Chapter 19:
"Welcome to the Magic…" Anya stopped in mid-sentence when she saw who'd just
walked in. "Oh. It's you, Spike. Well, you're not really a customer, so you
don't get a greeting. All you do is steal our burba weed."
"Yeah, whatever. Gotta ask you a question," Spike replied.
"About our merchandise?"
"After a fashion, yeah?"
Anya nodded, understanding. "About the book."
"You guessed it. You know anything about how it works?"
"Sure do. I read the instruction manual," Anya said with a chipper smile. She
liked when she could be helpful with information.
Spike cleared his throat, looking around to make sure none of the other Scoobies
were present. "Did it…did it make the Slayer fall in love with me?"
"I don't think so," Anya replied. "Technically, it should've pulled all the
characters from Buffy's psyche, even yours, since she was the woman and
therefore the sort of 'default' setting."
"So Buffy's psyche made me the love interest?"
"Yep. It could've been a glitch since you both have such strong personalities,
but I don't think so."
"And…and the way we were with each other…"
"You mean the hot, nasty sex or the mushy stuff?"
Spike raised an eyebrow. "Anya, did you read that book?"
Anya shrugged. "Of course I did. Someone had to keep track of you guys, and
everyone else was all weird and squeamish about it." She leaned in and whispered
conspiratorially, "You know how those humans are."
"That I do," Spike said with a smirk. "So the book? Did it…"
"Make Buffy love you? I don't think so. And really, if she was completely
resistant to it, it should've taken the story in another direction. Made her end
up with Riley or Angelus or something. And is it just me, or is it rather
interesting that both of them ended up in bad guy roles? I mean, your psyche had
something to do with it, but ultimately, it was Buffy's fantasy, and in it
you're the great love and her exes are…well, pretty disgusting."
Spike blinked. He hadn't thought of that. "Yeah, that is, um, interesting. So
all that stuff that happened between us, it wasn't just the characters spoutin'
off?"
"No. The book doesn't work like that. All it did was take what the two of you
already felt, what you already had on your mind, and twisted it to fit the plot
of the book. But it didn't create much of anything out of thin air, and it
certainly didn't create the feelings. Emotions that powerful can't be made by
magic. That's why love spells tend to go wonky. Real love can't be faked."
"That spell Willow put on us a while back certainly did a damn good job of it,"
Spike replied.
Anya snorted. "Oh please. You two were probably in love then, too. Are we done
here? Some real, non-thieving customers just came in."
"Uh, yeah. That's all I wanted to know. Thanks, demon girl."
"You're welcome. And if you ever get any money, please, come back." She gave him
a wide, plastic smile.
"Yeah, I will," Spike muttered, heading towards the back exit.
*** *** ***
Buffy decided she really needed to start listening to the weather reports. If it
said eighty percent chance of rain that night, then dammit, she should skip the
patrol. Or at the very least, wear a raincoat.
But she'd had tension she needed to work off, and she'd foolishly taken that
twenty percent risk that she'd get through the night dry.
She hadn't. She wasn't even through the first cemetery when it had started, and
now it was pouring so hard that she fully expected an ark to come sailing by at
any moment.
She could barely see with the way the water was falling in her eyes. And to make
matters worse, apparently all the vampires had paid attention to the
weather report and stayed indoors.
It was time to go home. Only home was a lengthy walk away, and she was cold and
wet. Spike's crypt on the other hand was quite close.
"No," Buffy told herself. "You can't go there."
But her feet were already walking, ignoring what her mind was saying. It had
been two nights since their "date," and she'd deftly avoided him, despite her
sister's constant urgings that she do otherwise.
She stopped at his door, knocking before she could stop herself. She swallowed
when he opened it, staring up at him with wide eyes.
"Slayer?"
"It's…it's raining."
"Do you want to come in and dry off?"
Buffy nodded, and Spike was half tempted to tell her too sodding bad. After the
way she'd acted on his failed attempt to bring her on a date… But that wouldn't
exactly get him the girl, and he was smart enough to know that. He stepped back.
"Come on in, then. I'll get you something dry to put on, yeah?"
Buffy stepped into the crypt. "Okay."
Spike disappeared into the lower level, coming up a few minutes later with a
handful of very pink clothes. "Sorry. These are Harmony's. I…all I have are
jeans and t-shirts, and they'd be too big for you to be comfortable."
Buffy wrinkled her nose a bit at the idea of wearing Harmony's clothes, but the
desire to get out of the soaking wet things she was currently wearing won out.
"Thanks," she said, taking them from him. "And um, where is Harmony?"
"Kicked her out," Spike said with a shrug.
"When?"
"That first night we came back from the book. Couldn't sleep next to her after…"
Spike stopped. "I have some hot chocolate I could make, warm you up good. How
about I do that while you get dressed, yeah?"
"Okay, sounds good," Buffy said. Spike nodded and went into the kitchen area,
keeping his back to her as he rummaged around over there.
Buffy was surprised at how considerate Spike was being. He hadn't made a single
smart assed comment since she'd shown up, instead doing everything he could to
be accommodating, without any questions. She looked down at the hot pink track
pants and t-shirt with a glittery unicorn that she was holding now and made a
face. Maybe having her wear these things was his way of tormenting her…
She slipped off her wet clothes, noticing that Spike continued to keep his back
to her. She surprised herself by feeling disappointed. Didn't he want to see her
naked? Or maybe he'd seen enough of her and didn't care to again… She sighed and
put on Harmony's clothes, trying to shake off the creepy feeling they gave her.
"I'm decent," she said once she was dressed.
Spike turned around, unable to keep from grimacing at the sight of the very
shiny unicorn. "A little scary, though."
"Hey, you're the one who gave me the things to wear."
"I'm thinking maybe I should've just given you one of my t-shirts. That shirt's
just bloody wrong."
Buffy smirked. "Unicorns have never exactly been my style." She gestured to one
of his chairs. "Is it all right if I sit down?"
The Slayer was asking for permission to sit in his house? Spike really hoped he
could take that as a sign that maybe she liked him more than she'd wanted to
admit and not that she had suffered brain damage from slipping out in the rain
or something. "'Course." He took the two mugs of chocolate he'd just prepared
and carried them over to the living room area, handing one to her before sitting
down in the other chair.
Buffy took a sip of the drink, then glanced around. "Did you get some new
furniture?"
"A little. I've been finding what I can, trying to piece together a decent
looking home. Got a real bed downstairs now."
Buffy couldn't help but blush at the thought of Spike's bed, and she wanted to
kick her inner-Elizabeth for that. "Where were you sleeping before?"
"On the sarcophaguses. But Harmony kept complaining." A sour look went over
Buffy's face, and Spike cursed himself for his stupidity. Why had he said that?
He wanted to woo the girl back into his life, and talking about his former was
not going to do that. It was bad enough he'd had to give Buffy Harm's clothes…
"You know, Spike," Buffy said, taking another drink of the hot chocolate. "You
really didn't have to kick her out because of me. I mean, I'm certainly not
going to be getting any use out of that bed with you. No point in you being
alone."
Spike heard a bitterness in her voice, and hoped her words had been motivated by
a jealous need to lash out more than anything else. "I kicked her out because I
didn't want to be with her anymore, Buffy. Not like I was making room for you."
Buffy glared at him, and Spike quickly backpedaled. "Didn't mean that how it
sounded. I want you, Buffy. You know that. Nothing in this world would make me
happier than having you in my bed. I just meant…"
"I know what you meant," Buffy snapped. "Wouldn't mind another go at the Slayer,
but it's not like you'd want me around for long."
"What? Are you completely daft? I want you for bleedin' forever! All I was
trying to say was, whether you still wanted to be with me or not didn't mean
anything when I threw out Harmony. Wasn't makin' room for you in the bed because
you're already there with me anyway, in my heart. Can't sleep next to another
woman. Can't sleep next to someone who…who isn't my wife."
Buffy tightened her grip on the mug she was holding to keep it from hitting the
floor. "I'm not your wife."
"No? Look me in the eyes and tell me you don't feel like my wife—and that I
don't feel like your husband."
"Elizabeth and William got married, Spike. Not us."
Spike jumped up, and his mug did shatter against the stone floor, making Buffy
jump. "Would you stop with that? Bloody stubborn woman! We are William and
Elizabeth. Just because the book made us act a little differently didn't mean we
weren't the same people. You ever pay attention to what we said to each other
then, pet? There wasn't much of it couldn't be applied to our lives back here."
"It was just a script, Spike. Just words that the book made us say."
"No. I talked to Anya today, luv. She read the instruction manual. Seems the
book can't create love if there isn't any there to begin with. Something about
the emotion being too powerful to be made by magic. Elizabeth loved William
because you love me."
"That's crazy! And you certainly didn't love me, so…"
"I bloody well did! I've been in love with you for, well, soddin' never forever
it seems these days. I loved you long before we got sucked into that book.
Haven't you noticed? Haven't you seen how I've been changing? How I've been
trying so hard to help, to be good? It's for you, Buffy. Because I love you."
Buffy set down the mug of hot chocolate, no longer trusting it in her shaking
hands. "How…how can you? You don't have a soul."
Spike grit his teeth, forcing himself not to snap at her. As much as it stung,
he knew she had her reasons for thinking that way. His grandsire had done quite
a number on her… "I don't need a soul to love you, Buffy. What I feel for you,
it goes deeper than any soul. It's in every bit of me, ever fiber of my being. I
love you with everything that I am, with all of my unbeating heart. I married
you on that ship, Buffy. I pledged to love you until there was nothing left of
me, and I meant it. You are my soul. You're what makes me feel alive."
Buffy stared up at him, tears in her eyes. No one had ever said anything like
that to her before, even Angel. And she was almost sure she could see the love
shining from him. It would be so easy to believe, so easy to let herself fall
into his arms. But the fear was still there, a dark stain on her heart. "I…I
can't, Spike," she said, standing up. "I want to, but I can't."
