Part 21
Spike and Angelus walked along the street, none of them talking but both thinking the same thoughts. They had left Angel’s apartment after the little game they had played with Willow, Spike walked with his head down thinking of ways to make it up to his red head. Looking up to his sire he growled as he noticed that the older vampire didn’t seem concerned with what had happened. Storming ahead, he was stopped from crossing the road by a hard pull on his shoulder, Angelus pulled his childe around so that they were staring face to face
“What you pillock!”
“William what’s wrong…you’d think I’d done something wrong”
“Wrong…hello! You saw Willow…I didn’t realise how far we had went with her…we shouldn’t have done that to her”
“William, my boy…were vampires that’s what we do…scare people, OK I know we were only joking this time, but Willow knows what she’s doing, she’s not as sweet and innocent as she makes out…”
“Yes but we must have really went over the line, I’ve never seen her so angry before…”
“Yes now that was something to see wasn’t it…all that fire...she’ll make a wonderful vampire”
“Vampire…have you told her about this? I don’t really think she wants to become one of us, not yet anyway”
“She knows that I’ll be turning her one day, who knows when that will be, she’ll be truly evil”
“You’ll be turning her? What about me have you thought about that…who has she been with the last couple of months”
“Yes of course it’ll be me, I know her more then you…I know her secrets…her passion…her love…her fears…what do you know”
“I know more then you think”
“Oh yes silly me…I mean don’t you love that sound she makes in the back of her throat when your tongue touches that special place behind her knee…or when she does that thing with her tongue when she hums…mmm really a turn on”
“Well…what I mean is I know…”
“What…are you saying she hasn’t given it up to you yet…and your telling me, you know her…what did you two do in good old Sunnydale…talk”
Spike watched as Angelus walked away laughing, growling angrily Spike stalked up to the older vampire and spun him around
“Don’t talk about her like that…you don’t now her, yeah so you’ve screwed her a couple of times, but I know what goes on in her heart, her soul…who do you think she respects more…me or you”
Angelus looked down at his youngest childe, this bickering they were having was starting to get stale and the sun was going to be up soon.
“You think you know her soul…she doesn’t have a soul, or a heart for that matter…the only way you get close to Willow Rosenburg is to screw her…She doesn’t have any depths or soul…she looks after number one and if you get in her way then god help ya…coz she’s a two faced bitch”
“You don’t know her”
“Who do you think made her like this…I know everything about her because I *made* everything about her”
“No…you don’t know her”
“You want me to tell you about sweet little Willow, well I’ll tell you. When I first came to Sunnydale to help the slayer, I saw her, she had her longer hair and looked like the perfect sweet and innocent little girl, everyone wanted their daughters to be like. Well everytime I went to the Bronze to wait for our slayer to eventually show up, I used to follow her…don’t ask me why, I just had a feeling about this girl. Well it was one of these times when I followed her home, that I noticed she was going the wrong way, following her along the dark street. I watched as she waited at the end of the alley until this boy shows up, little miss innocent is all over him as soon as she catches a glimpse of him…do you know who it was…”
Angelus looked at Spike who shook his head
“It was Xander…”
“Chubs?”
~ Flashback ~
Willow pulled her jacket further around herself, the nights were starting to get colder, looking up she caught a glimpse of him. Pulling the braids out of her shoulder length hair she quickly ran her fingers through it as she ran up-to him
“Baby…you made it”
“Yeah Wills…I nearly couldn’t get away mom wanted me to stay in and have a family evening”
“Oh.”
“Yeah a evening full of beat on Xander great, but I’m here so…”
“So….”
Willow smiled and pulled his head down and claimed his lips, neither noticing the shadow watching them
“Hey Willow…I found the perfect place for us…I mean what with your mom being home with that dick head of a boyfriend and my home being a no go area…I found it and thought It would be great”
“Show me”
Xander gave the red head another kiss before pulling her along. Once they had reached their destination. Willow gasped as she took in the size of the mansion
“Are you sure its empty…I would hate if anyone walked in while we were…”
“Abandoned…for years actually”
“Well what are we waiting for then”
Willow giggled as she ran with Xander up to the big house
~ End flashback ~
“Yes…Chubs as you put it…they weren’t just best friends…well not by the way they were acting you would think that they had been seeing each other for years. Well I followed them to the old mansion…well I wont tell your delicate ears what I saw but it shocked me I can tell you that much”
“So…how does this make her a bitch…they were friends…so they took their friendship further”
“Be quiet and ill tell ya boy. Well after a couple of weeks of the same routine I decided to see why it was every Wednesday, so I went to check on her house and for once her parents looked like they were home. Well I noticed that her mom was home, but the man who was with her wasn’t Mr. Rosenburg…if you know what I mean…well I seemed to have stayed a little longer then I thought. I watched as Willow came home, she didn’t seem surprised that her mother was with another man, I watched as she went to her room, I was just about to jump down from the tree when I noticed that the man had also followed her up
~ Flashback ~
Willow walked into her room and changed for bed, looking down at the cotton nightie and bunny slippers she cringed as she took in all the fluffiness of it all
“Why does she buy me this stuff”
“Because she loves her little girl”
The red head jumped when she heard the voice, turning slowly around she watched as John, her mom’s boyfriend came into her room, he was a weird looking guy. He was 6 ft and easily over towered Willow, he had long blond hair that was always tied back in a plain bobble. Many times Willow had wanted to just walk along and chop the stupid thing off. Sneering at the man, Willow stood up and placed the homework she had been doing on her desk
“Doing your homework now…where have you been all night”
Willow walked over to the man and rolled her eyes at his attempt to talk to her
“I’ve just been out…why did you miss me *John*”
Willow felt herself be pushed up against her bedroom door, she didn’t move as John leant down so that he was at the same eye level
“What have I told you about that”
“Oops…. Sorry daddy”
“That’s better…now what have you been doing all night…I’ve missed you”
“I was playing with Xander”
John smirked at the red head, as he let his hands move down her arms
“Playing?”
“Yeah…I would’ve invited you but I’m only a little girl”
“Oh well ill forgive you this time…so what are you going to do to pay me back for not thinking of me?”
