Part 55:
Spikc closed the bedroom door behind him. “She’s asleep. Finally.”
Buffy slipped out of her robe and sat on the bed. “I’m sorry.”
“You should be.” His eyes flared with anger. “What the
hell happened?
Where were you?”
“I told you. I was talking to Willow.”
The muscles tightened in his neck. “You were supposed
to be watching
her.”
Buffy felt her guilt being overridden by anger. “I
told her not to go
on the big slide. She didn’t listen.”
“Of course she didn’t listen.” He stepped towards his
wife. “She’s
bloody five years old. You have to watch her.”
Buffy stood up and faced him. “I was watching her. And
talking. And
worrying. And watching out of the corner of my eye in case Riley Finn
and his personal SWAT team arrived out of nowhere and took my daughter.”
“You have to watch her. Buffy, she could have broken
her arm. Damn it,
she could have been killed!”
Buffy stood with her hands on her hips, eyes blazing,
voice increasingly
louder. “It’s easy for you, isn’t it? I get her all day, even when I’m
so tired I can barely keep my eyes open. I’m pregnant, for God’s sake.
You get the bedtime stories and the goodnight kisses.”
Spike’s jaw dropped. “You saying I don’t pull my
weight? I’ve taken
over patrol. I’ve been up more days lately than I’ve been down.” He
shook his head and turned away. “You know what I am. I can’t be up all
night and day too. I don’t sleep at night, you know. Just lie there
beside you, listening to you breathe. Listening for her. In case she
needs me.”
Buffy clenched her fist. “You think I don’t know? You
think I don’t
know how much better you are with her than I am? I’m not made to be the
nuturer. I’m made to kill things. This is damn hard for me.” She
looked down at her swelling belly. “And now I have the chance to screw
up again.”
He kept his voice even. “Buffy, you won’t screw up.
You just have to
be more careful. You’re a good mom.”
“Just not as good as you.” They didn’t realize how
loud they had
gotten.
Not until a frightened face peeked around the door.
“Mommy, don’t hit
Daddy.”
Spike rushed to his daughter, kneeling down beside
her. “No, pet, Mommy
wouldn’t ...”
But Buffy looked down at her fist in horror. “My God.
I’m ... I’m
sorry. I ...” Buffy pulled her pillow from the bed. “I’m going to
sleep down on the couch tonight.” She ran from the room.
Spike sat with his crying daughter until she fell back to sleep.
Part 56:
Meredith jumped onto her aunt’s bed. “Make me pancakes, Auntie Dawn?”
Dawn cracked one eye open, and glanced beside her to
the alarm clock on
her bed stand. “7:30.” She puffed out a breath. “Okay, kid. Pancakes
it is.” She struggled to sit up. “I have got to get home earlier on
school nights.” She pulled her robe off the end of the bed and covered
her nightgown. Meredith didn’t move. “Something wrong, Merry?”
Meredith nodded. “I was bad.”
Dawn patted her shoulder. “Come on. You couldn’t have
done anything
that bad. Not like you hurt Puppy or anything.” Her eyes narrowed.
“Did you?”
“No. I was bad at the park. I went on the big slide, and I fell off.”
“Geez.” Dawn sat on the bed beside her. “You aren’t hurt, are you?”
“Nope. Auntie Willow made the ground soft.” Her little
eyes filled
with tears. “But I made Daddy mad at Mommy, and then Mommy got mad at
Daddy, and they were yelling, and Mommy went downstairs, and I’m bad.”
“Aw, no.” Dawn put her arm around her niece and pulled
her close.
“That’s not your fault. I’m just glad you’re okay. I think you just
scared them.” She rubbed the child’s shoulder. “Your mommy and daddy,
they’re kind of, well, volatile.”
“Huh?”
“Passionate? Highly emotional?” She could see Meredith
didn’t
understand. “Just believe me. It isn’t your fault. They’re really
stressed about something, and it’s coming out angry.”
“Uncle Riley and Auntie Sam,” Meredith said.
Dawn was a little surprised. “Yeah. That’s part of it.
Not all of
it.” She looked down at Meredith’s feet. “Where’s your slippers? No
pancakes without slippers.” She took her niece’s hand and went into her
room to find the errant bunnies. “Don’t ever wear these in front of
Auntie Anya.” As she slid the fuzzy footwear on Meredith’s feet, she
continued her explanation. “Your mommy’s having a baby, right?”
“Right.”
“And when ladies are pregnant, they get kind of wonky.
It’s called
hormones. Your mom has them in spades.” She took the child’s hand to
head downstairs. “You should have seen them when she was having you.
Threw your daddy out of the house. He had to live with Clem for two
days.” She smiled down. “But they worked it out.”
They passed through the living room, careful not to
wake Buffy. Or
Spike, who was curled around her on the couch. “See?” she whispered to
the child.
Meredith shook her head. The two girls headed into the
kitchen for
breakfast.
Part 57:
Dawn was putting the last pancake on the platter when
her sister walked
into the kitchen. “Good. You’re here. Feed your daughter. I’m off to
school.” She patted Buffy’s shoulder as the walked past her, whispering
“heard you had a rough night,” in her ear as she left.
Buffy sighed. “Hi honey,” she said, standing beside
her daughter’s
chair.
Dawn popped back in. “Hey. Spike’s gone. You didn’t
...” She pumped
her fist up and down.
Buffy’s jaw dropped. “No! I sent him up to bed, to get
a decent day’s
sleep.” She threw a tea towel at her sister. “Go to school.”
Dawn was still giggling as she ran up the stairs.
Buffy dropped a pancake on her daughter’s plate,
buttering and syruping
it, then cutting it into smaller pieces. “I’m so sorry, honey. About
last night.”
“Are you mad at Daddy?” Meredith looked down at her
breakfast, but she
didn’t pick up her fork.
“No, I’m not mad at Daddy. And he’s not mad at me
anymore. We talked.”
She picked up a pancake with her fingers and bit into it. “We’re good.”