Spike took a step closer. "You can, Buffy. You can love me. I won't let you
down. I'll be the best man I can be, and all for you."
"But what if your best isn't good enough? You're evil, Spike. You don't know
right from wrong."
"I bloody well do! Just because I've never cared doesn't mean that I don't know.
I know killing's wrong. And it's not just because the chip would zap me either.
This chip stops working tomorrow, and I carry on just like I have been. You know
why? Because I love you too much to ever hurt you. I'd dust first."
"What if you get tired of me? What if I'm not enough, and…and you leave me. Then
what?"
"Won't happen."
"How can you be so sure of that?"
"Because I'm not them, Buffy. I'm not the sort of man who leaves."
"You kicked Harmony out."
Spike gaped for a moment at that. "I… Bloody hell, woman, that was Harmony.
What about the hundred plus years I stayed with Drusilla, even when she flaunted
her relationship with Angelus right in front of me? That doesn't tell you
anything?"
"I don't know, Spike! I don't know! It's all too much, okay? I don't know what I
feel. I don't know what you feel."
Spike's facial expression softened. "We love each other, Buffy. We do. Please,
kitten…"
"I need…I just need time to think. Sort everything out. Can you give me that?"
Spike closed his eyes, taking a deep breath. She was being so difficult… He
opened his eyes. "Yeah. I can give you that."
"Thank you. I think the rain's slowed down a bit, so I'm going to head on home.
I'll bring you these clothes back later, okay?"
Spike rolled his eyes. "Burn the bloody things."
Buffy gave him a small smile. "I just might." She picked up her own clothes,
wrinkling her nose as the dripped on the floor. "You have anything I can put
these in?"
"Yeah. Just a second." Spike went over to the kitchen, coming back with a black
garbage bag. "Here."
"Thanks." She dropped her clothes in except for her tennis shoes, which she put
on, frowning as the squished when she walked. "I'll see you around, okay?"
"Don't take too long to think, please Buffy?" he asked, his tone softer than she
was used to. He gave her a heartbreaking smile. "I'm not exactly known for my
patience."
"I know. I'll…I'll try." Buffy gave him a small smile before leaving the crypt,
walking out into the now-light rain.
*** *** ***
Chapter 20:
Buffy took off Harmony's clothes as soon as she got into her bedroom, wadding
them up and throwing them in the corner. She stared down at the damp pile,
wondering if Spike had ever taken them off of the blonde vampiress. The thought
made her stomach turn.
She heard a soft knock on the door and looked up sharply. "Buffy?" her mother
called from the other side.
"Yeah, Mom?"
"There's pizza downstairs if you're hungry, sweetheart."
"I'm fine. I think I'm just going to turn in for the night."
"Are you sure? I know you're usually really hungry after patrol…"
"It wasn't a very busy night, with the rain and all."
"Oh." A pause before Joyce spoke again. "Can I come in?"
"Just a minute. Let me get dressed." Buffy grabbed a pair of flannel pajamas
from her drawer, in the mood for something warm and comforting. She put them on
quickly, then called to her mother. "Come on in."
Joyce opened the door slowly, coming in the room almost tentatively. "I feel
like I never come in here anymore."
"I'm barely in here anymore," Buffy replied.
"You haven't changed it much since we moved in," Joyce said, looking around.
"I like having something in my life that stays the same."
Joyce smiled softly at her daughter, tucking a wet strand of hair behind Buffy's
ear. "Are you sure you're not hungry? If you don't want pizza, maybe we could
get something else? It's late, but there's some drive-thrus…"
"I'm fine. And what's with the Mom overload?"
"I just…I love you, Buffy. You know that, don't you?"
"Of course I do. And I love you, too." Buffy frowned. "Is everything okay?
Did…did something happen? Are you still sick?"
"I'm fine, honey. I had a check up today, and everything's going as well as the
doctors hoped. They got it all, and the doctors say my recovery is going very,
very well. It's just… I keep thinking about how close I was to being gone from
the lives of my girls. There's so much we wouldn't have been able to do, and I…"
Joyce stopped, wrapping her arms around Buffy in a fierce hug.
Buffy felt tears pricking her eyes as she returned her mother's embrace. "I
know. I don't know what I would've done if…"
"Shh. I'm here now, and I'm not going anywhere. Not for a long time."
Buffy looked up, though she kept her arms tightly around Joyce. "I love you,
Mommy."
"I love you, too, baby." Joyce kissed Buffy's forehead. "You're all cold and
wet. Would you like some hot chocolate?"
Buffy blinked, thinking back to when Spike had offered her the same thing a
short time before. He'd been taking care of her… "I just had some. Thanks,
though."
"You did?" Joyce asked with a frown. "Where?"
Buffy pulled away. "Spike's."
"Was he helping you patrol?"
"No. I went alone tonight. It just started raining, so I went over there because
it was closer than home. And he gave me some dry clothes and hot chocolate."
"Oh. Well, it's good to know he does actually drink it."
"Huh?"
"Oh, I give it to him to take back to his crypt with him. He likes it."
"You give Spike hot chocolate?"
"Yes."
"When do you do this?"
"He comes over here," Joyce replied. "We talk. You didn't know that?"
"Uh, no. What do you and Spike talk about?"
Joyce shrugged. "Different things. He's a very nice young man."
Buffy suppressed the urge to giggle insanely at Spike being described as a "very
nice young man." "I just never thought about Spike coming over here. It seems so
odd…"
"Not really. He told me I remind him of his mother. I think they were very
close. Besides, everyone needs a little mothering now and then."
Buffy lowered her head slightly, glancing upwardly at her mother. "So you,
um…like Spike?"
"As someone to share a cup of hot chocolate with now and then, yes. As a
boyfriend for you, I'm not so sure."
Buffy looked down at the floor. "Me either."
"Is this because you were in a romance novel with him?"
Buffy looked up sharply. "You knew it was a romance novel? Did they actually
tell you that? I mean, you're my mom, and…ew."
"Well, they didn't exactly tell me, but when I asked Rupert what book it was, he
started stammering a lot and polishing his glasses. That was a bit of a tip
off."
"I guess the book was part of it," Buffy said, looking back down. "But Spike
said tonight that there's this instruction book, and it says that it creates
things based on feelings you already have, so I had to really be in love with
him, not just thinking I was because of the book."
"And are you?"
Buffy's answer was barely audible. "Yes."
Joyce felt herself torn in two different directions. Buffy was obviously
hurting, and the last thing she wanted was for her little girl to hurt. But on
the other hand, she wanted something other for Buffy than a vampire. Although
Riley had been human, and he certainly hadn't done Buffy any good… Joyce had
been firmly against the idea of Buffy being with a vampire when it came to
Angel, but looking back on it now, she saw how much of that was just not liking
Angel. And she hadn't. Not even when she had thought he was simply Buffy's
history tutor. He had looked at her daughter in a way that the mother in Joyce
had rebelled at.
Spike looked at Buffy like she was something wonderful, a treasure. And the tone
in his voice whenever he talked about her… He was bright and handsome, both
things she'd wish for Buffy to find in a boyfriend. And he was always
well-mannered, at least around Joyce, which was very high on her list. The way
she saw it, a young man should always be respectful to his girlfriend's mother,
and bonus points if it didn't seem forced.
Honestly, other than the whole undead issue, Spike was exactly the kind of man
Joyce would want for Buffy. She supposed if it meant Buffy was happy, she could
overlook that one thing…
"I think you should follow you your heart, Buffy."
Buffy blinked, gaping at her mother for a moment. "Huh?"
"If your heart is telling you to be with Spike, you should. Yes, in an ideal
world, I'd prefer my daughter not to be with a vampire, but…" Joyce let out a
deep breath. "Life's too short to not be with the person you love."
Buffy felt a lump rise in her throat, her mother's words hitting her hard. She
was the Slayer. She'd known from the beginning that that came with an expiration
date. Even if you lived to be a hundred, life was short. When there was a very
good chance you wouldn't see thirty…
"I need…I haven't decided yet," Buffy said.
Joyce squeezed Buffy's hand. "Whatever you decided, sweetheart, I'll support
you."
"Thanks, Mom."
"If you change your mind about being hungry…"
"I'll come downstairs."
Joyce smiled. "Okay. Good night, Buffy."
"Night, Mom."
*** *** ***
Buffy couldn't sleep. Her eyes didn't seem to want to stay closed, and all she
could do was stare up at the ceiling.
And think about Spike…
She could feel the walls crumbling around her heart. What Spike had said to her
tonight, coupled with her mother's acceptance of any relationship that could
exist between her and the vampire, had done so much to warm her towards the
idea. Was it actually possible that it could work? Could she be in love and
not have it end tragically? Buffy had never known love and happiness to go
hand in hand. Every man she'd opened even part of her heart to had hurt her.
Maybe it was because she hadn't given it to the right one…
Was it naïve to believe that? Was it better to be jaded, to know the pain love
caused and shield yourself from it?
But she was shielding herself now, and it still hurt.
She rolled over, grabbing the phone and dialing a number from memory. After
several rings, a tired male voice answered.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Xander."
"Buffy? It's three in the morning. This better be an apocalypse…"
"No, sorry. World's not ending. Is Anya there?"
"Um, yeah. Why?"
"I want to talk to her."
The confusion was obvious in Xander's voice. "Okay…"
A few moments later, Anya was on the phone. "Buffy? Why in the name of all the
hells are you calling me at this hour? Xander said you said the world isn't
ending, so I don't see why this couldn't wait for normal business hours."
Buffy decided it was best to cut to the chase. "Spike said you told him the book
can't make people fall in love."
"It can't. Is that why you're calling?"
"Yes."
