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Summery: Short Willow POV, she doesn't like the way the others treat Spike.
* song lyrics
*I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed*
They're bugging Spike again. Xander's bugging him about being a demon, Buffy's laughing at Spike's misfortune about the fact he can no longer bite, and Giles is pretending nothing is going on, not trying to help. I know, I'm not either. Why aren't I?
"Guys, leave Spike alone"
"What? Why?" Xander looks up at me. He's got Twinkie cream on his bottom lip. I laugh and point to it. As he wipes it off as I tell him.
"Because he didn't do anything to you" I say simply. And it's true, the only thing he did was to wake up and join the scooby meeting.
"When did you become a Spike fan?" Buffy asks me.
When did I?
*In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry*
Surprisingly, it was when he kidnapped Xander and I. Xander was knocked out and I was left alone to deal with a drunk, brokenhearted Spike. Although it was one of the most frightening events of my life it was also one of the most educational.
Before that, I didn't know vampires could love. I mean, I know Angel loved Buffy but that was different because he had a soul. Every other vampire didn't, including Spike. I always figured if there was no soul there so there was no way he could love. I knew he cared for Drusilla, but I always just assumed he was loyal to the one who made him and would be lonely if she was dusted.
But he proved me wrong that night. In a drunken state, he told me all about her. He was worst than Buffy over Angel, Xander over Cordy, and even Me over Oz. He fell hard for her. He was head over feet, drowning in her and now she was gone. She cheated and left him.
He just seemed so sad. I didn't know demons could feel that much. I know I was a naive little girl. I may have had my book smarts but that night I realized just how much I didn't know. But can you really blame me? I mean, I thought it was simple. Demons bad. They kill innocents, try to end the world on a weekly basis, and tried to kill me more times than I'd like to remember.
But Spike was feeling. Hell, he was even crying.
*The moment that I saw you cry*
So, am I a Spike fan? Yes, but I don't tell Buffy that. Instead I turn back to my computer and continue with the research I was doing. Buffy and Xander were looking through the books for a new demon and I'm being net girl and searching online for any information. Giles is currently making tea and Spike is sitting in an armchair shooting daggers at Xander, who just made a comment about demons being bad and we should kill them while looking at Spike.
Okay, I know Xander does have a small point. Spike did try to kill us
all before and if he didn't have the chip, he'd probably try again, but
things are different now. He has helped us, still is when he can, he's
mostly nice to us too. I think he's bad boy attitude might just be an act.
I sometimes wonder if maybe what we say does affect him.
*It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed*
The phone rings and Giles picks it up in the kitchen. He comes back a few minutes later with tea and cookies for everyone, mentioning that Anya will be here in a few minutes with donuts. Xander lets out a "woo who" but I don't know if it's for Anya or the donuts.
That's an other thing I don't get. Xander hates Spike and even Angel because they are vampires and they killed people. But Anya is an ex-vengeance demon who cursed people for over 1000 years and Xander loves her. Even Buffy and Giles have come to accept her yet they can't do the same for Spike?
I know, I know, Spike is still evil and soulless but I've never once seen Anya even say she was sorry she hurt people. In fact, she likes to tell stories about the good old days.
It's not that I don't like Anya, I do. Sometimes I worry that she go
all vengency on Xander but I still like her. She ones of my friends now.
I just wish that they'd give Spike half the chance they gave Anya.
*In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry*
I found a web site with our demon. There's too much writing so I set up the printer and start printing. I read over the pages and in the background hear Anya come in. Xander is up in seconds, Buffy not too far behind. They both grab jelly donuts. Anya hands the box over to Giles who takes out an other jelly. Anya was smart and got half the box of jellies so no one would fight over them.
Spike rolls his eyes at their behavior but as soon as he hears the microwave go off, signaling his blood is warm he to jumps up and runs to get his snack. I laugh.
When Spike comes back, Xander comments on how gross Spike's blood is and Buffy joins in. Once again, Giles decides to stay out of it and cleans his glasses instead. Anya just looks bored. So it's Willow to the rescue again.
"Guys, he has to eat. Xander, I'm sure your Twinkie marathon wasn't too pleasant for him either"
Xander looks shocked. I guess I can't blame him. That's the second time I've stood up for Spike and this time at Xander's expense.
"Will, what's with all the Spike defending?" He asks me. I see Spike out of the corner of my eye. He seems amused yet curious as well.
"Yeah, wills?" Buffy looks just as surprised as Xander.
It all comes down to that night.
*I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....*
"I just don't think he should make fun of him. What happened wasn't his fault" I say. It looks like Buffy's about to say something else but I turn away and start humming. I shut down my computer and pack it away.
I've highlighted the important parts of the document. I get up and hand it to Giles.
"I think I'm going to go home. I have a paper due and I really should
start it" I stop my humming long enough to tell them that and continue
again before they can stop me. I get my lab top and head out after giving
Xander and Buffy a "you-better-be-nice" look and Spike a "don't-pay-attention-to-them"
look.
*I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...*
Once outside where I know they can't hear me I say the line of the song
I was humming that seems to explain it all. "The moment I saw you cry."
*In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry*
~The End~