Title: Becoming Real
Author: Carol A. Clarke
Email: Carol.Clarke@mail.state.ky.us

Chapter 11
The Heart and Feather Test


Kate wanted to howl at the moon. To run and hide. She needed to be anywhere but here. It was hard to be confronted with your actions for the last 7 years. She looked down on Frank’s hand covering her own. Buffy had brought him in as a co defense lawyer. Buffy had kept her word and tried to give a good defense. Which was almost impossible with Kate not talking at all. Sometime after Duncan had calmly explained what was happening, Kate just shut down.

She spent the time before the trail lying on her bed and staring at the ceiling. The witches tried to get her to eat, Buffy tried as well. In the end it was Duncan that managed to get small amounts of food in her. Oddly she found the little Reinfield comforting.

Kate felt Frank squeeze her hand as Buffy began her questioning of the Succubus. “Violet” She hated the way they gave these things names. Actually she needed to hate them. Needed them to be things. But the thing on the stand was sweet and polite. Why the hell hadn’t she seen that before she tried to kill it? The woman was telling them. Telling them everything and she couldn’t stand it anymore. It was bad enough listening to Angel and his assistant, God what was her name.

They told the truth. And only the truth. And the truth was she wanted them dead. Almost got them killed dozens of times. She hated them. Hated him. Blamed him, for her father, for the truth. The Truth about what killed her father; destroyed her life. And he told the truth. The good and bad of her life. He stood up there and told the truth. And she hated him.

And now another one of those evil things was on the stand telling them. Telling them what she had done and her heart was crumbling. She didn’t want them to know. She didn’t want to know herself. Violet had been the last straw. After her attack Kate had wanted to die. She knew she needed to die. But wasn’t that why she started doing the challenges? Wasn’t it her holy war? Her way into heaven, like the knights and crusaders. It was her Jihad. Her holy war and she was a noble warrior. She killed the evil and protected the innocent. Only she didn’t know who the innocent were any more.

As Violet continued her story of how Kate had beaten her Reinfield. Had sent the challenge and followed the creature home.

Tears were pouring from her eyes. “Stop it.” Kate whispered. “Stop it now, please”

Slowly the room quieted. No one spoke. “Stop it please. I admit it. I did it. I am guilty. Just please stop it.” Kate cried.

“Did what? What did you do Kate?” Martha asked from her chair of judgement.

“I don’t know. I hurt the girl and I nearly killed the woman on the stand. I did it. Just do what you are going to do. I don’t want it.”

“Don’t want what Kate? What don’t you want?” Martha asked.

“This, the trial. Please just let me die.” Kate begged as she crumbled to the ground with Frank holding on to her.

“Kate, we need to finish the trial. We need to know what happened to pass judgement.” Martha explained.

“Kate why didn’t you finish killing Violet what made you stop?” Buffy asked while she helped Frank get Kate back into a chair.

“I can answer that, Buffy.” Violent said from the witness chair. “She was beating me up. You saw the bruises; then my son ran in and tried to stop her. Ryan is such a good child. Sorry proud parent moment. Ryan grabbed her arm and was crying mommy, mommy, and she was about to hit him. I was pretty beat up and I was trying to get to him but she just looked at him. Her fist pulled back. Then she put him down and left. She could have killed us both. Buffy there is good inside her, she has just lost her way.”

“Why do you keep doing that. All of you. I hurt you. And you say there is good inside me. I don’t understand. What is wrong with you people?” Kate cried. She really couldn’t take any more. Angel had told of her crimes and her good deeds. The good and bad of her life. It was confusing her. She needed the lines to be black and white. She needed the hate. But the hate was too much to bear anymore.

For the rest of the trial she just sat there crying. She didn’t even hear most of it, she just moved into her own little world.

It was over. She was found guilty. And her sentence was passed. She was to pay the sum of fifty dollars a month for three years once she got out of the hospital and went back to work. She was sentenced to two years of slave service as a Reinfield but that was remedied to a short stay in a psychiatric unit of a local hospital. The Reinfield sentence was more of a warning to her of what would happen if she tried to return to her old habits. She had listened to the sentence then she had been led to a car and taken to a local hospital. Frank had been there for her the whole time.