Buffy could hear Anya's heavy sigh on the other end of the line. "Look, it's
late, so I'm going to cut this short. The book didn't make you fall in love. You
are in love. It's obvious to anyone with eyes. Go have him give you orgasms, and
let me get some sleep."
Buffy heard Xander's loud exclamation of, "What! Don't tell Buffy to get…those
from Spike!" followed by an "ow!" "What was that?" Buffy asked.
"Xander said something stupid, so I smacked him. Being tired makes me cranky.
But according to the instructions, you love Spike. Really, I don't care what you
do with your life, but personally, I think you'd be much less bitchy if you had
some good sex, which I'm positive Spike could provide. I mean, have you seen
the size of that bulge in his jeans. If I didn't have Xander…"
"Anya!" Buffy and Xander exclaimed in unison.
"Ow. Both of my ears hurt now. Anyway, is that all you wanted?"
"Yes. You can go back to sleep now." The only response Buffy got from Anya was
the click of the telephone, followed by a dial tone.
The voice that had been telling Buffy that being with Spike was wrong kept
getting quieter and quieter. He was a vampire, and that had been a problem with
Angel. He didn't have a soul, and she couldn't pretend that didn't bother her.
But he loved her. And she loved him.
Life's too short to not be with the person you love…
Buffy jumped out of bed, changing her clothes quickly. She crept down the stairs
and out the front door. As soon as she had it locked behind her, she took off in
a run, ignoring the driving rain that was hitting her. One thought ran through
her mind over and over again, kept her going.
She had to get to Spike.
Suddenly, she felt herself stopped by something in front of her, and she looked
up into feral yellow eyes.
"Well, lookie what we have here, boys? Seems like someone thought it would be
fun to take a jog through the cemetery at night."
Buffy sighed as the three vampires circled her. Where had these guys been when
she was looking for a fight? She didn't have time for them now, not when
they weren't the vampire she wanted. She put her hands on her hips. "Look, I'm
not in the mood. Can we do this some other time?"
The vampire in front of her smiled, his fangs glistening in the moonlight.
"Sorry, sweets. I'm hungry now."
"Fine. If that's the way you want it. We'll just have to be quick about it."
"Uh, Ralph, she ain't scared. This is the part where they're usually scared."
"That's because I'm not the one who's about to die," Buffy replied, pulling a
stake from her waistband. She pushed back, driving it into the heart of the
vampire who had just spoken without as much as a glance in his direction.
"Ralph!" the third vampire exclaimed. "She just dusted Leroy!"
Buffy quirked an eyebrow. There was something slightly disappointing about a
vamp named Leroy. Not that Ralph was any better… But there wasn't exactly time
to dwell on it now. Or even bother with the punning. She was a Slayer on a
mission after all. She turned and staked the vamp who had just lamented the
death of Leroy.
Ralph's eyes widened. "You're the Slayer."
"Hey, he catches on! Are you gonna run now?"
Ralph grinned. "Nope. I'm gonna kill myself a Slayer."
"Hate to break it to you, Ralph, but that's not how this is going to work."
Buffy raised her stake, only to have Ralph swipe at her with his meaty hand,
knocking her down into a puddle of mud. She looked down in disgust. "Ew! And I
was going to meet someone, too. You better hope he'll still want me if I'm all
muddy…"
"You better hope he'll still want you when you're all dead."
"See, Ralph, we've had this conversation," Buffy said, getting back to her feet.
"I'm not the one who isn't walking away from this." Ralph struck out at her
again, but Buffy ducked beneath the blow, coming up to hit her mark with her
stake. She dropped the piece of wood to the ground and ran through Ralph's dust.
Spike's crypt was in sight. Just a little further…
She stopped when she got to the door, taking a deep, calming breath before
pushing it open and walking inside.
*** *** ***
Chapter 21:
Spike heard the door of his crypt slide open. He frowned, grabbing a sword that
was leaning against the wall before going to the upper level. Usually when
something came looking for his blood, they were a little louder than this, but
maybe it was a stealthy demon…
He stopped when he saw who was standing there, the sword sliding to the ground
with a loud clang. Buffy was staring at him. He could hear her rapid heartbeat,
could see the fear in her wide, green eyes. The silence was heavy between them,
and he felt like he had to say something—anything—before she bolted.
"You're all muddy."
Spike winced as soon as the words left his mouth. That wasn't exactly the way to
make the girl want to stay…
"I got in a fight with a vamp. He pushed me down. His name was Ralph."
"Ralph?"
"Yeah. And there was one named Leroy, too. There was a third one, but I didn't
find out his name. Just staked him."
"Oh."
Silence fell again, Buffy's nervous rambling doing nothing to ease the tension
between them. She glanced between Spike and the still open door, and Spike knew
what was on her mind. He could sense her inner conflict, could see the tense way
she held herself. "Don't go. Please, Buffy…don't go."
"I wanted to see you, but…I'm all gross now."
"I don't care about that. Jus' making an observation, was all. You wear mud very
well, kitten. Make it look beautiful."
"I don't…"
"I have a shower downstairs," Spike said quickly. "Well, not really a shower so
much as something I rigged with a pipe, but it works. Could clean that mud right
off. It's cold water, but…"
Buffy glanced back at the door again, the rain coming down as hard as it had all
night. She had come here because she'd wanted to be with him, had been drawn to
him. If she tried to run now, she knew she'd only be pulled right back. Spike
had her heart, whether she'd wanted to give it to him or not. She walked towards
the door, only to shut it before turning to face Spike again. "Okay."
A relieved grin broke out across Spike's face. "It's downstairs. Come on."
Buffy followed him into the lower level of the crypt. It was dark, and she
reached out, grabbing hold of Spike's arm.
He stopped at the feel of her fingers against his skin. "Can't see, pet?"
"No."
"I'll get some light. Wait here for me?"
Buffy nodded, too nervous to speak, knowing that his vampiric senses would allow
him to see the gesture. As she felt Spike leave, her nervousness rose towards
panic levels. She was standing in the dark in a vampire's crypt. It went against
every bit of her Slayer training. But then Spike was back, carrying with him a
large candle that was just enough to let her see what was right in front of her.
"It's over here, kitten," he said, taking her hand and leading her to the
"shower." He set the candle up on a ledge, then turned on the water. "Should be
enough to rinse the mud off."
Buffy self-consciously wrapped her arms around herself. "Can I have something
for when I finish? No more of Harmony's clothes. Just…maybe a towel?"
Spike smiled. "I can do that. Be back in a few minutes, yeah?"
"Okay…"
When Spike was gone again, Buffy stripped off her wet, mud-covered clothes and
stood under the running water, goosebumps rising to her skin as the cold water
hit her. She tried to work quickly, wanting to rid herself of the mud as quickly
as possible.
Spike got a towel from nearby, but stayed in the dark, watching Buffy as she
rinsed herself off. He knew she'd most likely prefer him to be a little less
voyeuristic, but even the few days that they'd been apart had been too long, and
he missed the sight of her body.
Besides, how could he possibly miss the chance to get an eyeful of wet, naked
Buffy? Add cold to that, and he was damn near in heaven.
Buffy tried to turn off the water, only to bring the cold water down on her
harder. She yelped, jumping back. "Spike!"
He stepped out of the shadows then, turning off the water. "Here, luv," he said
softly, handing her the towel.
"Thanks," Buffy replied, her teeth chattering. She wrapped herself up in the
large, fluffy towel, desperate to get warm again.
Unable to keep himself away from her, Spike walked up behind her, rubbing her
arms through the towel. Even with his lack of body heat, his nearness alone was
enough to warm Buffy up. "Come on, pet," he said softly. "Let's go somewhere to
talk."
He started to lead her back through the dark, but Buffy stayed put. "I still
can't see."
Without a word, Spike lifted her off her feet, Buffy's arms immediately going
around his neck. He smiled to himself at her acceptance of his help. He carried
her to his bed, gently sitting her down on the edge. "Just a moment and I'll get
some light in here for you."
Slowly, the room became more illuminated as Spike lit the candles he had around
his bed. Buffy glanced around, taking in the seemingly mismatched décor of the
room. The area around the bed was quite clearly a crypt, but the bed itself was
lush, large and inviting. She felt safe there, as if it were a haven in this
place of death.
She looked up at Spike, realizing how much the room fit the man. Even in death,
there was warmth. Comfort. She took a deep breath, letting it out slowly. "I
came here to talk to you."
Spike gave her a half smile. "Figure you didn't come just to use my shower."
Buffy looked down at her hands. She could do this. She was the Slayer. She could
be brave. "I think maybe I'm in love with you."
"Maybe?"
Buffy glanced up slightly. His eyebrow was arched, his expression outwardly
stern, but with a hint of amusement under it. "Probably?" Buffy said, her voice
rising.
"Try again, pet."
"Definitely?"
The smile that had been threatening for the past couple of moments finally broke
on Spike's face. "That's more like it."
"And…and you still love me, don't you?"
Her vulnerability now reminded Spike of Elizabeth, and he realized then how much
she'd been the girl beneath the Slayer, desperate for and scared of love at the
same time. He moved slowly, careful not to spook her, and knelt in front of her,
taking her shaking hands in his. "I love you, Buffy. Don't need a soul to tell
me you're a dream come true. You let me in now, I won't let you down. I'll be a
man for you. Can't be a man like William, with a beating heart, but I can do the
best I can."
His words surprised her. Buffy had feared that he wouldn't want her now that he
was back to being a vampire, but she'd never thought that he'd be afraid that
she wouldn't want the vampire. Not because of that anyway. She pulled one of
her hands away from his, caressing his face. "I don't need your heart to beat as
long as it's mine."
"Oh, it is, kitten. It's all yours. Forever."
"Mine's yours, too. It's a little worse for wear, but…"
Spike pressed a soft kiss against her lips. "I'll treasure it, sweetheart. Won't
let it break again."
