Spike laid there staring up at the ceiling smoking a cigarette.

“Brilliant Mate, just brilliant.” He thought to himself.

He spent years training for this assignment watch as other fell. Was given all the warnings about the allure of the underground. The taste of alcohol and the women.

He was briefed about the infamous Buffy “Angel” Connor. How to play the angles what to say. She was suppose to be untouchable.

That was before the death of her husband.

Spike met her when she was vunerable. Instead of using it to his advantage the way he was suppose to he found himself being drawn to it.

Now he was drowning in her. Stuck. his insides actually ached when she was not around. Spike heard the door open and close. He reached behind his head for a small .22 he kept hidden there. He tensed for a moment but then relaxed when he saw Dawn standing there at his doorway her arms folded across her chest.

“Hey Little Bit I‘m home.” He said getting up he was glad he put on his silk pajamas immediately after Buffy left. It would look to Dawn as if he was just resting.

“I know. Red told me and I rushed home about thirty minutes ago.” Dawn said.

O.k., maybe she knew he was not just resting.

“Um really.” Spike said clearing his throat.

“I didn’t hear anything inappropriate for a little sister to hear. Just talking. You and a voice that sounded a lot like Angel’s.” Dawn said quietly.

Spike sat at the edge of his bed and looked at his sister. He hung his head down low not being able to look at her.

Dawn looked at him shocked. “What no snippy come back or self assure swaggard?” Dawn asked.

It took a moment then finally it hit her.

“Oh God Spike you’re in love with her!” Dawn gasped.

Spike looked up at his sister. “If you tell me I told you so Little Bit. I may have to make you have tea with Jenny and Rupert today.” He said trying to lighten the mood.

Dawn walked over to her brother and sat at the edge of his bed. She wanted to tell him about Connor but she knew it would be too much for him to handle now. He had to know he couldn’t have Angel. I mean she was just a kid and she knew it was impossible. He had to have to right?

Buffy arrived back at the mansion. She was shocked to see Wesley, Winifred, Xander, Legs and Oz sitting in the den.

“Angel!'' Wesley called out.

Buffy immediately tried to keep her composure. She walked into the den trying to find an excuse for her absence. Anya stood up and crossed the room.

''Did you enjoy the picture show?'' Anya said looking into Buffy's eyes.

''I told everybody that I you told me you were going to one right before left.'' Anya explained trying to cover up for her friends absence.

Buffy smiled gratefully. ''Yes, thank you. You’re all home early. Is there something wrong?'' Buffy asked.

“Please sit down Angel.'' Xander said.

Buffy's head began to spin. Did they find out about her and Spike? Wesley lit his cigarette and smiled.

''Angel, you mean the world to this family. With the passing of Liam it's left you in a vulnerable position.'' Wesley said.

''Godfather I assure you I can handle any situation I get myself into.'' Buffy explained.

Wesley smiled. ''It's not I who doubt you abilities. This family must keep you in a certain appearance.'' Wesley said.

''Wesley, it's all right I know all this is a hard adjustment but the family will come to except it in time.'' Buffy reasoned.

Wesley looked at Xander curiously. ''I thought you said she had no idea what was going to happen.'' Wesley said. Xander looked at Buffy confused.

Again Anya spoke up to save her friend.

''Xander, I hope you forgive me but I asked her what her plans for the future was and she had mentioned perhaps remarrying in the family.'' Anya said.

Buffy immediately shut up. ''So you approve of our choice for you?'' Wesley said.

Buffy let out a sigh of relief. Finally she could come clean with everyone.

''Wesley you know I would oblige to any plan you have for me. But don't you think it's a bit soon after Liam's death?'' Buffy asked.

''Your union will not take place until the end of the year a formal announcement will be given tomorrow night at The No Name.'' Wesley said.

Buffy nodded. ''But Godfather he is still so new to the organization.'' Buffy said. Wesley looked at her confused then smiled.

''Oh dear child no wonder you looked so worried. Your thinking I am going to offer your hand to Mr. Ainsley. '' Wesley said.

Buffy nodded her head.

''Well yes that's was I assumed.'' Buffy said. Wesley shook his head.

''No, Angel.'' Oz said.

''Your hand is being offered to me.'' Oz replied.

Buffy just felt like someone socked her in the stomach. Ozgot on his knees and placed a large diamond ring on her finger. Buffy looked up at Anya who looked away.

Oz hugged her tightly. Then Wesley and Xander hugged her. Buffy stood there completely still.

''I do not know what to say.'' She said.

''Congratulations.'' Winifred said gushing. Buffy smiled absently.

''Thank You.'' She said.

''This calls for a toast.'' Wesley said everyone exited the room except for Anya and Buffy.

''Angel, are you all right?'' She asked.

Buffy nodded. ''Fine just fine.'' She said her eyes flooding with tears.

''Look I am not stupid. I'm your best friend. Something happened up there between you and Ainsley. I saw the change in you when you came back. You disappear for two hours the night he gets back. I know you Angel.'' Anya said looking at her friend worried.

Buffy hugged her tightly. ''It will be all right Legs. I promise.'' Buffy said.

''What are you going to do?'' Anya asked. Buffy shrugged her shoulders.

''It looks like I am getting married.'' Buffy said trying to choke back her emotions.

''What about Spike?'' She asked.

''What about him?' Buffy said

''Buffy what are you going to do.'' Anya said.

''Whatever happened between Spike and I is over.'' Buffy said sadly walking away.

Anya watched as her best friend's heart broke all over again.

Spike Ainsley stood in front of Wesley Giles He wondered if Buffy had told him about them. Xander walked into the room and sat down next to Wesley.

“Mr. Ainsley, your performance to our associates up North was outstanding.” Wesley said.

“And you handling of Tony was well done also.” Xander piped in.

“We are looking for someone with your skills to take over a bigger part of this family. My son’s time is precious these days.” Wesley announced. Spike nodded.

“I will be happy to help anyway I can.” Spike said. Wesley smiled.

“Excellent, I would like to talk to you about Angel then.” Wesley said.

Spike cleared his throat.

“Our associates up North adore her. She will be working very closely with them in the next few months. I as asking you to help her.” Wesley said.

Spike hid his excitement.

“I am trusting you with a lot Mr. Ainsley not only my family business but with my future daughter in law.” Wesley said.

Spike looked up at Wesley shocked. “What?”



“Angel and my son Oz are to be married by the end of the year.” Wesley announced proudly.

“Excuse my reaction. Buffy didn’t mention anything to me when we were up north.” Spike said.

“She was not told until last night. The formal announcement will be made tonight.” Wesley said. Spike’s head reeled. Wesley looked at him

“You seemed disturbed by this.” Wesley said looking at Spike carefully.

“I am sorry I am just concerned with all the business we will be doing up north do you really think this is a good thing to announce now? I mean if she will be a way a lot and it’s
announced wouldn’t that make her a target?” Spike asked.
Wesley mused on this. He looked up at Xander who was also in thought.

“The kid’s got a point. Even if we double up her guards it will still be tight. Especially with both Travers and Merrick breathing down our throats maybe we should wait until the business up north is finished that’s what three months?” Xander asked. Wesley nodded.

“Bring in Angel and Oz.” Wesley said.

Xander walked out the door. Spike motioned to leave.
“No Spike stay.” Wesley said.

Buffy and Oz walked in. Buffy looked at Spike and then back at Wesley.

“Godfather is there something wrong?” Buffy asked.
Wesley shook his head.

“It’s been brought to my attention that perhaps we should wait for the formal announcement of your engagement.” Wesley said.

“Why?” Buffy asked.

“You will be doing a lot of business up north and it puts you in a Vulnerable position. Mr. Ainsley pointed out something we didn’t think about. Your safety might be compromised if you’re up north a lot.” Wesley said

Oz nodded “I agree. The merger should be done within the next three months correct?” Oz said.

Xander nodded.

“Then it’s best if we wait.” Oz said squeezing Buffy’s hand.

Buffy smiled through her anger.

“What ever you feel best God father.” Buffy said.

“Good let’s get back to the club then.”

A few hours later Spike sat at his desk in home. He sat there staring at the glass filled with the bourbon Wesley had given him as a present for a job well done. His head reeled. This was supposed to be a job take down the mob boss. Now he’s drinking alcohol form his private stock.

Spike Ainsley trained FBI agent now drinking the thing he was fighting against. Spike no longer knew what he was doing. This life he was pretending to have was beginning to suit him. He had never seen Dawn so happy. Even now she was with Red and Oz. Dawn begged him to allow her to spend the night at Red’s. Spike needing solitude agreed.

Spike thought about the stunt he pulled with Wesley. What was that about?

Why what did he hope to accomplish by delaying the announcement?

Buffy would never speak to him again anyways when she found out he was nothing but a spy sent to take down the only family she had ever known.

Spike heard the door open and shut. He looked up and saw a furious Buffy storm in.

“Buffy what the??” Buffy walked up to him and turned him around in his chair.

“Who the hell do you think you are!!”? Buffy yelled.

“You don’t control my life or what goes on in it!!” Buffy said.

Spike stood up and looked at her angrily

“I was just trying to help!” Spike yelled back.

“Help?? Did I ask for your help!!” Buffy said.

“Do you want to marry Oz?” Spike asked.

“It’s the best thing for the family!” Buffy said.

“Forget the family Buffy!! What about you!!?? What’s best for you?” Spike countered.

Buffy looked at him frustrated.

“You don’t understand. Stay out of my life!!” Buffy yelled trying to leave.

Spike grabbed her arms and pinned her against him and the desk.

“Is that what you really want?” He yelled.

“Yes!” Buffy screamed back.

Spike kissed her on the mouth hard. Buffy tried to fight him but then gave into his kiss.

“Why don’t I believe you?” Spike asked quietly.

Buffy looked into Spike’s eyes.

“Please just let me go.” She whispered.

Spike kissed her again.

Buffy groaned as his tongue invaded her mouth instantly her whole body responded to him.

“No Buffy never. I can’t let you go.” Spike said.

He kissed her neck pulling down her spaghetti straps revealing her breast. He trailed kissed down to them and lovingly kissed them.

“I can’t let you go Buffy. I would die.” Spike said his voice filled with desire.

He sucked on Buffy’s breast She swayed as her dress fell to the floor.

Spike looked at her clad only in her garter belt and stockings. He could believe she was here. He couldn’t believe he might lose her.

Spike kissed her mouth again.

“God your beautiful.” Spike whispered into her ear.

“Spike we can’t” Buffy groan.

Spike kissed her again and raised her onto the desk.

“Your right we shouldn’t just tell me to stop and I will.” Spike whispered sucking on her breast.

Buffy moaned.

“Tell me Baby and I will.” He said.

Spike’got on his knees and kissed her inner thigh. He continued to her center and pull down her undergarment.

“Give me the word and I’ll stop” He whispered kissed her mound lightly.

“Spike please I..” Before she could finish her last word.

Spike’s tongue was inside her drowning in her wetness.