“Are you mad at me?”
She dropped the pancake on the table and wrapped her
arms around
Meredith. “Oh, no baby. I’m not mad. I’m so sorry I scared you.” She
kissed the child’s cheek. “But you scared me too. At the park. And
Daddy was scared.” She gave her a squeeze. “Scares all around last
night. Better now.” She took another bite of the pancake. “Did Auntie
Dawn make these from scratch?”
“Yep. She mixed all the flour and eggs and stuff
herself. And the
peanut butter.”
Buffy nodded. “That explains it. Here, honey. Give me
your plate.”
She took the offending breakfast and tossed it in the trash container.
“I notice she ran out before she had any herself.”
With that there was a loud “Bye, guys,” from the
living room, and the
slamming of the front door.
“Can I have some cereal, Mommy?” Meredith was feeling
better, which
meant feeling hungry.
“Hm. Cereal.” Buffy stepped to the refrigerator. “You
can have cereal
if you want, honey.” She pulled a container from the freezer. “I’m
having this.”
Meredith was shocked. “But Mommy! You said no ice
cream before lunch.
You said it was a rule.”
“Well, sweetie, I’ve learned one thing in life. Rules
are made to be
broken.” She paused for a second, the ice cream scoop poised over the
container. “Gee. I think I’m channelling Faith. Forget I said that.”
“Are you going to put the ice cream back, Mommy?”
Meredith grinned.
“You aren’t, are you?”
“Nope.” She passed a bowl to her daughter. “Let’s live
a little. Just
this once.”
Meredith plunged her spoon into the frozen chocolaty treat. “Okay.”
Part 58:
Dawn took her niece's hand and led her to the couch,
where they sat
side by side. "I have something to tell you, Merry. I told your mom and
dad, but I wanted to tell you myself."
Meredith's lower lip quivered. "You're leaving."
"Hey, get out of my head. I want to explain it
myself." She pulled
the child to her before she started to cry. "Don't be upset, kiddo. I'm
really, really happy."
"Why? You still go to school. You were s'posed to stay
till you
finished school."
"That was the plan." She took Meredith's hand. "You
like David,
don't you?"
Meredith nodded. "He's nice."
"Well, so do I. A lot. I didn't plan on meeting him at
that wedding,
and I didn't plan to see him so much. I sure didn't plan on this."
"On what?"
"David wants me to move in with him. And I said yes."
Meredith pouted. "Make him live here."
Dawn smiled. "That's a very kind offer, but I think
we'll pass. I
don't think your dad could handle that. Besides, David already has an
apartment, right near the campus. It'll work out good."
"Who will look after me, when Mommy and Daddy go out?
And who will
look after baby when he comes?"
"Your Mom and Dad have lots of friends to help. And
I'll still come
and see you, and stay with you. I'm not going to the moon, just across
town." She poked Meredith in the ribs, tickling her. "And I'll bring
David with me."
Meredith tried not to laugh, but the tickles were too
effective. She
threw her arms around her aunt. "What did Mommy say?"
"Your mommy understood. She got a little 'my sister is
all grown up'
misty, but she was happy for me. She likes David."
"Does Daddy like him?"
Dawn frowned. "Not so much. But he'll deal. Long as he
doesn't nail
the door shut on me so I can't get out. He was pretty upset."
"He was mad?"
"Not really mad." Dawn sighed. "Just sad. I think I'll
always be
his 'Little Bit'.
"Then don't go."
"I have to go, Merry." She hugged her niece close.
"Have to know if
David is the one. Time for me to grow up. Besides, you should thank
me."
"Why?"
"Because I'm the trendsetter. I have just upped your
chances
considerably of getting out of this house before you're thirty." She
eased out of Meredith's arms. "Want to go get some hot chocolate?"
Meredith nodded. "Okay."
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Part 59:
Dawn slipped into the front door and headed for the staircase. She shifted the bulky object in her hands as she climbed the stairs.
"What's that, Auntie Dawn?" Meredith asked, suddenly appearing in the upper hallway.
"This?" The young woman lifted the object a little higher. "It's a cat carrier. To keep Puppy safe in the car."
"Puppy's going for a ride?" Meredith smiled up at her. "Can I come?"
"Not really, honey. You see ..."
Meredith burst into tears. "You're taking him with you. Please, don't." She clutched at the carrier, trying to pull it out of her aunt's hand. "Please leave him here. I'll be good."
"Merry," she said, placing the carrier on the ground. "It's not about being good. I know you love Puppy. But he's my cat. He's coming to my new house, to live with me and David." She tried to reach for Meredith, but the child pulled back.
"I don't want you to go. I don't want you to take him," she cried.
Spike stepped out of his bedroom. "What're you two arguing about, then? Buffy's trying to nap." He saw the tears running down his daughter's cheeks and picked her up. "What's wrong, pet?"
She sniffed back her tears and answered. "Auntie Dawn's going away."
"I know, sweetheart." He hugged her close. "I'll miss her too."
"Hey," said Dawn. "Standing right here. Enjoy me while you can." She picked the carrier up. "Well, I've got packing to do."
Spike suddenly realized what Dawn was holding. "Aw, no. You're not taking the cat, are you?"
Dawn was exasperated. "It's. My. Cat." She stomped towards her room. "I can take my own cat if I want."
"It's damned inconsiderate."
Dawn whirled around to face Spike. "My cat. My life."
"Bit," he replied, his voice rising, "You know how Meredith loves it. That cat means the world to her. Stop thinking of yourself for a minute."
Dawn was livid. "If you'd gotten the kid a dog when she asked, she wouldn't have gotten so attached to Puppy. And what kind of stupid name is that for a cat, anyway?" She yanked her door open. "I might just change it to Fluffy!" She slammed the door behind her.
"Auntie Dawn is mad," Meredith said, her hands tight around her father's neck.
"I know."
"And you're mad at Auntie Dawn."
"Seems like it." He opened the door to her room. "Fancy a cuddle?"
