Part 1:

Disclaimers: Not mine, Joss and co. own it.

Spoilers: Only for season 4, as if that matters.

Author's Note: Yippee, look, it's my first non-angsty, non season seven fiction! I've wanted to write a fluffy Spuffy fic for a while now; but have really been focusing on the angst lately. This is an AU (alternate universe) fiction set in season four when Spike was still chipped and living at Giles' place. If you want some fluffy goodness, read on! Oh, and review if you want more.

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Buffy watched as Giles cleaned his glasses on his shirt, wondering how many times he'd done that in the past fifteen minutes. Ten? Twenty? A hundred? Or had he been wiping them ever since he's starting talking? Giles babbled on about responsibilities and whatnot and Buffy rolled her eyes, grumbling.

"Giles!"

He looked up at her, startled, and momentarily stopped cleaning his glasses.

"Could you just get to the point, already? You know, time is money?"

"Ah, yes, well . . ." he paused, taking a deep breath and gathering his strength. "There's a friend in town, and I have intended on . . . visiting with her this evening."

Buffy sighed. "Giles, I'm not your mother. If you want to go out and have a good time, fine by me. I don't see why you couldn't just tell me this on the phone."

"That's not all. I need you to . . . watch Spike for me."

Buffy groaned, sticking her lip out in a pouty, child-like manner.

"Giiiiiiles," she whined, crossing her arms over her chest angrily, "You said you wouldn't need me to do anything tonight . . . I was going to go to a party. You know, have a social life? Slayers need nights off, too. Besides, he's all tied up! He can't go anywhere."

She looked up at him hopefully and, realizing that he wouldn't budge, decided to go another route.

"Why can't Willow or Xander vamp-sit?"

"I attempted to get in touch with Willow, but she was out, and Xander wanted to spend some . . . quality time with Anya tonight. Oh, but on the bright side, he'll be able to take over your Spike duties after he's . . . finished."

Buffy pouted again, furrowing her brow. 'It won't be too bad, I guess. I mean, we haven't been fighting lately and it's not like I'll have to spend time with him or anything. Just spend a quiet night in front of the television.'

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Spike grinned, his lips parting wide, his teeth gleaming like those of some kind of maniacal Cheshire cat. Buffy stood next to him, holding the cup of pig's blood in one hand and the TV remote in the other. She moved the straw up to his mouth and he started to drink, vamping out and sucking the sticky red fluid from the novelty mug. Buffy was channel surfing, flipping from one lousy program to the next and trying to ignore Spike. She chanced a quick glance over at him, and shuddered at the sight of the blood he was drinking. Spike caught her queasy expression on her face and dropped the straw from his mouth.

"I thought you'd gotten over this. Look, I'm a vampire. I drink blood. I can't get it out of you lot anymore, so I have to drink this sub-par crap. You think that seeing me drink pigs' blood out of a cup is nasty? You oughta see me drain a victim."

Buffy glared at Spike, taking the mug away from him.

"I think you've had enough."

Spike scowled, his stomach starting to rumble. He was still hungry; he hadn't even finished half of the cup. "Hey, stop, there's a lot of good blood left!"

Buffy smirked at him, setting the mug on the coffee table. "I thought it was 'sub-par crap'."

"Yeah, but I'm hungry, and I kind of don't have a choice; it's that or nothing."

A devilish expression came across his face. "Unless, of course, you're willing to give me some of your blood."

Buffy gave a contemptuous snort, although she did inch away from him a little. "Yeah, like that'll happen in a million years."

Spike grinned wider, hopping in his chair, making it bounce over towards her. "C'mon, Slayer . . . just a little taste."

She moved farther away, a small smile playing on her lips. "Over my dead body."

"Yeah, that was the plan."

He continued to move towards Buffy, bouncing faster so he could catch up with her.

"I promise, I'll be gentle! It won't hurt . . . me."

Buffy laughed softly and moved away from the rapidly approaching chair. She made a mad dash over to the foot of the stairs, and then waited for him to catch up. He bounced over to her, panting unnecessarily. She walked up the first few stairs and Spike attempted to follow, but managed to only make it up the first step, finding that the back legs of the chair were still on the landing. Buffy continued up the stairs, grinning at her victory and at the idea of leaving Spike in that awkward, tilty position. He looked up at her frantically, not wanting to be left like this.

"Hey! Come back! I was just kidding, I won't bite you . . . unless you want me to." He added under his breath.

Buffy stopped halfway up the steps, paused, then came back down again. "What was that?"

Spike looked at her with innocent, doe-like eyes. "What was what, luv?"

"I thought I heard you say . . ." She stopped, shaking her head. "Never mind. -I'm- going to go downstairs to watch some TV."

Buffy made her way down to the living room and, never breaking her stride, placed one finger on Spike's nose and pushed. His eyes grew wide as the chair tipped backwards, landing with a loud 'thunk!' on the floor.

"Ow! Bloody hell."

Spike could hear Buffy giggling from the next room. He loved the sound of her laughter; sweet and intoxicating . . . he shook his head, frowning. 'I can't think of things like that, she's the SLAYER, for crying out loud! I'm not her friend, I'm a vampire that happens to be living in her Watcher's house, and she's only here to make sure I don't escape. Besides . . . she'd never think about me that way.'

Spike lay on the floor, his head throbbing from where it'd hit the back of the chair. "You know, Slayer, I think I might've cracked my head from that fall. I could bloody well sue."

"Yeah Spike, sure." Buffy called from the next room. "What're you going to do, represent yourself in court. I can see it now . . . 'So what if I tried to kill her and her friends a dozen times, she tied me up in a chair! -And- she tipped me over - I call for the death penalty!'"

He chuckled softly. "No, Slayer, I would get myself a lawyer."

She snorted mockingly. "What, a human? Please, like they would touch you with a ten-foot pole! Besides, the bleached hair and the all black clothing? Doesn't really scream 'innocent'."

"I figure since vamps and lawyers are so alike - being bloodsucking fiends and all - that we'd get along just fine. Besides, didn't say I'd wear the leather."

Buffy giggled, getting a mental picture of Spike in formal, black suit. 'Ladies and gentlemen, the new James Bond!' She laughed even harder at the thought of this, as Spike craned his neck, trying to see what was she was giggling at.

"What's so soddin' funny?"

"Nothing . . . James." She tried to hold it in but failed miserably, laughing like a madwoman.

Spike shook his head and smiled lightly. 'Women.' Once she had quieted down, he cleared his throat.

"Um . . . Slayer?"

"What is it now, Spike?"

"Err, can you get me off of the floor? I don't want the Wh - um, Xander, finding me like this. I don't trust him not to . . . use my vulnerable state to his advantage."

Buffy sighed, picking herself up off the couch and moving over to the fallen vamp. He looked so helpless that she found herself smiling.

"What, is the Big Bad afraid of little ol' Xander?"

He glared up at the ceiling, sending mental daggers to Buffy. "Afraid? Hell no! But that poncy bugger's always had it in for me, and I don't . . ."

"Spike!" She got on all fours and leaned over so that he could see her face. "I'll pick you up, okay? Just stop talking."

Buffy grasped the back of the chair with both hands, lifting it off the floor. She pretended to strain against the weight, grunting. "Ugh, Spike, you're so heavy," she teased.

He raised an eyebrow quizzically. "What's this, then?"

She hoisted the chair up and turned it about so that she was facing Spike.

"I'm serious, you -do- have it too comfortable around here. Lying in that chair all day, watching TV . . . I think you're getting a blood belly."

Spike's eyes widened comically. "What? No I'm not!"

He tugged at the bottom of his shirt, pulling it up and exposing his stomach. He ran his hand over its taut surface and was relieved to find that it was in its normal, toned state.

Buffy's breath caught in her throat. 'Who knew that Spike was so . . . built?'

She slapped herself mentally, trying to rid her mind of the naughty, wicked thoughts she was having. 'No, I can't, I mean, um . . . wow, he must really work out.'

" - so you'd better know . . . Buffy!"

The sound of Spike's voice snapped her back to reality. "Muh? I mean, what?"

"As I was -saying-, the next time you go around making serious accusations like that, you'd better know the facts!"

Buffy blushed, her cheeks turning a rosy hue. "Yeah . . . facts . . ."

She turned and started towards the living room and back to the soft, warm couch.

"Slayer!"

She groaned and spun on her heels. "What is it now, Spike?" she asked, obviously frustrated.

He grinned at her sheepishly. "I can't see the telly from over here."

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TBC . . .

 

Part 2:

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"Are you happy now?"

Buffy's hands were planted firmly on her hips in a frustrated manner, her fingers aching from dragging Spike's chair around the room for the past few minutes. He smiled, contented with his spot next to the sofa. Spike would have been able to see the TV just fine in some of the other places she had put him, but he had enjoyed watching her struggle with the chair.

"I guess it'll have to do . . . but I could have a better view if you just untied me. You wouldn't even have to move me around."

Buffy shook her head in disbelief. "But Spike, I thought you got a kick out of bondage."

"Depends on who's tyin' up who, luv."

She blushed, embarrassed, and sat down on the sofa. She grabbed the remote and started flipping through channels again. Spike squinted; trying to make out the programs Buffy was passing.