He pulled back slightly, and Buffy met his eyes, holding her gaze steady with
his as she unwrapped the towel from around her, letting it fall to the floor.
She could see Spike's eyes darken, even in the soft candlelight, and it made a
shiver run up her spine. She crawled backwards up the bed, resting up on the
pillows, waiting for her lover to pounce.
She didn't have to wait long. Spike was on top of her at a speed beyond anything
a human could've been capable of, his mouth and hands seemingly all over her as
he caressed her into a fevered arousal. Buffy clung to him, wondering how she'd
ever thought she could deny herself this. Spike made her feel something that no
other man ever had, stirred a fire deep within her soul. Right or wrong didn't
matter anymore. She was passed that point. She needed him now. She needed him
always.
Spike reveled in the new level of intensity his vampiric senses brought to this
act. In the book, Buffy had smelled and felt wonderful. But now… He was
surrounded by her, drowning in her. The scent of her arousal beckoning to him,
Spike slid down her body, resting his head between her thighs. He closed his
eyes for a moment, breathing her in. The desire was rolling off of her, and it
was because of him.
He lowered his mouth, smiling at the way Buffy's hips shot off the bed at the
first lick. He wasted no time finding her clit, his tongue moving over it
rapidly as he plunged two fingers inside her, pressing them against the spot he
knew would make her scream. He could tease later. Now was about imprinting
himself on her skin, burning himself into her very soul until she could never
try to reject him again.
Spike grew harder at every scream that he ripped from her throat, every whimper
that fell from her lips. But he kept himself in check, wanting this to be about
her. He'd get his pleasure soon enough, but not until he'd driven her wild. She
reached down and took hold of his hair, wrapping the curls around fingers hard
enough to hurt, but he didn't pull away, didn't stop. He only sped up his
movements, pushing her closer to the edge.
Buffy came with a near-primal scream, her fingers pulling so hard that Spike was
surprised his hair wasn't coming out in clumps. He felt her fall slack against
him, but he still didn't stop. Buffy gasped, her hips bucking. "Spike…I can't…"
she said, her voice hoarse.
He ignored her, moving his tongue over her as fast as he could. Buffy clawed
desperately at the comforter, her eyes rolling back in her head. He hadn't
stopped since he'd started, and her last coherent thought before she fell apart
again was that there were definite perks to being with a man that didn't need to
breathe…
Spike licked her slowly, bringing her back down before looking up at her, a smug
smile on his face. "Pleased with yourself?" Buffy asked, panting.
"Should I be?" Spike asked, though his cocky tone belied what he thought the
answer should be.
Buffy didn't disagree. She'd thought he'd been amazing in the book, but that…
"Yeah, as a matter of fact, you should," she said, in too good of a mood to
bother arguing the point.
Spike gave her a quick kiss between her legs before standing up, shedding his
clothes as fast as he could before settling his body over hers. "Gonna let me
in, kitten?"
Buffy replied by locking her legs behind him, pulling him down so their hips
were flush against each other. "Yes. Spike…yes." She reached between them, and
Spike hissed with pleasure when he felt her hand wrap around his cock. Buffy
kept her eyes on his as she guided him inside, both vampire and Slayer crying
out in unison once he was fully sheathed in her warmth. She moved her hands up
and down his back, caressing the rippling muscles as he thrust in and out.
"This…this feels right," Buffy whispered, tears shimmering in her eyes.
"It is right, Buffy. This'll always be right. Never…never do anything to make it
wrong. Can't lose you," Spike said, his voice rough with emotion. Buffy
responded by pulling his mouth down to hers, needing to kiss him, needing to be
even closer.
As his thrusts got harder, their combined movements more frantic, Spike pulled
up, looking back down at her. Buffy saw his eyes flash yellow, and knew he was
fighting to keep his demon reigned in. She thought about what he'd said before
they'd started this, his concern over no longer having a heartbeat for her, and
decided she had to do something for him, to show him it was all right. Having
him now, inside her, she knew he was the same man she'd been with every time in
the book. This was her Spike and her William.
He was her husband.
She needed that bond with him, needed it to be here what it was in the book. And
despite her plans under Willow's spell the year before, a legal wedding ceremony
with a vampire wasn't exactly in the realm of possibilities. Besides, she needed
more than that. She needed to be his, for him to be hers. She needed assurance,
both for him and herself.
She needed to know he'd never leave, never break her. She needed him to know she
could accept that outside the book, he was a vampire.
She pushed up slightly on his chest, halting his movements. "Spike…"
He looked down at her, brow furrowed. "Buffy? Do…do you want me to stop? Have
you changed…"
Buffy pressed a finger to his lips, silencing him. "No. None of that. I…I want
you to claim me."
Spike's eyes widened. "You want me to what?"
"I want you to claim me."
"Buffy…pet…do you know what a claim is?"
Buffy rolled her eyes. "Duh, Spike. I wouldn't ask you if I didn't know what it
was. I do pay some attention to my Slayer training. A claim's a blood bond
between mates. It would bind us together. Right?"
"That's the simplified version."
"And…and it would be like a marriage?"
Spike pulled out of her and rolled over to the side, despite the extreme protest
his body gave at that. He couldn't respond to her request rationally when he was
buried inside her heat. "That what this is about? You want what we had in the
book and think this is the only way to get it?"
"Not really." Buffy rolled over, looking him in the eye. "Well, maybe a little.
But I…I want to be your mate, too."
"You do realize this is a forever thing. Once a claim's in place, that's it.
Tied to each other for all eternity."
"I know. I want forever, Spike."
And he did, too. More than he could ever tell her. But the idea that Buffy would
really want that from him was something in the realm of unbelievable. Ever since
she'd shown up that night, he'd been expecting her to run off, and now she was
asking for this? It was too good to be true. All Spike could figure was that she
was caught up in the moment and didn't know what she was talking about. "No
vampire's ever claimed a Slayer, pet. And vampire-human claims are rare.
Usually, the vampire turns the human."
"We could be the first."
"Buffy, I…"
"Please, Spike. I need this."
"It's forever, Buffy…" he stressed again.
"That's what I want! I told you that. I already pledged myself to you on that
ship, Spike. In my heart, I'm your wife. But I'm still scared. I can't help it.
I need…I need assurance."
"And that's why you want a claim? Proof that I won't go away?"
"More than that. I need you. I need you to be a part of me."
"You already are a part of me, Buffy," he said softly, pushing her hair back
from her face. "Nothing can change that."
"So let's make it official. I know what I'm asking for, Spike."
Spike gave her a sad smile. "Can't, luv. Chip won't let me. Claims require a
bite."
"I know. But…but I think the chip would let you. It…it wouldn't be an act
of violence. It would be an act of love."
The temptation was strong. Too strong. He couldn't turn her down. Even if she
was wrong, and the chip turned his brain to a sticky paste, he couldn't stop
himself from taking what she'd offered. The demon in him wanted it as much as
the man, if not more. This would make her his. Nothing could take her away from
him ever again, not even Buffy herself. It would be forever.
Just like William had promised her…
Spike moved back over her, positioning himself at her entrance. Buffy guided him
in again, the determination on her face never wavering. Spike tried to move
slowly, to savor the moment, but her talk of a claim had brought the demon too
close to the surface. His bones shifted, his eyes now a feral yellow. He drove
into her body with a near-bruising force, shaking Buffy to her very core. She
clung to him as she tilted her neck, giving him access.
"Take it. It's yours," she said, tightening her grip on him.
Spike snarled, the demon in almost full force now. The woman he'd chosen as his
mate was offering her neck to him for the first time. And he was taking.
He lowered his head, sinking his fangs into her with a gentleness that surprised
Buffy. The demon didn't want to rip and tear her. It wanted to love her, the
same as the man did. The slice of his fangs against her skin brought her nothing
but pleasure, and she cried out in orgasm as he drank from her neck.
"Mine," Spike growled, licking the wounds. As he spoke the words, the scars left
by other vampires in the past faded away, leaving only Spike's marks.
He pulled away as he felt the fluttering of her internal muscles slowing, his
human face slipping back into place as he met her eyes again. "You need to
complete the claim, pet," he said. "Can you do that? Can you bite me?"
Buffy lunged forward immediately, biting hard enough for her human teeth to draw
blood. Spike's hips jerked and spasmed as he let go inside of her, filling her.
"Mine," Buffy said, licking the marks she'd made. She pulled away from his neck
and watched with satisfaction as Drusilla's marks faded as well. He was hers
now.
Spike rolled over, pulling her with him. He held her close, still nestled in her
depths. They were silent for a long while before Spike asked her what was
running over and over again in his mind.
"Any regrets?"
"No. I feel…calm. Like I did back on the island. Things are back the way they
should be."
Spike felt relief wash over him at her words. "They are, kitten."
"Although you know we're going to have to find a new place to live. I mean, as
nice as this place is, it's still a crypt. And I don't want us to live with my
mom. Not with all the loud, rowdy sex I plan on us having."
Spike blinked. "You want us to move in together?"
"Well, yeah." Buffy frowned. "Don't you?"
"Of course! I just…I didn't think you would."
"We're mated, Spike. I need you here. Besides, it's not a good sign for a
marriage if you're living in different places."
"No, guess it isn't. I…I can't believe this is real. Keep expecting to wake up,
you know. Yesterday you were pushing me away and now we're mated? What changed,
luv?"
"Had to let myself let you in. I knew tonight I couldn't fight it. And I didn't
want to try anymore. It was making me miserable."
"And you're happy now?"
"Yeah. I am." Buffy nuzzled up to his neck, giving the bite marks she'd left a
long, slow lick.
Spike shivered, a deep growl rumbling through his chest. "Hope you weren't
planning on sleeping tonight."
Buffy looked at him, her expression making him growl again. "Come on, vampire.
