Chapter 8: Birthady Kisses

Two months had passed since Buffy and Anthony had come to Sunnydale. In those two months, she had come to look on the people she met as her family. And a better family than her real one. She was incredibly close to Willow; they spoke on the phone every night and went out for the day at least once a fortnight. She had come to look on Xander as the brother she never had. Giles she had come to look at as the father she always wished she had, one who actually cared about her. And then there was Spike, she could try to pretend that she only felt friendship for him, but she knew that was not how she really felt. In the time she had known him, she had fallen head over heels. She could talk to him about anything, she felt increasingly guilty that he
still didn’t know about Anthony and she wanted to tell him the truth
more with each passing day. They spent most of their spare time
together, staying up to the small hours talking. Spike was also
becoming closer to Anthony taking him walks and helping her out as
much as possible. She couldn’t count the number of times she had
wished he was his father. She was surprised one night to find that
Spike had actually framed the picture she had taken of him with
Anthony that first week. He really did seem to care about the little
boy. And now, it was the day before her seventeenth birthday. She
wouldn’t see Spike or Giles today because they both had things to do,
but what it was she had no idea. So, Willow was coming by to make
plans for her birthday. She was busy cleaning her room when the
doorbell rang. She ran downstairs and opened the door.

“Hey Will” she greeted cheerfully.

“Hey Buff” came the chirpy reply.

“Come on in Will, just go up to my room, I’m going to check on
Anthony,” she told her as she headed back up the stairs.

Willow followed her and went into Buffy’s room while Buffy headed for the nursery. After seeing that Anthony was still sleeping soundly she headed back to her room. She went in and saw Willow sitting on her bed waiting for her.

“Hey Will, what’s up?” she asked her friend.

“Nothing much, is Anthony asleep?” Willow asked.

“Yeah, he’s out like a light. So what’s the plan for tomorrow?” Buffy
asked.

“Well it’s a Buffy birthday, so I think I should ask you that.”

“I don’t know what I want to do this year, I mean I won’t see my
parents but that’s ok. Just not going to be the kind of birthday I’m
used to,” she said.

Willow looked sympathetic and said.

“Oh, Buff, don’t be sad we’ll try and make it a good birthday for you”

“I’m not sad. This is probably going to be the best birthday I’ve had
in a while. I may not be with my parents, but I will be with my
family.” she said smiling at her friend.

Willow looked at her friend, tears glistening in her eyes.

“Buffy that’s so sweet. You know we all love you right?”

“I know,” she said, “I love you guys too.”

The two girls just sat for a moment before Willow asked what she had
wanted to ask since that first night at the Bronze.

“Buffy, how do you feel about Spike?”

Buffy was surprised at how sudden the enquiry was and looked away
nervously as she answered.

“He’s one of my best friends, of course I like him.”

“Buffy, that’s not what I meant and you know it. Tell me, and don’t
lie. Do you see this face, it’s my resolve face and I want the truth.”

Buffy sighed and answered the question as honestly as she could
without having to admit that she loved him.

“Will, I like Spike, I really do. But there are a lot of reasons why
I can’t do anything about it.”

“Buffy Summers” Willow scolded “you should know by now that Spike is a good guy. He really likes you; it’s obvious to everyone. He won’t hurt you if that’s what you’re afraid of.”

“It’s not.” she replied, “It’s just a really complicated situation, a
lot of stuff that I can’t go into, but I can’t be with Spike. I’m
more worried about hurting him.”

“Ok” Willow said “but he really does care for you. He wants you to
have a special birthday you know. Wanted to know what you wanted to do so that he could arrange it.”

Buffy was gob smacked at the revelation. She had no idea that Spike
would do that for her.

“Well, I really just want something simple, you know all my friends
around me. Just being together and having fun. I’ve never had that
before. In LA, everything had to be extravagant.  I don’t want that
anymore,” she told her friend.

“Ok, one nice quiet birthday, check” the redhead giggled.

“So how’s things with you and Oz?” Buffy asked her friend.

“Oh, really good” she replied excitedly, “he’s just so sweet and
nice. And sweet.”

Buffy couldn’t help laughing at how worked up her friend got when she talked about her boyfriend. They had been together for months before Buffy even got there but Willow still acted as if it was the
honeymoon period. However, Buffy found it endearing, The girls spent the rest of the afternoon gossiping until they heard Anthony’s crying over the monitor.

“Well.” willow said standing up “I should probably get going, looks
like you have work to do.”

“Yeah, said Buffy as she went to collect Anthony from the
nursery “he’s due a bottle. And I know he’s two months old but he
still sleeps most of the day and nights as well now”

Willow just looked at her funny when she said this

“I wasn’t complaining” she defended.

She walked downstairs carrying Anthony so she could say goodbye to
Willow.

“Buffy” willow said suddenly “I know why you say you keep working as Anthony’s nanny and I’ll accept that. However, I do think there’s
something else going on. I just want you know you can tell me
anything.”

“I know” she replied honestly.

“Well, see you tomorrow Buff” Willow said as she walked out the door

“See you later, Will” Buffy called as she closed the door and headed
back upstairs.

For the rest of the day Buffy busied herself taking care of her son.
She gave him his bottle after Willow left and now it was time to give
him his bath. She lay him in his crib and went to the bathroom to
fill the baby bath. She filled the bath with water and took it back
to the nursery.  After she had done that she sat on the rocker bouncing him on her knee talking to him.

“You know little man; you are starting to get a little heavy. But you
are also getting more and more handsome every day. Count yourself
lucky you don’t look like your dad. You know I love you don’t you
sweetie. One day we’ll tell everyone the truth.”

She looked at him and saw a slight smile on his face.

“Oh look at that smile” she said excitedly “you are a gorgeous
little thing. My beautiful little boy.”

“You know, that’s not too hard to believe.” a voice interrupted.

She looked around to see Spike standing by the door grinning at her.

“You love to do that, don’t you?” she scolded playfully.

“Well you know me Luv” he replied, “I’m the big bad, it’s my job to
scare people.”

“Yeah, yeah” she laughed, “so what wouldn’t be so hard to believe?”

“That he was your little boy,” he told her seriously.

The smile left her face at that moment as she let Spike’s words sink
in. She wondered if he knew, if maybe he had heard her talking to
Giles, but she knew that wasn’t possible. She was always careful
about talking about it. She just looked at him and answered.

“Don’t be silly Spike, he has a mother and he’s going to know all
about her.”

“I know, I was just saying that you are the one who does everything
for him, it wouldn’t be hard to believe” he said

“Well, he’s not mine, but I love him like he was so I’ll keep taking
care of him as long as Giles wants.” denying her son broke her heart
but she knew that she didn’t have any other choice. For now.

 By the time they had finished, she found that Anthony had fallen asleep again and so she put him back in his crib and turned to leave the room.

“He is a beautiful child.”

Buffy was shocked at the sound of Spike’s voice.

“Yeah,” she agreed “he really is.”