“Spike oh God” Buffy moaned.

Spike held her legs apart as Buffy braced herself holding the ends of the desk. Spike looked up at her.

She was so beautiful so exposed. He body looked so beautiful against the light. Buffy bit her lip. Spike’s hand found her mouth.

“Don’t” Spike whispered

“I want to hear what I do to you.” Spike said diving his mouth into her center again.

“Oh God Spike please I can’t.” Buffy said trying to hold it in.

“It’s to intense.” Buffy cried.

Spike held her legs open and suck more feverishly.

Buffy began to squirm but Spike held her legs prisoner.

“OH SPIKE!” Buffy cried as her body shuttered. Buffy center went crashing into Spike’s mouth as he devoured every bit of her climax.

He groaned commanding more from her. Buffy’s body no longer listened to the protest her mind. She submitted to Spike’s mouth over and over again. Buffy climaxed over and over again harder and faster than she ever had before.
Almost in fear that she would never feel his touch again.

“Yes Spike more.” She cried.

“More” Spike moaned.

“Oh God Buffy you taste so good. Stay with me Luv. Please...” He said not caring how pathetic he sounded.

Buffy whimpered. Her heart broke for the first time in her life she wanted to defy her family and give into her own desires.

Spike rose to his feet and looked at a daze Buffy.

Buffy pulled him to her and flipped them around so Spike was now leaning against his desk. Then slowly she dropped to her knees. She worked the buckled of his pants and watched them as they dropped to the floor.

Spike closed his eyes as Buffy wrapped her mouth around him.

"That feels so God Luv." Spike whispered. Running his hands though her hair. He looked down at her as she sucked him hard. He tried to steady his breathing. He thought he had it under control. Until he looked and saw Buffy looking up at him with elevator lust filled eyes. The moment their eyes connected he knew it was over.

He tried to pull himself away but Buffy held his legs still staring at him silently giving him permission. Spike held the side of his desk fighting to keep his eyes on his love.

"Oh Bloody Hell!" he yelled.

Spike jerked as he spent himself inside Buffy mouth. He had never felt anything like what he felt at that moment. No women ever allowed him such a luxary until now. He looked continued to watch Buffy. As she swallowed all of what he had to give. The sight almost made him find his climax again. He panted hard trying to regain his composure.

Buffy stood up.

Spike grabbed and held her tight for a moment.

Buffy stood there a bit shock. The man that had always been so self assured and unwaivering now trembled like a child in her arms. She closed her eyes. She knew then at that moment how she truly felt.

With Liam he was her teacher. He guided and taught her through their world. With Spike they were eachother's equals. Not only in their chosen life. She freely gave control to him and he in turn did the same.

Spike touched her cheek then kissed her softly. With trembling a bit more control.

Buffy pulled away and gulped hard. Turned Spike around so she was sitting on the desk. Shewrapped her legs around his hips, as Spike remained standing.

Buffy pulled him into her and arched her back as far as it would go. He watched as Buffy struggled to get him deeper knocking away things on his desk. Spike almost let go right there.

But he didn’t instead he attacked her breast as she found her peak again.

Buffy pulled herself up and straddled Spike.

Spike held her above the desk in his arms and she did all the work holding onto his hips with her legs and using his shoulders as leverage to move him in and out of her.

“God Buffy Your so intense. So free I want have you in me forever.” Spike groaned

Buffy screamed into his chest trying to contril the firse raging inside her

“Oh God Spike I don’t ever want it to stop.“ She cried.

Spike no longer could take it his own animal nature was setting in. He pulled Buffy off him.

Buffy whimpered.

He turned her around and bent her over the desk. He entered her with a motioned.

He raised one of Buffy’s legs so it rested bent on his desk. He continued to kiss her neck from behind.

Buffy screamed as her body convulsed.

“I love to watch you body break and give into me.” Spike whispered.

“Oh God Buffy I can’t get deep enough.” Spike groaned

Buffy held onto his hands. They continued their passion filled frenzy for a good hour until they both succumbed.

Buffy laid in Spike’s arms on the floor of his study. Spike had his back to his desk as Buffy laid in front of him wrapped in his jacket.

“Buffy I can’t let it happen.” Spike said.

Buffy looked up at him.

“Spike the code says I must be married or else I become marked. With my Uncle being in a cop it only makes it worse for me. I have to marry within the family. Oz is the obvious choice.” Buffy explained.

Spike kissed her. “What if I establish myself in The Family within the next few months what would happen then?” Spike asked.

“I don’t know. Red would be pleased she has it bad for Oz but I just don’t think it’s possible. In order for that to happen you would have to become a part of The Family meaning Wesley would have to make you. Spike if you do that there’s no going back. Think about what your saying. At least now there’s a chance you can get out.” Buffy explained.

“If this is your world Buffy I will do what ever it takes to be with you.” Spike said.

Spike no longer cared about the FBI or his job he would gladly give it all up if Buffy could stay in his arms. Buffy kissed him deeply.

“You would do that for me?” Buffy said almost looking like a child.

“I would do anything for you Buffy. I love you.” Spike whispered.

Buffy looked deeply into his eyes.

“I love you too.” Buffy kissed him.

Spike had never been one to cry. Even when his parents died he only shed a few tears. He had to be strong for Dawn and Jenny. Riley had always been the crier. In fact he cried so much Spike felt it was his job never to cry. However at this moment. With Buffy admission he felt the tears freely falling down his face.

"Say it again." He said closing his eyes.

Buffy put her hands on each side of his face. And kissed him softly.

"Look at me." She whispered.

Spike looked into her bright green tear filled eyes.

"I love you more than I have evey loved anything in my life. I love you forever." She said.

Spike lowered her to the floor one more time.

Spike kissed her entire body then lovingly sank into her.

“I love you Buffy so much. I don't deserve you. I'll make it all right I promise.” Spike said. He knew she did not know what he really meant. He knew he would have to tell her.

The voice inside his head screamed "COWARD!" But he wanted this moment. He wanted to feel her love.

“It’s more than just sex. Do you feel it? Have I ever told you what it feels like when I’m inside you” Spike asked as Buffy groaned.

“It’s so warm and inviting. I love the feel of your body as it lets go to me. Our bodies know each other. They speak to each other in a way I can’t describe. It knows what the other one wants and needs.” Spike whispered.

Buffy kissed him deeply.

“I know Spike I can feel it. When you’re in me I just can’t stop wanting you more and more.” Buffy groaned. Spike held her tiny body to his.

"it's more than that Luv." He whispered slowly pumping into her.

"When I am with you talking to you. I feel complete. I feel safe and at peace. Like I have been waiting all my life to be here with you." Spike whispered.

"You make me feel alive. You make me happy. You brought me peace. You are my peace William." Buffy whispered.

Spike shuttered at the sound of Buffy using his given name. It sounded sweet. Buffy kissed his eye lids.

He put his head on her shoulder slowly driving deep into her. Buffy laid there enjoying the sensual erotic dance for awhile. Until something in her began to stoke.

“I need you Spike please.” Buffy moaned.

Spike lovingly stroked her. Buffy found her peak again.

“Together Spike.” Buffy cried. Spike groaned and let go.

Drucilla and Connor sat there parked outside of Spike’s brownstone. Someone walked into the car.

“Well?” Drucilla asked.

“We’re not sure but we may have something on Ainsley.” Her contact said. Drucilla smiled at Connor.

“Well now this is interesting. Perhaps little twit Dawn is good for something after all.” Drucilla said menacingly.

“What with you and the vendetta against The Giles Family.” Connor asked.

Drucilla shot a look at Connor.

“Never mind kid just do what I say. Get close to little Dawn Ainsley and leave the rest to me.”…….

Spike walked into The Ashton home.

He watched as his sister Jenny worked on her needlepoint.

Spike smiled.

Jenny feeling someone in the room looked up.

“Spike come in!” Jenny said smiling.

Spike walked over to his sister and hugged her.

“Rupert is here.” Jenny said. Spike nodded

“I know I saw his car outside.” Spike said.

“Well it must be important if you will risk running into Rupert.” Jenny teased.

“It is.” Spike said.

Spike smiled.

Only with his big sister did he feel like a child. Immediately he flashed to the moment The Feds barged into their house taking him away in handcuffs. He remembered Dawn fighting to get to him as Rupert held her back.

Jenny stood there perfect and composed trying to be strong. None of them knew his well publicized arrest was part of the game.

He did rise in the business world he had a talent for the grey areas and he knew it. he could have continued to rise without the Feds ever catching him. He would have if Rupert did not turn him in.

It seemed to Spike now that his entire life people were talking him into things. When he agreed to be recruited as an Fed spy it was because he was told that everybody in that world was evil and corrupt.

He bought it hook, line and sinker.

However the last few months with The Giles Family proved that to be wrong. The Giles family was loyal and loving.

Obviously willing to put their lives down for each other. Put their lives on the line for him. No one ever trusted him so much.

And then there was Buffy.

His beautiful perfect Buffy.

She was everything to him. He knew that if anything ever happened to him Buffy would make sure dawn would always be taken care of. She would lay down her life for Dawn because she loved him.

The knowledge that Buffy loved him seemed to give him strength. It fueled him for what he had to do next. There was very little guilt. Still when he looked at his sister his heart ached. He knew after today both Dawn and himself would be dead to her.

He knew better than to try to talk Dawn out of following him into this life. In some ways she was more in than he ever was. Dawn belonged there. And now so did he.

He cleared his throat and gulped

“Jenny you know I love you right?” Spike said.

Jenny nodded.

“Things are going to get rough on me here shortly. I don’t know if I am going to be able to see you as much or at all for that matter.” Spike said.

Jenny looked at her brother in fear.

“Spike please I’m begging you give it up. You’ll never be happy in this life you have chosen.” Jenny said.

Spike looked at his sister. How could he tell her he was the happiest he had ever been? That with Buffy he for the first time in his life didn’t feel like he was going through the motions?

Instead Spike just smiled at his sister. He stood up and kissed the top of her head. Jenny reached out to her brother.

“Please be careful Spike. Please think about the consequences of your actions. Remember Dawn idolizes you.” Jenny said.

Spike nodded her turned and saw Rupert standing in front of him. Spike stood up and began to walk out of the room.

“I was just leaving.” Spike said.

Rupert nodded and walked him to the door. Spike was about to walk out when Rupert stopped him.

“Spike, remember if you fall down so deep that you can’t find your way back. I will take you down with Giles” Rupert said.

Spike nodded as his brother in law.

“Take care of my sister.” Spike said.

Rupert stopped him again.

“Say the word Spike and I can pull you out.” Rupert said.

Spike without even a moments hesitation shook his head.

“I can handle it.” He replied.

Rupert let him go.

Spike walked away he knew now there was no turning back for him. Buffy was a part of this world and now it had to become his.

Buffy Connor, Willow Rosenberg and Anya Harris stood outside of a dressing room.

“Come on Dawn let’s see.” Willow said.