Show this Slayer what you've got."
*** *** ***
Thanks very much to everyone who's left a review. I've been really pushing
through this fic despite how busy I've been lately, and your encouragement is
what's kept me going.
Although I must say to those of you who threatened my life after the last
cliffhanger—how can I finish the fic if I'm dead? lol
Chapter 22:
Buffy woke up feeling content for the first time since she'd been pulled from
the book. She looked beside her, smiling at the sight of Spike there. Her
lover…her husband…her mate.
She felt different now that the claim had taken place, as if Spike was really a
part of her. She could feel his presence, a warm tingle on the edges of her
mind. And his love… She could feel that so strongly it almost overwhelmed her.
It seemed strange to her that a soulless creature could feel so much, but she'd
never doubt it again. Spike's love was strong, and more real that anything she'd
ever known in the past.
His eyes opened slowly and he smiled as soon as he saw her. "Good morning, luv,"
he said, his voice husky, making her tremble.
"It's definitely one of those," Buffy said, snuggling closer to him.
Spike chuckled. "Glad to hear it." Then he gave her a small pout. "No kiss
then?"
Buffy responded by grabbing him and pulling him against her lips, kissing him
hard. Spike groaned, wrapping his arms tightly around him. When she finally
pulled back for air, Buffy grinned. "How was that?"
"Nice start, but I think we could do a little better," Spike replied, rolling
her over so she was pinned beneath him.
"So is this how I'm going to wake up every morning?" Buffy asked.
"Will be if I have anything to say about it."
"You have lots to say about it," Buffy promised, reaching up to run her hand
along his sharp cheekbone.
"Good," Spike replied, leaning in to nuzzle against the marks he'd made on her
neck the night before. Buffy shivered at the contact, her whole body responding
to the nearness of her mate. "I hope you know," Spike began, moving his lips up
to her ear and whispering hotly, "that I have no intention of letting you out of
this bed all day."
Buffy couldn't help the moan that escaped her in response. "Sounds…god, that
sounds good."
Spike nipped at her earlobe. "Mmm hmm. I thought so, too."
She pushed gently on his chest until she could see his face again. "But after
sundown, we need to go out, okay?"
Spike frowned. "Where? Patrol?"
"No. Though that probably wouldn't be a bad idea… We just…we need to let the
others know what's going on."
"You want to tell your friends we're mated?" Spike asked in surprise.
"Well, yeah. I mean, they're gonna notice when we can't keep our hands off each
other. And Giles will probably know that these aren't just any bite marks I'm
sporting. But also, I need to tell my mom. I can't wait days to tell her her
oldest daughter is married."
Despite the fact that getting out of the bed with Buffy sounded like one of the
most unappealing things ever in Spike's book, he was thrilled by the idea that
she wanted to go public with their relationship. Even with the claim and her
talk of wanting to move in with him, he was afraid that she wouldn't want to
admit what they had—at least not how serious it was. "So we what, go tell your
mum, then call a Scooby meeting?"
"Yeah. Is…is that okay with you? I mean, if you don't want it getting out that
you're mated to me, then…"
"What? Why would I not want people to know that?"
"Well, you're already unpopular enough with the demon crowd. This would make it
worse."
"Sod them. Any demon tries to harass us, I'll just kill it. Besides, whether we
announce it or not, sweetheart, they're gonna know. That's part of a claim.
Every demon out there is going to know you're my mate." He snaked his arm behind
her back, pulling her against him. "And I'm damn proud of that."
Spike's mouth descended back to her neck, nibbling and licking the marks, and
Buffy let herself be swept away in his arms.
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"Oh god, Spike, I'm nervous. Maybe this isn't such a good idea. Maybe we should
just go." Buffy turned around, starting to walk off her front porch.
Spike grabbed her arm, pulling her back. "Uh uh, Slayer. We already decided
we're telling your mum. And I got out of a nice, comfy bed—complete with naked
mate, I might add—for this, so we're going through with it."
"But what if she's not okay with it? I mean, last night, she told me I should be
with the person I love, but…"
"Your mum said that?"
"Yeah."
"And she knew that was me?"
Buffy rolled her eyes. "Yes, doofus. Apparently she likes you or something.
Anyway, what if she didn't mean it? Or what if knowing I've been claimed by a
vampire freaks her out? Or…or what if she's mad we didn't invite her to the
wedding?"
"Buffy, kitten, we got married in a mystical book. We couldn't have invited her
if we tried. And as for our 'wedding' last night, I don't think that's exactly
something you would've wanted your mother there for…"
"Okay, good points there. But…but there's still the claim. She could wig."
"She could. Or she could be incredibly happy for us. How about we go in and find
out, yeah?"
Buffy took a deep breath. "Okay. But keep in mind we might have to make a break
for it."
Spike chuckled. "I will. But I think it'll be all right." He kissed her
forehead. "Joyce just wants you to be happy, pet."
Buffy swallowed, taking her keys out of her pocket. She opened the door,
stepping into the foyer. "Mom? Dawn?"
Joyce came in a few moments later. "Buffy? Where have you been all day, I…" She
stopped when she saw Spike step inside behind her daughter. "Oh," she said, a
knowing look on her face. "I see."
"Mom, Spike and I have something to tell you. And Dawn. Is she here?"
"She's upstairs," Joyce replied. "Why don't the two of you take a seat in the
living room, and I'll get her."
Buffy and Spike went into the living room, sitting on the couch. Buffy couldn't
believe how nervous she was at the thought of a conversation with her mother.
All she could think about was what if Joyce freaked out at the idea of Spike
placing a claim on her. Would her mother be able to handle that she'd willingly
allowed a vampire to bite her? Would that make her change her mind about
accepting Buffy's relationship with Spike?
Spike took her hand, caressing it with his thumb. She felt a wave of calmness
wash over her, and she realized it was coming from him. She reached up with her
free hand and fingered the marks on her neck. "Is that coming through the
claim?"
"Yeah." Spike brought her hand to his mouth, pressing a kiss against her skin.
"It's going to be all right, luv. I'm right here."
"I love you, Spike."
"I love you, too."
Joyce came into the living room, Dawn bouncing behind her. "Are you two
together?" Dawn asked, running in to sit on the couch next to her sister. "Is
that your news? Is it?"
Buffy couldn't help but smile at her little sister's enthusiasm. "Yes, as a
matter of fact it is."
Dawn squealed, jumping up to give both Buffy and Spike a hug. "This is great! I
knew you two would get together! You're just too perfect a couple not to be!
This is the best thing ever!"
"There's a little more," Buffy said. "Mom, you might want to sit down."
Joyce's eyes widened a little. "You're not pregnant, are you? Wait, vampires
can't have babies—can they?"
"No, and, um, no," Buffy said.
Joyce sat down in the chair by the couch. "What is it? Dawn, sweetie, calm
down." Dawn pouted, flopping back on the couch with her arms crossed.
"Spike and I are, well, we're, um…we're…"
"We're mated, Joyce," Spike supplied, seeing Buffy's difficulty with the word.
"Mated?" Joyce frowned. "I'm sorry, I don't understand."
"Sounds like something you'd hear about on the Discovery Channel," Dawn said,
her comment making Buffy blush.
"It's a vampire ritual," Spike said. He tried to think of the best way to
explain it to Joyce, and decided to go with the simplest. "It's like a
marriage."
"A marriage? You're married to my daughter?"
"In a manner of speaking."
"We were married in the book," Buffy said. "I…I wanted that back. And a claim is
what a vampire has in place of a marriage."
Joyce's gaze fell to the marks on Buffy's neck for the first time since Buffy
and Spike had come in. "Buffy, are…are you a vampire?"
"No, Mom. I'm not." She gave her mother a small smile. "You didn't have to
invite me in, remember?"
Joyce placed a hand against her own neck. "But…"
"The bite was part of the claim," Spike said, his gaze pointed down, unable to
look Joyce in the eye.
"Spike, I don't believe I like the idea of you biting my daughter."
"Bet Buffy liked it," Dawn muttered.
"Dawn!" Joyce exclaimed.
"What?" Dawn replied. "Haven't you ever seen a vampire movie? The women are
always all swoony when they get bitten by the sexy vampire guy."
Buffy's face reddened further as she and Spike stared at the floor together.
"I don't know about any of this," Joyce said. "I want you to be happy, and if
you love Spike, then I can accept you being with him, but bites? Claims? And
marriage! I would've liked you to have finished college first."
Buffy looked up. "I am going to finish college. Spike won't stop me from doing
that."
"And where are you going to live? This is awfully sudden, Buffy. You haven't
planned any of this."
"I know, but…we were going to look for an apartment together," Buffy replied.
"Where? And how will you pay for it?"
"I have money," Spike said. All three pairs of Summers eyes turned to look at
him.
"You do?" Buffy asked.
Spike shrugged. "Well, yeah. You can amass a nice little fortune in a century if
you play your cards right. And I do mean that in a very literal sense."
"You gamble?" Buffy said with a frown.
"I'm not sure that's a trait I like in a son-in-law," Joyce said, her expression
eerily similar to her daughter's.
"I can quit," Spike said. "I have a nice little nest egg saved anyway."
Buffy crossed her arms in front of her. "If you have money, why were you always
conning it out of us?"
Spike shrugged. "It was fun."
"Jerk!" Buffy exclaimed, smacking him hard on the arm.
"Oi! That was before. Not like I'm going to do it anymore."
"I think we're forgetting the important issue here," Dawn said loudly. "Spike
and Buffy are married. Hey, does that make you my brother-in-law?"
Spike shrugged. "I suppose."
"That's totally cool! I've always wanted a big brother." Dawn shot Buffy a look.
"I know it has to be better than having a big sister."
"You are such a brat," Buffy replied.
Joyce sighed heavily, bringing the attention back to her. "Spike, I like you.
