~Part: 31~ Midnight Movie

"GUESS WHAT?" Xander yelled as he and Willow ran into Giles' living room. They both were smiling and entirely too excited.

"What?" Buffy asked, eager to hear their news.

"Friday night, midnight, the Palace is showing the Rocky Horror Picture Show!" Willow said as she sat beside Angel.

"The huh?" Spike asked from the couch. The others looked at each other, and shrugged.

"Only the best cult sci fi film of all time." Xander said.

"Never heard of it." Spike said.

"You are how many hundreds of years old and you've never heard of Rocky Horror?" Willow said in amazement.

"Umm.....is it that movie where the guy dresses like a woman?" Buffy asked.

Xander and Willow nodded. "That's it."

"Why are we supposed to be excited about this?" Angel asked from beside Willow.

"OK....When Xander and I were like 11, Jesse's mom let us watch it at their house. We loved it. It is the best. Complete campy flick....We used to watch it all the time.
That was when Amy was really tight with us. We each even had certain characters we'd act and sing along with. It was that forbidden movie that our parents wouldn't
have allowed us to watch.....We haven't seen it in years...." Willow said smiling.

"Not since...."Xander trailed off.

"Jesse died." Willow whispered. She looked at them, her eyes shining. "We want us all to go see it Friday. Sort of recapture a memory of our childhood. Besides, we've
heard that it is something else to see it live."

"Yeah....you guys will love it. Its got romance, action, singing...." Xander muttered the last part.

"Singing? Uh uh...count me out pet. I can not sit through a musical."

"Spike.....please?"

Xander smiled. "Yeah, Blondie. You might like it. It's about this beautiful redhead who gets seduced by the blond creature of the night...."

"Really? Hmm.....sounds interesting." Spike said, liking the idea of seducing a redhead..."Why not? You in Peaches?"

Angel rolled his eyes. "Can I say no to Willow?"

"Well, include me. I want to see how good this guy looks in hose." Buffy said, smiling.

Cordelia groaned. "You are all going to make me go aren't you? God....why'd I come back here?"

"Because you love me." Xander said, pulling her in for a kiss.

"You owe us Pet," Spike whispered.

Willow just smiled. "You'll see. You'll love it. I promise."

Angel and Spike exchanged a disbelieving glance.

* * * * *

"What the bloody hell do you think you're wearing?"

"Spike.....its just a bustier. I've worn less on the beach."

"What kind of film is this again?"Angel asked, looking at Willow's leather bustier, short skirt and fish net stockings.

"Guys....It's a fun movie. I feel like it's Halloween. Spike, don't look at me like that."

"I'm glad you have our mark on you. If anyone gets too close, I'll kill them."

"It is a tattoo, not a mark. You'd think you owned me or something."

"Tattoo schmattoo.....It says you belong to us. At least that skimpy thing lets others see it." Spike reached over and kissed the mark in question.

"Please don't tell me that Xander is going to be dressed like that. I honestly think it might give me nightmares...." Angel said, his face stricken at the vision.

Willow laughed and pulled away from Spike. "You guys are impossible. Xander would never dress up like this for the movie. He's doing the yuppy thing for Brad. He will
also be bringing the supplies though, so you'd better be nice. He might not share."

"Supplies?" They both asked.

"Newspaper....water guns.... confetti... lighters.....he was going to get the survival kit together. Uh oh... must be them now." She went to let in the others.

"Uh...Wills, what the hell are you wearing?" Buffy asked.

"Looking good Willow. Very Magenta. OK, let's go." Xander said. "I've got the kits in Cordy's car. I'll hand them out before the movie."

"Let me see..." Willow said, as the went to investigate the kits.

Everyone looked after Willow and Xander.

"Why do I get the feeling that this is going to be a very strange evening?" Cordy asked.

"Just a premonition I guess." Angel said, as they all joined Willow and Xander.

* * * * *

"You didn't like it."

"Luv....It was very entertaining."

"You're just trying to make me feel better." Willow pouted.

"Spike's right, Red. I don't think I will ever forget seeing Buffy and Cordelia doing the Time Warp on stage." Angel said, smiling.

"Peaches is right. I found the audience very interesting. The movie...well, let's say that it isn't my type of thing. I mean, that poor fat bloke was eaten. And you call
me a monster?" Spike said, smiling.

Willow tried to hide her smile. They had both tried to enjoy the evening. As they said, though, the audience was more entertaining than the film had been. It was so
loud in the theater it had been hard to hear anything.

"You're not a monster. You're my Spike."

"Yours, pet? Glad you remember."

"As if I could forget. Well, I guess that means I owe you both, since you were nice enough to not say anything in front of the others...."

The two vampires looked at each other.

"Hmm.....what if I said we really hated it? That it was complete torture to sit next to you wearing that skimpy nothing and not take you right there?"

"Spiiiike! Geesh, can't you get through one night without letting your hormones do your thinking?"

"Luv, I'm over 200 years old. I've earned the right to let my hormones think for me. Now, come here."

Willow felt herself pulled against his hard chest. His mouth claimed hers. She felt Angel come up behind her and slowly begin to remove her clothes, his mouth touching
the flesh as it was revealed. She closed her eyes and surrendered to them both.

"So warm....so wet....for us, pet?"

Willow nodded. "Only for you two..."

"Lucky us...." Angel said, his fingers joining Spike's at her core.

They began a steady thrust into her. She felt their mouths all over her body, licking, sucking, biting.....she came, her fingers digging into Spike's back.

"That's one luv....." Spike said before removing his hand and claiming her mouth..

Willow felt herself pulled up into Angel's arms. He carried her to the bedroom, Spike following.

(Oh goddess....it's going to be a long night....)
 

~Part: 32~ Changes

"Do you think she'll like this one?"

"Yes, Xander. She'll like any of them. They are all very beautiful."

"Well, I just want the perfect one. She deserves the best."

Willow and Buffy rolled their eyes as Xander continued to look at the rings.

"Are you ok with this?" Willow whispered to Buffy.

"Fine. It's been three months since Tyler. Cordelia and Xander are going to be good together. I just hope they wait until after the baby is born. I don't think I could pull
of a bridesmaid dress looking like a whale."

"You have barely gained any weight, so just hush. Besides, with Nic and the others, you hardly even have a job anymore."

"You're right as always. Besides," she said, raising her voice a bit, "who says Cordy will even say yes? I mean, Xander isn't exactly tall, dark and wealthy now is he?"

The girls started to laugh as Xander glared at them. Suddenly, he looked serious.

"Do you think she will say yes?" he asked quietly.

"Oh Xan, we were just joking. Hell, Cor gave up LA to come back here to you. For some crazy reason, that girl loves you. Of course she will say yes." Willow said,
hugging her oldest friend.

"Yeah...and if she doesn't, we can torture her until she does." Buffy said nodding. "Ooops....sorry, guess I've been hanging with Dru too much. I didn't mean actually
torture her..."

"It's ok Buff. If she does say no, torture is a very good idea." Willow said.

"You guys are great. Only you two would torture a girl who tells me no. I love you guys." Xander pulled them in for a group hug.

"Us too Xan. Now, lets buy a ring and then go get some ice cream. I'm starving."

"Buffy, you just ate. Geez, you're starting to sound worse than Xander.."

"Oh....Shut up. I'm eating for two. Besides, I like ice cream." Buffy said, pouting.

The two teens looked at their friend and all three started to laugh.

(I love moments like this....) Willow thought to herself as they continued to look for the "perfect" ring for Cordelia..

* * * * *

"He did? Really? Wow...you said Yes!!! Oh I'm so happy for you two....Yes, that will be great. Really? Pink? Are you sure? Uh huh....ok....bye Cor."

Willow hung up and looked at her lovers. "She said yes to Xander. She wants me to be her maid of honor. She wants the dresses to be pink." She spat out the last
word.

"Matron of honor, pet."

"What?"

"You're married to Blondie remember? Matron not maid."

"Oh...oh, I'm not a maid anymore. Matron sounds so .........old."

"Old? You're 19, you silly girl. Just wait until you're 300. Then talk to me about being old." Spike said, moving up to sit behind her on the couch.

"300??? Wow.....It's hard to think I'll ever be that old...."

"You will. We'll wait a for more years before changing you, but it will happen. Remember----eternity."

"A few more years? Why not now?"

"You daft girl. You're too young. We'll know when it is time. Besides, Poof and I were in our late 20s when we were embraced. How would it look for a girl your age to
be with two such older men?" Spike said, smiling.

"Oh I forgot. You so care what people's opinions are and all....."

"Yep. Sure do. Don't want anyone looking at my pet like she's some under age lolita, a skanky...OW...what was that for?"

"You were going to say something without thinking." Angel said, smiling.

"He really just wanted to hit you. I understand. I get that way sometimes." Willow and Angel shared a smile.

"You two are impossible. Why do I put up with you?"

"Cause you like pain?" Willow asked innocently.

Spike looked at her and then smiled. "So, Pink? Knowing the bimbo, she'll probably have lace and taffeta.....maybe a great big petticoat..."

"NO! Ok..ok...I'm sorry Spike. I never want to hit you. Just no more! Ugh...How can I get out of this? Pink...I look ghastly in pink. Oh Goddess....Xander's getting
married!" The realization that her best friend was engaged hit her.

Angel rolled his eyes. "I thought we established that. Xander asked, Cordy said yes, thus, the moron and cheerleader joined together in holy wedlock." He grimaced.
Looking at Spike, he said, "Imagine their kids."

"Rather not. Moronic brats with a nasty attitude....what did we do to deserve this mate? I mean, I know I've murdered a lot of people, but being forced to stay here as
those idiots breed is just too much punishment."

"Spike! Angel! Those are my friends. They'd die for me. They'd die for you." Willow looked at them and smiled. "Well, not really. They'd probably be glad to see you
turned to ash, but they'd never act on it. So, be nice. Xander and Cordelia will have beautiful children. They'll come visit their Uncle Spike and Uncle Angel on
weekends....Stop that" she shrieked as they began to tickle her unmercifully..

"So, don't have that much to say now huh Red?" Spike said.

Willow's laughter was her only response.

* * * * *

"Willow and Angel aren't here."

Buffy looked at the blond vampire and swallowed. "Good. I need to talk to you."

Spike tried to hide his surprise. "Me? What on this earth would you need to talk to me about?"

"Let me in and I'll tell you" Buffy said, tightly.

Spike moved away from the door and motioned her inside.

Buffy sat and looked at him. "This is very difficult for me. I mean, I don't really dislike you, but you are my enemy. I know Willow loves you and that is all that is really
important to me..."

"Yeah. I have the slayer seal of approval. Like I care. Get to the point all ready. What the hell are you doing here?"

"I have a favor." she whispered.

Spike started to laugh. "A favor? That's rich. I love it. The slayer asking a vampire for a favor. Too funny. What kind of favor?"

Buffy turned and looked into the fire. "Its more of a promise, actually."

Spike saw that the slayer seemed upset and stopped laughing. He disliked her because she was the slayer, but she was Willow's best friend. He had to hear what she
was trying to tell him. "What is it?"

"I had a dream that I died. It was my funeral.....it was very realistic. I woke up crying...." Buffy took a deep breath. "I need you to allow Willow to take care of my
baby when I die."

"What?"

"Spike, get real. I'm the slayer. It will be a miracle if I live long enough to have the baby. If I do, I want to know that Willow will be able to keep her for me. I know
Willow and Angel both will say yes. You are Willow's husband, though, and I need to know you will allow it. Please?" Buffy stared at him, her eyes begging.

Spike sat back, actually at a loss for words. (The poor chit....she is a brave one, that girl. Sitting here talking about her death, resigned to the fact that she won't see
her brat grow up....)

"I could never tell Willow no." Spike said softly.

Buffy's eyes lit up. "Thank you. That makes me feel like a load has been taken off my shoulders. I've been worried since I found out about the baby. I just didn't want
to approach you...until that nightmare. I knew then that it was too real a possibility to ignore. Please don't mention anything to Willow or the others. I don't want them
to worry. Dru would probably keep me under house arrest for the rest of my life if she realized I might die. She is very protective of the baby. Anyway, I am so happy I
took the chance and came here......"

"Yeah, well. You can leave now." Spike said gruffly.

Buffy got up and started towards the door. On impulse, she turned and hugged the surprised vampire tightly. "Thank you Spike." she whispered before letting go and
leaving the house.

Spike closed the door and walked back into the living room. He hated feeling like a nice guy. It went against everything his demon stood for.

(Did I just agree to adopt the slayer's brat if she died? I'm getting worse than the Poof. At least he has an excuse......Bloody hell.....where's the tequila.....)

* * * * *

"Where are you going?"

"Spike, I told you yesterday."

"Refresh my memory, pet."

"Old age finally getting to you then?" Willow said smiling. "I am meeting Oz for coffee."

"That's right. Stay here."

"I promised. Besides, Oz and I have hardly spoken in months. He asked to see me privately before the engagement party. I think theres something up with him. He
sounded strange."

"He always sounds strange. How you could have dated him for so long I still wonder. The man speaks fewer words than anyone I've met. So, what time is the party
again?"

Willow looked at Angel. "Buffy is getting them there by 8:00. Since it is a surprise, be there by 7:30, just in case. This could be the one time their early."

"Luv," Spike said seriously. "I honestly don't want you to meet the wolf."

"Why not? You were fine with it yesterday. I even asked you....what's wrong?"

Spike shrugged. "Don't know. Just a bad feeling."

"Maybe he's planning on begging her to take him back. Just joking...geez...you people need to lighten up." Angel said.

"Spike, I need to go. I told him I'd be there by 6:00. It will be fine. If Angel's right, and Oz does sweep me off my feet, I'll be sure to send you both a postcard." She
said smiling.

Spike smiled back. "Yeah....like you'd ever take the wolf over us. We are MEN sweets, not a hairy little mutt. Not worried about that. Just be careful. You need a ride?"

"No. I'll meet you both at Nic's. I'll probably beat you both there."

Spike nodded. He then walked over to her and pulled her into a demanding kiss.

"Love you Red....just something to think about as you talk to the wolf."

Willow tried to catch her breath. "Yes sir..." She went over and kissed Angel. "I'll see you both in a couple of hours. Love you too honey..." She said, smiling as Spike
grimaced.

