until she says she wants a break.
She asks if I want I turn, I tell her no. I don't
like the bag very much anyway.
She brings over sodas again and we sit down for her to
catch her breath. We talk a little about her classes,
and she tells me about her argument with Tara. I feel
bad. I don't think the other girl is enough for Red
though. She is just too mousy.
"Ready?" She asks.
"What are we doing?" I ask her, "Stakes again or hand
to hand?"
"Lets try hand to hand this time." She says.
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Talking to him is getting so easy. He seems to
understand. He acts interested in my classes and my
magic. He listened to the problems with Tara. He
didn't want to do the bag. He says he doesn't like
it.
After we are break I chose to do hand to hand instead
of stakes. I don't know if that was a good idea or
not but too late now.
"Some ground rules here Red." Spike says to me, " No
magic okay?"
"Why?"
"Not fair. We can practice magic another day if you
like but if we're practicing hand to hand no magic
allowed." He tells me.
"Fine." I agree.
We get on the mat and begin circling each other. I
mention his chip. I don't want him to get hurt so I
can train.
"Won't activate unless I intend to hurt you and I
don't." he explains.
He lunges toward me and I move out of the way. He
falls, I can't help but giggle at him on the floor.
"Look I took down the Big Bad." I say still laughing.
"Think its funny do you Luv?" he says from the floor.
Before I could respond he grabs my leg and pulls me on
top of him.
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She let out a small scream when she fell on top of me.
I can't believe she moved fast enough to make me
fall.
"Now what are you going to do Red?" I ask.
"Well." She said nervously.
"Come Willow, I told you, you can't hurt me."
"But." She starts again.
She moved off of me, and sat up. I stood and pulled
her to her feet. Time to get back to training I tell
her. We start circling again. She asks me about Dru.
She is trying to push me this time. Well fine that
works two ways.
"Want to play that way Witch fine." I say to her, "
Still haven't told me about the wolf. Why'd he leave?
You weren't woman enough right? Couldn't please him?"
I say hoping this time I wouldn't hurt her feelings
again.
"I told you I'm plenty woman enough for any man." She
says and lunges for me.
I sidestep her easily and she raises her hand to punch
me. I raise my arm blocking the punch from connecting
with my chin.
"Prove it" I say smiling at her.
"P-prove it?" She stuttered.
"Yeah." I say.
We both stop moving and stand facing each other. I
smile at her, spreading my arms out at my sides.
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Prove it he said. How the hell do I prove it. God
he's just standing there looking at me with that smug
look on his face. He doesn't think I'll do anything.
He probably thinks I'll just run out of the room or
something. Fine he wants to play this game, we'll
play this game.
"Okay." I say and move toward him.
I can't believe I'm doing this. I'm going to kiss
Spike. I move closer to him, he's still holding his
arms out from his side. I move up against him, and he
just stands there not moving a muscle. I reach up and
put my arms around his neck. I still can't believe
I'm doing this. I pull his head down to mine. I move
my lips against his. He's just standing there. I
press my lips harder against his. Finally I feel him
start to respond and his lips part against mine. I
move my tongue inside his mouth, tasting him, feeling
him.
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She actually took the challenge. I never thought she
would. I'm standing here and she's moving to me.
God, she's pulling my head down to hers. Her lips are
moving on mine. I want to hold her and feel her,
press her against me. But I don't move, this may be
the hardest thing I've ever done. I part my lips on
hers. Letting her be the aggressor in this game. She
thrusts her tongue in my mouth, I feel her moan
against my mouth.
I can't take anymore and I move my arms around her. I
press her body against mine. I move my tongue against
hers, tasting her. I slide my hands over her ass,
pulling her against me. I can't stop a groan from
escaping my lips as I feel her shift against me. I
can't let this go to far. I want her, I didn't know
how much until she kissed me but I do want her. What
I don't want is for her to regret it later. I don't
want her to rush into this.
"Red. Luv. We have to stop." I say pulling my head
away from her.
I'm still not quite ready to move completely away
though so I hold her hips against mine. She smiles and
moves her hips a little closer.
"If you keep doing that we are not going to stop
tonight." I tell her and let go completely.
"What if I don't want to?" She asks watching closely.
