Title: Dear Diary
Author: Mac
Email: mac_0_1_2@yahoo.co.uk
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Dawn wrote a lot of diary entries – these are the ones that are about Faith.

Dear Diary,

Today was strange, Faith stayed the night last night and she slept in Buffy's room. With Buffy, in her bed. Not that it bothers me to think that maybe Buffy could be like 'that'. It's just her room is right next to mine. I heard them giggling for a while and then I thought I heard someone moan, I definitely heard a bump or something. I chose to ignore it and I fell asleep. I mean I know that Faith is like 'that', she always has this air about her and she gives off these strange vibes. I think Buffy knew as well, before anything happened between them. A few days ago I was in the kitchen with Faith, just talking about stuff and she asks me about boys, like if I have a boyfriend or anything. I didn't say anything I just blushed. Then she pinned me against the counter and began to tickle me. I was laughing and neither of us heard Buffy walk in, Faith had this strange glint in her eye as she touched me. Buffy grabbed her and threw her onto the ground. I was really confused but she told me to go to my room, I guess I couldn't really argue. I heard them shout at each other, they were shouting about me. I heard the front door slam and Buffy turned on the TV. But anyway, last night.

I woke up about four, I really needed to pee so I walked out to go to the bathroom and I heard Buffy's door open. I stood still, hoping it wasn't Buffy because she would kick my ass for being up, but it was Faith. She looked as surprised as I felt. She said hi and we whispered for a few minutes, I noticed that she was wearing Buffy's pyjamas, but I didn't say anything. We both walked to the bathroom, she went first then I went. As I opened the door to go out she pushed me in. She told me she wanted to talk some more. I didn't know what to say so I asked her why she liked Buffy, cause I don't see how anyone could. She's annoying and she bullies me. Faith looked at me strangely. Then she said – 'Kid, no one can control how they feel about people.' I frowned. I said that she and Buffy get on real well; I said that they were like best friends, but they'd only known each other for a few weeks. She blinked and said 'oh' as if she'd just realised something. 'I thought-' I said 'what?' She shook her head. 'I dunno, I guess it's because we're both slayers.' She had a hickey on her neck, but I didn't point it out. I didn't want to know where she got it. Then Buffy walked in. She looked pissed off at both of us. I went to bed. Buffy seemed really pissed off at me today, I think that Faith and Buffy are together, I feel slightly odd – like I'm jealous or something.

Dawn xxx.




2 Weeks Later


Dear Diary,

Faith is really cool; she gave me a stake today. She told me not to tell Buffy, but to keep it in my bag whenever I go out. She wrapped it and tied a bow around it. I gave her a kiss on the cheek and a big hug. I think she was happy with that. We went upstairs to my room and she lied down on my bed as I got changed. I could feel her watching me but I didn't say anything. She told me that I was growing up so fast; I was turning into a woman. I said I wasn't, that there were girls in my class who looked so much older and more mature. She asked if it was because they had big breasts. I blushed and said yes. She shook her head and looked slightly annoyed she said – 'Dawn, you've got everything they have and more- in fact I can say that without a doubt you are much, much more beautiful then any of them. I've seen some of the people in your class they are nothing compared to you.' No one's ever complimented me before, well not like that. I saw her stare at me, looking at my body with the same look that she had when she was tickling me before. I walked over to her and sat on the bed beside her. I said 'Do you really think so?' She nodded and held my hand. She sat up and I realised how close we were, I could feel her breath on my face. She cupped my cheek and told me that I was very beautiful, Buffy was jealous of me. I laughed softly. Her eyes were so brown, her lips were so red, and she was so close. I could feel my heart rate increase, and I didn't know what I wanted her to do to me, but I knew it was very wrong and naughty.

Then Buffy walked in the door and Faith was gone. She had stood up off the bed and was across the room quicker then I could blink. I looked up at Buffy and smiled. She frowned. She asked me if I was feeling ok, cause I looked flushed. I said I was fine. Then she told Faith that she wanted to talk to her. I was alone again. I am so confused about my feelings.

Dawn (The Vampire Slayer!)




3 Weeks Later


Dear Diary,

Boy, have things changed! Buffy came into me today and told me that Faith was bad, she had decided to go over to the other side and was now our enemy. I can't believe it. She said Faith was going through a bad time and she needed time to sort things out, she just had to get the badness out of her system. I thought she was so good. Buffy said 'she is good, she's just confused'. I asked Buffy if she loved her. Buffy blushed and said that she didn't know what I was talking about. I said that I wasn't as young as she thought I was, that I knew about things. I said that I knew that Faith and her were more than friends. She got really angry and told me that if I ever said that to Mom she would seriously make me regret it, or if I said it to Angel. I guess no one else knows about it, or is supposed to know about it. I said that it was ok to be 'that' way. She screamed at me and told me she wasn't. So I asked what was she doing with Faith in her room to make all that noise. She blushed. I've never seen her so red before. 'I thought you were asleep.' I said that I wasn't. She looked defeated and sat beside me. She told me that it just happened, Faith had a way about her that attracted Buffy in ways she hadn't felt before. I said that it was ok and I wouldn't tell anyone. She thanked me, hugged me and left the room. I guess I was right all along. Except I'm really gonna miss Faith.