They left the room together said their goodnights and left to go to
their rooms. Buffy lay awake for  long time thinking about Spike’s
words and the things Willow had told her earlier and wondered what
would happen when they all finally knew, she couldn’t wait for her
next birthday, when the truth could finally be revealed.

The next night Buffy was sitting in the living room with Giles
waiting for her friends to arrive, once they did Giles was taking
Anthony out for the night to a friend’s house so that Buffy could
have the night aloe with her friends. She had spent her time during
the day with Anthony, she took him out in his pram, and walked around the park. Revelling in the time alone. Now she was waiting for
everyone to arrive. Spike had to pop out but promised to be back
soon. She came back to reality when her friends came through the door.

Spike was wandering about the streets of Sunnydale. He had to get out for a while. He was more nervous than he had expected about giving Buffy her birthday gifts. He had gotten her a few things, one that he could give at her party and a few other special gifts that he would give her later. But, he had to go back now, everyone would be there.

Buffy looked up when she heard the door open ten minutes after
everyone else had arrived and smiled when she saw Spike come in.

“Hey pet, sorry I’m late.”

“That’s ok.” she chirped.

He leaned down to give her a kiss on the cheek.

“Happy Birthday, pet.”

“Thank you” she beamed at him.

“Well.” said Xander “Let’s get this party started.”

They spent the next few hours playing the usual party games since it
wasn’t anything Buffy had ever really done before. And Spike wanted
her to experience it. She was having a whale of a time and now they
were playing truth or dare.

“Ok, it’s my turn.” Xander said “Spike, truth or dare.”

“Bloody hell, truth.” he grumbled.

“Ok,” said Xander happily “how many times did you sleep with Dru last year?”

Buffy looked away from the others not sure if she wanted to hear this
and Spike looked at Xander furiously.

“Bloody hell you wanker, I’m not answering that.” he yelled.

“You have to, you chose truth, it’s the rules.” laughed Xander.

“Bugger, ok, loads, we were at it like rabbits. Happy now?”

Buffy felt tears stinging at her eyes when she heard Xander continue.

“Come on man, give us a straight answer.” he complained

“Yeah.” chimed in Willow “You have to tell us.“Spike looked over at
Buffy and saw the hurt look on her face. He had been lying through
his teeth and seeing the look on her face, he knew he had to admit
it. He blushed furiously as he turned back to answer the question

“Never.” he told them

When he answered, he saw a group of gaping faces.

“What, how is that possible? You were together for the best part of a
year” exclaimed Xander.

“I know that,” he said exasperated “that’s why she cheated on me. But
we never slept together.”

“But then that means...” Xander left the rest of the sentence hanging
in the air. His shock evident

“No it doesn’t.” admitted Spike.

This got a response from Willow.

“But if you didn’t sleep with Drusilla, then when and who? Spike
we’ve never seen you with anyone else.”

“I know.” he said quietly “it was before I came here. I was fifteen,
there was a lot of heartache following it.. That’s one of the main
reasons I didn’t sleep with Drusilla. I didn’t want that hurt again.”
he finished sadly.

Everyone sat quietly before the silence was broken.

“So who’s for presents?” asked Xander.

Buffy looked around at her gifts, it wasn’t much but it meant more to
her than any gifts had before. From Xander there was a stuffed animal
because he knew she collected them but hadn’t been able to bring many from LA, he had also given her a couple of CD’s. Willow and Oz had gotten her a sweater she had seen at the mall that she had really like and a few DVD’s. Now it was time for Spike’s gift. He hadn’t wanted to give her anything to showy in front of the others, so he handed her what he had picked out to give her at that point. She
looked at the wrapping, and started to open the gift. It was a  
collection of books on interior design and photography. She loved
them.

“I just remember you said they interested you.” Spike said shyly.

“I love them, Spike. Thank you.” she went over to him and leaned down to give his cheek a kiss.

“Thank you all guys. This has been the best birthday I’ve had in a
long time” she said truthfully.

Half an hour later, everyone was gone and only she and Spike were left. The phone rang and she went to answer it. She came back in to the living room looking bemused.

“Who was that pet?” Spike asked as she re-entered the room.

“Giles, he said that he was going to stay over at his friends house
and not to worry about Anthony he has enough stuff with him. Did he
plan this?” she accused.

Spike looked at her sheepishly before answering.

“He just wanted you to have a quiet night, be able to relax. Have a
night off from being the nanny. And we know you like it, but you
deserve a break.” he told her.

“Ok, I’ll let it go.” she grinned.

“So Luv, want to get something to drink and then we head upstairs to
talk?” he asked

“Sure.” she answered.

They prepared their drinks and went upstairs and Spike went to his
room to get her gifts. When he went back to her room she was changed in to her, pyjama’s and sitting cross-legged on the bed. He sat down beside her ands she eyed the presents curiously.

“Yes pet, they’re yours but you have to wait a bit before you get to
open them” he scolded

“Spoil sport.” she grumbled.

“Ok let’s talk.” he said “Did you enjoy your birthday?”

It was great.” she said genuinely “can I have my gifts now?”

He smiled at her.

“Ok I suppose you can have one.” he said as he picked up a small box
and handed it to her. She didn’t wait long before ripping in to the
paper. She opened the box and inside lay a beautiful Celtic cross
necklace with an amethyst stone in the middle.

“Oh my god, Spike it’s beautiful.” she exclaimed.

“A beautiful necklace for a beautiful girl.” he told her with a smile
playing on his lips.

“Now.” he continued “I didn’t want to give these gifts to you when
the others were here. These ones are to show you how special you are
to me.” He said shyly.

She looked at him and said.

“You’re special to me too Spike.”

He gave her a look that said those were the greatest words he had
ever heard before she continued

“Spike can I ask you something?”

“Fire away pet.”

“Well, what did you mean when you said there was a lot of heartache
after your first time?” she asked.

“I don’t think you want to know the answer to that pet. Here open
your other present”

She opened the wrapping and gasped at what lay inside, there lay a
photograph that had been taken only earlier that week of Buffy, Spike
and Anthony at the park. They, along with Giles had taken Anthony a
walk to the park and had stopped to sit on the grass and enjoy the
sun. She had taken Anthony out of his pram and she and Spike were
playing on the grass with him when he started to get restless. Buffy
had held him while Spike sang and the picture had been taken by Giles
after he had fallen asleep, Buffy still held Anthony while Spike sat
beside her looking at him, both with content smiles on their faces.
The picture sat in a simple silver frame. Tears sprang to her eyes
when she thought how much they looked like a family and couldn’t help ut wish it were true.

“You don’t need to keep that picture in it.” he told her nervously “
I just thought..”

“Spike, this is the most beautiful gift anyone has ever given me. I
wouldn’t change anything about it for the world. Thank You” she told
him as a lone tear slid down her face

”You’re welcome.” he replied.

“Buffy, do you still want answer to the question you asked earlier.”
he asked softly

“If you want to give me one.”