"You do. Trust me." I tell her, "I think its time I
walk you home."
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I know he's right about stopping so I let him walk me
home. I can't believe I kissed him like that. I never
thought of Spike like that. Not really. I mean sure
he's cute, and cool and everything but I never thought
of him and me.
When we reach the front of the dorm we stop and turn
to each other.
"Patrol tomorrow, meet you here at sunset?" he asks
me.
"Yeah." I agree.
He moves closer and lowers his head to kiss me again.
This time he kisses me. His lips are moving on mine,
teasing them until they open beneath his. He thrusts
his tongue in my mouth and I move my hips against his.
I feel his hands on my ass, pressing me closer.
Finally he pulls away.
"See you tomorrow Pet." He says and then walks away
into the night.
Day 5
I barely slept today. I kept thinking about last
night. Still can't believe she kissed me. I can't
believe I wanted her too. Well okay I wanted a hell of
a lot more than a kiss. She is a lesbian for god's
sake. What was I thinking, hell what was she thinking.
Then I kissed her when I took her home. I am really
turning into a bloody poof.
Well I guess its time to get ready to patrol. Sun will
be setting soon and I said I'd pick her up. I head to
the refrigerator for dinner. Not like I want her to
see me feed. Yeah that'll impress the hell out of her
to watch me drinking a mug full of blood.
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I'm getting dressed for patrol when Tara walked in the
room. I turned when I heard the door close behind her.
"Hey." I say.
"We need to talk Willow." She says looking a little
angry.
"Okay, about what baby?" I ask her.
"Spike." She says.
"He isn't dangerous we already talked about this." I
say only now I'm getting angry too.
"I saw you last night." Was all she said.
"Oh." I don't know what to say.
"Well, want to tell me what was going on? It didn't
look like he was forcing that kiss on you?" She says.
"Tara, I don't. I mean he didn't. Oh god." I say.
"Right. So you don't know why it happened. I thought
you loved me. You said you want to be with me, so why
were you kissing Spike?"
"It started as a game." I explained sitting down on
the bed. "Then I don't know, it went farther than I
expected."
"So you wanted him to kiss you?" She is really getting
mad at me now, but she looks hurt too.
"No, I mean yeah sort of." I don't know what to say to
her.
She just sits there looking at me, she is so hurt I
can see it in her eyes. I'm confused myself about
last night, so how can I make her understand. I can't
tell her it won't happen again, because I'm not that
sure I don't want it too. I like him. I liked kissing
him. I love Tara though right? But if I really love
her could I like Spike kissing me? Then I hear her
speaking again, she's making the decision for me.
"I'm moving out Willow. I'm going to stay with a
friend the rest of the year, and get my own dorm next
year. When you figure out what you want let me know.
I do love you, but what ever it is with Spike you need
to get over it before we can be together again. I
already talked to Giles too. I'm still going to help
all of you with Dawn. So I'll be around."
Then she left, she just walked out. What the hell am
I going to do now. God I did the same thing to her
that Oz did to me. There's a knock on the door, then
it opens and a girl pokes her head in.
"There's a guy down stairs waiting for you." She says
then pulls the door closed as she leaves.
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Something's wrong with Red tonight. I don't know
what, she hasn't said two words since we left the
dorm. I saw Tara leaving as I walked in so I think it
must have something to do with her. Finally I decide
I just need to ask. Worst that can happen is she
tells me to mind my own business right?
"What's up Red?" I ask finally.
"Nothing." She answers.
"Right then. If you decide there is something wrong
let me know." I tell her.
Out of the corner of my eye I see something behind a
tombstone. Great I can use the fight right now. I
move toward it as it stands and rushes at me. I don't
have a stake with me. Willow has it and she's
standing there like she's never seen a vamp before.
"Red." I shout at her.
No response. Damn now I'm distracted, she's gonna get
us both killed. I turn and hit the vamp in the face.
He falls backwards, it gives me a minute so I shout at
her again.
"Bloody hell Red the stake please."
She snaps out of it but it's to late. The vamp is on
me again. I feel my face change, I'm in full fight
mode now. But it has me from behind. As I struggle
with it I see Willow wave her hand toward us and a
second later the vamp is dust.
"What the hell did you do?" I ask angrily.
