Chapter 9:

Earlier….

Spike softly brushes back a loose hair from Buffy’s face and lets out a grin when he hears her moan. He bends down to leave a soft kiss on her forehead, and continues caressing her hair…just watching while his angel slept.

'God…I’m a lucky bloke. She’s so beautiful…but 16 still. God Spike, you royally screwed up this time eh mate. But, god just look at her. Her face, her hair…her lips. Everything about her is wonderful…beautiful. She’s bloody gorgeous. I think I’m in lo…'

Spikes thoughts are interrupted when he hears the front door opening, then shutting. Spike leans down to kiss Buffy once more, then gets out of bed to get dressed. He tiptoes over to the door, and opens in quietly. He steps out into the hallway, and slowly walks towards the living room. He lets out a sigh of relief when he sees that its just Faith sitting on the couch.

'Wait…Faith! Oh, bloody hell! I have Faith’s underage sister...naked no less…in my bed! Think William, think!'

Spike lets out a smile towards Faith and embraces her in a hug. When Spike pulls back, he smells alcohol on her breath. He lets out a sigh and backs up from her. With his arms crossed in front of him, he asks, “How are you doing?”

Faith lets out a nod and slowly walks towards Spike again. She reaches out and rubs her hands up and down his chest, whiling grinning slightly

“I’m doing just fine,” she whispers. “Now let’s go to your room, and make me feel a lot better.”

She leans forward to kiss him, but Spike moves his head to the left, trying to think of an excuse not to kiss her.

“Err, listen Faith. We need to talk. I mean, Faith… your mother died yesterday. You’re not just fine.”

Faith lets out a groan and pushes Spike backwards.

“GOD! Would everyone just stop telling me what I am, or what I’m not! I am a grown women…”

Between faiths rambling, Spike hears his bedroom door open. As quick as he can, Spike steps forward and grabs Faith, kissing her. He faces her back towards the bedroom hallway, and closes his eyes to pray Faith doesn’t see anything. Both of their eyes open wide as they hear a gasp coming from behind them.

Spike looks past Faith’s head, to see a very, near tears, Buffy, tightly holding onto the blanket covering her. He steps forward to talk to her, but Faith beats him to it.

“Buffy...what...what are you doing here? And …naked?” Faith looks at her weirdly, and leans back on one foot, waiting for her answer.

Buffy lets out a sigh, and backs up slightly. She looks directly at Faith, and spats out. “What makes you think you have the right to ask me why I am here?! Don’t you think for a second that I owe you anything! But, I will tell you that Spike found me after….after mom died. As for the naked part, I didn’t have any pjs, and his were way to big, so I just slept in the guest room naked, and there is nothing wrong with that. But guess what he did...he did what you could never do for me. He took care of me while you, judging by the smell, went off and got drunk. And you probably slept with a new guy huh? God Faith it never changes with you does it?”

“Buffy…you don’t get it. I just …I just needed to get away for a while…” Faith explains.

“GET AWAY!? GET AWAY!? What the fuck do you think I wanted Faith! You think that I wanted to be there at the hospital while they told me that my mother was dead! That now she was just a god damned body and yet here you are, telling me that you needed to get away! You selfish bitch! For years I have protected you, watched out for you, anything you needed, I got for you. Well you know what bitch , I’m done. I’m done being your sister. I’m done having to hang around either of you! Both of you can go to hell for all I care. I’m done taking care of you and you know what else! Part of me is happy that out mother is dead…I’m happy that she doesn’t have to see how much of a stupid, fucking whore her oldest daughter has become! You needed space Faith?! I needed you! For the first time in forever! I needed my sister! I needed you so bad…and it hurts so much, but you weren’t there for me! Instead you had that bastard take care of me!”

Spike takes a step forward Buffy, but she backs up further “Don’t..don’t either of you touch me. What did you think Faith? That you just come back here, and you say sorry for not being here for me…ever? Doesn’t work like that princess. And you actually think that you have a chance with that scum! You think that, that…Thing, is your future husband! Mom would rather die again before she saw the two of you get married!”

Faith rushes forward, and backhands Buffy across the face. Buffy lets out a gasp and holds her cheek, now swollen.

Faith’s eyes wide, and brings her hand forward to hold her sister’s cheek. Buffy slaps her hand away, and then Faith’s face. Buffy lets out a laugh and backs up again.

“I’m gonna get my stuff. I’m going back home and you Faithy can stay here with IT. I don’t want either of you near me! Don’t come near my house, don’t come near me or anything else for that matter Faith. Stay here and live with you “future husband” and you know what else!?”

Faith shakes her head from side to side and looks down. Buffy lets out a laugh and slaps Faith across the face again.

“Clean you own fucking room you fucking whore…” Buffy seethes out. She backs up the rest of the way, and walks into Spike’s room to retrieve her clothes.