John used his body to cover Willow’s smaller one against the door, when he pulled back Willow pasted a smile on her face as she listened to him whisper
“So tell me what you and Xander did tonight then”
“Well…”
~ End flashback ~
Angelus laughed at the shocked look on Spikes face, placing an arm across his shoulders, Angelus began to walk back to his apartment
“So Willow was a busy girl that night”
“I don’t believe it…”
“What…oh don’t worry, that’s not even the half of it, our Willow has been very busy in her short little life”
“But her mothers boyfriend!”
“Yeah…I think she did it to get back at her mother or something, I never really found out, and I don’t really care”
“And your saying this is only half of it…what else?”
“Well then the slayer turned up and Willow seemed to calm don a bit because now, she had another friend, and she didn’t want anyone else to know what she was really like. So when Xander went after Buffy she moved onto…what was her other friends name…James…Johnny…no Jesse, well he cared for her when Xander wasn’t around, I think she actually cried when he died…that’s the only time I’ve seen her show real emotion…. That’s the thing about Willow, she doesn’t like to let people know her feelings, she can be very secretive if she wants to be”
“Yeah I kinda already found that out”
~ Flashback ~
Willow sat down on one of the swings in her favourite childhood park. Xander had told her that tonight he wouldn’t be meeting her at the mansion because he would be drooling over Buffy at the Bronze, frowning slightly she looked down at her feet as she began to sway slightly on the swing
“Willow?”
“Jesse…what are you doing here”
“Bored…you too”
“Yeah…Xander is drooling over the new girl, I thought I would just sit here and think”
Jesse began to push Willow softly on the swing, both said nothing until Willow slowed the swing down and turned around to face her friend
“Jesse…”
“Yeah Willow”
“Do you love me?”
“ Of course I do Willow. You’re my friend”
“No I mean do you really love me”
“I don’t get what you’re talking about”
Willow stood up and pulled Jesse’s head down and kissed him, pulling back slightly, she kept her arms wrapped around his neck, when he opened his eyes again, she smiled and ran her fingers through his hair
“Do you want to come back to mine…my mom works over seas a lot now and I get lonely”
“What about your dad”
“Well he found out that my mom was having an affair, so now she works with him over in England, she comes and visits some times, but I don’t know…I just want someone to love me…do you love me”
“Of course I do Willow”
“So you’ll come back with me”
“If you want me to Willow, then I will…I love you Willow”
Willow and Jesse entered the red heads house, closing the door Willow turned around and pulled Jesse to her claiming his mouth with a passionate kiss, slowly she raised her hands to un-button his shirt, the boy pulled back and looked down at his friend
“Wha…”
“Love me…. Please”
The next day Willow walked up to Xander in the quiet hallway and wrapped her arms around his waist, the dark haired boy turned around and smiled down at the red head
“Hey Wills”
“Hey, have a great night?”
“She wants to be friends…but I mean I’ve only known her for a couple of days, I haven’t had a chance to break her yet”
Willow giggled at Xanders joke and leaned up to whisper in his ear
“Well I had fun last night”
“Oh yes…what has my little Willow been up to then”
“Well… I was lonely when you went to the Bronze…”
“Sorry babe…you know I still love you right”
“Yeah…well, I was OK once Jesse took me home”
“Willow…”
“What…. Oh don’t worry…you have nothing to worry about…he was nothing on you”
“Good”
Willow and Xander both smirked as she ran her hand down his chest, leaning up she kissed him passionately as she cupped the bulge in his baggy pants
~ End flashback ~
“So she slept with both of them”
“I told you that she was a busy girl”
“So how did she end up with you”
“Aah now this is the best part…I actually found her at a club that I was in… I didn’t think it was her at first until she came over and said hi, I couldn’t believe it, here was this little girl coming up to me without the smallest hint of fear.
~ Flashback ~
Angelus sat at a table in the crowded club, the only thing he could hear was the deep bass of the song playing, the only reason he had come to this club was to get a meal and drink…now though he felt that he would stay a little longer. Drumming his fingers against the table, he glances up at the crowded dance floor. A flash of red catches his attention and he watches as the girl who had been in his dreams slowly danced to the beat. He watched as the red head looked straight over at his table. Slowly making her way over to where the vampire was sitting, she sat down across from him
“Willow”
“Angel”
“You know that’s wrong Willow”
Angelus smirked at the red head. Willow rolled her eyes at the vampire, then pouted
“Oops…I forgot…oh no the big bad vampire is gonna kill me”
“Is that supposed to be funny little girl”
“I thought it was”
It was Willows turn to smirk as she watched the vampire move to sit closer to her
“So what are you doing in a club on a school night Willow…that’s not very clever of you now is it”
“It’s a school night”
Willow gasped playfully as she took a sip of the whiskey the vampire had bought earlier, she smiled as the vampire looked at her
“I don’t think I offered you a drink”
“I don’t think I asked”
“No I guess you didn’t…so tell me what are you doing here”
“Well at the moment I’m sitting talking to a vampire who hasn’t even asked if I want to go back to his place…I mean how slow can someone be”
Angelus looked at the smirking red head that sat in front of him and laughed, the smirk on Willows face faltered a bit
“What?”
“I’ve never heard you laugh before…I like it”
“So…could we go to your house…I don’t think the kids would like it if I brought you home”
“Well I don’t know…I mean you’re a bad bad man”
Willow ran her hands along his silk shirt covered chest, leaning down she ran her lips along his neck, Angelus purred gently as he ran his fingers through her fiery locks
“Will that be a problem Willow”
“I don’t think so”
Pulling gently on her hair he locked eyes with her, his smirk mirroring the one that could be seen on her face
“My parents are never home, so I don’t think we’ll be disturbed”
~ End flashback ~
“But the slayer said that you tried to kill her in the school one night…what was that all about”
“Oh…Willow was scared in case anyone found out about us…so we thought up a plan where I would grab her and make people believe that I wanted her dead…now that night was really fun”
~ Flashback ~
“Are you sure you want to do this?”