"I uh. threw a branch at him." She says.
"A branch? How? Never mind, magic." I say still angry
that her distraction almost got us both killed.
"Thank you would be nice." She says as we start
walking again.
"For what?" I ask. "You being so distracted you almost
get us both killed. Look whatever is wrong you don't
have to tell me if you don't want to but you do have
to pay attention."
Bloody hell, she's crying. Crying. Unbelievable she
almost gets me killed and she's crying.
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I'm crying. Because of Tara, because he's right, but
not because he yelled at me. I did almost get him
killed. If I'm going to patrol I have to pay
attention. It's not like I have Buffy's super
strength.
"I'm so sorry Spike. I know I'm not good company
tonight. And I need to pay attention. But Tara." I say
through the tears.
He stops walking and sits on a headstone and looks at
me.
"What about Tara Pet?" He asks cautiously.
"Sh-she left me." I say.
He reaches out and pulls me closer to him. I'm
standing between his thighs now. I rest my head on
his shoulder. He's patting my back softly.
"Want to talk about it?" He asks me.
I nod my head against his shoulder and wipe my eyes
with my hand.
"She saw us last night. Outside when you were
leaving." I tell him.
He's not saying anything, just waiting for me to
continue.
"She moved out. She's going to stay with a friend. She
says she'll still help with Dawn and Scooby stuff
but." I say.
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What have I done? What if my little game last night
has ended their relationship? What if Red wasn't
serious with those kisses? Tara saw them if this was a
game I am truly a bastard.
"She just left." I say.
"She wanted to talk. She wanted to know why we were
kissing." She says.
She's not crying now, but she's not moving away from
either. It feels good to hold her this way. Not even
about sex this time. I want her yeah, but I also just
want to make her feel better, so we stay this way.
"Spike thing is I couldn't promise her it wouldn't
happen again. I told her last night was a game that
got carried away but I couldn't say it wouldn't happen
again." She says quietly.
It takes a minute for her words to sink into my head.
She couldn't say it wouldn't happen again. That means
she must want it to, because she can't think I would
force anything on her.
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Does he understand what I'm saying to him? He's not
moving, not at all. I really need to get used to the
vampire not breathing thing. But he is being really
still, and quiet. I lift my head a little so I can
see his face. He's looking at me.
I move my face closer to his. I see his lips parting
as I move closer. I'm really going to do it again. I'm
going to kiss him. I press my lips to his. He's
pulling me closer to him. I feel his tongue move into
my mouth, and his lips moving over mine. He's holding
me so close.
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This is so wrong, I shouldn't be doing this, and she's
upset it's not right. I have to stop this. Okay
maybe later, right now she's so close and her lips are
moving over mine. I move my hands from her shoulders
to her hips pulling her closer to me. I have to stop
this, before we. No I can't let that happen.
"Red." I say pulling my head away.
She groaned and tries pulling my head back down. I
want to let her, I really do. No this has to stop.
"Willow, lets go. Its time for you to go home." I say.
"I want to stay here." She says quietly.
"Luv, It's time to go home." I repeat.
"Fine." She says.
We start walking out of the cemetery. She is still
upset but this will all get better in the morning.
I'm sure of it. We head across the campus to her
dorm. I wait until she goes inside then I turn and
head home.
Day 6
When I got home last night everyone had called me.
There were messages from Tara, Giles, Xander, and
Dawn. I just didn't want to talk to them. Tara said
she was sorry about being so angry but she really did
think it was for the best. Everyone else just wanted
to know what happened, they had all heard about Tara
leaving and wanted to know why and if I was okay. I'll
talk to them all today, at the magic shop I'll explain
then.
I slept late today, no morning classes. I had two
classes this afternoon, I considered skipping them but
well I'm me so I went. I couldn't concentrate though,
my mind kept going to tonight, what was I going to
tell everyone. Tara left because she thinks I love
Spike. Do I love Spike? I mean okay, attracted to him
sure, but love? Attraction may be enough for now
anyway. Then of course is Spike attracted to me? I
don't really know, we've kissed and he seemed
interested but. What if he was just kissing me because
I kissed him? I mean really he's a vampire not exactly
overly moral.