As the door to his room closes, Faith lets the tears fall and rushes towards pike. Faith tries to wrap her arms around him, but he unwraps her arms from his waste. A shocked Faith looks up at him as she asks, “What…what’s wrong?””

Spike shakes his head and points to the door. “Get out Faith. Go find somewhere else to stay. We’re over. But don’t worry, I don’t think YOU will have any trouble finding a bed to sleep in at night….right Faithy?”

Faith lets more tears fall as she runs out of the apartment.

Spike lets out a smile, which quickly turns into a frown as he remembers his Buffy crying. He runs to his room, but stops as he watches Buffy walk out of his room…fully clothed with her stuff in her hands.

Without looking up at him, Buffy walks straight to the front door, but is stopped when Spike reaches out to grab her shoulder.

“Buffy…pet please don’t leave. I can explain what you saw earlier…”

Buffy lets out a sob and finally looks up at Spike. She shakes her head as she yells, “I know exactly what you were doing! I’m not an idiot, though you must think of me to be one. I saw what you were doing, and I want you to stay away from me. Don’t talk to me, don’t say anything to me. Just leave me the fuck alone!”

Buffy lets out a small scream as she pushes his arm away, and rushes out the door.

Spike rubs his eyes to keep the tears at bay, then softly closes to door.





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The moment that Buffy walks into her house, she breaks down and falls to the floor.

“Oh god…oh god mommy! Please just tell me what to do! Please come back to me mommy! Please! I don’t know what to do! I’m so confused mommy! God I miss you so much…oh god, please bring her back to me…please”

Finally, Buffy tires herself out with her tears, and falls asleep on the floor with thoughts of her mother rushing through her head…


 

Chapter 10:

“Buffy…Buffy are you in there. Buffy it’s Willow and Xander. Come on Buffy, answer the door…plea…”

Willow stops in mid sentence when she hears the door unlock and then swing open. Behind the door stands a very tired looking Buffy.

Willow lets out a gasp and rushes forward to embrace her friend in a hug. Both Buffy and Willow feel Xander wrap his arms around them both. Willow finally lets the tears fall that she has been holding in since she heard the news.

“Oh god Buffy. I’m so sorry. We came here yesterday to talk to you, but no one was home. We have come by for the past 2 weeks, and we thought you were hurt or… God we were so worried. I’m so sorry Buffy.”

Buffy pulls back a little so willow will let her go. Buffy raises her hands up to brush her tears off and steps back into the house.

“Come in” She whispers.

Willow lets out a nod, and motions for Xander to follow. Xander lets out a smile and kisses Buffy’s forehead as he steps in.

Buffy lets out a sigh as she closes the door and turns around to face her friends. Willow opens her mouth to speak, but Buffy raises her hand up to stop her.

“Don’t ok…just, I don’t think I can cry anymore Willow…I…”

“I know”, Xander says, “I know that you can’t cry anymore Buffy. I get that. But don’t just shut us out because of what happened. God, I loved your mom as if she was my mother. I have an idea of what you’re feeling right now Buffy…”

Buffy shakes her head, then lets it fall forward as she whispers, “No…you really don’t understand Xander.”

Willow steps forward next to Xander and whispers back at Buffy, “Buffy…please just talk to us. Please just let us help.”

Buffy lets out a sob as she falls to the floor. Both Willow and Xander rush forward and embrace her in a hug again, letting Buffy’s tears fall on them both.

“God it hurts to bad Willow…” She mumbles. “I’m just trying to keep from dying…god, I miss her so much and I just wish…if I would have gotten here earlier…I just want her back so bad…why her…” Buffy’s words turn into sobs the more she talks. They can feel her whole body shaking from the sobs, and they turn to look at each other…both with tears in their eyes. Xander opens his mouth to speak, but stops when he hears someone knocking at the door. Xander looks at Willow, and gets up when she nods to go get it.

Xander walks to the door, and swings it open to find Spike on the other side.

“Hey…Xander right? Listen I really need to talk to her, can I come in?”

Xander nods at him and moves aside to let Spike in. Spike lets out a soft grin and walks into the house. He looks into the living room to see a crying Buffy wrapped in the arms of Willow.

“Buffy” Spike whispers.

Buffy’s head whips up at the sound of his voice, and her eyes of pain suddenly turn to eyes of anger. Buffy starts to shake her head while saying, “No…I don’t want you here. Get out Spike. I thought I made it clear that I want nothing to do with you or Faith! Just get out of here!”

Spike stands his ground as he shakes his head at her. “No. I’m not leaving until we’ve talked.” Spike turns his head back at Xander, then at Willow.

“Can you guys leave for a bit. Me and Buffy need sometime to talk.”