“Lover if it means causing pain to the slayer I’ll do it”
“Oh so your not doing it because you love me then”
Willow pouted as Angelus pushed her against the wall and claimed her mouth with his, Willow responded and rubbed her body against his, causing a growl to come from the vampire. Angelus pulled back and looked at the swollen lips of the red head in front of him
“No…but I do love that thing you do when you twirl your tongue on my…”
“Hey…you’d think I was a slut or something”
“Never!”
“Come on…its show time”
Willow walked along the corridor and bumped into Xander in the hall way
“Willow where you been…you’ve been missing all the fun researching”
“I’ve been at home…but I’m back to help”
“Great we really need you”
“Yeah”
The lights go off and both teenagers look around, Angelus walked along the corridor making sure he kept hidden, he had to be careful because everyone now knew about his soulless status. He watched as Willow slowly made her way over to his corner. Rushing out, the vampire gently placed his hand around the red heads neck. Grasping it enough to make it look real but not enough to hurt
“Xander!”
“Oh my god…. Willow!”
“Oh god please…. Help me please”
“Hey dead boy get off her…you want a fight…then fight with someone your own size”
“And that’s supposed to be you”
Xander flinched as he heard the dark laughter of Angelus, he watched hopelessly as Willow struggled against the large vampire. Feeling someone behind him, Xander turned to see Jenny walk behind him with a cross in her hands
“Angelus…. Let her go”
“Why…she’s so cute and helpless…really a turn on”
Willow bit the side of her cheek to stop herself laughing as she felt how turned on he really was. Using one of her hands to pretend to keep up the fight against the vampire, she used the other to run it behind her to rub at the growing bulge in the vampire’s pants. Angelus growled louder, he almost laughed when the two humans looked at each other then back at him, they thought he was growling because of them. At this Angelus did laugh out loud and pulled Willow closer to him.
“Why are you doing this?”
Angelus turned around pulling the red head with him when he heard the slayer enter the building
“Why not lover”
“Let her go and deal with me”
Xander slowly walked closer to the vampire and pushed the cross against his face, Angelus growled and pushed Willow against the boy. Both fell to the floor in a muddle of arms and legs. By the time they had gotten back to their feet Angelus had already reached the slayer
“All in due time slayer”
~ End flashback ~
“Well after that, no one would guess we were together…”
“I didn’t even know…why didn’t you tell me”
“What you were too busy trying to get Dru away from me”
“Well I didn’t like the way you just came back and took everything from me”
“Yeah well…I was a mess last time…not anymore though”
“Yeah well as long as you keep to that then everything will go great”
“Hey there will be no world being sucked into hell from me this time round…anyway hasn’t Willow got a plan for us or something”
“Yeah…couldn’t tell you what it is though…she’s been very secretive about the whole thing”
“Don’t worry boy we’ll get it out of her”
Both vampires walked up to Angelus’s apartment, it was nearing sun set and they needed to get into shade. Walking through they noticed that Willow mustn’t have left the bedroom, both vampires walked over and tried the door. Slowly opening it, they walked in and looked down at the sleeping red head, Angelus looked up at his childe
“This is going to be very interesting”
Part 22
Willow slowly awoke and looked at the night stand for her watch, picking it up, it read 10.30am, slowly stretching and sitting up Willow looked around the quiet room, she wondered where Angelus and Spike had went after she had chucked them out of the room. Sighing softly the red head stood up and opened the bed room door, still wearing the vampires shirt she walked through the lounge into the kitchen. She noticed that the two vampires were wrapped up together on the fold out couch, smirking slightly she made it to the kitchen and started to make herself a coffee. Spike woke up when he heard Willow pass into the kitchen, standing slowly not to wake Angelus he made his way into the kitchen. Standing in the doorway he silently watched the red head wander around the kitchen gathering all the things she needed for her morning coffee. As his gaze settled on the red head, he thought about what he and Angelus had talked about the night before. Were the things his sire had brought up true? Spike didn’t know what to believe, did he believe his sire who had called her bitch or did he want to believe his version…yeah he had seen her stitch Riley up for rape but that wasn’t that bad…he had thought of killing the man many a times.
“You know some people think it’s rude to stare”
Spike jumped at the voice, he had been to busy thinking about the red head that he hadn’t seen her notice him. Walking into the kitchen he sat down at the table and looked back up at the red head
“Good morning to you too pet”
“What’s good about it?”
“You not a morning person then…should’ve guessed…your more of a night person”
“Something like that…coffee?”
Willow smirked as she poured the steaming coffee into a mug and wrapped her fingers around the warmth, turning around she leaned back against the counter waiting for the vampire to talk first
“Nah…I don’t really drink in the morning”
The room fell silent again, Willow found herself looking down into her mug as she took sips of the hot liquid. Spike watched the red head in silence, she was still wearing Angelus’s shirt from the night before, and she had had to fold the sleeves up a couple of times just to be able to see her hands. The length of the shirt showed off her shapely legs, letting his gaze travel over her body his eyes finally fell on the smirking face of the red head.
“What you smiling at pet”
“Oh nothing…just thinking that it’s no fun for me if you only stare”
“Really”
Spike watched as Willow bit on her lower lip and smiled as she nodded her head, easing himself out of the chair Spike slowly stalked towards the smiling red head. Placing her mug back onto the counter Willow smiled as Spike pulled her body to his.
“Is this better?”
“Much”
Willow ran her tongue along the sharp cheekbone of the man in front of her, smirking at the groan she received. Pulling back slightly the red head raised one of her hands to run through Spikes platinum locks, pulling his head down and claiming his lips Willow moaned softly as his tongue entered her mouth.
Angelus woke up confused as to where he was till he remembered the previous nights activities. Hearing a moan coming from the other room, Angelus slowly made his way to the kitchen to see what was causing the moans and groans. He let a low growl leave his throat at the sight in front of him, Spike had his Willow backed against the kitchen counter and was kissing her, he knew the other vampire had heard him when Spike began to pull back from the red head. Walking further into the room, Angelus allowed his presence be known to the young women
“Good morning Willow”
Willow picked her now cold coffee cup back up and forced a small smile towards the vampire
“It was”
Spike was quietly leaving the room when Angelus turned and grabbed his arm pulling him close, looking into his sires eyes, he could tell the older man was angry by the yellow flecks in the usual dark orbs.