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What the hell have I been thinking, that damn witch, I
can't get her out of my head. This is worse than the
thing with the slayer. At least Buffy didn't
encourage me. This is getting so out of hand, the Big
Bad isn't supposed feel sorry for someone. But I did
last night, I wanted to comfort her, to make her stop
crying. I pulled away from the kiss, because she was
vulnerable, and I didn't want to take advantage. I've
obviously lost my bloody mind.
She really was very upset last night. I hope she's
okay. I feel like this was my fault, I goaded her
into kissing me, it was supposed to be game, she was
right. Then the girl saw her, damn, this really is my
fault. But honestly, if she loved Tara that much why
was she kissing me, and she did say she couldn't
promise it wouldn't happen again, it did happen again.
I really am becoming just like the poof.
/////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////
Everyone was waiting for me when I walked into the
magic shop, well everyone but Tara. Giles said she
had been there but had left before I arrived. Tara
didn't tell them anything but that we needed time
apart, that I had some things I needed to work
through.
"Well, yeah I guess that's a good explanation." I tell
them.
"Will. It is not a good one. That is a I don't want to
talk about it one." Xander says.
"We had an argument okay. You all know we've been
fighting a lot since Buffy. Anyway she thinks I need
to work some things out for myself before we can be
together." I say my eyes filling with tears.
"What things?" Anya asks.
"Anya." Xander warns her.
"What? Maybe we can help?" Anya tells him.
God she probably does think she is being helpful. But
they aren't going to understand if I tell them the
problem.
"That's okay. Its some thing I have to do on my own."
I tell her.
"Is it because of the lesbian thing?" She's asking
now.
"Sort of." I tell her.
I don't want to talk about this anymore so I pick up a
book and start reading. My mind isn't on this
research though. I can't stop thinking about how much
I don't want to go back to the dorms tonight. I
didn't sleep well last night everything reminded me of
Tara. But where else was I going to go. Xander's I
don't think so, not with him and Anya. Giles already
had his hands full with Dawn.
Time must have flown by because I look up and see the
sun setting. Giles is locking the doors and everyone
else is clearing out the research books.
"You going to wait here to train with Spike?" Giles
asks.
"Yeah. He said he'd be here after dark." I tell him.
"Fine then lock up when you leave." He says.
I help everyone finish cleaning up and they leave.
Giles and Dawn to head home and Xander and Anya were
off to patrol. So I sit here alone waiting for Spike.
It isn't long before I spot him walking across the
street. I get up to unlock the door to let him in.
"Hi. Can you give me a minute to change out of this
skirt?" I ask as he walks in.
"Yeah, no problem." He says watching me.
I head to the bathroom to change and he heads to the
backroom.
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If she changes into anything skimpy I swear I'm going
to go insane. Doesn't the chit own a big bulky sweat
suit. I hear a sound behind me and turn around. Damn.
The spandex shorts again. Is she doing this on
purpose? Funny thing I don't really think she is, any
other girl sure but she doesn't think she is that
attractive.
"Ready." I say.
"Sure, where are we starting tonight?" She asks.
"Weapons?" I suggest.
Anything but hand to hand, is what I want to say. I
don't think I can handle that.
"Ever use the quarterstaff?" I ask her.
"No. Xander and Giles think it's to heavy for me."
She says.
"Nonsense. And it gives you a lot of help later. You
probably won't ever fight with a quarterstaff but if
you can master it, it gives you a lot of options in a
real fight." I tell her and move to retrieve the
weapons.
"How so?"
"You're being attacked, unarmed, but things are lying
around. Tree branches, pieces of wood or metal. If
you can balance and fight with this then you can use
any of those things if you need to."
I hand her a quarterstaff and demonstrate the proper
stance and way to hold it for her. We start sparring.
She is a little small for such a large weapon, but it
won't hurt her to learn it. She isn't doing that bad
really. We keep going with this for a long time
before she asks to stop.
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Training with Spike is really cool. He doesn't coddle
me like the others. He never says you're not ready or
that will be to hard for you. He doesn't suggest we
stop, he keeps going until I need to stop.
He keeps looking at me kind of funny though. I heard
him moan when I first walked in, like something was
wrong. He does that every time we train. If I ask
why, he changes the subject.
