Disclaimer : I don't own Buffy or anything else in the Buffy verse. All of it belongs to Joss Whedon and the rest.

Time Line: Post Smashed thru to Wrecked. But this is how I would have liked it to go. Not to say that I didn't like the episode I just like this way too.

Authors Note: This is my very first fanfic ever, so sorry if I made some grammar type errors and such. I got bored and decided what the hey. Please give me feedback. It gives me more inspiration especially if it is of the good :) Enjoy.

The Day After

She watched him intently, trying desperately not to find a reason to love him. Even though

she knew her new lover, or sex monkey as she know Xander would call him, didn't have a

soul for over 120 years she thought she saw a flicker of one as she gazed at him as he slept. The whole thing was incredible, she had no idea why she had acted on her feelings, she should have just let the more reasonable side of her take over, the slayer side of her. She could not let herself fall in love of another man never mind another Vampire. It caused pain and she couldn't handle pain. It was to much. She had constantly faced pain. First with Angel and then Riley then her mother dying, then the thought of Dawn dying was so much pain she was actually a bit relieved when she realized what the first slayer meant by "Death is your gift". She had died and come back thanks to her friends. She knew that they had good intentions in bringing her back but she also knew that what they did could never be measured against any type of emotional pain. THIS had taken the cake. She had finally been able to rest and be happy.

Ever since her rebirth she had felt this emotional detachment that she couldn't describe. She had, at first, thought it was because she had just come from heaven and was still adjusting but she was starting to think that it was because she wasn't sure how she felt anymore so emotionally she just shut down. 'Its easier this way' her mind told her over and over. But despite that and everything else Buffy felt last night. She felt desire, passion and the most compelling and interesting thing yet, Love. So here she was looking up at the hole in the ceiling wondering how and when she had actually developed love type feelings for Spike. William the Bloody. The man that could undoubtably have been the scourge of Europe.

Of course after what had just happened an hour earlier she was sure without a doubt that he had changed. She could see it when she reached her climax along side of him, he was different now.

He stirred a bit and Buffy couldn't resist kissing him softly on the forehead. His eyes fluttered open slowly and lightened with the realization of who had just kissed him.

"Buffy I-"

"Don't Spike you don't need to say it. I know."

"I know you know luv but I need to tell you something about last night "

"Yea" Buffy grinned

"That was the most amazing, wonderful, and--"

"Passionate?" Buffy asked.

"Yes"

"I knew that the only thing better than killing a slayer was f--"

"what? god spike!! how can you say that after what just happened! I was actually starting to realize that you *have* changed and that I might actually be in...BUT my god is that what this is about? Doing a slayer?"

Buffy was on the verge of tears and Spike wanted to die right there.

"Buffy, luv I was gonna say the only thing better than killing as slayer would be falling in love with one." Spike quickly looked down.

"W-what?" Buffy was completely shocked.

"when you and I came together it was like I had finally really died and gone to heaven. You make me feel alive and I know that I do that to you too..don't I?" Spike was getting desperate, he had to tell her what he felt.

"Yes, I can't deny it. I feel alive again and when I was with you I felt that I was actually back in heaven."

"well then luv, its settled we make each feel alive. So what are we gonna do about it?"

"well I don't know, I need to think." Buffy got up and started to search for her clothes.

"I..I understand that but Buffy what happened last night was more than just a one night stand

you must know that."

"I do and I know and that’s what I need to think about" Buffy pulled on her skirt and then her bra and then her shirt she then found her boots and slipped them on.

"my your in a rush aren't you?" Spike smirked from the floor, his head propped up his left hand.

"I need to get home, its almost dawn and I left Dawn all night." Buffy gazed at him and couldn't help but smile.

"well then i suppose you should be going then." Spike looked almost defeated. He got up and put his jeans on. He looked at her sadly, like a lost puppy. his bottom lip a little pouty.

Buffy couldn't help it she felt sorry for Spike just leaving him like this.

"Come home with me? You can sleep in the spare room..I'll cover the windows...."

"Oh that’s all right slayer, I don't wanna put you out. I have me own place to go to remember?" he said as he smiled at her. secretly jumping up and down inside.

"Yea I know I just want to have you near me"

"Alright then." Spike paused and thought a minute,"Buffy I need to ask though...what about Dawn and the rest of the Scoobies they are gonna wonder why I am suddenly sleeping at your house?"

"well it is my house...and..well...they will just have to deal. I want you at the house. That's final" she said with a wicked smile.

"Ok then love, but first how bout you and me make a quick stop at my place so that I can get

a change of clothes and what not" he said as he pulled on his shirt, duster and shoes.

