:: Anya, Buffy, Angel and the 
Theme of Vengeance ::
Written By
ShadowKat
(Feeling very vengeful today so I thought I'd blow off 
some steam and write an essay on vengeance and how we all seek it, we all do it, 
and until we stop, we're doomed.)
"I think this is going to be a very big year for 
vengeance."(Anya in Restless, Btvs Season 4)
Truer words were never spoken, particularly for 2001 and 2002 and specifically 
in my life. Been thinking a lot about vengeance lately.  Today in particular, 
because I am royally pissed at my boss and feeling very tense about life in 
general.  Without going into graphic details, let's just say not only do I live 
in NYC, but my boss is in every respect imaginable is the boss in the Dilbert 
comic strip.  Also really begging here - if you know of any job opportunities in 
writing or copyright permissions, please email me!  If I report to this guy much 
longer, I may turn into a vengeance demon, although I must say writing these 
essays have helped. That's right - you have my evil boss to thank for all my 
wonderful essays. 
But enough about me - vengeance is an apt and recurring theme in Btvs. Apt 
because as much as we hate to admit, we live in a vengeful society. A vengeful, 
unforgiving, judgmental and often self-righteous society. If you don't believe 
me just turn on the nightly news or CNN or Crossfire -and  there it is in living 
color. We as a society don't appear to know how to forgive others or ourselves.  
And until we figure it out, we're doomed.
Here's three wonderful quotes about forgiveness, not from Btvs:
"Father forgive them for they know not what they do." Jesus while he's on the 
cross.
"Whoever amongst you who has not sinned, can throw the first stone." Jesus to 
the mob stoning Mary Magdalene
"Turn the other cheek." Jesus in the Bible
Here's  a few from Btvs:  
"You're weak. Everybody is. Everybody fails." (Buffy forgiving Angel in Amends, 
Season 3 Btvs).
"Not a vengeance hobby, no! It's dangerous. People can't do anything 
they want. Society has rules, and borders, and an end zone. It doesn't 
matter if-" (Xander explaining to Anya why vengeance is bad in Restless)
"Maybe the way to start forgiving yourself is by starting to forgive him." 
(Lorne to Angel regarding Wesley after Wesley kidnapped Angel's son to protect 
him from Angel. Season 3 Ats)
"Vengeance is never sated, buffy. Hatred is a cycle." (Giles in Pangs Season 4 
Btvs)
The most forgiving character in the Buffyverse is Buffy. That is why she remains 
my hero. This girl can forgive a soulless demon, who has tried repeatedly to 
kill her, long enough to let him help her save the universe (see Intervention - 
The Gift Season 5 Btvs.) I think it is safe to say that this twenty-one year old 
girl has a greater capacity for forgiveness than most of the audience watching 
her. And that people, is ironic.  She certainly has a greater capacity for it 
than her friends, neither Xander nor Willow have a clue how to forgive 
themselves or anyone else who hurts them - they hurt back. (See Something Blue 
and Wild at Heart for Willow, Bewitched Bothered & Bewildered for Xander) That's 
the easy path - to hurt back. Believe me, I know. But it never ever solves 
anything, as we are about to find out on both Angel and Btvs again this year. 
Angel is ahead of the game. In Angel, we've been introduced to a righteous 
vampire hunter from the 12th century who has traveled through time to avenge 
himself on Angel, who massacred his entire family. The character of Holtz 
reminds me a great deal of John Wayne's character Ethan in the old John Ford 
film the Searchers. In this film, the demons are the Apache (native Americans) 
who have massacred Ethan's family and taken his niece. With his nephew, Ethan 
goes on a quest, a long five-year quest, to find the girl and kill her Apache 
captors. By the end of the movie, you can no longer tell the difference between 
Ethan and the Apaches' he hates. Vengeance has consumed him. When he reaches the 
girl, played by a young Natalie Wood, he has decided to kill her, because she 
has become tainted by the Apache and in his mind is no longer human. He has 
demonized her.  If I remember the ending, it has been awhile since I've seen the 
film, his nephew prevents Ethan from killing her. Ethan's crusade did not 
resurrect any of his loved ones all it did was consume him, make him worse than 
the enemy he hated.  The same thing has happened to Holtz in Angel this year, a 
once righteous man has become as evil as the demons he hunts. Perhaps more so. 
This year we've seen him sell his soul to a demon, burn down Lorne's club, 
coerce Justine into slashing Wesley's throat, and take Angel's child into a hell 
dimension. 
