If You Wanna Go My Way

by Mac

A/N: This takes place in season three before Lover’s Walk. B/S, W/O, X/C, A/F The gang knows that Angel is back. Feedback please! This is my first fic so be nice. Warning: consensual and non-consensual.

Disclaimer: I own none of the characters. They all belong to Joss and to whomever else this may concern.

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~Chapter 1~

“Mmm,” Buffy moaned under Spike. The air was hot and smelled of sex.

“You feel so good luv,” Spike said. Their bodies were intimately joined together. They rocked back and forth tangled in Buffy’s bed sheets. Spike reached down between them and rubbed Buffy’s clit repeatedly.

“Oh, Spike!” she screamed as she came. “I love you!”

Buffy woke up with a start. Her legs were sticky with her own juices. She looked at the cloak. It read 4:38 a.m. Buffy groaned. It was the third time this week she had had a sexy dream about Spike. ‘Spike is bad,’ she scolded herself, ‘You love Angel.’

Buffy met Willow and Xander by her locker at school that morning. “Hey Buff,” Xander greeted her. “Feel like Bronzing it tonight?”

“Yea, you need a night off to try to get in the modern swing of things after being away for three months,” added Willow.

“I am in the swing,” Buffy answered quickly. “I’m swinging away.”

“Ok,” said Xander. “Meet us at eight?”

“Sounds good,” said Buffy. The three friends walked off to class.

Buffy walked into the Bronze at eight-fifteen. She had run into four vamps on the way, she wondered what was rousing them up. She spotted Willow and Xander with Oz and Cordy. She didn’t want to intrude on their ‘coupling session’ so she went to get a coke. Truth be told, things were kind of boring between her and Angel these days. She wanted more, but Angel treated her like a child. She was a woman, not a little girl. She didn’t need to be told what to do or take things slowly. She knew perfectly well what she wanted. “Hey Buffy,” the gang greeted her. She sat down at their table. “What’s up?”

“Oh nothing out of the ordinary, just dusted a few vamps on my way over,” she replied.

“They seem restless these days,” Will said. The gang murmured in agreement. Buffy yawned.

“I have to go,” she announced. “I haven’t gotten a good night’s rest in a while. I am going to go home and sleep.”

“Ok,” said Will. “We’ll see you tomorrow.” They gang said their good-byes.

When Buffy got home Angel was sitting on her bed, waiting for her. “Hi Angel,” Buffy said, “We need to talk.” She sat down beside him on the bed. None of them said anything for a minute. Buffy continued, “Angel you have to agree that things haven’t been going well for a while.”

Angel looked at her startled and then his faced softened. He nodded in agreement, “You’re right.”

Buffy finally said, “I think we should stop seeing each other. This is never going to work. I love you, but you are 200 and something years old and I am just going on eighteen.”

“I can’t believe you’re breaking up with me,” said Angel, in a daze. “I thought we’d be together forever. Buffy are you sure?”

“Yes, Angel I need time,” she said.

“Time for what?” asked Angel, confused.

“Time to live, replied Buffy. “Angel not every body lives as long as you I can’t just sit around for a century.”

“B-“ Angel started.

“Just leave it Angel!” Buffy snapped. “This is hard for me too but this conversation is over.”

Angel walked off into the night and went home. Meanwhile Buffy cried herself to sleep

~Chapter 2~

The next morning Buffy walked into the library. Cordy, Xander, Oz, Will, and Giles were all there. “Man Buffy,” Cordy commented, “You look awful.”

“Thanks so much Cordy,” Buffy replied icily. “I knew I could count on you.”

“Oh Buffy! What happened?” asked Willow.

“Angel and I broke up last night,” Buffy answered.

“That’s gotta be harsh,” said Oz.

“Oh dear!” muttered Giles.

“That’s awful!” Xander exclaimed. Everyone looked at him with a surprised expression on their face.

“I thought you didn’t like Angel,” said Oz.

“I don’t. I’m just saying it for Buffy’s sake.”

At lunch Willow asked Buffy, “Do you want to come over tonight and watch ‘Steel Magnolias’? I can comfort you in saying at least your not diabetic.”

Buffy smiled, “That’s ok. I think I am going to beat up some nasties tonight.”

“Are you sure? Maybe you should wait awhile. You have a lot of things on your mind and you could get hurt,” Willow said.

“I always risk the chance of getting hurt on patrol Will. I’ll be fine. I can’t slow down now with the increase of demons we’ve had.”

Buffy walked off. Willow sighed and went to find Oz.

~Chapter 3~

That night Buffy slayed 15 vamps, a chaos demon, and a R’ake demon. She found herself heading to Willy’s. She sat down at the bar. Its accompanist looked at her strangely. “Willy, give me beer,” she ordered.

“I.D.?” Willy asked.

“How about a punch on the nose?” said Buffy.

Willy quickly got her a beer and another, and another. Buffy was starting to get woozy when someone walked into the bar. She didn’t bother to look up to see who it was. An all too familiar British voice asked for a whisky. Buffy looked up and right beside her was Spike. “This makes my day complete,” she commented.

“Fancy meeting you ‘ere slayer,” Spike replied. He took the stool next to her. Buffy didn’t really care. She didn’t want to fight anymore. Tonight was about her.

“I thought I told you never to come back here, Spike,” said Buffy.

“I do what I please,” replied Spike. “Shouldn’t you be slaying?”

“Faith’s on it,” replied Buffy.

“Ah, the other slayer,” said Spike. He took a sip of his drink. “I kinda like the chit.”

An hour later Buff and Spike were almost completely drunk. “So I find Dru making out with a chaos demon,” explained Spike. “She said she was tired of me and needed to move on.”

“I am so glad I broke up with Angel,” Buffy exclaimed. “He was always more like a brother than a boyfriend.”

“Ok guys we’re closing up,” said Willy. Buffy and Spike walked out onto the street.

They laughed. “At least we got rid of them,” said Spike. He tucked a piece of hair behind Buffy’s ear.

“Yea,” Buffy whispered. They started at each other. Suddenly their faces were very close. Spike leaned in and captured Buffy’s lips. Buffy leaned into the kiss, opening her mouth to grant Spike entrance. Their tongues danced. Buffy ground against Spike. His member was becoming hard and she knew it.