"Argh, Slayer, you're goin' too bloody fast! Probably going to go into seizures from all of the flashing lights."

"Fine, why don't you pick a show?" She grinned. "Oh, wait, you can't."

"Please, just choose a soddin' program! Really, I don't care what it is, just stop!"

Buffy decided to stop on the next channel, hoping that something really bad would be on; an infomercial for hair removal cream, perhaps. Her hand stilled on the remote. Buffy's eyes flicked up to the screen, widening at what she saw.

The woman moaned, arching her back and digging into the mattress. The man's muscular body pressed into hers, causing both of them to groan in pleasure.

A rosy blush crept up to Buffy's cheeks. 'Porn. This is porn. Oh my God, Giles gets the Spice channel!' Buffy fumbled for the remote, desperate to turn to something more . . . appropriate. It slipped out of her grasp, however, the back popping open and the batteries falling out. She looked down and saw that they had rolled under the sofa. Perfect.

Spike grinned widely. "So this is what you were looking for! Always figured you were the kinky type."

Buffy got on all fours and stuck her hand under the couch, reaching for the lost batteries, trying desperately to ignore the sounds coming from the television behind her.

"Oooooooooooohhhh!"

The woman moaned rather loudly, and Buffy cringed. She didn't have to look up at Spike's face to know that he was loving this. She managed to find one battery, and stuck it into the empty slot. The second battery, however, wasn't under the sofa at all. Sighing, Buffy got to her feet.

"Spike, have you seen the other battery?"

"The battery for what, Slayer? Your vibrat -"

"Don't even think it!" Buffy blushed even harder, her cheeks a deep red. "The battery for the remote control. It's on the floor somewhere."

She searched the floor, scanning it with her eyes. Buffy looked around for a few minutes, sighing loudly. "Where the hell is it?"

Spike looked over at her with innocent eyes. "Wait, is this what you're looking for?"

He gave his foot a small kick and a battery rolled out from under his boot. Buffy glared at him, picking it up and shoving it into the remote, quickly flipping to a different channel.

"That wasn't funny."

"You're right . . . it was hilarious! You should've seen the look on your face . . ."

"I'm warning you, Spike, the next time you try something like that -"

"Wait, be quiet, 'Passions' is on!"

Buffy looked up at the vampire and saw he was transfixed by what was on the screen. She gave a small sigh of relief, sitting back down on the sofa. Hopefully he would decide to keep his mouth shut for the rest of the night.

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He didn't.

"I'm feelin' a bit peckish. Could you get me a cup of blood?"

"I've already fed you for tonight."

"No, you took away my dinner before I finished. I'm a guest, treat me as one."

Buffy smiled, reaching for the mug on the coffee table. She had forgotten to clean it out. "Fine, Spike, you can have the rest of the blood."

She brought it up to his face and he grimaced in disgust, turning his face away from it. "Ugh! It's cold and partially-coagulated!"

"What, now it's not good enough for you? Geez, give a guy what he wants . . ."

"Forget it." He sat back in his chair, glaring at the wall, giving her the silent treatment. Buffy sighed, turning the channel, seeing if Spike would react. He sat in the exact same position, ignoring her. She got up and went to the kitchen, fixing herself something to eat. Returning to the living room, she saw Spike looking over at her expectantly.

She set the chocolate chip cookies she had gotten for herself on the table, and brought the fresh blood to Spike's mouth wordlessly, bringing the straw up to his lips. He grinned, sucking up the liquid nourishment.

'She's such a softie.'

Buffy returned to 'Passions', watching Spike from the corner of her eye. He finished his blood quickly, releasing the straw. He looked over at Buffy, clearing his throat. She sighed, turning to him.

"What now? Too hot? Too cold? Too bland?"

He looked over at her with genuine gratitude. "Thanks."

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To be continued . . .

Part 3:

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Buffy sat on the sofa, staring at Spike. She was startled, to say the least. 'Did Spike just thank me for something? Maybe he was being sarcastic.' She blinked and examined his facial expression. 'He doesn't -look- like he's being sarcastic. He looks . . . grateful or something.'

Spike was looking at her now, one eyebrow raised quizzically. 'Wait, oh crap, I'm staring at him.'

"Um . . . you're welcome?"

He smiled, amused, and turned his attention to the television. Buffy looked down at the big plate of cookies on the table, thinking.

"Spike?"

"What is it, pet?"

She held up the plate warily. "Err . . . do you want a cookie? Blood must have a really nasty aftertaste, and there are too many for me to eat."

Spike looked over at her, confused. 'Why's she being so nice to me?' He looked at the cookies nervously. 'Maybe they're poisoned . . . or drugged. But I do love sweets . . .'

"What kind?"

She picked one up and took a large bite out of it. "Chocolate chip. Pretty good."

Spike's ears perked up when he heard what she'd said. 'Chocolate?'

"Pass one over here, then."

Buffy stuffed a cookie into his mouth, giggling.

"Mpmph bmph phew mwere mpst whmpt tmph dmph dhat." Spike mumbled as he tried to simultaneously talk and eat.

Her eyes twinkled with amusement. "What was that, Spike? Maybe you should speak up."

He swallowed, giving her a mock glare. "As I was saying, I bet you were just waiting to do that. Tempt the Big Bad with sweets and then try to choke him to death by shovin' it half way down his throat. Good thing for me vampires don't need to breathe."

Buffy snorted. "Yeah, right, six years as a Slayer and that's what I have to resort to; tying up evil fiends and choking them with cookies. Ooh, villains beware!"

Spike was about to retort when the doorbell rang. Buffy smirked.

"Spike, why don't you go hop over there and see who that is?"

He glared at her, and she got up from her comfortable seat. "Fine, fine, don't get it. Jeez, chivalry really is dead."

Buffy opened the front door to see Xander waiting on the front porch. He smiled when he saw Buffy.

"Xander? What are you doing here?"

"Didn't Giles remember to tell you? I'm here to relieve you of the burden of watching Spike. I told him to tell you I would be coming over later . . ."

Buffy slapped herself in the side of the head. "Right, right, I do remember that."

Xander grinned, looking proud of himself. "I didn't welsh or anything. I'm here, good old reliable Xander."

"Um, Xander, I really do appreciate this, but . . . I'm actually doing fine. You don't have to take over if you don't want to."

Xander looked at his friend as if she'd grown a second head.

"You're kidding, right?"

"No. I mean, the party I wanted to go to is already over, and . . . the program I was watching isn't finished. It's just getting to the best part."

"Okay Buffy. Number one, it's only 10 o' clock. No college party ever gets out until at least one in the morning." Xander peered over her shoulder and into the house. "And number two, the program you're watching is an infomercial for . . . hair removal cream."

Buffy blushed for what seemed like the millionth time that night, flustered.

"Yeah, well . . . it happens to be that I'm running out of my . . . hair removal stuff, and - and they were just about to show the before and after pictures! I need to see if it's good enough for my . . . hair removing needs."

She grimaced inwardly, realizing how extremely lame her excuse sounded. Xander put a hand up to her forehead.

"Hmm, you don't feel hot," he said in a half joking manner. "Buff, what's going on?"

Buffy realized that she had to think up something semi-believable, and fast. There was no way she could ever tell Xander that she was actually . . . enjoying her time with Spike. He'd think she was possessed.

"Look, I just feel bad about taking away your time with Anya. You obviously care about her, and she cares about you too, but . . ." Buffy lowered her voice to a whisper. "We've been talking, and she told me that she's been feeling neglected lately. Saying that she feels you don't spend enough time with her."

Xander stared at her incredulously. "You and Anya have been talking? I didn't even know you two were friends!"

"Yes, well, we are. Very, very, close friends. But that's not the point. She's upset, and if I were you, I would go home and, um, comfort her. Show her a night out on the town."

Xander looked at Buffy again, shocked and grateful. "Thanks for telling me, I probably should go to her place, and . . . are you sure you don't mind taking over my shift?"

"Of course not. I just want to make sure everything works out fine for you two."

"Are you sure?"

Buffy shook her head, exasperated. "Xander . . ."

He smiled, grateful. "Thanks a million Buff, I really owe you one."

After he had left, Buffy closed the door with a sigh. She felt guilty that she had lied to Xander, but relieved that he had bought her excuse. She made her way back to the living room and plopped down on the sofa, grabbing another cookie. She was about to bite into it when she noticed Spike was staring at her.

"Why, Slayer. I didn't know you cared," he said, teasingly.

Buffy looked over at him, attempting a non-chalant expression.

"What do you mean?"

"You know; you, making up excuses to stay here with me a little longer. I'm touched."

"I wasn't making up excuses! I really have been talking to Anya . . ."

"Yeah, right, and I'm the bloody Queen Mother. Look, you're a horrible liar. He might not have fell for it, but I can see right through you." He paused. "So why'd you do it?"

She shrugged, faking a yawn. "I'm tired. That and I changed my mind about going out. It doesn't feel like a party night."

"I told you, Slayer, I can see right through you. Don't give me some bullshit answer; I want the truth."