"Yes, please." They lay side by side on her bed, curled up together. "Daddy, can I have a dog?"
"We'll think about it," he sighed. "Can't just replace the ones you love, though. Not so easy as that."
Part 60:
The living room floor lay scattered with doll clothes.
Meredith’s
little fingers struggled with the tiny snaps on Barbie’s jeans. “Help
me Mommy?” she asked, holding out the doll.
“Sure, sweetie.” Buffy took Barbie in hand. “But
wouldn’t this skirt
look better with that top?” She was interrupted by a knock at the door.
Two men in black suits stood on the front porch.
“Buffy Summers?” the
taller man asked.
“Can I help you?” Buffy watched as the two men flipped
open their
badges and quickly shut them.
“We’d like to ask you a few questions,” the shorter
man said. “I
believe you’re acquainted with a Riley Finn?”
“What’s he done?”
The man knit his brows. “Why would you ask?”
Buffy looked down at the child clinging wide-eyed to
her leg.
“Meredith, go upstairs.”
“Mommy,” she whined. “I want to stay with you.”
“Upstairs. Now.” She watched the child drag herself up
the stairs.
Turning back to the men, she asked, “What’s this about? What about
Riley?”
“Can we come in, Ms. Summers?” The taller man led his
companion into the
house, and Buffy took them into the living room. The men sat side by
side on the couch, while Buffy took a chair. “I believe you were in
contact with Samantha Finn,” Tall Man stated.
“What makes you think so? And what’s going on?”
“You brought Mrs. Finn to a shelter here in Sunnydale
a month ago,
according to our source there.” He pulled out a notepad. “Mrs. Finn
and her adopted daughter.”
“Okay. Yeah. She came her looking for help and I took
her. But I
haven’t seen or heard from her since.”
“Did she discuss anything about her relationship with
her husband? Why
she had left?” queried Short Man.
Buffy drew in a deep breath. “She said he’d changed.
Gotten a little
rough with her.” She was losing patience. “Just tell me what
happened.”
“Ms. Summers,” stated Tall Man in a matter of fact
voice. “We’re
investigating the murder of Riley Finn.”
Buffy felt her heart clench in her chest. She may have
feared what he
could do to her family, but Riley had been her lover. Once, he had been
a good man. “Riley’s dead?” Unbidden tears surfaced in her eyes.
“How?”
“Let me see your badges.” Spike stood in the living
room doorway,
Meredith’s hand held fast in his.
“You must be the husband.” Tall Man looked down at his
notepad. “I
have a few questions for you as well.”
“I asked to see your badges.” When the two men flipped
them open, Spike
responded, “Not police then. Give me one reason I should co-operate
with you government boys.”
“Well sir,” Tall Man replied. “I could give you seventeen.”
Spike’s eyes met Buffy’s, and he shook his head
slightly, before she
could speak.
The shorter man suddenly stood up. “I think that’s it
for today.” He
handed Buffy his card. “If you hear from Samantha Finn, please give us
a call.” He gestured to the other man, still staring icily at a
startled Spike. “Time to go.”
Tall Man nodded. “Right.” He nodded at Buffy. “We’ll
let ourselves
out.”
As they disappeared out the door, Spike took Buffy in
his arms. “What
the bloody hell was that about?”
“Riley’s dead.” Buffy let her tears soak into her
husband’s shoulder.
“Oh, god, Spike. Do you think it’s over?”
“I hope so,” Spike replied, unconvinced.
Meredith hugged her mother’s leg. “Don’t cry, Mommy.”
Spike bend down and picked up his daughter. “Mommy
will be fine, pet.”
He pulled both his girls close. “We’ll be fine.”
Part 61:
Willow poured red wine into her glass. “So, do you
know any more about
what happened to Riley?”
“This isn’t the time to discuss it,” Buffy replied.
“Not at the table.
But no.”
“Then I’ll change the subject. How are Dawn and David
doing? Settling
in okay?”
Ignoring the low growl in the back of her husband’s
throat, Buffy
replied, “I think they’re fine, Will, from what I can see. And I’m not
one to question the living together pre-connubial bliss.
Spike picked up the water pitcher. “Care for some chicken wine, love?”
His daughter giggled. “Chicken wine. I want some chicken wine.”
“Chicken wine?” Xander asked, passing Meredith’s cup to Spike.
“Something an old Dane I knew called water. Not sure
why.” He filled
the cup, passing it back to her, then sipped at his own private stock.
“Personally, I prefer the house red.”
“Gross, honey.” Buffy took a bite of her steak. “Great
supper though.
I ...” She stopped with a surprised expression, and smiled. “Well,
another country heard from.”
“What happened?” Xander was confused. “Did I miss something?”
“That wasn’t a flutter. That was a kick. Not a big
kick, yet, but a
kick.” She took her husband’s hand and placed it on her swollen belly.
“Feel that?”
Spike’s face lit up with delight. “I knew it. He’ll be a footie star.”
“Can I feel?” Willow asked.
“Sure,” Buffy replied. “Just don’t expect anything
much. Another few
weeks, and little Van Damme here will have me up all night. Remember,
honey?” she asked, putting her hand over Spike’s.
“I remember getting kicked out of the bed by Meredith.”
Meredith crinkled her nose. “I didn’t kick you out of
the bed, Daddy.
I don’t remember that. You’re a silly.”
“You most certainly did. Bam on the floor. When I ...”
The unexpected knock on the door left everyone in
silence. When the
sound recurred, Buffy stood from her chair. “I’d better get that.”
“No,” Spike said. “Let me. We aren’t expecting anyone.”
But Buffy was already half way out of the room. “I’m
perfectly capable
of answering the front door. If it’s the Initiative, I’ll yell.” She
stopped and looked back at her husband. “I’ll yell, ‘Spike, get the
hell out the back door,’ but I’ll yell.”
They could hear a man’s voice, but it was too faint
for all but Spike to
recognize. “Oh, bloody hell,” he sighed, his head sinking into his
hands.
“What’s wrong?” Willow asked. “Something bad?”