(Two months later.)

Kate had been at Ten Brook hospital for almost two months. Frank had arranged for her stay so that the LAPD paid for it. She wasn’t the first cop to crack up. LAPD had only put her on extended leave and had lost her resignation. Kate was a good cop. Or at least she had been a good cop. Now she didn’t know what she was.

There was a tiny knock on the door and she saw Duncan entering with a care package. Kate still didn’t understand way the girl always brought her gifts. She had basically raped the girl, not once but twice. Girl, Kate thought, not thing, not demon. If nothing else, Kate was at least dealing with her crimes and she was beginning to see Duncan and Violet, as well as other creatures she had hurt in LA, as not necessarily evil. She had violated the girl when she sent the slayer the challenge with that damn cucumber. She couldn’t believe she had done that. It was like watching someone else. And when she had whipped the girl and threatened to rape her, she had been counting on Buffy stopping her. She still wasn’t sure how far she would have gone if Buffy hadn’t showed up. Not that the whipping she had given the girl was a good thing. She had really let loose on the girls bottom and back. Thank god that was all she did, was her only thought.

“So what did you bring me today kid.” Kate had started calling the girl that during her third visit. Duncan came once a week like clockwork. Frank and Martha came two or three times a week and Buffy came everyday, sometimes one of her wives came with her.

“A Couple of comicbooks. The League of Super heroes and the uncanny X-men. The X-men book is really good. I also brought you a Rita Mae Brown book and some candy. Chocolate is good.” Duncan said happily bouncing up and down on her feet. Kate knew the kid was still afraid of her but that didn’t seem to stop the girl. Kate was actually impressed with the girls' guts.

“Thanks” Kate said taking the package from the girl. She had actually started reading the comicbooks the kid was bringing her. After all she had a lot of time in the nut house to kill.

“You get out next week.” It was a statement not a question from the girl.

“So they tell me. Guess I am cured.” Kate answered sarcastically.

“No, you’re just better. You are a lot better. But you’re not well yet.” Duncan explained. Kate just laughed.

“What are your plans for when you get out?” Duncan asked as she sat down on the floor across from Kates' bed where she sat.

“Not a clue.”

“You can go back to work in LA. Frank says you can get your old job back but…”

“But at a desk. I know they don’t let nut cops on the street.”

“Kate there are other options.” Duncan said

“Ok what are they?”

“You could become a demon hunter. It is different from what you were doing but just as dangerous. You would have to work for demons most of the time. It is kind of like being a demon world cop.”

“I couldn’t work for a demon. Not even Angel.” Kate stated

“You could stay here in Sunnydale and get a job here. A police job or something else.”

“Why the hell would I want to stay in Sunnyhell.” Kate said loudly.

“To serve your two years as a Reinfield.”

“You're nuts.” Kate said looking at the girl like she was the one that was out of her mind.

“Kate, part of your problem, why you kind of lost it, is because you are basically a good person. Only you got lost and did some not so good things. And now you’re torn. Your sprit is broken; your soul is hurting. Part of you wants to be punished, part of you wants to strike back. And all that hate just makes it worse. Look, I bet you have always believed in that ‘do the crime do the time’ thing. You know you did the crime, now you need to do the time. Your soul needs it. Plus you’re a control freak.” Duncan explained.

“Control freak what the hell does that have to do with it.”

“Everything, when you become a Reinfield you have no control. You’re a slave. You are not allowed to be jealousy or angry. You are not allowed to hate. You have no control of your own body. You have to give up control and trust your owner. I trust Buffy. She has never really hurt me. She takes care of me. Treats me well. Protects me the best she can. The night you attacked me, she cried all night. Think about it. Honestly it would do your soul good. Might even save you.”