"Ok"

Buffy and Spike walked out of the building and found spikes' DeSota parked up the street.

They got in and drove to the cemetery. Spike went and got some stuff quickly before the sun came up and ran back to the car where Buffy was waiting.

"Ok well lets go then" he said as he got in the car.

They drove up to the summers' residence just at the break of dawn. Buffy opened the door and they walked in. Buffy kissed him as he came through the door. Buffy giggled and said

"it’s the room next to mine, go to bed before you get extra crispy"

"alright then miss bossy slayer, I'll see you later then.." and they kissed passionately in the front hall all the while not noticing the sleeping Dawn and Tara on Buffy’s' couch.

Tara slowly woke up as she heard the front door being opened. Thinking it was Willow she started to move so she could look at the doorway. But what she say was not Willow, it was Buffy and Spike passionately making out. Tara smiled. She couldn't resist it Buffy deserved happiness and she was glad that Spike was the one to give it to her.

"Good Morning Buffy" Tara said in a sing song voice.

Buffy jumped and in doing so had accidently bit spikes' lip.

"Bloody hell!" spike said as he felt her draw blood. Buffy gasped and started to stamper.

"T-T-Tare?"

"yea?"

"w-w-what are you doing here?"

"well Dawn and I went to a movie last night and when we got home no one was here so I stayed with her"

"Thanks Tara, so much you don't know what that means to me."

" Your welcome Buffy it was no problem" Tara smiled " I can understand that you were busy with spike.."

"Tara its not what you thin-"

"You and Spike didn't spend the night together then? that’s to bad I was rooting for you two.."

Tara smiled as she walked into the kitchen. Buffy and Spike followed her leaving Dawn asleep on the couch.

"Hungry? I can make some pancakes?" Tara asked as they entered.

"what. yea sure." Buffy was almost speechless.

"Tara how did you know?" Spike asked, speaking for the first time since Buffy bit him.

"I saw you two making out in the hallway."

"oh" Buffy said, saying what spike was obviously thinking.

"well then i am off to bed, see ya later Tara" Spike smiled "See you when I wake up Luv" spike said and just as he was about to kiss Buffy good night, Willow, Xander, Amy and Anya walked in through the back door laughing. Which was abruptly stopped when they noticed Spike kissing Buffy.

"what is going on here?" Willow asked

"yea why is spike here and kissing you Buffy and why aren’t you kicking him in the nuts for it?" Xander asked almost in shock.

Just then Dawn slowly walked in the kitchen and when she noticed Spike she hugged him and smiled.

"well buff? what's going on?" Xander asked again.

"Well umm, uhhh...Spike and I....sorta...ummm...well...."

End Chapter 1 TBC.

The Day after part 2

"Bloody hell" Spike muttered under his breath. He turned to look at the scoobies and then at Tara who smiled back at him.

"well you see the thing is guys" Buffy said eyeing Dawn "Spike and I are...well..together now" Buffy said sheepishly.

"Wow" Dawn said "This is so cool!" Willow just glared at her.

"Buffy we know that you've been going some things lately but you didn't need to go to spike for comfort we could of given you some" Willow quietly and yet strongly said.

"Not that kind of comfort luv" Spike smirked. which then lead to Buffy smacking him on the arm.

"what did I do?" he laughed. Buffy just gave him a look.

"That's beside the fact guys, Spike loves me and I--"

"Buffy do NOT say you love him" Xander pleaded, cutting her off.

"that's not what I was gonna say Xand, I was gonna say I appreciate it and I like him" Buffy eyed Spike to see what his reaction was. He was just standing there with a solemn face.

"So guess what guys whether you like it or not me and Spike are together...I need to do this, for reasons I don't wanna talk about right now but just please understand there is a reason I like him and its not because he is a sexy vampire...OK?"

"of course we understand Buffy, we all love you and support you" Dawn said as she smiled at her.

Amy chose this as a chance to speak " Well I am gonna get going, I should go see my dad he is still probably wondering where I am, I said I would come by and see him last night but that never happened" she laughed gazing at Willow. Tara caught the glace and raised an eyebrow at Willow. Willow just smiled and shook her head, to say 'no not that' knowing full well that Tara thought that, her and Amy were together.

"Well we'll see ya Amy" Xander said.

"Yea of course, oh and thanks again Buffy for letting me stay here, even when I was a rat"

"No problem" Buffy smiled and Amy walked out.

"Well if things are settled then I am just gonna go get me self some sleep, the slayer and I had a rough night" Spike said winking at Buffy. He then lent in and kissed her on the cheek. glanced one more time at the scoobies, hugged Dawn and started to walk out. He paused when Willow spoke up.