“Ok, but don’t say anything until I’ve finished I’ve never told
anyone this”

“I won’t.” she promised.

“Ok then” he started “I was fifteen and we still lived in England. I
met a girl named Cecily and I fell for her. I fell hard. I was a bit
of  a geek back then but I wasn’t all that unpopular so she would
associate with me.” He pause for a moment to think of the right words before continuing

  ne night, we had a bit to drink but we weren’t
drunk. I just felt a bit more at ease. So, we were talking and having
a good time and she asked me to go upstairs with her. I was crazy
about her and so I did. I knew she had a few boyfriends. She wasn’t
virginal by any stretch of the imagination. I wasn’t sure about it
but I really liked her so when she kissed me I kissed her back. As
they say one thing led to another and we slept together. She left
straight afterwards.”

He stopped talking and she thought he was finished so she opened her
mouth to speak but he put a finger to her lips and started speaking
again.

“I didn’t see much of her over the next few weeks, and then some
rumours stared going around. I knew they involved me so I went to
speak to her. When I got to her house, her brother attacked me. Then
her father came out grabbed me by the arm and pushed me inside. My
dad was already there. I sat down and the next thing her father was
screaming at me, calling me scum and saying I had ruined his
daughter’s life. I had no idea what he was talking about.

He stopped to take a breath and reign in his emotions.

“Anyway, I had no idea what he was talking about. And then she came
in. She looked at me with a look of pure hatred telling me I had done
it to her, they still hadn’t told me what exactly. They did then, she
was pregnant. I had no idea what to do or say. I told them I’d do
what I could to help her and the baby, she laughed in my face and
told me that as of the next day there wouldn’t be a baby. My heart
broke into a million pieces when she said that. She stood by what she
said. She killed my baby.”

He broke down in tears in speaking those last words and Buffy’s tears
were not far behind. She did the only thing she could to comfort him,
she put her arms around him and held him close, crying with him. And
hating that girl for what she did to this wonderful, caring man. She
knew then that she was in love with him. They sat like that for about
ten minutes before breaking apart.

“I’m sorry.” he said. Embarrassed at having cried in front of her.

“No, don’t dare apologize. You’ve been hurt in a way that no-one
should ever be hurt so cry and don’t feel bad about it” she told him
gently.

“I guess.” he said “that photo just makes me think about the family
I wish I could have had. I don’t use Anthony as a replacement just so
you know. I honestly love that little boy. It’s just.”

“I know.” she soothed.

“Buffy I have to tell you something. I know you don’t want to hear it
but I have to say it. Buffy I love you. I’m in love with you. Have
been since the first day you got here. I won’t force this it’s just
important that you know.” he told her.

Looking in his eyes, she could tell he spoke nothing but the truth.

“I know, but there are lot of things I need to sort out in my head,
but I do care for you please know that.” she  told him .
He looked at her, both of them were being guided by their emotions at
the moment and what happened next was inevitable. They looked at eachother, both knowing how much they loved the other and simultaneously eaned closer together. Their lips met in a soft kiss. After amoment, the kiss deepened and Spike swept his tongue across her lip
and she opened her mouth to let his tongue inside. They kissed until
they needed air. They looked at one another and leaned in, the second
kiss more urgent. Buffy stopped suddenly

“Spike, maybe we shouldn’t do this.” she said.

“Buffy please just give me tonight.”

She looked up at him tentatively, he noticed her look and reassured

her

“We don’t have to do that. I’ll be happy just to hold you, but Buffy
I love you and I need to be with you tonight. Whatever way you’ll let
me”

“Ok “she said with a smile.

They leaned in and kissed again, laying back on the bed. They wrapped
their arms around each other and shared one last kiss, the lay
wrapped in each other and thinking only of each other.

A/N: Hey all someone asked me to kill off Buffy’s dad in this fic, it wasn’t something I’d intended to do but the idea is quite appealing. So, if you want Hank to be killed off at some point leave a review and leave a note saying you want him dead. Thanx

Chapter 9

When Buffy and Spike awoke the next morning, they were still wrapped in each other’s arms. Neither of them made any effort to move, perfectly content just to lie there together. They stayed as they were for a few more minutes until Spike leaned down, kissed Buffy lightly on the lips, and whispered

“Thank you” softly in her ear

“For what?” she asked just as softly

“For letting me be here with you last night. It meant a lot,” he told her honestly

“Spike I wanted you to stay, I wouldn’t have let you if I didn’t” she sighed “and anyway it’s not as if anything happened” she finished

Spike looked hurt as he spoke to her

 “Buffy, we kissed last night, and that may be nothing to you but it’s something to me” he told her

“Spike, I didn’t say it was nothing” she sighed

“Well, it sounded that way to me” he said getting upset

“Listen Spike, I don’t regret kissing you last night. I care about you, and I do like you. I just need time. I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I need time to figure things out in my head. I don’t want to hurt you,” she said softly moving one hand to cup his cheek. He leaned in to the touch and answered

“Buffy, luv, I just want to be with you, sometimes it’s worth taking the chance at being hurt to be with the person you love and see if what you have can work out”

“Spike” she started “I care about you, I do. And I want to be with you, but not yet. I need to figure things out. If we are meant to be together, it’ll happen. But for now, I don’t want to lose the friendship we have. Can we concentrate on that for now. And let whatever happens happen?” she asked him

“Ok, but it’s gonna be hard, all I wanna do is kiss you” he said in a seductive voice

“Well, I wouldn’t be opposed to a kiss now and again, if it happens. But I need you understand that it’ll be just that a kiss. We’ll still be just friends, for now anyway”

“I can do that, for now” he told her as he leaned in to kiss her again

“So” he started when they pulled apart “Prom is coming up in two months, and since we’re friends, do you want to go with me. Just as friends?” he asked sounding very nervous

She looked at him and answered

“Wouldn’t you rather take a date, someone from school”

“There is no one I would rather go with than you Buffy, I love you, I couldn’t enjoy it if you weren’t with me. It’ll just be a friend’s thing. And Willow will be there. She’s going with Oz, because he’s a senior”

“I would love to go with you” she said with a smile He smiled back

“Great” He leaned in and kissed her again but jumped back when they heard the front door opening.

They rushed to get dressed and both went downstairs where Giles was waiting with Anthony

“Hi, Giles” she greeted

“Buffy, hello dear, how was your evening” he asked her as she sat down on the couch

“It was great” she informed him

“we had a lot of fun. Got some great gifts” she said looking at Spike who gave her a small smile

“Well, I’m glad” Giles said in reply “you deserve a little fun”

“Well I got some last night, but now it’s time to get back to work” she said as she took Anthony from his arms

“Do you need some help?” asked Spike “If you want. I was thinking I might take him out for a while later. I f you wanna come with” she told him

“Sounds like a plan” he conceded as they walked up to the nursery.