Spike pulled away. “Slayer,” he said, “Wanna shag?"

“If you wanna go my way,” replied Buffy.

~Chapter 4~

Ten minutes later the Buffy and Spike stumbled into Spike’s hotel room. “Nice,” said Buffy. Spike turned her around.

“Not as nice as you, luv,” he replied.

Buffy crushed her lips against his. She nipped at them playfully and then out lined them with her tongue. Spike opened his mouth and their tongues mated. Buffy swirled her tongue around Spike’s. Spike groaned, his pants were way too tight. His swollen member pressed against his zipper. Buffy’s moans didn’t help. He had dreamed about it too, He and Buffy having hot, naked sex. The thought made him harder, if that was possible. He backed her into the bedroom.

All the curtains in the whole room were closed to keep the sun out. She ran her hands through his blond curls. Her breasts were up against his chest. Spike reached down and grabbed the hem of her tank top pulling the shirt up over her head. He threw it behind him and was delighted to see she wore no bra. His mouth immediately attached to one of her nipples. He bit down gently on one while needing the other.

“Oh Spike!” Buffy whispered. She finally got him off her long enough to get his shirt off. He was wearing his red button down shirt with a black t-shirt underneath. Buffy thought he looked very sexy. She quickly unbuttoned his red shirt and ripped his t-shirt off of him.

“Hey, that was a good shirt!” protested Spike.

“You have fifty others that are the same, baby,” she said. He was so beautiful. His washboard abs shone in the moonlight. Buffy gasped. She pushed Spike onto the bed and fell on top of him.

“Are you sure, pet?” Spike asked. He wanted to make sure.

“Yes!” she exclaimed. He unbuttoned her pants and pulled them down her legs, along with her panties. Spike flipped them over and knelt in between her legs. Beneath him Buffy was shaking. She only had had sex once before. What if she wasn’t any good, like Angel said? All thoughts left her head when Spike’s finger brushed over her clit. “Ahh!” she breathed. Spike’s head dipped down between her legs. He attacked he clit his tongue. Buffy was in a frenzy. Her head thrashed around on the pillow. “Spike,” she complained.

“Something I can do for you pet?” Spike asked innocently.

“You know what, you idiot!”

“Now, now love no need for name calling,” Spike smirked.

He continued to play with her clit and trust two fingers in her. Buffy started to convulse around his hand. He added another finger. “Mmm!” Buffy moaned as she came. Spike kept pumping his fingers prolonging her orgasm.

Buffy lay back on her pillow, spent. She knew they were far from being over. Spike crawled up her body, while licking her juices off his hand. He couldn’t wait to see what she felt like. “You ok, pet?” he asked.

“Never been better,” Buffy smiled contently. Spike rolled on top of her a started kissing her everywhere. He started with her lips then moved to her neck and collarbone. Buffy stiffened when his human teeth grazed over her neck.

“Don’t worry luv, I wouldn’t do it if you didn’t want it,” he assured her. Buffy breathed a sigh of relief and let her body relax.

She suddenly realized that Spike’s pants were still on. ‘Should I take them off?’ She felt the huge bulge against her thigh. ‘I guess that’s a yes,’ she laughed inwardly. Her hands reached down and unbuttoned his pants. He shrugged them off. Buffy looked down ‘My, he’s rather large!’ She unconsciously rubbed her pelvis against his.

“Bloody ‘ell, pet, you’re killing me,” Spike growled.

His lips met against hers. Their tongues mingled for a bit. Spike rubbed his length against Buffy’s clit. She gasped. “Ready luv?” he asked. She nodded. He slowly inserted his member into her. With one thrust he filled her.

The intense pleasure beyond what she had remembered. Spike moved his hips slightly to make sure she was adjusted to him. He started thrusting in and out. Buffy didn’t remember what to do. Her time with Angel was brief. He had gone slowly. Now she did what felt right. Her hips started to move in time with his.

“You’re so bloody tight!” Spike said. She was like a bloody inferno. Spike filled her completely and perfectly.

“Perfect… fit,” she managed to get out. She and Spike stared straight into each other’s eyes. Spike looked down at her.

“Cor, you’re bloody beautiful,” he said. He reached down to stroke her clit. Buffy started to shake. Her muscles fluttered around Spike. Spike had to control himself to keep from vamping out. He pumped faster. Buffy could see that he was struggling. Then she didn’t know why she did it. Maybe she was too drunk? Maybe she was caught in the moment? Maybe she was just plain crazy? She told him to do it. Drink from me.

“It’s ok,” she said. She brought his mouth to her neck. Spike vamped out and sunk his teeth into her tender flesh.

“You’re mine!” he growled possessively.

Buffy climaxed with a shout, “Forever.”

With a final thrust Spike came deep within her. They were both so drunk and satisfied neither one of them noticed the mystical cloud swirling above their heads.

~Chapter 5~

Buffy woke the next morning. She had a splitting headache. The room she was in didn’t look familiar. She sat up quickly. Suddenly all of last night’s memories flooded her mind. ‘Oh god, I didn’t.’ She looked over to see if HE was still there. The other side of the bed was empty. She didn’t know weather to rejoice or be sad. ‘Not again,’ her mind told her. ‘You must be really bad.’ She looked over, there was a note on the nightstand. She opened it and read:

Dear Buffy,

Last night was incredible. You were wonderful love. I am sorry it had to be like this. I must leave to get some things sorted out. I will come back when the time is right. I am still the big bad.

Your mortal enemy,

Spike

Buffy lay there, too sick to move. Her world was spinning. ‘Why do they always leave?’

~Chapter 6~

It had been two weeks since Spike had left. She saw no sign f him. His note was placed by her bedside. Buffy hadn’t eaten or slept very well since that night. The gang was starting to worry. They went to see Giles one afternoon. “Hey G-man, what’s up” asked Xander.

“I thought I told you never to call me that again,” was Giles reply.

“So, Giles, have you noticed Buffy acting a bit strange lately?” asked Will.

“Way to put it lightly, Will,” said Xander.

“Hey!” said Oz. Willow frowned.

“Well I admit Buffy’s been acting a bit strange but she just broke up with Angel and with Faith’s arrival she must be pressured,” Giles explained. “I’ll look into it.”