Willow nods and gets up towards Xander. Both of them turn back to Buffy and say, “Buffy, well be back sometime tomorrow. We love you Buffy and were here for you…always.”

Willow wipes her eyes as she and Xander leave the house. The moment the door closes shut, Buffy stands up and walks towards the stairs. Spike lets out a groan and stands in front of her to stop her.

“Buffy…stop. We need to talk and you know it…so just please listen to me ok?”

Spikes head whips back at the force of Buffy’s slap. He turns his head back at her with shocked eyes, as he rubs his cheek.

Buffy holds back a sob as she cries out, “You want to talk? Huh? Do you want to explain why you were kissing Faith after what we…what we did? Huh? Is that it? You want to make me understand that you were confused and just needed to know who was the better kisser! I should have known you would have gone back to her.” she says, angrily “She is a slut so she has had more experience with her lips…a lot more experience than me.”

Spike reaches his hand out to cover her mouth while he yells, “Will you shut the bloody hell up! God, don’t you just love the fucking sound of your voice! I want to explain and I can if you would just grow the fuck up for a moment!” He leans forward to pick her up over his back, and walks towards the living room. He throws her down on the couch, and walks over to sit on the other side.

“Great...now do you promise to shut the fuck up so I can explain? Or do I have to bind and gag you?”

Buffy shakes her head no and Spike lets out a sigh, “Ahhh…ok good. Now listen here. You walked in on something completely not what you think it was Buffy. I woke up next to you that morning…happier then I had been in a while...but it was a mistake Buffy…”

“But you just said that it made you happy! So how can it be a mistake!”

Spike lets out a groan and stands up in front of Buffy, “Will you shut up! I’m not through yet and I promise to let you have a chance after I’m through alright!?”

At Buffy’s nod, Spike continues.

“It was a mistake Buffy. I shouldn’t have taken advantage of you like that. And I know what you’re gonna say…that you wanted it just as much as me and that’s not taking advantage of someone. Well I know that, but I shouldn’t have done that…right after….right after your mother had died. That was stupid of me. We were both grieving, and we needed comfort. But we shouldn’t have done it like that Buffy. You deserve better than that. You deserve flowers, and candles with love music in the background. Not grieving and pain. Your deserve so much better than me...but what you walked in on…with me and Faith is completely not what you think. When I woke up that morning…next to you, I couldn’t think of ever feeling that way with Faith or anyone for that matter…”

Buffy opens her mouth, but closes it when she sees Spike raise his eyebrow at her.

“Good…now when I was about to wake you up, I heard someone come into the house and it was your sister. I was just trying to protect what had happened between us Buffy. When we were talking, me and Faith, you were coming out of my room and I didn’t want Faith to see you. So I grabbed her and kissed her so she wouldn’t see you standing there. I thought that you would have left, and went back to my room, but you didn’t. That’s when Faith heard you and all hell broke loose. I never wanted to hurt you Buffy, especially after your mother had passed.” He whispers, slightly looking up for Buffy’s expression.

“Ok luv, you can talk now..”

Buffy lets out a shaky breath as she says, “So…you didn’t just sleep with me to compare me and Faith? To see who was better?” she whispers, with tears in her eyes.

Spike shakes his head, “No,” he whispers, “No, that’s not it at all.” he says as he starts to walk towards her, eyes filled with remorse.

Before he can reach her, she steps back and shakes her head

“No Spike…I cant. What we did, it was nothing. You were right. I was lonely as were you. It was stupid and we shouldn’t have done that. I’ve thought about everything that has happened, and I know that mom…mom wouldn’t want you or Faith to be kicked out. I just have to set aside what has happened to us, and what happened with Faith. I decided to let Faith move back it. It's selfish of me not to do it. Are you and Faith going to still date?" At Spike's shake of the head, meaning no, Buffy nods slowly. "Ok, then I guess that you can live in your apartment. I mean you have nothing you need here at this house, so there is no point in you staying."

Spike takes a step towards her and holds her hands in his.

"Buffy," He whispers, "I want to be able to see you again. After all that has happened these past few weeks, I worry about you. I want to know if it's ok if I still see you everynow and then..."

Buffy takes a huge breath, and slowly releases it before saying, "No, I don't think that's possible. I mean, you and Faith broke up, so what would be your reason to still be here? She doesn't know that we...we slept together. So I don't think she will still want to see you around here...ever."

"Yeah, I get that. It's just...I worry about you. Do you think that I could pretend to like Faith again, and then move in with her. Do you think that could work?"

"No, no no," she says, while looking at Spike with a raised eyebrow. "No, I don't think that's possible Spike."

Spike nods and walks backward towards the door, while saying, “Alright. I get that. But I'm still going to check up on you. Doesn't matter if Faith doesn't like it. I still want us to be friends Buffy."