Buffy looked over at him nervously, sighing in defeat. "Fine, to be perfectly honest . . . and if you let anyone know I told you this, you're dead . . . I - you haven't been such a pain in the ass lately. Tonight especially. I don't know what it is, but . . . I can stand to stay in the same room with you without wanting to rip your head off."

She looked over at him and studied his face, his eyes. 'He seems . . . I don't know, touched? This is too weird.'

He smiled lightly. "Feeling's mutual."

And so they sat, in amicable silence.

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To be continued . . .

Part 4:

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"I think I found it!"

Buffy looked up from the book she was reading. "Found what, Giles?"

"The spell! The, um, the truth spell."

"Why would you want a truth spell?"

"Don't you remember? For Spike, to see if he really is harmless. See, it's right here."

"So if it works . . . and he really -is-, um, impotent, does that mean that you're going to let him go? You know, untie him and release him into the wild?"

"Well, that was the plan. I'd really like to have my house back to myself again . . . free of bloodsucking fiends."

Buffy frowned. It had been one week since she'd last vampsat, so to speak, for Giles. And she had actually -enjoyed- her time with Spike, hard as that was to believe. She'd been reluctant to admit it to herself, but she was starting to think of him as somewhat of a friend. So the thought that Spike might leave Sunnydale troubled her.

"So . . . when are you planning to do this spell?"

Giles looked down at the book again, studying it. "Well, the supplies should take a few days to gather, but I reckon we could do it sometime next week; this week if we're lucky."

"Oh." Buffy said quietly. Giles peered up at her inquisitively.

"Buffy, what's wrong? I would have thought you'd be overjoyed."

"No, I'm fine, it's just . . . I'm tired. Didn't get much sleep last night, what with classes and patrolling and all."

"If you want, I could take over patrolling tonight."

"Oh, no, Giles. It would be too dangerous."

He shook his head. "Don't worry, I'd get Willow and Xander to come with me. I'm not some harmless old man, you know. Besides, I have plenty of weapons . . ."

"I don't know . . . if anything happened to you . . ."

Giles shook his head fervently. "Nothing would happen, and you deserve a night to relax." He frowned. "Oh . . .but then someone would have to watch over Spike for me."

Buffy's ears perked up. "Well, I could do it if you want me too. You guys could do the patrolling thing and I could stay in your house, watch TV or something."

"But Buffy, I couldn't ask you to . . ."

"It's no problem. Honestly, you would be doing all of the hard work, and I could just have a nice, quiet, relaxing evening. Besides, if Spike gets too annoying, I can always gag him with a sock!" She was only partially kidding.

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"You're cheating."

Buffy glanced up from her deck and smiled. "Can I help that you're so lousy at cards?"

"Yeah, well, see how good you are at poker when you're tied up to a chair."

"Well, that happens to be your own fault. Maybe if you weren't a violent killer we wouldn't have to take such precautions."

He ignored her, focusing on his hand. "I'll take 3 cards."

Buffy peered at the cards lying on his lap. "Err, which ones do you wanna discard?"

"The ones on the far left."

"Which left? Mine or yours?"

"Ugh! Forget it, I quit!" Spike growled in anger. "No one can play poker like this!"

Buffy picked up his cards and placed them on hers, returning them to the top of the deck. "You weren't complaining when you were winning."

"Yeah, well . . ."

Buffy sat up on the couch. "So, what do you want to play next? Monopoly? Scrabble? Twister?"

"No, I want to play the Quiet Game. Ever head of it?" He turned his head away from her, sulking.

"Someone's a sore loser."

Spike shifted in the seat, grimacing. "Yeah, well, I can't help it. These ropes chafe, you tied 'em too damn tight."

"Oh, right. You're just making up excuses."

"See for yourself."

Buffy got up and walked behind his chair, taking his bound wrists in her hands. She moved the rope to the side, gasping when she saw the marks they had left. The raw spots were a deep crimson and some were even bleeding. Buffy touched the sores gently, and Spike winced, attempting to pull his hands away.

"Ow! Bloody hell, Slayer!"

"These look pretty bad, Spike." She got up from the floor. "I'll be right back."

Buffy left the living room and made her way to the bathroom, grabbing the first aid kit. She then made her way to the basement and retrieved scissors and more rope.

She returned and set her supplies in back of Spike. Then she walked around to the front of the chair, giving him a no-nonsense glare.

"Spike, your wounds needed to be tended to, and I can't do that if you're still tied. I'm going to free your wrists . . ."

His face lit up. " . . . But if you try anything, I have a stake on hand, and I'm not afraid to use it."

Buffy moved behind the chair again, picking up the scissors. She took the ropes and gently placed them between the scissors, cutting slowly, not wanting to rub the twine against Spike's sensitive flesh.

She sawed through the rope and gingerly peeled it away, placing the bloodied material on the ground.

"They're free."

Spike moved his arms from behind his back and stretched, groaning. "God, that feels good. You know; you never appreciate freedom until you've been tied up to a chair for weeks. Trust me, it's not as nice as it sounds."

"Yeah, well, enjoy it for now, it's only temporary. After I fix your wrists, I have to tie you up again."

She pulled one of his hands closer to her for examination. She opened the first aid kit and removed the rubbing alcohol. She uncapped the lid and soaked a cotton ball with the solution. Buffy brought it up to Spike's wrist and he cringed, pulling away.

"What are you doing? You're not going to put that on me!"

Buffy rolled her eyes. "Spike, it's just rubbing alcohol. It'll help you heal faster. Now stop being such a big baby and give me your hand."

"But . . . it stings."

Buffy sighed, wrenching his hand towards her and dabbing at the sores lightly. Spike gave a yip and tried to pull away, his eyes watery with pain. Buffy finished cleaning the blood from the first hand, and dropped the cotton ball to the floor. She took the medical gauze next to her and wrapped his wrist, being careful not to pull it too tight. She picked up his second hand and did the same for it, Spike flinching every time the rubbing alcohol touched his open wounds.

Buffy pulled his hands out in front of him, examining her handiwork with a smile. "See? All better."

Spike looked down at his wrists, impressed. "You really did a quality job here, Slayer. Ever considered becoming a nurse?"

Buffy grinned. "Nah, I'm really more into helping mankind through death kinda girl. Besides, bandaging hands? Doesn't give you the same kind of adrenaline rush that a good kill does. Not that it isn't rewarding in and of itself . . ."

"Buffy." He reached out and grasped her warm hands into his. "Thank you. Really."

He looked up at her with soft, tender eyes. Spike started to lean towards her, and she found herself coming towards him as well. Her heart stopped in her throat.

'Is he going to kiss me?'

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To be continued . . .

Part 5:

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She gazed deep into his piercing eyes, letting herself get lost in their endless pools of blue. Buffy found herself drawing closer to him, her heart fluttering in excitement. She cocked her head to the side to accommodate him, and their lips brushed, just as the front door swung open. Xander, Willow, and Giles walked in, and Buffy could hear Spike curse under his breath. She pulled her hands from him and backed away, distraught, hoping that her friends hadn't seen them.

"And then I was all 'Eat this, bloodsucker!' and he was all 'poof'! I was so cool . . . except for the part where I fell and almost impaled myself on the stake, but still . . ." Willow rambled excitedly.

"Don't worry, Will, your coolness remains intact. Whereas my screaming and running away - not so much," Xander grumbled.

The Wiccan grinned. "I'm sure it was very manly screaming."

"Thanks . . . one more night like that and my tombstone will be sure to read: 'Xander Harris - Manly Screamer.'"

Willow plopped down on the couch. "Hey, Buffy. How'd the vegging go? Have fun?"

"Almost," Buffy muttered under her breath. She attempted a half-smile as she addressed her friend. "Not really. But it was relaxing . . . I feel saner already."

"Well I should hope so." Buffy turned to see Giles, who was working his way through a rather large glass of scotch. "I nearly got killed tonight, and I would like to think that my death would not have been in vain."

Buffy frowned. "I take it the patrolling didn't go so well?"

"Ignore them," Willow smiled proudly. "They're just grumpy 'cause they didn't get in on any of the slaying action. But me, on the other hand . . . I was kicking some serious undead booty."

"So how many vamps did you run into?"

"Two, I think," Willow said. "Pretty small number for a Saturday night."

"Yeah . . . weird."

"Maybe they were all down at the Blood Bank getting the early bird special!" Xander piped up.

"I don't think so," Buffy scoffed, "Blood banks aren't big on -trying- to attract vampires. I mean, why do you think they hang garlic on the doors?"

"That's garlic?" Willow queried. "I thought it was some kind of decorative wreath or something."

"Speaking of the evil dead, how's it going, Spike?" Xander said, as he patted the vampire on the back. "I'm surprised that Buffy didn't gag you . . . I know that's the first thing I would've done."

He glared at Xander, giving him a one-finger salute.

"Yeah, Spike, real original." Xander said, mockingly. "Maybe you finally managed to -" He stopped short when something finally dawned on him. "You - you're hands! They're free! Spike's hands are free!" Xander grabbed a stake from his jacket; the one he'd kept for patrolling.

"Xander, stop!" Buffy said, a tinge of hysteria in her voice. "It's okay . . . I - I untied him."