"Honey? Well, it's better than Blondie.... Willow, be safe."

He watched as she smiled again and left to meet her ex-boyfriend. He looked at Angel. "I don't like this...."

"Spike, get over the jealousy. She's not interested in him."

"It's not jealousy!" Spike insisted.

"What-ever. Come on. Let's get dressed. We can go over to Nic's early. Dru might need some help..."

"Lovely....well, at least we'd beat Red there. She'll probably die of shock." Spike said as he went upstairs to change for the party.

* * * * *

"So, good coffee...." Willow said.

"Yeah..."

She tried again. "So, how have you been?"

"Things are good."

She gave up. "OZ! You asked me here. What did you want to talk about?"

"I'm leaving."

"What? For the rest of the summer?"

"No. I'm leaving Sunnydale. Devon and I are going to LA. Try to get a break in the music biz...."

Willow sat back in shock. "You're leaving? Oh my....I'm happy for your sake, but I'm going to miss you. Does anyone else know?"

"Nah....I'll tell them tonight. You're the only one that will really care. I'm leaving Friday."

"Why so soon?"

"It's not soon." He said smiling gently. "We've been planning it for awhile. Just took some guts to actually do it. I've never been that great with the follow through."

"Wait! What about your time of the month?"

"I'll manage. Dev knows. He can help."

"Oh....I didn't know that he knew."

"Yeah....I needed some help the other month. Didn't want to bother any of y'all. He's cool with it."

Willow got up and hugged him tightly. "I'm going to miss you" she whispered.

"Me too....there's always the phone though."

She looked at him and smiled, wiping away a tear. "Yeah, I expect to hear from you weekly."

"Promise." he kissed her lightly, " So, you need a ride?"

"No. I think I'll sit here and finish my coffee. It's not that far to Nic's. Be safe Oz."

"You too. See you at the party."

Willow sat back and sipped her coffee. Her first boyfriend was leaving town. Her first love was getting married. Her best friend was pregnant with a dead man's child.
This year had been full of too many life changes. She seriously hoped that things would settle down again. She'd like some quiet time with Spike and Angel. She got up
and checked herself.

(Stake----yes; holy water---yes; cross---- yes. OK All set. It's 7:00. Good, I'll be there early....) She headed off to the party. Smiling, as she imagined Xander and
Cordelia's surprise.

* * * * *

"They'll be here by 8:00. Where's Wills?"

"She and the wolf had to talk. Will they be on time?"

"They'd better be. I stressed 8. Hopefully, they will make it. Nic should be back soon. He had to get the booze. Can't have a party without alcohol. Of course, I'll be
drinking OJ. So, Willow and Oz. You actually allowed it?"

"Willow is her own person. She doesn't want the wolf. She was worried about him."

Buffy looked at Angel, her mouth dropping open, "Did he just say that Wills was her own person? Is he sick?"

"Ha ha...very funny slayer. Why don't you go play in traffic now."

The others laughed. "You'd miss me Spike. Who else could you insult so well?"

"Why am I here?" he muttered as he went to look out the window. Willow should be there soon. She was the only thing that might prevent him from killing someone
that night.

* * * * *

"Give me your money"

Willow felt herself thrown against the alley wall. A tall man stood in front of her, a knife levelled at her stomach and a hand gripping her throat.

(Oh Goddess....he's not a vampire....)

"You're cute. I may decide to take more than just your money...." he leered, running the knife along her shirt.

Willow felt tears in her eyes.

"Willow?" a voice called.

"Nic! He has a knife." She warned.

Within moments, the attacker was thrown away from her. She watched as Nic vamped out and broke the man's neck like it was a piece of candy. Horror and shock
filled her....also, relief that Nic had saved her. He turned and looked at her.

"No...." he whispered.

Willow looked at where his gaze was focused. "Oh goddess....."

The knife was in her stomach. The attacker must have stabbed her when called out to Nic. The pain rushed through her. She slid down the alley wall.

Nic was beside her, trying to stop the blood. "We need to get you to a hospital. It will be all right, little tree."

Willow shook her head. "No....I can feel it. I'm going to die. Oh no....I'm going to die."

"No. We can get you to a doctor."

"Look at all the blood...a doctor can't fix this. Nic, promise me...."

"What?"

"Tell Spike and Angel that I love them....watch out for the others...oh, Buffy...she's going to take this hard. I can't believe this....I always thought I might die, but I
assumed it would be a demon or worse....he was just a man...." her voice trailed off.

Nic held her hand as she closed her eyes.

"Spike...." she whispered. "Hurts so much...."

Nic looked at the moon, blood tears running along his cheeks as he felt her life force slowly fading away.

"Why her?" he whispered.

* * * * *

"NOOOOOOO!" Spike screamed, startling the others. He fell to the ground rocking back and forth. "she's gone....she's gone" he whispered over and over. Angel went to
him and wrapped his arms around his crying childe.

"Spike...what's wrong? Who's gone?"

They were all watching the weeping vampire. Xander and Cordelia had been very surprised at their party. Spike's outburst had startled them all.

"Angel....is he OK?" Buffy asked.

They heard Dru cry out. Turning, they saw that the beautiful vampiress had tears of blood on her face.

"Dru....OK what's going on?" They demanded.

Angel looked at Dru, then at his childe. A feeling of dread spread through him. "Willow..." he whispered.

Dru looked at them, a hint of insanity creeping into her eyes.

Buffy and the others heard Angel's whisper. "No....Not Willow....what's going on? Dru...talk to me." Buffy demanded hysterically.

Dru looked into the distance. "The flame has gone out.....The fire no longer burns...."

"Willow....." Buffy cried out as she collapsed on the floor. Xander and Cordelia sat beside her, tears flowing from their eyes.
 

~Part: 33~ Coping

Buffy had broken down in a heap of loud sobs. Xander and Giles weeped silently. No one could believe that Willow was gone. They were so caught up in their grief, that
they failed to hear the door opening. Spike noticed a smell in the air, and turned cold blue eyes to the man standing inside the doorway.

"Nic..." he whispered.

Nic came forward and looked at them. His eyes were full of sadness, regret and guilt.

"I'm sorry...." he said.

The others looked up and took in his appearance. He was covered with blood. He weakly came into the room before collapsing on the couch.

"What happened?" Dru asked softly.

Spike felt anxiety, anger and dread fill his body. He recognized Willow's blood. He waited to hear what Nic would say before he attacked. Willow always said he reacted
without thinking. He'd be patient, for her.

"I was too late....it was a mugger....I kk-killed him...I killed a human! He stabbed her....too late....she was dieing... I was going to bring her here...she faded so
fast....I...I....didn't know what to do..."

"She's dead?" Spike whispered. The older vampires dead eyes looked into his.

"She told me to take care of you two...that she loved you both..."

"No...no...." Angel whispered, shaking his head.

Nic looked up and then back at them. "I'm sorry....I couldn't let her go....there was no time....I....embraced her...."

Spike looked up sharply. "You did?"

Nic shook his head "Yes."

"Where is she?"

"I took her to the house....your house. She was cut very deeply...it will take some time to heal...she will sleep for awhile...you need to go to her...she doesn't know
what I did...."

Spike stood. Angel joined him.

"Tell her that I'm sorry...." Nic whispered.

Spike went to the man and hugged him tightly. "I'm not." he said in his ear. "Thank you for her life."

The others watched as the two vampires went to their mate. Buffy dried her tears and thought about what had happened. (A mugger....not a demon...not a
vampire...a mugger! Poor Willow..oh my, she's a vampire...) She started to get up and follow Spike and Angel. She needed to see her Willow, her friend. She was
stopped by Xander.

"Let them go. It's going to be hard enough as it is. Just give them some time with her." He said, hugging her close. His friend wasn't gone. Joy filled him as he held
Buffy and Cordelia in a tight embrace. Willow was still alive, sort of.

* * * * *

The door flew open as the two vampires raced inside. Spike and Angel raced up the stairs. Spike halted when he took in the form laying on the bed. She was covered
in blood. Her hair around her face like a halo of fire. He could hear no heartbeat. It finally sunk in. Willow was undead....one of Nic's. He didn't have to worry about her
soul, she would retain most of it. She would be almost the same. She'd still see the sunlight. Knowing that she was not gone made him very happy, but he felt a
gnawing from his demon. She was his mate, but Nic's childe. He was not her master. His demon flared with anger and jealousy at that knowledge. He felt Angel's hand
on his shoulder. He looked in those dark brown eyes and saw acceptance.

Angel had all ready gone through the battle with his demon. He had decided that having Nic's Willow would be better than having no Willow at all. He knew, though,
that Spike would have difficulty accepting this. Spike was her primary and had planned on being her sire, when the time came. Now, he had not only lost her to Nic,
she wouldn't exactly be what they had thought. She was prepared to be a souled vampire, but being Nic's childe would be much different. Angel knew that she would
need them greatly to help her adapt to her new lifestyle. He watched as Spike got a determined look in his eyes. He felt relief that his childe was going to try to ignore
the demon. He only hoped that he could master it permanently, for all their sakes.

* * * * *

Willow opened her eyes and look at her ceiling.

(How did I get here?) She remembered the coffee and Oz...the alley...she felt terror shoot through her as she remembered the knife...(I died.) She gasped as she
realized that. Suddenly, Spike was at her side. Angel was at her other.

"Shh....luv. It's ok....you're still hurt...shh... don't talk...just rest." Spike murmured in her ear.

"Nic..." she whispered. She knew now what he must have done. Poor Nic. He didn't like making children. He'd also killed that man. He must be feeling so guilty. "I'm one
of his?"

Spike kissed her cheek. "Yes pet. He saved you. Not what we had planned, but we'll make it work. Now, get some sleep."

"The cut was deep Willow. It will take some time to heal. Please, don't think about it all right now. We can talk in the morning." Angel said, clasping her hand in his.

(So cold....) Willow thought as she closed her eyes. She felt movement as both her lovers joined her in the bed, holding her to them. They were careful of her wounds,
but they needed that contact to reassure themselves that she was still with them.

* * * * *

Willow opened her eyes and looked at the ceiling. She was in the house alone. She couldn't feel anyone else. She sat up and felt a pain in her abdomen. She looked
down and gasped as she saw all the blood. She got up and crept slowly into the bathroom. She had to get cleaned up.

She sat on the toilet and started to wipe the blood from her body. She began to think about everything that had happened.

(I wonder how long I slept....Its night now. I wonder where Spike and Angel are....they probably didn't want to see me. Oh Goddess....I'm a vampire. Am I a vampire? I
don't feel very different...so cold....I still feel like the old Willow...)

She stood and looked into the mirror. She could feel tears in her eyes, as she sat back down.

(No reflection....I don't know how I can live like this....poor Nic...Its all my fault...I knew better.....Spike is going to hate me...I'm not his any more....what am I going
to do? Angel and Spike will pity me....I'm not even a true vampire...Buffy won't understand....oh Goddess, Xander and Cordelia....they'll all hate me....I wish I had just
died....I need to go away....I can't make them go through this....)

She got up and stripped off the bloody clothes. She changed into fresh things and began to pack a bag. She was so absorbed in her task that she failed to hear the
bedroom door open.

"What the bloody hell do you think you're doing?" a voice demanded.

* * * * *

Willow turned and looked at Spike. "I need to go away....this is all so much to deal with." She said quietly.

"No." he said simply.

Startled, she looked at him, "What do you mean no?"

"I mean, luv, that you are going nowhere. I've noticed that when something big happens, we have a habit of running. You, to lord knows where...me, to the bottle. Not
going to happen this time. I'm tired of playing that game."

"I have to go...." Willow said.

Spike leaned against the door and crossed his arms. "You can if you get through me."

Willow sat on the end of the bed and started to cry. "You hate me." She whispered.

'If I hated you, I'd let you go. I can't do that. I love you too much. Now, why do you think you need to leave?"

"Because....you pity me. I'm not your childe....you must hate me...."

Spike went to her and pulled her into his embrace. "Do you know what I felt when I thought you were gone? I was in such pain at the thought that I would never see
you again....never hold you...never hear your laugh....I was overjoyed when I found out what Nic had done. It will take some adjustment, I know. I can't even promise
that I won't be extremely jealous, because I know myself too well. But, Willow, I love you. You aren't leaving me. We are in this together, for eternity."

Willow listened to Spike's words and wanted to believe. "Spike....it's my fault. I should have let you pick me up. I was too independent...too cocky. Look where it got
me? Nic must be going through his own personal hell, because of me. I love you too much to accept your pity."

"My pity? That is one thing you will never have pet. You can have my life....my love...my heart, but you will never find me pitying you. You survived! You are still
here....still able to see the sun. Still able to help that blasted slayer....Think about Willow. If you leave, where does that leave everyone? They need you...I need you.
Nic would not have made this sacrifice if he didn't feel that it was the right thing to do. Now, quit this pity party. Right now, the only one who is pitying you is you. It
has been two nights. Everyone is eager to see you. They want to assure themselves that you aren't really gone."

Willow started to protest, but was stopped by his finger on her lips.

"Shh....you didn't see their faces when they thought you were dead. They need this luv. They gave you two days....you won't be able to get any more time out of
them. First, you need to eat. You need your strength."

He bit into his wrist and placed it against her mouth. She tried to turn her head, but found his hand holding it in place. The first few drops of his blood passed her lips.
She licked at them, savoring the taste. Soon, her hunger took over. She held onto his wrist and lapped until he pulled away.

"Not so bad, eh luv? For the first few weeks, you will need to feed regularly. After that, the curse kicks in. I spoke to Luc about your special circumstances yesterday.
He would like to talk to you, when you feel up to it. Everything will be ok. Now, c'mon. Angel is waiting downstairs. I told the gang we'd be there after 10pm. We need
to get going." He kissed her forehead, the coolness of her skin still a surprise.

She nodded and stood. With Spike and Angel beside her, she would get through this. She had to get through this. She felt a wave of fear at having to face everyone.
Despite Spike's assurances, she still felt guilty. Nothing he said would take that away.

* * * * *

"Why are we meeting at Giles?"

"Never really thought about it. He volunteered. Why?" Angel said curiously.

"Nothing." Willow said quietly. "Just wondering."

Spike reached forward and knocked. The door swung open, and seven faces peered anxiously out the door. Willow felt a bit overwhelmed.