Buffy the Vampire Slayer has dealt with the theme of vengeance repeatedly over 
the years. As far back as Season 2, Passion - Giles tried to kill Angel because 
of Jenny's death (Angelus had just murdered Jenny and left her in Giles bed as a 
gift.) Xander of course was completely behind Giles' actions : "And if Giles  
wants to go after the, uh, (looks up at Buffy) fiend that murdered his  
girlfriend, I say, 'Faster, Pussycat! Kill! Kill!'" But our heroine, she of calm 
head, is worried and goes off to save Giles. As she wisely states: "There's only 
one thing wrong with Giles' little revenge scenario. It's gonna get him killed." 
She's said this repeatedly over the years - the most recent to Willow in Tough 
Love. Willow also ignores her and goes after Glory with black magic, an act that 
may have taken Willow down a road she wouldn't have traveled otherwise. There's 
an old wiccan saying - the evil you send out comes back to you three fold, 
doesn't really matter whether it's justified. 
Let's stop briefly to catch our breaths, having some trouble doing that today, 
feeling very vengeful, and reexamine the difference between self-defense and 
vengeance. If someone is attacking you or you know they're plotting your demise 
- then yes, you ought to take action to stop them. Example - the US's current 
campaign against terrorism or Buffy's slaying of demons/Angelus. But if someone 
did something to hurt you and it was not to destroy you or they weren't planning 
your demise - example my silly boss or Wesley's taking of Connor to protect him 
or Spike and Anya sleeping together, then taking action against them is not only 
uncalled for, but self-destructive. We have to watch how far we take vengeance 
or like Angel's Holtz, it will consume us. Sometimes forgiveness is as necessary 
for the injured party as it is for the guilty one. Possibly more so.  And there 
is nothing harder in this world than forgiveness. I'm not sure I can ever 
forgive my boss for being the backstabbing bastard that he is…but we will see. 
Can Anya forgive Xander for being Captain Fear? Can Xander forgive Anya for 
lashing out at him in the only way she knows how? Can Spike forgive Buffy for 
not returning his love? Can Buffy forgive Spike for being a demon lashing out at 
her in the only way he knows how? Do we, the audience have the right to judge 
fictional characters on behaviors that we ourselves could be capable of under 
similar situations? What's that saying - People in Glass Houses Should Not 
Through Stones?? (And if you think you don't live in a glass house, look again. 
I'm sure you can find a window somewhere.)
Revenge may get you killed. It could get you fired. It may possibly destroy your 
life. It has made a mess of our world. 
When Anya was first introduced in Season 3's the Wish - it was as a vengeance 
demon. She represented the pain and hurt that Cordelia felt when she found 
Xander and Willow smooching in the old Factory. It is ironic that Anya, who was 
called by Cordelia to scorn Xander, inadvertently enacts her vengeance against 
Xander by sleeping with Spike. Nice karma there. And Xander, nice as he is, does 
deserve a bit of karmic revenge. He has gone down the road of vengeance himself 
upon occasion and has learned it never turns out well. Here's a scene from 
Bewitched, Bothered and Bewildered where Xander blackmails Amy into helping him 
conjure a nasty love spell to torment Cordelia:
Xander:  (glares back) Blackmail is such an ugly word.
Amy:  I didn't say blackmail.
Xander:  Yeah, but I'm about to blackmail you, so I thought I'd bring it up.
Amy:  (folds her arms) What do you want?
Xander:  (chuckles) What do I want? I want some respect around here. I 
want, for *once*, to come out ahead. I want the Hellmouth to be working 
for me. You and me, Amy... (looks back at Cordelia sitting with Harmony 
now) we're gonna cast a little spell.
Amy:  A love spell?
Xander:  Yeah. You know, just the basic can't eat, can't sleep, can't 
breathe anything but little old moi. (edited for length) The point is I want her 
to want me. Desperately. So I can break up with *her* and subject her to the 
same hell she's been puttin' *me* through.
Amy:  (turns and steps away) Oh, I don't know, Xander. (turns back) 
Intent has to be pure with love spells.
Xander:  Right. I intend revenge. Pure as the driven snow. Now, are you 
gonna play, or do we need to have another chat about invisible homework?
And you all thought that Xander was pure as the driven snow? Please. Of course 
he finds out that revenge spells don't always work out as we intend them to. He 
gets the worst end of the stick. All the women come after him and try to tear 
him apart limb by limb when he doesn't appreciate their attentions. Also he 
nearly devastates poor Willow who had always had a crush on him. That's the 
thing about karma - it comes back and kicks you in the butt. Xander does 
eventually manage to break poor Cordy's heart by stealing smoochies with Willow 
over the course of four episodes and finally getting caught. This round Cordelia 
unwittingly curses Xander and ends up signing her own death warrant. In The 
Wish, Anya grants Cordy's wish that  Buffy never came to Sunnydale, which 
creates an incredibly dark Alternate Universe where Xander and Willow are the 
resident Big Bads and kill Cordy. Luckily for Cordelia, Giles comes to the 
rescue and destroys Anya's power center, effectively undoing the wish. 