Everyone in the room turned to stare at her, shocked. Buffy looked around nervously, continuing. "So, um, he wasn't trying to escape or anything."

Spike gave her a look that he hoped portrayed his gratitude, and nodded his head. "S'right. So the next time you decide to jump to a conclusion, Harris, make sure I'm not around. I don't fancy having to spend the rest of eternity in an ashtray."

Xander ignored him; he was too busy gawking at Buffy. "Why - why did you free his hands? He could've killed you!"

She rolled her eyes. "Xander, honestly . . . the ropes around his wrists were digging into his skin, and I didn't want him to be uncomfortable."

His jaw hung slack. "But, wha- since when have you cared whether Spike was comfortable or not? He's tied up to a chair! It's not exactly the Ritz Carlton!"

Buffy looked down at the floor, blushing. "He was bleeding, and - besides, he's harmless. And I don't think he would've-"

"Buffy, we don't know if he lying or not; we won't know until we do the truth spell. You know that Spike isn't to be trusted . . . he's a ruthless, brutal monster that was-"

"Um, you know, he's sitting -right here-" Spike piped up. "Look, you need to lay off the girl. Slayer tries to do a nice thing, and you jump down her throat. C'mon, she's kicked my ass God knows how many times, and - and you think that my master plan is to wait until I'm good and vulnerable and -then- make my move? Please."

He paused, looking around the room before turning his attentions to Buffy. "Thanks for fixin' me up, luv." Spike gestured towards the rope on the ground. "You want to do the honors?"

"Um . . . sure."

Spike placed his hands behind the chair. "Could you try not tying 'em so tight this time? If you trust that I won't escape, that is . . ."

"O - okay," Buffy stammered, picking up the thick twine. She moved behind him and went about binding his wrists in a slow, methodical manner. She pulled the last knot on the rope and stood up. "That okay?"

"It's great, Slayer, thanks." He looked up at the other three. "Now, if you're gonna keep arguing, would you mind doing it in another room? There's a program coming on that I wanna watch, and it'd be hard to concentrate with all of the criticism flying back and forth."

"No, I'm quite done." Giles gave an exasperated sigh and made his way upstairs, retreating into his bedroom.

Willow looked at the ground, fidgeting. "I'm gonna go, too. Um . . . 'night Buffy."

She left, the front door slamming behind her; leaving in her wake a veil of awkward silence. Xander was still glaring at Spike, confused and upset.

"Xander -" Buffy started, but he stormed out of the house.

Buffy sat on the couch and cradled her head in her hands; her body shaking from what Spike figured was either sobs or laughter. When she was finally still, Spike spoke up.

"I'm sorry."

She looked up at him, her eyes red and watery. "What do you have to be sorry about? I shouldn't have untied you in the first place . . ."

"Don't talk that way! You were just doin' what you thought was right; your 'friends' had no right to be so damned judgmental . . . overreactin', they were. If I were you, I would-"

"Stop." Buffy interrupted. "Just . . . stop. I - I can't deal with this right now; the way I feel. I can't do this right now, all of this. It's wrong. I have to . . . go. I have to think, and . . . just go."

Spike's heart sank as she got up and strode out of the living room quickly, making her way to the door. Buffy paused, however, in front of it.

"I'll see you tomorrow."

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Buffy twirled the plastic cord around her index finger, sighing. "Mmm hmm . . . sure, Giles. You want me to bring cloves, rosemary . . . are you sure you didn't accidentally read a recipe for spaghetti sauce?" She joked. "Yeah, um, okay. I'll be right over." She hung up the phone and made her way to the kitchen cupboard. Buffy spun the spice rack around until she found what she was looking for. She set the small jars on the counter, her thoughts drifting to Spike.

'After this . . . after we do the truth spell . . . everything will be different. If Spike's truly harmless, that is. If he's been lying . . . no, best not to think of that. Will he leave, I wonder? Probably . . . not like there's anything keeping him here, not like I'm giving him any reason to stay . . . especially after my little - emotional outburst last night.'

Buffy started to pace around the room, angrily. 'What gave them the right to interrupt like that, anyway? Haven't they ever heard of knocking?' *It's Giles' house . . .* a small voice in the back of her head reminded her. 'I wish Spike were here . . . he would know what to say to cheer me up. Spike! The truth spell!' She glanced up to the clock. 'Crap! I was supposed to be at Giles' ten minutes ago!'

Buffy grabbed her coat as well as the kitchen spices and headed out the front door, hoping that Giles wouldn't be too upset.

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Her hand hesitated over the door before Buffy finally gave a tentative knock.

"Err - anyone home? It's me, Buffy."

The front door swung wide open and she was suddenly face - to - face with a flustered Giles.

"Oh, Buffy, good. I just left a message on your machine; I was afraid you weren't going to come."

She gave an apologetic smile. "Sorry. I - um, we were out of cloves and I had to run to the grocery store."

"Well, as long as you're here . . ." Giles opened the door wider, realizing she was still on the front porch. "Come in, come in."

Buffy stepped inside the house, hanging her coat on the rack next to the door. She made her way into the living room, setting the jars on the coffee table.

"So, Giles, are we spell bound?"

"As soon as I get the supplies from my room, we can start." Her eyes followed him as he made his way up the stairs until he disappeared from her sight. Buffy turned to Spike, who was dozing in the chair next to her. Spike's head was slumped forward and his lips were parted slightly, a small trickle of drool spilling from the side of his mouth onto his black T- shirt.

She smiled at the sleeping vampire, enjoying seeing him so vulnerable. 'He looks so sweet and innocent.' Buffy leaned down and cupped his cheek with her hand in a gesture of affection. 'Wow, he has really smooth skin . . .'

"Buffy? Are you ready to start the spell?" Buffy's head jerked up as Giles came down the stairs.

"Um, yeah, sure."

She let her hand fall from Spike's cheek as she turned to face Giles. "So, what do we do?"

He studied the text in front of him. "You take these herbs," he gestured to the small pile of dried greens next to him, "And sprinkle them around Spike as I recite the incantation."

"That's so easy . . . it's like Truth Spells for Dummies." Buffy's eyes flicked over to the vampire in the chair. "Shouldn't he, um, be awake for this?"

"Hmm? Oh, for God's sake! Spike! Wake up!"

"What? What time is it?" Spike shifted and rubbed the sleep from his eyes, glancing at the clock angrily. "It's only 2 o' clock in the afternoon! You weren't supposed to wake me 'till six! Bloody hell, Rupert, you could have - Buffy." The anger in his voice melted away. "What are you doing here?"

"Giles needs me to help him with a spell he's doing."

He eyed her warily. "What kind of spell?"

"Umm . . . the truth kind."

"Truth spell? For me, I wager."

"Yeah, we have to find out it you're really neutered. He can't really trust you, so . . . he has to do the spell."

"Neutered? I'm not impotent, ya know. I prefer the term 'temporarily incapacitated'."

A grin spread across Buffy's face. "Incapacitated - hmm . . . no. I think neutered fits you to a T. I mean, you're like a harmless, fluffy, little kitten now."

He growled. "Watch it, Slayer, or I'll -"

"Spike? Little word of advice; the intimidation thing doesn't really work when you've got drool on your chin."

"Huh?" He reached down to wipe the saliva from his face, embarrassed. "Right then," he said, eager to change the subject. "Watcher? Is the spell ready?"

"It's been ready for the past five minutes . . . if you two will stop bickering for a moment, we can get this over with. Now, Buffy, retrieve the spices," Giles instructed, his eyes never leaving the book. "Now, I need you to walk counterclockwise around Spike, sprinkling the herbs around him in a circular pattern. Understood?"

"Gotcha."

He cleared his throat, signaling that he was about to begin. "Let your deceitful tongue be broken, let no untruths be spoken . . ."

'Blah blah blah,' Buffy thought as she walked around Spike, leaving a trail of spice. 'I wonder if it'll work? Wait - did Giles say clockwise or counterclockwise? I hope I'm doing this right - it's not like I'm magically inclined or anything. Why couldn't he just get Willow to do it?'

"Buffy! You can stop now . . ."

"Oh! Is it finished? Did it work?" She leaned towards Spike, examining him.

"With this particular spell, there's no way of telling, from the exterior, that is, if it has taken effect. There's only one way to find out."

Giles took a seat on the couch, turning to Spike. Buffy sat down next to her Watcher, intrigued.

"What is your name?" He asked.

"William LeFont, William the Bloody, Spike."

"How old are you?"

"One hundred and twenty-one." Spike was surprised at how the words seemed to flow from his mouth, out of his control.

"Where were you born?"

"London, England."

"When did you first arrive in Sunnydale?"

"Two years ago . . . nearly three. Look, are you gonna ask any questions about the chip, or do you just want my life story?"

Giles ignored him. "Why did you come here?"

"Two reasons - to get closer to the Hellmouth so Dru could heal, and to kill the Slayer."

"After you failed to kill Buffy, what did you do?"

"Brood, sulk . . . think up methods of revenge ending in her demise."

"Did you ever manage to get your revenge?"

"Hell, no. Slayer beat me down . . . and after that . . ."

"Yes? What happened then?"

"The soddin' chip happened. Damn soldier boys . . ."