Giles smiled. "Willow....thank God..."

She started to go in but found herself hitting some sort of shield. The others looked surprised then Giles nodded.

"Oh....I forgot. Come In Willow."

She moved into the apartment and found herself engulfed in arms. She heard Buffy whisper that she was so glad she was all right. She pulled back and went to Spike.
He looked into her eyes and noticed the scared, haunted look returning.

"Everyone, Willow's a bit tired. Why don't you all sit down and let her rest a bit." He moved her to the couch and sat down with her in between his legs.

Everyone saw how frail Willow looked and decided that he was right. Buffy stared at her friend. She could feel the usual twisting in her stomach that warned of a
vampire. She had hoped that she would never experience that with a friend. Willow looked so pale....so worried. Buffy was glad that she was ok, but wondered how
things could ever get back to normal.

Xander looked at his oldest and dearest friend. She was dead. He had to accept that. He had not felt a heartbeat when he had hugged her. She was cold to the
touch. Except the pale complexion, she still looked like his Willow. He wondered what she was thinking. He also wondered if she had all ready eaten. He drew the collar
of his shirt up, just in case.

Willow noticed Xander's movement, and felt her heart break. She knew then that it was going to be very hard for all of them. She squeezed Spike's hand tightly,
begging for the courage to make it through this evening.

Drusilla watched Willow. The poor girl still looked like death. It was much too soon for her to be out. Nic had told her that the wounds had been very deep. She had
lost alot of blood, and had been on the very verge of death's door. Nic had waited until the last possible moment before embracing her. He felt guilty that he had
waited so long. Dru looked at the others. They were trying so hard to believe that nothing had changed. Willow was still the same, she just didn't have a heartbeat. It
would be much more difficult if they failed to accept the situation and move on. She got up and went to Willow. She took her hands in hers and helped her stand. She
engulfed the trembling girl in her arms.

"Come on daughter.....you need rest. Let mommy take care of you...." she whispered as she led her out of the apartment and away from the stares of her friends.
Willow smiled into the vampiress's shoulder. She had been rescued.

"I'll call you all later....after I rest.... Goodnight." She called out. "Spike, Angel....please come too."

Spike got up and smiled, heading after them. (Dru had always wanted a daughter to take care of.....Poor Red....)

* * * * *

Willow allowed herself to be coddled by Drusilla. It was a nice feeling. She had expected mixed reactions from her friends, but Xander's attitude had cut her deep. He
had actually thought she might bite him. She was also upset that Nic had not been there. She would see him soon. Dru was taking her to him.

Willow walked into the house and paused. She headed up the stairs to the library. She could feel that he was there, waiting for her. She opened the door and went in.

"Father."

"Daughter" Nic went to her and held her tight. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be. It may take me some time, but I would rather be like this than to never hold Spike or Angel again. I owe you. Thank you, Nic."

Nic felt tears go down his cheeks at her forgiveness. He had spent two days wondering if he had done the right thing....wondering what else he could have done....he
had decided that if she accepted it, he would. He smiled at his youngest childe. She was truly beautiful. He felt a rush of pride fill him. She was his. He would do
everything within his power to make her unlife as easy as possible.

"Thank you Willow. I wasn't sure...."

"You did good, old man. I'm sorry, but I'm rather tired. It has been an emotional evening."

"Sit dear, and tell me everything. How did they react?"

Willow told him of the events at Giles' apartment. He commented and they continued to talk for some time.

**********

Spike stood in the doorway and watched. Willow was laughing. It was the first time he had heard her laugh since before she went to meet Oz...and Nic had caused it.
He fought the jealousy as he went into the room. He smiled at her greeting. Her face lit with pleasure at seeing him. (Take that, you old wanker. She loves ME!) He
moved behind her and kissed her gently. "Time to go luv. Daylight soon. You need your rest." He nodded a greeting at Nic, before turning his attention back to his
mate. "Can you walk?"

"Yes, Spike. Your blood gave me quite a bit of energy. Goodbye, Father." She went over and kissed Nic on the cheek. "I'll come see you when I feel stronger. We have
a lot to discuss. I have so many questions...." She trailed off as she felt Spike's hand tighten around her arm as he pulled her from the room. She could feel anger in
him. (Oh Goddess....is it all ready starting?)
 

~Part: 34~ Adjusting

"Spike, what's wrong?" Willow asked. They had been home from Nic's for about an hour, and he was ignoring her.

"Nothin' luv. Just thinking."

"What about?"

Spike frowned and looked at his mate. She was looking at him curiously. "Do you really want to know?"

"Yep."

"I feel like I'm losing you...." he said softly.

"No...Spike. Don't be stupid. You'll never get rid of me. Hell, I'm here forever. What could make you think that?"

"Dunno." He said, turning.

Willow felt lost. She didn't know how to reassure him. She didn't even know why he could even consider the possibility. "Spike...remember what you told me? No
running. What is wrong?"

Spike turned to her, his eyes cold. "HE made you laugh. I've been here since the change....watching after you, taking care of you....you were so out of it you probably
don't remember....you haven't even smiled at me, yet he makes you laugh. That's my problem!"

"Oh sweetie....I know I'd be lost without you....I'm sorry if I did something that upset you....it was not intentional....I just haven't had anything to smile about lately...I
hadn't realized that I hadn't been ......"

"Just stop. I know how it will be. I lived through Dru and Angelus, remember? Well, I guess you have your Daddy now. Let him take care of you...." he spat out.

Willow felt tears on her cheeks. She turned from Spike and looked out the window at the moon.

Spike watched her and felt terrible. He had taken out his petty jealousy on her. He had vowed to himself not to do that. He went to her and hugged her from behind.
"I'm sorry...I'm trying to get used to this....I was....jealous of him..."

Willow pushed back into him. "I know."

"Its just....he was the first one to see you laugh....he was the one who saved you...I should have saved you."

"You weren't there...."

"BUT I should have been. I knew it was going to be dark, that you were most likely alone....Damn, I felt like something bad was going to happen. I ignored it and you
see what happened....I am trying so hard...."

Willow turned to him and kissed him lightly. "I know...it's going to take some time....we can make it work....I love you Spike."

"Me too luv....me too." he whispered before claiming her mouth.

Angel stood outside the door and watched. He had heard everything. He felt a bit left out. Since Willow had been turned, he and Spike had barely spoken. She hadn't
even touched him....he knew in his mind that it was a very bad time for them....they had a lot to get through...but he couldn't help feeling neglected by them both.
Scowling, he turned and went to the library. He grabbed a book and sat down to read. When they wanted him, they could sure as hell come to him. He was tired of
waiting for the scraps that he was thrown. It was their turn to do the waiting.

* * * * *

Willow got out of the bed and pulled a cover around her. She hated feeling cold. She always had. Now, it appeared that she would be stuck with that feeling for
eternity. She looked at Spike and smiled slightly. He WAS trying. She knew how hard it must be for him. First, he had Dru who truly belonged to Angelus. Now, he had
her....she guessed that she must belong to Nic. Poor Spike. He had never had one to call his own. He had planned on her being his. She knew this. They had discussed
it often. His jealousy and possessiveness had been a problem before, she could imagine what it would be now. She suddenly realized that she hadn't seen Angel since
they had gone to Giles' apartment.

She quietly left the room and began searching. When she got to the library, she smiled. He was sitting in a chair with a book in his lap. His eyes were closed. She crept
forward until she was standing in front of him. He looked exhausted. She felt guilt spread through her. He had been helping Spike during the last few days. She hadn't
even seen him, really seen him, since before her change. Her smile became wicked. (Time to make up for that)

Angel woke suddenly. He looked down and had to smile. Willow was kneeling in front of him. Her mouth slowly licking up and down his cock. He was so used to her
warmth, that the coolness was a surprise. He felt himself growing harder. Her green eyes looked into his and she smiled.

"I was naughty....ignored my Angel...forgive me?"

"Always."

She looked into those brown eyes and saw that he spoke the truth. He had all ready accepted her new identity and had no resentments. She knew that she would
have no problems with him. She turned her attention back to him. Nibbling and licking from base to tip, then back down again. Suddenly, she took his length into her
mouth. He closed his eyes and enjoyed the sensation of her wet tongue on him. It had been so long....He came within moments, flooding her mouth with his release.
She licked him clean and stood.

She reached a hand out to him and said, "Come to bed."

* * * * *

"Spike.....would you and Angel go pick up that book from Nic?"

Spike looked at Willow and then back to the slayer. "You won't leave her?" he asked Buffy.

Surprised, Buffy said "No."

"See you in a bit luv." He went forward and kissed Willow before leaving.

Buffy watched her friend. Willow was chewing on her bottom lip, a habit that she displayed when she was nervous or upset. "What gives?"

Willow looked at Buffy. This was the first time they had been alone together since her death. "It's Spike."

Buffy smiled. "Oh really? I never would have guessed." She rolled her eyes.

Willow had to laugh. It was nice to be around her friend again. Buffy had accepted her new status whole-heartedly. Willow was glad that her friend was living with Nic
and Dru. She knew that had made it easier for her. Xander and Cordelia had not been around. Oz had come by on his way out of town. He had felt guilty. She
wondered why everyone wanted to blame themselves. It had been her fault. Actually, it had been the robber's fault. But, she had known better. She was finally coming
to terms with the part she had played in her own death. She didn't need to keep reassuring others that there was nothing they could have done to prevent it. Oz had
understood. He had all ready called her several times since he got to LA. He'd promised to keep in touch. Giles was very cool with it. When he had realized that she
wasn't a typical vampire, he had been overjoyed. Buffy had tried to come over several times but something seemed to come up. This was the first time she had made
it to the house.

"Earth to Willow....Girl, you're spacing out on me here...."

"Sorry. What was I saying?"

"Spike?"

"Yeah....this is the first time he has let me out of his sight since it happened. He seems to always be there. I know I should be grateful that he cares and is worried,
but it is really getting to be irritating. Angel has been great. He's there when I need him, but he gives me space. I don't know. I am so glad you are here."

Buffy smiled. She had had some problems coming to terms with Willow's death, but it hadn't taken long. She and Luc had talked for hours about what Willow was now.
She felt that she had a good understanding of it. "Wills, Spike feels that he failed you. You died! He couldn't stop it. He promised to protect you always, and he feels
like he broke that promise. He may be a bit overprotective right now, but give it some time. He's worth it."

"Wait! YOU think Spike is worth it? I must have been dead longer than I thought...."

"Shut up, Deadgirl. He's a good guy, for a vampire. And he loves you dearly."

"I know. I love him too. It just gets to the point that it feels like he's more of a babysitter than a lover...a husband..." Willow trailed off. Suddenly, she asked, "So, do
you feel that need to kill me?"

"What? No. I mean, I recognize that you're a vampire, but I don't feel threatened. Why?"

"Just curious. Nic said that I have a demon, just that the spell he cast weakens it. Sometimes, though, the demon can get to be strong. When that happens, I become
just like any other bloodsucker. It usually only lasts a short time though. I was just curious to know if you could sense my inner demon."

"Hmm....you mean, you will go wacko once in awhile?" Buffy asked concerned. This was the first she had heard about it.

"Rarely. Nic says different circumstances bring out the demon. He told me that it depends on the individual. So far, I appear to be demon free."

"That's good." Buffy said. "So, I've been dieing to know....."

Willow waited. "What?"

"Is the sex any different?" she asked mischievously.

"Buuufffyy!" Willow said, having to laugh. She almost felt as though nothing had changed.

* * * * *

Willow and Buffy talked for a few more hours, mostly catching up on the last weeks events. Buffy had been to the doctor, and was told that the pregnancy was
progressing normally. Her expected due date was tentatively scheduled December 22. Dru was convinced that it was a girl, and Buffy had to agree. She told Willow
that she and Luc had been getting much closer. He often accompanied her on her patrols and they spent most evening together. They still had not had a repeat of the
events in New Orleans. Buffy told Willow that she didn't think that would happen until the baby was born. Buffy told Willow of Xander and Cordelia. They had moved in
together. They seemed to be in love and enjoying their engagement. Willow knew that it was hard for Xander to accept her death but she had thought that he would
have stood beside her....not run from her. That hurt more than anything that had happened to her. His betrayal of their friendship. She honestly didn't know if she
could ever be friends with him again. She let Buffy out and sat on the couch to think. She wondered where Spike and Angel were. They had been gone several hours.
She guessed that she couldn't complain. She had told them to take their time.

Around 4 am, Willow was livid. They still weren't back. Angel had called and said that he was going to stay over with Nic and Dru. They were discussing a situation that
was heading towards Sunnydale. He had told her then that Spike had left hours before. Spike still resented Nic, despite his best attempts not to. Willow felt her anger
growing with every passing minute.

"Where the hell is he? Probably out getting drunk again....He sure as hell had better not have found some slut. He'd better have a good explanation for this..."

She began to clean the living room. Beating the pillows, wiping the tables..anything to keep busy. Another hour passed.

"Oh Goddess...what if he's dead? Someone could have staked him...he might have fed off he wrong person...oh no, what will I do if he's gone? No...he's still
around...Where is he?"

She flopped on the sofa and looked at the ceiling. She felt anger and worry running through her. Suddenly, she heard a key in the door. She sniffed the air and smelt
tequila. (That bastard was out drinking again....always running from his problems... typical male....well, it's not going to work this time, damn it.)

She stood, her eyes blazing yellow. She watched as the door slowly opened.

* * * * *

Spike crept into the dark room. He was in trouble. He had wanted to give Willow some time alone with the slayer, but time had gotten away from him. He had gone to
Willy's and had been challenged to a game of pool. Well, needless to say, that became an all night event. Now, he only hoped that Willow was asleep. He walked to the
stairs, when he suddenly felt something push him. Startled, he looked in yellow eyes. Willow was in full game face. She was beautiful. Her hair was on fire....her eyes
let with anger.

"Luv...."

He found his words stopped by her mouth. She forcefully pushed him onto the stairs. He found himself sitting with her standing in front of him. (Blimey....)

Willow ran her fingernail over his cheek, drawing a trace of blood. She slowly licked it. Her hands moved to his shirt. She ripped it off with one hard yank. Her teeth
began biting their way down his body. She roughly grabbed his cock through his jeans. "Mine" she whispered.