Buffy had been listening at the door. She never let Duncan go near Kate without being close by. She still didn’t know why she let Duncan go near Kate. But Duncan had asked to see her and Duncan didn’t ask her for many things. Still she was surprised by Duncan’s speech. She had never intended to take Kate as a slave. It was just an angry threat after the whole rape thing. Fitting punishment. Still what Duncan said made a kind of weird sense. After she had sent Angel to hell. She had become the ultimate submissive. She had done the San Francisco scene of Sex Clubs that whole summer when she wasn’t waiting tables. Beth may have taught her to like being spanked but that summer had finished her training. And the experience had helped her. She had needed to give up control before she learned to be in control.

Kate had been released. She still didn’t have a clue about what to do in her life. And now a very angry redheaded witch had just sent her down to the basement. When she reached the bottom step she saw Buffy working out. She was kick boxing a punching bag.

“Hi, your wife sent me down here. Said it was ok.” Kate said stumbling over the words.

“What’s up?” Buffy said punching the bag a couple more times before stopping and turning to face Kate.

“I needed to talk to you.”

“So talk”

“I want, no I need to serve my time.” Kate stated looking at her feet.

“I thought that might be why you’re here.” Buffy said before walking over to her.

“Kate it would be the roughest two years of your life. You would be beaten every day. You would have no say in how your body was used. And once you start there is no way out.” Buffy said quietly. She still didn’t know why she was even considering the idea. Willow was going to kill her.

“I did the crime, I should do the time. I deserve this.” Kate stated.

“I will give you until Friday to think about it. You’re staying with the Williamsons?”

“Yeah, Frank insisted I stay there until I got back together. I sold everything before I left LA.”

“They're nice people, Frank and Martha…If you're serious about the sentence, have your things packed and be here at 8 o’clock sharp Friday night to go over the rules.” With that said Buffy returned to her punching bag.

Kate had done what she was told. Her two bags were packed along with a couple of boxes in the car that Duncan was going to bring in later. She was sitting on the couch facing her three mistresses going over the rules. Mistress that was going to be hard to get used to, Kate thought.

“Item one, you will address us by our names in public but in this house you will refer to us as mistress.” Willow read off from the typed page in her lap.

“Item two, you will use and respect safety words. Your safety word is Officer.”

“Willow just give her the paper. She can read them herself.”

Kate read over the list a couple of times. It was very complete and scared the hell out of her.

“Kate do you have any questions?” Tara asked patiently.

“The spell?” Kate replied.

“It won’t hurt you. It is just to give you the feel of being a Reinfield. Bounded Reinfields can only orgasm when they have permission from their owners. To be honest it is actually painful for a Reinfield not to come. The spell would not hurt you. There would be no pain. You would just need Buffy’s permission to come for the next two years. Once we do the spell, it can’t be broken. You will just have to wait it out, even if you leave us.” Tara explained gently.

“And I would have to start off being naked on a dog leash in the house at all time.”

“Except when we have company. Then you will be tied up in the dungeon or allowed to dress. “ Buffy said.

“Outside of the house and in your bedroom you can do as you please. With in reason. Page three has the drug, alcohol and other sex partner rules.” Willow explained.

“I can have other sex partners?” Kate asked amused.

“If you like, but you have to practice safe sex and you won’t be able to come. Unless Buffy's given you permission that is.” Willow replied.

“What would be the point.”

“That is kind of the idea here. You are being punished for your crimes. Kate, seriously, it is hard to be a sub. And we will not go easy on you. What you did was really wrong.” Buffy stated sternly.

“Ok”

“OK, then there is Duncan. Whether you like it or not you will hold a lower place in the house than Duncan. She is to be treated with respect at all time. You touch her; Talk back to her; Look at her in the wrong way and you will know what hell is, understand.”

“Yes……mistress.” Kate replied

“Ok the last thing is work. Frank thinks you can get a job at the Sunnydale PD. They need an occult expect. You don’t have to go into police work. You could even go to school instead of working. UC Sunnydale is a decent college. But you will have to do something. You are going to need an outlet outside of the house. You will also have to keep up your Doctor visits and therapy. And take your medication. If fact you are going to have to give us your pills and we will see that you take them.”