You're…the nicest vampire I've ever met. And I would've been fine with the two
of you dating for a while, at least until Buffy was done with school, but…"
"That wouldn't have been enough, Mom," Buffy cut in. "I know it seems sudden to
you, but it isn't to us. We had a whole relationship in that book. We were
stranded together on an island for who knows how long. We fought for out
lives—and our love—time and time again. And we were married. I pledged myself to
him forever. To be with Spike out here in the real world, I had to have all of
that again. I couldn't have him be my husband one day and my boyfriend the next.
It would've broken my heart."
Joyce looked back and forth between the two blonds sitting on her couch. Their
hands were linked together so casually that she wondered if they were even aware
of it. It looked like a natural state for both of them, as if there was a
connection between them that had to be made physical somehow. And while it would
take some getting used to, she could understand what Buffy was saying. "How…how
permanent is this claim thing?"
"It's permanent," Spike said. "We're bound. Forever."
"So I guess you're sure this is what you want, Buffy?"
"Positive." Buffy gave Spike's hand a gentle squeeze. "I love Spike. And he
loves me. After what we've shared, what we've been through…I couldn't live any
other way."
"I won't hurt her, Joyce," Spike said. "Vampires fiercely protect their mates.
Buffy is the most important thing in the world to me. Her safety and happiness
come before all else."
"And this doesn't change her in any way? No offense to you, Spike, but I don't
want my daughter to be a vampire."
"I'd never turn her," Spike said, the conviction in his voice startling
Buffy. "I don't want a demon. I want your daughter. Exactly the way she is. The
bit the Watchers' Council feeds the Slayers about the human being gone
completely from a vampire, that's not true, but it does change a person." He
swallowed hard. "I've…I've seen it. I'd never do that to Buffy. I'd dust first."
"They're happy, Mom," Dawn said. "And they love each other. I told you that days
ago."
Joyce sighed again. "I can't say I'm completely over the shock of all of this,
but…" She stood up, holding her arms out to her daughter. "Congratulations,
honey."
Buffy's smile lit up her entire face as she jumped up and embraced her mother.
"Thanks, Mom."
"You, too, Spike," Joyce said as Buffy moved out of her arms. Spike moved
tentatively, and Joyce pulled him into a hug. "Welcome to the family."
"Thank you, Joyce."
Dawn jumped up, bouncing in place. "This is so awesome!" She hugged both Buffy
and Spike again. "I have to call all my friends and tell them my big sister
married the coolest guy ever." She ran up the stairs, the door to her room
slamming shut moments later.
"I think she likes you," Buffy said with a smirk.
"Yeah, sorta gathered that, ducks."
"So did you two have any plans tonight?" Joyce asked.
"We stopped by the payphone on the way over here to call Giles," Buffy said.
"Scooby meeting—to break the news."
"I keep telling her we should do it some other way," Spike said. "Possibly write
them a letter from Siberia."
Buffy elbowed her mate. "Shut up, you." She turned to her mother. "He thinks
they're going to stake him."
"They better not!" Joyce exclaimed. "I wouldn't appreciate someone staking my
son-in-law."
"Thanks, Joyce," Spike said.
Joyce let out a deep breath. "I know you two already had the wedding, and I
don't even want to think about what that claiming ritual entailed, but…would you
let me throw a reception for you at least? It wouldn't have to be anything big.
I just…well, I'm your mother, and I want to have something. Show off my
newly-married daughter?"
Spike and Buffy shared a look. Spike nodded, and Buffy looked back at Joyce.
"Sure. Just tell us when and where, and we'll be there."
"I can set something up at the gallery Sunday. Save me from having my house full
of people."
"Sounds lovely, Joyce," Spike said. "Thank you."
"Well, you better get to your meeting," Joyce said, stepping back slightly from
the couple. "Would you like to come over for dinner afterwards?" She looked
quickly at Spike, as if suddenly remembering something. "I don't have any blood.
But I can keep some in the freezer from now on. For when you visit." Joyce
turned to Buffy. "You will be visiting, won't you?"
"Of course we will!" Buffy said. "You'll get sick of us, I promise."
Spike rested his hand on Joyce's arm. "We'd love to come to dinner. And don't
worry about not having any blood. I can enjoy a human meal, too."
Joyce smiled. "Okay, good. Although I'm afraid I don't have much in the house. I
need to go shopping. I was just thawing some chicken wings when you showed up,
but I could…"
Spike's eyes lit up. "Those would be fine."
Buffy rolled her eyes. "Spike will be plenty happy with that, Mom. Believe me."
"All right. Then you two meet with Buffy's friends, and I'll make dinner." Joyce
hugged Buffy again. "See you soon, honey."
"Okay." Buffy held on to her mother a moment longer. "I love you, Mommy."
"I love you, too, Buffy."
*** *** ***
Buffy stood with Spike on the porch, her fingers laced with his.
"See, kitten, that went well. Nothing to worry about at all."
"Yeah, it did." Buffy looked up at him. "I sorta wish it hadn't."
"Why's that?"
"Because we blew all our luck. I'm starting to think maybe your letter from
Siberia idea isn't so bad after all…"
Spike turned her to face him, putting his hands on her shoulders. "Listen to me,
Buffy. It may take some time, but your friends are going to accept this."
"What makes you so sure?"
"Because I'm in your life now, Buffy. We're mated. Nothing can change that. If
they want to be in your life, too, they're going to have to learn to deal with
that."
"But what if it's too much for them? What if it makes them hate me?"
"It won't, kitten. I promise you. Your mates love you."
"Are you positive?" Buffy asked, her voice small.
"Would I lie to you?"
"Probably."
Spike arched his eyebrow. "When do I lie to you?"
Buffy frowned. "Actually, now that you mention it, you tend to be more like
brutally honest."
"See?" Spike said. "I'm quite trustworthy. You know, for being evil." Buffy
chuckled. "Knew I could get a laugh."
Buffy kissed his cheek. "Let's get this over with. The sooner they know, the
sooner we can get on with our life together."
"Then let's go, pet."
*** *** ***
Chapter 23:
The others were already there when Buffy and Spike walked into the Magic Box.
Their eyes all turned towards the couple as soon as they came in, and Buffy felt
herself fill with cold dread. Never in her life had she been less excited at the
prospect of talking to her friends.
"Ooh, you're here," Anya said, breaking the short but awkward silence that
followed Buffy and Spike's entrance. She came around quickly from behind the
counter and went to Buffy, dropping something in her hand. "I found this when I
was cleaning earlier. I think it's yours."
Buffy's eyes grew wide as she saw what it was, a smile spreading over her face.
"It's my… How?"
Anya shrugged. "Must've fallen out of the book. I thought that's what it was,
from the description I read, and I figured you'd probably want it."
"I do! Thank you. It means so much to me to have it back."
"What is it?" Xander asked, trying to look over from the table without getting
up and see what Buffy had.
"It's my wedding ring," Buffy said softly, staring down at it.
"Your what?" Xander asked, leaping to his feet. "Why on earth do you have
a wedding ring?"
"Xander, I told you Buffy and Spike got married in the book," Anya said.
Xander replied with a wild look in his eyes, "No. No! You said William and
Elizabeth got married in the book. And that wasn't real. That ring looks real to
me. Why is that ring real?"
Buffy looked up at Spike, then slipped her hand in his for support. "That's why
we wanted to talk to all of you. See, that marriage in the book, well, um, it
felt real to us. So we found a way to make it real here, too." She took a deep
breath, deciding to make telling them like pulling off a band-aid. "Spike
claimed me."
The only sound in the room was that of Giles's glasses shattering as he whipped
them off his face so quickly he accidentally flung them to the ground. After a
moment, Xander spoke.
"What the hell is a claim?"
"It's a special kind of bite in which the vampire makes a mate his for all
eternity. It's very rare, but is viewed throughout the demon community as a sign
of eternal devotion," Anya replied, sounding very much like a demonology
encyclopedia.
Xander, however, did not like the answer. "You bit her? You bit Buffy?!"
he screamed at Spike. "You bastard!" He lunged at the vampire, knocking him to
the ground and hitting him in the face.
Buffy didn't hesitate. She grabbed Xander, throwing him off of Spike. "Stay away
from my mate," she said, her voice almost a growl.
Buffy knelt down beside Spike, helping him up as Anya went to Xander. "That
wasn't very smart," the ex-demon told her boyfriend. "Attacking a claimed mate
like that is just asking for trouble. If you'd put Spike in enough danger, Buffy
could've killed you."
"Giles! Do something about this!" Xander said, pushing himself up without the
help Anya that was offering. "He's done something to Buffy that has made her
into a killer."
"That's not what I said!" Anya protested. "You twisted that."
"There's nothing I can do, Xander," Giles said, his tone cold. "What Buffy has
done can never be undone. It's a mistake she will have to live with for a very,
very long time."
Buffy turned slowly towards Giles. "Mistake?" she said softly. "Giles, please
don't…"
"Do not ask me to approve of this," Giles said.
"But…"
"No!" Giles snapped. "You are the Slayer. What you have done is…well, I don't
think disappointing is quite strong enough of a word."
Tears were forming in Buffy's eyes. She'd known she'd meet with resistance, but
the way Giles was talking to her now… "Giles…"
"I can't…I can't look at you right now," Giles said, before walking out of the
shop, the door slamming behind him.
Spike wrapped his arm around Buffy, pulling her to him and letting her cry on
his chest.
"Don't touch her," Xander snapped.
Spike's eyes flashed yellow for a moment as he fought to reign in his demon's
reaction. "Don't tell me not to touch my mate. She needs comfort right now."
"Oh, and like you can give it to her? You're the reason she's hurting right
now," Xander sneered.
"Me?" Spike snarled at Xander. "You're the one hurting her, you git."