"Spike is staying over?" Willow sneaked.

"Yea is that a problem? Considering it is my house and all..."

"No, no problem just wondering" Willow said

"Spike...wait a minute I'll walk you up" Xander said

"Ooook sure"

Xander and Spike left the room and Buffy let out a breath of air. there was a moment of silence and then finally Tara spoke up.

"well since your all here are you hungry?"

"I know I am" Dawn said. Followed by nods from everyone else. As Tara continued to cook the rest of pancakes Dawn went and set the table.

Meanwhile upstairs...

"Spike I am happy for you" Xander said almost in a whisper as they reached the top of the

stairs. "Thanks mate"

"Not a problem, but it will be if you hurt her in anyway."

" I know that mate and do not intend to hurt her, I love her"

"I know that and that's why I am letting this go on"

"you think you could stop Buffy from doing something she wants to do whelp?"

"No but it wouldn't be hard to make her choose an alternative" Xander said threatenly " again I will say this Spike if you hurt her you will get staked"

Spike just laughed "by you construction boy? Please!"

"No maybe not by me but I am pretty sure that Dead boy won't be happy about this when he hears about it"

"Fuck the poof, he can shove his brooding attitude up his arse!"

Xander laughed at that. He looked at Spike ant thought for a minute. "You know what Spike I don't wanna hate you, I don't think I have hated you for awhile, so what do you say, I just gave you and Buffy my blessings-"

"you call that a blessing" Spike smirked as they came up to the spare room door.

"Yes! But anyway how bout you and I try to be friends?" Spike was taken aback, he didn't know what to say. He wanted to be friends with the whelp. He actually wanted to friends with the whole lot. But he didn't want them to be friends with him just cause he was dating Buffy. 'Oh fuck it' Spike thought.

"Ok then whelp, I don't mind..as long as you don't kill me I can live with that"

"you can't live with that Spike your dead" Xander quipped.

"Whatever!"

Spike moved to open the door when he realized that Buffy hadn't been up here to cover the windows.

"Umm, whelp would you mind going in there before me and covering the windows?" Spike asked

" sure why not...don't want Buffy's new sex monkey to get fried" Xander laughed.

"Thanks mate, I appreciate it"

Xander went in first and covered the windows with some of the blankets from the spare room closet.

"There you go bleach boy, enjoy"

"Thanks again mate"

"No problem" Xander said casually " well I better be getting down stairs smells like the girls are almost done with breakfast"

"ok then" spike said " oh and whelp, glad to know that you approve.."

Xander just nodded and walked away as Spike went to bed.

As Xander entered the dinning room he heard laughing from the girls. They were all seated at the table drinking orange juice. Except for Dawn who had just appeared carrying a tray with plates of bacon and pancakes.

"You guys still haven't said why you came over earlier" Buffy said.

"Well....Xander and I were having very nice sex last night in the Bronze womens' bathroom when Amy and Willow walked in!!" Anya said half-upset, beginning their tale.

"Anya Dawn is in the room!" Xander said blushing.

"Guys I am not a child I can hear this stuff!!!" Dawn growled.

"Sure you are Dawnie...." Willow said " So anyway after some 'eww yucks' from Amy and I we asked Xander and Anya if they wanted to join us"

"And we said yea sure what do you guys wanna do" Xander filled in.

"And I say 'no idea' and then Amy suggests we go to LA.!" Willow said

"We wound up going to this Karioke Bar" Anya said laughing.

"Yea and when we got there, guess who we saw singing on stage?" Xander asked

"who?" Buffy asked

"Dead Boy and Queen C they were doing a duet!" Xander said laughing.

"Oh my..." Buffy said trying to hold back giggles.

"So anyway we each did a number and then we meet this guy named, The Host or as dead boy called him, Lorne" Willow said remembering Xander on stage, trying to repress a laugh.

"He reads people Aura's" Anya said.

"What a Aura?" Dawn asked

"Well I am not sure Dawnie but I think it has something to do with your destiny or something.."

"Oh" Dawn said.

"Yea well according to Lorne each of us has a specific purpose to do good and help the slayer but we each need to accept it fully before we will know our full potential" Xander said

"Does this include Amy?" Buffy asked.

"Yes actually, Lorne said that Amy will face darkness and be tempted to join it but she must not lose faith and trust her instincts" willow replied "that's all she told me.., But anyway the reason we came over to see you was because we wanted to know how you were and thought maybe we could tell you what happened, a kinda make you laugh sorta thing"

"Did Angel say anything about me?" Buffy quietly asked. The thought of Angel singing still hadn't left her mind.