“No control, Duncan said I would have no control.” Kate repeated wondering why she wasn’t running out the door.

“So are you still going through with it?” Buffy asked.

Kate dug through her coat pocket and pulled out three drug prescriptions and handed them to Willow. I am supposed to take two of them before bed.” Kate explained as she lowered her eyes.

“Take off your clothes and we will do the binding spell.” Tara replied.

Kate felt awkward undressing in front of them as the three women watched her clinically. When she was done Buffy gently pushed her down on her knees. The spell was simple and direct. Kate had expected ceremony. Had expected chalk lines or some other Hollywood fable. Instead a few words in Latin, what tasted like a glass of juice and she belonged to them.

Buffy slipped the dog collar on and a long leash. To her surprise Buffy also made her wear kneepads. She was told that she would be required to crawl unless otherwise told. Then Buffy picked her up like she was a small sack of potatoes and positioned her over the back of the coach. Ass in the air.

“Kate what is the safety word.”

“Officer”

“Good job. You are going to have to use the safety word a lot in the next few days. We don’t know what you can take. How much your body can stand so you are going to have to use the word. There is no shame in using it, even if you’re just frightened. If something we are going to do to you or are doing to you hurts or frightens you use the safety word. Do you understand?” Buffy asked.

“Yes”

“What is the safety word?”

“Officer.”

“Good girl”

“We are going to give you your first spanking. We are just going to spank you at first. You will be spanked or punished once a day no matter if you are good or bad. That is part of being a Reinfield. Remember you can always use the safety word. Tara is going to go first.”

Kate felt the hot end of the belt strike her ass. Not hard enough to hurt just hard enough to let her know it was there. Tara stroked her back softly between each stroke. “Ten” Whack, Gentle back stroke, “Nine” Whack, Gentle back stroke, “Eight” and so on. Tara’s hand was firm but gentle and Kate was surprised that it actual aroused her. Next Buffy whipped her. Buffy’s hand was also gentle at first as she caressed her red bottom. Then Buffy began her count. By the time she got to four Kate was in tears. It hurt like hell and she still had to take Willow’s ten strokes.

Openly crying now, Willow asked her to repeat the safety word. She did and then her ass was tanned. If she had thought Buffy was hard, Willow was wicked. Willow hit the exact same spot across her anus on all ten strokes. Her butt was on fire. Then Willow caressed her red and bruised bottom with a gentle hand and said, “Good girl, you were such a good girl.”

Good girl Kate thought, God how those two words effected her. She wanted to hear them. Wanted to believe them. And the tender touches her mistresses were giving her were driving her mad. She wanted them to take her. Fuck her silly. She wanted them all.

Then Kate felt Buffy tug her collar. “Kate we are going down stairs, Duncan will help you get organized in your bedroom but you are not going to sleep there much. Before I go on patrol I will come down and chain you up in the dungeon. Until I know you are a well-behaved little Reinfield you will have to sleep chained up. Uncomfortably chained up. With that Buffy handed her leash over to Duncan.

Duncan had walked her down the stairs. Helping her with the crawling part of the stairs. She still felt terribly aroused and her ass was stinging like crazy. Once inside her room Duncan dropped the leash and said. “It’s ok, you can stand up in here. You’re allowed to be free in your room. That is why Buffy says you won’t get to sleep here for a while, she says you have to earn the privilege.”

“Like you did?” Kate asked.

“I was a good girl. That is why I get to go to school and walk around and wear clothes.” Duncan explained with a great deal of pride.

Kate realized that this wasn’t a matter of the girl believing the lie as it were but of it simply being true. “So you didn’t have clothes and had a collar?” Kate asked

“When I was little, Reinfields have to earn clothes. You're lucky I had to wear chains most of the time and they whipped me a lot. Buffy likes to be whipped but it scares me. It hurts a lot.” Duncan explained as she started to put Kate’s clothes away.