Two hours later, they were walking around the park. Spike pushing Anthony in his pram. Passers by looked at them thinking how much they looked like a perfect little family. Buffy had never felt so content, and it showed on her face. It was times like this that she really wanted just to tell him everything, have complete honesty and see what his reaction was. Maybe then they really could be that family. They strolled along in complete silence the entire time both enjoying just being. They walked for around an hour before heading back home. Spike had to go out and Buffy spent the rest of the afternoon looking after her baby and thinking about Spike.

The day of the trip Buffy had gotten a phone call from her father saying that he was coming to visit. Today was that day and Buffy was dreading it. He had told her he was bringing someone with him so she had to look nice and preferably have Anthony out of the way, so Spike had taken him out for the day. Now she was waiting for her father to arrive. She had just entered the living room when the doorbell rang. She answered the door to find her father and another young man of about college age on the doorstep.

 “Hi, dad” she greeted with false cheerfulness

 “Hello Buffy” he replied stiffly

“Come on in” she stood to the side to let them enter

“Buffy, I’d like you to meet Riley Finn” her father introduced the young man in front of her

“It’s nice to meet you” she said

“You too” he said with a grin

Buffy took in the man’s appearance, he was tall and well built, and he had sandy blonde hair. He had a kind of goofy look to him and she couldn’t help but compare him to Spike. She knew exactly why her father had brought him here. After sitting down in the living room her father started to inform her of his reasons for his visit

“Buffy, I’m going to get right down to why I came here. Riley is a senior at UC Sunnydale, he works as an intern at the firm. I think he would be perfect to you. He saw a picture of you and thought he’d like to take you out. That would be nice wouldn’t it” it wasn’t a question so much as an order.

She didn’t know quite what to say, she didn’t want to go out with him that would ruin anything she had with Spike. However, she also knew she couldn’t go against what her father said.

“Dad” she objected “I really don’t think that right now is a good time for me to be getting involved with anyone” turning to Riley, she went on

“no offence to you Riley, it’s just that I never have any free time so just now just isn’t great”

“Nonsense” her father brushed off her words “you get time off from your job, after all it’s not your child” he put emphasis on the last part of the sentence Buffy looked furious but didn’t say anything “Fine, I’ll go.” She mumbled

“That’s a good girl. Riley will pick you up tomorrow at seven” Buffy looked up when she heard a noise in the hall

Spike had been out with Anthony for a little over two hours, he was perfectly happy to do it while Buffy saw her dad since she didn’t see him very often. He was on his way home when he met an old friend who had left for college, needless to say he was surprised to see his friend pushing a pram

“Hey Spike” called the friend

“Owen, hey pal how’s things?”

“Good. Apparently, you’ve been busy. Because you didn’t have a kid when I left” his friend joked

“What” he looked at Anthony and objected

“oh no, he’s not mine. He’s the baby of a relative of my dad, she died, my dad was her only relative, we got the baby” he told his friend.

“Oh, whatever you say man, but you look kinda daddy like to me”

“Well I’m not” he said wistfully “well it’s been good seeing you but he’s due fed, better get back”

“Ok, man, see you around” Owen called as he walked away.

Owen’s words played through Spike’s head as he continued on his way home. He realised that he really wouldn’t mind being the child’s father, in fact he kind of wished he was. Somehow, he could just see himself, Buffy and Anthony as a family. When he got home, he could hear voices in the living room and figured Buffy’s father must still be there. He was about to go in when he heard them talking, he couldn’t help but overhear the last part of the conversation as he turned to walk away

“Riley will pick you up tomorrow at seven” he heard His heart broke right then and he gasped. He couldn’t get to grips with what he had heard and he turned back round just in time to see Buffy look up.

Buffy could see the hurt written on his face and it killed her. She didn’t want to hurt him, but there was no way to get around what her father wanted.

“Spike, I-“she started

“Doesn’t matter Buffy, was just gonna tell you we were back” he said coldly and turned an walked back out the door.

Her father left not long after. Giles wasn’t there as he was out of town on business for the weekend. So all she could do was wait for him to come back. It was late by the time he did and Anthony was already fed and asleep by the time he returned. When he came in, he went straight upstairs without looking at Buffy. His head was in turmoil over the fact that she was going to go out with someone else. He honestly thought she wanted to be with him. What he didn’t realise was that she did. And she was hurting just as much as he was.

She waited a few minutes before knocking on his door. When he didn’t answer, she opened the door, went in, and sat on the edge of the bed.

“Don’t talk just listen” she ordered

“I’m sorry for what you heard earlier. I want you to know that I don’t want to date Riley. But you don’t know my dad. He is a very powerful man and there is no going against what he says. I tried to get out of it but my dad is determined that Riley is perfect to me. I have no choice. However, if the relationship happens to work out there is nothing my father can do about it” she said, never changing her tone of voice.

Staying completely calm the whole time. She cupped his cheek and went on

“I’ll go out wit Riley long enough to keep my father happy, and then I’ll end things. I don’t want to be with him. It will only be for a little while” she told him forcefully. He looked at her with hope in his eyes and spoke up

“I guess I can deal for a little while but I don’t like it. I know we’re not together but still”

“I know, but I promise I’ll fix everything” she promised

“I guess this means you won’t be coming to prom then” he said sadly

“What gives you that idea?”

“Well, Riley-“

“can deal with it” she interrupted

 “I am going with you, because I said I would. More importantly because I want to. Riley will have to put up with it. I’m going”

 He smiled at her and replied “Thank you. Can I kiss you now?” he asked

“You better” she replied” They leaned closer together and their lips met. The kiss was slow and gentle, it was a promise that things would work out eventually. That night they lay together again. Perfectly content.

Chapter 10 - Captain Cardboard

It had been a week since her father’s visit and her first date with
Riley. She had hated every minute of it. She found Riley to be
incredibly boring, with no real personality to speak of. She thought
of Spike for the whole date in order to get through it. And now she
was getting ready for date number two. He was taking her out
somewhere fancy, courtesy of her father. She wished that she could
call the whole thing off, but knew she had to seem for a while as if
she had been making the effort. She thought about the previous weeks
date, as she got dressed. He had picked her up and taken her to a
movie, she had no say which movie, and she ended up sitting through
two hours of car crashes and people shooting each other, by the time
it was over she wanted to rip her hair out. And then it was out to
dinner. He took her to a little pizza parlor and he talked about
himself the entire time. She had been completely bored. Spike had
dubbed him ‘Captain Cardboard’ and Buffy couldn’t say she disagreed with that observation. Her favorite part of the date was the end of it. Giles had begun taking Anthony with him every Saturday, to who they now knew was his girlfriend’s, Jenny Calendar’s house. He had decided that she needed the night to herself, but he seen it from the point of view as a mother needing a break from looking after her baby son. After she got home, she climbed in to bed beside Spike. They shared a few kisses and then fell into a peaceful sleep, lying
spooned against each other. And now she had to go through it all
again. She had chosen a simple pair of black boot cut trousers and a
dark blue top, with a pair of pointy toe boots. Her hair was pinned
back. She wore this because it made it look like she had made an
effort without making any. As she finished putting the final touches
on her make up, she heard a knock on her door and Spike walked in.

