Home | New/Updated | Completed | Authors | Titles | Search | Sweet Temptation | TopTen | Betas | Challenges | Tools | Chat | Help | Login Sympathy for the Devil by ComedyofErrors   hotlipedjen Chapter 19 07/17/2006 02:14 pm Just read. It was great. Good job!   Milly Chapter 19 07/09/2006 06:07 pm Great story, makes me wonder why the writers of BTVS couldn't have come up with something like this on the show, instead of kick the Spike we all had to contend with, at least we have people like yourself, the wonderful fanfic writers to soothe us and make it all better, well done.   CutieSaiyajin Chapter 19 06/07/2006 11:11 pm This was absolutely stunning. I really enjoyed this story a lot.   Shadowhawke Chapter 19 04/25/2006 06:41 am This was a beautiful story. Thank you very much for it.   Phishie Chapter 19 04/23/2006 08:13 am I cried and cried, and then you just had to bring up the 'burning baby fishes'. xD Not much I can say about this fic besides WOW. Without a doubt the best smutless fic I've -ever- had the pleasure of reading.   Jenna Chapter 19 04/20/2006 12:31 pm Bravo! Wonderful...simply wonderful.   Bookchick of the Novel Clan Chapter 19 04/16/2006 11:06 pm Wonderful, I really enjoyed this. Made me get the warm tinglys in some spots and the cold shiverys in others, just what a fic should do. Bravo!   Dirktavian Chapter 19 04/11/2006 02:44 am Absolutely brilliant! I loved it-- 'Course, I kind of like the stuff that happens after the "fade to black." But sweet, tender, and wonderful. I love how you portray Spike so dead-on at being touched by Buffy's admission to Joyce and Giles.   Vickie Chapter 19 04/06/2006 01:13 am Loved this story! wish there was more.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 19 04/05/2006 01:27 am Beautiful ending! This was a sweet way to end. Great story from beginning to end. It will be worth a reread over the years too. {huggles} I look forward to whatever inspires you next to work on.   rayan Chapter 19 04/04/2006 06:24 am lovely ending...hihi...noooo thank youuu for writing the story *giggles*   slaymesoftly Chapter 19 04/03/2006 09:01 pm A lovely ending to an intriguing fic. If only Buffy had been capable of that kind of empathy on the show.   Lou Chapter 19 04/03/2006 08:59 am Lovely that it ends with Buffy kissing him - I like optimistic!   fallen_angel Chapter 19 04/03/2006 05:29 am aw it over! gonna miss it. thanks for the gr8 read. giv us a sequel   fallen_angel Chapter 19 04/03/2006 05:27 am   akarinacj Chapter 19 04/03/2006 12:12 am Aww, that was nice. But I want a sequel.... please, please?   Kristen Chapter 19 04/02/2006 11:42 pm Aw, its over already? Darn! Gotta say...I LOVE THIS! The memories were great, they really showed Buffy who Spike is and only something like really, really getting inside his head would propel her to start a relantionship with him. And seeing my name in the thank you list? Very cool, lol.   vladt Chapter 19 04/02/2006 10:25 pm thank you for a very fine read.   Taylormaid Chapter 19 04/02/2006 10:11 pm This melted my heart. I hate that it is over though! Thanks for a wonderful story!   pretty_in_fangs Chapter 19 04/02/2006 09:20 pm Oh wonderful. Lovely lovely lovely. Sorry it had to end, but what a note to end on. Thank you for writing it.   Jessica Chapter 19 04/02/2006 08:17 pm This was an amazing story. I absolutely loved it from beginning to end. It was great to see Spike's memories and emotions, how he realized his feelings for Buffy. And how she started to like him also. I know that I will miss it. Maybe you can write a sequel? I mean it, this was an excellent story.   me Chapter 19 04/02/2006 07:30 pm FIN? Darn! Great story, loved every chapter.   Joyce Chapter 19 04/02/2006 07:20 pm Great open ending that leaves room for a sequel. We can hope, can't we?   kim Chapter 19 04/02/2006 06:20 pm Awwwww, it's over? Dang it...I really loved this one...not quite ready to see it end, but I guess that's a good place, since they have all possibilities before them now.   Isabel Chapter 19 04/02/2006 06:08 pm Awww! It's over? Darn! It was such a great story. I loved it. The ending was perfect. So touching and emotional. I'm really sad that we've reached the end of this amazing story. Looking forward to more of your work. Good job.   