"I almost forgot, Yea, he asked how you were and how you were adjusting and such and told us to say hi for him...so Angel says 'hi"" Willow said quickly.

"Ok then" Buffy said and they all ate. They finished they're breakfast and Buffy said that she needed to go take a shower and then get some sleep. Dawn had no school cause it was Saturday so she decided to go over to Janice's, Xander and Anya headed home and Willow asked Tara to stay so they could talk but Tara suggested that they go to her house so they left and Buffy was all alone in a house with Spike. A very naked Spike she noticed as she checked in on him after her shower. 'Oh well' Buffy thought 'Its' probably better that he's asleep I might be tempted to do something naughty' she giggled and went to bed.

She couldn't get to sleep. She kept thinking about Spike in the next room. 'Damn it' Buffy cursed inside her head. 'Well as long as I'm here I might as well think about the me and Spike thing.' and so Buffy thought. Weighing the pro's and con's of a relationship with Spike.

And finally she made a decision and this time she knew she was making the right one for all the right reasons.

End Chapter 2

The Dream- Chapter 3

As soon as she had made her decision Buffy's attempt at sleep was no trouble. Buffy soon found her self dreaming. She was in a room bathed in white, and she wore a white gown that shimmered in the light that the room provided. It was cut straight at the height of her cleavage and it flowed straight up and down. Its straps were thick and lay directly over her shoulders. She slowly turned around taking in her surroundings. There was nothing in the room but what appeared to be a doorway. It looked rather familiar to her but she couldn't put her finger on where she had seen it before. Suddenly she heard a whoosh, like the sound of someone appearing. She turned towards the sound to see a man. He was about 5'8 with brown hair and a soft featured face. He looked rather godlike in appearance as she gazed at him curiously she noted that he was wearing a gown just like hers but more manly and in gold. He smiled at her and began to speak.

"Hello Buffy" he said nonchantly. She noticed that he had a Irish accent and he was becoming more and more familiar to her and yet she couldn't remember from where.

"Hello...umm not to be rude but what is going on?"

"always asking questions, just like last time." he laughed

"there was a last time?" she asked.

"Yes the last time you were here it was because you were being judged and such before you went to what you would call heaven, how quickly you forget" he smiled "but you obviously you didn't stay there long now did you lass?"

"I guess not" she replied her anger coming "but believe me that was not my doing, my friends they thought I was in --"

"Hell?" he said quizzically

"Yes...."she said glumly.

"now why would they think something stupid like that? you are a slayer, the best slayer, and you died doing a selfless act...sounds like a rather strange assumption if you ask me"

"I didn't ask... and I understood there actions and I don't blame them, but of course what you just said sounds true as well" Buffy said quietly.

"well then as long as you forgive them I suppose that's all that matters, on your part..."

"what do you mean on my part? who are you?"Buffy said quickly.

"You don't remember me?"

"No" she said forcefully

"You met me briefly about 2 yrs ago, I used to help Angel...the name is Doyle"

"I remember you, when I went to go see Angel at thanksgiving you were there, you have visions don't you?"

"I used to...I was made to give that gift to Cordy..." he said glumly "when you see her again can you tell I am sorry for that?"

"yea sure..." Buffy said "if you died why aren't you in heaven?"

"well the powers' thought it would be better if I was to an oracle, they seem to think that I have a way with people, at least I am better than the brother and sister team, anyway the reason you are here". There was a pause and then Buffy spoke.

"So I am not dreaming am I?"

"no..well you are in a sorts I suppose..this is the Powers that be's way of contacting you". Suddenly another man appeared wearing the same clothes as Doyle. He was short and kinda fat. Buffy almost immediately recognized him as Whistler.

"Hello Buffy, it's a pleasure to see you again" Whistler said.

"I am sure it is" Buffy said dryly "can someone please tell me why the Powers' that be are contacting me when I sleep?" she said getting almost angry, she didn't like getting interrupted from sleep, she couldn't get much of it these days. 'oh well' she thought 'at least it's a change from the nightmares'

"Well" Doyle began "we have become aware of your err well situation with William"

"yea so?"

"So the powers want to make sure if you know what you getting yourself into...the last vampire that entered your life like this was Angel and we all know how that story goes"

Whistler said.

"Yes, well most of us know the whole story, our dear slayer here doesn't" Doyle said addressing Whistler.

"What are you talking about? of course I know the whole story! Hello, my life guys"

"No Buffy, you do not know the whole story.." Whistler said cautiously.