“Well you better start soon because she’s starting to get bags under her eyes,” muttered Cordy. Everyone looked at her. “What? I’m just saying.”

Later that night...

“So, how are things?” asked Giles. He was dressed in a pillow suit while Buffy was practicing fighting motives on him.

“Never,” punch “Better,” she answered.

“I see,” Giles muttered.

“Giles,” kick “If you’ve got something to say just,” flip “Say it,” she said. Buffy went to get a drink of water. Giles took his pillow suit off.

“We’re just worried about you Buffy,” Giles said. “You don’t seem as, um, peppy as you normally are.” He sat down next to Buffy.

“I am all right Giles,” she assured him. “I know I seem off but really, I’ll be ok.”

“If you’re sure Buffy,” said Giles. “You know I’m here for you. I will always help you if you need it."

“I know,” said Buffy. They hugged. As he pulled back Giles noticed the bite marks on Buffy’s neck.

“What happened?” he asked. Buffy quickly put her hand up to cover the marks.

“Nothing!” she said, almost too quickly. Giles looked startled. “I mean nothing,” she said more slowly.

“We will continue this conversation in the morning,” stated Giles with that said he walked out of the library

~Chapter 7~

Buffy woke up and ran towards the bathroom. She threw up. It was the third morning in a row this had happened. “Are you okay, honey?” Joyce asked.

“Yes”, answered Buffy who rinsed out her mouth with some Scope. She searched the cabinet under the sink until she found what she was looking for, a pregnancy test.

She had bought them for emergencies in case something ever happened.

An hour later her fear was confirmed. She held two tests that read positive in her hand. ‘Well Giles is going to love this,’ she thought, as she got ready to go to school.

Later on at school

“Hey Buffy,” said Willow in her cheerful voice. Oz smiled a nodded.

“So do we have an impending apocalypse we need to worry about?” Xander laughed. Willow and Giles stared at him sternly. “What?” he said. “I was just joking around!”

“Well I’m ready for one,” Faith said.

“Can we please get this over with,” said Cordy. “I have a facial at four.”

“No guys,” she said. “Sorry to disappoint you but there is no apocalypse.” Everyone in the room breathed a sigh of relief. “I have something really serious to tell you all.” She looked down.

“What is it?” asked Will.

“Yeah Buff, whatever it is we’ll help you through it,” Xander reassured her. “You’re not getting back together with soul boy are you?”

“A world of no,” replied Buffy. She went on, “Guys I’m pregnant.” There was a moment of silence. “Someone, please, say something,” Buffy pleaded.

“Well,” said Cordy, “That would explain you gaining weight.” Xander elbowed her in the ribs.

“Hey!” exclaimed Buffy. “I haven’t gained weight yet!”

“You just keep telling yourself that,” shot back Cordy. Buffy moaned.

Faith piped up “Way to get ‘em B! Didn’t know you had it in you.”

“It is rather shocking” said Giles. “Who, may I ask, is the father?”

Buffy took a big sigh in before answering, “Well umm it’s, um, well it’s S-Spike?” she squeaked.

“SPIKE!?” the six said in union.

“Well... yeah,” Buffy replied.

“Dear lord,” Giles muttered and then fell into a dead faint on the floor.

“Giles,” Buffy exclaimed. She knelt down next to him. His eyes fluttered open.

“I’ll be alright," he said. Buffy helped him into a chair.

“Spike you say?” he asked in bewilderment.

“Yea about that…”

“Well I think we’re going to head out,” said Willow.

“Buffy congratulations we are very happy for you.” Willow understood, “We will support you all the way in whatever you want to do,”

The gang left Buffy and Giles in the library. “Well this is very interesting, Buffy,” Giles began. “Are you sure it was Spike?”

Buffy nodded, “Yes, he was the only one since Angel. Oh god! How am I going to tell Angel?”

“A slayer mating with a vampire,” Giles muttered. “Let me consult my books.” He went into his office as Buffy pondered over her thoughts.

“Of course here it is!” said Giles. He laid a book in front of Buffy.

A time will come

When the day is gray

Where the evil and good show her the way.

From a slayer and vampire she shall rise

But two will be reborn

Two will be mates

Another is to be

The youngest warrior of the three.

“My baby is going to fight with me?” asked Buffy. “Will she, um, it be normal?” Giles replied, “I don’t know Buffy. No slayer has lived long enough to get pregnant. Let alone by a vampire.”

“Well how would I know they could have kids,” said Buffy. “I thought they couldn’t. You just got to walk away the next day.”

“Well apparently not,” said Giles. “We will have to get you a doctor. I know a woman we can trust. The council won’t find out about it. If they did, they would take you and the baby. We can’t trust them. It would also be wise if we sought out Sp-"

Buffy shot up. “No!” she exclaimed. “He is never to find out about this.”

“Buffy,” Giles began.

“No, Giles never!” with that she walked out.

~Chapter 8~ Revelations

Buffy was on her usual patrol that night. Angel had decided to join her. There was an odd silence between the two.

“Buffy,” Angel said, “I know we’re in an awkward situation but you could at least talk to me.”

“We?” asked Buffy. “When did you become a part of it?”

“Look Buffy, I was in the relationship too.”

“You know nothing about it!” said she. “You were not in it. You don’t have to take care of this child, or whatever the hell it is.” She was getting angrier by the second.

Angel looked stunned. “What child?” he asked. “Buffy, did something happen?”

“Wait. What? What were you talking about?” she asked confused.

“I was talking about our breakup,” he replied. “What baby?”

“Giles didn’t tell you?” she said.

“Tell me what?” Angel countered.

“Oh goody,” Buffy sighed. “Angel, I hope you don’t loose your soul over this. I’m pregnant.”

“You're What!?”

“You heard me,” Buffy repeated, “I’m pregnant, though I’m not sure with what yet.” Angel didn’t hear the last part he was too caught up in his own thoughts. They sat on a tomb in silence for a few moments.

Suddenly he burst out, “You slut!”

“What?” Buffy asked, horrified.

“You heard me,” he shot back. With that Buffy punched him right on the nose.

“Ahh!” Angel cried. Just as he did Faith jogged by she staked the vamp she was after, saw Buffy and Angel and went to them.

“Hey guys,” she said cheerfully. “What’s shakin'?”