Dawn shyly came up of the dressing room wearing a black floor length sleeveless gown. The attendant grabbed a black feather fan and gave it to Dawn.

Buffy frowned.

“No it’s not enough.” Buffy circled Dawn.

“Give me that boa would you?” Buffy said motioning to Red.

Willow handed her the boa Buffy took a drag for her cigarette she moved the long holder so it didn’t burn the dress. Buffy wrapped the boa around Dawn then took a step back.

“She needs gloves'' Buffy ordered the attendant brought

Dawn a pair of gloves.

Dawn promptly put it on.

Anya nodded in agreement.

Dawn looked at herself in the mirror.

“This dress is perfect.” Dawn whispered.

Red came up behind her and said.

“That’s the beauty of tailored dresses they were made for exclusively you.” Red said.

“How much is this costing my brother?” Dawn asked.

Buffy smiled at the girl

“Money is no longer a issue for you” Anya said.

“Careful sugar that’s how they got me.”

They heard.

Buffy turned around and saw Drucilla Travers standing there.

Buffy smiled at Dawn.

“Why don’t you get dressed. Buffy looked at the attendant.

“Wrap it up” Buffy ordered the attendant nodded and scurried away.

Drucilla walked up to the three girls.

“New recruit I see.” Drucilla said.

Buffy ignored her.

“That’s Spike Ainsley’s little sister right?” Drucilla said.

Red nodded as Anya walked over to the counter.

“Her brother is absolutely delicious.” Drucilla said looking at a dress on a mannequin.

Buffy tried to control her anger.

“Her brother is now a Giles associate.” Buffy snapped.

Drucilla cocked her head back and laughed.

“Angel do you really think I would jeopardize my relationship with my husband over a tryst. I have what I wanted all along.” Drucilla said.

Buffy chuckled.

“Really I thought you settled for what you could get after Xander kick you out?” Buffy said.

Drucilla walked up to Buffy.

“Careful Angel, remember you’re not above the code anymore.” Drucilla sneered.

“Is that a threat?” Buffy asked blowing smoke into her face.

Red walked up to Buffy.

“Come on let’s get going.” She said.

Buffy pushed past Drucilla and walked out the door.

“Watch it little Angel.” Drucilla muttered.

“Accidents happen everyday.”…

Dawn walked out of the store and gasp.

“I left my sheet music at the brownstone!” Dawn said.

“Don’t worry I will have someone pick it up.” Anya said.

“Actually Dawn I have to talk over some things with your brother. Why don’t you head back to the mansion with the girls I’ll meet you there in a bit.” Buffy said trying her best to sound normal.

Dawn nodded as Anya looked at her concerned.

“See you in an hour or so?” Buffy asked

Anya sighed then nodded. Buffy smiled to herself.

About twenty minutes later Buffy walked into the brownstone and locked the door. She heard Spike on the phone. Buffy opened the door slowly. She leaned up against it until it closed then locked the door behind her.

A huge smile crept across Spike’s face.

Buffy put down her purse and her feather boa. Spike watched her.

“Yes Mr. Moretti both Angel and I will be there next week.”

Buffy unbuttoned the top of her white tailored suit. The jacket fell to the floor as Buffy stood there in a black silk camisole.

Spike mouth hung opened. He leaned back on his chair and shifted his trousers dramatically.

Buffy chuckled silently and walked slowly toward him.

Spike cocked his eyebrow and continued his conversation.

“Yes Mr. Moretti things will be getting Very interesting soon. I can’t wait to see the developments”….

Buffy slinked over to Spike’s desk. She pulled a large barrette out of her hair letting it fall around her shoulders.

Spike tried to continue to concentrate on his phone call.

“Yes Mr. Moretti I am sure it will be extremely lucrative.”

Buffy smiled unzipping her skirt it fell to the floor.

Spike sat there he was afraid he was drooling so he cleared his throat.

He looked and saw Buffy standing there in nothing but her black camisole, undergarment, black garter belt and stockings.

Spike squirmed in his seat. This time for real.

Buffy came up behind the desk and pushed his seat back.

Spike held onto the phone trying to understand what Mr. Moretti was saying. Buffy sat directly in front of him on the desk.

She rolled his chair closer to her.

At first Buffy put her heeled feet on each arm of Spike’s chair.

Spike tried not to look at her. Buffy smiled. She brought him even closer so his head almost touch her stomach. Spike tried to keep focused.

“Yes Mr. Moretti.” He said.

Buffy pushed him back slightly then took her legs off the arms of his chair.

Buffy leaned back her arms behind her back supporting her. She spread her legs wide and swung them in the air in front of Spike.

He grinned at her wickedly.

Spike gently took of one shoe and then the other. He unsnapped her garter belt and rolled down her stockings. He pulled Buffy’s camisole over her head and brushed his nose against her breast.

Buffy lovingly took his fingers and kissed them quietly.

Gently he began massaged her inner thigh.

He continued to talk to Mr. Moretti his nose nuzzling her inner thigh.

He looked up as Buffy closed her eyes. He quietly kissed the inside of her thighs and removed her undergarment.

Buffy’s breathing became more labored as she felt the heat of Spike’s mouth as he spoke to Mr. Moretti against her center.

He scooted her to the edge of the desk and spread her legs more. Buffy braced herself. Spike nuzzled his nose against her center.

Buffy let out a small whimper. He moved his tongue quietly across Buffy’s center making her shiver and him moan. He covered his moan with a cough.

“As you can see Mr. Moretti everything is right where it should be. I think everyone will be more at ease once Angel has come....” Spike said looking up at her.

Buffy cocked her eyebrow at him all within a beat.

“...up North and assured everyone that she is completely committed to this project.” he finished.

Buffy places her tiny foot in Spike’s lap and stroked his erection. Spike groaned then immediately covered it with a laugh.

“No no sir. I’m not coming down....” Buffy cocked her eyebrow at him again and looked at his lap.

“With a cold.” Spike shook his head silently telling her to not even try to.

Buffy never one to back down jump off the desk.

She knelt in between his knees and unzipped his pants.

Spike shut his eyes as Buffy hot mouth closed in around him. She let out an barely audible moaned.

Spike clutched the phone tighter.

“Um, yes sir I do have those numbers.” Spike said.

“You..You want to go over them now?” Spike asked his voice cracking a bit as Buffy continued to lick suck him with all her might.

Spike coughed again. As he felt himself coming undone.

“Let me go get those for you.” Spike said. He ruffled papers around. Silently cursing himself for being no better than some inexperienced twit because at that moment Buffy squeeze him gently and just like that.....

He pressed the phone against his chest and shut his eyes tightly. He gasped for breath as Buffy swallowed his spendings . He looked down at her in awe.

“Bloody Brilliant.” He muttered stroking her cheek lightly.

He heard Moretti’s voice.

“Yes Mr. Moretti the numbers are truly brilliant.” He said coughing again.

“No Sir again I assure you I am not catching a cold. It’s just a bit damp in my office.” Spike explained.

Buffy jumped up on the desk. She ran a finger under her bottom lip then made a show of licking it as if she was savoring the last of him.

“All right Sir. I will see you tonight.” Spike said his eyes now filled with lust.

Buffy laughed as Spike hung up the phone without a word.

Buffy saw something in Spike’s eyes just the look he had made her wet with desire.

“Full Luv?” He said his voice husky.

He held onto to Buffy’s thighs and dove into her center.

Buffy gasped and threw her head back.

“Because I am absolutely famished.” He said as he groaned

Spike ducked down again devouring her.

Buffy was not ready for such a passionate onslaught. Her body began to shake. Without a word her body went crashing against Spike’s mouth.

Spike groaned sending her spinning again.

Buffy laid completely down on Spike’s desk. Spike climbed up her.

And kissed her deeply.

“We are never going to his this desk for it’s purpose if you keep doing this.” Spike whispered his hand manipulating her center.

Buffy looked at Spike in a daze

“We could always stop.” She teased.

Looked at her like she had grown a second head. He kicked his pants off and sank into Buffy both of them moaning in pleasure.

“Never mind I must have lost sanity for a moment.” Buffy muttered.

“No but you will now.” Spike said slamming into her.

They both shuttered for a moment.

“God Buffy you have no idea how sexy you are. What the site of your body does to me. How good you feel. You make me feel alive.” Spike whispered.

“I had to see you I couldn’t stay away.” Buffy confessed.

Buffy kissed him hard increasing her pace it wasn’t before long they both found their climax and collapsed on the desk.

Spike laid behind Buffy gently playing with her hair.

“You’re evil.” She whispered.

“And that excites you.” Spike said matter of factly.

“It excites me, it terrifies me ... I try so hard to resist you and I can't.” Buffy sighed resigning herself to that fact that she was Spike Ainsley’s own private sex slave.

“Yeah?” He said smiling and kissing her shoulder.

“Darn your Sinister Attraction.” Buffy said in a pouty voice.

Spike laughed then turned her around. .

He kissed her softly on the lips and looked deep into her eyes.

“Are you mine Buffy?” He asked in almost a child like voice.

Buffy smiled sweetly.

“Until the end of the world.” She whispered.

Spike’s eyes lit up. Buffy stroked his cheek and kissed him deeply.

Spike sighed and laid on her chest.

“Weren’t you suppose to go to the tailor’s with Lil Bit?” Spike asked.

Buffy lovingly stroked his head.

“I just came from there. I am suppose to pick up Dawnie’s sheet music and bring it back to the house with me. Also I had a few things we had to go over.” Buffy said chuckling.

“I think we went over a lot of things don’t you.” He laughed.

Spike could not get over how unbelievably happy he was. He could die right at that moment and feel completely at ease. In fact if he was called to the here after at this moment he would be completely satisfied.

“So, Luv how does my Lil Bit look in her first completely tailor made dress.” Spike asked.

“Beautiful, she was so happy. It would have been perfect except an unwanted patron happen to get there as we were finishing up.” Buffy explained.

“Really and who was that. A Prohibition Activist?” Spike teased.

“No, an old friend now worst enemy. Drucilla Travers.” Buffy replied.

Buffy felt Spike go stiff for a moment. His head snapped up.

“She did not get anywhere near my sister did she?” Spike asked.

Buffy shook her head.

“No I sent her away.” Buffy said quietly.

Spike sat up and pulled out a cigarette.

“Spike how do you know Dru?” Buffy asked.

Spike exhaled and looked down.

“It’s ancient history Luv.” Spike said quietly.

“Tell me I want to know.” Buffy said sitting up.

Spike took a deep breath and looked at Buffy.

“All right, well it started one late night in England...”

Spike leaned up against his desk and killed his cigarette.

Buffy could sense the subject was a sensitive one. And one Spike was not entirely comfortable talking about. Buffy turned around she rested back against Spike. Spike wrapped his arms around her and inhaled the scent of her hair.

“Go on Spike.” She urged.