"Huh?" Buffy said greatly confused. Then suddenly there was a flash and Buffy fainted.

Meanwhile back in Sunnydale...

"Tara, how come you are supporting this?" Willow asked

"because Buffy deserves this! She has been through so much I think that she has at least earned a little happiness...and if Spike is the one that makes her happy than let her be happy!" Tara said angerly and yet not very convincingly.

"there is more to this Tara I can tell...Why do you want Buffy and Spike together?" Willow said almost pleading to Tara to change her mind.

"W-W-illow I-I did a spell almost a month ago...just before Sweets' arrival...I did a seeing spell" Tara confessed.

"You looked into the future? did you look at mine? is that why you want me to stop using magic?" willow said, she was upset and when Tara didn't answer it made her more frantic.

"Tara what happens to me? Do I do something bad?!"

"I am not going to tell you because I know that it won't matter.."Tara said quietly.

"Tell me!!"

"You kill me..ok? are you happy now that I told you?" Tara said almost in tears.

"w-what?"

"you use a mind spell on me and suck all my power and kill me..." Tara bawled.

"oh my god Tara..I am so sorry!"willow said crying "Is that why you were so upset when I used that forgetting spell on you?"

"I had every right to get mad Willow, you are you using to much magic! despite what I know, this is bad for you!!" Tara said almost ready to scream.

"Tara, I swear no more magic, I quit now." Willow said pleading. Tara looked into her eyes and saw the ring a regret and pain in her eyes. she knew that willow wanted to stop.

"Alright Willow, we will try and cheat fate...but if you do one spell, one incantation...I *will* bind you magic!" Tara said taking charge.

"ok...do what you have to do to me..I can't lose you Tara...I love you!"

"I know you do...I love you too"

"So what happens with Buffy and Spike?" Willow asked trying to get the subject off of her.

"Buffy is in love with him....she doesn't know it yet but she will soon. If I remember correctly she is brought before the Powers that be and they make her realize it. Spike

is to be redeemed Willow and the only one that can give him a soul is Buffy" Tara revealed. "her happiness depends on it...at first I wasn't happy about it, just like you and everyone else, but after I thought about it I realized that Buffy needs this. When we brought her back she came back different she came back...." Tara suddenly stopped.

"she came back what Tara?" willow asked.

"I can't tell you Will..."

"why not?"

"because then some things that are to happen for Buffy won't happen and she needs them to happen" Tara said quietly.

"alright, I won't ask then, even though I still wanna know, but I will back off..I know when to stop when it come to you" willow smiled.

"I will tell you this though, Spike does love her Will, more than you can ever know"

"As long as he doesn't hurt her..."

"If he does Willow...it isn't our problem, its theirs"

"alright" Willow said getting off the subject. "so does this mean were back together??"



Buffy awoke to the sound of Doyle and Whistler talking, she sat up slowly for she was still in a bit of shock. She remembered it, Angel was human, for a day, and she was with him, like a normal...Buffy began to sob.

"Uh oh" Doyle said. He lent down and touched Buffy shoulder as she a sat crouched on the floor.

"Are you alright Buffy?" Doyle asked concerned. He too had remembered that day and could imagine what kind of pain she was in right now. Buffy sniffled and stood up.

"yes" she said coldly "what's done is done I guess"

"yes, quite" Whistler said. There was a pause and then Buffy spoke.

"So what has any of this have to do with Spike and my decision regarding the two of us? you said the Powers' wanted to make sure I knew what I was doing, and I do"

"Do you love him?" Whistler said very bluntly.

"THAT is non of your damn business" Buffy said annoyed.

"actually, my dear it is, if you love William then you were brought here rightly, but if you don't than you can go." Whistler said

"what if I don't know?" Buffy said challenging the little man "what if I don't fucking know, huh? what then? what if my decision was made because I want to find out if I do?"

"then your decision to be with william was the correct one" whistler said quietly.

"fine, then can I go?" Buffy asked

"no you can't" came a female voice. Buffy spun and she nearly jumped when she who it was.

"Mom?"

Chapter 3 TBC.

Approvals and Suprises- Chapter 4



Buffy was taken aback, she had been with her mother when she was in heaven and then when Willow did the spell she was taken away so fast that she didn't even get to say goodbye.

"hello honey" Joyce said happily.

"mom, thank god I thought that I wouldn't get a chance to say good bye again.." Buffy said relieved.

"well now you do but there is another reason why I am here" joyce said sternly.

"what mom?"

"You and Spike..." she said

"not you too mom? are you gonna try and convince me not to be with him?" Buffy asked

stunned.