Esther Chapter 19 04/02/2006 05:56 pm That was gorgeous!! Oh, I'm crying tears of joy because it was beautiful and tears of sadness cause it's over. So glad that they ended with a tender kiss and Spike's fave word: effulgent. I'm truly gonna miss this story. *hugs*   Karyn Chapter 19 04/02/2006 04:55 pm *big dramatic sigh* it's over...*weeps* was a fantastic ride, i enjoyed every bit of it, you took my challege and created something far beyond what i'd hoped for! wonderful job and thank you so much!   UncagedMuse Chapter 19 04/02/2006 04:48 pm Excellent ending!   Bridget Chapter 19 04/02/2006 04:40 pm Very nicely done. I am glad the ending was sweet and you did not have them having sex immediately. Great story.   SpaceLord Chapter 19 04/02/2006 04:33 pm Ohh I loved this story, it was a really fun ride.   Ariel Dawn Chapter 19 04/02/2006 03:55 pm Wow, that was a great ending. Great fic, loved it all!   jl1980 Chapter 19 04/02/2006 03:40 pm incredibly lovely...a beautiful ending to a wonderful story...sad that it's over, but i thoroughly enjoyed every moment of this ride!! thanx so much!   Jackofspikes Chapter 19 04/02/2006 02:53 pm I loved it...but now I want more...dare I suggest...SEQUEL!   Pulchra Nex Chapter 19 04/02/2006 02:10 pm I really loved this story! I won't forget about it!   Nikkole Chapter 19 04/02/2006 02:02 pm I think that was a perfect ending! I loved the part when she admitted that she didn't feel the same way, but new that she could. VERY good story!   pfeifferpack Chapter 19 04/02/2006 01:03 pm BRAVO ...::::: throws roses at your feet:::::... I have completely been in love with this story from start to finish. You took the challenge and gave a story with depth and insight that stayed true to character the whole way. This is a perfect example of doing a story to answer a what if and still "feeling" like canon because you had a perfect take on the characters. Wonderful! Kathleen   MarzBar Chapter 19 04/02/2006 12:57 pm Thank you for the great story. Good way to clear up the Slayer's misinformed opinions about Spike and his origins. Nice ending with lots of good Spuffy possibilities.   Dirktavian Chapter 18 04/11/2006 02:33 am I'm not sure how I missed this update, but this is a great chapter. I went looking for this story, because I love it so much and hadn't seen it for a while. I was thrilled to see there were additional chapters that I hadn't read. Nice interplay between Buffy and Giles. And I love slightly broken and vulnerable Spike, who would rather not have her than just have Buffy there out of pity-- How can you not love a man like that?   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 18 03/29/2006 01:34 am You handled the discussion with Giles really well. Everyone was still true to their selves while being better and different too. {Grins} I hope that Buffy can convince Spike that she does mean to stay and try to work things out with them. I look forward to the next update.   Lindy Chapter 18 03/26/2006 09:25 pm I like how she's standing up for herself! More please!   Jessica Chapter 18 03/25/2006 06:27 pm Very curious to see what happens now that she has her mom's and Giles' semi-approval. Love it so far. Looking forward to more.   rayan Chapter 18 03/25/2006 02:42 pm love this story...i really felt spikes pain..and buffys conflicted emotions....just lovely...kep it up   Cewcew Chapter 18 03/25/2006 11:41 am Still a grate story. Enjoying the good read. Excelant work. Hope for another update soon.   PyroChilde Chapter 18 03/25/2006 09:40 am Awww, how sweet. I liked Giles little slip up, starting to call Buffy his daughter. It was cute. Great chap.   kim Chapter 18 03/24/2006 07:51 pm That was good! Very much liking the more mature and compassionate Buffy here. Poor Spike...those nightmares are probably going to come around for a while...   Esther Chapter 18 03/24/2006 06:36 pm Oh, that was simply gorgeous! So glad that Buffy had the guts to tell Giles how she feels about Spike and I'm really glad that Giles listened. Than that ending...gah, I cried for him. Poor Spike. More, please!!!   jl1980 Chapter 18 03/24/2006 05:43 pm oh poor spike!!! i feel so bad for him, but the end was so sweet... and the argument between giles and buffy was priceless too ... love this story lots!!   Spikez_tart Chapter 18 03/24/2006 05:00 pm Only Giles would wear a suit to hang out in a crypt. Love the story.   ¨savard.p@videotron.ca Chapter 18 03/24/2006 04:54 pm I just love this story. And I can hardly wait for every new chapter. It's very creative of you. I like this new Buffy. And there was only one way to get this Buffy and it was through what you did, make her live inside Spike's mind. Keep on the good work. And I'll still be waiting for the coming chapers. And also I'll get a look on your other stories. Pierrie   Nikkole Chapter 18 03/24/2006 03:15 pm I really liked this chapter! I am glad that Giles watns to accept what Buffy is feeling and yet still remains gaurded. Very understandable. I also liekd his little slip of almost calling her his daughter. I can't wait for the next chapter!   ChrissieLinnit Chapter 18 03/24/2006 02:39 pm Oh, I've waited so very long for this chapter... and it was worth the wait, so very worth it! There were times, through this fis when I doubted that you'd get us to a Spuffy conclusion. Times when I thought that Buffy was never going to really let herself see the depths that make up Spike. But, it's clear in her conversation here with Giles that she not only saw the layers of Spike, but understood them and accepted all that she experienced inside his mind. The Buffy - Giles interaction was very touching. I wish I'd had a father figure like that. Fantastic chapter, pet. Well done.   MarzBar Chapter 18 03/24/2006 02:32 pm Good on Buffy for telling Giles straight out without the yelling, complaining, hedging and pouting. I'm worried about Spike's dream. More story please.   Tamara Chapter 18 03/24/2006 02:26 pm Who says you can't use things from cartoons in real life. Good job on her telling Giles, Now she just has the loudmouth to convince. I'm glad she went back, it would've been cruel to leave him alone.   akarinacj Chapter 18 03/24/2006 01:59 pm What can I say, I just love this fic. Please update soon!!!!   pretty_in_fangs Chapter 18 03/24/2006 01:47 pm I always enjoy seeing the confrontation between Buffy and Giles over Spike. I thought you did it really well. It was a believable response from a Giles of that time.   Jackofspikes Chapter 18 03/24/2006 01:44 pm Your fiction introduced me to this site...I will be eternally grateful for that. Your fiction helps me remember why I write...I will be eternally grateful for that too. Once again you have moved me with this fic...and I'm eternally grateful...Thank you for sharing it.   vladt Chapter 18 03/24/2006 01:21 pm loved the update. somewhat surprised by giles nearly calm reaction. thanks for the fine read.   pfeifferpack Chapter 18 03/24/2006 12:06 pm Good call from Buffy about the biggest problem Giles had......Jenny and the whole Angel being trusted wrongly! Excellent update...oh how I long for these! Your Spike is vulnerable but in character, well done. Buffy is understandably nervous about trusting herself even more than trusting Spike...again, in character. Wonder what Dru has pland for the GGK demon? Just imagine her with her pixies and talking dolls having a big dose of THAT poison in her system....whew! Kathleen   Joyce Chapter 18 03/24/2006 11:44 am Fantastic chappie! You hit the real nitty gritty of the matter from all angles. Wonder if the cure did not completely take re the nightmares continuing?   UncagedMuse Chapter 18 03/24/2006 11:37 am Wonderful chap!   deedo Chapter 18 03/24/2006 11:03 am i really liked this chapter especially the conversation between giles and buffy (can't remember something like that happening on the show) and that buffy is finally willing to give spike a chance despite what everyone might have to object   Pin Chapter 18 03/24/2006 11:01 am Excellent chapter. I like the way Buffy deals with her feelings in a more direct way and talks things over with the people who might influence her decision. Looking forward to the next one.   Bridget Chapter 18 03/24/2006 10:46 am Good conversation between Giles and Buffy. They conversed like adults. Great job.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 17 03/29/2006 01:28 am A very touching scene between Joyce and Buffy. She isn't being all denial Buffy, and Joyce's acceptance will help to encourage Buffy.   Deb Chapter 17 03/21/2006 05:47 pm Fantastic contintuation. Smoochies please.   slaymesoftly Chapter 17 03/12/2006 10:39 am I think I still love this story - I hope it isn't quite over yet?   