Dawn xxx




1 Year Later


Dear Diary,

Wow, it's been a really busy week. Faith woke up from her coma and decided to come and get her revenge on Buffy. Well, through some kind of witch magic they swapped minds or something and Faith was Buffy and Buffy was Faith. Kinda confusing. But it makes sense now when I think about it. Buffy was acting really weird all this week. She was acting very Faith-like. Well, I don't really know what happened between them, but they changed back and Faith went to LA, to stay with Angel, who, as far as I know, forgave her. Buffy went to get her and Faith turned herself in. I asked Buffy if I could visit her, but she said no. I wonder if I'll ever see her again?

Dawn xxx




1 Year Later


Dear Diary

Buffy's gone out slaying again, leaving me in the house again. I miss Mom, but I guess I'll just have to move on. She asked if I wanted Willow and Tara to baby-sit, or even Xander, but I wanted some alone time. I barely get through each day without crying at least once. Buffy solves everything by killing vampires, but I don't have that luxury. She told me that she wouldn't be back until very late tonight; she was going out to one of the bars in town. I said I didn't mind. I was going to be asleep before she comes back anyway. I am an old girl now – I still have that stake that Faith gave to me I can

*Bang*

I dropped my pen, what was that? I sat at my desk for a few minutes, not hearing anything else. I wondered if maybe it was figment of my imagination. Then my door opened slowly and Faith walked in.

"Oh god!" I cried. "What-why-don't hurt me!"

Faith shook her head, she held up her hands. "I won't! Relax!"

"Buffy's not here!" I stood up and knocked over my chair. "She's slaying." I began to back away from her.

"I know. I didn't want to see her." She walked towards me as I backed away. "I wanted to see you. I heard about your mom, I'm really sorry. I wish I could make it all better."

"Yeah well, no one can Faith. I just have to get over it. You should go, Buffy will be back soon."

"You need someone to talk to you, to help you get over it while Buffy is out every night. Neglecting you while she tends to her own needs- what's this?" She stopped by my desk and looked down at my diary.

"No!" I ran over to her and tried to grab the diary, but she grabbed my wrist and held it above my head as she read what I had written for today. She smiled and looked at me.

"You still have the stake?" I nodded. She picked me up and carried me over to my bed. She lay down on top of me and looked into my eyes. "I know big sis probably told you how I was all bad, but I want to let you know that I'm good now."

I could feel her whole body on top of me. I loved it, but I didn't want to admit it. "So is that why you're lying on top of me?"

"No, I'm doing this because I really want you." Faith bent down and was about to kiss me when I rolled out from under her.

"No you don't!" I cried, I was afraid. Was she good? I ran down the hallway not really thinking that Faith would catch me straight away. I kinda forgot that she was a slayer. She ran after me and pushed me into Buffy's room.

"Dawnie, why'd you go and do that? You're making me angry." She walked over and pushed me against Buffy's wall. "If you would just relax, I know you'll enjoy me. I know that you were crushing on me Dawn. Last time I saw you, you seemed pretty eager for me. I am a slayer I know these things." She held my arms down and buried her face in my neck.

I wanted to moan, her breath felt so good against me, her body felt so good against mine. I wanted her. I wanted every bit of her.

"You've grown up so much, become so womanly." She let go of my wrists, giving me the chance to get away, but we both knew I wouldn't. She began to caress my stomach with small touches, she moved slowly up my chest almost reaching my breasts, I could hear her breathing become harder. My nipples were rock hard, almost begging to be pinched. But she quickly pulled her hands away, staring down at them as if she couldn't believe what she was about to do.

"I-I-I... oh god... sorry..." Faith started to back away, but I grabbed her hands and placed them on my small breasts. Damn... it felt so good I moaned straight away. Her eyes widened, she stared at her hands on my breasts, she seemed to leave them there, so to give her a little initiative I grabbed her hands squeezing my breasts and making me moan again. She grinned and began to caress them, rubbing them harder and pinching my nipples. I clawed the wall behind me, not knowing if I should touch her back.

She pulled back suddenly.

"Dawn- I – this is wrong." Faith licked her lips as she stared at mine.

"You want me." I stated.

"Yes-no-..."

"Well, how about this: I want you to do what you want to do to me." I said, running my fingers over her taut stomach, feeling the muscles ripple under my fingertips.