Xander's eyes narrowed. "When Buffy comes to her senses, you're dust. Come on
Anya, we're leaving."
"No, I'm not," Anya replied. "I have inventory to do. Besides, I think a claim
is very romantic, and I'm going to be supportive of Buffy and Spike." She
crossed her arms in front of her. "That book was a beautiful love story, and I
for one am quite happy to know that their love is still strong."
"Fine," Xander replied, angrily, storming out of the Magic Box.
Buffy turned her head away from Spike's chest, though she kept her arms wrapped
tightly around him. "Willow?"
Willow was sitting at the table, frowning. "I don't know, Buffy. You and
Spike…that just seems wrong to me. And he's bitten you? I don't get that."
"I love him," Buffy explained.
Willow stood up. "I'm sorry, Buffy. I'm just going to have to have some time
here. I need to think about how I feel about this."
Buffy nodded, not sure of what to say. She'd wanted Willow's support, but at
least she wasn't condemning it quite the way Giles and Xander had. "Okay."
"I'm heading back to the dorm. Tara?"
Tara glanced between Spike and Buffy and Willow. "I'll catch up in a minute,
okay?"
"Sure," Willow replied. She gave Buffy a quick glance before walking out.
Tara got up then, slowly approaching the couple. "I…I just wanted to let you
know that, um, your auras…together… They're…they're really beautiful."
Buffy felt her eyes tear up again, although this time for a different reason.
"Thank you."
"From me, too, Glinda," Spike added. "Thanks."
"They'll come around," Tara said. "Or at least Willow will. She's
just…surprised, I think. But I'll talk to her for you. I can see how much love
you have for each other. It's brighter than I've ever seen before."
Buffy broke away from Spike to hug the other girl. "Thank you. That means a lot
to me."
Tara nodded as Buffy pulled away. "Congratulations. Really."
"My mom's throwing us a reception at her gallery on Sunday. Can you be there?"
Buffy asked Tara. She looked over at Anya. "You, too."
"I'll be there," Tara said. "And Willow will be, too."
"I'll show up," Anya said. "Can't promise Xander, though. He's being a jerk.
Although I might be able to blackmail him by telling him he can't have any
orgasms from me unless he does."
Buffy smiled slightly at that. "Thanks for the thought. But if he doesn't want
to be there, well, I'd rather he wasn't."
Anya put her hand gently on Buffy's arm, a move that surprised the Slayer. "I'm
sorry. About him. He just…he doesn't get it. I've stopped trying to talk to him
about these things. He doesn't like thinking about me as a demon. But I am sorry
for you and Spike. A claim—it's a big thing. You shouldn't have any pain
associated with it."
"Thank you. Both of you," Buffy said. "It's nice to know I still have friends."
"Your mom's throwing the reception? Does that mean she took it well?" Tara
asked.
"She wigged a bit at first, but she's accepting it," Buffy said. "She didn't
like the biting thing."
"That's because she's never been bitten by a vampire during sex," Anya said. She
leaned in and whispered to Tara, "It's very erotic."
Tara blushed. "I…I bet," she said, looking down. She glanced up a little then,
although she couldn't quite look at Spike directly. "I should go catch up with
Willow. Start that whole working on her thing."
"All right. Thanks again for your support," Buffy said.
"I couldn't not support you," Tara said. "Not with what I can see."
"Still means a lot," Spike said. "To me, too. I know how important Buffy's
friends are to her. Don't much care for driving a wedge between her and them.
Not that I'd really mind if Xander decided to move to Siberia on a permanent
basis or anything, but I don't want Buffy to be hurt."
"I can see that," Tara said. "Your love for her radiates from you. I'll explain
it to Willow. She should understand. This just took her by surprise. And we'll
see you at the reception."
"Okay. Have a good night, Tara," Buffy said.
"You guys, too," Tara replied, smiling at the other three before she left.
"I'm going to go do some work," Anya said. "I'm angry with Xander, and working
makes me feel better. Not quite as much as sex, but I don't want him touching me
right now."
"I'm sorry. For causing trouble between you and Xander. I didn't mean to do
that," Buffy said.
"You didn't, Buffy," Anya replied. "Xander did. He's the one being a total
dumbass."
"Still, I…"
"Don't finish that sentence," Anya said. "Buffy, in all my years as a vengeance
demon, do you know how many wishes I had to grant for a vampire's mate? None.
Not a once did a woman who had been claimed by a vampire, be her vampire or
human, require my services. Like I said earlier, vampiric claims are rare. But
if they're made, they're taken very seriously. If Spike has claimed you, then I
know that he loves you, and he will do everything in his power to make you
happy. Xander's your friend. He should be happy to know his friend is going to
be loved that dearly for the rest of her existence. It's a cause for
celebration, not anger and threats."
"I…I'm feeling really bad for being kinda bitchy to you for the past couple of
years," Buffy said.
"Eh, don't. I'm bitchy to you, too. It's how we relate. Now are you going to
stand here all night, or can I go count my money?"
"We're going to have dinner with my mom," Buffy said.
"Good. Call me with the time of the reception later?"
"Sure. When my mother sets one," Buffy replied.
"All right. Bye now," Anya said with a bright smile before walking off to the
back of the store.
"I'm sorry that didn't go very well, sweetheart," Spike said softly. "I can feel
how much you hurt through the claim."
"I expected that from Xander," Buffy said. "And I can't say I'm all that
surprised by Willow's reaction either. I think Tara's right about her coming
around soon anyway. But Giles…" She fought back the fresh onslaught of tears
that threatened to break. "I disappointed him, Spike. I didn't want to do that.
Not ever again."
"Hey. Listen to me. If anyone here should be disappointed, it's you. What he
said to you tonight, that's now how you talk to someone who's like a daughter to
you. Look at your mum. It bothered her a bit, yeah, but she accepts it because
it makes you happy. And she trusts that you can make this sort of decision about
your own life. Giles should give you the same courtesy."
"I don't know, Spike, I just…"
"Are you having second thoughts about this?"
Buffy's eyes went wide. "What! No! Please, don't think that. I don't regret what
we have, Spike. I never will." She opened up her hand, where she'd kept the ring
tightly inside since Anya gave it to her. "Put this back where it belongs?"
Spike nodded, her request and adamant defense of her choice to be with him
making him choked with emotion. He took the ring from her and slid it on her
left ring finger. "I love you, Buffy Anne Summers."
"And I love you, too, William whatever-the-rest-of-your-name-is."
Spike chuckled, then kissed the top of her head. "Ready to go to your mum's
then?"
"Yes. Let's get out of this place."
*** *** ***
Joyce was finishing dinner when Buffy came into the kitchen. She opened the
cabinets, getting out a ziplock bag before taking it to the freezer and filling
it with ice.
"Who hit Spike?" Joyce asked as she figured out her daughter was putting
together an ice pack.
"Xander," Buffy said, wrapping a towel around the baggie of ice. "Gave him a
black eye. Spike says the ice won't really do anything for him, and his vampire
healing will take care of it soon enough anyway, but I feel like I have to do
something."
"Of course you do, honey. He is your husband after all."
Buffy smiled. "Yeah, he is. Oooh!" She put the ice pack down on the kitchen
island. "Anya found my ring!"
"Your ring?"
"Yeah. My wedding ring, from the book. Anya found it when she was cleaning up in
the Magic Box. I don't know how it got here, but I'm so happy it did." Buffy
held out her hand for Joyce to see.
"Oh, honey, that's lovely," Joyce said, taking a good look at the emerald.
"Spike told me it was almost as beautiful as my eyes," Buffy said.
"Spike sounds like he has quite a romantic streak."
"He does," Buffy said. "At first I thought it was just the effects of the book,
but now I know it's more than that. At night, when we were on the island, he'd
recite me poetry until I fell asleep."
"That it. He's a keeper," Joyce said with a teasing smile.
Buffy giggled. "He is, isn't he?"
Joyce regarded her daughter. There was a spark back in her eyes that she hadn't
seen since before they'd left Los Angeles. Buffy looked…happy. "Yeah, he is. Now
go take care of his eye while I put dinner on the table, okay?"
"Okay." Buffy picked up the ice pack and walked out of the kitchen, feeling much
better than she had when she'd left the Magic Box. The rejection of three of her
friends stung, but she could survive. They'd come around, or they wouldn't. She
stopped in the doorway of the living room for a moment, watching with a smile as
Dawn talked to Spike animatedly about the reactions of all of her friends when
she'd told them her sister had gotten married. Buffy knew then that whatever
happened with Giles, Willow, and Xander, she'd still have people who loved her.
Her sister. Her mother. Her husband.
She'd still have her family.
*** *** ***
Chapter 24:
Xander watched as Anya went into his closet, pulled out a wad of sheets and a
pillow, and deposited them on the couch. "Ahn, what are you doing?" he asked.
"You're sleeping on the couch."
"Huh?"
"I said, you're sleeping on the couch. I don't much feel like sharing a bed with
you tonight."
"Then go home."
"No. I want you to sleep on the couch. It's a time-honored punishment for men
who have upset their wives or girlfriends. Once, I cursed this guy to sleep on
the most uncomfortable couch in the world for all eternity."
Xander blanched. "This is insane!"
"So is you being all mean to Buffy and Spike."
"What?! Anya, Buffy's letting Spike bite her. And doing other things with him
that I can't even begin to think about."
"Then don't think about it. It's none of your business. And he isn't feeding off
her, Xander. It was a claiming bite."
"A bite is a bite! There's only one reason why a vampire would sink his fangs
into a Slayer!"
"Oh, so you're a vampire expert now?" Anya asked sarcastically, her hands on her
hips.
"I've been fighting them for five years. I think I know a thing or two about
them!" Xander exclaimed.
"A thing or two, maybe. But everything? No. I've known quite a few vampires in
my time, and I know from personal experience that there is more than one kind of
vampire bite."