Buffy appeared in the dining room with a tall man. He
looked familiar
to Willow. Xander knew him from his photographs.
“Hi, Mister.” The little girl said brightly. “I’m
Meredith. Who are
you?”
“Sweetie,” Buffy answered. “Say hello to your grandfather."
Part 62:
“Your friends didn’t have to go.” Hank, perched on the
edge of the
couch, cradled the cup of coffee in his hands.
“They felt like they did.” Buffy held the plate of
cookies towards her
father, but he shook his head, and she sat it back on the coffee table.
“Why are you here, Dad?”
“I wanted to see you. And Dawn. Is she home?”
“No. Dawn isn’t here. And why now? I haven’t seen you
since you
dropped in last time, when I was pregnant with Meredith.”
As if on cue, the child entered the room hand in hand
with her father.
“We put the dishes away, Mommy.”
Hank held out his arms to the girl. “Why don’t you
come give your
Grandpa a hug?” he asked, with his boyish grin that never quite made it
to his eyes. She walked to him cautiously, let him embrace her quickly,
then went back to her father. The older looking man looked up at his
son in law. “So. Buffy says you’re married. I don’t suppose you’ve
found a job since last time I met you?”
“Spike works, Dad,” she answered, wrapping her arm
around her husband’s
waist. “He does freelance stuff. We both do. We get by.”
“Freelance stuff.” Hank frowned. “That doesn’t sound
too steady. And
you’ve obviously got another one on the way.”
“We would have told you, Dad. Asked you to the
wedding. But we
couldn’t get in touch with you, as usual.”
For Buffy’s sake, Spike tried to be civil, even though
every instinct
told him to chuck the man out on the street. His last visit had brought
nothing but anguish to his wife, and he didn’t see this one shaping up
any better. “I take care of my family,” Spike said evenly.
“I’m sure you do, Bill,” Hank answered with
condescension, ignoring
Spike’s grimace at the hated nickname. “But I have an offer for you.
We’re looking for someone in our Portland office, and I think you might
just fit in.”
“Portland?” Buffy asked. “Oregon? It’s out of the question.”
“Here me out. I know you have some sort of attachment
to Sunnydale,”
Hank said the name with contempt, “But Oregon is a beautiful place to
raise a family. Clean air, sunny skies ... Think about it.”
“I have commitments here, Dad.” Buffy held tight to
Spike’s hand. “We
both do.”
“Appreciate the offer, Hank,” Spike said. “Not looking
for a handout.
And, lovely as you make it sound, think we’ll stay right here.”
“Daddy won’t leave us.”
“What was that, pet?” Spike asked.
“Grampa thinks Daddy will leave us. But he won’t. Ever
never.” She
screwed up her face. “Even if he wants him to.”
“What is the child talking about?” Hank looked angry.
“I’m just trying
to help.”
“I told you, Hank,” Spike said with cold eyes, “I
appreciate the offer,
but I can take care of my own family.”
Buffy smiled at her father, with confidence. “And so
can I.” She went
to the bureau and scribbled down a note on a piece of paper. “This is
Dawn’s phone number. Call first.” She handed the paper to Hank. “Please
call first. And try to go easy on David. He’s a good guy.”
Hank looked at the number as Spike handed him his
jacket. “Who’s
David?”
Part 63:
“Mommy, Mommy, come quick!” Meredith tugged at the
bottom of her
mother’s t-shirt. “Please, Mommy!”
“What is it, sweetie?” Buffy asked.
“There’s something wrong with Daddy.”
Buffy dropped the stake she was sharpening onto the
counter as her
daughter took her hand, pulling her up the stairs. “What’s wrong?” As
she drew closer to her bedroom door, she heard for herself. Spike was
crying out in his sleep. She pushed open the door and saw him flailing
around on the bed. His face had shifted into vampire features.
‘No! No, I won’t! No!” he cried. “Oh God, what have I done?”
Buffy sat beside him, taking his shoulders in her
hands and holding him
steady. “Shhh,” she said softly. “Spike. Honey, wake up.”
His eyes shot open, and he stared up at the ceiling.
“I’m sorry. So
sorry.” In a moment he realized where he was. Sitting straight up in
the bed, looking human once again, he pulled his wife into his arms.
“Oh, God, Buffy, you’re okay.”
“I’m fine.” She rubbed his back in little circles,
calming him. “It
was just a dream. You’re fine.”
“Daddy?” Meredith’s voice was small. “What happened, Daddy?”
“Baby, go get Daddy some blood from the fridge, okay?
He’ll be fine.
Just bring a bag.”
“Okay,” Meredith nodded. “I’ll be right back, Daddy,”
she called from
the hall.
“Blood. So much blood,” he muttered into her shoulder.
“It was so
real. So horrible.”
“What happened, Spike?” Her fingers played with the
curls at he back of
his head. “It must have been one hell of a dream.”
He sighed and pulled away, looking at her as if he
were afraid she were
a mirage, destined to disappear from his arms. “It was that, love.” He
felt her twine her fingers through his. “I, we, were in the basement of
that old house. The one where ... the one we went that night. The one
where I’d buried all of them.”
She squeezed his hand. “That was a long, long time
ago. And nothing you
did was your fault. You know that.”
“I was killing you. Draining you. Dawn was on the
ground, where I’d
left her. And ...” His voice broke. “I can’t ...”
She cupped his cheek with her other hand. “Just a
dream. Never
happened.” She looked deep into his eyes. “Tell me. Don’t hold back.”
He nodded, holding her eyes with his, for strength.
“And Meredith. She
was breaking up through the earth. Buffy, I’d turned her.” He tried to
swallow, but his mouth was dry. “Buffy, what does that mean? How could
I even think such things?”
“It was a dream. A nightmare. If you knew some of my
dreams. The
things I do to the people I love. But they’re just dreams.” She kissed
him softly. “You will never hurt me. Never hurt Meredith, or Dawn, or
the baby. I know that.”
“I’ve been a monster.”