"You are referring to the Initiative, I take it."

"Yeah . . . them and their underground lair; what their whole prod and probe experiments. It's sick, really."

"So, after you were chipped, how did you discover that you couldn't harm humans?"

"I went looking for Buffy at her dorm room; found her little friend, instead. Tried to bite her, of course, but the pain was too intense. Initiative goons came after me a second time, and I escaped . . . I went out looking for someone to eat, but it was the same with everyone I found. Shooting pains, anytime I tried to feed." He paused. "S'that all? Because I'd really like to catch up on my beauty sleep."

Giles looked up from the notes that he had been taking. "Yes, I believe so. Of course, I will need Willow to validate this information for me . . . and to make sure that the spell did, in fact, work."

He grabbed his jacket from the rack, draping it over one arm. "Buffy, I'm going down to the dorm to visit Willow . . . we'll be back in about fifteen minutes. Can you handle -"

"I'll be fine . . . Just a warning, though; you keep this up and I'm gonna start charging."

Giles smiled and opened the door, turning to leave.

"How long does it last?"

"Hmm?"

"The truth spell, Giles. How long does it last?"

He spun around to face Buffy. "Well, it depends, really. Anywhere from twenty minutes to a whole day . . . the book is rather vague. Um, why do you want to know?"

"Oh . . . nothing."

Buffy smirked, fighting the urge to start cackling like a madwoman. This was going to be fun.

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Part 7:

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The front door clicked shut as Giles left the residence, heading for Sunnydale University. Buffy entered the living room and, after making sure that she and Spike were alone in the house, set to work.

She sat down on the couch and picked up the remote, turning on the TV and flipping channels. She waited for what she knew was coming.

"I thought we already went through this, Slayer! Just pick something!"

Buffy glanced over at the annoyed vampire and grinned slyly. "What would you like me to turn to, Spike? The Spice Channel?"

"That'd be nice." His eyes widened comically at the realization of what he'd said.

"Really? Well then, I'll just give you some alone time with your porn." Buffy picked herself up off the couch as if she was going to leave the room.

"No, I want you to stay. I . . . I like spending time with you." He shook his head in frustration. "That's not what I meant to say!"

Buffy sat back down, attempting to keep the surprise from her face. 'He likes spending time with me?'

"I thought you hated me."

"I don't hate you . . . haven't hated you as of late."

'This is just too weird.' Buffy blushed, wanting to change the subject.

"What were you like as a human?"

"Well, I guess you could say I was -" he stopped short of his answer. "Oh, no . . . the spell!" Spike glared at Buffy. "You can't do this!"

"What's stopping me?"

"It's an invasion of privacy! I'd like to think that you have more respect for me than -"

Buffy rolled her eyes. "Please, Spike. If I was under a truth spell, wouldn't you do the exact same thing to me?"

"Well, of course." He clenched his eyes shut, his anger obvious. "Dammit!"

She cleared her throat. "As I was -saying-, before you so rudely interrupted; what were you like as a human?"

Spike bit his lip, desperate to keep himself from spilling the information. 'She can't find out - I'd never live it down! I can do this . . . if I have strong enough willpower, I can keep myself from talking.'

"Spike! Answer the question!"

He bit down harder, drawing blood, attempting to swallow the words that were on the tip of his tongue. He couldn't hold it in, however, and he opened his mouth to speak.

"I was a poet! An utter loser looked down on by the upper class. I was a joke - a hopeless bookworm of a nancy boy! There, are you happy?!"

Buffy's looked down to the floor, making it impossible for Spike to judge her reaction.

"A poet?"

She started to chuckle. "Spike, you were a poet?" she repeated, doubling over with laughter. "Spike . . . the Big Bad . . . a poet!" Buffy managed to gasp out in-between laughs, clutching her aching stomach.

"Yeah, yeah, yuck it up, Slayer. Wasn't so funny from my vantage point."

Buffy sniffed and wiped tears of laughter from her eyes. She glanced up at Spike, looking guilty. "I'm sorry. It's just -" She gave another giggle and Spike could tell that she wasn't sorry at all.

"I can't see it; you a poet, with the bleached hair and the leather." She smiled devilishly. "Do you still write poetry?"

"What? No!"

"Why not?"

"B-because it would . . . I'm not good at it. Besides, too many painful memories."

"Painful? Why would your memories be painful? Your poetry can't have been that bad."

Spike grinned wryly. "It -was- that bad. Anyone that tries to rhyme 'effulgent' with 'bulge in it', well -"

She chuckled. "Effulgent? Is that even a word?"

"Of course it's a -word-," Spike snorted with contempt. "It means glowing."

Buffy held her hand to her cheek in mock horror. "Oh, don't let me offend you with me ignorance, oh great poet! Please, continue to astound me with your amazing vocabulary skills!"

"Hey, don't blame me. Some of us have finished college."

Buffy glared. "And some of us aren't tied to a chair in a very vulnerable, possibly dusty position."

"Like you would," Spike scoffed.

"Try me."

He rolled his eyes. "I can't, Slayer. I've got this bloody chip in my head."

"Excuses, excuses. You couldn't beat me even if you tried. You never could."

Spike shrugged; as best one can shrug when they're tied up. "True, that."

"Would you, though?"

"Would I what?"

"Attack me if you got the chip out? I mean, would you try to kill me?"

"Of course not! I could never do that . . . I couldn't."

Buffy looked over at him, surprised. "Why not?"

"Because I love you."

Her face paled, and she put her hand up to her mouth in shock. "What?" Buffy whispered.

"I - I think . . . I think I'm in love with you, Buffy."

"No . . ." Buffy whispered, standing quickly, backing up slowly to the front door. "You can't. You're lying!"

"Truth spell, luv. Can't lie." He said, sounding a bit ashamed.

"I - I - I have to go." She turned and bolted for the door, slamming it behind her on the way out.

"Come back, Buffy! Buffy!"

Spike sighed, hanging his head in defeat.

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Part 8:

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Buffy sighed heavily, frowning, furrowing her brow. She glanced out the window at the surrounding streets, the sunlit sidewalks and the cheerfully painted houses, most likely filled with equally cheerful families. The sun was out and the threatening clouds from yesterday afternoon had all but vanished. Robins and jays were perched on the outstretched limbs of the maple trees, singing joyful, melodious tunes that signaled that everything was right in the world. The day was absolutely perfect. She pressed her fingers up to the glass, closing her weary eyes in thought.

"Dammit."

Buffy started thumping her head against the driver side window, muttering to herself. "Dammit, dammit, dammit, dammit, dammit!"

Giles had called her earlier that morning about having a research 'party' over at his place, with all of the Scoobies. She had tried to get out of it; saying that she didn't feel well, she had too much work, couldn't they do it without her just this once? But he had told her that it was 'vital', and had started rambling on about responsibilities and Slayer duties. So Buffy had finally given in, despite the aching feeling in her chest that she got whenever she thought about what was waiting for her over at Giles' house.

'Fucking truth spell. If Giles hadn't left me alone in the house with Spike, I never would have found out - what Spike felt for me. What he feels. But he can't feel . . . 'that' way. He doesn't have a soul so he can't . . . love. Can he?'

She shook her head in an attempt to clear her thoughts; get some clarity.

'Doesn't matter if he can, anyway. I - I don't love him. I know I don't. I don't know -what- I feel for him, but it's not love . . . and it's wrong. He's a vampire; I'm a Slayer. I should be thinking of killing him, not wanting his lips on mine, his tongue . . .'

She thumped her head against the window again. "Dammit."

A hard rap on the door snapped Buffy out of her funk, and she lifted her head in surprise. Giles was standing on the sidewalk next to the car, a concerned look on his face. She opened the door and got out of the car, attempting a smile.

"Hey, Giles. I was just about to go to your house, but I guess you found me first."

"Is there something wrong, Buffy? I saw your car pull up fifteen minutes ago."

She blushed, looking down at the road to avoid his worried gaze. "I - I don't feel well. Remember? I told you that on the phone . . ."

"Oh." Giles looked embarrassed as he started down the pathway to his house. "I'm sorry; after dealing with Xander for so many years, I assumed that it was just an excuse."

He opened the door to his house, ushering her in. Buffy looked over at Giles, smiling genuinely. "Don't worry, I wouldn't have believed me, either."

Her eyes scanned the room and she sat on the sofa that Anya, Xander, and Willow were previously occupying. They were locked in a heated discussion and didn't even notice her presence. Buffy waited to be acknowledged, clasping her sweaty hands together nervously. Giles sat down in the chair next to the couch, picking up a book and scanning its pages.

"Ahem." She cleared her throat, trying to get her friends' attention.

Xander looked over at her, startled. "Oh, Buff! When did you get here?"

"Umm . . . a few minutes ago. What's up?"

"Okay, maybe you can settle this. Who would win in a fight: Spiderman or Batman?"

Buffy scratched her chin, pretending to think hard. "Wow, well, this really is a clencher. Batman is rich and has all of those cool gadgets, but he's not really a superhero, persay. Now Spiderman, on the other hand, actually has powers. He can climb walls and stuff without any aid; plus, he's pretty damn strong. I would have to say Spidey is the victor."