“Before we came to the states my Ma and Da had a maid named Glory. In England we called people like her ‘unfortunates’. Ma and Da took her in when she was pregnant with Dru. When they decided to leave England. Glory begged us to take Dru with us. Of course Ma and Da refused so one night Glory disappeared. They found her body in the river. We think she might have done herself in to force my parents to take Dru with us.” Spike explained.

Buffy closed her eyes. She felt Spike shake behind her. Lovingly she caressed Spike’s arm.

“Is that how she ended up in Chicago?” Buffy asked.

“Yeah, my Ma and Da took her with us. Dru was always a bit off. She got upset when Ma and Da adopted Riley. They were going to adopt her as well then she went off the bend when Dawnie was born. Ma found her standing over Dawnie’s crib one night. She was holding a pillow...” Spike whispered.

“On William I’m so sorry.” Buffy whispered.

“We sent her away after that. Ma and Da did not trust her around the Lil Bit. Neither did I. Maybe that’s why I am so protective of her now. But I couldn’t forget about Dru. I don’t know I always felt guilty. I kept my eye on her helped her when I could. Then…we got involved.” Spike said holding Buffy tighter afraid that she may pull away.

“Were you in love with her?” Buffy asked her voice really small.

Spike sighed and kissed her shoulder.

“I thought I was. I thought she was beautiful and mysterious.Tortured. Made me want to take care of her. She had the most amazing voice. I was sure she was going to make it big.” Spike explained.

Buffy had to agree. There was something about Drucilla’s voice it seemed to put people into a thrall.

“What happened to change your mind?” Buffy asked.

“I was renting a room for her. Helping her get on her feet. One night I came by to check in on her. I found her there with Riley. Found out she had been seeing him the whole time too. She was working both of us. She tried to tell me she loved me but I didn’t buy it. Unfortunately Riley did. Thus starting our bad blood.” Spike said.

Buffy snuggled closer to him.

“So anyways, I wrote her off. She kept telling Riley I was a no good thug. He bought it of course. Joined the Academy. Dru dumped him when she realized he his salary couldn't even pay for one of the meals she was used to. Me, on the other hand was a different story. Found out I had gotten into some business dealings started to try to win me back. By that time Ma and Da were gone Jenny had just married Rupert and Dawnie was so young. Jenny and Rupert did the best they could but The Bit was so attached to me. Never listened to them so I started to take care of her. Drucilla couldn’t deal with the fact that Dawnie came first with me. She became crazed. Followed me around. One day I found her in the park with Dawnie. She had this look in her eyes. I freaked out threatened her. Told her I would make sure she ended up like her Mum if I found her near The Bit again. She told me I would pay, been waiting for her to make good on that threat.” Spike said ashamed.

“How do you know she is not the one that ratted you out?” Buffy asked.

Spike closed his eyes. He knew it was not Dru, but he was too scared to tell Buffy why he did.

“I know it was Riley and Rupert some twisted tough love thing. What killed me was worrying about Dawn when I was away.” Spike explained

“How old was Dawnie?” Buffy asked.

“She was still really young. Dawn does not even remember Dru and I want to keep it that way.” Spike explained.

“Don’t feel bad William about what you said to her. I have seen you with your sister I could not imagine how scared you must have been when you found them together.” Buffy said trying to comfort him.

“How did you know Dru?” Spike asked.

“I met Dru a few years back. She was a singer at The No Name. Kind of latched onto me. I liked her. Like you said there was something about her that made you want to take care of her.” Buffy explained.

“She never said anything about us?” Spike asked.

Buffy shook her head.

“No, she never said anything about you or your family. Just said she said it rough I thought she was my best friend. I introduced her to Xander. She swore she loved him.” Buffy said.

Spike chuckled bitterly.

“She seems to do that a lot.” Spike said.

“She betrayed the family.” Buffy said.

“When I was in the joint heard about the mess. Heard she married Travers.” Spike said.

“How did you feel?” Buffy asked.

“Honestly? Really relieved. Drucilla was always hungry for the finer things in life. I was glad she finally got them. Maybe it would give her some peace.” Spike said.

Buffy sank herself deeper into Spike’s chest.

“No just more greedy and cruel. She never forgave me for telling Xander to let Legs take over for her that night. She told Xander she and I were going out of town asked me to cover for her. I couldn’t I knew she was going to Travers. I could not lie to Wesley.” Buffy explained.

Spike closed his eyes tightly. A part of him wanted to tell her his secret. Loyalty was so essential to her. For as real as his feelings were he knew it was time to come clean.

“Buffy, I was wondering if after the Masquerade Ball you can meet me there are some things I want to tell you. Some things I need to tell you.” Spike whispered.

Buffy turned around and looked at him.

“What is it William?” She asked gently.

“Later Luv. Please? Just let me hold you for awhile?” Spike whispered.

Buffy closed her eyes abiding his wishes.

Connor Abrams stood outside of the Harris mansion. He looked up and saw
Dawn getting dressed. He hid when he saw Red.

Inside the house Dawn looked at Red.

“Are you and Connor Abrams involved?” Dawn asked.

Willow shrugged her shoulders.

“I don’t know if that’s what you would call it. Involved we enjoy each other’s company every once and a while why?” Red asked.

Dawn just shook her head.

“You have a thing for him do you?” Willow asked teasing her.

“Even if I did nothing could ever happen.” Dawn said. Willow smiled.

“Well it’s masquerade ball” Willow said watching Dawn get ready.

“Tonight, anything could happen.”… .

Connor walked around the side he looked in a small wooden box on the side of the house. Connor smiled Willow came through for him. In the box was a small black mask and an invitation to the ball. Connor smiled running away from the mansion.

Tonight he would show Dawn how he really felt.

Anya the final touches on the table.

Xander came up behind her and hugged her tightly.

"Tonight is going to be perfect” she said.

Meanwhile down town Tony Merrick gathered his men together one way or another he was pulling Buffy out of that place...

Tonight.....whether she liked it or not.

Riley watched his wife sleep as he loaded his gun. His hand began to shake. Money is money he thought. And finally it would be free of Drucilla. It was one bullet and then it was over.

After tonight....he wouldn’t have to worry about it ever again.

Drucilla Travers put on a bit of perfume then slipped into her dress. She picked up her mask and smiled.

Tonight...she would get her revenge.

Spike and Buffy laid on the floor of Spike’s study.

“So tonight after the ball?” Spike asked softly.

He closed his eyes for the first time in his life truly afraid.

Tonight, Spike laid his life in Buffy’s hands.

Buffy nodded

“Yeah, William I love you and I will love you forever whatever it is” She said kissing him deeply.

Spike held her tightly. If only he could know that for sure...

“I love a good party” Buffy said trying to lighten Spike’s mood.

“I can’t wait for tonight.”….

Spike and Dawn arrived at the ball. Everyone was masked. Dawn looked at her brother. Spike chuckled

''For the last time Lil Bit, you look like a million bucks.'' Spike said.

Dawn laughed. ''I am sorry I just want to make a good impression Spike. This is your business now.'' Dawn said.

Spike tried to not let her statement bug him. He tried not to think of the fact that he would probably lose Buffy and maybe even his life tonight.

He looked and saw Oz escorting a masked women. Spike could tell by her eyes it was Buffy. She looked beautiful in her white velvet dress that clung to her body. The diamond chocker around her neck just made her face shine and her elaborate feather mask just added to her unique look.

Dawn sighed.

''I swear I took longer to get ready then she did and she still looks better than I do.'' Dawn said.

Spike smiled at his sister. Buffy looked amazing he did not want to stand and gawked at her at the same time he did not want to add to his sister’s insecurity.

“Not better Bit, just as beautiful but different.” Spike said patting her hand. Dawn smiled up at her brother.

Spike laughed ''Come on little sister let's start moving around. You have a song to sing.''

Spike talked to Xander and Anya. He said hi to Red who was dress in a simple silk black dress and a mask. He noticed the way she eyed Oz. Spike watched the way her eyes followed him everywhere he went.

Anya watched the way Spike eyed Angel. She nervously looked at Wesley. To her relief he didn't seem to notice. Angel walked up to the group.

''Now, now we are supposed to be having fun tonight. I think I will start the evening off by asking our newest business associate to dance.'' Buffy said looking at Wesley.

''Excellent idea Angel.'' He said smiling. Buffy took Spike's hand. Buffy lead him to the dance floor.

''Well, that was brilliant.'' Spike said his eyes twinkling.

Dawn took the stage. She was a bit nervous but she decided to sing one of her brother’s favorite songs.

“More than you know
More than you know
Man of my heart, I love you so
Lately I've found you on my mind
More than you know”

Spike chuckled.

Buffy smiled “What’s so funny?” Buffy asked.

“The Bit’s singing this song for me she knows it’s one of my favorites.” Spike explained.

“Mine too.” Buffy said.

Buffy began to manuver her and Spike off the dance floor and unto the terrace. Spike looked around and saw they were alone. In the back ground they heard Dawn’s voice singing sweetly.

“Whether you're right
Whether you're wrong
Man of my heart, I'll string along
I need you so
More than you'll ever know”

Buffy took off her mask and looked into Spike’s eyes intently. Silently conveying the sentiment of the song.

“Loving you the way that I do
There's nothing I can do about it
Loving may be all you can give
But darling, I can't live without it”

Spike tried not to tremble. He saw the love in Buffy’s eyes and felt her heart pound against his chest. At that moment he thought his own would burst.

“God I love you Buffy.” He whispered closing his eyes resting on the top of her head.

“I love you too William.” Buffy whispered. She looked into his eyes again.

“Oh, how I'd cry
How I'd sigh
If you got tired and said goodbye
More than I show
More than you'll ever know...”

Spike placed the mask back on her face. They walked back in trying to look as casual as possible. Spike beamed clapping for his sister. Dawn smiled very pleased with herself.

In the corner Wesley and Xander watched the Angel and Spike.

''Do you think he thinks we know?'' Xander asked.

Wesley looked at Xander

''It doesn't matter. Mr. Ainsley may have been with the FBI but like I said I saw the glimmer in his eyes the second we met him. He can be easily turned. From the way things look Angel has him wrapped around her little finger.'' Wesley said.

''I told you I would only allow this if Angel was not compromised.'' Xander said.

Wesley nodded

''And she won't be. I told her this thing would get complicated with Ainsley and that there were going to be things I would have to do that would be of the utmost secrecy. If Angel has indeed fallen for Mr. Ainsley. She out of everyone else in this room will be most happy.'' Wesley said.

''And if we can't turn him?'' Xander said.

Wesley looked at Xander. Wesley’s face turned cold.

''Then do you honestly think Angel would want to be with someone who betrayed her family?'' Wesley asked.

Xander shook his head.

''No Angel would probably pull the trigger herself.''

Dawn watched her brother and Angel concerned. She knew her brother was completely in love with the girl. She decided to go over there and talked to him.

Suddenly a masked person came up to her.

''May I have this dance?'' He asked.

Dawn looked at him carefully. His British accent seemed off.

“Miss, did you hear me?” He asked.