Kate didn’t know what to think. Her mind was still reeling. I have to earn my freedom, earn clothes what else do I have to earn. Kate’s few things were put away and Duncan turned on the TV in Kate’s room. The girl simply crawled up in the bed and told Kate to join her.

“I get to choose what we watch ok?” Duncan asked.

Buffy kissed her two wives as she gently lowered them onto the large bed. Rolling them both on their side to face each other she began kissing them at the ankles. First Willow then Tara, back and forth up their legs. When she reached the land of promise she slid her had in Tara’s pussy and began to lick Willows. Then she rolled over and revised the process with her hand in Willow and her tongue on Tara. She just wanted them aroused for now.

When both of her wives were wet and French kissing each other, Buffy began the process of putting the straps on them. It was a hard thing to do the way they were kissing. Once she had them both packed and ready she entered stage two of the project. She took a hand full of rubber bands and with the two women facing each other in bed; Buffy moved them around until their plastic cocks were pressed up against each other. Taking the rubber bands Buffy began to fasten the phallus into one large ride.

Once she had used the box of rubber bands and the witches were happily kissing each other and testing the push me pull you cock they were now attacked to, Buffy began the lube stage of project Fuck Buffy. Buffy had picked out just the right magic lube and began oiling the large dick up. Then with it on her fingers she slipped a little oil into the backsides of her wives. Why should she be the only one to get the full magic ride?

Then with Willow and Tara’s help Buffy began to impale herself on the giant cock. Slowly the women pushed the cock into Buffy’s back entrance. Buffy grunted as she felt the first head enter her. Then as the slid it forward she felt the second head stretch her. Then they all seemed to grunt together and the cock was completely buried inside her.

Buffy was crunched down on her hands and knees with her legs frog style to open up her buttock cheeks.

With three of them together it was awkward but they managed. Working together as one, Tara and Willow began to push in and out of Buffy. Long slow hard thrusts. They were waiting for the burning potion to kick in. As they pushed in rhythm they caressed Buffy’s back and sides. Kissing her gently.

With each stroke the magic became more intense, their strokes became faster. Wordless Willow and Tara picked up their riding crops and began to whip Buffy in rhythm with their in and out thrust. It was hard to keep the rhythm, to move as one. And the way they were moving rubbed the witches' clits hard against the base of each of their dildos.

They each picked a spot on one of her ass checks and began to work it hard. Stroking and thrusting and whipping her as hard as they could, all to the rhythm of the thrust of the joined sex.

It was silent when it started, all of them coming together. Holding each other as their joined scream came. Sometimes it was good to be in love. The stayed like that, bound uncomfortably together for a long time. Just holding each other. Kissing each other. Loving each other.

As they came Duncan came loudly sitting next to Kate on her bed. Kate was a puzzled by the girl’s behavior until she explained. Kate own arouse just increased as she watched Duncan come several more times calmly watching TV on her bed.

“I have got to go on patrol.” Buffy said finally.

“So go.” Willow said before kissing Buffy’s back.

“I don’t want to, I like it here.”

“You would Buffy, you can’t be comfortable.” Willow replied

“It was great sex.” Buffy answered.

“Come on, get up, you have the world to save.” Tara laughed

“Plus I have to go chain Kate up.” Buffy said sadly as she slid off the phallus.

“Wasn’t Duncan helping Kate?” Tara asked.

“Yeah I told Duncan to stay with her unless she got frightened.” Buffy replied as she un-impaled herself.

“Buffy did you let Duncan come when you did. If she is in the house she would have collected the magic.” Tara stated.

“Ok something else I need to explain to Kate.” Buffy said. Willow was given Buffy a stern look as she answered Tara.

“What, you didn’t expect me to hold out on Duncan. You know it hurts her to be that close to us coming and not being allowed to come too.”

“Your right. But I will still punish you later.” Willow laughed whipping Buffy’s leg with her crop.

“Promises Promise.” Buffy replied before kissing her wives and leaving to check on her slaves.