“Hey love.” he said.

“Hi.” she smiled back.

“You look great...” he looked at her for a minute “don’t go.”

“I have to go Spike. God knows I wish I didn’t, but I do.” she sighed.

“I know, but I wish you could stay here with me.” he pouted jutting
out his lower lip.

“Me too, but you’ll have me all to yourself when I get back.”.

“Ok, I need to know. Has he kissed you yet?” he asked.

“No, I didn’t let him. But it’s going to have to happen at some
point.” she did not look happy about this and Spike looked even less
happy.

“Can’t I just rip his lips off. He can’t kiss you then.” he said
completely serious.

Buffy giggled at this.

“As much as I like the sound of that I don’t think it’s such a great
idea. I’ll tell you what you can kiss me now, before I go and that
way he doesn’t get to kiss me directly.”

He raised an eyebrow at her logic.

“Luv, I don’t think it works that way.”

“I know,” she said “I just wanted an excuse to get you to kiss me.”

“All you had to do was ask” he said flirtatiously as he leaned in and
captured her lips in a searing kiss. Just as they broke the kiss, the
doorbell rang.

“Oh well, I have to go. Wait up for me?” she called as she left the
room.

“Try and stop me.” he yelled back.

Buffy greeted Riley at the door with a false smile.

“Let’s go.” she said as she closed the door behind her.

Spike watched her leave with a sad look on his face. He knew that she
cared about him, he knew that she was only seeing Captain Cardboard
because she had no other choice, but it hurt watching her leave with
him. He didn’t even have Anthony to keep him company until she got
home. He concluded that it was just him and his guitar, he may as
well write about how much he loved her.

30 minutes later Buffy and Riley were seated in the fancy Italian
restaurant that her father had picked out for their date. Riley was
already talking about himself and his intern work at her father’s
firm and she was ready to fall asleep. The waiter came to take their
order and Riley ordered for her before she even had the chance to
open her mouth. After the waiter walked away he simply smiled at her
like he was God’s gift and she really wanted to hit her. For the
first time though he decided to involve her in the conversation.

“So Buffy, you’re dad tells me you want to be a lawyer too once you go back to school.”

“I’m not going back to school, I already have a job, and if I did I
wouldn’t want to become a lawyer.” she told him.

“You can’t honestly be saying that you want to keep being a nanny
after the baby turns a year old. Why would you want to keep looking
after someone else’s brat?” he said with a smirk.

Buffy saw red. No one would talk about her son that way. And then she remembered that he didn’t know he was hers. But that didn’t matter. At that moment, she was so angry she had to say something.

“You know Riley, Anthony is not a brat. He is a great child. And
personally, I don’t see what business it is of yours what I do with
my life.” she spat.

“Buffy you are MY girlfriend, so I should have some say. I don’t want
a girlfriend with no future.” He told her.

“Riley we have been on two dates, hardly makes me your girlfriend.
Besides that, even if I were your girlfriend it still wouldn’t
concern you whether or not I chose to continue being a nanny. It is
up to me and nobody else. Get used to it.” she told him angrily with
wide eyes.

Riley seemed completely unphased by this, there was silence as the
waiter returned with their meals. Once he was gone, Riley resumed
talking.

“Buffy, I am in this relationship for the long haul. We are perfect
for one another. Once we spend some time together, you’ll realize
that. And we will work together to get you through school and in to
your career.” he told her, seemingly oblivious to everything she had
just said. She just sighed and the rest of the dinner was spent with

Buffy listening to Riley speak.

Yes. MY career NOT yours. You bastard. She thought silently.

After their date, Riley drove Buffy home and walked her to the door.
Standing there, Buffy felt very awkward, especially knowing Spike was inside waiting for her. She turned to face Riley and gave him a false smile.

“Well, thank you for a nice time, Riley.” she said.

“It was my pleasure.” he told her “I’ll pick you up tomorrow about
eleven and we’ll spend the day together. Have a picnic in the park.”

“Ok” she said, knowing she had to go.

“Great, see you then.”

He then leaned down and pressed his lips to hers. She had no choice
but to respond, but made sure it was only a small kiss. She pulled
away after a few seconds.

“Night Riley.” she said turning away from him and going into the
house. Leaving Riley standing on the doorstep.

Spike heard Buffy entering the house and put his guitar and sheet
music away, just in time to hear her knock gently on the door before
walking in to the room. He looked up and smiled at her. So glad that
she was home, she smiled back as she sat on the bed and waited for
him to join her. She had already changed in to her PJ’s  so Spike sat
down beside her, both sitting cross-legged facing the center of the
bed.

“How was your date?” he started.

Buffy let out a sarcastic laugh before answering.

“Great, if you think hearing nails on a chalk board is fun.”

“That bad, huh?” he questioned.

“You have no idea.” suddenly she remembered what he had said earlier that evening and her anger came rushing back.

Spike noticed the look on her face and wondered if he should ask what was wrong, he didn’t have to because she told him.

“That asshole called Anthony a brat. I have never been so angry in my
life. Nobody calls my chi- arge a brat” luckily, she caught her slip
before Spike noticed.

Spike himself looked like he wanted to rip Riley’s head off.

“Who the hell does that bastard think he is?” he yelled “I swear if
he ever talks about him like that again I’ll hit him.”

Buffy placed a hand over his to calm him..

“Don’t worry I told him off for it” she told him soothingly.

This got a small smile from the handsome blonde

“But there’s more that I doubt you’re going to like.”
Spike didn’t look like he wanted to hear but waited patiently for her
to continue anyway.

“He told me that he was in this relationship for the long haul, that
we were perfect for one another and he would help me see that.”

Spike was seething, Riley seemed to be taking everything from him,
because Buffy was his everything,

“What did you say?” he asked, afraid of the answer.

“Nothing,” she told him “like I said I need to make it look like I’m
making the effort, but I will end it as soon as possible, a few
months at most.”

“MONTHS?” he said “That’s too long. I can’t watch you with him for
months.”

“I’m sorry Spike, but as soon as I can find an excuse to end it I
will, prom is next month, let’s just look forward to that.”

He nodded his agreement as she leaned in and kissed him, softly at
first but soon becoming increasingly urgent. It was becoming harder
for  both of them to stick to kissing, but both also knew that they
shouldn’t get do anything else, for both their sakes, at that point
in time. Both pulled away at the same time.

“I think we should just go to sleep.” she suggested.

“Yeah, might be a good idea.” he agreed.

He laid down and opened his arms for her so that he could hold her.
She lay beside him and it wasn’t long before they were both fast
asleep.

The next day Buffy did as much as she could for Anthony before having to leave. She had explained the situation to Spike and Giles that morning and Spike had offered to take him out for the day. Buffy had no idea that an idea had been forming in his mind since he had made the offer.