Spike knew to sit back and let her do this. She was claiming him. He'd done it to her several times. But, this was the first time he'd been claimed since Angelus. Biting
off a groan, he lay his head back on the stair. He felt his jeans being pulled off. Her cold mouth claimed his cock. He was all ready hard and wanting. When she had
made him even harder, she climbed up his body and took his mouth. She lowered herself on to him. He thrust upwards matching her rhythm. Her hands ran along his
arms, pinning them above his head. He felt the hard stairs behind his back. He then felt her tighten around his cock. She bit into his neck deeply, sucking and lapping
at his blood. When he felt his release about to come, he reciprocated, tasting her sweet blood. They came together. Her hand reached down and roughly grabbed his
face. Her eyes changed back to familiar green.

"Mine." she said harshly, running a possessive hand over his features.

"Yours." he agreed, smiling.

"Now, don't be late again. I was worried." She said, before claiming his mouth.

* * * * *

Willow and Spike, Buffy and Luc, Nic and Dru, Angel and Simone, and Ettiene all sat around the table. There was a small group of vampires that had tried to come in
and take over that they had just defeated. It was a celebration. Willow looked at them all and smiled. She noticed how Angel had been mesmerized by Simone, who
had just arrived from New Orleans. She had had to get several things settled before her move. Willow was very happy she was here. The two had had such fun while in
New Orleans, becoming very dear friends. They had even kept in touch while Simone was getting ready for the move. Even Buffy liked the quiet, elegant woman. The
blond beauty seemed equally enraptured by Angel. Willow knew that wasn't difficult. Angel was very special to her. He had repeated the vows along with Spike. She
knew that he felt neglected sometimes. Especially lately. Spike's overprotectiveness since her death...her struggles with adjusting to her new life...She wanted him to
find someone that would treat him the way he deserved. She wished that she could that person, but Spike was her primary mate. Angel would always be her
secondary and hold a special place in her heart, but she could share. His happiness was worth that. He looked up suddenly, as though he could feel her eyes on him.
She smiled her approval. He smiled back shyly.

Angel wasn't sure what he was doing. He loved his relationship with Spike and Willow, but often times felt left out. He looked at the woman beside him. She was
charming. They had met previously years before, while he was Angelus. He remembered then being struck by her beauty and intelligence. In a lot of ways, she
reminded him of Willow. He saw Willow watching him and received her smile of approval. He wasn't sure where this might lead, but at least he knew he wouldn't be
risking his relationship with her. Spike would probably be relieved if he found another separate mate. He'd only just met her. It would take some time to see where
things might lead. He knew that he would not be willing to lose Willow and Spike. He didn't know how Simone would react to that....anyway, it was much too early to
be thinking about that. Smiling at his Willow, he turned back to Simone.

* * * * *

"Where's Willow?" Angel asked as he came into the room.

"She and the slayer went shopping. Baby clothes." Spike said, looking up from his book. He looked at Angel, who had just left the shower. His hair was still wet, drops
of water slowly running down his face. Spike held back a groan and went back to his book.

Angel smiled. He had seen the lust in his childe's eyes. It had been too long.

"I'm proud. You actually allowed her to leave the house without her shadow. Good show, mate." Angel said smirking.

"Don't you have some blonde bimbo waiting for you?"

"Jealous?"

Spike snickered. "You wish. Go ahead and go to her. She must be waiting."

Angel frowned. "No, she's not."

Spike looked up, surprised. Angel and Simone had met every night for a week. He had thought that their friendship was progressing nicely. "What happened?"

"Nothing. She's great. We are great friends." Angel said. He turned serious dark eyes toward Spike. "She's not you. She's not Willow. It just doesn't seem right. I know
Willow approves. Hell, you're probably thrilled. I just feel like I'm betraying what I feel for you two. I don't know if she and I will ever make it out of that comfortable friend stage. Hell, who am I kidding? I don't want it past that stage. I just need a friend."

Spike was shocked. He had thought the two seemed perfect for each other. He had felt rather unhappy at the idea that Angel wanted someone else, but Willow had
convinced him that it was Angel's choice. He felt elation spread through him. His sire had chosen to stay with them. He scowled at Angel and said, "Good excuse. You
just want to make me miserable. I know you. You should just go."

Angel moved quickly. He had Spike thrown against the floor in moments. "What was that? Did I just hear you try to give me an order, William?" he asked silkily.

Spike felt a shot of desire shoot through him. It had been too long, what with Willow's death and all of their adjusting.

"Go to hell mate. Oh wait, forgot. You've all ready been there." he said.

Angel knew what Spike was after, and he sure as hell planned to give it to him. He flipped the blond over, shoving his face into the floor. "Tsk...tsk...seems someone
has forgotten who his daddy is. Getting a bit big for your britches there, son." he said, as he roughly grabbed Spike's erection through his jeans. "Let Daddy take care
of that."

Angel kept one hand on the back of Spike's head, with the other he pulled the vampire's jeans down past his knees. He unzipped his pants, freeing his enormous hard
on. He pushed Spike's shirt up, enjoying the power he had. He ran a finger nail down his childe's back, watching as the blood slowly started to run. He ran his hand
over it, smearing it over Spike's pale white skin. Spike groaned. He tried to move against the floor, hoping the friction would help him find release. Angel noticed his
movement, and pulled him roughly to his knees.

"You don't come until I say you can." he said huskily. He leaned forward and ran his tongue along Spike's tight ass. He ran his hand up and down his own cock, making
it grow even larger. When he felt it was time, he kneeled behind his child and entered him fully. Spike gasped at the pain and pleasure. Angel drove into him like a
demon possessed. With each thrust, he shoved Spike's head against the floor. Spike ached to find his own release, but remembered his sire's warning. He felt Angel's
teeth in his shoulder as he felt his ass flooded with his sire's release. Shaking, he waited, hoping it was now his turn. Angel licked at the bite, catching the stray drops
of blood. There was no way he could leave this. He belonged here. They heard a soft chuckle and both looked towards the door. Willow stood there, a wicked smile on
her pretty face. Her eyes shown with arousal. They could smell her desire.

"Naughty boys....playing without me. Should I be jealous?"

* * * * *

Willow moved into the room. She had seen most of Angel's possession. Even after all this time, the sight of Spike being taken by Angel still turned her on. She honestly
could think of nothing more erotic than seeing them together. She went to them and ran her hand along Spike's back. She trailed down his ass, enjoying the feel of his
skin. Looking into Angel's eyes, she brought her finger up to her mouth and gently lapped at his secretions mixed with the blood. Angel felt himself harden immediately.
He roughly grabbed her and brought her mouth to his. Spike began to sit up, but Angel's shoved his head back down. He broke the kiss to say, "I don't remember giving
you permission to move."

Willow loved when Angelus came out to play. Before, he had sometimes scared her. Now, she just felt turned on. He ripped her shirt off, leaving it hanging. His mouth
found her breasts, biting and sucking. She fell back onto the sofa. He pushed her skirt up and tore her panties off. He entered her wet passage and began to thrust
wildly. She met each one, making him go deeper each time. Her eyes caught Spike's. He was still kneeling on the floor. His back covered with scratches...his ass
covered with Angel's release. His eyes were wild. He was so aroused. She whispered in Angel's ear and he looked at her.

"Are you sure?" he asked.

"Yes."

He stopped his thrusting and moved to lay on the floor. She got up and went to Spike. She kissed him deeply, their tongues mating. She then winked at him. She went
to Angel and lowered herself onto his erection. This was his second of the evening, so she knew he would last for quite awhile. Once she started an easy rhythm, she
nodded at him.

"Spike...you may take Willow." he said. His hands went to cup her ass, slowly spreading the cheeks apart for Spike.

Spike moved and in a flash his cock was running up and down her opening. She had never allowed either of them to possess her this way. The demon must have
loosened her inhibitions. He was crazy with lust. He needed to come. He tried to go slow. He eased into her a little at a time.

Willow thought she was going to die. She felt completely filled. He was going to slow. Groaning in frustration, she arched back taking him deep.

"Yesssss...." she hissed.

Spike and Angel began a rhythm, both alternating their thrusts. They wanted her to beg them for her release. Soon, they were all overcome. They started to thrust
harder....deeper...They all exploded at once. Willow had never felt this way before. It was as though every nerve ending were on fire. Exhausted, her head fell forward
onto Angel's shoulder. Spike pulled out of her, and looked at her in amazement. He gently picked her up and all three headed upstairs.
 

~Part: 35~ Darn Near Perfect

Willow stretched out on the sofa and looked at Buffy. She was beginning to gain a lot of weight. Of course, she ate like she was feeding an army instead of two
people. Willow smiled.

"I hate being pregnant. When is it going to end?"

"What now?"

"I can't wear any of my clothes! Can you believe that? I am as big as a house."

"No you aren't. That will be in another month or so." Dru said, winking at Willow.

If you had asked Willow in high school if she would ever be close friends with the crazy vampire that had killed a slayer, she would have you said you were nuts. Yet,
here she was. Not only that, but Buffy was friends with Dru. Willow still had not seen Xander or Cordelia in weeks. Granted, Cordelia had called once to check on her.
That was something. She had heard that they were both considering moving to LA. Getting away from Sunnydale and all the bad memories. She wished they would. It
hurt her alot to think of how they were treating her. It wasn't even like she was a normal blood sucking vampire. Hell, the only blood she drank was from Spike and
Angel.

"You hoo.....walking dead?"

Willow rolled her eyes. Buffy had a slew of nicknames for her now. She wondered how Angel had made it without killing Xander. "Yes, Omar?"

"Dead girl."

"Chubby."

"Ohh....I am not fat!"

"Ok...ok....pleasantly plump?" Willow said, smiling innocently.

"GIRLS!" Dru said. "Be nice. Now, why don't we go shopping? The boys will be gone for a few more hours. Nic said they were going to watch a baseball game."

Willow and Buffy stuck their tongues out at each other and then smiled at Dru. "Yes mommy" they said, smiling.

Dru just shook her head and turned to go. They laughed and followed her. They needed to get Buffy some clothes that fit. Her little skirts and tank tops were out of
the question.

"If we're good can we get ice cream mother?" Buffy asked, a sparkle in her eye.

"Ohh...yeah....please please please."

Dru looked at them. "I am glad I never had children. You two are too much work." she said seriously.

"But you love us don't you mother?" Willow asked smiling impishly.

"Yes dear." Dru said, smiling in return. She enjoyed her time here very much.

"Let's go. I'll drive." Buffy said, briefly hugging Dru.

"No. Not that. Please. I all ready died once. I can't die again. I'm too young."

"Willow...get your scrawny dead ass in the car!" Buffy demanded.

Willow smiled and got in the front seat. When Buffy turned on the car, Willow leaned over and said, "My ass isn't scrawny, slayer. Oh wait...compared to yours I guess
it is." She ducked back as Buffy swung at her.

Dru started to laugh and soon they joined her. Buffy rolled her eyes. "Just wait. When I can see my feet again, I'll kick your ass, little girl."

"So scared...." Willow said, smiling back at her friend.

* * * * *

Willow sat at the table and watched Buffy dancing with Luc. This was the first time she had been to the Bronze in months. She felt someone behind her, and smiled at
Spike.

"Slayer is starting to look like Moby Dick" he said snickering.

"Spiiiike." Willow warned. She couldn't handle another evening of reassuring Buffy that she didn't resemble a house. "Let's dance." She pulled him onto the floor.

A slow number began. She wrapped her arms around his neck and they began to move. She felt someone move up behind her. She knew it was Angel. She felt his arms
go around her stomach. Soon, the three were dancing together. She wondered how weird that must look to everyone. (Golly...I could go on Jerry Springer....) she
laughed lightly at that thought.

"Luv?" Spike looked at her questioningly.

"Just a silly thought. This is nice."

Angel smiled into her hair. He agreed. When the song ended, they went back to the table, Willow taking the seat between the two men. Soon, Buffy had rejoined her
bringing Luc.

"Hey there." She greeted.

"Buffy." "Slayer"

Luc nodded at the two vampires. He looked to make sure Buffy was ok. Lately, she had been growing tired very easily. He didn't want her to injure herself.

Buffy smiled. She knew that Luc was looking after her. He was worse than her father had ever been. She liked it.

"So, have you thought of a name for the brat yet?" Spike asked.

Buffy rolled her eyes. This time, she wouldn't argue with him. Instead, she smiled sweetly, "Yes. I am going to name her Tyler Rose. I plan on calling her Rose though."

Willow smiled. Buffy had all ready told her this. She had wanted to call the baby Willow, but Willow had said no. So, Buffy had decided on Rose, the first part of
Willow's last name. Buffy wanted her daughter to have some connection to her dearest friend.

"Rose....that's cute." Spike said. "I'm surprised it is something that simple."

"Well, I guess I'm just full of surprises." Buffy said smiling.

Spike groaned. "Can we leave yet?" he asked his wife.

"Why? Aren't you having fun?"

"I can think of other things that would be much more fun." he said sexily.

Angel ran his hand up her back, caressing the back of her neck.

Willow got up and looked at Buffy. "I'll call you tomorrow. We can go to the school and register."

"Do you really think I should take classes this term? I mean, what with the baby and all."

"I'm taking them and I'm dead. So, no excuses. You aren't due until Winter Break. I'll see you tomorrow. Bye Luc. Make sure she gets home safely."

"Will do."

Buffy watched as they left and laughed. "Do you think they are ever going to lose that horniness?"

"Probably not. They seem to enjoy it."

"Yeah...but geesh....I don't know how she can deal with them both." Buffy smiled. "Let's dance, while I still can."

* * * * *

"I know. I am a prick. A selfish, coldhearted bastard. I am scum. Worse than that, I am the germ that lives in scum. I wouldn't blame you if you shut the door in my
face and never spoke to me again. I deserve that."

Willow had to smile. "I was thinking more along the lines of a gutter slug, but yours works too."

Worried brown eyes got a hopeful gleam, "You made a funny.....does that mean I'm forgiven?"

"No." his face fell, "It means you can now work at being forgiven."

"Wills....what do I need to do? I miss you. I admit that I reacted very badly. I was horrid. I wanted to come the week after, but I was so ashamed at how I treated
you."

"Xan..."