“Going somewhere Spike”
“No…thought I would leave you two to talk”
“Why…stay I mean I was the one that disturbed your good morning kiss”
“Yes you always were bad at timing weren’t you Angelus”
Angelus turned his gaze away from his childe to the red head that had sat down at the table. Pushing the blond haired man towards a empty seat, he watched as the two exchanged a glance, sitting himself down he looked at one then the other
“So…I’m thinking I’m getting bored…why did you bring me back”
“I needed…no I want you to help me destroy someone…I wasn’t going to get Spike involved but he decided that he was going to help me anyway. You do owe me for bringing you back…I’m thinking with both of your help then you can do some serious damage”
“Us what about you…how do we get to do all the work”
“No…I’ll be doing all the research and planning and you’ll be doing all the physical…no one can find out I’m involved”
“And why would that be pet”
“Because I’m a nice girl that wouldn’t do anything bad…if anyone finds out that I’m involved, what do you think that would do to my reputation”
Angelus stood up and walked around the room, when he reached the back of the red head, the vampire rested his hands on her shoulder and leant down to run his tongue along her bare shoulder
“Your reputation…is that all your thinking about”
“No one can ever find out about me…*no one* its as simple as that”
Pulling back Angelus kept his eyes on his childe as he talked to the red head
“So what do you want us to do?”
“Buffy did something to me and she has to pay…think you can do it”
Angelus let his hand fall onto Spikes shoulder as he turned to face the red head again, he noticed the nod that Spike had given him and smiled towards Willow
“I think we can…its just up to you”
“Oh don’t worry”
Willow smirked and stood up, just as she was about to leave the kitchen, without turning
“I can do it”
Part 23
Willow was asleep on the couch as Spike came into the room, Angelus was out hunting, he had eaten earlier so he had left the older vampire to it. Slowly waking up Willow sat up to make room for Spike, after he had sat down, Willow lay her head back down on his lap. Running his fingers through her hair he smiled as she moved her head to look up at him, a look of contentment on her face.
“Willow”
“Yeah”
“Can I ask you something”
“Sure…what is it”
“What did Buffy do”
“What…”
“Buffy…you say that she hurt you and you want her to pay…but you haven’t said what it is she did”
“She hurt me isn’t that enough”
“No…I want to know what she did”
Willow sat up and glared at the vampires in front of her
“God…what’s with the pushiness, I think you’ve been spending too much time with Angelus….”
The red head was just about to jump up when she felt a hand on her arm pulling her back and pinning her to the arm of the couch
“Don’t compare me with him…and dont change the subject…I want to know Willow”
“Why…you wanna know how she hurt me…made me feel so little and weak that I hate her so much I would do anything to hurt her back”
“Willow…please I need to know”
Spike looked down at the red head in his arms, the anger that he had saw in her eyes had changed to pain, the first sign he had seen any real emotion in the girl since he had found out about her Alta. Ego. He watched as she pulled herself into a sitting position and the emotions in her eyes were blanked out
“I never thought she would do it. You think you have a pretty good idea of someone then they go and do something and it all changes that you don’t know what to believe…I believed her when she said that me and Oz were meant to be. We were the cute couple that everyone thought was sweet and would last forever…She told me that if she found something half as good as what me and Oz had then she could die happy. I know I wasn’t the ideal girlfriend but when I was their Willow I was always faithful. I gave him my all, not many people can say that…I mean yeah I’ve slept with guys, screwed around but with Oz, it was like…good you know, I don’t want to sound cheesy but we made love. You don’t find something like that everyday. Well anyway everyone was happy, Xander had Anya, Buffy had Riley and I had Oz. He is one of the few people that I opened up to, the only other person I could say that about was Xander. I found them…together, I had seen Riley and asked where Buffy was he had said that she had went to see me, so I went to see Oz. In our bed…she couldn’t have taken him somewhere else…in our bed…screwing like the whore she is…”
“Her and Oz…did you tell her you knew”
“I asked her…saying that I thought Oz was seeing someone else…she just smiled and said Oz would never do a thing like that…I would’ve believed her if I hadn’t seen it for myself…she made me feel so weak. I like to be in control, to know everything…if you know everything then you can never be hurt or alone…even Xander couldn’t make me feel any better…”
“He decided to stick with Anya?”
“Yeah…how did you know about me and…he told you didn’t he”
“IF you mean Angelus…yeah he told me last night”
“So he sent you to find out what happened…so you can laugh about it”
“No he doesn’t know I’m here with you”
“Yeah I bet”
Willow pushed Spike backwards and stood up, quickly wiping her eyes, and turning on her heal, she hears Spike stand and walk after her
“Willow…. Willow!”
Spinning around Willow glowers at the man in front of her as he grabs her arm
“What…you need to hear more of my hilarious life story to talk about with Angelus while your screwing each other”
“Willow…I would never hurt you…. you’ve got to believe that, why would I joke about this, me and Angelus don’t talk so I don’t know where your getting all these ideas from…what you’ve just said will not go any further then my own ears”
“I’ve heard that before”
“Yeah well not from me…and I don think your life story is hilarious…if you must know I think it’s sad and you’re a young women that has had to deal with a lot and needs help. Even if it meant killing everyone on this earth to make you happy then I would do it. I don’t know about you but I feel something between us Willow…”
“What? love…don’t make me laugh, you’re a demon that cant even kill. And your saying you feel for me”
Willow smiled cruelly at the vampire and pulled at his hold on her arm. Keeping a tight hold, Spike pushed the small women back against the wall
“I wouldn’t laugh…from what I’ve heard I’m probably the only person that has truly had some sort of feelings for you. I mean come on…I’ve been around longer then you and at least I can say I’ve been in love, that someone has loved me back…everyone you have messed around with have moved on”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about”
“Oh I think you do…and I think that’s what scares you, people are growing up and moving on and your still the same old Willow, the secret whore of Sunnydale…quite a title don’t you think”
“Stop it”
“Why…you wouldn’t, you say that everyone you ever *loved* still loves you. I‘ve heard and saw you in action you get them when their defences are down to confess their undying love for you, when at that moment any man would say anything as long as he got off…come on you don’t really think Xander *loved* you. Or Jesse, what about Angelus…the slayers seconds, then of course Oz he went over to her side too”
“Please…stop it”
Willow was on the verge of tears, only will power was keeping them from falling down her cheeks, Spikes hold on her was strong and the only thing she could do was twist vainly in his arms
“No…you need to hear this, you’re not in control of anything Willow, you think you know everything there is to know about love, yes you know about sex…lust, that’s not love, not passion. Where you need a person so bad that you feel empty when they leave you even for a second…you cant even comprehend what that feels like”
“I know what love is, I’ve been in love before…”
“Who with Willow…John? You think that was love…that wasn’t even lust, I bet you didn’t even ask him whether or not he loved you…did you?”