"no honey I'm not, and I don't think thats the powers' intentions honey. I came to say congratulations and give you two my blessings. even when Spike was evil, I liked him, he seemed so kind and passionate when we had our little talks. I liked him more than any of the other guys in your life. Angel well when I met him he tried to kill you and Riley was always so...well weak. He didn't seem like the type of man for my daughter." Joyce smiled then and reached for Buffy who immediately came towards her and they hugged. "I know your confused as to who you are after Willow brought you back, but honey please remember that first and foremost you are Buffy Summers, my daughter, a friend to many, and Dawn's sister. I know you already know that Dawn needs you honey, but you have to remember that things aren't always what they seem. Dawn is growing up and she isn't our little Dawnie anymore. She has been doing some things lately that you don't know about, and I want you to handle it as soon as possible. Dawn has a purpose and it can't be wasted by what she is doing"

"what is she doing mom?" Buffy asked.

"that is something you need to find out for yourself, but at least now you know she is doing something" Joyce hugged her daughter again "I believe that you can do this honey and with Spike by your side it will be much more easier, he cares for Dawn and he loves you, let him in to your heart Buffy, so that you may be truly alive."

Buffy looked down at thought for a minute. She knew that Spike loved her and she also knew that he would do anything for Dawn, he had already proved that before time and again. Buffy knew that if she let Spike in her heart that there was a big chance that she would get hurt, especially if he left her like Riley and Angel.

"Mom what if he leaves me?"

"honey I can tell you one thing, and I want you to remember it always, alright?"

"ok"

"life isn't easy, and love is worse, but you need to hold on to it. You can't go through life wondering whether or not you'll get hurt, you need to make that sacrifice in order to find

what you want"

"but what if I never find it mom?"

"you'll find it honey, in fact I think you already have" Joyce said smiling.

"yea I think that you may be right mom" Buffy said realisation hitting her. Spike made her feel alive, more alive than ever before, and maybe just maybe it was because of love?.

"uhh humm" Whistler coughed. "it's time for you to be going Buffy"

"alright" she answered sadly looking at her mom.

"I love you Buffy, always remember that ok? and tell Dawn that I love and miss her too."

"ok mom..I love you so much too" and they hugged for a minute, Buffy almost in tears.

"oh Buffy before I forget, I know that you have been having some money problems, and there was something in my will that was left out."

"what mom?" Buffy asked curious.

"I want you to go to Los Angeles and go to the LA Imperial Bank and ask the Bank manager for the money from Joyce Johnston’s account, all you have to do is take my Death certificate and some of your own ID and it won't be a problem."

"ok, but mom why did you still have that account?"

"It was money that my father left me when he died, that I never touched because I was planning on saving it for your wedding..." a tear fell from Joyce's eye and Buffy wiped it away.

"Thanks mom, I love you" she said the she kissed her mother on the cheek and she disappeared.

"Buffy, there is one more thing before we let you go" Doyle said

"Yea?"

"You and William are in fact destined to be partners, that is why you were brought here, we wanted to tell you that your feelings for him are approved and welcomed, but you must know that there will be hard times ahead for you and the ones you care for. Your resurrection is

still being reviewed by the council of oracles, obviously we were not pleased completely but at least we have one of our best warriors back fighting the good fight" Whistler said smiling and Doyle nodded.

"That’s good to know, but what is gonna happen to me?" Buffy said

"we can't tell you that, rules and such...goodbye Buffy, I hope the next time we see each other it isn't because your being merited for your life...." Doyle said

"Goodbye Doyle" she said and went and kissed him on the cheek. Doyle smiled surprised.

"and Whistler, well what can I say...." Buffy said.

"you don't need to say anything Buffy, I know what your thinking, ' the little fat man is being annoying again, I'm glad I am almost rid of him' " Whistler said sadly.

"no actually I was gonna say, Thanks and its been nice" Buffy said and Whistler beamed.

"Goodbye guys." and she disappeared with a flash.

*****

Buffy woke to the sound of the shower running from across the hall. She smiled remembering what her mother had told her and what she had made Buffy realize. Had she really found real love? she sure hoped so cause she so wanted it to be real this time.

Buffy got up and put on her robe and walked out of the room and right into the bathroom. She almost burst into giggles when she heard Spike singing in the shower. Especially considering he was singing a song by Nickleback. Buffy sat down on the mirror chair for a second and

then she got an idea. She stood up and took off her gown and then quickly slipped into the shower with Spike.

"Ahh!! God Slayer what the fuck are you doing" Spike said shocked and appearing a bit annoyed, but Buffy could see the delight in Spike eyes from seeing her naked in the

shower with him.