I get us sodas again. I offered to bring blood for
him next time but he refused. Says he feeds before he
comes over anyway. He also said he likes soda. He
doesn't need food like I do, but he enjoys it anyway.
"Are you okay, after last night I mean?" he asks me.
"Last night? Oh, you mean because of Tara?" I ask.
"Yeah. You seemed really upset last night." He
responds.
"It's hard. Part of me knows she's right. We need to
be apart. But it doesn't make it easier, everything in
the room reminds me of her." I confess.
"I know, when Dru left. I wanted to stake myself.
Everywhere I looked were things that made me think of
her." He says quietly.
"Wow. The Big Bad confessing to being brought down by
love." I tease.
"Love didn't bring me down. It's just." His sentence
trails off.
I look at him, he looks upset maybe I shouldn't have
teased him about it. It must be hard to always
maintain such a hard cool image like he does.
"Why don't we call it a night Red?" He says standing
up. "I'll walk you home."
Home. I don't want to go there. Probably can't
convince him to train all night.
"Something wrong Luv?"
"No, yes. It's just I don't want to go there." I say
to him.
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She doesn't want to go home. Great, what the hell am I
supposed to do now.
"What about your parents?" I ask.
"My parents? Yeah that won't work. They won't like me
showing up in the middle of the night unannounced."
She says looking defeated.
She looks so sad. I can't make her go home. I know how
painful that is. But what am I going to do with her.
She can't stay here all night.
"I have a bed in the crypt." I hear my own voice
saying.
What the bloody hell am I doing, telling her she can
come home with me? Women don't live in crypts,
vampires do. But it's too late to take it back now.
She is already over here hugging me and telling me
thank you.
"Spike thank you so much. I didn't know you had an
actual bed. I thought you slept on that thing." She
says still hugging me. "Oh but what about you, I can't
kick you out of your bed."
"Don't worry about me. I can sleep anywhere okay." I
tell her.
I really must be insane to do this. Obviously
competing with Dru now one the lack of sanity issue.
We lock up the shop and head back to the crypt. Takes
longer than usual because it is easier to just avoid
Xander and Anya.
////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////
When we get to Spike's crypt I realize I don't have
any clothes or anything. I point this out to him. He
says he can go and get me a toothbrush and hairbrush
and that kind of thing from the 7-11 but he can't get
clothes in the middle of the night. He left to go get
the toiletries and I look around the crypt.
Funny I've been here before but never really looked
around. I find a t-shirt over by the far wall. I
decide he won't mind if I borrow it to sleep in. It
should be plenty long enough. So I quickly change
clothes. I just finished pulling the shirt over my
head when he walks back in carrying a couple bags.
"I think I have everything you need and something for
bre." His voice trails off as he stares at me.
"I didn't think you'd mind if I borrowed. Never mind
I'll change."
"No, I don't mind. It's just that." He says.
He is still staring at me though. I take the bags from
him and he moves to turn away quickly. He really is
acting strange.
//////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////_
The damn chit is wearing my t-shirt. Okay that isn't
so much the problem as that is all she seems to be
wearing. And she's acting like she's fully clothed.
This is going to be a very long night.
She's taking the bags. She's going to see. That isn't
going to work I have to work on self-control so I turn
away from her.
"There are donuts in the bag too. I thought you might
be hungry in the morning. I hope I got every thing you
need." I say when I turn back to face her.
She's going through the bags looking at all the items.
"Thanks again Spike." She says smiling at me.
"I know you must be tired. C'mon I'll show you where
the bed is." I say and open the passageway.
I start down the steps with her following behind me.
We reach the bed and she looks at me again. I really
need her to just get in that bed and go to sleep.
"Spike I really don't feel right taking your bed. I'll
sleep on the floor." She says.
"I told you it's not a problem. I've slept in worse
places than this floor."
"No I can't let you sleep on the floor Spike it's not
right. This bed is huge. We can both fit on it." She
suggests.
Right now she's competing with Dru on the sanity
issue.
"Spike either we share the bed or I sleep on the
floor." She says crossing her arms.
"Fine lets just get some sleep then." I tell her
angrily and move to the other side of the bed.