Willows head fell forward as tears fell down her face
“The only person you ever loved Willow was yourself…and thats why I don’t find you life hilarious…I pity it”
Willows head shot up and she flung her arms out catching Spike on his jaw, stumbling backwards the vampire watches as she escapes his grasp. Running after her he grabs her by her hair and pulls her to the floor, not noticing the lack of pain in his head, pinning the red head under him he looks down
“Get off me…your hurting me”
“I thought you liked it rough Willow…isn’t that what Angelus said”
When Willow didn’t reply Spike carried on
“Come on your not going quiet on me now are you…take all my fun away…you forget I may have this chip in my head but I’m still a vampire…I can hurt you in ways you never dreamed of”
Spike ran a finger down the damp cheeks of her face as he leaned closer, his tongue following the path of his finger
“You know physical scars heal, emotional ones don’t…their always there waiting for the right time to re appear…do you think this is one of those times”
“Please leave me alone”
“Tell me what you want”
“What?”
“What do you want to do with your life…hmm continue the way your going because I know you’ll be dead…and I don’t mean my kind of fun un dead status but dead in a hole all alone…and what will you do then?”
“Maybe I want to…”
“What?”
“Maybe I don’t want to live anymore…have you ever thought of that”
“What?…your saying you want to die”
“You still don’t get it, you never knew I was like this to begin with a whore as you put it. I’m a good actor”
“But death…is that what you want”
“Maybe…It would be so simple you know…no more lies, pain easy really, but you know the reason why I never did it”
“No why”
“Because I was scared…again what you said I’m a scared little girl, I hurt and I don’t like it….I want it to stop and I thought that hurting Buffy would make it better”
“But…”
“But it still hurts, and I think it would be easier just to die. At first I thought they loved me, and I felt great…but soon I needed to have that feeling all the time and they wouldn’t give it to me. I loved that feeling I would get even for a few minutes in the arms of a man. I was someone loved…needed, I loved that and I hated going back to my life after it….”
“Then why did you continue”
“What else would I do…go lonely, not many people know this but there are three things in this life that scare me more then death”
“What would they be”
“I hate being lonely…my mom and dad worked away a lot and I was left at home, I hated that feeling that if anything happened I would have to go through it alone. Another is letting people know my feelings, if people know your weaknesses they can hurt you, and I hate feeling weak…. I would rather die than feel so weak that I couldn’t protect myself, I thought that was what I was doing with all them men, loving them and leaving them before they could hurt me.
“People don’t have to know you to not hurt you”
“I know that now…to late I know”
“Too late why…you have your whole life ahead of you”
“No I don’t…I want to die…it hurts so much that sometimes I fell like I’m drowning on air, and theres no one there to help me breath…please help me”
“Willow…you know I’m here and ill help you with whatever you want”
“I want you to kill me…please I want to die…Spike make the pain go away”
Part 24
Angelus smiled as he walked back home, he had just had a brutal kill and was now looking forward to going home and playing with his Willow <maybe even Spike can join in, he seems pretty close to her at the moment>
Meanwhile Spike looked down at the crying red head, he knew that his face was full of shock at that point of time but he didn’t care. Here was this young woman asking him to kill her, any other time before he had found out that he liked her, he would have done it in a heartbeat. But now the thought of losing her made his chest heavy, looking down into her frightened eyes, the vampire let go of the unnecessary breath he had been unconsciously holding.
“What did you say?”
“Kill me…please I don’t want to hurt anymore”
“Willow I don’t want to kill you, and even if I did….you know I cant this chip…”
“Is gone”
“What!”
“When I knew that I was going to get Angelus back, I didn’t know if it would go my way…so I got rid of the chip just in case….”
“And you didn’t tell me”
“I was going too…its just everything has been happening so fast and…. I’m sorry”
Outside, whistling to himself as he opens the front door, Angelus stops dead in his tracks when he spots the crying red head with a vampire on top of her
“What the hell is going on!”
“Angelus, when did you get back?”
pushing the shocked vampire off herself, Willow quickly stood and faced the angry vampire, wiping her eyes
“What was he doing to you Willow…tell me”
“Nothing Angelus…I fell…and hurt myself and he came and was helping me…that’s why I was crying just then”
“Spike is that true?”
Spike stood up slowly, looking at the blank expression on the red heads face then to his sires angry one
“Yeah…the chit fell and hurt herself”
“Well as long as that was all that happened…come Willow”
Offering his hand to the now silent red head, Spike watched as Willow clasped her hand in Angelus’ and followed him to the bedroom.
Spike heated himself some blood and sat down in one of the comfy chairs in the lounge. Switching the T on to drown out the moans coming from his sires bedroom, Spike let his mind wander back to what he had found out that night <Willow wanted to die> he had saw the pure emotions on her face as she had pleaded with him to kill her. <Even said she had removed the chip…poor red…taken advantage of too many times in her young life>. Thinking back to some of the things he had said Spike cringed at the nastiness of it all <here is this lass needing major help with her life and you start talking about emotional scars>
Spike sighed when another groan left the bedroom. <There I was thinking, I had eventually found out the real Willow, her fears of being alone, her lack of love, I thought I had made it clear that I had feelings for her and what happens, she goes and blocks up again and screws the poof>. Growling slightly, the vampire took his now empty cup to the kitchen.