“Well Angel won’t be ‘shakin’ anytime soon if he doesn’t keep his mouth shut,” muttered Buffy.

“What’d he do,” Faith asked.

“Well I thought Giles told him about the baby, but apparently he didn’t. Peaches here isn’t taking it to well and took it upon himself to call me a slut,” Buffy explained. “You bastard!” Faith yelled and punched him in the nose. Angel yelled out once again. “The only person you can call a slut around here is me ‘cause it’s the truth.”

A vamp rose up behind Faith. “Well B, I gotta jet,” she said. “Tell me if he doesn’t behave and I will take are of him for ya.”

“I think I can hold my own,” Buffy chuckled.

“I’m sorry, Buffy,” Angel said. “I just didn’t know what to say.”

“Well it shouldn’t have been that,” Buffy advised.

“Who is the father?” Angel asked.

“I- I don’t know,” Buffy lied. She couldn’t tell Angel that it was his childe who was the father of her baby. The one he liked the most even though he wouldn’t ever admit to it.

“Well Buffy, I’ll help in any way I can,” Angel offered.

“I know,” she replied as she walked off into the night.

~The Next Revelation~

“Hi Mom,” greeted Buffy.

“Hi sweetie, how was patrol?” Joyce asked.

“Just dandy,” muttered Buffy.

“What was that?” Joyce called.

“It was good,” Buffy answered. ‘Well there’s one down and one to go for tonight,’ thought Buffy. “Um mom, could you come sit for a second?”

“Sure,” Joyce replied. She sat down in the chair opposite her daughter.

“Mum,” Buffy began, “This is going to make you pretty upset.”

“It’s okay Buffy. I think you can’t surprise me anymore than when you told me you were the slayer.”

“Mum” she said, there was a long pause. “I’m p-pregnant.”

Joyce blinked, “Excuse me?”

“Pregnant, like with child,” Buffy defined. “Although it may not be human…”

“How could you let this happen?” Joyce yelled. “I always taught you to be careful! Do you even know who the father is?”

“Yes, I do,” Buffy looked down. “It’s a vampire mum. Um, Spike to be exact.”

“A Vampire!” Joyce exclaimed. “Wait I thought you and Spike were in a band or something.” There was silence.

~Chapter 9~ Lover’s Wakening

A week passed by. Buffy saw the doctor Giles had recommended. Her name was Tara. She knew just about as much as Giles did about the paranormal hellmouth. She was also very nice. Tara told Buffy that she was fine. The baby was too. She also informed Buffy that if she wanted to remain healthy she would have to eat more and get out of the house more often.. He didn’t want to upset her at the moment especially when he knew her sensitivity towards Spike.

He also explained to Joyce about the prophecy. She was more understanding than he thought she’d be. She was going to support Buffy and the baby. She wanted Buffy to still have to opportunity to go to college and live a normal life.

 

Cordelia smiled, “I think this great that you’re pregnant. Now you can leave and never come back.” Everyone looked at her. “Well, I mean that in a positive way. Get out of Sunnydale. That's a good thing. What kind of moron would ever wanna come back here?”

A classic 1958 dodge Desoto crashed through the 'Welcome to Sunnydale' sign. A bleached bloodsucker lifted his head off the pavement as he fell out of the car. “You wanted to go her way”, he muttered. “Home sweet… Home.” He passed out.

Buffy was training in the library. She punched the target Faith was holding repeatedly. “Stupid bastard!” she said. “How could he do this to me?”

“Whoa B,” exclaimed Faith. “Guys should leave you more often.”

“No, thanks. I don’t want to be stuck with a baby to raise by myself.”

“You could always… you know…” implied Faith.

“God why does everyone keep saying that?!” Buffy shouted. “I am keeping this baby. I can’t kill it, it wouldn’t be right.” She looked outside. The sun had set a few hours ago. “I’m leaving.”

“B, wait,” Faith called after her.

Buffy made her way through the cemetery. She could feel the tears welling up into her eyes. ‘Not gonna cry. Not gonna cry’ she thought to herself. She couldn’t help it. Tears were running down her face. There was a rustle behind her in the bushes. Buffy didn’t notice she was too upset too care. A twig snapped. This time she noticed.

“Who’s there?” she called. There was only silence but Buffy’s slayer sense told her a vamp was around. She went on walking. Suddenly a demon jumped out of the bushes. It or rather he pounced on Buffy already in game face. She couldn’t see who it was. They wrestled for about five minutes but in the end Buffy was to upset to fight. She did something that she had never done before. She gave up. She gave up the fight because she didn’t think she had anything to live for. But oddly she felt at peace. Like something that had been tugging at her mind and soul for a while had stopped. The vamp looked down at he and growled.

“Just do it,” said Buffy bitterly. “Make sure to make it quick.” She waited for the bite to come.

Spike groaned. He had a horrible hangover. He had fallen asleep and dreamt about kidnapping Willow and Xander so Willow would cast a love spell to make Buffy fall in love with him. He was wanker. Still dreaming about her. He found that he was hungry and went out to find some food. He was wanking off in the bushes when he saw a woman. Something to eat? He snuck up on her. He was still a bit shaky from the hangover. He pounced. He wrestled with his victim for about five minutes. Finally she gave in. ‘Good choice,’ Spike thought. Though he had a strange sense of relief run trough him. Like something that had been missing in him had been replaced.

“Just do it,” she said.

“My pleasure luv.”

The Wish

Buffy’s eyes popped open in realization. “Spike!” she shouted.

“Slayer!” Spike growled when he realized who was underneath him.

“Get off me!” Buffy demanded. She pushed a stunned Spike off her. “Don’t touch me.”

“W-“ started Spike.

“No don’t say it! You left me! You’re an idiot and I hate you!” she yelled.

“Ouch that really hurts Slayer," he said, still a bit drunk. Buffy realized this.

“You stay away from me Spike.” She walked off.

She walked back home. The more she walked a pain in her side formed. It got stronger as she reached her home. It was about 1 a.m. in the morning and no one was up. Her mum was asleep. Buffy doubled over on her porch in pain. She couldn’t move. “Ahh!” she cried out in pain. It was so intense. As If it were craving something and pulling her towards it. She didn’t know how much more of it she could take when the pain suddenly lessoned. When she thought she was stable enough Buffy stood on two shaky legs only to see Spike walking towards her. “What the hell did you do to me?” she wanted to know.