"I made my decision Spike" she said and kissed him hard.

"If that's a no than I wanna a yes" spike said when she finished kissing him.

"Its yes Spike, lets try this thing, you and me, for real, no games, no one night stands, no LEAVING!" she said.

"Luv, I would never leave you, and if I did I would have a good god damn reason I assure you"

"good to know" Buffy said and they kissed some more in the shower.

Suddenly they heard someone coming up the stairs. Spike reached and turned off the shower and Buffy got out and got him a towel and then put on her robe.

"Hello?" Buffy said going out into the hall. She stopped when she saw Tara.

"Buffy, Hi" Tara said meekly.

"Hi Tara, umm not that I mind but what are you doing here?"

"well, umm y-you see I came over to umm h-help Willow pack her things"

"ok, can I ask why?" Buffy said, Spike coming up behind her and kissing her neck.

"gonna go get dressed Luv" Buffy nodded and he went to the guest room.

"W-well Willow and I are back together, and we decided it would be best if we made a fresh start, Willow is moving into my new apartment" Tara said as Willow came up the stairs.

"Hi Buffy" Willow said cheerily.

"Hi, so you two are back together and your moving out to live with Tara?" Buffy asked

"Yea, Buffy I love you, and I loved staying here but we both agreed, I hope you don't mind"

"No its no bother to me I was just wanting to make sure" Buffy said looking sad.

"Buffy please don't be sad or upset, I just wanted to start new, with no magic and everything"

"I understand Willow don't worry" Buffy said smiling

"Oh and plus Buffy you and Spike can have the master bedroom" Willow said.

"ok one, I just made my decision to try a relationship with him a ½ an hour ago, two,

good idea and three, I gotta know why you guys are suddenly so supportive of this"

"Buffy, all I have to say is, if the powers' support you, its easier for us to support you, were your friends and we love you" willow said clearly supportive and much more happier than earlier. Out of the corner of her eye Buffy saw Tara's jaw drop in shock

"How did you know about the Powers' supporting me and spike will?" Buffy asked, then suddenly Spike stepped out of the bedroom in a pair of jeans and a red t-shirt.

"what's this about the powers?" Spike asked and they all looked at Willow, Buffy and Spike in wonder and Tara in shock

End Ch 4

Fire and Passion- chapter 5



"Well umm well..." Tara said starting to recover from her shocked state.

"Guys, I think we all need to talk" Buffy said calmly, very curious as to what was going on.

"alright then..Buffy, luv, go get dressed and Willow, Tara and I will go make us some

Coffee and we'll meet you in the living room.." Spike said

Buffy nodded and walked into her room as he, Tara and Willow started down the stairs.

When the three reached the kitchen, Spike finally spoke.

"what is going on her witches?"

"Well you see spike, I did a spell to see the future, cause I wanted to know what would

happen to willow and I found out something" Tara said

"Yea and?"

"and I will tell you when Buffy comes down" Tara said sternly

Spike glared at her a bit and then went to making the coffee, thanking whoever that it

was night and he didn't have to avoid the kitchen window. he had already burnt himself a

bit earlier. finally after Tara, willow and spike had brought the coffee into the living room Buffy came down.

She sat down next to Spike on the couch and waited for someone to start. when no one

did she began.

"I don't know how you knew about this will, but I might as well tell you what happened,

that is unless you already know?"

"no I don't know the whole story, all I know is what Tara told me" Willow said looking

down to the floor.

"Tara? how the hell do you know?" Buffy asked

"about a week before Sweet's arrival I did a seeing spell. I wanted to know what was

gonna happen with willow and then I took a peek at yours Buffy..." Tara said ashamed

"oh, well umm I don't know what to say?" Buffy said "I suppose I should be angry but

I am not. not sure why though"

"Buffy I'm sorry, its just that when I noticed that you were distant and not your self,

I wanted to know why, I never found out you were heaven, until the thing with sweet

but please believe me I had the b-best intention"

"I know Tara." Buffy said calmly

"Anyway, about the powers' Buffy, what the fuck is going on" spike said breaking the

awkwardness.

"Well, earlier I was having trouble falling asleep, so I wrestled with my mind for awhile

until I made my decision about you and I" she said addressing Spike and then winking.

"and then suddenly I fell asleep and found myself in a room, bathed in white. Turns out it

was a meeting room of oracles or something. anyway I meet this guy named Doyle, who

I had met when I to meet Angel at thanksgiving 2 years ago, he died awhile back and the

powers' turned him into an oracle. anyway, we start to talk a bit and whistler arrives and

tells me some things" Buffy paused and then began again "and then asks me if I love you

Spike, I told him I didn't know..."Buffy told the rest of the story as the others listened

attentively. when she finished everyone was quiet.