"No, I need to say this. When Cor and I started talking about leaving Sunnydale, I knew I needed to talk to you. I doubt we leave. Our life is here. But, I realized how
much I regret not having you as my friend. I'll understand if I am too late. I will accept that. I just needed to make sure you were ok. Are you ok?"

"Yes. I've missed you too. It really hurt me...what you did. I can't promise that it will ever be the same, but I am willing to try. Why don't you come in and we'll talk."

"Are the bloodhounds here?"

"No. They went to watch a hockey game with Nic and the boys. Your neck is safe."

Xander followed Willow inside. She had hardly changed. He couldn't believe he had been so stupid. "You look good Wills."

"Thanks. Being dead brings out that sweet glow I guess." she said laughing.

He looked surprised. "You can joke about it?"

"Xander, it happened. I am here and that is all that matters. In the beginning, I wanted to die. I felt so lost. Spike and Angel wouldn't let me. It took some time, but I
am ok with it. Hell, I feel more alive now than I did through most of high school."

"I'm glad you're happy and alive. I don't know what I would have done if Nic hadn't come along."

"No what ifs. Its a rule in this house. So, you don't think you and Cordelia will be moving?"

Xander sat back and talked to Willow about what had been going on in his life over the past two months. She returned the favor. Time slipped by as they tentatively
began to rebuild their friendship.

* * * * *

Willow watched Angel sleeping. He had such a peaceful expression on his handsome face. She had met Xander and Buffy and Cordelia for lunch. It had been nice to
catch up, just like old times. When she got home, Spike was waiting for her. He told her that he was meeting Nic. They were talking about converting some of the
warehouse district into shopping areas. She was glad that Nic had asked Spike for his opinion. She was even more thrilled that Spike had agreed to look at the property
with Nic. There was still a bit of tension between the two men, but Spike had eased up a bit when he realized that Nic was nothing like his own sire. Nic still treated
Willow the same as he had before. They were a bit closer now, but they had been friends before.

Willow looked at Angel again. The sheet was pushed down around his waist. He was laying on his stomach, his face resting on one arm. She loved his back. She ran her
hand lightly over his tattoo. He moved a bit, but didn't awaken. She ran her tongue over the design. This time, his eyes flew open.

"Willow..." he warned. She smiled at him.

She moved her mouth over his muscular back...down to his firm ass. "Don't move" she warned. She kissed one cheek then the other. Nipping at the flesh, drawing a
thin line of blood. He groaned into the pillow. She wet her finger and moved it over his hole. She was amazed when he arched up toward her finger.

"Angel..."

"Huh?" he whispered hoarsely.

"Why does Spike never take you? I mean, back here? You seem into it...."

Surprised, he rolled over and faced her. "Spike is my childe. As his sire, I am granted access to him. Luckily for me, he fights it. I love to dominate him. I have let him
have me a few times before. It is not unheard of. It is considered a weakness though. I will happily give him release with my mouth, but I guess I am still stuck in the
old way of thinking. Why?"

"Just curious. I love when he fucks me there. Never thought I would. He fills me so completely. It is almost painful, but the pleasure is fantastic. I just wondered why
you felt you didn't deserve that pleasure." She paused a moment before continuing, " I had this dream that you were fucking me...so hard....Spike was fucking you, I
could see both of your faces as I came..."

Angel thought over Willow's words. Soon, he felt her mouth on his cock. Her hands pushed him against the bed. "Enough talking....I want to fuck." she said, looking at
him with her innocent face.

She positioned herself over his erection, thrusting down. His hand came up to her breasts, kneading at them. His thumb and finger twisting her nipples painfully. She
cried out. One of his hands went to her hip. He held her as he began to thrust up forcefully. The image of what she had been describing filled his mind. He heard her
moan his name, and his control snapped. He flipped her over and shoved into her as deep as he could. He rained bites along her collarbone and breasts. Soon, they
both climaxed powerfully. As Angel lay beside her, he felt her hand on his ass.

* * * * *

Willow looked around at her family and smiled. They were all here. It was an engagement part for Xander and Cordelia, since her death had upset the previous one.

"Those two deserve each other" Spike mumbled in her ear. He was not happy that she had accepted Xander back into her life. He still resented the boy for hurting her
so much and refusing to give her a chance.

"Spike....he's not perfect. He made a mistake. Its nothing like it used to be, but I did miss him."

"I know pet. He just pisses me off. he hurt you and now acts like it was nothing."

"My knight in shining armor" she said, kissing him lightly.

He smiled. "I think its more tarnished than shining."

"Willow?"

She turned towards Buffy. "Yes?"

"Just wanted to make sure you were ok. Its only been a week since that jackass apologized..."

Willow had to laugh. "You're starting to sound like Spike! He was just asking the same thing."

Buffy looked at the blond vampire and smiled. "Well, I guess it could be worse. She could have compared me to Cordelia."

Spike shuddered. "I wouldn't even wish that one on you slayer."

Buffy and Willow laughed. "Spike be nice."

"Always pet."

Willow looked at Buffy and rolled her eyes. "He's impossible."

Buffy put her arm around Willow's shoulders and patted her softly. "I know. Poor Willow. Two impossible men to deal with. Good thing you're so patient."

Willow shook her head. "No I'm not. I just make sure that they're scared of me."

Buffy laughed. "C'mon, dance with the pregnant lady." she pulled Willow out on to the dance floor. They began to sway to the music losing themselves in the beat.

Spike felt Angel come up behind him.

"Getting chummy with the slayer huh?" Angel asked smirking.

"Shut up Peaches. Only for Willow."

"Well, we could go torture Xander for a couple hours. I think I'd enjoy that immensely." Angel said, watching the boy in disgust.

"Can't. All ready asked. Willow threatened to fuck him if we even got close."

"What?"

Spike smiled. "Little vixen knew it was the only threat that would work."

Angel had to laugh. Willow had gotten much smarted in dealing with them both.

The men watched their lover dance with Buffy. Suddenly, Angel asked, "Does Willow know?"

"Know what?"

"That Buffy is in love with her?"

Spike thought a minute. "No. I don't think she thinks it is anything other than friendship. How did you know? I thought I was the only one who saw it."

Angel smiled ruefully. "Buffy used to look at me that way. She has always been close to Willow, I guess she finally allowed it to progress to the next step. I always
thought she had feeling for her."

"Nah, I don't know if it is like that....I think she's just needy right now. Going through Hell and Willow is the one pulling her out, standing beside her. I think it is more a
gratitude and friendly kind of love. Not a passionate romantic thing. I think Willow would sense the latter."

"You're probably right. Hell, who doesn't love Willow? She sort of makes it impossible not to love her."

Spike and Angel shared a smile. "And she's ours." Spike said, cockily.

"Yep....ours."

Willow noticed their smiles and had to chuckle. (Typical men....Why won't they realized that they are really mine?)
 

~Part: 36~ Hot Surrender

"So, what were you two whispering about tonight?"

Angel and Spike exchanged a look.

"Boys?" Willow demanded.

Angel finally spoke up. "Spike told me that you were wanting to fuck Xander."

Spike looked at Angel relieved. "Yeah Pet. What's up with that? Are we not good enough for you?"

Willow knew they were lieing, but decided it wasn't that important. They wanted to play, she'd play.

She sighed. "Yes. I admit it. I want to feel that hot flesh under my hands." She slowly began to undress. "Feel those big hands on my breasts..."she took off her bra
and ran her fingers lightly over her breasts, "feel his wet tongue on my thighs..."she slid her panties off, "allow him to take that rock hard cock and fuck me until I pass
out." she slid a finger into her slit.

The men were up and undressed in moments. "The boy wouldn't know what to do." Spike said, removing her hand and replacing it with his tongue. He lapped at her
juices, rubbing his thumb over her swollen clit.

Angel came up behind her, raking his fingernails over her breasts. He began to knead and twist them, his lips on her neck. "He could never satisfy you, Red."

Willow fell back against Angel. Her lips reaching blindly for his. She came against Spike's thrusting tongue. Spike stood and rubbed the swollen head of his cock across
her sopping slit. She pulled away from Angel and looked at Spike. What was he waiting for? Suddenly, she saw the smirk on his face. "Fuck me." she demanded.

"With pleasure." he rammed into her, shoving her back against Angel. Angel held her still, acting as her support as Spike continued to pound into her. He was punished
her for thinking about the boy, even in a joking way. Angel's hand went down to her ass. He worked his finger up her and began to match Spike's rhythm. As she
clenched his finger, their conversation from the previous week came to mind. He looked into Spike's eyes. Willow came again, clenching and draining Spike. He noticed
Angel watching him with a questioning look. He smiled and winked at his sire. Willow tried to calm herself down.

"Why don't we move this to the bed?" she asked.

Angel scooped her up and walked her over to the bed, his cock hard and aching. She smiled. It was going to be one hell of a night.

* * * * *

I felt Angel's eyes on me as I walked into the room. I turned to him and smiled. I saw the look in his eyes and felt myself growing wet. He wants to play.....

"Willow....you've been a bad girl. You should have never thought about Xander."

"I was joking."

"Doesn't matter....you must be punished."

He came over to me, placing his hands on my arms and slowly turning me around so that I faced the mirrored closet. Spike sat on the bed, a smirk on his face as he
watched.

I felt his cool breath on my neck. He pushed me up against the mirror until I was pressed flat against it. The cool surface instantly causing my nipples to tighten and
pucker. He took my arms and raised them slightly over my head, spreading them about a foot apart to lie flat against the mirror, my palms and forearms also making
contact. He turned my head to the side so that my right cheek was similarly pressed against the mirror. My eyes closed, my lips parted. My body was responding to
the uncertainty of what he was going to do next, excitement and anticipation replacing the fear.

He whispered in my ear, "Don't you dare move. I want the entire top half of your body to remain flat against the mirror. Do you understand?"

"Yes..."

He began to whisper all sorts of lewd suggestions and statements directly in my ear, asking me darkly intriguing questions...forcing me to answer and admit my deepest
darkest secrets. I heard Spike moan but could not see him.

"Do you have any idea how incredibly sexy you are? So you have any idea what I'm going to do to you next? Do you know that you are completely in my power and
helpless to stop anything I choose to initiate?"

"Yes...I know....please...."

"Please what Willow?"

"Please....no more..."

"I haven't even started Willow..."

"Stop....stop talking....stop...."

His hands lightly grazed a trail down the center of my back, invoking a mixture of involuntary tremors and shivers. Goddess, I was so hot....so turned on...on fire....his
mental foreplay unleashing my most hidden and unacknowledged desires.

One of his hands stayed firmly planted in the center of my back, keeping my chest pressed flat against the mirror, while his other arm reached around my waist and
pulled it towards him, causing my back to arch and giving him a delightful view of my ass. He also pulled my legs and feet out about one foot from the wall.

"Spread your legs apart for me Willow."

"Stop it....this is degrading."

"One more time....spread your legs." This time his demand was accompanied by a stinging swat to my backside.

"Ok...Ok..." and I spread my legs.

"Wider...."

With a stifled cry I spread my legs as wide as my wobbly heels will allow. I hate his games....Who am I kidding? Angel can turn me on more with his words than I could
ever imagine....

"Much better." hIs hands start to caress and probe my fully exposed and vulnerable ass.

"You want to be fucked in the ass Willow?" he whisperers sinisterly.

At this I react in fright and try to move...

"I told you not to move. Not one inch. Not until I tell you that you can." He pressed my chest back against the cold mirror.

"Well, do you? Answer me." Another stinging swat to my ass.

"I don't know...this is uncomfortable..."

"Willow...I know you're turned on. You know how?"

"No...how?"

"From this" and with that he took two fingers and buried them to the hilt in my pussy without the slightest resistance, causing me to gasp and cry out. Goddess, what
is he doing to me.

"You are so wet Willow...so fucking wet."

He took the juices and began to spread them on my asshole, liberally covering it with moisture, slightly penetrating my ass with his fingers...making sure that I am slick
inside and out..then the hand that has been around my waist travels lower and starts to stimulate my clit. Oh Goddess....I want him....I want it...I don't care
where....At that thought, I feel the head of his cock teasing the entrance to my ass, slowly encircling it..slowly probing...proceeding cautiously...I arch my back
further, sticking my ass out more, wanting to feel him buried deep inside of me...impatient now.

He slowly begins to penetrate me, entering inch by inch. He groaned and began to push on further. I begin to moan uncontrollably, feeling his entire shaft finally buried
deep inside me. His hand is still working furiously on my clit. Suddenly, I feel a wet tongue replace his finger. Spike has joined us, barely fitting between my body and
the mirror. His tongue begins to fuck me, his fingers playing as I start to move and buck against Angel. He began to fuck my ass with long deep steady strokes, over
and over...getting as deep as he can. We both scream at the same time...throwing ourselves into our climax.

Spike stands and kisses me. Angel pulls himself out of me and kisses my shoulder.

"Just a reminder....don't even think about another man." he whispers before nipping at my neck. Shakily, I nod.

I look at Spike and notice his hard erection. I reach out and run my hand over it. "Poor Spikey....need some help?"

"Red...." he warned, groaning as my hand began to move.

Angel chuckled against my back. "Let's get him to the bed. I think my patient childe may deserve a reward." He winks at me.

* * * * *

Spike wasn't sure that he liked the looks that Willow and Angel were exchanging. It was this sly, We've got a secret thing that he hated. Pouting, he turned away from
them. Fine, let them have their fun. He didn't have to be subjected to it. Suddenly, he felt a mouth on his cock. He looked down into knowing brown eyes. Damn
bastard always know when he's ignoring me. Willow pushed him back against the bed. She smiled slyly at him and whispered, "I want you to fuck me." She moved over
his head and covered his face with her sopping pussy. He could taste the delightful mixture that was Willow, Angel and himself.

Angel again wondered if he was making the right decision. Letting Spike take him was allowing him the right to dominate him. In their relationship, it was the only
control that Angel had. Neither he nor Spike completely controlled Willow. He was Spike's sire. As his mouth tasted Spike's cock, he decided to hell with it. He wanted
to feel his childe buried deep inside of him.

He let go of Spike and moved behind Willow. "It's time" he whispered.

She smiled. She knew how difficult this was for Angel. He had told her that it had been since before his curse that he had allowed Spike to dominate him. She gave him
a reassuring smile and moved to lay on the bed. "Angel...I need you."