“W- Hey I didn’t do anything,” he replied. “You left and I got this awful pain in my side.”

“Maybe it was just a coincidence,” suggested Buffy. “Why don’t you just go back from where you came from.”

“My pleasure,” Spike said icily. He was not more than two blocks down the road when the pain started in both bodies. He came trotting back to Buffy’s porch.

“What is going on?” Buffy asked.

“I dunno maybe a spell of some sort…” said Spike.

“Well obviously we can’t go far from each other, so you are going to spend the night on the couch.”

“Oh Bloody ‘ell,” Spike groaned.

“Fine you’re free to walk out that door any minute,” Buffy said as they went into the house. Spike looked at the door but thought better of it.

Before Buffy went upstairs she closed the curtains for Spike’s safety. Spike found this strangely odd. The slayer was helping him? They both headed to bed but neither could sleep. They kept thinking about each other. It had been the same pattern since the night they spent together. Buffy reached up and pressed her fingers against the delicate scar he had left on her. It gave her comfort. Spike felt the connection as well as they both drifted off to sleep.

The next morning Buffy woke and she heard laughter ringing out from the kitchen. Then it hit her. Spike is here! My mom! Oh darn it all. She walked down the stairs and listened to what they were saying. “-So I'm strolling through the park, looking for a meal and I happen to walk by, and she's making out with the chaos demon! And so I said, 'You know, I don't have to put up with this-“

Buffy stepped on a loose floorboard. Spike and Joyce looked up. “Good morning sweetie,” Joyce said. “Look who I found on the couch.”

Buffy grimaced. “Well I was about to explain that-“

“Don’t worry, Spike already told me,” she reassured Buffy.

“Told you what?” Asked Buffy a little too abruptly.

“That you were nice enough to save him from a band of Vamps last night.”

“Oh yeah,” Buffy caught on. “They were huge weren’t they Spike?” She gave him a solemn stare.

“Oh yeah,” Spike returned. “She’s a hell on the old staking bit.”

“I need to talk to Spike,” she told her mother. “Alone.” Buffy dragged Spike into the living room.

“What the hell are you still doing here?” she hissed.

“Well I can’t bloody leave now can I?” said Spike. He gestured between him and Buffy. “Unless you want to be in an inconsiderable amount of pain.”

“Well you aren’t invited,” Buffy shot back.

"Oh Buffy," Joyce shouted from the kitchen, “I’ve invited Spike to stay in the room in the basement for as long as he wants.”

Spike smirked. Buffy groaned.

~Discoveries~

The gang was gathered in the library during lunch period the next day. Buffy had tested being away from Spike. There was still a considerable amount of physical pain that Buffy and Spike learned to bear with. “Giles what do I do?’ asked Buffy.

“Maybe we should conduct some tests,” concluded Giles.

“No! he can’t find out about the baby,” Buffy interrupted.

“Buff,” said Xander, “You’re going to have to tell him sometime. It looks like he’s going to be in Sunnydale for a while and in a couple of months you’ll start to… You know show.”

“I’ll tell him,” insisted Buffy. “Just not sooner than I have to.”

“What about this mating deal Giles?” She continued. “I can’t be by Spike’s side forever.”

“Erm yes, I agree. The spell must have been activated when you came in contact with him after to you um,” Giles trailed off. “It can’t be reversed.

The only way you can get rid of the pain is sleeping with Spike again. But you will be mated then.”

“Oh no. So not going there again. Besides, he’s so thick he hasn’t even figured out that he claimed me.”

“I damn well do Know I claimed you!” A figure covered in a burning blanket ran into the library. Spike shrugged it off. “Why the hell do you think I came back to Sunnyhell? To see all of you. Pffft.”

“So you know?” squeaked Willow.

“Well yeah, a Vamp can tell who’s he’s claimed,” replied Spike. “I didn’t know until a week later though. I was still wonky when I left but I kept feeling this connection. And then I knew it was you.” He looked at Buffy and scowled. “Why did you trick me into doing this to you? Is this a sick joke.

“Me? Trick you?” Buffy asked outraged. “Oh please, we all know you probably wanted it. To claim a slayer and brag to everyone that you own me or something. Well you don’t!”

“Not yet, luv,” Spike smirked.

“You are disgusting!” Buffy stomped out of the library

Buffy avoided Spike for the next two weeks and only spoke to him when necessary. She was having enough trouble fighting the mayor. Even with Faith and Angel on her side. She and Giles weren’t part of the council, which made things easier. Everyone knew her pregnancy was hush, hush.

They didn’t mention it when they saw Spike. But he had caught her throwing up in the bathroom sometimes. He always asked if she was alright and she ignored him.

~Stalker~

It was a relatively normal night in Sunnydale. Buffy went slaying with Faith as usual. They had become good friends. Faith had gotten a job as a waitress and moved into a nice apartment with the help of Buffy and Joyce.

“So B, how’s it going? I mean with the preg-“ Faith started.

“Shhh!” Buffy whispered hurriedly. “I think someone is following us.”

They listened. There was only silence, but Buffy’s slayer sense was going off.

“B, I think it is just one of those maternal side effects going off. Let’s go,” Faith said.

They walked on talking about nothing in particular. Buffy kept herself on alert though. The feeling hadn’t gone away. She never noticed that her usual pain from being away from Spike so long was gone.

She got home and turned on a lamp. No one was home. Her mom had gone to L.A. for a few weeks to go to an art conference. She walked upstairs and got ready for bed. Buffy was walking out of the bathroom when something pounced. She found herself pinned between a hard body and the wall.

“Spike!” she screeched in surprise. “What the hell are you doing?”

Spike growled, "What are you hiding from me?”

“What do you mean?”

“I know you and your mates are hiding something from me and sooner or later I’m gonna find out. But for now that’s not what I came for.” He rubbed against her body.

Buffy gasped. Feeling him against her again was wonderful. She felt complete. “What are you doing? Are you drunk?” she asked.

“You can't deny it. There's something between us,” he answered.

“Loathing. Disgust.” She replied.

“Heat. Desire," he whispered in her ear. She felt shivers run down her spine. Her nipples hardened at the mere feel of his breath against her ear.