“I know.” She pulled him close. “And now you’re my man.”
Meredith popped back into the room. “I brought Daddy
some blood. And,”
she added proudly, “I even brought a mug.”
“Good girl.” Buffy took the items from her daughter’s
hands and took
them to the bed stand, filling the mug from the bag.
Meredith crawled up on the bed and hugged her father.
“You okay,
Daddy?”
“Fine, pet,” he replied. “I’m sorry I scared you.”
“That’s okay.” She poked at his forehead. “Now make
the funny face
again.”
Part 64:
Buffy looked around the small apartment and nodded in
appreciation.
“This is nice, sis.”
Dawn smiled in return. “Not big, but David has good
taste. Didn’t have
to change much at all. And at least it isn’t one of those little
bachelorettes.” She bent down and picked up her niece, hugging her
close. “Hey, Merry. Like my new place?”
“It’s nice,” the little girl said as she scanned the
room. “Where’s
Puppy?”
“Glad to know you missed me.” She carried the child to
the bedroom door
and opened it. The little cat came running out. “Take her in the
bedroom and play, okay? I’d like to have a non cat-haired couch for
five minutes.”
On the floor again, Meredith picked up Puppy and
climbed onto the bed
with her. “I missed you so much. I have so much to tell you...” Her
voice muffled as Dawn closed the door.
“Won’t you have a cat-haired bed instead?” Buffy
asked, seating herself
on the afore mentioned couch. “And by the way, Spike is still in denial
about that double bed. I think he imagines David out here on the sofa
every night.”
“As if. And I wanted the nosy one out of the room so
we could talk.
Let me get you a cup of herbal tea. Cause, I know, no caffeine for the
Spikelet.” After a few minutes in the kitchenette, she came out with a
mug and handed it to her sister. “You like cinnamon spice, right?”
Buffy nodded and took the cup. “Thanks. Smells great.
You know, for
herbal tea.” She sipped at the hot liquid. “Hey, you remembered the
honey. Coolness.”
Dawn sat down beside her, curling her legs under
herself. “Spike needs
to remember that he’s my brother-in-law, not my father. Speaking of
which ...”
“I take it you had the daddy visit.” Buffy put her mug
on the coffee
table. “Did he call first, by any chance?”
Dawn grunted dismissively. “Dad? Call? Heck no. In
fact, he knocked
on the door at a very inopportune moment." She blushed. "I wasn’t
going to answer it, but he started yelling, 'Dawn, open up, it’s your
father,' very loudly. I’m sure the neighbours thought I was getting
busted.
“Which you were.”
“Well, yeah.” She started to chuckle. “So, David ran
into the bedroom,
and I tried to get back into my clothes ...”
Buffy stared at her sister. “You have heard of ‘too
much information’
haven’t you?”
“Right. Like I didn’t live for years with you and the
incredible
vampire love machine. I’m sure you two warped me for life.”
Buffy ignored the comment. “And Dad?”
“Hated David, straight off. My man tried to be so
nice, so reasonable,
so ...”
“Not like Dad?” Buffy picked up her mug again, wishing
for something
stronger than the tea. The less than pleasant memories came flooding
in. “He tried to get Spike to move to Portland for a job. Cause
there’s nothing my honey would like better than sunny skies.”
“Maybe you should just tell Dad that Spike’s a
vampire.” At her
sister’s pointed silence, she added, “Bad idea.” She sighed. “Subject,
changing thereof. Hear anything more about what happened to Riley?”
Buffy shook her head. “Nope. Willow tried to do a
search of police
files, but we don’t know the location, or exactly when. It just seems
so strange to know he’s gone.”
“Maybe he isn’t.” She started to get excited. “Maybe
it’s all a big
cover up. Maybe those men in black guys weren’t even government. Or
our government. Or maybe the initiative is together and up to something
again. Maybe ...”
“Maybe you’ve seen one too many episodes of the
X-Files.” She patted
her sister’s hand. “I know you mean well. And I also know that I won’t
be comfortable until I know what happened to him.”
The bedroom door opened. “Auntie Dawn, I need to go
potty.” She held
up the cat in her hands. “Can Puppy come with me?”
“You know,” whispered Dawn to her sister, “you’ve got
a weird little
kid.”
“Yeah, well,” Buffy whispered back, winking at her.
“Runs in the
family.”
Part 65:
Willow turned the jigsaw puzzle piece this way and that, trying to fit
it into the known spaces. “There!” she said triumphantly. She tried to
fit the piece in, to no avail. “Not there.”
“Honey, I think that’s his eye. Shouldn’t go on his shoulder.” Xander
took the piece from her hand and dropped it home. “See? I am the
puzzle king.”
Meredith looked at them both over the edge of the table, her eyes barely
at the right level to see. “I’m bored.”
“Sorry, sweetie. If I’d known you were coming over, I would have rented
a movie for you.” Willow picked up the little girl and held her on her
lap. “Want to help with the puzzle?”
“No.” Meredith wriggled on the witch’s lap, twisting herself back onto
the floor. “I want to go home.”
“Hey now, baby Buffster, you have to wait. Mommy and daddy will be here
soon. Maybe you could play with Auntie Willow’s crystals.” Xander
walked over to the shelf and picked up a blue and a rose piece of
quartz.
“Or, not.” Willow took the crystals from his hand. “Those are pretty
powerful. I think we’d better find something else.” She sat them back
on the shelf and opened her video cabinet. “There must be something
you could watch.”
Meredith climbed onto the couch and crossed her arms in front of her
chest. “I don’t want to watch a movie.” Behind Willow’s head, the
crystals rose off the shelf and into the air. Silently they floated
over her head, and were just about in the child’s hand when the witch
saw them and snatched them back. “Meredith, I said not to touch those.
I meant it.”
Tears filled the child’s eyes. “I want Daddy.”
Willow sat beside her. “Aw, is somebody a Miss Cranky Drawers? Tired,
honey?”
“I’m not tired. I’m not cranky. I. want. to. go. home.”