"wow" willow said

"yea" Tara echoed.

"Joyce is ok with us?" Spike said obviously in a small state of shock.

Buffy, Tara and Willow laughed. Buffy leaned over and kissed Spike lightly on the lips.

He smiled at her in a bit of surprise and was about to speak when Tara did first.

"Buffy, there is something else, you and Spike have something that you never have had

before, am I correct?"

"yes, I never came out and said it, and I never really thought about it but...we have...

fire, and passion, its what made me decide to try this thing with you Spike. That night in

building was so passionate, it was the most....."

"I know luv, you don't need to say it" Spike said smiling.

"Building?" Willow and Tara asked at the same time.

"Long story, that, no offense, you too don't need to know" Buffy said and then laughed.

"Buffy, your...well how do I say this,...you again" Willow said overjoyed to have her

friend back to normal.

"I know will, I found a reason to live" Buffy said smiling at Spike, who's eyes were dancing

with delight.

"that's good Buffy, its great to have you back" Willow said getting up and hugging Buffy

After a few more minutes of conversation, Willow and Tara went upstairs, to go finish

packing Willow's stuff.

"well Buffy, looks like your stuck with me" Spike said smiling with a smirk.

"yea I guess so" Buffy said leaning in to him more, and pulling him into a passionate kiss

and then the phone rang. Spike growled a bloody hell and reached over and answered it.

"Hello"

*pause*

"Wow, well if it isn't the great poof, how's it going" Spike said indifferently, receiving a

light smack from Buffy.

*pause*

"what am I doing answering Buffy's phone you ask?" he said smiling at Buffy who just

tried to contain a giggle, knowing very well what Angel's reaction was.

*pause*

"Do you wanna talk to her, she's right here next to me, all snug and warm" Spike said

handing the phone to Buffy, laughing as he did.

"Hello Angel"

"Buffy, what is going on?" Angel said almost angry

"Nothing why?" she answered

"NOTHING? Spike just answered your fucking phone Buffy, and your right there!"

"So?" she said laughing as Spike began to kiss her neck.

"whatever Buffy!!!" Angel said obviously greatly annoyed.

"Not that I mind Angel, but why are you calling?" she said trying to very hard to suppress

a moan as spike nibbled on her ear.

"Its Cordy" Angel said getting right to business.

"what about her?" Buffy said a bit concerned.

"She had a vision, about you" Angel said

"uhuh??? and?"

"You were brought before the powers' and shown something were you not?" Angel

asked his voice suddenly emotional. Buffy looked at Spike and he stopped nibbling on

her neck.

"Angel, they told me, and at first I was upset, really upset actually, but now I am as much

over it as I can be. considering..." she said, starting to get upset. Spike noticed it and pulled her to him and kissed her hair not saying a word as she continued to talk to Angel. He knew that they needed to talk and he wasn't about to stand in the way. He wanted and needed Buffy happy.

"Angel, I have to come to LA in the next couple days, I'll come by and we can talk about

this then alright?"

"fine, why do you need to come to LA?"

"I have to do some business, concerning my mom" she said slightly sad, remembering what

her mom had said.

"oh, well then I'll see you then" Angel said quietly.

"ok, bye"

"bye Buffy"

and she hung up.

Spike looked at her, not saying a word, and after a minute kissed her forehead.

"I love you Buffy" he said finally.

She looked up at his face, that was full of worry and smiled slightly.

"I know..." she said quietly " I love you too Spike".

Just as he was about to say something. Dawn came through the front door. Just as Willow and Tara were leaving.

"Later Buffy, Spike..Dawn! hey we were just leaving see you later, Buffy I'll call you in the morning" Willow said in the door frame.

"your leaving willow?" Dawn asked.

"Yea I moved out..." Willow answered. She smiled at Dawn, gave her hug and left.

"So guys, what’s up?" Dawn asked as she sat down on the chair across from Buffy and Spike.

Buffy and Spike looked at each other, and then Buffy spoke.

"Not much, How do you feel about you, me and Spike going to LA?"

"really Buffy?" Dawn asked surprised.

"Yea, really" Buffy said smiling at her sisters' enthusiasm.

"COOL!!" Dawn said jumping for joy "when do we go?"

"Tomorrow night" Spike said.

"ok cool" Dawn said still bubbling with enthusiasm."why are we going to LA"

"Dawn, we need to tell you something...." Buffy said

End Chapter 5.

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