“Spike, you’re a vampire,” she reasoned.

“Angel is a vampire,” he countered.

“Angel was good,” she said.

“Well you got me there luv. But this need and pain when I’m not near you. It can’t go on. I can’t go on feeling like this forever. We need to mate.

Make the claim complete,” he explained.

Buffy shoved him away from her. “Never!” she roared. “You think I’m a whore? I know that night you just wanted a good fuck the first time around.”

“Oh, you wanted it too, luv,” he sneered. Neither of them noticed it but his eyes glowed green.

She slapped him. He grabbed her arms and carried her into her room and slammed the door. He threw her on the bed, straddling her as he pinned her arms above her head. Buffy fought back but she knew she couldn’t win. Tears ran down her face but she knew she couldn’t get too upset. She was about 2 months along and Tara had told her if she got too upset it could hurt the baby.

She relented, “Fine. Fuck me. Just do it and get it over with.”

“Oh, you will like it pet. And don’t worry you will be doing a few jobs here and there,” he smirked. “I need you to make these feelings go away.” He started to take his shirt off. Buffy’s eyes darted toward the door. “Don’t even try it, slayer,” he warned. He threw his shirt on the floor. ‘He’s still beautiful, damn him,’ Buffy thought.

She gasped as he started caressing her breasts through her silk night dress. He ripped it down the middle exposing her naked body. Spike nuzzled her breasts. He ran his tongue slowly around each nipple. Buffy moaned. He sat up and removed her of the ruined clothes. Then took off his own pants. Buffy saw his silhouette. His cock shot out straight from the rest of his body. Spike kissed her roughly on the lips. His tongue forced its way into her mouth. He reached down and ground the heel of his hand against her clitoris. Buffy grew wet. She couldn’t control it. Her hormones were going crazy at this point. She was sweaty and dizzy. She tries to push him off of her.

“Spike please no…” she begged. He slapped her. His eyes glowed green again. Buffy saw them and gasped.

“Shut up bitch!” he told her. He picked her up off the bed and stood up. Spike forced her

on her knees in front of him. Her face has level with his large cock. He pressed her face against it and she was forced to take him into her mouth. She had never done this before. He shoved his shaft harshly in and out as he held the back of her head. Buffy almost choked. She was forced to deep throat him. She swallowed unknowingly stimulating him. She licked and nibbled on his shaft. “That’s right slayer, he growled, “You’re nothing but a whore. A whore, letting a vampire fuck her mouth.” With one last thrust he emptied himself inside of her mouth. She didn’t know what to do. He held her head in place.

“Swallow,” he commanded. She complied. He put her back on the bed and loomed over her. “Now, pet,” he started, “this is the way it works. We fuck and I bite you. Simple enough, hey? The only catch is you need to bite me back. The ritual will be complete when you do that. And if you don’t you will have hell to pay.”

He plunged into her without warning. Buffy’s eyes shone with fear. She knew the real Spike wasn’t this cruel. What had happened to him? He made her wrap her legs around him angling deeper. She felt the tip of his cock hit her womb. That was all she needed. Now she just wanted to get this over with. She came with force. Her orgasm set off Spike’s. He vamped out biting into her neck, eyes glowing. “Mine!” he roared. Buffy bit into his neck as best as she could, drawing blood. They both fell unconscious as the green light swirled over their heads completing the claim.

Buffy woke, feeling disorientated. Something heavy was on her. She looked down to find Spike on top of her.

“Get off me you bastard!” she yelled, as she leapt off the bed. Spike looked at her with sleepy, confused eyes. ‘Buffy what-“ he started to ask.

“You raped me!” she said incredulously. She got dressed. The tears started again. “I never want to see you again.” She ran out of the house.

Spike, who was still confused, tried to go after her. He ran out into the sunlight but he couldn’t see what direction she had gone in. Everything was so bright. The he realized it. He was out in the sun!

Buffy ran as fast as she could to Tara’s office. Thankfully she didn’t have a patient. Buffy came in, her face was streaked with tears.

“Buffy what happened?” asked Tara, who was shocked. Buffy burst into tears. She told Tara everything. Tara listened, comforting Buffy. “Oh, sweetie, I wish I could do something but I think this is part of the prophecy. His eyes glowed? You should probably see Giles,” Tara said.

“Tara,” Buffy whispered, “I think something’s wrong with the baby.” With that, she fainted.

TBC

 

 

~Helpless~

"Hello Buffy," said Kendra calmly.
Buffy blinked and looked around. She was in the desert. There was almost no vegetation just sand.
"Kendra?" Buffy asked. "What are you doing here?"
"Me duty," she answered. "You taught me that bein’ a slayer isn't a job. It's who you are. Now is th’ time to take your own advice Buffy. Lead your family int’ battle."
"My family?" Buffy questioned.
Kendra gestured to Buffy's stomach. "The little one is goin’ t’ need you, your advice an’ experience. As for William, he needs your love. You have to take care of them now. You all have to take care of each other."
Kendra walked into the desert. "Wait!" Buffy called after her.
The slayer's eyes popped open. She sat up abruptly in the bed she was in. She looked around. There were white curtains, white sheets, and two chairs sitting by her bed. She was in the hospital. Buffy lay there for a few minutes trying to figure out what Kendra had said. It didn't make see to her, none of this did. She was still pondering when Tara walked into the room.
"Buffy, she smiled, "You're awake." She sat down beside the bed.
"What happened?" Buffy whispered.
"How much do you remember?" asked Tara.
I remember going to see you after Spike-" she stopped, her memories flooding back to her. "Oh god." She started breathing at a rapid pace.
"Buffy calm down," said Tara. "You don't want to have anything happen to the baby."
"My baby!" Buffy exclaimed. She reached down to touch her stomach. "Is she okay?"
"She's fine," Tara replied. "You were very dehydrated and were suffering from lack of sleep. Buffy if you want to get out of here you are going to have to start taking better care of yourself. If not for you then for your child."

Buffy started to cry. "I just want to go home!"

"Oh honey, you will!" comforted Tara. "You just need to get hydrated again. Then you can go home."

"Tara, what am I going to do about Spike?" she asked. "I don't think I can ever look at him in the eyes again."