Buffy and Riley had been sitting in the park with the picnic he had
mad for about an hour, he was being his usual boring self and Buffy
did what she always did. She smiled and pretended to be interested,
she had no idea what Riley was droning on about this time, something
to do with cars or something. However, her mood changed when she saw a black clad figure pushing a pram coming towards them. She was genuinely surprised to see them, but not surprised that Spike would come up with the idea. He smiled as he pushed the pram up to where they were sitting on the grass, Riley had yet to notice they were
there. Buffy smiled back at him and called.

“Hey.”

“Hey there pet, didn’t know this is where you were coming on your
picnic, sorry.” he lied and very happy to do so.

His arrival had drawn Riley’s attention and he was not happy to see
the young man. He disliked that Buffy had anything to do with him at
all, but he was angry that he showed up to their date. He had a
suspicion that Spike had a thing for Buffy, he had no idea how right
he was.

“Spike, why don’t you join us for a while?” Buffy offered much to

Riley’s displeasure. However, he merely smiled stiffly and allowed
Spike to sit.

Buffy got up and removed Anthony from his pram, he was now four
months old and Buffy was amazed by how much he had grown since he had been born. She sat with him, bouncing him on her knee and talking to him, Spike watched on with a smile while Riley watched with resentment. Resentment that she was paying more attention to the baby that she looked after than to him. Spike decided to have some fun while he was there.

“So, Ri, what’s it like to suck up Buffy’s father’s ass for a living?”

“It’s Riley and that’s not what I do Spike.” he spat.

“Oh really, so sorry.” Spike replied sarcastically “So what is it
that you do then?”

“I intern at the office watching and learning from the best.” he said
obnoxiously.

“So you get their coffee and deliver their mail.” Spike interpreted.

Buffy couldn’t help the snigger that escaped her lips, especially
when she saw the smirk on Spike’s face. Riley looked up angrily.

“Why are you still here, why don’t you take the brat and leave us
alone?” Riley spat.

Spike’s face reddened and he yelled.

“Now you listen here Captain Cardboard, don’t ever call Anthony that
again, or trust me you pompous, obnoxious bastard you will regret
it,” Spike threatened “and I’m not going anywhere, Buffy and I are
friends, she invited us to join you so I’m staying.” he finished
still fuming.

“Whatever.” Riley replied annoyed “Buffy don’t make any plans for the weekend of the 12th next month. We’re going to visit your parents.” he told her.

Spike bristled at this, that was the weekend of the prom, he had
already bought the tickets and he was really looking forward to
spending time with her.

“Um, Riley, I can’t I already have plans that weekend” she told him,
annoyed that he had told her what to do.

“Well unplan them,” he told her “and what plans could you possibly
have?”

This really annoyed Buffy but Spike answered before the chance, if
Buffy was angry he was furious.

“She has a thing.” he told Riley.

“Look bleach boy, this has nothing to do with you. I was speaking to
MY girlfriend.” turning to Buffy he repeated “What do you have
planned.”

“Riley, it isn’t really any of your business. I had it planned before
you and I were dating. More importantly it’s something I want to do.”
she told him as she put a sleeping Anthony back in his pram.

“Buffy you’re my girlfriend I made plans. If you’re doing something
else I want to know what.” his voice was slowly rising.

“Fine, I’ll tell you.” she said “I’m going to Prom with Spike.”

“Over my dead body.” he shouted.

“That can be arranged.” Spike said snidely.

Riley reached over grabbing a hold of Spike by the collar and shoving
him up against a tree. Buffy watched on horrified at Riley’s actions

”Temper, temper.” Spike taunted “All this because you think I have
the hots for your girl.”

“Trying to say that you don’t?” he asked.

“Nope, never denied it,” Spike admitted “but there’s nothing you can
do about it captain, so you’ll just get your hands off me.” he said
pushing Riley away from him.

He walked over to the pram and turned to Buffy.

“I’ll see you later Luv.”

“No wait,” she turned to Riley “I’m going to walk back with Spike,

I’m too angry to talk to you right now. I’ll speak to you later.”

She turned and walked away with Spike without waiting for a reply.
After a few minutes of walking in silence Buffy spoke.

“Thank you, for standing up for me back there.”

He gave her a smile.

“Don’t mention it. Nobody talks to you like that while I’m around and gets away with it.” he said cockily “Bloody pillock, he’s lucky I
didn’t hit him.”

Buffy couldn’t help but laugh at this, she leaned over and kissed him
on the cheek and the two friends walked the rest of the way home
talking and laughing.  Anyone who passed couldn’t help but think the
two teens belonged together.

Disclaimer: I own nothing other than baby anthony all other characters belong to joss and ME. The songs in this chapter belong to jewl and Britney Spears.

A/N: a word of warning everyone this chapter is rated R but i'm sure most of you will be glad of that. Enjoy.

Chapter 11: The Prom

It was the week before prom Buffy was still seeing Riley. He had
called later the evening of the incident in the park. Before deciding
what to do she had spoken to Spike, they both knew that her father
would think that Buffy had not given the relationship enough of a
chance, so they had agreed she would keep seeing Riley for a little
while longer. However, she had made some conditions when she agreed to keep seeing him, he would not make any decisions on her behalf and would not complain if she had other plans which didn't include him and that included going to the prom with Spike. He had agreed somewhat reluctantly and still complained about it at times, but Buffy wasn't budging, she was going whether Riley liked it or not.
So, with just a week to go Buffy and Willow were at the mall buying
dresses. They had both waited until the last minute as Buffy had to
wait for her father to send her monthly allowance so that she could
buy hers.

Walking along through the Mall the girls were chatting happily about
the different plans that Oz and Spike had made for the night of the
prom. Giles had decide to pay for the four teens to have a nice meal
beforehand and also put money towards the limousine, even though
Spike had objected telling his father that he and Oz could afford it.
Giles just wanted to give them a great night. He rarely seen the two
since he had been seeing Jenny, he was there most evenings and then
stayed over on Saturday nights with Anthony, the only day they really
saw him was a Sunday. The girls came to a halt when the came to the
dress shop. After going inside the girls looked excitedly through the
racks of dresses. Both girls had been saving their money in order to
buy the best dresses possible.

"Hey Buff what do you think of this one?" Willow asked holding up a
deep red halter-neck dress.

"It's ok," she told her with a shrug of the shoulders "but I think a
green dress would look great on you."

They continued looking around and all of a sudden, Buffy spotted her
dream dress. Willow had a few dresses in her hand all but two of
which were green.

"Shall we try these on then?" Buffy asked her now best friend.

"We shall." replied Willow with a very giddy smile

Both girls headed towards the dressing rooms. Buffy had another
couple of dresses to try on also. The first one she tried on was a
beige coloured spaghetti strap dress with a gold sparkly swirl design
on it. It was beautiful dress, it was long almost reaching the floor
and it looked beautiful with her skin tone.

"Oh my god Buffy, that dress is beautiful." Willow exclaimed when her friend came out of the dressing room modeling the beige material.