“Just hang on a bit, kid. Your folks will be back soon, please god.”
Xander met Willow’s glare, then turned away. “I mean, great as it is to
have you.”
“I would go home if I could. So don’t say I should,” Meredith pouted.
“And what’s ‘making with the smootchies?’” she asked Xander.
“I didn’t say anything. I ...” Xander looked panicked. “And who said
anything about smootchies?”
Willow flashed a bemused, though frustrated, smile at her boyfriend.
“Watch what you think. Unless you want me to put a little blocking spell
on your mind.”
Xander stiffened. “Nope. I’ll be good.”
She sat beside the child on the couch and put her arm around her
shoulder, stroking the child’s hair. “Sweetie, you know what I’ve told
you about listening to people. It isn’t polite.”
The child hunkered down farther into the sofa. “Don’t care about
polite.”
Xander tried another tactic. “Hey, Merry. Want to have a little nap
while you wait for the parental unit?” His words were met with an icy
glare. “You’ve got a lot of your mom in you, you know that?”
But the child jumped up at the sound of the knocking. “Daddy! Mommy!”
She ran to the door.
“Let me get it.” Willow looked through the peephole, then pulled open
the apartment door. “Hey guys, how’s Dawn?”
The couple that stepped inside looked haggard. “She’ll be okay, but
she’s staying at the hospital. David’s with her,” Buffy replied.
“Look, Spike. There’s a kid attached to your leg.”
“I see that.” Spike scooped the happy child into his arms. “How’s my
girl?”
“Well, actually ...”
But Willow cut Xander off. “She was fine. Just a little tired.”
“Can we go home now?” the child asked.
“In a minute, love. Auntie Willow wants to know about Auntie Dawn.”
“That’s okay,” Willow responded, a bit too quickly. “Long as she’s
going to be okay. I’ll call you tomorrow for details, Buffy.”
The woman nodded, a cloud passing over her face. “Sure, Will. And
thanks so much for the short notice sitting.”
“Anytime.” She closed the door behind the departing family.
“Anytime?” Xander asked.
Willow sighed and leaned back against the door. “I know. She’s a
handful. Now what was that you were thinking about smootchies?”
Part 66:
Buffy handed her sister a cup of tea. “You sure you’re okay? I think it wouldn’t hurt you to stay at home a bit longer.”
“Sis, if I stay in that apartment one more day, I’ll scream.” She looked down at the steaming mug, then placed it on the coffee table, smiling at her sister. “I’m fine. Really.”
The older girl placed her hands protectively over her swollen belly. “It’s just that ... If it were me ...”
“It’s not you. It’s me, and I wasn’t ready. David wasn’t ready.” She took her sister’s hand. “That’s a healthy little baby you’ve got in there, so don’t worry.”
A little face appeared at the side of the couch. “Don’t cry, Mommy.”
“Hey, sweetie.” Buffy pulled her daughter close. “You were so quiet, I almost forgot you were there.” She flashed a concerned look at her sister, then gave Meredith a little nudge. “Why don’t you go get your new dolly to show Auntie Dawn?”
“Okay.” The child ran out the room and up the stairs.
Dawn smiled. “That must be some great doll.”
“I just wanted to talk without little ears. Not to mention that little mind reading thing.” She took a deep breath. “I wish you’d let me tell Spike what really happened. Please.”
Dawn picked up the mug and cradled it in her hands, letting the warmth seep through the constant chill. “I’m sorry I put you in this position. But if Spike knew I’d let myself get pregnant, he’d go ballistic. And who knows what he’d do to David.” Her eyes met her sister’s. “You know I’m right.”
“I know he’s my husband, and you’re making me lie to him.” Her focus dropped to her hands, as she twisted her ring between her fingers. “And you are probably right. He’d have a hard time with it, yes. But you were really sick. You could have died.”
“And I didn’t. So let him think it was my appendix. Who is it hurting, really?”
The voice from the doorway was cold, wounded. “What the bloody hell is going on?”
“Spike?” Buffy stood and took a step towards her husband. “Where’s Meredith?”
“I told her to play in her room.” His eyes went from Buffy, to Dawn, and back. “You don’t trust me? Not after everything? You still don’t trust me?”
She took another step, but he backed away. “What did Meredith say?”
“She asked me about Auntie Dawn’s baby. And how it got in her tube. And what’s a tube. And I said, ‘No, pet, Auntie Dawn doesn’t have a baby,’ and she said, ‘yes, she did.’ So how long were you planning to lie to me? Or did Meredith get it all wrong?”
Buffy’s voice was quiet, as her head dropped and shoulders sank. “She didn’t get it wrong. Spike, what are you doing?”
He pulled open the closet door. “Well, I damn well can’t go outside, so I’m taking this old cot downstairs.” He tucked the folding bed under his arm and headed towards the kitchen. “And I’d be grateful for the time alone, so don’t come toddling down after me.”
“Spike!” Dawn pulled at his arm. “It’s not her fault. I asked her not to tell you.” Spike’s icy glare at her hand stung her, and she pulled back. The two women could hear the sound of the cot hitting against the basement steps as he worked it down.
Dawn held her hand over her mouth. “Oh, God, Buffy, I’m so sorry.”
“So am I.” Buffy led her sister towards the front door and let her out. “Give him time.”
Meredith bounced down the staircase. “Mommy, where’s Daddy? I want to play.”
“Come here.” Buffy took her hand as they both went to sit on the couch.
She snuggled her daughter close. “I love you, Meredith. You know that.” She
stroked her daughter’s soft hair. “But you’ve got a big mouth.”
Part 67:
Spike lay on his old cot, head in his hands, staring up at the ceiling.
All the old pain had come flooding back; the feeling of exclusion. That
he wasn’t really family, any more than he’d really been a Scoobie.
Then he thought of Dawn, screaming in pain, and blinked back tears.
“Daddy?” She climbed up on the cot beside him and opened his left eye.
“You asleep?”
“No, pet,” he said.