Buffy whips her head up, and slowly shakes her head while saying, “No…not friends. We can’t ever be friends. What we did…I can’t, I can’t live with that. I can’t look at you and not feel anger of some kind. I can’t even look at Faith and smile ever again. We will never be friends Spike…ok?”

Spike lets outs a slight nod as he lets out a smile.

“Yeah pet…that will be fine.”


 

Chapter 11:

“Faith! I asked you to put your towels away after you use them! It’s not that hard!” Buffy yells from upstairs. A few minutes later, Buffy hears Faith running up the stairs, flushed, and looking guilty.

“Sorry, sorry, I forgot. I’ll put them away right now k?” Faith rushes forward to take the towels out of Buffy’s hands, and then rushes back downstairs to the laundry room.

Buffy stands in place, looking back from where the towels were, and where Faith was standing.

“Wow,” she says to herself. “That was beyond weird. Faith actually doing something that I ask…hmm. Maybe life is going to get better.”

CRASH

“Umm…oops. Wasn’t me!”

“Or maybe not,” Buffy says while she rushed down the stairs.

“Faith! Do not touch anything else, or whatever you just dropped! Just let me help…”

Knock Knock

Buffy stops at the foot of the stairs to look at the door. She throws her head back as she walked to the door.

“Ugh…please let this be someone who isn’t going to break something else…please..”

As she swings open the door, her eyebrows raise.

“Hello luv.” Spike says smoothly, while grinning at her. He takes a step forward to kiss her cheek, but Buffy pulls back as she hears…

“Spike! Ummm…what are you doing here?” Faith questions as she steps up next to Buffy.

Buffy lets out a sigh as she shakes her head. She looks at them both as she says, “How about you two talk some things out, while I go back to getting ready for my date.”

As she walks back up the stairs, she’s stopped by Spike’s voice.

“Date? You have a date? With who?”

Buffy lets out a groan as she turns around.

“Riley,” she says with irritation in her voice. “his name is Riley finn and he asked me out yesterday, and I said yes. Anything else you wanna know detective? Not that it’s any of your business.”

Spike takes a step forward towards Buffy as his eyes darken, “Actually yes, there is some things I would like to know, and talk about Buffy…”

Buffy lets out a laugh and heads back up the stairs.

“Have fun you two,” she calls back to them as she gives them a wave.

Spike lets out a sigh, and goes to head up the stairs after Buffy, but is stopped when Faith puts her hand on his shoulder.

“We don’t have to go upstairs. I’m not like that anymore. We can just talk down here if you’d like?”

Spike stands there with a blank face, then realizes that she thought he was heading upstairs not for Buffy but for her. He almost lets out a laugh, but chooses to head to the living room.

Faith walks up behind him, then sits down. She lays her hands in her lap as she says, “So…how are you.”


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“Ok you guys! I’m coming downstairs and I don’t want to see any lip smacking!” Buffy yells as she walks down the stairs.

‘Yeah I couldn’t bear to see it, cause the last time I saw that, I got my heart broken…’

She lets out a sigh of relief, quietly, as she sees that Spike and Faith are on separate chairs, facing each other…not kissing.

She walks into the living room and does a spin so that her dress flies out.

“So…what do you guys think?”

Spike glances up at her, and holds back the moan that rises in his throat. He holds back the feeling of shagging her right there on the floor.

Faith lets out a grin at her sister and simply nods, “Yep, that looks great on you B. I told you it would fit.”

Buffy lets out a soft smile, which quickly fades to a frown as she hears the doorbell. Before sSpike can get up to scare the guy away, Buffy grabs her purse and keys and shouts out to them, “See ya guys later! Don’t stay up for me Faith!”

Spike lets out a groan, then lets a smile grace his face as an idea enters his head.

“Hey Faith, there is something I wanted to talk about…”


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“Hey Riley,” Buffy says, “Thanks for taking me out on this date. We should have lots of fun”

‘Yeah lots of fun while my sister is boinking the guy I’m in love with….no no no! Not the guy I love, the guy I just slept with…yeah that’s it…not love.’

Buffy lets out a grin for her thinking, and walks down the walkway to his car.

Riley walks in front of her to open the car door. He smiles at her as she slides in the seat. He leans down to kiss her cheek, then backs up to close the door.

Buffy puts on a fake smile as she looks back towards the house, knowing somewhat of what was going on in the house.

As Riley drives them both to the bronze, Buffy cant help but feel sad.

‘Why does stuff like this always happen to me? First dad leaves, then mom, and now I had Spike, and he left me as well…No summers, you know damn well you never had Spike. He was never yours to have. So what that you had sex with him…it’s over.’

“Buffy? Buffy are you ok?”

Buffy shakes her thoughts out of her head and turns to look at Riley. She gives him a big fake smile and nods softly.