Dawn suddenly snapped out of it. She thought of refusing him but what if he was a someone important. Her brother’s business with the Giles Family was too important to them.

“I’m sorry. Of course I will.” Dawn said.

''Well why are you without a date?'' The masked man asked.

''It's a bit complicated.'' Dawn whispered.

''Come on Gorgeous how complicated can it be?'' The man said his voice suddenly changing.

Dawn gasped.

''Shh... You'll blow my cover'' He whispered.

''Connor, you'll get yourself killed.'' Dawn whispered.

''Hey a dance with you is worth it.'' He said.

Dawn’s heart pounded out of control. She was afraid for Connor but at the same time it thrilled her to know end that he would risk so much for her.

“Come on Gorgeous, one dance.” Connor urged.

“Than after that will you leave?” Dawn pleaded.

“Maybe let’s talk after the dance.” Connor said.

Spike walked around talking to different associates as Buffy was lead around on the arm of Oz. Spike tried not to let his jealousy and fear consume him.

Spike watched as Buffy excused herself. She walked up the stairs and disappeared into one of the rooms.

About 20 minutes later Buffy reemerged she leaned against the wall. Spike started to walk up to her. He stopped when he saw Oz approach. Before Oz could do anything Buffy grabbed him and pulled him into a deep kiss.

Spike gasped not wanting to believe what he saw. He started to walk up to the passionate couple when he felt someone pull at him. Suddenly Spike found himself in a secret room.

He looked down and saw Willow. She had pulled him into the room.

''Hey Red, I.....''

Before he knew it Willow had pulled him into a kiss. Spike resisted at first.

“Um Red, look you’re a real swell gal.” Spike said holding her at her shoulders.

He heard a familiar giggle. Then Willow pulled off her mask revealing herself to him. Spike looked down at her shocked. Kissing him was not Willow but Buffy.

Buffy laughed and looked at him.

''You look like you are going to have a heart attack.'' Buffy whispered.

“Good Lord you crazy Bint! When I saw you...er..whoever kissing Oz I felt like my heart was being gutted out with a bloody spoon!” Spike said.

“Hmm, not a very good image. How about this one instead” Buffy said kissing him deeply.

''I like that one. Wait a tick Luv, who's kissing Oz?'' Spike asked.

''Think about it silly.''

Oz pulled away.

He never felt anything so passionate before. He craved more.

''Angel I..'' Oz said.

“I'm not Angel.'' a familiar voice said.

She pulled at her mask. Oz looked shocked. ''WILLOW!!'' He said.

All of a sudden it looked like a thousand cops stormed Xander's mansion.

''It's a raid!!'' someone yelled.

Riley ran around the corner he saw ''Buffy'' standing there with Oz.

Riley closed his eyes. It’s only one shot. Riley signaled for Marcus Gunn to fire a few warning shots in the air. After the second shot Riley turned the corner and took aim.

Suddenly Oz screamed ''NO!!!''

He looked down and saw Willow on the ground. He cradled her in his arms.

''FATHER!!!'' He screamed.

Wesley and Xander ran up to Oz. The three men picked up the limp girl and ran upstairs.

''Get Dr. Allistair up here now!!!'' Wesley yelled.

Oz, Xander, Legs and Wesley got to the second landing. Legs began to cry.

''Please tell me Angel isn't dead.'' Legs pleaded.

Oz shook his head. He took off the mask and revealed it to be Willow.

''Willow what happened??'' Xander asked.

''Why are you wearing Angel's costume?'' he asked.

''It doesn't matter! Help her she's bleeding!!'' Oz cried.

Dr. Allistair started to work on her. Xander looked at Wesley

''Where's Angel then?'' Wesley gulped hard he looked at Johnny.

“Tear this city apart and bring her safely home now!!'' Wesley yelled. Johnny ran out of the room with Skinny.

''Come on we better find her or else our life ain't going me worth
nothing''......

Connor watched the whole scene unfold. He looked and saw a masked Drucilla Travers smiling.

''Go find your brother and sister.'' Drucilla whispered to Riley who was busy trying to hide the gun.

“I don't think they saw one shot Angel.'' Riley said in a daze. Drucilla shook him ''Did you here me find Spike and that brat sister of yours! Were not through here!'' Drucilla yelled.

Connor grabbed Dawn's hand. ''Come on I have got to get you out of here.'' Connor whispered. '

'My brother'' Dawn cried.

''We'll met up with him later. Come on!!'' He said. With that Dawn grabbed his hand and ran out the door.

Spike peeked through the small whole.

“What’s going on is it my Uncle again?” Buffy whispered.

Spike could not make out the shooter. All he saw was Willow fall to the ground.

''Someone just shot Willow.'' Spike whispered.

Buffy gasped trying to get out to her.

''Buffy no!! Whoever shot her was aiming for you. We need to get out of here now!'' Spike said.

“But Willow.” Buffy cried.

“They are taking care of her Luv. You know Wesley would demand that you go.” Spike reasoned

Buffy sighed and nodded. ''All right follow me I know a way out.''.....

Dawn woke up to find herself resting on Connor's shoulder. She looked out the dirty window of the rickety pick up truck Connor obtained back in Chicago and saw a small sign that read: Paris Illinois.

Dawn looked at Connor confused.

''Why Paris, Illinois?'' Dawn asked.

Connor shrugged his shoulders.

''Why not? No one will be looking for us here.'' Connor said.

Dawn nodded.

''True, what about my brother?'' Dawn asked.

''Look, from what I read this morning nothing's happened over there. It's best we lay low for a bit until I can get word to Oz.'' Connor explained.

Dawn sighed and nodded again.

''So until then what are our names?'' Connor asked.

''My name is Sally yours is Ted. We just got married our last name is Miller and we are on our way to Ohio to take over a farm for my Uncle.'' Dawn said.

Connor smiled.

''Good.''

Dawn looked at Connor he was wearing some old jeans and a flannel shirt. Dawn was dress in a plain dress and a sweater.

Dawn laughed.

Connor looked at her.

''What?'' He asked.

''No don't get me wrong I'm really grateful you’re helping me but if my brother and your father could see us now. Well let's just say it's a far cry from your tailored suits and my flapper fashion.'' Dawn giggled.

Connor laughed.

''Yeah, but you know what I kind of like this look. And I wouldn't mind if I never saw Chicago again.'' Connor said quietly.

''I would. I love Chicago and my brother is there.'' Dawn said getting a far off look in her eyes.

''Don't worry Gorgeous we will get you home soon.'' Connor said.

Connor turned into a dirt driveway.

''I saw a sign back there. Maybe it's a place to stay.'' Connor said.

They got up to the house and saw a hand painted sign that read Hattie's boarding house. They got out of the car and walked over to the door. Connor knocked on it. A old petite lady answered the door.

''Hello, dears may I help you?'' She asked.

''My name is Ted Miller and this is my wife Sally. We were wondering if you had a room for rent?'' Connor asked.

The women looked at them suspiciously.

''Where are your rings?'' She asked.

Connor tried to look cool but he shifted uncomfortably.

Dawn piped in.

''Well see we couldn't afford a our wedding bands and Teddy and I had to sell my engagement ring for the truck to get us to Ohio. My Uncle is going to let us work the farm so eventually one day we can buy it.'' Dawn said sounding as real as possible.

Dawn grabbed Connor's hand and looked at him lovingly.

''Teddy promised once we get things in order he would buy me a better ring. I told him it don't matter as long as we have each other.'' Dawn said.

Connor impressed with her performance bent down and kissed her hand gently. They looked at the old women who look like she was about to cry.

''That's too bad. Of course you can stay here. I'll tell you what you two help me around this place and I'll cut the rent in half. How long are you planning on staying?'' She asked.

Dawn spoke up again and said.

''A couple of weeks maybe Uncle Jeb said he needs to get a few things in order and we couldn't afford to stay in Indianapolis anymore. We were going to just sleep in our truck..''

''Nonsense, you'll stay here until he's ready for you two. I'm Hattie.'' She said ''Let's get you two settled.'' She announced.

She walked ahead.

''Jeb?'' Connor said.

''I don't know it sounded good.'' Dawn muttered ''What are you complaining about it work.'' Connor put his arm around her shoulder

''Yes Gorgeous it sure did.''

Wesley sat in his study. Xander entered the room.

''Any news at all?'' Wesley asked. Xander shook his head.

''It's as if they disappeared. Either Ainsley is really good at hiding himself or he turned her over to the Feds.'' Xander said.

Wesley looked at Xander trying to retain his anger.

''For Mr. Ainsley's sake he better be hiding her. In either case Angel needs to be home. There's no telling what the people up north will do if they find out she's gone. Or what The Travers family will do if they find her first. I want Angel home as of yesterday.'' Wesley stated firmly.

''Understood. How's Willow?'' Xander asked.

''She is resting comfortably. Oz won't leave her side.'' Wesley said.

Xander nodded.

''It's understandable they are very close. Legs keeps asking about her and Buffy when do you think Winifred and Legs can come home?'' Xander asked.

Wesley looked into the fire that was burning in his office.

''As soon as we send Mr. Travers a little message to let him know. His wife can not hurt one of our own without suffering the largest of consequences.''

Tony Merrick sat in his living room his wife Lilah walked in.

''Sweetheart you can't keep doing this. Buffy made her choice a long time ago.'' Lilah said. Tony shook his head.

''I can not leave her in that life. Hank and Joyce didn't want that for her. That's why they were trying to get out.'' Tony said.

''She knows all this Tony yet she stays. You’re risking too much to try to save her.'' Lilah argued.

''Nothing is too much to try to save my niece.'' Tony countered. Lilah put down the coffee cup next to Tony and walked out the door muttering

''Maybe you should ask yourself if she wants to get saved.''

Tony looked at the only picture he had of Buffy and him together. She was eight years old. Tony still remembered her little voice saying she loved him. Suddenly he flashed to her screaming at him telling him he was dead to her. Tony wiped away his tears. He didn't know it was Liam it the car he thought it was Wesley. His mind played a horrible trick on him that night. He thought if he could eliminate Wesley somehow it would break the hold that family had on his niece without even thinking Tony pulled the trigger it wasn't until ten minutes later that he was able to go to the car and see the person he had shot was Liam. Tony clutched the picture of him and Buffy.

''I'll find you before they do. I swear I will.''

A few days later Buffy and Spike enter a hotel room. Buffy looked exhausted. Spike looked down to the floor.

''I'm sorry I should have stopped and let you rest. It was a very long trip.'' Spike whispered. Buffy walked up to him and kissed him deeply.

''Don't you dare apologize. Your trying to keep me safe and I thank you for it.'' Buffy said.

''I am just worried about Willow and the family.'' Buffy said. She opened the door to the balcony and walked out.

Spike came up behind her.

''This family really does mean everything to you doesn't it?'' Spike asked.

Buffy looked at him.