“Your eyes are wet. Are you crying? Mommy’s crying.”
“I’m coming.” He sat up, swung his legs over the side of the bed, and
took his daughter’s hand. “Let’s go tend to her, then.”
He walked slowly up the stairs, wanting to be with his wife and not
wanting to face her. “Buffy?”
She was sitting in the dining room, balls of used kleenex on the table.
“I wanted to tell you,” she sighed.
“I know.” He pulled a chair up beside her and covered her hand with
his. “I’m a right git.” When she didn’t disagree, he asked, “How’s
Niblet?”
“She’ll be okay. She might not be able to have kids now. I feel
guilty.”
Spike pulled Meredith onto his lap. “Don’t. These children of ours,
they’re a precious gift.”
“I know that.” She smoothed her daughter’s hair with her hand. “I’m
sorry. Did we scare you, honey?”
“You made me sad. I get sad when you’re sad.” When Buffy’s lower lip
started to quiver again, Meredith reached out for her. “Stop that,
mommy. Smile, okay?”
Buffy looked at her daughter, seated on the lap of the man she loved.
She lay her hand on her rounded belly. And she smiled. “Forgive me?”
she asked Spike.
“Forgive you? Forgive me.” He cupped her cheek in his hand. “I was
lying down there, trying to figure how to get up here again without
looking like an idiot. Dawn, in so much pain, and me thinking of
myself. I’ll go over and see her later.”
“You could call.”
“I’d rather see her. And David. God knows what she’s told him about
me. Poor whelp’s probably shaking in his boots.” He stood up still
carrying Meredith in his arms, and helped Buffy to her feet. “Let’s go
in on the couch. This is damned uncomfortable.”
“Cuddles?” Meredith asked.
“Lots of ‘em.”
“Spike?” Buffy had seated herself next to her family. “What will you
say to David? Dawn thinks you’re going to lay into him for being
irresponsible. For letting her get hurt.”
“I’m gonna say I’m sorry. That he must be going through hell. I would
be.”
“You’re a good man. I don’t tell you that enough.” She gazed into his
clear blue eyes. He gazed back.
“You guys,” Meredith said with exasperation. “Why don’t you just make
with the smootchies?”
“Too much Harris,” Spike sputtered. Then he kissed his wife.
Part 68:
He must have nodded off lying on the couch, because there was Meredith,
tugging on his sleeve. "Daddy. Come on, Daddy."
"Daddy's watching his tape of Port Charles, love. How many times do
they have to stake this Caleb git, anyway? Worse than Darla. Totally
unrealistic." He patted his daughter’s hand. "Go play with your toys."
She let out a harumph of frustration. "Come see Mommy, Daddy."
He narrowed his eyes. "Did you bother Mommy? You know she went to have
a nap because she wasn't feeling tip top."
She started tugging again, even more insistently. "Daddy, Mommy needs
you in the bathroom."
"Sweetheart, if Mommy's out of paper again, you can get it for her,
can't you? On the bottom shelf, hall closet."
"Daddy!" She was almost shouting. "Mommy said come get you because she
broke her water."
"Broke her ..." Realization dawned and Spike practically flew off the
couch and up the stairs. "Buffy?" he called at the bathroom door.
"Took you long enough. You better not have been ignoring her because of
that stupid vamp soap opera."
"What? No, I was busy, I ..." he felt compelled to make explanation.
"Spike! Just shut up and get some towels out of the hall closet. In
fact, bring me a few. I don't want to wreck the car upholstery." He
hurried for a stack of clean towels and handed her two through the
door. "Now call Dawn or Willow or Xander or somebody to watch
Meredith. Ow! Oh, God."
"Buffy?" Concern filled his voice as he entered the bathroom.
She struggled to stand up and he took her hand to steady her. "I'm
fine. Contraction. Now go make that call and grab my bag from the
closet. And help me downstairs."
They almost tripped over Meredith, standing quietly outside the door.
"Mommy," the child asked, "you're having the baby, aren't you?"
"Yep," her mother smiled, which quickly turned into a grimace. "Baby.
Now help Daddy. You'd think he'd never been through this before."
Spike was already in the bedroom, calling for Meredith's sitter with the
bag beside him on the bed. "Dawn and David are out. Red's coming
over. She'll be here in a few minutes," Spike called. He put down the
receiver and ran back out into the hall. "Anything else I can do?"
"Sure," Buffy nodded. "Get me downstairs, get me to the hospital, and
get this baby ... out!" The last word was a strangled scream. "These
contractions are coming a little faster than I like."
He helped her down the stairs, as she leaned on him. "I'm with you,
love. Always with you."
Meredith followed with the stack of towels. "Can't I come see the baby
be borned?"
"If Auntie Willow doesn't hurry, you may have to," Buffy replied.
At that, the front door burst open and Willow flew past Spike.
Literally. "I've got Merry. Now you guys git." She waved at them as
they headed towards the car. "Good thing this baby decided to make an
appearance after sundown," she said to no one in particular.
"Yeah. I don't think Baby would like Daddy to be a big pile of dust."
Meredith ran into the living room.
"That's for sure. I mean ..." Willow was struck by the child's words.
She knew Buffy and Spike had wanted to keep his vampire nature from
their daughter. Why did they even try?
Part 69:
The light from the television screen flickered in the living room, the
early morning infomercial playing to deaf ears. Meredith lay curled on
the sofa, her head on a throw pillow, her feet in Willow's lap. The
witch sat with her head against the couch back, mouth open, as snores
competed with George Foreman's outbursts of love for his latest model
grill.
The ringing phone overwhelmed them both, and Willow snapped out of
reverie. She dived for the telephone, dropping the receiver once before
finally placing it against her ear. "Hello?" she asked. "Spike?"
"Red." She could hear his grin over the telephone. "How's Meredith?"
"Fine." She looked over to the little girl, struggling to wake up as
she rubbed her eyes with her fists. "How's Buffy?"
"Beautiful." He paused, threatening to burst with joy. "So's our son."