“Yeah…I’m fine Riley. Let’s go have some fun”


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“Buffy…Riley! Hey, what’s up you two?”

“Hey Wills,” Buffy says, as Riley pulls out her chair to sit down.

She sits down and pats the seat next to her for Riley to sit. Riley nods thanks, and pulls the seat next to her. A couple of minutes of silence pass before Buffy says, “Hey Riley, you wanna dance?”

“Umm...sure, why not?” He gets up the grabs her hand to lead her on the dance floor.

He wraps his arms around her and pulls her close.

Buffy can’t help but feel closed in as Riley pulls her closer, but she quickly shakes the feeling away and lays her head on his shoulder. He gently rubs her back and Buffy lets out a tiny smile.

“Buffy, can I ask you something?”

“Yeah you can” she says as she lifts her head.

“Umm, I know that this is our first date and all, but I can’t help this feeling. I mean, not to sound all gay and stuff…”

“Riley.” She says, stopping him from rambling, “just ask me.”

Riley lets out a little smile, “Sorry bout that…what I was wondering was, if you wanted to be my girlfriend.”

Buffy stares blankly at Riley, not knowing what to say, with millions of thoughts running through her head.

‘You know you don’t like him Buffy. Just tell him to fuck off so you can go back to Spike so you can jump his bones and fuck him into oblivion.’

“Riley,” Buffy starts, with a smile on her face, “I would love to be your girlfriend.”


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Faith lays her head back against the couch to close her eyes. She takes a deep breath, then slowly moves her head back up to face Spike.

“Spike…are you sure you want this? I mean, if we do this, there is no coming back.”

“Faith,” he starts, while walking towards her, “I have never been more sure of anything in my live. I still like you, and I want to be with you...”

‘No you don’t you pillock! Just shut up now and go find Buffy. Force her to be yours and be don’t with it.’

“I want to live in this house with you…and Buffy or course. I want to date you again…”

‘No! Don’t say it you bleeding moron!’

“…if you’ll have me”

‘Great job you bloody ponce.’

“Oh Spike!.” Faith shrieks, “Of course I’ll have you!”

Faith jumps up to hug Spike, and kisses him hard on the lips…just as Buffy walks in.

Buffy stops dead in her tracks at the sight in front of her. She had just kissed her now “boyfriend” good night, and now here she is…seeing Spike kissing Faith.

‘See, you knew all along,’ Buffy thought, with a grimace on her face. ‘you knew all along that he meant nothing to you...you’re nothing but sex on a stick to him.’

Buffy closes her eyes to hold back her tears, and lets out a cough.

Spike and Faith jump back from each other, and Spike eyes widen in shock. He goes to step forward to Buffy, but Faith grabs his hand to pull him back.

“Buffy! Your home! Guess what!? Spike and I are together again! Isn’t that great!?”

“Yeah,” she says drowsily, trying to hide the bitterness in her voice, “Yeah its really great Faith. Congrats to you both. And hey, I have news too. Riley asked me out and I said yes. So I guess we both have boyfriends now…” Buffy turns her head directly at Spike, “Ain’t love grand?”

With that, Buffy rushes up the stairs to her room and slams the door.

Spike jumps at the sound of her door slamming and shakes his head in shame.

“Yeah…love is just bleeding grand….”

 

Chapter 12:

For the past couple of weeks, all Buffy has heard is about how happy Faith was. All that Buffy felt every time she heard that, was hurt. Hurt by the fact that the man she trusted enough to give her virginity to, would get over her so quickly. Hurt by the fact that her dumb sister didn’t even notice she was hurting. Hurt by the fact that she was in deed…hurting…

And now, here they wait…for Spike to pull in the driveway with all his goodies so he could move in with them. Buffy had had it up to hear with Faith’s rambling, and was on the verge of cracking…

“Isn’t this great Buffy?! We both are with someone that makes us happy! I’m so glad that I have Spike back…and now you have Riley! This is so great!” Faith squeals, while waiting for Spike to pull up in the driveway.

Buffy rolls her eyes back for the fourth time that day, and lets out a long sigh.

“Yes Faith. Once again, it’s so great. I mean really. I’m jumping for joy as we speak…Jump…Jump…see?” Buffy replies, with just a little bit of sarcasm.

“Buffy.” Faith starts, while walking towards her, “I thought we talked about this. I can feel negativity all around you. Is there something you want to talk about, ‘cause you know I’m always here for you. I will always be here for you Buffy..”

Buffy lets out a laugh, and gets up to go to her room, where she can be alone, and not have to see Spike when he moves in.

“Buffy,” Faith says, grabbing her arm to stop her from leaving, “We need to talk. I know something is bothering you and I want to help. Just like I said before, I’m always here for you sis…” she says to Buffy, while tucking her hair behind her hair.