When the noises from the bedroom stopped, Spike made his way back into the lounge and started to unfold the couch. Settling down into the blankets, Spike found it hard to sleep and found himself staring at the ceiling.
Willow quietly crept out of bed when she was sure Angelus had fallen asleep. Grabbing a night-shirt and robe, the red head slowly and quietly tip-toed into the lounge. For a minute she allowed herself to watch the blond vampire in front of her. <What am I doing…he probably doesn’t even want to see me again, I mean I did ask him to kill me…but I missed him before, god what am I doing? You’d think I had feelings for him, but I don’t, I cant…feelings make you weak, I’m not going to let him see me weak again, never>. Walking closer to the couch, the red head lightly touched the vampires shoulder.
Spike looked up into emerald green eyes
“Hey”
“Hey…can i…I mean I don’t want to sleep with Angelus”
Spike moved over to make room for the red head, Willow slowly lowered herself down to the couch and lay down. Neither person said anything, both thinking of lots of things especially each other
“Pet”
“Yeah”
“If you didn’t want to sleep in Angelus’ bed, why did you sleep with him?”
“Because he wanted me to”
“Oh”
“Spike”
“Yeah pet”
“I’m…I mean…well I’m sorry about before…I shouldn’t have asked that of you…I was just messed up a bit back there”
“No problems…I’ve forgotten about it”
“Oh”
“Willow”
“Yeah Spike”
“Goodnight”
“You too Spike”
Willow closed her eyes and snuggled into the blanket, Spike watched as the young red head smiled as he pulled her too him, her body fitting against his perfectly. Spike let her even breathing soothe him into his own slumber as he muttered
“Sweet dreams Willow”
Part 25
Spike awoke to an empty bed, sitting up, the vampire glanced around the apartment for the red head. Not seeing any sign of her, Spike stood up and walked around listening for a heartbeat or sign Willow was there. Turning the corner Spike heard mumbling, walking closer, the vampire found Willow talking quietly on the phone. Walking closer, he stopped when she motioned for him to be quiet.
"Yes…I'm sorry… I don't know I'm with friends. Ill try but I'm not promising…theres a lot of memories there that I don't want to face yet…OK, but ill be with my friends. See you later"
Placing the phone back down, Willow went to the kitchen and poured herself a drink sighing as Spike entered after her,
"What's wrong pet, who was that on the phone"
"On the phone…mother dearest"
"What did she want?"
"She wanted to know, why I hadn't called, and why I wasn't at home, she knows about Riley and she wants to see me"
"Are you going to go?"
"I have to…make with the devoted daughter act and all that bull"
"So when are you going"
"*We* are going maybe tomorrow, theres a few things I need to sort out first"
"OK"
"I need to start packing, and get Angelus up"
"Are you sure you want him in Sunnydale, what with the slayer and all"
"Why wouldn't I? We have to plan everything and if were in Sunnydale…well it'll probably make it easier"
"Well as long as you're sure"
"I am, trust me"
Walking out of the kitchen the red head went to pack before waking the older vampire. Placing the heavy suitcase in the hall, the red head took a deep breath before opening the door to Angelus's bedroom. The vampire was asleep so the red head went over to the bed and sat down next the sleeping form. Taking a deep breath, Willow shook the shoulder of the sleeping vampire, when she got no response, she leant down and spoke softly into his ear as she shook him harder. Just as she was about to get Spike she squealed as she was pulled under the heavy body of the now fully awake vampire
"Well this is a good morning call isn't it"
"Get off me"
"Oh come on, you weren't saying that last night"
Leaning down Angelus ran his tongue along her neck, pinning her arms above her head. Using his knee to wedge open her knees, he let his weight fall on her smaller body, smiling when she moaned he looked down into her eyes
"So what's with the early wake up call?"
"I've got to go home"
"What!"
Willow cringed when he pushed harder against her wrists
"Im going home, now let me up"
"So your just going to leave"
"No we all are leaving…I've told my mother that I'm with friends…she expects me there as soon as possible"
"And how soon would that be"
Willow moaned as the vampire started to rub his body against hers, smirking the redhead loosened one of her hands to run it down his arm as she pulled his head down to hers. Pulling away from the kiss Willow pushed the vampire off her and went to the door
"That would be now…pack were leaving"
Growling the vampire jumped up and opened his wardrobe. Willows head came back around the door,
"Oh and remember your supposed to be Angel"
Blowing him a kiss the redhead left.
Part 26
Spike sighed again at the sight of his sire and the redhead in the back seat. He wasn't sure if Willow knew that she was teasing him so much, or if she was oblivious to him as much as his sire. Looking out of the tinted windows, he let his mind wander back to the night before, and how Willow had curled around his body in sleep, how young she had looked, he sometimes forgot how young the girl actually was. His frown returned when another moan escaped the back of the car. Slowly exhaling an unnecessary breath to calm his nerves, he jumped when Angelus spoke
"Boy…do you have to make so much noise"
"Noise, I'm not the one making with the moans!"
"Jealous"
"Angelus…Spike stop it!"
Both vampires turned to look at the small redhead, disentangling herself from Angel's embrace; she sat forward to touch the blondes shoulder
"Ignore him Spike…and you shut up"
Pointing to the older vampire, the redhead moved herself into the front seat, much to the disappointment to Angelus.
"Willow…where are you going, we were having fun"
"Angel…go to sleep, we'll be in Sunnydale soon enough and I need you all awake"
"I would sleep much better with you here"
"Yeah right…ill play later"
Waiting till the dark haired vampire lay down and shut his eyes, Willow turned back around and sat down
"You're the only person I think he's listened too"
Willow turned to face the blond, moving closer, she let her head fall to his shoulder. Letting his hand rest on her knee, he waited till she was asleep before taking a look at his red. Placing a kiss on her forehead he went back to watching the dark road. In the back seat, Angelus closed his golden eyes, swearing to find out what was going on between the two in front of him, and put a stop to anything that came between what was his.