"It's a boy!" she shrieked, as Meredith ran to the phone.
"Let me talk to Daddy." The little girl reached up for the receiver.
"Hi Daddy. I said it would be a brother."
"Yes you did, pet. He's a wonderful little fellow, and you're going to
love him."
"Can I come see him? I want to see him now." She jiggled with
excitement. "I want to see Mommy. Can Mommy come home now?"
"Not yet, my darling. Mommy's having a rest, and Baby's with the
doctors having a bit of a check up. Don't worry, all's well. Daddy's
going to find a quiet place to have a rest soon too, but Auntie Willow
can bring you here later today to see them both. Okay?"
She nodded. "Okay. After breakfast."
"Right pet. After breakfast. Can I talk to Willow again?"
"Okay." She handed the phone back to her babysitter, and skipped off
towards the kitchen. "I'm gonna make toast."
"Meredith," Willow called after. "It's four am." She sighed and gave
up. "Did everything go okay?"
"Everything went perfectly. Ah, Red, you have to see him. Wrinkled as
Clem when he came out, red and wriggling. Pissed all over the doctor.
What a boy."
"Sounds like yours," she snorted. "You going to be okay? The sun'll be
up in a few hours. Buffy will understand if you come home 'til
tonight."
"Not leaving my love. Doctor knows the score. Has a nice little closet
where I can get out of the sun, as it were. You bring my girl over
after ten so she can have time with her mom."
"And her brother," Willow beamed. "Wait a sec. Do you two have a name
picked out yet? I can't call him Baby or brother. William the not so
bloody?"
"Willow the not so funny," he said, attempting to sound cold, but too
happy to succeed. "Don't tell Harris. He'll pop a button. Buffy's
idea, and she caught me in a weak moment."
"Oh my god, you're calling him Xander?" she asked with disbelief.
"As if. Alexander. Alex for short. Bloody big mouthful for a little
tyke far as I'm concerned, but you know the missus when she gets her
mind made up. Says you and he were her first friends in Sunnydale. So
his second name's Will. Bit for you and a bit for me." There was the
sound of someone calling in the background. "Buffy's wakin' up. See
you later."
Meredith came back in the room with two slices of bread. "I tried to
float the toaster down, Auntie Willow, but I'm too 'cited."
"You let me use the toaster for you. In a few hours, when it's really
breakfast time. Right now you’re heading up to bed, young lady." She
took the bread and lay it on the coffee table, then took her hand and
led her to the stairs.
"You lie down with me?"
"Sure. Anything has to be more comfortable than sleeping on that
sofa." She stopped on the bottom step. "You want to know his name?"
"It's Alex. That's okay." The little girl grabbed the bannister and
pulled herself up. "But I like Baby."
Q and A Christmas:
“Daddy, Daddy. Wake up.” Meredith jumped on her parent’s bed. “Come
on Mommy. It’s Christmas!”
Buffy cracked one eye open. “Already?” She pushed herself up on one
elbow and looked at the alarm clock beside the bed. “Sweetie, it’s six
a.m.”
Meredith nodded vigorously. “Yep. I bet Santa’s been gone for hours
and hours. The presents are getting cold.”
“They don’t get ... Oh, never mind.” Buffy shook her husband, trying to
rouse him. “Spike. Honey. Wake up.”
“S’night already?” a groggy voice asked, before slipping back into
unconsciousness.
“Our house guests up yet?” Buffy pulled her robe from the end of the
bed, slipping her feet into a pair of slippers.
“Yep,” Meredith replied. “I hear noises in their room.”
“What kind of ...?” Buffy started to ask, then thought better of it.
“Let’s give Auntie Dawn and Uncle David a few minutes, then I’ll knock
on the door and see it they’re ready, okay?”
“Okay.” Meredith leaned over her father, forcing his left eye open with
her fingers. “Daddy, it’s Christmas. Wake up.”
“Christmas, is it?” he growled. “Fine time of the morning for
Christmas.” He opened his eyes and looked up at his daughter.
“Christmas won’t start until I’m good and ready. ‘Sides, bet Santa
hasn’t been here yet. Prob’ly got a flat or something.”
Meredith only giggled. “Silly Daddy. Santa doesn’t drive a car.”
“Scrooge,” Buffy said, “Entertain your daughter and I’ll be back in a
minute.”
As she left, she knocked on her sister’s bedroom door. “Hey, you two.
Get yourself together. I’ve got an insistent little kid who wants to
open her presents.” She heard scuttling behind the door.
“In a minute,” her sister called. “David, stop that,” she giggled.
“If you don’t want Spike to head in there with a hose, get your clothes
on and get downstairs.”
Ten minutes later, Buffy was back in her bedroom with a warm mug, which
she handed to her husband. “Here. Drink up and get up.”
Spike sipped at the warm, red liquid. “Nutmeg?” he asked.
“Well, it is Christmas. Now hurry up.”
“But in blood?” He finished the mug and handed it to Meredith. “Take
this to the kitchen, pet, and I’ll be right down.”
The little girl happily took the mug. “And then we open the presents?”
“Well, Spike sighed, “if we must.” After his little girl left, Buffy
handed him his pajamas and robe, and he stepped into the pants. “She
gets more excited every year.”
“And next year,” his wife smiled, hand on her belly, “There’ll be two of
them.”
He placed his hand on hers. “I can’t wait.”
They met David and Dawn in the hallway. “Merry Christmas, guys,” Buffy
said.
David wrapped his arms around Dawn’s waist, smiling at his girlfriend’s
family. “Merry Christmas.”
Spike looked at the pair with disapproval. “Awfully familiar, aren’t
you, Chan?”
Dawn just laughed. “David and I live together, Spike. Grow up.”
At that moment, Meredith came barrelling up the stairs. “Santa was
here. There’s so much stuff.” She looked up at the adults with
frustration. “Come on!”
“Is she always this bossy?” David asked Spike.
“Yep,” he replied, as their women hurried down after the little girl.
“Just like her mom.”