I have completely lost my mind. How the hell am I
going to sleep tonight, with her half dressed right
next to me? I hear a sound next to me and turn to
look at her, she is sound asleep. This is really
amazing.
Day 7
I rolled over and reached across the bed for Tara. My
hand landed on someone but it wasn’t Tara, her body is
soft and this is well, hard. It takes a minute for me
to realize what was going on. Then I remembered it was
Spike. I didn’t want to go home last night, and then
I insisted he sleep in the bed not on the floor.
Funny thing is I slept really well last night, better
than I have in a long time. I can see the clock over
his shoulder, its still early. I don’t have classes
today so I don’t have to get up yet.
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I try to move, that’s when I realize that someone is
lying very close to me. Close, hell she is
practically on top of me. She has on arm across my
chest and her leg is across the top of my thighs. Her
body is pressed so close to mine I can feel her heart
beat.
She’s still sleeping. Her leg shifts a little higher,
and I hold my unneeded breath. Damn, I can feel my
erection growing as she shifts trying to find a more
comfortable position. I try to move; maybe she’ll just
roll away, back to her side of the bed. No such luck,
she moved her head onto my shoulder now. Her face is
inches from mine; I can feel her breath hitting my
cheek. I move my arm that is under her to stroke her
back. As I move my hand I realize the t-shirt she
slept in has risen up on her back, as I move my hand
lower on her back I feel the top of her panties. She
sighs softly and moves closer to me.
I can’t take much more of this, so I turn my head
toward hers and press my lips against hers. I feel her
body move closer. I shift my body so that she rolls
onto her back and move over her. I let my tongue move
against her lips, until I feel them open. I move my
tongue inside her mouth, tasting her. She moves her
arms around my neck pulling my head down, increasing
the pressure of my lips on hers.
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God, what a way to wake up, I feel his lips moving
over mine. I open my mouth to let his tongue in; I
can feel myself moan as he rolls us over. His tongue
is moving inside my mouth, I’m trying to pull him
closer, I don’t want this to ever end.
I shift my legs spreading them further apart so now I
can feel him between my thighs. His jeans are rubbing
against the inside of my thighs. I feel his hand
moving down my side, brushing against my breast, I
feel my nipple harden as his thumb brushes over it.
He’s reaching for the bottom of the t-shirt; I feel
his hand moving back up, pulling the shirt with it. I
feel his fingers reach my breasts, and rub across my
nipples.
“Spike,” I hear my voice say.
I can hear him saying something under his breath but I
can’t understand him. He’s moving away from me. I
try reaching out for him to pull him back.
“Red, stop we can’t do this.” He tells me as he sits
on the edge of the bed his back facing me.
“Why?” I ask him as I move to sit next to him.
“Because I…Bloody hell, its not right.” He says.
“Not right? I want to. I could definitely feel that
you wanted to. So why isn’t it right?” I ask him,
beginning to feel a little hurt now.
“You came here because you’re upset about Tara. You
don’t really know what you want right now.”
“I know what I want.” I tell him and try to reach for
him again but he moves away, standing up.
“I thought vampire didn’t care about morals or what’s
right or wrong?” I ask him.
“Right. Usually we don’t. I can’t explain it, but for
some reason I can’t bring myself to hurt you.” Spike
says.
“You wouldn’t be hurting me.” I tell him.
“You may not think so now. But later you might. Look
Red, I’m not going to deny that I want you. But I’m
also not going to rush into something that may just
get us both hurt in the end.” He says moving next to
me again.
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Well she seems to have accepted that explanation.
Hell she should it was the truth. If she’s still hung
up on the girl then this will only hurt her. Hell it’s
not even like we’ve had a date.
“Spike, I don’t know exactly when I started to see you
as anything other than the vampire that helps us for
money and is obsessed with the slayer but I do. I
don’t even think of you as a vampire anymore.”
“But I am a vampire, and you’re bloody friends will
stake me if I hurt you.” I tell her.
“You’re not going to hurt me.” She says.
“My intentions may not matter Luv. I don’t plan on
hurting you, but did you plan on hurting Tara?”
She sat there silently for a minute and then shook her
head slowly.
“We are still patrolling tonight right?” She finally
says.
“Yeah. I’ll pick you up after dark.”