''They have been here for me as long as I could remember. When my parents betrayed them they could have Very easily eliminated me but Wesley chose to keep me safe and defy the code for me. I would not be who I am today if it wasn't for The Giles Family. I would die to protect them and kill whoever would try to harm them.'' Buffy stated.

Spike looked at her trying to find the words to let her know what was going on. But also to let her know he would gladly follow her into this lifestyle if it meant he could be with her.

Spike hugged her from behind.

''Where did you come up with those names?'' Spike asked.

Buffy laughed.

''What you mean Randolph and Joan Monroe? It just sounded nice.'' Buffy said.

''The problem is people around here think I am some sort of British royalty in hiding.'' Spike said.

''Should I call you Your Grace or perhaps Randy?'' Buffy said.

Spike laughed then picked her up and put her on the bed.

“Call me anything you like Luv.” Spike whispered. Buffy kissed him trying to conceal the yawn that escaped.

''You need some sleep Mrs. Monroe.'' Spike said.

''You too, Mr. Monroe.'' Buffy said unbuttoning his shirt.

''If I didn't know you were so exhausted I would try to keep you up but it will just have to wait until we wake up.'' Spike said kissing her.

''Yes, then we will have to explore this little town you took me to. What's the name of it again?'' Buffy asked.

''Not sure'' Spike said.

Spike looked at the hotel brochure and said.

''Here it is Sunnydale, Sunnydale New York.''..

Later that night Spike sat on the edge of the bed.

So many things raced through his mind. As Buffy instructed he sent a telegram to Wesley’s Cigar shop; one of his legitimate businesses. The telegram announced the birth of a child of some old friend. The friend’s name a code name Buffy knew to use. It was a way for Wesley to know she was all right and that they were here awaiting orders from him.

He worried about Dawnie. It was strange to him. He knew she would be safe. Wesley would make sure of that. Although he loved Jenny and Rupert he always feared leaving Dawn with them. He knew The Bit too well she would sneak out and get into trouble. With The Giles Family she was watched and cared for constantly. He knew he had to have that talk with Buffy. But he also knew she had her own concerns.

Spike heard the door open. He turned and saw Buffy standing there in a blue silk robe.

“Mr. Monroe I need your assistance.” Buffy said teasing him.

Spike smiled he stood up and tightened the robe covering his own body.

“By all means my Love. I am at your disposal.” He replied.

Buffy waited for him to approach. Once he got within a step of her she began to take a few steps back. She moved to the side and allowed Spike into the bathroom.

Spike looked around a bit taken back. The room was illuminated with candles. The large elegant claw foot bathtub was filled with bubbles.

They locked eyes with each other as Buffy slowly pulled the belt of her robe open and let it fall to the ground.

Spike took a labored breath watching her in the candle light.

“I reiterate my previous observation. You can not be real nothing should be this Bloody Gorgeous.” Spike said walking toward her slowly.

Buffy put her hand out.

“Now Mr. Monroe I believe you offered your services.” Buffy said in a very business like voice.

Spike bowed slightly.

“Of course My Luv. Tell me how I can service you.” Spike said.

Buffy cocked her eyebrow then let a playful smile creep across her face. She walked over to the bathtub and sank into the bubbles.

“I need a hand with my back.” She said staring at him with lustful eyes.

Spike dropped his robe and walked toward the tub. Buffy scooted forward allowing him to get in behind her. She laid against his chest, Spike’s arms encircled her. He kissed the back of her shoulder gently. Spike took a deep breath finding the courage to tell her his secret.

“Buffy remember when I said...”

“Buffy?” She said in a questioning tone.

“Last time I checked Luv that was your name.” Spike replied.

“I beg your pardon. My name is Joan. Joan Monroe.” Buffy said perfectly indignant.

Spike laughed.

“And you my husband are Randolph. Or Randy as I like to call you. There is no Buffy here. Have you been drinking the devil’s drink Mr. Monroe?” Buffy asked.

Spike smiled.

“No Bu...I mean Joan.” Spike replied.

Buffy pressed her back against him and nuzzled her head under his shoulder.

“We will have no talk of any Buffys or others tonight. Tonight is about us. Joan and Randolph.” Buffy whispered.

Spike finally realized what Buffy wanted. She wanted to get away from everything just for a little while. Pretend they were other people. Pretend they were just a normal married couple. His secret weighed on him but it was more important to give Buffy what she wanted tonight. He choked back the lump in his throat that he was the one she chose to share this with. With him she was vulnerable and he treasured that.

“Of course Joan anything my wife wants.” Spike whispered.

“Wife.” Buffy whispered.

For a moment they were still eyes closed reveling in the feeling of being no one and nothing just each others.

Buffy let out a soft purr. Spike felt a stiffens between his legs at the sound she omitted.

“I believe you required some assistance with your back?” Spike said.

Buffy nodded.

Slowly Spike began to massage her back the bubbles slid down her shoulders and onto her breast. Buffy closed her eyes and sagged forward allowing Spike to manipulate her muscles. He moved his hands to her shoulders and continued his loving treatment. Then gently he pulled her toward him. He put his hand on her arms then slid them around her finding the swells of her breast.

Buffy let out a small whimper her eyes still closed. Her head went to the side allowing Spike to kiss her neck lightly. Buffy rolled her head back a bit as Spike found her hard nipples and began to tweak at them making small circles with his fingers.

Spike touched ignited a fire in her. She began to open her eyes.

“No keep them closed this time. Just feel what I am doing to you.” Spike whispered.

Buffy gulped and nodded.

“You like it when I touch you?” Spike said.

Buffy nodded not being able to form words. The delicious sensation of Spike’s hand were overtaking everything else.

Spike licked her ear.

She whimpered again.

“I like feeling you so this works out nicely then.” He said.

One of Spike hands snaked itself around her waist. He pulled her closer causing the water to swish and splash out of the tub.

Buffy crushed herself against him nearly jumping at the feeling of his erection against her back. She tried to reach behind him only to be stopped by Spike’s hands. Spike bent his knees and placed Buffy’s hands on them.

“Now Luv what did I say? Just feel.” He said kissing her cheek.

Buffy nodded again her eyes still closed. He felt Spike’s hand go lower and lower. Finally after what seemed like an eternity his thumb flick across her clit.

Buffy let out a small hiss and jerk forward doing everything in her power not to let go right there and then. Spike’s other hand pulled her back to him. Buffy grasped at his knees and he continued to toy with her nub. Spike used his chin to pull Buffy’s head to him. He looked at her. Eyes closed, biting on her bottom lip moaning and jerking in his arms.

“You see how your body knows me. It’s always known for the moment I first touched you hasn’t it Luv?” Spike asked.

Buffy nodded vigorously. Spike sunk a finger in her quim Buffy jerked again letting out a cry.

Spike continued to hush her kissing her face. Helping her calm the fire inside.

“Don’t worry Pet I have you.” He whispered.

Spike slipped another finger inside her. Buffy screamed out in pleasure. She felt as if she was going to crawl right out of her skin. Her hips moved in time with Spike’s fingers. She felt Spike’s fingers lovingly stroking her inside. For a moment it seemed as if he was searching for something.

Spike stilled his finger she felt him smile against her neck.

“Remember what I said hold on Luv.” He warned.

Spike found the spongy part inside of her and pressed gently up on it.

Buffy gasped opening her eyes for a moment. She let go of Spike’s knees and held onto the sides of the tub. Her brain was in shock while her body convulsed. She reached behind and wrapped her arms around Spike’s neck.

“Oh!” She cried as Spike continued to press on that spot that was driving her body into a frenzy. She gasped and moaned.

“There it is Luv. Let me hear what I do to you.” Spike whispered.

Buffy head thrashed for side to side. She began to let out a shattering cry as her body surrendered to him but Spike’s mouth devoured hers. Spike tongue comforted her cry lapping her mouth stilling her body. Tears of pleasure fell down Buffy eyes as the final jerks of her body stilled.

Spike kissed both of her eye lids then unwrapped his arms around her. He rose for the tub leaving Buffy there limp. Quickly he dried himself off than reached for a huge towel. He lifted Buffy up from the tub, wrapped her in the huge towel and carried her to the bed.

Spike laid her on the bed then went back into the bathroom and blew out the candle. He walked back to see Buffy looking at him her eyes filled with awe and love. Spike grabbed another towel and began to dry her off further. He dried her arms then her torso. He kissed her lightly on her lips then dried her legs. The smell of her drove Spike crazy. Her natural scent mixed with the scented bubbles filled his nostrils. He had to taste her.

Spike positioned himself between he legs and spread them slowly. He parted her and licked her slowly sending Buffy whimpered once again. He latched onto her clit again working it gently silently pleading for it to release her sweetness. It did not take long at all. Within a few gasps Spike was rewarded with his desire. Buffy cried and bucked under his mouth then stilled again.

Spike crawled up her and entered her slowly. Buffy held him close to her not wanting any part of her body away from his. More tears fell down her face.

“I love you so much.” She whispered looking into his eyes.

Spike kissed her his own tears now falling. He wanted to draw this out. Feel every part of her. Etch every moment of this into his memory. So when it was over he could remember every whisper every moan. Every “I Love you” that he feared he would never be granted again.

“I love you. You are my world.” He cried.

They found their release. This time it was sweet and slow. Spike covered her wet face in kisses. He laid his head on her stomach and held her close. Buffy played with his hair this time comforting him.

“God, I will love you forever. “ Spike whispered.

Buffy sat on the beach watching the waves crash into the sand. She heard footsteps behind her. Suddenly someone cover here with a thick blanket. Buffy looked up and smiled.

“Hey.” Spike looked at the girl he loved.

Everyone else saw her as Angel this invisible, strong determined woman. Which she was but there was a side to Buffy he knew he could only see. The girl who longed for safety and love. She needed to be protected and he knew it.

“This reminds me of when I was a child and I was growing up in Italy. My parents use to take me to the sea. “ Buffy said quietly.

Spike looked at her.

“You never talk about your parents.” Spike observed.

“A part of me is still so angry with them. I can not believe they would betray the family the way they did.” Buffy said.

“Maybe they were trying to give you a better life.” Spike said shrugging his shoulders.

“A better life?? Even if they had lived we would have spent our lives running. Using different names. Did they think they would get away? They did not think about me. These people are my family. They have loved me and protected me my entire life. After my parents betrayed them. They stood by me. I owe them everything.” Buffy said firmly.

Spike nodded. He saw the conviction in her eyes. At that moment Spike knew Buffy was in for life. It was part of who she was. Spike also knew in order to be with her he would have to be a part of her world. Spike stood up. He saw someone walking toward them.

“Someone is coming.” Spike said. Buffy looked up and immediately smiled. Buffy and Spike walked toward the person. Buffy threw her arms around him.

“Xander, you found us.” Buffy said smiling.

Xander looked at Spike.

“Of course. No where is beyond our reach.” Xander said staring at Spike.

“Have you come to take us home?” Buffy asked. Xander shook his head.

“Not just yet. Our people in Canada are a bit skittish after what happened at the masquerade ball they need some reassurance.” Xander explained.