Anya frowned deeply and crossed her arms over her chest. "I don't care what you think; Batman would be the clear winner. He has all of the money."

Xander and Anya continued to bicker as Giles motioned for Buffy. She got up from the couch, eager to get away from the arguing couple. She gave the Watcher a grateful smile as she took a seat next to him.

"Good timing, Giles. I owe ya one."

"I was wondering, Buffy . . . last night, after the truth spell I came back and, well, you were gone. I thought you'd agreed to watch Spike, and I was worried that you might have run into some trouble. I asked Spike but he said he didn't know; you just left."

Buffy's heart rate accelerated at the mention of Spike, her throat tightening. 'What can I say - Spike confessed that he loved me and I freaked out? Hardly likely.'

"It was, well . . . feminine issues," she said, her voice low and secretive. "I didn't tell Spike because I was too embarrassed, and . . . you understand."

Giles flushed, removing his glasses and cleaning them hurriedly. "Ah, yes, well, I do understand. Of course you would have to - "

"Where's Spike?" She had finally noticed that the chair she was sitting in was the one that Spike had been occupying for the last few weeks. 'Maybe he moved him into the bathroom?' she thought, hopefully.

"I have no idea, could be anywhere. After I untied him he left without saying a word. Guess he's as happy to be rid of us as we are of him."

'But . . . Spike, he could be anywhere! What if I never see him again! Dammit!'

"What did you do that for?" Buffy shouted, angrily. Her face paled when she realized that she'd actually said that out loud. Anya and Xander had stopped arguing and were now staring at her.

"I - I mean, he could have been lying," Buffy stammered, "The spell, um, might not have worked! This was probably just what he wanted . . ."

"I had Willow check the spell for me; she confirmed the details and made sure that I did the truth spell correctly. There's nothing to worry about, Buffy. Spike is truly incapable of harming any human being without intense neurological pain."

"Oh." Buffy grew quiet, embarrassed. "Heh heh . . . oops. I really need to cut down on the sugar. Makes my brain all wonky." She picked up the book on the table next to her, opening it, avoiding her friends' prying eyes.

"So, research, huh?"

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She trudged across the cemetery, being careful to sidestep the tombstones that threatened to trip her. 'Why should I even care? It's not like we were friends or anything . . . were we? -Are- we? I wonder where Spike is, what he's doing. What if he left Sunnydale? What if he left the country?' Her heartbeat sped up at the thought of never seeing Spike again, until Buffy realized her stupidity.

'He just left yesterday. There's no way in hell he could get out of the country that fast . . . unless he had someone teleport him out. Oh, God, what if he did?' She shook her head angrily. 'Stop this, Buffy! You're supposed to be patrolling. Worrying won't do any good.'

She clutched the stake in her right hand, attempting to concentrate on her surroundings.

'Try not to think about Spike, try not to think about Spike . . .wait, by thinking 'try not to think about Spike', am I thinking about Spike?'

Buffy was jarred from her thoughts, however, as she was tackled from behind. She landed hard on the grass, the air knocked out of her. She rolled around to face her opponent, panting from the fall as well as the adrenaline rush. The fledgling vampire straddled her chest, looking down at her with hungry eyes. Buffy grabbed the vampire's shoulders and flung him off of her with ease. She picked herself up off of the ground, groaning in frustration. Her new leather jacket had gotten a large patch of mud on it from the sodden soil.

'Why do I keep wearing nice clothes when I go patrolling?'

"You are -so- going to pay for this!" Buffy pulled the stake out from her pocket, advancing towards the fledgling. She thrust her fist towards it's chest when, all of the sudden, it turned to dust. "What the f -"

The words caught in her throat as she noticed the familiar leather-clad figure standing in front of her.

"Hello, luv."

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The dust settled and he could see Buffy staring at him, her mouth agape.

'Luv . . . love. Bad choice of words, very bad.'

"Um, Buffy. H-Hello, Buffy," Spike stammered, chastising himself mentally. 'Oh, great, now I've ruined the entrance. Stuttering, yeah, real manly, there.'

She stood still, frozen, making no attempts to move or speak. After clearing his throat, he tried again.

"Buffy?"

This got her attention, and he watched with glee as a rosy hue crept up to her cheeks. She turned her eyes to the ground, avoiding him.

"S-Spike. What are you doing here? I thought you would've left the country by now."

He chuckled sarcastically.

"Oh, don't sound so happy to see me! I was just picking up some blood from the butcher's, pet." He raised the brown bag he was carrying, heavy with plastic sacks filled with a familiar red substance. "A fellow needs to eat, y'know."

Buffy toyed with the wooden stake in her hands nervously.

"Right . . . I knew that. I - I was just, um, patrolling. As you could tell."

'Time to liven things up a bit,' Spike thought, wickedly.

"Well, you weren't doin' too good a job of it, from what I saw."

That did it. Buffy's eyes rose from the ground, meeting his. She glared at him fiercely.

"What?"

'Oh, this is going to be fun'. He raised one scarred eyebrow at her, his expression questioning.

"I mean, I come over and you're sprawled on the ground, totally helpless."

Her jaw dropped out of anger and shock at his accusations.

"Oh, that's such bull! I can handle myself."

He gave a contemptuous snort.

"Sure, Slayer, right."

Her arms were now folded across her chest defensively; she looked about a millisecond away from an eye-roll.

"I can!"

His eyes grew wide and innocent, as Spike put on his best 'Who - me?' expression.

"I agreed with you, pet. What part of 'right' don't you understand?"

"It's the way you said it. Like if I said: 'Gee, Spike, I really enjoy your company', it's obvious that I would be -"

"Telling the truth? Finally, an honest answer."

She rolled her eyes as expected, but Spike could tell that she wasn't really angry.

'She's so cute when she's frustrated'.

"Like you would know an 'honest answer' if it bit you on the -"

Before he knew what was happening, Buffy had pushed him, sending him to the ground. He quickly got to his feet again, rubbing his aching back.

"What in the bleedin' hell was that for?"

Looking over at Buffy, he noticed that she was currently doing battle with a vampire.

'That's why she pushed me? To save me from him? I don't know how to feel . . . touched that she cares, or really annoyed that she thinks I can't handle myself.'

He watched with amusement as she quickly dusted the vampire and made her way over to him.

"Are you okay? He kind of came out of nowhere . . ."

"You didn't have to protect me, you know. Just cause I can't defend myself anymore doesn't mean that I can't run away effectively. I'm not completely helpless."

Her face was a mask of confusion. "Protect you?"

"You know, the whole shoving me out of harm's way thing?"

She rolled her eyes again. "Please, I didn't shove you. You probably tripped over your own feet."

"Riiight. This, coming from the biggest klutz in history. I'm so offended."

Buffy ignored him, choosing instead to glance down at her watch. "Oh, crap, it's almost midnight. I've gotta get back in time to write my English paper." She looked back up at Spike. "It's been great catching up with you, really, but I've got to go. Take care of yourself," she said, her voice dripping with mock sincerity, "be careful that you don't trip and fall on a stake or something."

Spike found himself oddly annoyed, less at her words than at the fact that she was able to get under his skin. A wicked thought crossed his mind, as he innocently stuck his foot out in front of the passing Slayer.

'I'll show her clumsy'.

Buffy didn't see the foot in time and tripped, her arms flailing wildly. She grabbed on to Spike's duster and pulled him down onto the ground with her, using his body to break her fall. Panting unnecessarily, he looked up at her, frustrated.

"Great, so it's not enough to push me, now you have to bring me down with you. Thanks ever so."

She looked down at him, her face contorted with anger. "Well, it's your own fault. You tripped me!"

Deciding to go another route, Spike grinned at her devilishly.

"This whole 'tripping' thing is just some lame excuse to get closer to me. Admit it, already."

Blushing, she scowled at him, but made no attempt to move.

"You're one to talk! After the truth spell, how can you pretend like you don't care? This was probably your plan all along!"

"And what if it was? Would it bother you so much?"

She blushed harder, her cheeks flaming.

"Yes, it would. You being so close . . . it-it disgusts me," she finished half-heartedly.

He moved his face closer to hers, enjoying her discomfort and embarrassment.

"Deny it," he whispered, his voice low and sultry, "Tell me that you don't want it. That you aren't dying to-"

Before he could finish his sentence, Buffy's lips were on his, silencing him. After the initial shock wore off, Spike began to kiss her back, relishing the soft, warm feel of her lips and tongue. Time seemed to stand still, and after a few minutes, Buffy broke the kiss and opened her eyes. With a gasp she pulled herself off of him, shocked at what she had done.

"I -I . . . have to go . . ."

She took off running, not even bothering with a backward glance. Spike stood up, watching her go but not attempting to stop her; he knew it would do more harm than good. He fumbled with the duster pockets, searching for a cigarette.

'Why is she always leaving just when things get good?'

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Part 10:


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Two hours later, Buffy found herself wandering through the cemetery, dazed. Her plan (if there had ever been such a thing, she was starting to think not) had been to run directly to her house and take a shower. A very long, very -cold- shower. She knew that she needed to get her mind off of Spike, as he was a source of most, if not all, of her stress these days, but she also knew that she had to take some kind of action.