“All right I better get dressed and go home before
anyone looks for me then.” She says quietly.
I grab her arm as she starts to walk away and turn
around.
“Do you see the problem? Your friends don’t know about
any of this do they? How you feel? That we’ve kissed?
Why Tara left?” I ask, I realize how harsh this is
sounding to her but she needs to understand.
“N-No” she says quietly.
“If you can’t even tell them about what’s happened how
are you going to deal with a relationship?”
“I’ll work on telling them, but you’re willing to try
a re-relationship?” She asks.
She looks so small and innocent standing here in my
arms. I want so badly to do what she keeps saying she
wants. But I just let go of her and move away.
“I told you I want you. We can keep seeing each other
patrolling and training and maybe after you tell your
friends, if you’re still interested we can see about
moving on.”
She didn’t say anything she just walked away to find
her clothes. A few minutes later she was gone.
///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////
At least he didn’t say he wasn’t interested or didn’t
want me. I still can’t believe the Big Bad is worried
about my being hurt or my telling my friends. God,
telling my friends, that is so not going to be
pleasant. Giles I’m sure will be angry in his own
British way. But Xander that is going to be the real
problem. He couldn’t stand the idea of Buffy and
Angel, because Angel was a vampire and Angel had a
soul. He is going to completely lose it over the idea
of Spike and me. Well at least Tara didn’t say
anything. The only one that may not be a problem is
Anya. Hell, she will probably be all for it as long as
I say the sex is good.
I open the door to my room and see Xander standing
there, looking out the window. When I close the door
he turns around and runs to hug me.
“Where have you been?” he says still hugging me.
“Where?” I ask.
“I called you last night a couple times. Then I tried
again this morning. When I there was still no answer I
tried Giles and your parents. They all said you they
hadn’t seen you.” Xander said looking at me. “I even
went to Spike’s crypt but he wasn’t there, at least
not that I could see.”
“I-I didn’t want to come back here last night.” I say
hoping he won’t press for more information.
“Okay but Will, where were you?” Xander asks.
“I-I uh.” I don’t know what to say to him.
While stuttering for a lie he’ll believe I realize I’m
doing exactly what Spike had said. I can’t tell
Xander that I spent the night at Spike’s crypt even
though all we did was sleep, well mostly. We hadn’t
done anything to hide. I didn’t want to go home and he
gave me a place to sleep.
“Xander, I couldn’t come back here last night, I just
couldn’t face it again. I told Spike and he…” I start
to explain when Xander interrupts.
“Damn him. I’ll stake him myself. He had no right,
taking advantage…” Xander is yelling now.
“Wait. He didn’t take advantage of me. Hell I did my
best to get him to…well you know and he sent me home.
Said if I couldn’t even tell any of you that we were
becoming friends that we couldn’t become more. Said
he didn’t want to do something that would end up
hurting me.” I tell Xander.
“Spike said he wouldn’t hurt you?”
“Yeah. I’ve been trying all week to get him to…” I
say “ but he won’t, says I don’t know what I want
because of Tara leaving.”
“Will I still don’t like it. Even your being friends
with him is dangerous. He is evil.” Xander tell me.
“You don’t have to like it Xander. I have to do what
makes me happy.”
“Is this why Tara left? Did you tell her you, I hate
even saying it, like Spike?” He asks me.
“Sort of.” I tell him. “She saw me…kiss… Spike, it
wasn’t serious not then but she said I had to find out
what it is I want.”
“And you think its Spike?” Xander is asking me looking
somewhere between confused and disgusted.
“I don’t know. He may be. Maybe it’s Tara, or maybe
it’s someone else. I don’t know but I can’t find out
any other way.” I tell him. “I’m confused too right
now, but I need to do this.”
“You’re going to do this no matter what I say aren’t
you?”
“Yeah. I have to.” I tell him.
“Fine then I’ll let it go for now but if he hurts you
he’s dust.” Xander tells me.
I give him a hug and tell him I’ll see him at the
magic shop in a few hours. Right now I need to shower
and change clothes and I have some reading I need to
do for class.
///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////
I’m just coming out of the tunnels when I hear the
door fly open. I hesitate to come up. The sun is
still out and I prefer to not become dust.
“Spike I know you’re here somewhere.” I hear a
familiar voice shout.