Part 27
"Pet…were here"
Slightly shaking the redhead, Spike watched as Angelus got out of the car and stretched his legs
"Mmm…Spike"
"Yeah pet…come on your home"
Slowly opening her eyes Willow smiled at the sight of the blond headed vampire
"Hey"
"Hey yourself…come on"
"Geez…I'm up"
Standing up Willow stretched her legs trying to work some of the knots out, she looked up to find herself at the mansion
"Sorry we couldn't drop you off at home…but it would look weird us turning up with you"
"Its okay…I need to walk…wake up my legs a bit"
"Want me to walk you"
"No boy…take the stuff inside…I can take her home"
"If Spike wants to he can"
"No…Spike get the stuff, it better be all in by the time I get back"
Spike watched as Willow gave him a final glance before following the older vampire <damn him> picking up their bags, he walked up to the huge mansion door
"You didn't have to do that"
"Do what?"
Looking down at the girl Angelus hid a smirk when he saw the anger on her face
"You hate competition…don't you?"
"Spike is not competition"
Laughing Angelus placed a arm around the small women's waist, pulling her close to his hard body. Walking along they soon reached the redheads home, pulling away Willow felt herself be pulled back against the vampires chest, glaring, she looked up at him
"Let me go…were in Sunnydale remember, no touchy feel-y in public"
Pulling her head back, he ran his tongue along her throat, smiling at her gasp
"Just remember Willow, we may be in Sunnydale, but it doesn't mean I cant touch what's mine…and you are mine"
"Fine…just tonight, your going to have to play with Spike, I've got a mother to go and impress"
"I could get Spike to kill her for you…oh wait he cant can he"
"Don't say that about him…get off me"
Letting the redhead go, Angelus laughed as he watched her enter her childhood house <seems their closer than I thought"
Part 28
“Mom”
Walking into the lounge Willow found her mom sat reading a book
“Willow…I didn’t think you’d be home so soon…how are you”
“As well as can be expected…it’s a bit weird being back here”
“Oh im sorry…I didn’t realise till I got off the phone that you would probably feel uncomfortable here”
“It okay…how are you”
“Oh I’m well…just been back from England a couple of weeks, its weird you can be gone for weeks, but you can just fit back into the routine back home”
“Great…daddy?”
“He’s well…still over there working, bad memories for him here”
“I know the feeling”
“Oh im sorry…if you would like I could get a hotel room somewhere”
“No…I just want to go to bed…ive been travelling for a while and im tired”
“Yes of course…could we talk later”
“Later”
Walking upstairs Willow let go of the breath she had been holding, walking into the bathroom, she splashed her face with cool water, looking into the mirror she forced herself to smile before going to bed
Walking downstairs Willow poured herself a cup of coffee before sitting at the dinner table, taking a sip of the hot liquid she watched as her mother walked in. Grabbing herself a coffee, Sheila took a seat across from her daughter
“So…”
“Yeah so…”
“Where do we begin?”
“I have no idea”
“Willow why didn’t you tell me”
“Tell you?”
“About Riley…about everything, it hurt me to hear it from someone else”
“Mom…we’ve never been…close”
“But Willow, I’m still your mother”
“Yes who lived in a different country, who left me to make her marriage work…mom you know nothing about me”
“I’ll agree I have never been the mothering type…but Willow, someone hurt you and it didn’t even cross your mind to tell me”
“I was hoping you would never find out”
“God Willow, I know I was never there but I love you…you should’ve told me”
“Why…because you’re my mother”
“Yes!”
“Well sorry…but if I saw you more, then maybe I would tell you stuff”
“Willow!”
“Look I’m sorry…I shouldn’t have said that…”
“No, its my fault, you needed a role model and I never thought…Willow, please let me make this right”
“Its okay mom, I’ve moved on…I was in LA, I’ve got new friends, I’m putting everything behind me”
“I’m glad to hear that”
Both women looked into their coffee cups, Willow watched as her mother squirmed in her seat, trying desperately not to look at her daughter
“So…is this little mother-daughter bonding thing over”
Looking at the redhead, Sheila Rosenberg sighed, trying to picture the little girl she had left, nodding her head, she watched as Willow stood up and went to get dressed.
Part 29
“Willow”
“Yeah”
“Where are you going”
“The friends I came here with…I’m going to see them, why do you want me to get you anything”
“No…have fun”
“I will”
Watching the door close, Sheila went back into the kitchen to grab her coffee, before she went out shopping, maybe if she got Willow a gift she wouldn’t feel as bad
Softly she opened the door, sending light into the dark mansion, closing the door, she waited for her eyes to adjust before walking further into the huge building
“Hello?”
Her voice echoed against the walls, making the redhead cringe at the sound
“Hey pet”
Turning around Willow spotted the freshly awoken blond, smiling at the image in front of her. Spike had just woke up, wearing only his jeans, the top button open showing more of his pale skin, his hair was a mess, bits were sticking out in all directions, the redhead thought he looked nice with his hair that way, but she kept her thoughts to herself.
“Hi Spike”
“How did it go with your mother”
“As fun as ever…which means it didn’t go well”
“Oh…am I supposed to say I’m sorry for you pet”
“No…she’s had all the time in the world to get to know me and she hasn’t so I don’t care what she thinks or does for that matter”
“Oh well as long as were happy”
Smiling Spike sat down on one of the couches. Willow smiled and looked around the room before sitting down next to the blond, feeling his gaze on her the redhead moved up so that she was straddling Spike’s legs
“I could be happier”
“Really?”
“Uh-huh”
Leaning down Willow let her lips claim his, opening her mouth, she heard the vampire moan when her tongue ran along his lips, asking for entrance, permission granted, neither noticed the angry vampire that stood at the top of the stair watching the two. Moving her hands, she let her fingers travel over the soft skin of his chest, kissing down his neck, soon her lips found his chest, nicking and sucking as she went, she didn’t notice the vampire tense
“Willow…pet”
“Huh?”
“Pet…stop!”
“What?”
Looking up her eyes caught sight of Angelus, sitting back on Spikes knees, she kissed the blond once more before acknowledging the older vampire
“Good afternoon Angelus”
“Willow…Spike”
Angelus walked over to the couch, pulling the redhead by her hair away from his childe, he let his lips crash down on hers, pulling her body against his. Smirking at the growl from the blond, Angelus let his hand fall to the back of the redhead, pinning her against him
“Spike, why don’t you go and do something…me and Willow have some business to attend to”
“Business?”