"I don't think it was his fault Buffy," Tara said. "I think it had to do with the prophecy. We'll see. Now get some rest. Then you can go home sooner."

~The Zeppo~

A week later…..

Buffy came home in a very healthy state, she and the baby were doing well. Her mom helped her out by doing anything she could for her daughter including breakfast in bed. Buffy had not however seen Spike. Joyce explained that he had left rather abruptly when he had heard she was in the hospital. "the strangest thing happened Buffy, when he left he walked out in broad daylight. I thought Vampires could only come out at night." Buffy hadn't answered her mother. Spike in the daytime could be dangerous. Buffy often wondered about him. She finally returned to school.



"Hey guys!" greeted Buffy, as she entered the library.
"Hi Buff," said Xander. "How are you feeling?"
"I'm good, ready to kick some demon ass! Buffy stated. Though inside she wasn't all that enthusiastic. 'Where the hell is Spike?' she thought.
"Buffy you are all caught up," said Willow. "I did all of your homework."
"Thanks Wills, that's so nice." The bell rang.
"Well we better head to class," said Oz. The gang walked off, only Buffy and Giles remained in the library.
"Tara mentioned you wanted to talk to me," Giles inquired. Buffy hadn't told anyone except for Tara what had happened with Spike. When her friends visited her in the hospital her explanation was that she was just a little stressed. Buffy, reluctantly, explained in detail what had happened the last time she had seen Spike.
"And then mom said he walked outside in daylight," finished Buffy.

"Of course!" exclaimed Giles in a hoarse voice. It was rather scary actually. :I should have known."
He went into his office and got a book. Big surprise.

"Known what?" asked Buffy. "Giles what are you not telling me?"

"When you and Spike first erm.. had relations he only claimed you. The prophecy says you shall be his mate. You never made the mate complete. The powers needed you to fulfill the prophecy. The baby wouldn't have been able to be born if you hadn't mated. They must have put some mystical energy in Spike to make him act the way he did."

"Well he didn't have to violate me," Buffy pointed out.

"Would you have agreed to it if he had just walked up to you and asked you to be his mate?" asked Giles.
"Well, no," answered Buffy.
"Exactly," continued Giles. "He had to show some authority. In this case force."
"Why are you standing up for him?" asked Buffy outraged.
"I'm not! It's not his doing what he did. It's the powers. He can't control the prophecy. No one can! I might as well get used to him now."
"Well what does this signify?" asked Buffy. "I mean what does it mean to be mated?"

"Well in a vampire, vampire relationship the effects would take place right away, but in this case you and Spike should experience them in about a months time."

"What effects?"
"You will be able to tell what the other is thinking and fell each others emotions. Mentally you will be connected. But now since the ritual is complete you will no longer feel pain if you are not around each other, only when one of you is hurt."

"Oh great," moaned Buffy. "Just what I need, to be mated with William the Bloody." She walked out of the library to go to class leaving Giles to ponder over the day's discoveries.


~the calm~

Buffy was patrolling that night when she felt a familiar presence. She turned around.
"Oh, for Pete's sake. Spike?"
Spike appeared from behind the tree he had been hiding behind. "Ah, it's a fair cop, you caught me, Slayer. However, in all honesty, I think we have to say this one doesn't count. After all, I can't exactly hide form you now can I?"

"Well that's the effect when you mate with someone," said Buffy. "And do not start by saying you're sorry."

"I didn't come here to atone."
"Then what the hell do you want?"
"Well for starters I want to know what the bloody hell happened a week ago and why we mated."
"You don't remember," she asked, stunned.
"All I remember is waking up beside you and you were screaming bloody murder."
"Well we are mated now that's all you need to know," she lied then she started to walk off. Spike grabbed her shoulder.
"Don't walk away from me. I know more than that happened slayer. I have gotten flashbacks of things you would've have never let happen. Tell me!"
"Think about it Spike. The flashbacks. Think about how you acted in them. The whole vamp dominance thing you had going on."
Spike blinked. Suddenly it clicked in his head, he had forced her.
"Why?" he started to ask.
"Spike, there's something you need to know. There's a prophecy in place. I was going to tell you-," she began.
"When were you going to tell me Buffy?" he growled. "You don't think I at least figured that part out? Sod it! I'm turning human damn it! I have to breath now and eat regular food. And these feelings, they won't stop! I want to know more."

“What?” she asked, a bit confused.

“Something happening to me. Things are shifting. Something big is coming.”
"Fine we'll go to Giles," Buffy said, “because this is just too weird.
They walked together towards Giles apartment. Buffy was going to have to tell Giles to leave part about the baby. Spike was already too upset as it was. It seemed he could even have a soul.

~~
They arrived at Giles' apartment in silence.
"Spike wait here," Buffy explained, "I have to talk with Giles first."
She knocked on the door and after a few moments Giles opened it.
"Hi Giles," she said awkwardly.
"Hello Buffy, he paused and looked past her, "and Spike," he finished uncertainly.
"Yeah, about that," Buffy said, "I need to talk to you. Inside."
"Oh, come in," Giles offered.
The slayer and her watcher were inside.
"When did Spike return?" Giles asked.
"I just ran into him on patrol," Buffy explained. "Giles he wants answers. He says he's turning human."
"Yes, I know. I have done some further reading. Spike will indeed become at least part human."
"We have to tell him about the prophecy. But he's too upset now. I can't tell him about the baby in the same night. It's too much."
"I understand. I will leave that up to you to tell him then Buffy. That's not my place. But I will give him the answers he needs."
Spike joined Buffy and Giles inside.
"So, Spike Buffy tells me that you are experiencing some, erm, changes," Giles began.
"Skip the small talk watcher. I just want to know about this bloody prophecy and what it has to do with me."
"Yes, well Spike my sources tell me that you will turn at least practically human."
"Partially?" asked Spike curiously. Buffy stood there listening.
"Well you see since you and Buffy have mated the prophecy is now in full swing. You will become a male slayer, if you will. You have been given William's soul but it has been cleansed of all of your sins you have committed since you were sired. You were redeemed because the powers know that now you will do good in the world. You will help Buffy. The mating will enforce that. When you mated the powers needed to make sure it would be complete, so you were possessed to finish the deed. That is why you don't remember what happened. It says specifically (he read from the book):
One will rise into the light and be cleansed.
He will do good in the world for the rest of his days.
Thus, you are now a mortal."
Spike remained silent, in shock of the information he had just heard.
"Let me get this one thing straight," he said, looking gat Giles and Buffy, "I am not and never will be like the poof. I will help because I have no other choice but that is it." He walked out of the apartment.
"I'll go after him, Giles," Buffy said. "There's no telling what he's thinking now."
"Be careful," Giles warned as she ran out of the apartment.
"Spike wait!" Buffy called as she ran after the bleached vamp-, well human/vamp now.
"Sod off slayer, I'm fine," he shouted.
"No you're not, Spike. You forget I can tell what you're feeling. That's one of the side effects off not being completely human; the claim is still there. Besides where are you planning on going? Angel is at the mansion. You have no place to stay."
"I didn't want this," yelled Spike to no one in particular. "I didn't ask to be mortal. I liked who I was. I don't want to be William. He's my past, Spike was my future."