'I shouldn't have done that . . .it was just - just wrong. It was a wrong, bad, sick, twisted, wicked, naughty, yummy kiss. A yummy kiss with a vampire . . . a vampire named -Spike- for God's sake! Not exactly someone you can bring home to mother. Not that I would even consider bringing him home . . . well, I might, but not to meet my mom. What would I say: 'Hey, I'd like you to meet Spike. He's a friend, well, kind of a friend, who used to be an enemy, and we tried to kill each other several times but that's all behind us now, and -'

She stopped herself, realizing she was rambling, and waited for her thoughts to clear a bit before starting up again.

'And he's a real pain in the ass sometimes; a frustrating, aggravating, infuriating, intoxicating, occasionally nice guy that, okay, happens to be undead, but can be really sweet and is a great kisser . . . but I can't be with him, ever. Because he's a demon. And demons are evil . . . right? Spike's evil . . . maybe not so much as of late, but I'm sure that if he had the chip out he would do things. Bad things; things as are expected of a creature like him. I'm sure he's working on getting the chip out as I speak . . . well, technically think. The last time I saw him, he was . . . getting pig's blood from the butcher's shop. But he also . . . um, dusted a vampire.'

Buffy took a seat on a rather large tombstone, sighing and cradling her face in the palms of her hands.

'Reeeeal convincing argument there, Buffy,' she chastised herself, 'What is the -evil- thing planning on doing next - watching television? Sleeping, perhaps? That bastard!'

"Shut up, brain," she muttered grumpily, "What would you know?"

"Buffy!"

Her head shot up at the sound of her name, her throat tightening and her heart starting to pound.

'Oh, God, what if it's . . . Xander?'

"Xander?" she mimicked, confused, "What are you doing here? In the cemetery? At night? Do you have a death wish or something?"

"Not since high school," he joked, jogging over to her. "Giles was about ready to send out a search party for you; Willow said you never came back to the dorm.

Buffy smacked herself on the side of the head. "Oh, man, I completely forgot to check in with her. What time is it?" she asked, guiltily.

"Almost midnight; you'd been gone patrolling for over four hours. Giles called me to say that I should come over 'immediately', and that had been missing for about two hours. I was on my way over when I spotted you in the cemetery. Are you all right? No gaping flesh wounds anywhere?"

She gave a slight smile. "No, no, I'm fine. Clothes are a little dusty, but otherwise, I'm no worse for the wear."

"Maybe it's none of my business, but . . . why -were- you gone for so long? Is something wrong?"

"No, nothing's wrong. I'm just . . . well, I ran into Spike on the way home."

"Spike?" He narrowed his eyes in suspicion. "He didn't try anything funny, did he?"

Buffy shrugged. "Nothing funny . . . he actually dusted a vamp for me." She shrugged. "I don't see why it matters Xander, he couldn't kill me even if he wanted to."

"Right, because he's impotent now."

"He's not impotent! He's . . . incapacitated."

"Are you sticking up for him?" He asked, incredulously.

"I'm not! T-There was no sticking! I was merely stating the facts. Impotent suggests that . . . well, you know. And I don't think he's -"

"Okay, I so -don't- want to go there," Xander interrupted. "Still," he continued, "weren't you the one calling him that just a few days ago? You know, impotent?"

"Was I?" Buffy asked innocently, "I don't remember . . . classes kind of wear me down," she grumbled.

"College is really tough, huh?" he asked, sympathetically, "That's why I stopped going to class after high school, Buff."

'And that's why you're still living in your parent's basement', she thought, rather cattily. Guilt washed over her, and she found herself fighting the urge to apologize to Xander for thinking such a mean thing. 'Bad Buffy. Spike must really be affecting you; pretty soon you'll be calling him Harris. That or 'The Whelp'.'

She giggled at this and Xander stared at her, worried.

"Are you -sure- you're alright? You're acting kind of wiggy . . . you're not possessed or anything, are you?"

"No," she sniffed, biting back peals of laughter; "I'm just fine. Sorry if I'm pulling a Drusilla on you, it's just been a long night." She glanced down at her watch. "And it's almost one in the morning . . . I think we should probably get back before Willow calls the cops. That and I really need to write that English paper."

"Yeah," Xander agreed, "I've gotta get back to so I can . . . um . . . shower. You aren't the only one with important things to do, Missy," he pointed at Buffy with a stern look on his face. "It isn't all about you, you know."

Buffy grinned. "It should be."

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'All about her, isn't it? Always about Buffy, and her bloody inner turmoil. Don't I get a turn to brood?'

Spike paced around his crypt, his mind racing.

'Wait, no, I take that back. Don't want to turn into the Great Poof, there. But still, why can't -I- be the one to kiss -her- and then run away, all tormented and confused. Girl needs to stop waffling back and forth between emotions. Does she want to be with me or doesn't she?'

He smiled devilishly.

'Well, of course she wants to be with me. Can see it in her eyes, every time I'm around. The only problem is that she needs to accept it, her feelings. Gettin' bloody well sick and tired of her bein' so conflicted. One day she'll probably come barging in here, stake in hand, determined to dust me and end her troubles . . . that, or come for a makeout session.'

'Come to think of it . . . I never told her where I'm currently . . . residing.'

A wide grin spread across his face, as he came to a realization.

'That gives -me- all of the power. I can see her whenever I please, and she can't do a bloody thing about it. She'll have to see me, no matter what. In fact . . .'

Grabbing his duster from the floor, he made his way to the cement door.

'I'm in the mood for a little visit.'

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Joyce Summers took the wet rag from the kitchen sink, ringing it out. She patiently wiped the table down, cleaning crumbs that were only discernable to her 'mom' eye. She was only wasting time, she knew. Buffy had told her that she might be over for dinner that night, and Joyce had waited over three hours for her, only to be left feeling very foolish. Waiting on every 'possible' and 'maybe' would only leave her disappointed and with too much spaghetti.

She scrubbed at the table harder, attempting to get out a miniscule red stain left from dinner. The doorbell rang and she dropped the rag back into the sink, drying her hands quickly. She jogged to the door, hoping that it would be her always-tardy daughter. Opening the door, she peered out nervously at the black-clad figure on the stoop.

"Can I help you?" she asked, politely.

The nervous young man shifted his weight from one foot to the other.

"Is Buffy home?"

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Part 11:

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She peered at him through the crack in the door. "You look so familiar," she mused, suddenly remembering where she had seen him before. "You're Buffy's friend, right? The vampire?"

"Uh, yeah, that would be me. Spike, at your service." He fidgeted on the doorstep, not sure what to do. He hadn't really taken Buffy's mother into account.

'Maybe I shouldn't have come here . . .'

"Maybe I shouldn't have come here," he mimicked, avoiding Joyce's curious eyes. "Buffy's not around, is she? 'Cause if she's not, I'll just go back to my crypt, see her some other time."

"Oh, no," Joyce said, "Buffy told me that she'd be coming over later . . .why don't you just wait for her here? It would save you the walk back to your . . . crypt, was it?"

"I don't know . . . you sure you don't mind? Me bein' a vampire and all?"

"Not at all," she replied, "With Buffy around, I've had my share of vampires over, let me tell you." She looked at the fidgety vamp on the doorstep and realized that she hadn't invited him in yet. "Oh," she said, opening the door wider, "won't you come in?"

"Thanks." He stepped inside the house, feeling more than a little awkward. Attempting nonchalance, he took a seat on the couch and crossed his legs.

"Make yourself at home," she said, taking note of Spike's nervousness underneath his cool exterior. "There's food in the fridge if you'd like . . . wait, you don't eat, do you? Besides blood, I mean . . . or hot chocolate," she added, with a twinkle of laughter in her eyes. "Still, there are snacks in the kitchen if you get hungry."

Taking a seat next to Spike, Joyce couldn't help but study the man's face; he looked so lost. As she peered at him inquisitively, he turned his face away from her, uncomfortable with her lingering gaze.

"How are things with your girlfriend?"

"Huh?" he looked over at her as if she'd grown a second head. "Girlfriend?"

"The one we had the chat about the last time I saw you . . . last year, wasn't it? You know, Dre . . . Dra . . . well, her name escapes me at the moment -"

"Drusilla," Spike interrupted.

"Right, Drusilla. Did things work out for you?"

"Oh, that. They did work . . . for a little while. About a month, actually, then she was back to her . . . 'ways'."

"Oh," Joyce replied, unsure of what to say. "Well, sometimes I think it's just . . . better to make a clean break, like you did."

He snorted. "Wasn't my break, Joyce, s'all her idea . . . 'We should see other people' . . . and trust me, I'm usin' the term 'people' loosely. I give, and I give, and I give and I get nothing in return. Not from her, and not from . . . others."

"Well, the world can be a pretty unfair place sometimes," she commiserated.

"As far as I'm concerned, women are the cause of all my problems, 'specially Dru. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have had to come here in the first place. Sunnydale, that's where all of the trouble began. I'd leave, 'cept it's like home to me now, don't got nowhere else to go, you know what I mean? If it weren't for that bloody bint, then I never would have had to leave Czech; I'd still be there, most likely. I liked Prague, y'know? S'a nice place . . . God, I thought that first year here was the worst, but this one takes the cake.