"Oh god-" She rolled her eyes and moaned, I took her hand and she caressed my breast roughly, tweaking hard on the nipples and making me cry out. "Dawn, you shouldn't say that to me, I'm fresh outta prison."

I looked confused.

"I did a lot of stuff in prison that I never knew was possible. Stuff that really was unbelievably hot." Faith had both hands on my breasts now, pulling on my nipples and sending me into frenzy. I was breathing hard, my cheeks were flushed and I knew my panties were wet.

"So do it to me!" I almost screamed at her, I was so turned on.

"But don't you see? I can't. Buffy would kill me!"

"Buffy would never find out, not if we only did it once. We both sense the tension; it would be eased after we did something about it, then we would never have to mention it again." My hand was near my crotch, waiting to touch my pussy.

Faith groaned in frustration. "I can't..."

I cupped my pussy, rubbing it gently, sliding my finger across the seam of my jeans. I looked down and watched my hand as I touched myself. I leant back against the wall and began to breathe harder. Faith was actually whimpering as she stared down at my hand.

"Dawn..." She cupped my breasts again pinching and caressing them. I moaned loudly, if I kept this up I was going to come, hard.

Then she kissed me, I groaned in relief and she groaned in surrender. She pulled my hand away from my pussy and replaced it with her own, cupping me expertly, sliding her fingers over my clit. Her tongue pushed into my mouth, conquering me and making me her own. I undid the zipper on my jeans, took her hand and placed it inside my jeans. Taking the initiative, she slid her hand in and began to touch me inside my panties, my legs buckled as I felt her fingers slide across my clit.

She picked me up and put me on Buffy's bed. She climbed on top of me and began to kiss me harder, her tongue driving into my mouth. Her hand slid back into my panties and I moaned into her mouth as her fingers took hold of my clit and she began to tug on it. My hips pumped with her hand, driving harder and harder. She left my mouth and began to kiss my neck, suckling softly on the skin, nipping it gently. Small cries left my mouth as she slid her fingers down and into my tight cunt.

"Oh god... Dawn... you're so tight..." She whimpered into my ear, and then began to nibble on it.

I gasped into the room; my mind clouded over and couldn't understand anything except what she was doing to me. I reached out and cupped her breast, rubbing my thumb over her nipple, she moaned and slid her finger deeper into my wet pussy. She curled her finger, and I screamed out into the room. The orgasm burst through my body, I felt my hole tighten around her finger and my wetness seep out into my panties. I gasped and tried to catch my breath, as I lay limp on the bed. But Faith hadn't finished yet.

She slid down to the bottom of the bed and eased my jeans and panties over my hips. She spread my legs and stared at me for what seemed like hours, from the look on her face I was getting all hot again. I propped myself up on my elbows and smiled at her.

"Hi." She grinned at me.

"Hi yourself." I whispered. "You gonna lick me now?"

She moaned and I felt her breath on my pussy. Her tongue deftly pushed between my pussy lips, straight to my clit. I moaned and fell back on to the bed again. I could hear her moaning as she flicked my clit over and over with her tongue. Looking down at her I could see she had her right hand in her trousers. I couldn't form the words to tell her not to, that I would touch and lick her, but I was so drunk on sex that it seemed impossible.

I cried out and then groaned hoarsely into the room, her tongue slipped into my hole and I moaned and squirmed on the bed against her face. I clutched uselessly at the bed sheets, pounding my hips into her eager face. She pumped her tongue in and out of my hole in rhythm to my thrusts. Her left hand began to rub my clit, as her tongue seemed to just reach inside me, I grabbed on to her head as I felt another orgasm start up. I felt her breath hard on my cunt as she came as well; I screamed again jarring my hips with each spasm against her face.

When we had both recovered, she stood up, wiped her mouth and fixed her clothes.

"Dawn fix your clothes, I can sense Buffy is near. She'll be home soon."

"But Faith-"

She spun around. "Look, just do it!"

A little hurt and taken back by what she said I stood and fixed my clothes, I didn't like the feel of my cold wet panties sticking to my hot skin. Faith fixed Buffy's bed; she looked really worried, almost regretful. She made me go to my room and she stood listening out for a few seconds.

"Faith, please make friends with Buffy, you can't go around avoiding her for the rest of your life. You really should become friends. I'll even try to make her come around." I tugged gently on her jacket sleeve.

She spun around looking angry, I thought she was going to shout at me, but I saw her face change and she looked like she was about to cry. She dropped to her knees in front of me and leant her face against my abdomen, her hands held tightly to my arms.

"I promise, Dawn, I'll try to reconcile things with B." I ran my hand through her hair, relishing this moment of weakness.

The door opened downstairs and suddenly Faith was gone. I looked in the mirror to make sure I was ok and then went to see how Buffy's night was.

End