Dirktavian Chapter 17 03/11/2006 04:14 pm Very nice interaction between the all-knowing Joyce (miss her) and poor, confused Buffy. Can't wait til the Watcher gets out of the way and Buffy can take care of Spike....mmm, naughty, clandestine activities! Yum!   Athenewolfe Chapter 17 03/11/2006 07:41 am What a nice chapter... I am glad that Buffy is going to be supportative of Spike and not just freak out and beat him ... i love how Joyce are written.. so nice! Looking forward to the next update!   akarinacj Chapter 17 03/11/2006 05:03 am Nice chapter. More soon please.!!!   Jessica Chapter 17 03/11/2006 01:32 am I really do think that you have to know that Spike doesn't do things half-way to understand him. I'm glad that Buffy recognized the memory of Spike under her tree with the cigarette and the shrine as just that. Loved the chapter.   Cewcew Chapter 17 03/11/2006 12:43 am I likes it! I do.   Esther Chapter 17 03/10/2006 10:20 pm Aww, great chapter!! I wanted to cry with Spike's reaction on Buffy leaving him. Great story and I can't wait for more!!   Carol Chapter 17 03/10/2006 09:08 pm Excellent chapter. I like the way Buffy is handling everything. Joyce, too.   jl1980 Chapter 17 03/10/2006 07:13 pm i love joyce...she has so much insight...and spike's reaction to her destroying his shrine...heartbreaking...she needs to be careful with him...can't wait for the next update..   Steph Chapter 17 03/10/2006 06:10 pm *sigh of releif* I'm so glad she didn't completely freak out awesome chapter...now giles.. (insert ominoius music here)....   gaillee Chapter 17 03/10/2006 06:00 pm Thanks for a really warm feeling update. I loved it.   Spikez_tart Chapter 17 03/10/2006 04:46 pm Mean Buffy. Give Spike back his underwear collection. Buffy is so cruel. Great story.   Bridget Chapter 17 03/10/2006 04:42 pm Great update. I really enjoyed the conversation between Buffy and her Mom. Please update soon.   Nikkole Chapter 17 03/10/2006 04:26 pm Very good chapter. I am glad that Buffy started by asking her mom the what if question. Also, I am very glad that she asked if loving her dad had been worth the pain. This is a very real question that I think a lot of people tak for granted. It is a long road to reach the happiness at the end!   MarzBar Chapter 17 03/10/2006 04:04 pm Who is this Buffy?? She's being kind to Spike and others. More story please.   Karyn Chapter 17 03/10/2006 03:49 pm *squeals with delight over update* wonderful chappie... i love that Buffy's squeaked by the idol thing but that she's will to go ahead anyway...poor confused spike...even when he thought he was in trouble he still tried for a smoochie...rofl   kim Chapter 17 03/10/2006 03:36 pm Lovely chapter. Hope the next comes soon.   pfeifferpack Chapter 17 03/10/2006 03:26 pm This is a great update. I think I like Buffy having a little struggle with the obsessive part of SpikeLove, it's a normal reaction (but the shrinelike behavior if not unusual in people....most just don't ususally put all the items in one spot like that *G*). This is such a great story and each installment satisfies. Kathleen   Lou Chapter 17 03/10/2006 02:03 pm Wise Joyce.   T Chapter 17 03/10/2006 01:22 pm   UncagedMuse Chapter 17 03/10/2006 01:21 pm Love how she took care of the shrine. Realizing that it was just his way of being close to her was fantastic! Great chp and I'm so ready for more.   Lida Chapter 17 03/10/2006 12:59 pm I like that they're not immediately jumping into a relationship because suddenly everything's ok. More please!   vladt Chapter 17 03/10/2006 12:48 pm good update. great joyce-buffy conversation. giles-buffy conversation probably won't go as well. thanks for the fine read.   Yzba Chapter 17 03/10/2006 12:32 pm Great chapter, I love Buffy's reaction to the shrine, and I love that she is not hitting Spike for once;) Both of them are reacting more "humanly" than they did on the show, especially her. Good job, can't wait for the next chapter   PyroChilde Chapter 17 03/10/2006 11:59 am Yay for supportive Joyce! I love how you wrote the shrine part. You had Buffy freaked out (cause who wouldn't be) but not punching him in the face. It was very believeable. I liked this chap a lot!   Jackofspikes Chapter 17 03/10/2006 11:44 am Still loving it. I get the feeling that Giles won't be quite as accepting as Joyce though!   