Anya knows quite a bit about vengeance. In fact both Anya and Spike do, being 
demons, vengeance comes naturally to them - because well it causes chaos and 
disrupts the world and is evil. Anya felt powerful as a vengeance demon - when 
people hurt her or hurt others - she eviscerated them. As D'Hoffryn, her old 
boss states: "When you were a vengeance demon, you were powerful, at the top of 
your game. You crushed men like him." (Hell's Bells, Season 6 Btvs.) Vengeance, 
Anya believes is a powerful and inevitable thing. A view she and Spike agree on, 
in Where the Wild Things Are (Season 4, Btvs.):
SPIKE: It's a terrible thing, love is. I been there myself. (Pause) It ended 
badly.
ANYA: Of course it did. It always does. Seen a thousand relationships. First 
there's the nothing left but the vengeance. That's how it works. (Spike smiles, 
leans in really close.)
SPIKE: You and I ... should just go do the vengeance. Both of us! You eviscerate 
Xander, and I'll stake Dru. Like a project.
Our poor demons, can't help but feel sorry for them, they've had the ill luck of 
falling for Buffy and Xander, two terribly insecure twenty-somethings.  Spike 
and Anya would have been better off taking up with each other.  But they didn't, 
because as Spike has stated more than once, love is a funny thing and it's not 
about brains. Also I believe the Powers That Be have a wicked sense of humor. So 
what do you do when there's as Anya so succinctly sings in OMWF: "There's 
wedding and betrayle and I know there'll come a time when I'll want to run and 
hide?"  
Vengeance is the worst possible answer. It's what Kurtz did long ago in 
Apocalypse Now. In the film by Francis Ford Coppola, Willard goes into the 
jungles to locate and kill Col. Kurtz, who had ventured into the jungles years 
before to revenge the deaths of his men. The vengeance began to take over, until 
Kurtz was literally hollowed out by it and nothing remained but the need for 
vengeance. It was never over. And this is important, it did not bring back his 
men. This reminds me of the debate for the Death Penalty that I witnessed on the 
Kansas State Senate Floor in 1994. The debate was concerning a proposal to 
re-enact the death penalty in the state of Kansas after it had been discarded 
fifty years before. Without exception, every argument was about retribution. 
People quoted from the Old Testament about an "eye for an eye".  The action 
passed. Apparently we like to retribution - we like vengeance. It makes us feel 
better. As a friend of mine stated at the time: Wouldn't you want the state to 
kill me if I raped your mother and killed your family? Well yeah, but it 
wouldn't bring them back and it wouldn't erase the pain. If anything it would 
make it worse, because then I'd have your death and your family's pain on my 
conscience. 
Back to Btvs. In Season 4, the episode Pangs discusses forgiveness and vengeance 
with a dash of wit. In this episode, the angry spirit of a Chumash Indian is 
revived by a University construction project. The spirit proceeds to enact 
vengeance on the Scooby Gang. In the episode, the gang discusses the 
justification of vengeance and how to deal with it.  Willow takes the Indians 
point of view, stating how they are justified and that we treated them horribly. 
Xander believes vengeance is a bad thing and all vengeance demons should be 
killed, particularly the one who gave him syphillus. Giles takes the stance that 
you need to get rid of the menace before it kills you. It's too late to 
apologize and feeling all guilty about it isn't going to get you anywhere. Giles 
also states how vengeance just builds on itself, becoming a vicious cycle of 
hate. The only thing that can break it - is forgiveness. Enter Spike, their 
mortal enemy requesting help. In exchange, he promises to provide information. 
It is an interesting scene - because outside we have the nasty vengeance spirit, 
inside the admittance of a former enemy into the group. They tie Spike up, but 
they also grant him shelter, food, and some sort of protection. In a sense the 
SG manage to do what the Indian spirits cannot, forgive a former enemy, at least 
partially. They are eventually rewarded for this act  - Spike helps them in 
Season 5 defeat Glory, aids in the patrolling of Sunnydale while Buffy is dead, 
saves Buffy in OMWF, and saves Xander in OAFA and Normal Again. If they hadn't 
allowed Spike in, would they have succeeded in defeating Glory? Would Buffy have 
imploded? Forgiveness can have some astonishing results. 
How about Angel? If Angel had not allowed Darla back into his life, not forgiven 
her, would he have had any time with his son? Connor? If Wesley and the Fang 
Gang hadn't forgiven Angel for firing them and acting like a slease, would they 
have survived the Alternate Universe and found Fred? If Buffy hadn't forgiven 
Angel for losing his soul, would there even be an Angel?  There can only be 
redemption if we have forgiveness. Forgiveness is a central ingredient to 
Christianity. The religion is founded on it. The story goes - that Jesus Christ 
died in order to forgive the sins of humanity. By his forgiveness, we are saved. 