Damn it’s Harris. At least its not a serious threat so
I step the rest of the way out and close the opening.
“What do you want?” I ask.
“What did you do to Willow?” He says moving toward me.
“I don’t see how it’s any of you business, but if you
want to know about Willow ask Willow.”
“I did but I think she’s protecting you. So now I’m
asking you.” He says to me grabbing the front of my
t-shirt.
“Harris move your hand or chip or no chip I will kill
you.”
“Not until you answer me.” He replies, “Did you sleep
with Willow?”
I consider this question. Technically speaking I did
sleep with Willow, but being reasonably sure that
wasn’t what he was asking, and Willow had apparently
already given him an answer I decided to go with
sarcasm.
“My sex life isn’t any of your business.” I say
smirking at him and pulling his and off my shirt.
“It is if it concerns my friend.”
“If your friend wanted it to be your business she
would have told you exactly what happened.” I tell him
then grab his shirt forcing him against the wall.
“Whatever Willow told you is probably the truth
because I don’t think Red could lie if her life
depended on it.” I tell him raising him off the ground
slightly. “She loves you, you are her best friend, I
can’t imagine why but you are. I don’t want to hurt
one of her friends but if you ever try and threaten my
again…”
“I-I don’t want her hurt.” He stutters.
“Either do I. Which is the reason you are not dead
right now. Go home think about whatever she told you
that got you over here and decided if you think she
would lie about it.”
I let him go and he grabs the door and runs away. The
threat worked for now at least since he isn’t aware
that if I even thought about carrying out the threat
that damn chip would activate. I must admit she told
her friends much quicker than I thought she would.
//////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////
Xander must have told everyone about last night
because Giles and Dawn decided to wait for Spike to
arrive before leaving the magic shop and Xander and
Anya stayed in the shop instead of moving to the
backroom much longer than was necessary. Shortly
after dark the door opened and Spike walked in.
Everyone in the room stopped and stared at him. He
just stood there waiting; I think he was half
expecting a stake to hit him. Finally he walked over
and took my hand.
“Ready Luv?” He asks me smirking at Xander as I stood
next to him.
When I stood up he leaned over and gently kissed me.
When he moved away I saw Xander and Giles both
clenching their fists at their sides. Dawn and Anya
were both staring at Spike smiling.
“Hey Nibblet.” Spike said to Dawn.
“Hi. I haven’t seen you in a while.” She answers
still smiling at him.
I’m beginning to see why Dawn has such a big crush on
the vampire. At first I thought it was weird but this
last week I’ve realized that Dawn probably saw the
side of him that I’m just now starting to see.
“Come visit after school anytime Pet.” He said.
“We better get going.” I say to everyone in the room.
We turn and head out the door. As soon as we were away
from the shop he stopped and turned to face me.
“You told them.” Was all he said.
“No, I told Xander, pretty sure he told the rest of
them.”
“They looked like they knew and they aren’t happy.” He
says to me.
“I know but all that matters is that we are right?”
“Right then, lets patrol.” He says and starts to head
toward the cemetery.
We walk quietly through the cemetery. Not really much
action tonight. Couple of fledglings that Spike easily
stakes by himself, we finish the patrol kind of
quickly and he starts heading to the dorms. I can’t
stop thinking about him, why didn’t I ever notice how
sexy he was before? How confident he is? Okay well
that I noticed, just always looked at it more as
arrogant. But he really is a great guy, cool, sexy,
and confident, if you get past the whole amoral
vampire thing.
When we reach my dorm he turns and takes me in his
arms pulling me close to him. He lowers his head
kissing me gently. He moves his lips over mine until
I open to him. He slides his tongue inside and I can
taste him. His mouth feels cool compared to… He moves
his hands down to my hips pulling them closer to his.
I can feel his erection pressing into me. God I don’t
want him to leave, ever, but I feel him pulling his
lips from mine.
“Gotta go Pet.” He says.
“Tomorrow?” I ask still thinking about his kiss.
“Thought we weren’t training tomorrow. You said it
was a night off.”
“Still want to see you. The Bronze?” I ask hopefully.
“Okay. I’ll meet you there.” He says and turns and
walks away as I stand there watching him go.