He glanced over at Joyce, who was listening intently to him. Spike felt a warming sensation in the pit of his stomach; no one had ever really listened to him except for her.

'Buffy's lucky to have such a great mum.'

"What happened?" she asked, her voice filled with concern, "What made this year so horrible?"

"Right," he said, trying to clear his head, "well, it all started when I came back to Sunnydale. The Gem of Amara, you ever heard of it?" Joyce shook her head. "Figured as much. It's this stone that, when worn by a vampire, makes 'em invulnerable. You could stake 'em, toss 'em out into the sun, hell, even give 'em a bath in holy water, and nothing would come of it, as long as they had it on. Yeah, well, I found it. Let me tell you, that was one of the happiest days of my unlife . . . at least the first few hours were. Then I made the mistake of tryin' to take down the Slayer."

"Buffy," she murmured to herself.

"Right, Buffy. Well, long story short, she kicked my ass all over town and stole it from me, which was a might bit depressing, having spent so many months searching for it. She sent the gem to Peaches, so I went to LA to find it. Yeah, that didn't work out either . . . not at all."

"Peaches?" Joyce asked, confused.

"Oh, you probably know him as Angel." Spike hated saying the name, and made a mental note to wash his mouth out as soon as he got back to his crypt.

"So, anyway, after that botched attempt, I came back to Sunnydale . . . like I told you, just can't stay away from this place. I was plottin', well . . . something not so nice for Buffy, but of course that went to hell, like all of my plans do. I was attacked by a bunch of commandos; knocked me out cold, they did. Woke up in some sort of laboratory with a bunch of other guinea pigs. They did all kinds of experiments on us . . . but I managed to escape. A little worse for wear, unfortunately."

"What happened to you?"

"The soldiers, scientists . . . whoever did the experiments, put this bloody thing in my head. Won't let me feed."

"So . . . you can't eat anything?" she queried.

"No, no, I can eat. Just not like I normally do. I can't kill anything; can't even hit people." He buried his head in the palm of his hands, feeling miserable. He didn't realize how pathetic the whole situation sounded until he said it out loud. "I'm a worthless excuse for a vampire."

"Don't say that," Joyce said, sympathetically. "Just because you can't kill anymore doesn't mean that you can't do a lot of other things."

He peered up at her through his fingers. "Like what?"

"You could . . . well . . . you could help Mr. Giles with research," she finished, lamely.

Spike groaned. "I'm not going to be some librarian's assistant! Just 'cause I'm helpless doesn't mean that I'm going to turn into some nancy boy! Besides . . . don't even like Rupert. He's a . . . a poncy bugger," he finished, halfheartedly. "I just . . . I don't know what to do, Joyce."

She gave him a reassuring pat on the knee. "We'll think of something."

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The car pulled up to the large, familiar house and Buffy stepped out.

"Thanks for giving me a ride, Xander, I owe ya," she said, slamming the door shut.

'I owe Giles, I owe Xander . . .who don't I owe?' Buffy mused as she walked towards the front door. She was about to knock when she heard the voices coming from inside of her house . . . '-Two- voices. I recognize mom and . . . that can't be who I think it is.'

She rang the doorbell and listened to the steadily approaching footsteps. Her mother opened the door, a grin on her face.

"Buffy, you came," she said, sounding quite happy to see her daughter. Buffy felt a pang of guilt and promised herself to come see her mother more often.

"Yeah, uh, I'm sorry that I was so late, something came up . . ." She peered over her mother's shoulder, trying to see into the living room. "I, um, I thought I heard voices coming from inside the house . . . more than one. Do you have visitors over?"

"Oh, no, your friend Spike dropped by, he's been looking for you. We've been chatting for the past half-hour . . . I was wondering if you were ever going to show up. He's been lovely company, and . . ."

"Spike?" Buffy pushed past her mother and into the empty living room. "Spike? Where are you?"

Joyce entered the house and looked around, confused. "He was just here a minute ago . . ."

The kitchen curtains fluttered and Buffy realized, for the first time, that the window had been opened.

'Thinks he can get away that easily, does he?'

"I think I know where I can find him . . . I'll just be gone a minute."

And with that, Buffy stormed out of the house and into the night.

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Part 12:


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He ran through the cemetery, dodging the tombstones and upturned tree roots, making sure not to trip. The foreboding crypt loomed in the distance, and he gave a small sigh of relief.

'Home, sweet crypt,' he thought wearily, as he opened the concrete door and stepped into his musty resting-place. Closing the door firmly, he loped over to the living room recliner and slumped onto it, relishing the feeling of the soft cushions against his aching muscles. He sat for a moment, closing his eyes, enjoying the quiet.

'Ponce.'

Spike shook his head in disgust, running his fingers over his scalp, detangling the mass of bleached-blonde waves.

'I'm in the mood for a little visit, you said. Take the time to walk to her place, sit down, have a little chat with her mother . . . and then you high tail it when she shows up. You sicken me.'

"Yeah, well, what was I supposed to do? Let her find me there, on the couch, sippin' a nice cup o' cocoa with her mum? Don't be a stupid git."

'Oh, and it's so much better for her to walk in and find that, not only were you in her house without her permission, but you ran away as soon as she came home. Through the kitchen window, no less! Real manly there, Spike. Show the girl who's boss.'

"I don't -need- permission," he huffed angrily, "I do what I damn well please. And I didn't go there to show her who's boss, I came there to . . . well, maybe I did, but that wasn't the whole reason. I wanted Buffy to know that I'm the one in control of our little . . . situation. I'm not her whipping boy, you know."

Spike was vaguely aware that this conversation he was having with himself was a trifle odd, and that had anyone walked in at the moment, they would have thought him daft. No matter.

'Then don't let yourself be! Stand up for once, you worthless nancy boy . . . look at you, you can't even defend yourself against your own mind. Pathetic, s'what you are.'

"I'm not pathetic," he mumbled, resting his head in the palm of his hands, "I'm in love. I can't just -"

The door to the crypt slammed open and the words stuck in his throat. The door collided with the wall of the room, a loud boom resounding throughout the residence. Spike leapt from the chair and spun on his heels, turning to face whomever it was that had broken in and disturbed his train of thought.

"What the hell were you doing at my house?!"

The furious Slayer stood at the entrance, her hands placed on her hips in a gesture of annoyance.

"I-" Spike started, only to be cut off once more.

"What gives you the right to come over to -my- house when I'm not there and talk to my mother? How dare you!"

"Now listen, I-"

"I can't even trust you not to barge in on my personal life, in my house, when I'm not around! I can't believe you! You stupid, worthless, selfish little -"

"Hey, now, that's not -"

"Fair? It's more than fair! You deserve a lot worse than that after you -"

"Bloody hell, Slayer," he yelled, "can't I get a word in edgewise?"

She stood still, panting, her face beet red. She glared at him, her eyes narrowing in contempt.

"Doesn't feel so good being interrupted, does it? I'm so sorry that I barged in on your precious personal life, because you're always respecting my privacy, you know."

"It's different with me. You're an -"

"Evil, soulless thing, I know. You've told me a million times, Slayer, gets old."

Spike sighed, burying his hands in his duster's pockets and turning his face to the floor.

"I wasn't going to do anything, Buffy, I just came to . . . see you. That's all. I was gonna leave but your mum invited me in, told me to stay and wait for you. And the fact that I fled, out of the window not less, says more about you than it does me. But I'm glad you're here . . . we need to talk."

She crossed her arms over her chest, annoyed.

"So? Talk already."

"All right, then. We kissed tonight, you know it and I know it. No use denying things, Slayer. There is something between us. What I want to know is what."

"What, what?"

"What is there between us . . . to you, I mean. What do I mean to you?"

"I . . ." she shook her head, flustered, "I don't know."

"That's not an answer, Buffy, I want the truth."

"I'm telling you the truth. I just . . . I'm confused. I don't know what to feel. When you kissed me . . ." she took a deep breath, steadying herself. "When we kissed, it was . . . nice. Really nice, but you're . . . we couldn't work. I don't think we could, I mean . . . God, do I have to talk about this?"

He raised one eyebrow questioningly. "What do you think?"

"Fine. Bottom line; I don't know." Buffy stuck out her lower lip, pouting. "Can't we just keep it at the kissing? I'm okay with the kissing." She leaned towards him, intending to capture his lips within hers, but he pushed her away warily, his face stoic.

"I can't do this. Until you're sure . . . you know what you feel, what you want, I can't do this. It's not fair to you, and it's certainly not fair to me. No playing tiddlywinks with my feelings, pet, s'not allowed. I really do love you, and I . . . can't do this until you're ready to be with me, heart and soul." He paused, his eyes tracing her features, attempting to read her expression. "You understand, right?"

"Yeah, I . . . I understand. Not really with the tiddlywinks comment, but yeah, I get the gist of it. I'm gonna, um, I'm gonna go. Mom's expecting me."

She took shaky steps towards the door, her face pale and drawn.

"Buffy? Have a nice night, all right?"

"Yeah . . . you, too."

And with that, she left.

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