"Thanks," Buffy smiled "I'm not sure though, I think it's my second
choice. I still have my dream dress to try on." she babbled
excitedly, She had been wanting to do this ever since she was a
little girl. She was going to find the perfect dress if it killed her.

After a few minutes she noticed Willow's dress, it was the red halter
dress. It was about the same length as Buffy's and had a diamante
lining at the waist. Buffy had to admit it did suit her.

"You look great too Will, the colour looks great on you." Buffy told
her examing in dress.

"Thanks, but I'm not sure. I've tried on all but one of the dresses
now though and so far, this is the only one I've even remotely liked
on me." she told her friend sadly.

"Don't worry Will, we'll find you a great dress." Buffy assured her.

Both girls turned and went back into their separate dressing rooms.
Buffy was excited as she picked up her dream dress and started to
slip it on. The dress was absolutely amazing, like something out of a
daydream and she was not disappointed when she looked at the mirror
when the dress was on. It was perfect.

Next door Willow was thinking the same thing as she slid on the final
dress in her pile. It was stunning colour and looked fantastic with
her red hair. She could imagine herself in that dress. Both girls
exited their dressing rooms at the same times and after looking at
one another exclaimed simultaneously.

"That's Perfect."

"That's the one."

Excited to have found the dresses both girls walked to the check out
and after paying for their purchases headed for the food court. Where
they chatted about what the reactions to their dresses

"Oh my god, Buffy, Spike is gonna flip when he sees you in that
dress" Willow said excitedly

"You think so?" Buffy asked equally as excited

"Oh yeah, he's crazy about you Buffy and seeing you in that dress,
that's just gonna drive him crazy."

Both girls giggled at this statement.

"Remember Will, Spike and I are only going as friends." Buffy told
her.

"I know, but you do realise that the two of you are perfect for each
other." the redhead sighed fantasizing about the blonde duo.

"Well, I'm with Riley, I like Spike but we are only friend.s" Buffy
was trying very hard to believe the words.

She and Spike hadn't shared many kisses since the day at the park
only a few. They still slept in the same bed every Saturday night and
stayed up late talking, but for both their sakes they were trying to
act like friends, both of them wanting so much more.

"Buffy, hey Buffy, you in there?" the redhead asked confused.

"Sorry Will guess I just zoned out for a minute." Buffy apologized.

"That's ok, but we should go we still have some shopping to do"

Buffy nodded her agreement and both girls stood up gathering their
bags heading for the shoe store. The rest of the day passed in a
whirlwind of girly excitement, as the two teens got ready for what
was probably going to be a night they would always remember.

Prom Night

Buffy and Willow were in Buffy's room getting ready, they had decided that Buffy would do Willow's hair and make up to save the girl money. They had curled her long red hair and then pinned it up at the back with a diamante clip, the curls flowing down to her back, while a few curly tendrils were left down around her face. Buffy had simply curled her hair and left it hanging down. It framed her face
beautifully. Both girls were now doing their make up and chatting
excitedly.

"Buff, are you sure Oz will like my dress?" Willow asked nervously
fingering the material.

"Will, he will love it. You look fantastic in it. And besides you
know he'd love you if you wore a sack." she reassured her friend.

"I know, I know you're right it's just..." she couldn't finish her
sentence.

"Willow calm down, we have to get those dresses on, the guys will be
here soon. I can't believe Spike is getting dressed over at Oz's."

The girls giggled as they busied themselves getting in to their gowns.

30 minutes later

The girls were dressed and waiting anxiously for their dates to
arrive. Willow was growing increasingly nervous by the minute, while Buffy just wanted to see how hot Spike would be in a tux. She waited patiently in her room; they wanted to make an entrance after all. Not long after that, they heard a car pull up and the front door opening.

"Buffy, Willow, the boys are here." Giles called upstairs.

Buffy turned to Willow.

"Ok Will, this is it. Calm down you're going down first. And don't
worry, you look gorgeous." Buffy assured her lightly pushing her towards the door before the redhead changed her mind.

"Thanks Buffy, you too." Willow relied as she reached out and hugged her friend.

Willow opened the door and made her way downstairs, Buffy was right. Oz thought she looked fantastic. Her dress was a dark green
strapless, beaded organza gown. The skirt flowed down to her toes.
The colour was beautiful next to her hair and complexion. She let out
a breath as she reached the bottom of the stairs.

"Wow." was Oz's only comment but coming from Oz that was like a
speech.

"Thanks. You too." she replied shyly.

"You look great Re-"

Spike's sentence was cut short when he caught sight of the vision at
the top of the stairs. His breath caught in his throat as she
descended the steps. Her dress was stunning. It was a two-layer wrap
around dress with delicate embroidery along the breast and at the
foot of the dress. The bottom layer was white, with blue silk on top.
There was a large slit at the front of the blue material to show the
white underneath. In silver was embroidered a delicate flower design
at the breast and along the bottom of the dress. It had a full skirt
but it was not too puffy. Spike could hardly believe his eyes. As she
reached the bottom of the stairs Buffy could see, she had made an
impression..

"Buffy, love, you look absolutely stunning," Spike whispered
breathlessly "you quite literally take my breath away"

"Thank you."

Buffy was impressed also. He was wearing a traditional black tuxedo
and he looked fantastic, like a movie star. She just wanted to kiss
him right there and damn the consequences, but that wasn't an option.
She looked at him as he handed her the corsage he had bought foe her
it was simple white roses and cream ribbon it was perfect.
Giles was surprised to say the least when he saw the four teenagers
in his hallway. He was especially shocked to see that his son was
wearing a tuxedo. Would wonders never cease?

"Buffy, Willow, both of you look quite lovely." Giles complimented
them warmly.

Both girls beamed at him and thanked him. He turned to go back to
living room and Spike looked horrified when he came back a moment
later brandishing a camera.

"Aww, dad no pictures please." Spike complained.

"Please be quiet William, you must have a picture taken on the night
of your senior Prom." his father admonished.

"But dad-"

"Oh come on Spike please. For me. This is the only Prom I'll ever go
to. I'd like to have a reminder." She looked up at him with her puppy
dog eyes and he couldn't refuse her.

"Ok, you can take the photos." he relented.

They stood for 15 minutes having their pictures taken before getting
in the limo and heading for the restaurant. The meal was beautiful
and was filled with the laughter of four excited friends who were
looking forward to what had thus far promised to be a great night.

After the meal, it was back in the limo and to the Prom. Buffy was
terrified, as they were about to enter the hall where the Prom was
being held. Spike offered her his arm as they walked in the door.
Nobody could help but notice the stunning couple. They were
automatically stood out due to Spike's bleached hair, but together
they made a stunning couple. After Willow and Oz joined them, they
sat at their table talking excitedly. The band was playing and there
were a lot of people on the dance-floor. After a few minutes Buffy
and Willow joined them, dancing and having the time of their lives.
After a few songs they returned to their seats.

"Having fun luv?" Spike asked her.

"Yeah, it's great. I'm so glad you asked me to come with you. I would
have hated to have never gone to a prom."