He thrust into her before she finished the sentence. Spike moved to her face but she shook her head. She winked at him.

"What?" he asked confused. He looked into Angel's eyes and felt his cock harden even more. (No way...)

"Fuck me." Angel commanded.

Spike didn't have to be told twice. He moved behind Angel and admired his sire's tight ass. He reached down and ran a finger through Willow's slit. She whimpered when
she felt the contact. Angel braced himself above Willow. She reached up and pulled his mouth down to hers. He felt Spike slowly push his finger into his hole. He
groaned. He'd forgotten how much he enjoyed this. Soon, Spike replaced the finger with his cock. Angel felt his childe begin to control the fucking. Angel felt his cock
tighten as he soon shot himself inside of Willow's wet center. Willow bit into his neck as she too came. Spike wanted to enjoy the sensation for as long as he could.
Who knew when Angel would be this nice again. But, he too soon found himself shooting his load deep into his sire's ass.

Angel smiled at them both. "That was...."

"Yeah..." Willow said, agreeing. She honestly thought that walking might be a problem.

Spike kissed her then looked at Angel. "Thanks." he said before settling down beside his mate.

Angel just smiled and nodded. "It was fun." Then, he too settled down beside Willow.
 

~Part: 37~ How Sweet It Is

"Miss Scarlet....in the library...with the wrench."

"No. Sorry." Willow said, smiling as Angel rolled his eyes.

"I hate this game. I hate board games. Why are we playing this?"

"Because, I play your games. You owe me."

"It's because she always wins when we play Clue." Buffy said, whispering loudly.

"I do not." Willow stated.

"Pet, when have you lost?" Spike asked, his eyebrows raised.

"Umm....well, OH. I know. I lost to Jesse once back in seventh grade. I kept thinking it was Professor Plum but it turned out to be Colonel Mustard."

Buffy exchanged a look with the two vampires. "Scary thing is that she remembers that.....in detail."

The two men had to laugh.

"You guys aren't fun. I quit." Willow said, her lower lip protruding.

"Please, leave the pouting to Spike. He is the master." Angel said, laughing at Spike's reaction.

"I do not pout. I .....reflect."

Buffy snorted. "Yeah...you pout more than my little cousin and he's only four. I mean, your like: Willow didn't smile at me, let me glower. Angel won't play with me, boo
hoo. Xander beat me at NFL Showdown, wa wa...."

Spike heard Willow and Angel trying not to laugh. "Slayer....."he warned.

Buffy ignored him. "Cordelia made me buy a shirt that wasn't black, whine whine....AH! Spike!"

He moved to her picked her up, screaming and kicking. He smiled, "You never know when to stop Slayer." He took her outside and dropped her into the swimming pool.
He started to laugh. "Now this. This is what I call amusing."

She pulled herself out of the water. "You bastard. It's freezing."

Willow stood in the doorway laughing at them both. She exchanged a look with Angel. He smiled. They both moved behind Spike. Willow pushed and he fell into the
pool. Buffy sat back and laughed as he came up.

"Not so funny now is it?" She asked as Willow and Angel helped her up.

"Buff, I think you need to lay off the chocolate."

"Watch it deadgirl."

"Watcha gonna do slayer? Sit on me?" Willow asked, smirking.

"No....but I can tickle you." Buffy said, knocking her friend on the ground.

"Buffy! Get off of me." Willow said, laughing.

Spike got out of the pool and watched the girls wrestling. He looked at his sire who watching with an amused look on his face. He said, "They say we men are
immature?"

"Go figure."

* * * * *

"They didn't. You know they didn't."

"Well, I think they did. I mean, they bonded. That is a big deal."

"Both of you are wrong," Spike said, shaking his head at Buffy and Angel. "Some did, some didn't."

"Spike's right. The nerd and the basket case are probably chummy. The prom queen and the jock were always friendly. The psycho was probably expelled and never
heard from again."

"NO!" Buffy insisted. "They had to be friends. It would ruin the entire movie if they never spoke again. I mean, they all shared such private parts of their lives."

"What-ever. They were bored. They killed time. They would not have ever spoken of it again. I mean, some of the stuff they talked about? Puh-leez. I bet the little
bitch and the stud never even spoke again."

"Uh...guys?" Xander said, rolling his eyes at Cordelia, who was trying not to laugh. "It was just a movie. I think you are all taking it a bit too seriously."

"Just a movie? Xander! It is a classic. The Breakfast Club will be watched when we are dead and this question will still be asked!" Willow said, her eyes amused.

"Ha...you mean when I'm dead. Remember? Eternal creature of the night? Well....and the day...anyway, deadgirl, you'll be able to argue with them in fifty years then."
Xander said, smiling.

"Oh...I forgot." Willow said, sitting back against Spike. He rubbed her arm as Buffy and Angel continued to argue.

"Maybe we should try the next movie. Less chance for an argument." Cordy suggested. She reached over and put it on.

"Discussion, cheerleader. Simply a discussion" Spike said, winking at the girl. She smiled and just shook her head. She really didn't understand them sometimes.

* * * * *

ALMOST 2 Hours Later

The strains of If You Leave fill the air. Willow smiles. "That is such a good song."

"Whatever." Xander said, reaching for the chips. "She chose the wrong guy. I mean, the Duckster kicked ass."

"Xander, you're a moron. Blaine was cute and rich." Cordelia said, arguing with her fiance.

Willow and the others listened to them bicker. "Well, I think she should have told them both to go to hell. I mean, she didn't need either of them." Willow said, suddenly
smiling. "OR....she could have had them both.....I'd sure recommend it."

Buffy, Xander and Cordelia groaned, "UGH.....bad visual place. Let's go Cor."

"Bye Wills...Boys" Cordelia said as she and Xander left.

Buffy got up sighing. "I'd better go. It will take me forever to waddle home."

"Stay here" Spike offered.

Buffy, Willow and Angel looked at him in surprise. Willow started to smile.

"What? Can't I be a nice guy? Geez...I thought it might be easier. We have the room....Its late and I don't feel like walking her home." he mumbled.

Willow kissed him suddenly. "That is so sweet. Buffy, you will stay over won't you?"

Buffy smiled. "Yes. It will be like a slumber party. We can stay up all night giggling and talk about....boys" She whispered the last word, her eyes lit with amusement.

"What did you do?" Angel asked as Buffy and Willow headed to the kitchen, their laughter trailing behind.

"I dunno." Spike said, wondering the same thing. "Thought it might make Willow happy. She was telling me that she hadn't been able to spend any time with the slayer
lately...."

Angel suddenly laughed. "Man...you've gone soft. I love it. Come on, Poof, let's go to bed and leave them to their 'girl talk'."

Spike shot a glare at his sire. "I'm not soft....bloody bastard..." he mumbled as he went to the kitchen. He kissed Willow thoroughly, running his hands over her flesh.
"Night Pet" he said, claiming her lips once more before going upstairs.

Angel went to her and kissed her gently, letting his tongue linger in her mouth. He pulled back and winked at her. "See you later, lover." Then, he too, went upstairs.

Buffy fanned herself. "Wow...Willow. Sure you don't need to run upstairs?"

Willow turned and smiled. "No. They'll wait. Now, let's chat."

* * * * *

Buffy smiled at Willow. This was the first girls night they had had in a long time. Sure, they had gone to New Orleans, but they hadn't really just stayed up and talked
about unimportant stuff. She still couldn't believe that Spike had asked her to stay. Willow was a good influence on this vampire.

Willow dipped her spoon into the ice cream. She wondered what mischief Spike and Angel were getting up to. Oh well, tonight they could do without her. She was
exhausted anyway.

"So, Buffy. How is Luc?"

Buffy blushed. "He's good. He's been so great these last few months. I have really leaned on him a lot. He hasn't even tried anything either. Probably because I look
like a whale."

"You glow. Besides, I wouldn't say whale. I was thinking maybe a sumo wrestler."

"Ha ha...very funny. You can say that. You'll never go through this." Buffy paused as she saw her friend's face fall. Tears formed in the corner of her eyes.

"I know" Willow whispered.

"Oh Wills....Here, let me remove my foot from my mouth...Are you ok?"

"I'm fine. You know, I've never really wanted kids. But, now that I can never have them, I feel like I'm losing out on something. I don't know. It just hits me sometimes
when I see you so happy and pregnant. I'll never have that."

Buffy took Willow's hand. "I know what you mean. I look at you and Spike and even Angel and feel the same envy. They love you so much. You can be with them
forever. I'll never have someone that I feel that connected to...that I love so completely."

"Buffy...you're only 20. You have a long life ahead to find someone. Hell, I found two." Willow said, smiling.

"You always were an overachiever. Seriously, I know that Tyler was the one. I'm not unhappy about it. I would have rather had the few months with him than a
lifetime with someone I didn't truly love. Besides, he gave me Rose. That was worth it. I just see you three and feel such jealousy!" She said, laughing softly.

"I guess we always want what we can never have. Its nature. Oh Goddess...this is turning into a weepy night. My ice cream is melting."

"Mine too. Let's think of something happier to talk about."

"OK....what?" Willow asked, licking at her ice cream.

Buffy smiled evilly. "Girl talk. Tell me, Wills, whose better in bed, Spike or Angel?" She asked wiggling her eyebrows.

* * * * *

"BUFFY! Geez...." Willow got her ice cream and headed back to the living room. She sat on the sofa and pulled her legs up behind her. A CD of cheesy 80s songs was
playing. They had been having a flashback night. 80s movies, 80s music. It had been fun. It was the first time that Xander and Cordelia had been over since Willow had
died.

"Answer the question. How difficult is it? C'mon. I have to live vicariously through you my friend." Buffy said, rubbing her fast growing tummy.

"It is very difficult!" Willow insisted. "I can't decide something like that. I mean, they are both great. Phenomenal. They make me forget who I am when they touch
me...I become this insatiable, begging thing."

"Wow." Buffy said, eating her ice cream, her eyes wide. "How can you do it? I mean, sure every girl at one time or another has thought, Wouldn't it be neat to have
two guys at once. But no one hardly does. Its just a fantasy. Don't you get tired?"

"Exhausted. I am so glad that they enjoy each other too or else I'd die."

Buffy smiled slowly. "What's it like? Seeing them together? I mean...I've never seen two guys..."

"You've seen two girls?" Willow asked.

Buffy started to blush. Willow noticed. "C'mon Buff. You're keeping a secret. What is it? Tell Willow. You know you're dieing to."

"God....you have to promise not to say a word. The only reason I'm telling you this is because I know you will take it to your grave....Well, you know what I mean. I'd
die if anyone found out...."

"What? I am dieing here. You have to tell."

"You owe me, big time." Buffy said. Willow nodded. Buffy sighed. She couldn't believe she was about to tell Willow this. It was her only secret from her friend. She had
felt awful keeping it, but it had been too weird. "IhadsexwithFaithseveraltimesbeforeshewentbad" Buffy said, turning away from her friend.

Willow blinked in surprise. She had wondered about those two, but never thought Buffy would ever admit it. She heard a noise and groaned. They were listening. She'd
have to think of someway to keep them quiet. She looked back at Buffy. She was really embarrassed by this. Poor thing.

On the stairs, Spike turned to Angel wide eyed. "Did she just say that she and that nutty slayer used to shag?"

Angel smiled wickedly. "Yep. And its a secret. So shhhh.."

* * * * *

"You think I'm a freak don't you?"

"Of course not."

"I like men. It was mostly a slayer thing I think. It only happened a few times...then, she went all evil psycho and it stopped. I was surprised that she never told
anyone. I thought she might. Willow....talk to me." Buffy looked at her friend, her eyes pleading.

Willow smiled. "I was just feeling a bit left out. Hell, Faith did you and Xander! I wonder why she didn't want me..."

Buffy started to giggle. "You're impossible. I don't know. Maybe she thought you wouldn't go for it. Oh lord, I am not discussing why Faith didn't try to get in your
pants. Do you think I'm a freak?"

Willow laughed. "Fuck no. You're asking the girl who has been sleeping with two men for how long this question? I don't think I'm a good moral judge on freakiness."

"Yeah....but at least their men."

"How was it?" Willow asked.

"It was great...just sex though. There was never anything more. She knew exactly how to touch me...where to touch me...I never came as many times as I did with
her....But with Tyler, I was in love. The sex was great, but he just never got my likes down. I dunno. With Faith, it was instinct. Now, spill. What is it like watching
them...being with them?"

Willow heard a noise again on the stairs. Those bastards were still listening. She slowly smiled. "Well, Buffy. Its hard to explain...You really would have to watch to
understand."

"Huh?"

"Would you like to watch them together?"

"Over my damn body." Spike said from the stairs. He and Angel walked down. Buffy looked horrified. How long had they been there.

"So, Slayer....been 'diving' lately?" Spike asked, moving to Willow.

"You Fuck." Buffy said.

Willow looked at him. "Spike...why can't Buffy watch you? I want to share something private with her. She has told me something that no one has ever known."

"Pet, I am not fucking you or Angelus for an audience."

"Scared she'll think I'm better?" Angel said, taunting.

"I don't want you to fuck her. I just want her to watch...."

"No. N - O. I do not perform on cue."

Willow looked at Buffy. Her friend was still blushing. She knew that Spike would waste no time teasing her about her adventures with Faith. If she saw Spike making
love, and he knew she had seen him when he was most vulnerable, it would be a trade of secrets. He'd never tell a soul. Willow knew this. The damn stubborn vampire
wouldn't cooperate though. She looked at Angel and saw that he was willing. He was always willing for anything. She motioned for him to take Buffy upstairs. He smiled
when he rad what was in her eyes.

"Buffy...why don't you go on upstairs. Don't worry...It will all work out. Angel, would you help her?"

She looked at Spike. She'd just have to seduce him. She pulled Spike in for a possessive kiss, her mouth claiming his.

* * * * *

Buffy followed Angel upstairs. She was still upset that they men had listened to her talking about Faith. She started to walk to the guest room, when she felt Angel's
hand on her arm. Startled, she looked in his amused eyes.

"In here....but be quiet."

"Angel. this is Willow's room."

"Buffy, do you really think Willow is going to let Spike off the hook? He knows your little secret. He'll tell everyone about it, even if it is unintentional. Willow and I know
him. Trust us. Willow wants you to watch us make love. She always gets what she wants." he said, smiling as he began lighting candles around the bed and the room.

