Title: Dear B.
Author: Carol A. Clarke
Email: Carol.Clarke@mail.state.ky.us
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: All BTVS characters belong to Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy.
Summary: Faith writes a letter from prison.
Thanks: AnnaBar

Dear B,

I can’t believe I’m doing this. But who the hell else was I suppose to write. Yeah, It was my therapist idea. The twelve step program for psychopathic slayers. You should have been there the day I told her about vampires and being a slayer and all. It was wicked cool. The look on her face was worth it.

Ok so I’m sorry, but she was raging me and raging me to like tell her the truth. So I did. I am in prison for life so I figure in the end it doesn’t matter what I say.

Anyway, I am suppose to be apologizing for all the bad stuff I did. Like I could ever really do that. But you were my biggest regret. You were my friend and I skewed you over royal, a lot. Buffy I really am sorry, I know you can never forgive me but I wanted , I don’t I am just sorry ok.

Enough with the sappy crape. Want to know what prison life is like, how to get laid. Trust me you could stay on your back forever here. Ok, so I exaggerate. I am in prison what do you expect. Just like my mom I wonder if she would be proud?

The 411 on sex in prison. First you have to have a bitch. I have 3 now. Just a few people my age that I protect. I am undefeated in prison fights. Slayer power come in handy. Anyway so like yeah I now I am sleeping with chicks but hey they are better then the guard. Demons I can handle, these guards scare me.

Ah B. truth is I like it here. I am finally think I have found peace. Yeah weird, I find peace in jail. I still feel stuff, ok I have regrets, but I just am comfortable here. I don’t even feel the need to go as you called it “on a walk about.”

It’s like for the first time in my life I am not runny from something but running to something. Don’t worry I don’t get it either. I should tell ya B this is the first letter I ever wrote in my life. Since your mom is still really pissed at me for the whole kidnapping her thing I am going to give this letter to Cordialla to mail to your dorm or Giles or whatever.

Since visiting hours are only in day light Angel sends Cordy her to visit me. Makes sure I don’t need anything. Wesley comes sometimes to but he is still pissed about me torturing him. He has a lot more guts then I thought. God am I fucked up B. I torture, my friends and there families. I became a killer. And don’t know when I just lost it. It was way before I came to Sunnydale. It was even way before I became a slayer.

My counselor, Miss Beckett, we talk a lot about my mom. What my last name is, like I know who my father is. My mom sure didn’t. Then again my mom wasn’t sober much. Miss Beckett said this would happen. Once I opened up, everything would pore out. And strangely enough I like it. B there is so much peace after I let go.

Enough about me. How are the scoobies doing. I never did find out what happened with Oz. I though Will and Oz would live happily ever after together so when Willow introduced to me, in your bod, to her girlfriend Wow. I just about flipped out. Is Xander still will Ms X 1000 year old demon girl. Never could figure Xander’s taste in women. First Cordilia, the a jump in the sack with me, then Anya. I bet Giles is still the same old nerd stuck in a book. I always liked him. And I hope I didn’t mess up thing with Beefstick. Buffy he really is a nice guy. He didn’t know it was me and he was the most wicked cool guy I ever slept with. It was like he care about me. So I know he loves you.

Hope you don’t go postal when you get this. I won’t write anymore after this,

Unless you want to. I know not going to happen. Well I hope your still THE SLAYER. People need you.

Faith.




Dear Faith,

That had to be the strangest letter I ever got. But I liked it and since you seem to have time there in prison I wouldn’t mind getting a few more letters from you. We have a lot of issues, maybe by letter we might be able to talk and not beat the hell out of each other.

I am also Glad Angel is looking out for you. Trust him Faith. Cordy too. She seems all self absorbed but she has a good heart. She was a good friend to, only I will die before I admit it too her.

I am glad your in counseling and it is helping. I am glad you have found the still point. That’s what I call it. When every thing just gets clear. It like everything is moving in slow motion and you feel a part of everything, nature. I guess peaceful sums it up.

How did you know about Willow and Tara. I just found out. Xander and Anya our still tied together. Giles has been playing guitar and singing all these old old 70’s song at some club in town. That and he got drunk on me.

Actually the gang just self destructed yesterday. Willow was mad because she thinks I hate Tara. I like Tara I just don’t get how she wants me to act now. You with the 3 girlfriend in the big house, maybe you could tell me what I did wrong, because I just don’t get.

Willow wasn’t the only one who went nuts. Xander was screaming about Fort Knix, Pricks, maybe dicks, or something that and me wanting him to go in the Army. Riley the Commando boy is about all I can handle now. And Giles is still hung over. He got so drunk. Giles never gets drunk. He is dependable guy. Super Liberian who knows everything. I need them all. They are why am still alive. Don’t tell them this but they are like my family. Well they were, now they’re not speaking to me.

And Riley, I had to tell him his best friend died and he said he had to go and I haven’t seen him since. I guess he blames me for Forest’s death. The initiative guys are still looking for him so I don’t think the have found him yet. There are just so many times you can break into a high security military compound and get out alive.

Other then this Frankenstein guy Adam who I can’t ever put a dent in life on the hell mouth is of the good. Really Faith I hope you write me back, I may end up in a cell there someday as many times as I slipped away form the local cops, military police, city mayor I am bound to get caught. I’ll try and explain later.

Love Buffy Summer
One of the Chosen Two.