But forgiveness isn't an easy thing. The biggest problem with it, is sometimes 
you are forced to forgive someone who has absolutely no "pangs". No guilt. No 
remorse.  Here's that pivotal scene from Pangs regarding vengeance:
Willow : There are 2 sides to it. 
Xander : Slaying him? The representative from syphilis votes yea. 
Willow : It's not that simple. 
Xander : He's a vengeance demon. You don't talk to vengeance demons. You kill 
them. 
Anya : (Drawing back.) I didn't know you felt that way. 
Xander : (Totally confused.) What? 
Willow : Anyway, he's a spirit, not a demon. 
Giles : Yes, and we've never faced this sort of spirit before. We really don't 
know what will kill it. 
Willow : Again with the killing. 
Giles : Figuratively speaking. Or bind it or whatever. Yes, willow, we all 
appreciate your perspective. 
Anya : Sometimes vengeance is justified. 
Xander : You know that I didn't mean you. 
Willow : I don't think anyone appreciates the truth of the situation. 
Giles : Oh, I think we do. Hus won't stop. Vengeance is never sated, buffy. 
Hatred is a cycle. All he will do is kill. 
There's a knock at the door. Buffy goes to answer it and Spike is standing 
there, cowering below a blanket. Smoke rises as he's being seared by the 
indirect sun.
Spike : Help me. (Buffy shoves him back and he goes tumbling.) Ohh! What part of 
help me do you not understand? 
Sorry for the length of the quote but I think it expresses our characters views 
on vengeance perfectly. Xander reacts with himself and his needs in mind. Anya 
and Willow take the Indians side. And Giles sees it from a practical 
perspective. It's Buffy who remains on the fence. But my favorite part is Spike. 
Spike who fits Giles' definition of a soulless killing machine, appears harmless 
and in desperate need of help. Evil with a twist. Poor Buffy, Evil isn't just 
Evil any more, it's coming in shades of gray.  As she states she preferred her 
evil: "You know, "straight up, black hat, "Tied to the train tracks, soon my 
electro-ray will destroy metropolis" bad. Not all mixed up with guilt and the 
destruction of an indigenous culture."  But evil isn't like that folks. It's 
insidious. Sometimes it comes in the form of an evil boss who upsets you so 
badly you spend all day writing an essay on Buffy instead of doing work. I've 
seen evil. Used to see if every day when I was working on the Kansas Defender 
Project. Went up to Leavenworth Penitentiary, walked into what looked like an 
airport lounge and counseled unreformed unrepentant murderers, rapists and 
robbers. And want to know what I discovered? What my advisor kept trying to tell 
me, over and over again: "There but for the grace of god, go I." Life isn't 
simple. The good guys don't wear white hats like in the old 1950's westerns and 
the bad guys don't wear black ones. Sometimes things are just a tad more 
convoluted.
Anya - poor dear Anya, my heart goes out to her. She really tried to make this 
mortal coil thing work. She was marrying her best friend, had gotten a job, was 
starting a life. What she didn't count on was her best friend was a dope. Okay 
maybe not a dope, but Xander should have discussed his fears with Anya, let her 
know what was going on. Didn't he realize what he was dealing with? And what 
about Spike? Yeah, I know, Evil. ME is determined to reiterate this thesis, even 
if they lose fifty percent of their audience in the process. But let's give Evil 
(Spike) it's due, evil has been bending over backwards lately to be good. He's 
fought alongside the SG, sacrificed his life for the SG (on more than one 
occasion, Intervention - let Glory torture him to death before revealing the 
key, almost got killed by Doc in Weight of the World and The Gift, saved Dawn 
from Pirates in Bargaining, saved Buffy in OMWF, saved Xander and almost got 
skewered in Older and Far Away, saved Xander and almost got spiked in Normal 
Again, helped Tara in Family, stayed around all summer while Buffy was dead and 
buried helping the SG and taking care of Dawn.) but apparently that's not 
enough. The Powers That Be require something a lot greater than that. Not sure 
what. Does he have to ask for Forgiveness to obtain it? Does he have to do 
something unrelated to Buffy? Does he have to actively seek to be good for no 
other reason than he wants to be? Again I am reminded of Alex in A Clockwork 
Orange - who in the 21st Chapter of Burgess' book determines that there is more 
worth in creation than destruction. And he is more than a windup toy for God or 
the Devil. I hope that Spike and Anya are too. Heck I hope the same thing about 
us.