"But....I don't want to watch."

"Yes, you do. I can hear your heart pounding at the idea. I'm sure Willow could too. I have no problems with it, just for the record. I doubt there is a side of me that
you haven't seen. It will stay between us anyway. No one will ever know. As I said, this is probably the one way to stop Spike from mouthing off."

"If you're sure. I just don't understand what me seeing him doing that is going to do."

Angel smiled, "Just wait. It will all make sense. Just remember, Willow is having to seduce him into this. He most likely won't know you're here until after. I'm sure that
is her plan. That's why she asked me to bring you up here."

"I don't remember hearing all that. I heard her say Angel will walk you up."

"I saw it in her eyes. Their coming up. Now, sit in that chair over by the balcony. The drapes are dark enough to conceal you from his view. The candles will be the
only light. Buffy, relax. Just sit back and imagine you're watching a sleazy cable movie. Maybe that will make it easier."

"A sleazy movie starring my ex-lover, my best friend and her lover, one of my enemies. Yep, sounds like a bad movie."

"Quit the whining slayer. You know you're dieing to see me and him together. I still remember Truth or Dare." he said, sitting on the bed. He removed his shirt and
tossed it on the chair.

"Oh...that." Buffy said feeling her face turn red. She kept her eyes off of his naked chest. It was surprising, but she felt nothing except the usual tingle at seeing an
attractive man. She was over Angel. She felt relieved that what she had been telling herself for so long was true. They were much better friends than they were a
couple. A lot less issues between them.

"Buffy. The chair. Tonight is Red's turn to choose. So, just sit back and enjoy." He winked at her.

She heard noises in the hall and rushed to the chair. She didn't understand this, but her desire to see the handsome men together outweighed her objections. Besides,
if it meant Spike could never tell her secret, she was all for it. She waited in silence as the door opened.

* * * * *

Willow and Spike came into the room. He kept his mouth on hers, pushing her to the bed. He saw the candles and Angel. He sniffed and smelled the slayer. He knew
Willow wouldn't give up her idea. Personally, he didn't give a flying fuck who saw him with Willow, but he would never willingly allow the slayer to watch. He figured that
Willow would figure out a way to get her way...she always did. He decided that it was his duty to show the slayer just what she'd never have. He smiled against
Willow's mouth. They wanted a performance? Well, he'd win the bloody damn oscar.

Willow fell back on the bed, pulling Spike with her. She caught Angel's eye and he winked at her. She felt Spike move his mouth down her throat. She moaned as he
nibbled on her throat. He looked up suddenly and smiled at her, his eyes knowing. She faltered a bit. What did he know? She felt his mouth lick at her straining nipple,
wetting her bra. She smiled back. She should have known better than to try to trick him. He knew her too well. At least it seemed that he was going to play along with
it. She felt a shiver go through her. Buffy was in the shadows somewhere watching this...She felt his teeth on the material of her bra. She realized what he was doing.
The bastard was playing....oh well, there could be worse punishments. She had tried to trick him after all.

Angel moved behind Spike, removing his childe's shirt. He was trying to forget that Buffy was watching. It was rather strange to have his ex-lover watch him make love
to his new lovers. It was also very exciting. He ran his mouth over Spike's back. It seemed that Spike was in no hurry this evening. Willow was still clothed. Well, Angel
was the king of slowness. He sunk his teeth into Spike's shoulder, drawing a thin line of blood. He lapped at it, moving his hands down to caress Willow's body.

Buffy watched wide eyed. It was like a movie. From her chair, she had a perfect angle to see the bed. She wondered why she was aroused. She must be a freak. She
thought about getting up and sneaking out. She didn't think she could do this. She suddenly realized that she would be watching Willow make love with them. She had
thought it would just be Angel and Spike. She caught a glimpse f Willow's black bra as Spike shifted. She settled back in the chair. It would be the only chance she
would ever have to see her friend like this, eyes wide with arousal, face flushed with passion....Buffy felt a bolt of desire shoot through her. She couldn't turn away.

* * * * *

Spike finally removed Willow's bra. His mouth claimer her breast when it came into view. He felt her pushing herself against him. She was ready. He trailed kisses down
her stomach.

"Lift up" he whispered. He removed her jeans and panties, throwing them on the floor. He watched as Angel moved to the head of the bed. He slowly pulled his pants
off, freeing his cock. He kissed Willow, his hand kneading her breast.

Spike inhaled her scent. He ran his finger over her, not surprised to find her soaking. He had guesses where the slayer was hidden. He grabbed Willow and shifted her.
Now, he knew the slayer had a perfect view. For some reason, he wanted to share this. He knew he should be worried. The damn girl had admitted to having sex with
women. He knew she cared about Willow....alot. But, he knew that Willow was not interested in that. She might be curious, but he knew that it would never go beyond
that. With that knowledge, he wanted the slayer to enjoy this. She would never have another chance to see Willow like this. He didn't know what he would do if he
had to live knowing he'd never taste her...smell her...love her...he hated feeling pity for the slayer, yet lately, he had several times. Well, he'd give her a good show.

Willow felt Spike's tongue on her and moaned. She reached for Angel. He smiled and brought his cock to her mouth. She opened wide for him, taking him in slowly. She
almost jumped off the bed when she finally felt Spike's finger enter her. She came grinding herself against his face. She settled back down, only to feel the heat
continue building as he resumed licking, sucking and thrusting. She felt Angel tighten and pull out of her mouth. She knew he was waiting until he was deep inside
Spike.

Spike felt Angel unzipping his jeans. He moved, allowing his sire to pull them off. He moved into the bed as he felt a cold tongue on his anus. Angel was getting him
ready. He stood and pulled Willow closer to him. She was rubbing her breasts, shaking from the two orgasms he had brought her through. He entered her deeply,
needing to claim her in front of her friend.

Angel entered Spike slowly. He was startled when Spike pushed back, taking him deeper. Smiling, he moved his hand to Spike's head, pulling it back. His mouth claimed
his childe's. He started to thrust deeply, picking up his pace as Spike did. Willow came for the third time, screaming Spike's name. She felt Spike bite into her flesh as
he flooded her with his release. She watched as Angel bit Spike on the shoulder as he too came. She closed her eyes as she felt Angel move to lay beside her. His arm
went around her waist. She felt Spike nuzzling her stomach and groaned. Didn't he ever get tired?

Buffy came with a whimper. She had tried to be quiet. It had been too much for her. Watching Angel take Spike....Spike's complete submissiveness to his sire...seeing
him bring Willow through three orgasms....hearing Willow moan and whimper....calling out her lover's name...She brought her wet hand up to her mouth, her eyes on
Willow. She slowly licked her fingers, wishing it were not her release she was tasting. Knowing that this was as close as she'd ever get. The smell of sex filled the room.
She felt herself blushing, wondering if they had heard her....if they even remembered she was there.....

Spike waited until Willow was asleep before getting up. He walked to the slayer, smelling her arousal and release.

He regarded her flushed face, her dazed eyes. "Let me help you to your room." he said quietly, taking her arm.

Buffy looked at him in surprise. She hadn't realized that he knew was watching. She was very embarrassed. She saw the look in his eyes and wondered at it. It seemed
to be of acceptance and knowledge and....pity. She smiled shyly at him and took his arm. He always seemed to surprise her. She was very happy that Willow had
found him. She would never have thought she'd say it, but Spike was a decent person, for a demon. She took one last look at Willow and Angel, both sleeping. Well,
tonight had definitely been eye opening. She felt like she had shared something with them. It was a nice feeling. Willow had been right, as usual.

* * * * *

Buffy leaned over and claimed the mouth in front of her. "Thank you." she whispered huskily.

Willow smiled and stretched. "That was Wow."

Buffy smiled. "Much better than Faith...it was love not sex."

Willow frowned. "I do love you Buffy, but this wouldn't work."

"I know. You love Spike and Angel more. I accept that. I loved Tyler more. My feelings for you are more than just this lust. I am honestly happy just having you as my
best friend. I never thought we'd ever do this."

Willow smiled. "It never crossed my mind until you started talking about Faith. Then, I couldn't get it to go away."

"I know. I am so glad that we did. I think that it will be much easier for me knowing that you felt similar thoughts. I don't feel so weird. It will probably bring us close
together. Thank you again."

"Buffy...I was a willing participant. Hell, I'm the one who made the move. You don't need to thank me. I enjoyed it very much. I really need you to forget about this
though.....I love Spike and Angel. There is no way that this could ever happen. Please...for your sake, get on with your life."

Buffy kissed Willow again. She felt herself growing wet. "Tomorrow....I promise. One more time...then I'll forget."

Buffy ran her hand alongside Willow's breast, cupping it fully. She flicked her thumb back and forth across her nipple. Willow moaned Buffy's name as she felt desire
shoot through her. Buffy's fingers found her swollen clit. Her fingers rubbed in circles, not letting up for a moment. She positioned herself slightly to the side, one leg
thrown across Willow's legs while her soft pussy was pressed against the edge of her thighs. Her hips began to rock back and forth, causing friction against her own
clit as her pussy rubbed up and down WIllow's leg. Buffy's mouth claimed Willow's. They moaned into each other's mouths. Buffy's patient and practiced fingers are
flooded with Willow's juices as they take her over the edge and into a whirlwind of sensation and ecstasy. Buffy was right behind her, as the final graze of across
Willow's legs sets off her own series of shudders and spasms, her muscles contracting as they squeezed and pulled against Willow's ravaged thigh.

Buffy looked into her friend's eyes. She sat up and kissed her again before turning to face the blond vampire. "Thank you Spike."

He stood and moved to Willow. In seconds, he had impaled himself deep inside her. Buffy felt Willow's hand on her. Smiling at her friend's look of utter contentment,
she went and kneeled, lowering her wetness down to Willow's questing tongue.....

Buffy sat up in bed and tried to catch her breath. She was so wet. Another dream. Just like the others. Only, in this one, she had been told by her dream Willow to
move on. She knew she had her friendship and that her friend loved her. She just would never love her in the exact same way. She laid back down and smiled. It had
been something that she had needed to realize. If she continued with this, she might not just lose Willow but Angel and Spike as well. She ran her hand down her body
and ran a finger over her wet lips. She closed her eyes and Tyler's face came to mind. She had to move on.
 

~Part: 38~ Between Friends

"So, you plan to deliver at home?"

"Yep. Nic knows a doctor..."

"Wait! You mean to tell me that the vampire slayer is going to allow a vampire to deliver her child?"

Buffy laughed. "What? Mick is a nice guy. He was a doctor for twenty years before he was turned. I trust him."

"I can see the council's faces now." Willow said, laughing.

Dru smiled. "Isn't it amusing? I told Buffy that she should take a picture of the baby after she is born. Make sure that Mick was holding her and then send it to the
council."

"That would be good. Oh, write on there, this is my new baby and her doctor or something so they'd know that a vampire had delivered her."

"You guys are awful. Besides, I have no plans to tell the council about Rose. Giles has been able to keep my condition a secret. Especially now that I never even
patrol." she whined.

"Like you really miss that. Hell, it was boring the last month or so that you did."

Spike watched the women talking and had to smile. For some reason, since her viewing, Buffy had become less clingy. It was as though she had finally gotten over her
feeling for Willow. He was glad. He'd never admit it, but the slayer was growing on him. Not that he'd want her around all the time or anything. But, she wasn't all bad.
He could tolerate her now without the having to fight the desire to kill her.

Willow looked at Spike and smiled. She knew that he liked Buffy. She had been able to tell a difference. It was like in the beginning with Xander. His attitude lightened
up. He only insulted her every little bit now instead of constantly. She looked at Buffy. Her friend seemed to be much more animated lately. It was as though a huge
burden had fallen off her shoulders. She knew that Luc was still courting her friend. She had to chuckle. Who would have thought that the slayer would ever be this
close to a bunch of vampires? Oh well, Sunnydale was benefiting greatly. There were even suggestions of Nic running for Mayor. NIC. She had laughed and asked how
he would attend the daytime sessions. He had told her that if she didn't watch her mouth, he'd appoint her as his assistant and make her deal with them. She had
promptly shut up. The town was thriving. He had brought in new business due to his connections. There were very few unexplained deaths. Those were usually cause
by a visiting demon unaware that the town was under protection.

Buffy was due in five weeks. She was doing well. She was eating the right foods, a lot of the right foods. She was very healthy. The doctor had cautioned that she
may have an early delivery, seeing as it was her first child and she was very active. Willow wasn't sure why that was very important, but she wasn't a doctor. Because
of this, Dru had gone into overprotective mother status and had confined the slayer to the house. She was only allowed to leave with someone accompanying her. Dru
didn't want her to go into labor in an alley alone.

"Oh...Oz called me. He is coming home for Christmas."

Spike growled at the mention of her ex-boyfriend. She shushed him.

"That's great. He'll be able to see Rose. How is he?"

"He says they are doing great. He and Devon have made some contacts. They are playing with some guys at some club. He seems to think they may have a chance."

"That's really good for him. Well, MOM, can I go to the movie with Willow, Spike, Angel and Luc or am I grounded?"

Dru smiled. "Since you will be with Willow, I'll allow it tonight. But tomorrow, you must clean your room. Miss Edith told me that Rose will be here early. We must make
sure everything is tidy and waiting for her arrival."

They all said good bye and left for the movie. Luc taking Buffy's hand, Angel holding Willow's while Spike's arm was around her shoulders. They spoke and laughed as
they walked.

* * * * *

"So, do you have many children?" Willow asked Luc. He and Buffy had come over to watch a movie. The movie had been terrible and now Spike and Buffy were playing
the playstation. Willow watched them with smile on her face. Spike was winning.

"None." Luc said. "Nic doesn't allow us to embrace. It is one of his main rules. He has actually killed on of his children because they disobeyed that."

"Really? I guess I'm not surprised. I understand his feelings about that. I was just curious...." Willow turned and faced her new friend. His eyes were on Buffy, a half
smile on his face as he watched her lose to Spike again. "What exactly are your intentions with my friend?"

"Well, MOM, I love her." Luc got a frightened look on his face. "I didn't just say that did I?"

Willow beamed. "Uh huh...."

"Damn....don't tell her ok? I don't want to pressure her. Promise?"