Buffy knocks her sister’s hand off her hair, while glaring at her with angry eyes.

“Yeah? You’ll always be here for me? Is that what you’re saying? ‘Cause, if I remember correctly, I believe you were the one who left after mom died. You’re the one who was out for days with random guys every other day! You were never home Faith! You were always out fucking random guys! You can’t just change in less then two months! You’re you! You can’t change! You will always be this selfish, little girl who’s head is shoved to far up your ass to actually see that you family needed you! You were the one who made our own mother ashamed, did you know that! And I was ashamed! I was ashamed to call you a sister…so don’t give me that crap about you always being here for me, or that I can talk to you. I don’t wanna share my feelings with you Faith. Not now, not ever. So don’t act like the sister I never had, it’s way past that Sister…”

Buffy stops to take a breath, and looks down at her sister with disgust in her eyes.

Faith reaches up to wipe off a few tears from her eyes, sniffing lightly. She opens and closes her mouth, as if to say something…

“Buffy…I have changed. You may not believe it, but I have. I met someone that I love Buffy…I love Spike. And he’s changed me for the better. I just wish he would have come sooner, so that mom would have been able to see the new me before…before she died. But I have changed Buffy…” Faith pleads to her sister.

Buffy lets out a scoff and raises her eyebrow, “Right. You’ve changed all because of Him? Because he is in your life? He is nothing and you know it! He’s a loser Faith! A fucking nobody! Someone who you will probably forget in less than a month. He’s not your future husband Faith! He could never be anyone’s husband! He’s nobody and it’s sad that you would think that he is the reason that your better. You couldn’t see that there was a mother and sister who loved with so much and that wanted to help you…You didn’t know that we wanted to help you change? That we could have helped you change? Of course not…we couldn’t help you change. No, it took a man to do that. It took a man for you to feel needed and feel the need to change. Do you have any idea how sad that sounds! Do you even…” Buffy closes her eyes as she rolls her neck. She raises her hands up to cracks her fingers, then heads to the door.

Faith turns around, “Buffy! Where are you going?”

“How about, you stay up past 4 o’clock in the morning. Stay up till I get home. Worry about where I am and who I’m with. Worry if I’m dead in a ditch somewhere. Stay up, and feel like there is nothing you can do but wait. Do that Faith, and then you’ll get exactly what I went through with you…and maybe…maybe then, we could have some relation ship.”

With that, Buffy grabs her jacket, and opens to door…to see dark, angry, blue eyes.

“Spike,” she whispers, “how long have you been standing there?”

Spike takes in a deep breath to control his anger. He takes a slow step inside the house while saying, “I heard the part about me being a loser, and how I could never be a husband to anyone…heard everything after that…is that what you really think of me Buffy?”

Buffy lets out a laugh as she tries to push back Spike, but is stopped by him.

“Move,” she orders, while grinding her teeth.

Spike shakes his head slowly at her and asks again, “Is that what you think if me Buffy?”

“GOD! I so don’t need this from both of you! I’m going out and I don’t know when I’m gonna be back! So move the fuck out of the way before I fucking slap you, you fucking moron!” Buffy yells, breathing heavily.

Both Spike’s and Faith’s eyebrows raise at her words, and Spike moves slowly to the side.

Buffy rushes forward, and storms out of the house. Spike looks at her as she runs away, and resists the urge to run after her.

‘Great fucking job you fucking ponce. Now look of the mess you’ve fucking made…’

“Spike...Spike you can come in…” Faith whispers.

Spike then remembers that Faith is still standing there. He turns back around and gives her a fake smile.

“Hey…baby…you ok?” he asks

Faith slowly nods, and rushes towards him to hug him. Spike holds back the urge to push her away.

‘If this is going to work mate, then you have ta keep pretending…only for a little while. Till you can get Buffy back…just keep pretending…’

Spike takes a step back from Faith, and leans down a little to kiss her on her head.

“You wanna eat something? Or help me unpack?” he asks lightly, while nudging her softly.

Faith lets out a soft laugh and wipes the tears away that had formed in her eyes.

“Lets unpack, then eat…”

Spike nods at her, “Right, let’s go then…”



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As Buffy sits at the bronze, she starts to feel guilty for blowing up at her sister.

‘I shouldn’t have done that…she didn’t do anything. I should go say I’m sorry’

As Buffy gets up to leave, she’s stop by a hand on her shoulder. She jumps at the touch and turns around to yell at the person who had touched her.

“Hey buddy get you fucking hands…Spike…” she says, looking straight into his eyes.

Spike walks to the other side of the table and sits down in the chair.

“We need to talk…and now…”

Buffy raises her eyebrows at him, and leans back in her chair.