Buffy saw his face for the first time since he left Giles' apartment and what she saw was a sight that she thought she'd never see. Spike's face glistened with tears. She felt for him. She didn't feel pity it was more a feeling of understanding. She saw him as an equal. They had both been forced into their roles in society. Neither of them were given a choice.
"Spike, I'm not leaving you alone. I have no idea why but I am not going to let you walk on me!" She told him sternly.
"Like I bloody well can!" he yelled at her. They walked at a fast pace in silence as Buffy pondered and Spike fumed. Soon they had reached her house. Buffy opened the door.
"You might as well stay here tonight," she gestured for Spike to enter.
"Don't sound so enthused," Spike muttered when he walked in. "Got any hot chocolate around?"
Buffy smiled at his innocent boyish inquiry "Sure," was her reply. "Want to watch some TV with me?" she asked. He followed her with his hot chocolate into the living room. "I'm going to watch JAG reruns."
"That's a brilliant show," Spike replied, "Can't wait 'til they fall in love."
"I know me either."
From the TV:
"I'll tell you what," Harm said to Mac, "If five years from now, if neither one of us is involved with anyone, we'll have ourselves a kid."
"You and me have a baby together?" asked Mac. "Don't make a promise you can't keep."
"I haven't yet," replied Harm.
"Oh I hope they have a baby!" squealed Buffy. She looked next to her and Spike was asleep. 'Figures,' thought Buffy. She closed the curtains and then went to bed.

 

 

 

~Moving On ~

The smell of fresh pancakes woke Buffy up the next morning. ‘Mum never cooks,’ she thought. After she went to the bathroom she stumbled down the stairs in her sleepiness. There was a sexy male voice coming from the kitchen. Wait a minute, since when was Spike’s voice sexy?

“Twenty, twenty, twenty four hours agoooo, I wanna be sedated!” he sang happily. Buffy smiled as she watched unnoticed from the kitchen entrance. Spike looked up as he flipped on of the pancakes in the air. “’ello luv. Sleep well?” he asked.

“Um, yeah,” answered Buffy a bit miffed. “Are you okay Spike? You seemed a bit, well, broody last night.”

“I’m good. Dreamt about how being human can change everything last night.”

“Really?” she questioned. “About…?”

“That’s for my mind only,” he winked at her. “I found a loft in the down town area of town. I am moving in tomorrow.” Truth be told he had a rather, er, erotic dream about Buffy last night.

Buffy was taken aback. “Oh, I see.”

Spike frowned. “You seem disappointed pet. Going t’ miss old Spikey are you?” She just played with the pancakes on her plate. “Don’t worry, you’re welcome to visit anytime.”

Buffy finally came to her senses. “Miss you Spike? I don’t think so.”

He laughed. “Whatever you say.”

They ate their breakfast together in silence thinking about the past couple of months…

~Rude Awakenings~

“So Oz and I- Buffy are you listening?” Willow asked. She and Buffy were sitting on a sunny covered bench in the middle of the High School courtyard.

“Yup, sounds great Will,” Buffy said staring off into space.

“I jumped Xander last night!” Willow squeaked.

“Cool- wait you WHAT?”

“See you weren’t paying attention. Buffy, what’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” Buffy replied hurriedly.

“What are you thinking about? Come on Buff you can tell me,” urged Willow.

“Just... no, it’s nothing,” Buffy stuttered.

“Buffy,” Willow said sternly with her resolve face on.

“IthinkImissspike,” Buffy replied as quickly as possible.

“You, oh,” Willows face went into comprehension mode. “Don’t worry Buffy that’s completely ok. I understand that you’d miss him. I mean if I were you, I’d want to jump him too.”

Buffy jumped up from her seat, “I so don’t want to jump Spike!”

“Yes, you do. It’s completely normal to want him to be with you when you are having his child.”

“Willow I do not,” Buffy started to explain. The bell rang.

“Look Buffy I have to go. Call me when you can,” Willow told Buffy as she walked off leaving Buffy sitting on the bench puzzled.

~Going Through the Motions~

Buffy walked through the cemetery that night hopping from foot to foot. She was so horny she couldn’t stand still, or sleep for that matter. She was already in the beginning of her second trimester. She had staked several vampires and was currently pursuing another. ‘Now I understand how the whole slaying makes you hot and horny thing,’ Buffy thought. She leapt from her hiding space and was in her staking mode when the vamp turned to dust before her very eyes. She suddenly stood face to face with a platinum blond vampire.

“Spike!” she exclaimed. “Spiiiike,” she put her hand on his chest firmly pushing him back into the wall of a monument.

“What, are you keeping tabs on me? Going to give me a hard time for trying to help you? You know I really hate you Summers,” Spike joked. Buffy didn’t laugh. In act she didn’t hear what he said at all. She was to too busy looking at his delicious... no not delicious... evil body. Buffy jumped into Spike’s arms and straddled him as best she could while he was standing.

“I could have anyone,” she started. “Even you, Spike. I could ride you at a gallop until your legs buckled and your eyes rolled up. I've got muscles you've never even dreamed of. I could squeeze you until you popped like warm champagne, and you'd beg me to hurt you just a little bit more and you know why I don't? Because its’ wrong." She gave him one last look at her heaving breasts before running off into the night.

“What the bloody hell was that about,” Spike asked himself as he watched her. “Is it me or is she getting a little round?”

 

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