"Luc....you make her smile. I'd promise just about anything if that continued. Just know, if you hurt her, I'll rip you open."

"Got it."

"So, slayer....ready to pop that brat out yet?"

"Spike, you always have such an eloquent way of speaking. I see why Willow is so enamored." Buffy said, rolling her eyes.

Spike smiled, "You SAW why Willow is so taken with me. No, quit avoiding the question."

Buffy smiled, her face lighting up. "Yes. I can't wait to hold her. I have such plans for her. She is going to be so loved. Oh Spike....I'm going to be a mother. Me! I
never thought I'd be so excited at that idea. I find myself watching children now and wondering what she will look like, what her first word will be....when she'll take
her first step...if she'll have Tyler's smile....if I will live long enough to see her graduate...."

Spike took in what the slayer had said. "You'll make it. I can already see the poor chit trying to date. Poor bastard. Having to face you, Dru, Willow and Nic." he heard
Buffy laugh. Good, he had gotten her out of her maudlin mood. "Ha. I win again."

"No fair! You distracted me. WILLOW...Spike isn't playing fair!"

"Buffy, don't be a sore loser." Willow said, laughing from the table.

Buffy just glared at her. When she caught Luc's eye, she smiled. "Well, I'll win this round." She promised, eager for a win.

"Yeah...right." Spike said, proceeding to whip her ass yet again.

* * * * *

"Almost time for Christmas break. Good. No school. Are we having a party?"

"Luv....when do we not have a party? I think Dru has been planning it for the last month."

"Oh goodie....I love Dru's parties. They are always so festive and bright."

"You ok?" Angel asked, hearing the false note in Willow's voice.

"Fine. Just a bit tired. I don't ever seem to sleep anymore." She yawned. "I'm thinking of quitting school after this semester."

Spike looked into her eyes for a moment. "Your choice luv. Thought you like learning...."

"I do. Its just a bit pointless. I mean, I go to school all day and then you guys are up all night. Nic wants me to work for him, computer work. Since his impromptu
election, he realizes he needs a good computer programmer. Besides, can you imagine the access I would have?"

Spike grumbled. "Would you really rather work for him than go to school?"

"Yes. I'd be able to work my own hours and see you two whenever I want."

"Well, I like that part of the plan." Angel said, smiling. "If it makes you happy, I'm for it."

Spike smiled and kissed her. "Me too pet. Whatever you want. I'm sure Nic would be great to work for."

"Thank you. Good. I'll go to administration after the last class ends next week and see what I need to do."

"Now, can we go back to sleep?" Spike asked.

Willow smiled, "You want to sleep? I had other ideas....."

Spike and Angel exchanged a look. "Sleep? Did I say sleep? Nah...whatever you want to do is cool...."

"Good." Willow said, pulling him in for a kiss.
 

~Part: 39~ New Beginnings

"WHAT? You did what?"

The people in the room turned and stared at Willow. Buffy and Spike exchanged a look. Willow continued speaking for a few minutes.

"Wow....Thanks for calling. Nice to know you remember your friends!" Willow said, smiling. "OK. See you then....Congratulations!"

She hung up and faced the others. Her family. Spike, Angel, Dru, Nic, Luc, Ettiene, Buffy, and Simone were looking at her curiously.

"Everything good luv?"

Willow smiled. "Its great. That was Xander. He was calling from Vegas."

"What?"

She nodded. "Yep. He surprised Cordelia. They just got married. He told her he couldn't wait. He said she was thrilled."

"You mean, no pink dresses?" Buffy said, hope in her voice.

Willow nodded. "Xander said to burn the things."

"YES!" Buffy tried to do a little dance, but found herself unable to get her groove on. "Well, y'all know what I would do if I weren't a whale."

The others smiled at her grumbling.

Willow started to laugh. "Xander told me that they were married by Elvis. Can you believe that Cordelia Chase allowed herself to be married by an Elvis impersonator."

"Xander is a good influence on her." Buffy stopped and shivered. "Did I just say that Xander was a good influence? Oh Lord. The world must be ending."

"Anyway, let's get busy." Willow said, coming to the table and looking at the stacks of folders. They were working on Nic's files. The mayor's office was a mess. After
the accension, there had been several people who had stepped in but no one had been officially appointed. Thus, it was a mess. Willow loved it. She was in her
element.

* * * * *

"I just got an email from Oz."

"I should care why?" Spike asked sarcastically.

Willow smiled at his put out tone. "Well, he says he's not coming for Christmas."

Spike sat up, his expression pleased. "Really? Does he have rabies?"

"No, silly. He got a record deal. Its a small company, but they want them in the studio immediately. Isn't that great? I'm so happy for him."

"Thrilled."

"Spiiiike,"

"Pet, I'm happy if you're happy. Besides, now I don't have to see the mutt. Bad enough with the newlyweds constantly making out and having to be nice to the
slayer..." he grumbled.

"You like Buffy. You don't have to admit it, I know. Now, I agree about Xan and Cor. Wish they'd get a room."

Spike pulled her into his arms and kissed her. "I don't know. Let them enjoy it. We get to have an eternal honeymoon. Their lucky if it lasts two months. They'll be at
each others throats by then."

She ran her hand over his chest. "You're right. Oh, I'm late. Let me up. I have to pick Buffy up."

She got up and headed to the phone. She checked to make sure Buffy was ready. "OK. I'll see you and Angel at Nic's around dusk. Our meeting with Giles shouldn't
take that long."

Spike felt a wave of deja vu rush over him. Startled, he frowned. "Red, have we done this before?"

Willow looked puzzled. "Noooo..Buff and I have hardly seen Giles lately. Don't worry. You'll get stressed. Now, see you soon lover. Give Angel one of these for me." She
kissed him thoroughly. "Bye."

* * * * *

"You're leaving?" Buffy said quietly.

Giles nodded. "Its time. I have informed the council. I think I may do a little travelling before I get too old. See some of Europe. Nic has told me of some marvelous
places."

Willow and Buffy just sat in silence. They couldn't believe it. Giles was leaving Sunnydale. He had resigned as Buffy's watcher.

"Don't tell me they will send another watcher..." Buffy said, close to tears. "I don't want you to go."

"Buffy, you no longer need me. The town is positively peaceful. Its not like I'm dieing. I'll be back to visit often. I'm just bored....I rarely see anyone anymore. Nic
comes over often, but things have changed here. Its no longer like it used to be. I know its time to get on with my life. I'm only 45 you know."

Willow tried to smile. "Maybe you'll meet some wealthy woman who wants to use you for sex."

Giles became flushed. "Well...I wouldn't say that was what I wanted to experience." he blustered.

Buffy and Willow smiled. Getting up they both hugged him tightly. "We will miss you."

"I'm not leaving until Rose is born. I want to see your child." He said, looking at his slayer. Both of these girls were like his children. But, as time went, they had grown
up as children did. They no longer needed him to watch out for them and protect them. They were more than capable of taking care of themselves, and each other. He
knew that this was something he had to do.

"Be safe Rupert." Willow said, kissing his cheek. He was more of a father to her than her own had been. She really would miss having him around keeping them all
grounded. He had always been their lifeline.

"Giles....if you're sure this is what you want, I'll try to be happy for you." Buffy said, smiling.

"Yes..well....you better children better get going. It will get dark soon."

He walked them to the door. After it was closed, he felt the tears silently run down his cheeks. He would miss them....his daughters.....

* * * * *

"You ok Buffy?"

"Yeah...just surprised."

"Me too"

The two women walked along the quiet streets in silence. Each was dealing with Giles departure in their own way. Willow saw Nic's house ahead. The lights were on,
making it appear like a beacon in the night. She guessed that Spike and Angel were already there. After leaving Giles, she and Buffy had stopped for ice cream. They
had wanted time to think over what they had heard.

"Willow"

"Yes?"

"I love you. You're the best friend I could ever imagine having. I don't think I deserve you, but I'm glad I have you."

"Me too. I don't know how I'd ever survive Spike and Angel without you."

"I think you'd manage well enough" Buffy said smiling.

"You're right. Let's cross."

The girls started across the street. Willow heard a loud squeal and saw a car turn the corner. It was coming right at her. She froze.

Buffy saw the car headed for her friend and reacted. She moved, pushing Willow out of the way. She yelled as the car hit her knocking her onto the street and kept
going.

Willow screamed. She ran to her friend. She heard noises and looked up as Spike ran from the house. When he got to the street, he surveyed the scene. Buffy was
laying on the ground, holding her stomach, blood slowly starting to spread. Willow was in shock, kneeling by her friends side, their hands clasped together tightly. Spike
went to Buffy and lifted her easily.

"Call her doctor." He called to Angel as he took the bleeding slayer inside.

* * * * *

Mick delivered Buffy's child. Willow and Spike were in the room. Buffy had insisted they both stay. When Buffy saw her baby, she smiled through the tears.

"May I hold her?"

"Yes. Rose....meet you mother." Mick handed the baby over to Buffy.

"She's so tiny...look at her little fingers and her toes...." Buffy was amazed. This was her child. "Rose...you won't remember me. I'm your mother. I just want you know
how much I love you. Every day, feeling you inside of me, growing....you helped me make it through. Know that you were loved always. I wish you could have met your
father. I loved him so much. You'll have his smile...and maybe his eyes. I hope you get his intelligence...I've never been the smartest person," she paused, feeling a
sharp pain. Tears streamed down her face,"This is your auntie Willow and your uncle Spike. They are going to take such good care of you. I love them both so much. I
know you will too. They will be great parents. You'll love you uncle Angel. He'll watch out for you for me. I know he will. He was always my guardian angel. Oh
Rose...you will be cherished. You will be such a wonderful little girl....Willow will tell you about me. Never forget me...know that I will be watching out for you always.
When you say your first word, I'll be there in spirit. Always in spirit...." she choked back her tears.

Willow went to her side and laid her head on her shoulder. Buffy motioned for Mick to take Rose. "Willow....take care of her for me. Let her know me....Oh god...it
hurts."

Willow clenched her hand and squeezed tightly. "Isn't there anything to stop it?" she yelled at Mick.

"I'm sorry. The injuries were severe. The impact of the car....it is a sheer miracle she was able to give birth. It should be over quickly." he left the room, allowing them
time to say goodbye privately.

"Spike" Buffy said, looking at the man. "Take care of Willow. Thank you....for everything. I know we have been enemies, but I do love you. You have been so good for
Willow...."

"Buffy," Spike said softly, Willow and Buffy looked at him in shock. It was the first time they had ever heard him say her name. He looked at Willow, saw the pain in her
eyes and flinched. She was hurting so much. He knew that this was almost as bad for her and if she had lost him or Angel. He moved to Buffy's side, and looked at her
pale face. She was losing a lot of blood. It wouldn't be much longer. "I never hated you. You are Willow's best friend. Her interest has almost always been at the front
of your mind. Don't worry about Rose. She will have a wonderful mother. One who loves her deeply." He kissed her forehead, his eyes on Willow. He saw the tears
trailing down her face. "It will be over soon." he told Buffy.

She nodded. "I know. I feel it. I'm glad I had a chance to tell you both how much I loved you. Poor Rose...she lost both her parents to hit and run accidents....she is
already cursed."

"No she's not. She will be the luckiest little girl in Sunnydale." Willow said, not wanting Buffy's last moments to spent in regret.

"You're right. She'll have you all looking out for her." She felt another wave of pain and closed her eyes....praying for release.

Willow and Spike looked at each other. He reached over and put his hand on top of their clasped ones. "It will be over soon."

* * * * *

The living room door opened. Willow walked in and stared at everyone. She was pale...her face covered with her bloody tears....She looked at them all. Xander,
Cordelia, Luc, Dru, Giles, Nic, Simone, Angel. She felt her face crumble when she looked into his eyes. He came to her and took her into his arms. She took an
unnecessary breath and looked at Giles.

"You can call the council. Tell them that the slayer is dead."
 

~Part: 40~ A Journey's End

Four Years after New Beginnings

"Uncie Spike....Uncie Spike." a small blonde girl ran up and jumped into his arms.

" 'Ello brat." He said, smiling. He took in her appearance. "What mischief have you been up to today?"

"Nutin. I was playin with auntie Wiwo in the dirt. We's makin mud pies." she said smiling her father's smile.

"I've told you not to let your auntie in the dirt."

"Shut up Deadboy" Willow said, coming up to them. She too was covered in dirt. She went to him and kissed him. "Hello gorgeous."

"Yuck" Rose said making a face. Her auntie and her uncles Angel and Spike were always kissing and touching. She thought it was icky.

"Yuck? Just remember that when you get to be a teenager pet." Spike said.

Angel started to laugh as he joined the group outside. "So, this is where everyone snuck off to."

"Uncie Angel." Rose beamed, moving to this uncle. He too smiled and hugged the child.

"Willow, you've been letting her play in the dirt again." he said, in a warning tone.

"Like you could tell her no. She has you both wrapped around her finger so tight that she tells you to jump, you ask how high."

"Jealous of the other woman in our lives Red?"

Willow stuck her tongue out at him. Rose started laughing with childish delight. Her aunt always made her laugh.

"You guys, quit arguing. You'll wake the neighbors!" They all turned, looking guilty.

"MOMMMY!' Rose went to her mother and was pulled into her arms. She gave her a muddy kiss.

"Rose. You need a bath."

"Geez, Buff. Let the kid have some fun."

"Willow, you may be married to my sire, but you will not sit there and tell me how to have fun."

"Sure thing, deadgirl. Just remember who gave you your soul...."

"Dru did. It was her amulet after all" Buffy smiled softly, "But it was yours and you let me have it. So, I guess I'll be nice."

"You'd better."

"Really? Or what?"

Willow grinned devilishly, "Or this." She threw a handful of mud at Buffy.

"Oh..I'll get you." Buffy ran after her, chasing her through the backyard.

Rose went to Spike and he put her on his shoulders, her little hand clasped in his cold one. "Their weird." She said smiling.

He and Angel exchanged a glance. "Yes luv."

"But funny." she added as Buffy got Willow in the face with a handful of mud.

"Want some ice cream?" Angel asked the child.

"Yes. Yes yes...."

Spike and Angel took one last look at the laughing friends and turned shaking their heads. Rose wanted ice cream. She'd get ice cream.

Spike smiled. Life was good.
 

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