Buffy nodded getting a pensive look on her face.

“That makes sense. Who are you sending with me?” Buffy asked. Xander looked at Spike.

“I was thinking of sending Ainsley.” Xander said looking at Spike.

Buffy looked at Spike then back at Xander.

“No, I think you should go with me.” Buffy argued.

Xander looked at Buffy confused.

“Why? Ainsley really impressed our people up North. He could handle it.” Xander said.

“I said NO!” Buffy said empathically. “If I have to go to Wesley I will.” Buffy said.

“I want to go.” Spike argued.

“I said NO, I don’t want you too!” Buffy yelled. “This is not up for debate. He goes back to home with you. I’ll go by myself or take Smalls. “ Buffy said.

She walked away from the two men. Xander looked down then bore his eyes into Spike.

“Why doesn’t she want me to go?” Spike asked. Xander looked at him soberly.

“Ask her. Let me give you some advice Ainsley. Playtime is over. If you’re not planning to stay this is your perfect opportunity to leave.” Xander said.

With that Xander walked away.

Spike walked into the room. She watched Spike for a moment then went back to applying her lipstick.

“Why don’t you want me there?” Spike asked.

“None of your business.” Buffy snapped.

Spike sat on the bed thinking for a moment. Canada, what was so important about the people in Canada? Suddenly it dawned on Spike. That’s how the Giles brought things into the states. The associates in Canada must be the connection between the Giles and the rest of the world including the family in Italy. Was it because Buffy didn’t trust him? He watched her for a moment. Finally realizing what was going on.

“You’re trying to give me the out. You’re trying to protect me.” Spike said quietly.

Buffy slammed down her brush.

“What did you think I am trying to do?” Buffy asked.

“You meet our people in Canada your never out! That’s it. You’re in for life and if you change your mind you’re dead. Don’t you get it? You and Dawn would be in for life. You could never get out again. Your life would not be your own.” Buffy said holding back the tears in her eyes.

“You are my life Buffy.” Spike said quietly.

“I am going to marry Oz.” Buffy said.

“What?” Spike said his eyes wide in shock.

“But you can’t. You love me.” Spike said.

“It doesn’t matter. You are going back home. You are going to finish your business dealings with Wesley and you and Dawn will leave the family.” Buffy said.

“No I won’t” Spike said.

“You don’t get it do you? We are finished. When I get back to Chicago Oz and I are going to be married.” Buffy stated firmly.

“Good bye Spike.” Buffy said looking down.

Spike fought the tears in his eyes.

“I love you Buffy. I know you love me too.” Spike said. Buffy nodded.

“Don’t you see Spike? That’s why I am doing this. It’s because I love you. I won’t watch you throw away everything you have on me.” Buffy cried.

Buffy took a deep breath.

“We know Spike.” Buffy said soberly.

“We know all about you and your family. We know Dawn has no clue what you are doing. It was a set up Spike. I set you up. You were supposed to fall. You were supposed to become one of us. I was suppose to draw you in. Make you confess the truth to me.” Buffy said.

Spike looked at her shocked.

“And us?” He asked.

Buffy shook her head.

“We were never supposed to happen. It was never supposed to go this far. I wasn’t suppose to fall in love with you. That’s the part none of us counted on.” Buffy whispered.

“Buffy I’m sorry.” Spike whispered.

“I know Spike. We were both playing a game. The game turned real. I love you Spike. I love you in a way. I never thought I could. I love you enough to let you go.”

Buffy whispered.

Buffy walked up to him and kissed him deeply. Spike held her tightly.

“If things were different.” Spike whispered.

“They aren’t and they never will be.” Buffy said.

Suddenly someone knocked on the door. Buffy walked over to it and opened the door.

“Mrs. Connor. Your car is waiting.” Smalls said.

Buffy nodded.

Smalls took her bags out of the room. Buffy looked at Spike one last time then walked out the door.

Spike sat down at the edge of the bed. He couldn’t move. He felt as if his life had just been snatched away from him.

Xander Harris entered the room. Spike did not even look up.

“If you are here to kill me make it quick.” Spike whispered.

Xander smirked. He pulled out his gun and held it to Spike’s head.

Spike did not even flinch.

Xander pulled the gun away from Spike’s head.

“I should kill you. I should hate you but I don’t neither does Wesley.” Xander said taking a seat next across from him.

“Then why are you here?” Spike asked.

“To tell you something. Your sister is on the lam.” Xander explained.

Spike jumped up.

“WHAT!?” Spike screamed.

“Easy Spike. She is in a little town called Paris, Illinois with Winifred’s other son Connor Abrams.” Xander explained.

“Is he holding her for ransom or something?” Spike asked.

Xander shook his head.

“Apparently the kid has a yen for your Lil Sis.” Xander explained.

Anger rolled off of Spike.

“Listen don’t hold it against the Lil Bit she is young and impulsive. But she’ll leave with me if you allow me to go get her.” Spike said.

Xander nodded.

“Fair enough you got a week then Wesley wants to meet you back in Chicago. Tie up some loose ends. You know what that means right?” Xander explained.

Spike nodded. He understood The Giles Family was sending him into exile. Far away from Buffy.

“What about my sister?” Spike asked.

“She is under Angel’s protection if she decides to stay. Which will be worth a lot once she marries Oz. But I have a feeling she will go with you. You know that as well as I do.” Xander said.

Spike nodded.

“I’ll get her then meet you back in Chicago. Tie up those loose ends.” Spike said quietly.

Xander stood up he turned around and looked at Spike one last time.

“You were going to tell her weren’t you? Even though you knew she might have killed you if she did not already know.” Xander enquired.

Spike sighed.

“A fella’s got to try.” Spike smirked.

Xander chuckled.

“If it’s worth anything. I don’t think it would have made a difference. Angel loved my brother but even a blind man could see it was nothing compared to what she feels for you.”

Without another word he left the room.

"This is not acceptable!" Wesley raged.

Angel sat there completely poised. Everyone else would have been shaking in his or her boots but not her. Angel looked up at the man she adored as her own father. Wesley and Oz arrived in Canada shortly after Xander informed him that Buffy had sent Spike away.

"Godfather, this was the right choice." Buffy stated.

"Angel, your judgment is a bit twisted don't you think? Besides the obvious benefit of having someone around who knows how to duck the Feds. He was a very good asset to our business. He did the one thing we have always had difficulty doing which was wrapping the people up North around his finger." Wesley said. 

Buffy shook her head.

"Godfather, he thinks too much with his heart like my parents he does not have the strength to endure this life style. Perhaps I am being selfish if he betrayed this family it would hurt entirely too much. I cannot endure that type of pain again. Not so soon after Liam." Buffy whispered.

Wesley looked at her.

"He is not like your father Angel. He is better suited for this life than your father ever was. Besides with Ainsley crossing over to would ensure minimal push backs from the suits." Wesley argued.

Buffy looked at Wesley.

"That may be true Godfather but facts are facts. Whatever else has happened he came into this family to destroy it. Whatever he feels now does not matter. The family needs the security of my marriage to Oz. So that is what will happen. I will marry Oz, Spike and his sister will be free to live their own life and everyone will be happy." Buffy said putting on her black satin gloves.

“Now tell me how is Willow?” Buffy asked.

“She is healing well Oz has been with her night and day.” Wesley reported looking at his son.

Buffy continued to ready herself for her meeting.

“Angel, you must know something else.” Wesley said quietly.

Buffy looked at him curiously.

“You must know that I could not allow Travers to get away with what he had done. Everyone knows Finn is in his pocket.” Wesley said.

Buffy nodded slowly.

“Needless to say he is no longer a problem.” Wesley reported void of any real emotion.

Buffy sighed.

“I see.” She said.

“Who is taking over his territory?” Buffy asked.

“Most have tried to cut deals with me but he left his holdings to his wife. I am afraid things are far from returning to normal.” Wesley reported.

“You are going to make a bid for his territories.” Buffy said sinking back into her seat.

Wesley nodded.

“Which only reaffirms my position. Spike needed to be taken out of the equation.” Buffy whispered.

“No Angel that is where you are wrong. We need him in position. What if Drucilla Travers offers him a deal?” Wesley asked.

“I can assure you Godfather we have nothing to fear on that end.” Buffy said quietly.

Buffy looked at Wesley who continued to doubt her motives. But this was Angel. She had earned his trust.

"Godfather I must go meet with our people in Canada. Is there some news that we will be sharing soon?" Buffy asked.

Wesley sighed and nodded. "Yes Angel, your engagement party to Oz will be announced." Wesley said.

Buffy smiled a brave smile. "Very well I have work to do." Buffy said leaving the room.

Buffy looked at Oz who looked completely crushed.

"So that's it? We get married? God, Angel if you had told me this three weeks ago I would have been thrilled." Oz said.

"But there is Willow." Buffy said walking over to her dressing table. She applied a thin coat of red lipstick and looked at Oz threw her mirror.

"Oz this is a marriage in name only. I know you love Willow and I don't expect that to change or end. We will be what we are good friends who happen to be married." Buffy said standing up.

"What kind of life is that?" Oz asked.

"The kind of life that keeps this family alive. The kind of life that keeps you alive and with Willow without making her a mark." Buffy stated.

"But then you are?? Angel this doesn't make any sense." Oz said.

"Yes it does. And I have been a mark all my life. You and Willow can be together. I won't have to worry about Spike coming anywhere near me and the family once again affirms it's position in the organization." Buffy said putting on her pearl necklace. 

Oz looked at Buffy again this time with sympathetic eyes. "You must really love him." Oz whispered.

Buffy gulped down her tears. "That doesn't matter anymore." Buffy whispered, "It doesn't matter at all."

Dawn sat there watching her brother. He looked wrecked. At first she thought it was because he was worried about her. But after his confession she realized for the first time in his life his brother had lost all hope because he had lost Buffy.

Connor was surprised with Dawn’s lack of reaction. She just accepted everything her brother had told her. It made him fall for her even more.

He remained quiet through most of it until Spike announced he was being forced into exile.

“I leave in a few days.” Spike explained.

“Will we get a chance to say goodbye to Jenny?” Dawn asked.

Spike hugged his sister tightly.

“Of course Bit.” He whispered.

Connor stood up in a huff.

“What you’re just going to take her!!??” Connor yelled.

Spike looked at the boy in front of him.

“No Kid, my sister makes her own decisions.” Spike replied.

Connor let out a bitter laugh.

“Oh that rich! Have you not noticed when you say jump your sister says how high? She’d follow you into hell. She already did when you decided to dive into The Giles Family. Now you are going to drag her away for a town she loves. A career that’s just started for her?”

Dawn looked at her brother and smiled.

“I can sing anywhere.” She smiled.

Connor let out a huge sigh.

“You just finished telling me how much you love Chicago!” Connor argued.

“It’s just a town!” Dawn yelled.

Connor looked at her seriously.

“What about us?” He asked quietly.