Looking up at the tall vampire, Willow tried to move away, only to be pulled harder against his body
“Yes…business, you did promise me something in the car”
“In the car…oh baby’s horny”
Smirking, the redhead let her hand run down the dark haired vampire chest to cup the growing bulge through his pants
“Very horny…mmm that could be fun”
“Very”
watching his advance, the redhead moved out of his grasp
“Shame we’ve got work to do”
“Oh come on Willow…you know you want to play”
“Maybe later”
“Yeah when Spike isn’t here”
“Whatever”
“I need to change”
Watching Angelus leave, the redhead moved back to the couch, placing a kiss against his mouth, she looked into Spike’s eyes before standing and leaving
“Tell Angelus, I’ve went to see the slayer”
“Willow”
“Yeah”
Turning, Willow found herself staring into intense blue eyes
“Be careful”
“I always am”
Kissing him once more, the redhead left to find the blond girl.
Part 30
"Giles?"
Willow slowly walked into the watchers home, everything was quiet, the only way she knew someone was home, was the open door
"Hello.anyone home?"
"Excuse me.can I help you"
Willow turned to stare at a dark skinned woman lounging in a oversized shirt
"Oh.hi I'm looking for Giles, he used to live here"
"Oh he still does.. GILES!"
The women shouted up the stairs only to be followed by thumping from the bedroom
"Hi, I'm Olivia"
"Willow"
"So how do you know Giles"
"Were old friends.he's never mentioned me before?"
"No.sorry"
"Oh."
Willow let her gaze fall to the floor, slowly walking around the room, she had so often been in, that now seemed different. Hearing a commotion at the stairs, the redhead turned to see a quickly dressed Giles running downstairs
"What is it"
"This young girl, says she knows you"
"Giles?"
Turning, the watcher's heart lurched at the sight of the redhead, no one had told him she was coming back, looking at Olivia then at Willow, he watched as the older woman made an excuse and left
"Willow.how are you"
"Not as good as you"
"Oh Olivia she's a friend"
"Seems like it"
"I'm sorry Willow, but no one knew if you were ever coming back"
The older man watched the redhead look at him before taking a seat on his couch, running her finger over the worn fabric, she turned to look at him again
"You remember this couch.the things it's seen"
"Yes"
Smiling the watcher sat next to the small women
"I guess it's got a lot to say about her too"
"No Willow.I'm sorry, I know theres nothing I can say.but you did leave"
"Yeah.don't you like me"
"Of course I do Willow"
"Then why did she know nothing about me.do you know how much that hurt"
"I'm sorry Willow.if theres anyway I can get you to forgive me"
"Hold me"
"Willow.with Olivia, it's new but we have trust, I can't do something stupid"
"Stupid.I'm stupid now"
Standing up the redhead rushed towards the door, stopping at his voice, she held the tears back, the memories of what Spike had said coming back to her <everyone is moving on.everyone but you and your scared>
"Willow, please.what we had was special but I've got something good.and I know one day you'll find the same"
"Really"
Moving closer, Giles took the girl into his arms, smiling at her familiar smell and touch
"I'm not going to lie to you Willow.you will find someone"
Running her hands up his chest, she let her lips kiss his neck softly, at his moan she let her hands travel under his shirt, fingers running through the course hair. Pulling slightly, she ran her other hand down to his belt, slowly unbuckling it, she felt his hand on hers
"No Willow.you'll thank me in the future"
Looking into his eyes, she knew he wasn't going to let anything happen, turning the redhead pulled the door open and without looking back Willow made her way back to the mansion. Taking a deep breath, she walked in to see Spike had got ready and was talking to a few minions, noticing her arrival, he sent the vampires away and turned to smile at the redhead
"Hey red.what's wrong"
"I went to see Giles"
"Oh yeah.was this business or pleasure.or maybe a little of both"
His smirk turned into a frown at the sight of the quiet redhead
"Red."
"He's got a new girlfriend.. Giles has"
"Oh"
"Yeah.I guess you were right"
"Right.about what"
"Everyone's moving on"
"That's what happens love"
"Yeah well it sucks"
"Tell me about it.you're not even as old as me"
Wrapping his arms around her, he rested his chin on the top of her head, rubbing soothing circle against her back, he waited till she spoke before saying anything
"Spike.Thanks"
Looking down into the redhead's eyes, he could tell she was telling the truth
"What for"
"Believing in me.I never thank people, but you've been there when I need you"
"What about Angelus"
"He's only doing this to get back at the slayer"
"When are you going for the girl"
"Soon"
"How soon"
Reaching up, Willow ran her tongue along the vampires neck, closing her eyes at his groan, she whispered
"Soon enough"
Pulling his head down she let his lips claim hers, sweeping her tongue against his, she moaned as his hands moved over her body. Lifting her body up, she wrapped her legs around his waist, pulling her body ever closer to his. Each moaning their appreciation, with his arms wrapped around the redhead, Spike went to his bedroom, placing the girl on his bed, he stood back and watched as she slowly opened her top, with each new sight of flesh, the vampire felt himself get harder. Quickly divesting themselves of clothes, Spike let his body cover hers. Looking into her eyes, the blond bent his head to her ear, softly licking he whispered
"Are you sure?"
Nodding her head, Willow pulled his lips back to hers, wrapping her legs around his waist she groaned when he slowly entered her. Spike groaned at her tightness, looking down, he was surprised to see her smiling, not a false smile he had seen her use millions of times, this one was different, it lighted her eyes making them shine like emeralds. Feeling her nails scrape against his back, he let the rhythm of their thrusts increase, faster and faster until he felt her stiffen below him, her eyes closed and lips parted as she screamed his name. Thrusting a few more times, he felt his climax take over, shifting he let his fangs dig deep into her neck. Suckling gently he moved off the redhead and looked at the girl stroking his hair
"You okay"
"Great"
At her smile, he went back to cleaning the fresh bite marks on her skin, hearing her even breathing he let his own eyes close, sleep soon joining him.