“Oh really? WE need to talk. I thought you and “Faithy” were getting all cuddly at my house. What Spike? She not as easy anymore now that’s she’s “Changed”? You thinking that maybe you could get some from me cause I’m so easy? Is that it? Well forget it, your never touching me again you ass…”

“Ok that’s it! Will you shut the bloody hell up please! Do I have to do this again for god’s sake! What does it take for you to stop talking?! A spanking? Cause I could do that….” Spike says, while moving his tongue across his lips.

Buffy scoffs in disgust, “You’re a pig Spike, and your wasting my time…I’m leaving.”

Buffy gets up to leave again, and also again, she’s tugged back down in here chair by Spike.

“God will you just leave me alone!” she cries out.

“No,” spike whispers, “I can’t just leave you alone. Buffy, I know what you’re thinking about Faith and I know it looks bad…”

“Bad?” Buffy asks, “Bad? Is that what you call it? Spike, I have to say that it’s just a little bit more than bad! I mean come on! You fuck my sister a couple months…”

“Eh, watch your language missy.”

“You FUCK my sister for months, and then when you see that I’m vulnerable, you fuck me. And thenthe next day I see you making out with my sister! And now you’re dating her again and moving into my house! So now tell me Spike, doesn’t it look a little more than bad?!” she yells.

“Buffy…is this guy bothering you…”

Buffy whips her head around to see her “boyfriend” Riley standing behind her…puffing his chest out.

‘Does he always do that?’

“Riley, hi. And yes he is actually. Spike this is Riley my boyfriend. Riley this is Spike, my sister’s boyfriend.”

Spike glances at the boy, measuring him up.

“Eh mate.” he says.

‘He don’t look so tough. I could take him. And does he always do that with his chest?’

Riley looks the weird blonde freak up and down, and says, “Hey back at ya. Now, were you bothering my girl? Cause if you were man, I’m afraid I’m gonna have to get violent.”

Buffy lets out a loud groan and grabs Riley hands.

“Riley we’re leaving. Spike, it was such a pleasure talking to you… now leave me alone…”

As Buffy tugs Riley out of the bronze she hears Spike call at her, “We’re gona talk about this Buffy! Do you hear me?!”

‘Yeah…I hear you…damn it…’

As soon as Buffy gets Riley out in the alley, she lets go of his hands and points an accusing finger at him.

“What was that Riley? You just don’t go telling people you’re gonna beat them up! Even if I hate them! Geez…” she yells at him.

Riley lets out a guilty smiling and slowly walks towards her.

“I’m sorry baby, I just thought he was bothering you. I didn’t mean to rude.” He says, while playing with her hair.

Buffy lets out a little smile and pushes his hand softly away.

“It’s alright Riley. But right now, I’m gonna head home. Today has sucked some major ass, and all I want to do is sleep…” she’s says, then yawning.

Riley takes a step forward and kisses her cheek, “Well, you could always stay with me tonight. My mom and dad aren’t home, and I just figured we could sleep…you wanna?”

‘Say no Buffy. Just say no, say it…come on you can do it…say no….’

Before she can answer, she hears her name being called behind her. She looks back to see Spike rushing towards her.

She turns back to Riley and asks, “Do you have your car with you?”

Riley softly shakes his head, “Yeah, I do actually. Why? You gonna stay with me?”

Buffy eagerly shakes her head. “Yeah…let’s go…like now…”

She grabs his arm, and runs with him towards his car…away from Spike.

Spike looks ahead of him to see Buffy running away with that thing she called a boyfriend.

“Buffy!” he yells, “Buffy stop!!!” he runs faster, but stops when he sees her climb into his car, and then driving off with him.

“Bloody bitch!! Why can’t she for once just fucking listen!” he yells, and kicks the nearest thing by him…which happened to be a wall…

“Bloody hell!” he screams, while grabbing his foot. “Fucking bitch is gonna be the death of me!!”


Chapter 13:

“Did you find her?” Faith asks as Spike walks through the door.

“No…bloody bitch left with her boyfriend,” Spike mumbles as he plops down on the couch. “Riley something or other…more like Captain Cardboard to me…bloody chit.”

Faith lets out a puff of air and walks over to Spike, and sits down next to him. She brings her hand up to brush the hair away from his face while saying, “Don’t worry ‘bout her…Riley is a nice guy I hear…so she should be fine. She’ll be home before you know it. She’s probably just trying to piss me off by staying at a guy’s house, but I know that she’s better than that…she’s not like me…” She finishes the last of the sentence in a low whisper.

Spike glances at Faith and for a moment…a moment, thinks that maybe they could work things out.

‘No way mate…you lo…like Buffy and you’re not gonna ruin that…just end it with her.”

“Spike…Spike? You with me here?” Faith says while waving her hand in front of his face.

Spike blinks and turns his head towards Faith.

“Faith…we need to talk…”



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5 Hours later….