Dawn looked down.

“You will go back to Chicago and I will leave with my brother.” Danw whispered.

“Dawn, you don’t have to go with him you can stay with me.” Connor pleaded.

Dawn raised her head and looked at Connor.

“Please stop. Because if you think because if you think that this is some, you or my brother scenario, you wrong. There is no choice.” Dawn explained.

She looked at Spike and smiled bravely.

“We’ll leave in the morning. Say goodbye to Jenny then get going.” Dawn said confidently.

She kissed her brother on her cheek and walked out of the room.

Later that night at a hidden gin joint on the outskirts of the small rural town of Paris Spike found himself staring at the bottle of a shot glass. The clear liquid was still sitting in inside mocking him. The thing that he fought against….His head was a bit fuzzy.

He had to get away for a bit before he started his long drive back to Chicago. Somewhere in the back of his mind he tried to be angry at Buffy. She knew she knew this whole time.

Then there was Dawnie. Without a thought or need for explanation she was going to leave with him. At that moment he wanted to laugh at the ironry of the situation. Dawn’s unquestioning loyalty to him was much like Buffy’s to The Giles Family.

Was he doing to her what was done to Buffy?

Spike chuckled nothing was being done to Buffy just like nothing was done to him. He chose to enter this world just like Buffy chose to stay.

But Dawnie…..did she really know what she was chosing?

Spike frowned he caught a familiar scent in the air.

He pulled a cigarette out.

Suddenly his cigarette was being lit.

Spike chuckled to himself.

“Just perfect.” He thought.

“H’ Lo. Dru.” He said.

Drucilla Travers smiled at him.

“Hello Willy.” She said.

Spike allowed Drucilla to lead him to the makeshift dance floor.

“How’d you find me?” Spike asked.

Drucilla laughed.

Drucilla wrapped her arms around him. Somewhere in Spike’s mind he wanted to reject her. But in his drunken haze for a moment he could pretend like it was someone else. He sunk deeper into her arms giving into the the fantasy until he heard her voice.

“You’re in one of my Gin Joints Spike.” Drucilla said.

“Yours eh? Hope your husband shares your sentiment. ” Spike asked.

“Willy you have been away. I guess you did not hear. My dearest husband met with an unfortunate accident. I am a widow now.” Drucilla pretending to be distraught.

She let out a hearty laugh.

“Poor dear Travers left everything to me.” Dru explained.

She kissed Spike’s cheek then whispered in his ear.

“You know what that means Spike. You and I could rule Chicago.” Drucilla said.

Spike tried not to react to her news. Her announcement shook him out of his drunkenness. His mind flashed back to the night Willow was shot. He vaguely remembered hearing Riley’s voice. He closed his eyes remembering seeing a women in a mask slink up to one of the people who had raided before Buffy pulled him down the hidden pathway.

Drucilla was there. She had set this whole thing up. Take out Buffy knowing Wesley would go after Travers. The whole thing now reeked of Dru.

He had to play it cool.

“Sure with the Feds breathing down my throat again. No thanks.” Spike said.

“Bad Spikey it’s not nice to lie to Mummie. I know your secrets Spike.” She whispered.

Spike pulled away from her and looked at her seriously.

“What do you know?” Spike asked.

“Hush now, my dear, you don’t trust Mummie? Don’t worry about those nasty Feds I have taken care of that. So well in fact that they will never lay a finger on you nor me. Especially my dear lovely Spike. Whispers and promises have been made. ” Dru said kissing his neck.

Spike smiled evily at her. He looked down at her and grabbed the back of her neck. Drucilla purred.

“There’s my deadly boy.” She whispered.

“Come On Pet. Let’s go somewhere we can be alone.”

Spike looked at an unconcious Drucilla.

For a moment he felt guilty. His intention was to distract her and then lock her in a room somewhere. But then she mentioned Dawnie and of course her intention to get rid of Buffy. Spike began to pile her full of gin. All the while pretending to seduce her. Finally she passed out.

“Dru, Luv get bent. Well, more bent” He muttered leaving her in the room.

He raced to the boarding house to collect Dawn. He had work to do.

Buffy found herself in front of her husband's grave.

"Liam." Buffy whispered. "I know what I have to do." Buffy said. "I promised you and the family I would always be here and I will. Even if it means giving up Spike." Buffy said. She kissed her hand and touched Liam's tombstone. "I love you." She whispered.

From a car Drucilla Travers watched a wicked smile crept across her face.

"Angel, what a lovely surprise.."

Drucilla exited the car and walked up to Buffy.

Buffy chuckled.

“Somehow I knew you would turn up.” Buffy said coldly.

“You should show more respect little Angel. You forget who is in charge now.” Drucilla said.

“That’s why most of your former associates have already tried to align themselves with Wesley? The other who haven’t are trying to take you down. You thought you were gaining everything The Giles’s have but now your little world is crumbling around you.” Buffy challenged.

“You are the last person I would be afraid of.” Buffy said walking away.

“You’ve gotten a taste of my Willy.” Drucilla called out.

Buffy stopped and turned around. She was a master at hiding her own emotions. Even though anger raced through her Buffy looked at Drucilla coolly.

“Sorry?” Buffy asked.

“Spike. You should have seen him all distraught over a little Angel. Mummie was there to fix him up.” Drucilla taunted.

Buffy smiled at Drucilla. She cocked her head to the side and looked at the side of Dru’s face.

“You really think I am going to fall for that one?” Buffy asked.

“He likes it rough. But I guess you already know that.” Drucilla smirked.

Buffy lit her cigarette and exhaled the smoke.

“You know why Wesley keeps me around? I have this talent for reading people. I don’t know where I picked it up but I just do. So let me tell you what I am reading from you. You did meet up with Spike but it did not turn out the way you wanted it to. Because he left you where ever you were. Probably because he feared for Dawn or me. You came to him with a proposal that he obviously refused. Because if he didn’t you would not be trying to get a rise out of me by my husband’s grave. If Spike was with you than you would have better control of your dead husband’s rickety empire. No I suspect Dru you are at your wits end.” Buffy said.

“I could kill you right now and no one would know.” Dru said reaching into her coat.

“Now Mrs. Travers you must know Wesley would never allow Angel to go out on her own.” Johnny said.

Buffy smiled as both Skinny and Johnny popped out of the shadows.

“Are question is where are your guards?” Johnny asked.

Buffy walked past Drucilla.

“She’s not worth it Boys.” Buffy said.

They all began to walk away.

“Funny Liam sure thought I was.” Drucilla said.

Buffy spun around.

“You did not know? Oh poor little Buffy. Where do you think Liam went the night he was killed? What did he tell you? Some last minute loose ends? Were you not curious that Wesley nor Xander knew what his business was. Why your loyalty is being questioned?” Dru said pretending to be musing.

Without another word Buffy walked away.

Buffy stormed into Wesley’s office.

“Tell me Wesley tell me that Liam was not betraying the family. Tell me he was not sleeping with Drucilla Travers.” Buffy pleaded.

Wesley stood up slowly.

“Angel, who told you…”

“NO! Tell me it is not true!” Buffy screamed.

“It wasn’t my parents was it!!?? It was Liam! That’s why you wanted me to marry Oz. So my loyalty would not be questioned ever again! No one trusted me because of Liam!” Buffy cried.

Wesley stepped from behind his desk and hugged the girl tightly.

“I’m sorry Angel.” He whispered.

“Does Xander know?” Buffy whispered.

Wesley shook his head.

“And I intend to keep it that way.” Wesley whispered.

“Yes you are right.” Buffy nodded still hugging Wesley.

“Angel, it does not have to be this way. We can spin this different. Tell everyone we were prepping for Spike’s entrance into the family. He has earned promince in the family. Third in command. We can bring him in.” Wesley explained.

“No, if anyone questioned him he would be marked just like me. I can’t Wesley I can’t be the reason why he dies.” Buffy cried.

Wesley sighed he knew he would have to make some decisions. That was his job. He knew whatever it was someone would be hurt.

A few days later Spike stood in Wesley’s office.

Wesley looked the man up and down.

He read the file carefully.

“The last report to your brother in law was given nearly a month ago.” Wesley said shocked.

Xander looked at the report.

“I couldn’t after..” Spike said.

Spike closed his eyes for a moment remembering his time with Buffy in cabin. The way she looked at him. The peace and safety they felt in each other’s arms.

“Listen, I am giving you this because I know I betrayed your trust. I don’t care what you do to me but know Dawn didn’t know any of it.” Spike said.

“You like your job with them?” Wesley asked.

Spike shook his head.

“I was never any good at it. I got into a lot of trouble. The only reason why I was not kicked out of the whole thing was because of Rupert. I’m better at what I do here. In fact I’m prouder of my work here.” Spike said honestly.

Wesley nodded.

“Yes you are very good at dealing with the newcomers. You have a good eye. Xander tells me you informed him of the offer Drucilla Travers has made for your services.” Wesley said.

“Than you must have known I turned her down. She and I have a complicated history. There are other reasons why I could never align myself with her.” Spike said.

“And those would be?” Wesley asked.

“One, I am quite fond of The Giles Family. Two, well you know the main reason why I never could.” Spike said quielty.

“His eyes rested on a photo of Buffy and Winifred. He looked up at Wesley again.

“Besides she resents Dawn. I came running back to tell you she has it out for Buffy. Drucilla hates her so that automatically makes her my enemy. I could never trust her.” Spike said.

“Can you be trusted?” Xander piped in.

“Angel seems to think you can’t.” Wesley said.

“Buffy trust me with everything she has in her. That’s what terrifies her. That’s why she is pushing me away. I love her Wesley. I would do anything and defy anyone to be with her.” Spike said.

“Even me?” Wesley challenged.

Spike nodded slowly knowing this could be his death sentence. But he had to be honest. If they killed him now Buffy would know he was true to their love until the end.

“She is everything to me. Yes Wesley I would defy even you.” Spike said.

Wesley looked at Xander and nodded.

Xander opened the door and let three rather large men in.

“Very well then let’s tie up those loose ends.” Wesley announced.

Spike looked at the men.

“I thought I was being allowed to leave?” Spike said.

“I’m sorry Ainsley. I have decided I can not allow that you know too much.” Wesley announced somberly.

Spike gulped hard. He nodded slowly and looked at Xander

“Take care of my sister.”

Spike closed his eyes again. Remembering the images of Buffy he had burned into his psyche. After a moment he opened his eyes and looked at all of them bravely.

Buffy stood at the bar drinking a glass of champagne. Fred told her that Spike was at the house.

Dawn had not heard from him since.

“He called and told me to stop packing. A little while later Skinny came and told me I would be living with Xander and Anya for awhile.” Dawn explained when Buffy saw her come into the Harris Mansion.

Xander said nothing to her. He simply ushered Dawn into his office and told Buffy to head out to The No Name.

Buffy tried to seem confident. Wesley probably made him skip town. That or he….

Buffy could not think about it.

"Please, God don't let this be happening..."