"Well pet, enjoy it." he said with a smile.

They looked at each other and Spike placed hand on hers and she felt
a jolt of electricity go through her. Their companions noticed the
looks passing between them and excused themselves from the table.

Oz and Willow went over to a quiet corner of the hall where they
talked about their two friends.

"Oz do you think there's something going on between Buffy and Spike?"

Willow asked.

"No." he replied.

"Are you sure because they seem overly friendly. Are you sure?" she
asked agai.n

"Yeah."

With that Willow turned all of her focus back on her boyfriend, she
turned and led him on to the dance floor. Just as the sat back down
they heard the announcement for prom king and queen.

"And this year's prom king and queen are Cordelia Chase and Lindsey
McDonald."

As the two students made their way to the stage, Buffy could hear
Willow.

"Figures. It's always the popular ones."

Oz gave a short laugh at his girlfriend and soon all four were
laughing.

There wasn't long left until prom would be over and they were playing,some slow songs, Buffy was nursing a glass of punch when he whispered n her ear.

"Can I have this dance, pet?"

She looked up at him with a smile and nodded holding out her hand; he elped her from her seat and led her to the dance-floor. He put his
arms around her and held her close as they swayed to the music.

Running fast through a fairy tale  

Dark woods; starless night

Feel cold air in my lungs

Full moon, u follow me-u say  

"Why do hearts so often stray?"

 U pierce me like an arrow  

Beneath the blanket of night  

Longing for flight

When u fall into me

It feels so sweet, like dreaming  

Press yourself into me

Let me feel your breathing  

There's a voice in your heart

Softly calling Come to me you

will see, just give in  to this sweet temptation

 I awake, do a double take 2 see

 Where it is that I lay-it could be  

Day or night, I'm not quite sure  

Your absence is a thorn  

Your flesh, your skin

Is the only flag there is 2 believe in  

I can love u like nobody else  When u fall into me  

It feels so sweet, like dreaming  Press yourself into me

Let me feel your breathing

There's a voice in your heart softly calling


As the song ended, they heard a new song begin to play and he never
let go of her continuing to move as the next song played, it was a
Britney song but neither could deny how the words rang true.

Notice me

Take my hand

Why are we

Strangers when

Our love is strong

Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, it's haunting me

I guess I need you baby

I make believe

That you are here

It's the only way

I see clear

What have I done

You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain

Please forgive me

My weakness caused you pain

And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray

That soon your face

Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you baby



As they danced, both teens thought of the other, of how they dreamed
every night of being together. They thought of how quickly they had
become each other's world, but neither had admitted it. As they song
came to the end they looked into each others eyes and neither one
could stop what happened next, they leaned in and Spike pressed his
lips to Buffy's. Willow looked on in shock. Buffy didn't give a
second thought to her boyfriend as she opened her mouth to allow
Spike's tongue in. After a couple of minutes the broke apart and
looked around, noticing Willow watching them. They walked off the
dance-floor, trying to forget what had happened.

After Willow and Oz had been dropped off Buffy and Spike rode home in wkward silence. Spike was secretly over the moon.  When they arrived
home, they walked straight upstairs and Buffy instinctively went to
Spike's room. When she noticed what she had done she turned to leave
he put his hand on her arm to stop her.

"Stay, please." his eyes pleaded with her .

She nodded in silent agreement and moved closer to him, deep down she
knew exactly what she was doing. He cupped her face and whispered.

"Buffy, I'm going to kiss you now."

She only nodded again, so he leaned in and pressed his lips to hers
keeping it gentle to begin with but soon it began to deepen and
became more urgent. Buffy decided she had had enough of waiting and
resisting, so she let go of her inhibitions and did what she had
wanted to do since the moment she had laid eyes on the man kissing
her. He pulled away from her to catch his breath for a moment. His
eyes were filled with lust for the girl in front of him.

"Buffy, if you don't want to do this you have to tell me now." he
told her.

"I want to, I want you."

With that said he took a hold of her face and pressed his lips to
hers again, she moaned as the kiss became more and more urgent. She
opened her mouth and granted entrance to his tongue. After a moment,she felt his hand slip behind her as he unzipped her dress letting it
puddle at her feet. She moaned again at the feel of his hands on her
bare skin. As he caressed her skin, she slowly unbuttoned his shirt,
savouring every moment. She gasped when she saw the perfectly defined
muscles underneath, and then he was kissing her again, with more
passion than she had ever imagined possible. Spike walked her
backwards towards the bed and lay her down. He lay next to her as he
began to kiss his way down her body starting at her neck, he kissed
and nipped gently all the way down until he reached her chest, he
kissed his way along the curve of her  breasts and
smiled when he heard her moan.

"Oh god." Buffy bit her lip as the pleasure coursed through her.

He continued kissing his way down her body, continuing to kiss and
nip at her skin. He continued until she couldn't take anymore and
pulled him back up to her, she kissed him urgently as she undid his
belt and began to pull down his trousers.

"I want you, need you now." she moaned.

Spike grinned and threw his trousers onto the floor, he leaned in
and kissed her again, but this time more gentle and loving. Spike noe
fully naked started at the golden goddess under him.
He looked up into Buffy's lust filled eyes. He positioned himself at
her entrance as he searched her eyes for regret but he found none.

"Buffy, if you want to back out now, i'll understand." Buffy liked
the fact he was giving her a chance to back out. She shook her
head. "No. I want you."

He obeyed and entered her. They both let out moans at that. Spike let
Buffy get used to his size before he started thrusting in and out. He
was angeld perfectly to hit the perfect spot inside of her.

"Oh god." Buffy moaned obviously in ecstasy.

He could hear her moan repeatedly in his ear. He kept his thrust slow
trying to pour all the love he felt for her into his movements. They
seemed to move in perfect sync Buffy meeting him thrust for thrust.

With Spike, it all just felt so right. Their eyes never left each
others as they experianced the most memeraable moment intheir lives.

Today sex wasn't a game or a requirment or an obligation but it was a
true testimate of love. As he pulled away after each thrust she could
feel him brush against her clit, intensifying the amazing sensations
she was already feeling. Soon they were both hurtling toward the
edge, his movements sped up slightly but never breaking up their
perfect rhythm, he could feel how close she was so he moved his hand
between them to rub her clit, this sent her over the edge

"Oh, god, Spike, baby, I love you." she moaned as she dropped over
the edge.

Those words had Spike following her over, moaning her name and
telling her how much he loved her as he released inside of her.
Spike laid his head against Buffy's both savouring the moment, he was
just about to asked her if she meant what she said when the door was
thrown open.

"William what the hell is that noise- oh dear lord." Giles exclaimed
as he saw his son on top of Buffy, still inside her.
He pulled out of her at the sound of his father's voice and pulled
the covers up over them as both teens exclaimed.

"Dad! Bloody Hell!"

"Giles. Oh God!"

They then looked at each other and then back at a very red faced
Giles.