Buffy stumbles into the house and crumbles to the floor. She lets out a sob, and curls into a ball.

“Spike!!!...Spike please!! Somebody help me…please…” she whimpers.

Buffy looks up as she hears her sister running down the stairs.

Faith hesitates for a second, shocked by seeing her sister, hurt, but immediately she snaps out of it and runs towards her.

“Buffy! Oh my god Buffy! What happened?! Are you ok?!”

Buffy lets out a sob and shakes her head as Faith pulls her into her arms. Faith starts rocking her back and forth and she strokes her hair.

“Buffy…please tell me what happened…I can fix it.” Faith whispers.

Buffy lets out a sniff and shakes her head. “No you can’t,” she whispers. “No one can…”
Buffy looks slowly up to Faith and lets out a small whimper...almost like a whimper of pain.

“Where’s Spike?”

Faith closes her eyes and whispers, “He broke up with me after he went to look for you. He said that he was in love with someone else, but he still wanted to be friends and look after both of us. I just told him not to bother and get the fuck out of my house…I was so angry.”

Buffy’s eyes widen when she hears “in love with someone else” but just chooses to ignore it.

‘It’s not even you Buffy…why would he love you? You were just a one night stand’, one voice says.

‘No, you weren’t. He cares about you Buffy. You should go to him. He could take real good care of you…’

“Yeah…” Buffy says aloud, forgetting that the voices are in her head.

Faith looks up at her, “Yeah what?” she asks.

Buffy starts to get up, “Take me to him…Spike I mean.” She says while wiping her tears off her face.

Faith slowly shakes her head.

“Why…I don’t understand why you would need to see him…I don’t think he wants anything to do with us…at all.”

Buffy lets out a sniff and shakes her head.

“I don’t care Faith…just take me to him. I have to talk to him…please?”,she begs softly

Faith lets out a sigh and turns around to grab her car keys,

“Alright, but only for a couple of minutes and then when me and you get home you are going to explain why exactly you need to go to his house to talk when you could just talk to me.”

Buffy nods her head, “I’ll explain everything when we get back…right now, just take me to him.”




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“Buffy…What happened?! Are you ok!?” Spike exclaims as Buffy rushes into his arms.

Buffy runs into the doorway and lets out more tears the moment she grabs onto Spike. “Spike…oh god I’m so glad you’re here…”

Faith lets out a soft cough from the doorway and Spike looks up at that.

“Sorry that I brought her here…she insisted that if was you she wanted to talk to…we can leave though if you’re busy.” Faith says, softly

“No…she stays here…is that alright Buffy? You wanna stay with me tonight and talk about what happened?” Spike whispers in her ear softly while playing with her hair.

Buffy slowly nods in his neck and cuddles closer to Spike.

Spike lets out a sigh and gently picks her up in his arms, waking over to the couch. He places her on the couch, and Buffy lets out a whimper when he lets go of her.

“Hold on sweets, I’ll be right back. Just wanna talk to Faith real quick.” He whispers.

He places a kiss on top of Buffy’s head and walks back over to Faith. They both go out into the hall way and the moment the door is closed, Spike snaps.

“What the fuck happened to her Faith!” he yells.

Faith flinches at his voice and just shrugs.

“I don’t know” She says. “She came into the house yelling and that’s all I know…then she told me to take her to you…which by the way…why you?”

Spikes eyes widen a little bit but just covers it with a shrug. “I don’t know…I guess since I was there for her when your mother died, she just wanted to talk to me first…do you wanna stay here for the night or…?”

Faith just shakes her head and starts walking slowly backwards. “Nah it’s ok. I can just head home and I’ll call you tomorrow to see when she wants to come home…is that ok?”

Spike nods and starts back for the door. “Yeah that will be fine…but yeah…I’ll just head back in then…”

“Yeah”. Faith whispers, and then walks off.

Spike lets out a sigh and rubs his hands over his face and heads back in.

He walks through the door and is immediately jumped on by a sobbing Buffy.

“I was so scared!” Buffy sobs. “I couldn’t do anything and he just kept going even when I was saying no…he just kept…oh god…” she stops talking as her sobs take over her and she crumbles to the floor.

Spike scoops her up and heads towards his bedroom. He gently lays her down on his bed and takes off her shoes. He throws them on the floor and climbs in next to her.

“Buffy…tell me what happened…was it that bloody ponce Riley?” he asks, silently praying it wasn’t him.

Buffy lets out a sob and cries out “Yes…he was…he tried. But I didn’t let him Spike! I didn’t…”

Spikes jaw clenches and unclenches at the thought of Riley’s hands on her. He grips her a little bit tighter and kisses her on the head.

“What happened?” Spike asks. “Can you tell me?”

Buffy lets out a long breath and nods. “Yeah…I can.”