"I don't want to hear that."
"You don't want to hear a lot of things. But that doesn't make them any less
real. Buffy and Spike are mated. If you want to be Buffy's friend, then you're
going to have to learn to live with that."
"I can't do that! It's disgusting, her doing that with a demon."
Anger flared in Anya's eyes, and she slapped Xander hard across the face.
"Ow!" Xander cried out, reaching up to stroke his sore cheek. "What was that
for?"
"Is what we have disgusting, Xander? Is that what you think of our love?"
"No! But we're different. You're not a demon anymore."
"So if I was still a vengeance demon, you couldn't love me? If I'd never become
a human again, you couldn't still love me for the person I am?"
Xander stared at her. The phrase "you wouldn't be a person" was on the tip of
his tongue, but he stopped himself before he said it. He'd never thought of that
before, where he'd be if Anya had stayed a demon. Would he have fallen in love
with her? Part of him wanted to say no, he could never love a demon, but at the
same time he couldn't imagine Anya not in his life. "I don't know," he said
finally.
"Then maybe you should figure it out," Anya snapped before going into his
bedroom and locking the door behind her.
Xander sighed and started fixing himself a bed on the couch.
*** *** ***
Spike woke up to the sound of Buffy crying. They'd decided to stay there at her
mother's that night, and while she'd gone to bed in a good enough mood, Spike
had felt her anxiousness coming through the claim. It infuriated Spike that her
friends would do this to her and then have the nerve to call him evil.
He leaned over and kissed her shoulder. "Sweetheart?" When she didn't respond,
he pulled her closer to him, her back to his front. "Buffy?"
"What?" she said, obviously trying to keep the tears out of her voice, though
Spike could still hear them. "I told you I didn't want to have sex with my
mother in the house."
"Not pushing for that, kitten. You're upset. Thought you might need a little
comfort."
Buffy turned in his arms then, burying her head against his chest. Spike held on
to her, and her cries turned into sobs. "He couldn't look at me, Spike," Buffy
said, the pain in her voice making Spike's heart break. "Giles couldn't look at
me."
"Shh. Watcher didn't mean that, pet. He was just upset."
Buffy looked up, her face stained from crying. "Yes he did. Giles hates me. I
disgust him."
"No. There's not a bloody thing disgusting about you. He's the one in the wrong
here."
"But it hurts, Spike. It hurts so much."
"I know, baby," Spike said, guiding her head back down to his chest. He stroked
her hair and back, murmuring softly to her until she fell asleep again.
He glanced over her head at the alarm clock beside her bed. He still had a
little time before daybreak, although he'd be pushing it. Still, it was worth
the chance that he might get stuck somewhere for the day. His girl was hurting,
and he needed to fix it.
*** *** ***
"You know, leaving your door unlocked in a town like Sunnydale, not the
brightest idea. All sorts of monsters could just wander right in here."
Giles looked up, his eyes narrowing as he saw Spike standing in his doorway.
"Most monsters don't have an invitation."
Spike took another step into the apartment, wrinkling his nose. If the empty
bottles and glasses weren't evidence enough of what Giles had been up to since
he'd left the Magic Box earlier, the stench of too much alcohol rolling off the
Watcher certainly was. "Well, I do. And we're going to have a little
conversation."
Giles grabbed a stake that was on his desk, standing up shakily as he pointed
the weapon at Spike. "The only 'conversation' I want to have with you, Spike,
doesn't involve words."
"You're gonna want to put that down, Watcher," Spike said, his tone icily calm.
"You know what that'll do to Buffy."
Giles let the stake fall to the ground. "I should've pushed you out into the
sunlight the moment you came to my door seeking help. I never should've let you
get this close to Buffy."
"Wasn't your call. You didn't let her do anything. Buffy made the choice
to let me close."
"And you wasted no time in taking advantage of that error in judgment, did you?"
Giles sneered.
"What are you on about? I didn't take advantage of Buffy!"
"You most certainly did!" Giles tried to advance on Spike, but wobbled, clinging
to the side of his desk for support. "That book, it did something to her. Messed
with her mind. And you…you took advantage of that. Put a claim on her for who
knows what sick purpose."
"I claimed her because I love her. I claimed her because I wanted to make sure
she knows that I will stand beside her until I'm dust. What could I possibly
gain from tying myself for all eternity to a woman I didn't love?"
"You'll only hurt her."
Spike narrowed his eyes. "I'm not the one who's hurting her. What you said to
her today… She was sobbing tonight. You broke her heart."
"She acted with very poor judgment. She…"
"No! Bloody hell, are you seriously that blind to what Buffy's feeling? It
doesn't matter what you think of her actions. The point is you turned to a girl
who sees you as her father and told her you couldn't stand to look at her. That
she's a disappointment. Do you have any idea how cruel that is?"
"Well, I guess you'd know about cruel, being a demon and all. You don't love
Buffy. You cannot love Buffy. You're not capable of it."
Spike forced himself to refrain from acting violently. Wouldn't exactly do to
prove the other man right. "Look, personally, I don't care what you think. You
can spit back the tripe the Watchers' Council fills the heads of its girls with
all you want, doesn't make a damn bit of difference to me. I know more about
vampires and what we're capable of than all your books put together. But it
matters to Buffy. You matter to Buffy. And that makes it important to me.
If someone hurts her, then it's my duty to make it right."
"So you're what, going to threaten me? Tell me you'll find a way to enact
horrible tortures on me if I don't give my blessing to this unholy union?"
"No. And not just because the chip won't let me either. My mate sees you as
family, which means you're under my protection. I'll never lay a finger on any
of you so long as you're dear to Buffy. What I'm saying is you might want to
think about what you're doing. You don't have to like me. Hell, I don't like
you. Think you're a right git. But what Buffy and I have, it's forever. I don't
expect you to know all the reasons why Buffy and I decided on a claim. That's
private. Just between Buffy an' me. And you don't have to approve of it. Your
opinion doesn't change what it is. But I won't have you treating Buffy that way.
She doesn't deserve it. For whatever reason, your opinion means something to
her. And I know you care about her. You don't approve of what she's done, but
you still love her. So bloody act like it. Don't turn your back on her because
she's trying to find a little happiness in this hell of a life she lives. Girl's
suffered enough without you adding to her pain."
"I don't need advice from you, Spike."
"Fine. But keep in mind that you're the one who's going to be missing out when
you lose Buffy from your life."
Spike walked out of the apartment, leaving Giles alone with his thoughts and his
scotch.
*** *** ***
Spike ran in through the backdoor of the Summers' house, narrowly missing the
first rays of the morning sun.
"Cutting it a little close?"
Spike looked up sharply, surprised to see Joyce awake. "Yeah. Made it though.
Mornin', Joyce."
"Good morning. And, um, where were you exactly?"
"Had to go talk to Giles."
"About Buffy?"
"Yeah. He didn't take to the whole claim thing very well."
"Oh." Joyce looked pensive for a moment before asking, "Would you like a cup of
hot chocolate?"
Spike knew there was more coming that just hot chocolate. Joyce had something on
her mind. But he also decided it was best to go along with it. She was his
mother-in-law now, after all… "Sure, Joyce. That would be lovely."
Joyce smiled as she got up to put the pot on the stove. Spike sat at the kitchen
island as she fixed them both a mug. After she finished, she handed the drink to
Spike, who took it graciously. "Thanks."
Joyce sat across from him, wrapping her hands around her own mug. "Can I ask you
a personal question?"
"I figured you were getting to that. Go ahead. Can't promise an answer, but I'll
do what I can."
"Can you explain this claim thing to me a little more? What does it mean for my
daughter?"
"Means she's mine."
Joyce frowned. "You own her?"
"No, not like that. Buffy's not my possession. She's mine. But I'm hers, too.
Forever."
"Forever? Buffy won't live forever, Spike. She's human…isn't she?"
"Yeah, she is. But she's tied to me now, and I'm not. Claim won't make her a
vampire, but it'll keep her with me. Binds us together. I live, she lives."
"And if you die?"
"She wouldn't fall right to the ground. Don't worry about that. She wouldn't be
immortal anymore, but it wouldn't kill her right out."
"And if Buffy dies?"
"I walk into the next sunrise."
Joyce blinked a little at that. "You love her that much?"
"I love her with everything that I am. Buffy's my everything. Vampires don't
claim mates very often. We're not exactly a species known for monogamy. But when
we do make that choice, it's sacred. Protecting for and caring for his mate
becomes the top priority for that vampire. And for me, that's Buffy."
"I suppose you didn't have a claim with that other woman then, did you? The one
you were upset about the time you came here?"
"Drusilla? No. She wouldn't allow it." Spike looked down. "I tried, but she
wouldn't reciprocate. Got mad at me for trying to erase her connection with her
'daddy.'"
"Daddy?"
"Angel. He was Dru's sire—the vampire that made her. He held a place in her
heart that I could never fill."
"Oh. I'm sorry."
Spike looked up again. "I'm not. If Dru had let me claim her, I couldn't be with
Buffy now."
"And you love Buffy more?"
"Yeah, I do. Never thought I could love anyone more than I loved Drusilla, but
Buffy… Your daughter's really something special, Joyce. The things she can make
me feel with just a smile…it's bloody amazing."
Joyce reached across the island, placing her hand on top of Spike's. "Thank
you."
"For what?" Spike asked, his brow furrowed.
"For reassuring me. For letting me know my daughter is going to be loved and
cherished for the rest of her life. There's nothing a mother wants to know more
than that."
"No reason to thank me for that. I'm honored that I get to."
"Still, I'm…"Joyce patted his hand. "I'm glad to have you for a son-in-law."
"Thanks, Joyce. Couldn't have asked for a better mother-in-law myself."
Joyce smiled and took a sip of her hot chocolate.
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