blackknight1864 Chapter 17 03/10/2006 11:41 am Wow, I'm really enjoying this story, but your time between updates is killing me. I can't wait to see what you have planned and loved how you used Dru.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 16 03/29/2006 01:23 am Uh oh ... she found the Buffy shrine. I hope she doesn't wig too badly since she knows that Spike loves her. Excellent chapter.   Joyce Chapter 16 03/24/2006 11:15 am You have definitely mastered the cliffhanger!   btvsfreak@yahoo.com Chapter 16 03/09/2006 10:34 pm Wow! That was an awesome story! Will there be a sequel?   Cewcew Chapter 16 03/09/2006 06:34 pm good good good. more please!   Steph Chapter 16 03/07/2006 12:08 pm Uh oh! that can't be good! Well as always a another fabulous chapter...Great job!   Kelci Chapter 16 03/06/2006 07:17 pm i love it so far! keep writing... please!!!!   Pulchra Nex Chapter 16 03/06/2006 12:43 pm how sweet!... you are not going to flip his whole world upside down right now ... right? you're not gonna let Buffy react like a bitch about anything she finds... right?... please don't?? lolz/// and please update soon?   Lou Chapter 16 03/06/2006 11:32 am Poor Spike's well traumatised. Here's hoping there's nothing nasty under the sheet.   Oracleholly Chapter 16 03/06/2006 09:19 am Awesome chapter, CoE. I liked the use of Dru's original line from "Crush," when she left. It fit so well here. Also, I liked how you had Spike's lower level... like in the process of becoming homey, but not the way it was in S6. I'm looking forward to more.   Nikkole Chapter 16 03/06/2006 06:51 am MORE MORE MORE!! Very nice chapter. I am glad that Giles agreed to let Buffy take care of Spike and just talk to her later. I can't wait to see the next chapter!   Athenewolfe Chapter 16 03/06/2006 04:04 am oh lovely - I can't wait to see the reaction that is sure to come. Gretat update! I really am enjoying this story greatly!   kim Chapter 16 03/06/2006 12:49 am Did she find his "shrine" to her? I love how she's being so gentle and protective with him, poor guy.   bloodshedbaby Chapter 16 03/06/2006 12:28 am oooh, another bad evil cliffie. I love this fic! Thank you for updating. It's good to see the scoobie not giving Spike a hard time in this (so far anyway)   Esther Chapter 16 03/05/2006 11:19 pm Oooh, great update! I love that Spike emerged as Will and Buffy's trying to comfort him during all this. Especially loved that Spike's the one to turn down Dru without interference from Buffy. Can't wait for more!   vladt Chapter 16 03/05/2006 10:05 pm love the update and the softer slayer. thanks for the read.   Jessica Chapter 16 03/05/2006 09:39 pm Poor Spike. I'm glad that Buffy is taking care of him. Loved the chapter. More please.   gaillee Chapter 16 03/05/2006 09:20 pm Thanks for a truly engrossing update. Will be watching with great anticipation for the next.   Megan Chapter 16 03/05/2006 06:20 pm Whoot! At least this time she's interested enough that she won't whale on his arse over this little discovery. Wonderful chapter. Soooo eager for more.   PyroChilde Chapter 16 03/05/2006 06:17 pm Opps, Buffy found the shrine. Thats not so good. Poor Spike/William.   pretty_in_fangs Chapter 16 03/05/2006 05:49 pm Lovely. I'm always so happy to see an update to this story.   maryperk Chapter 16 03/05/2006 05:32 pm good chappy   UncagedMuse Chapter 16 03/05/2006 05:30 pm Fantastic as always. I can't wait to find out how she reacts to his Buffy shrine.   MarzBar Chapter 16 03/05/2006 05:30 pm Oh dear. Did she find a Buffy shrine? I happy to see her being kind to Spike. Giles' knickers must be getting really twisted. More story please.   Dirktavian Chapter 16 03/05/2006 05:29 pm You and your evil cliff-hangers! I was so thrilled to see that you had updated this story-- I am really enjoying it. Thanks!   SpaceLord Chapter 16 03/05/2006 05:22 pm Well how will Buffy react to that bit of information? Should be interesting to see.   Bridget Chapter 16 03/05/2006 05:05 pm Good chapter. I hope that Buffy is not going to freak out at Spike's homage to her.   akarinacj Chapter 16 03/05/2006 05:00 pm Great, as usual. Waiting for more. Now it´s really getting interresting, now that Spike´s awake... Please, more soon!!!!   Spikez_tart Chapter 16 03/05/2006 04:57 pm Love the story and you are way wicked to leave us hanging by our heels this way.   jl1980 Chapter 16 03/05/2006 04:45 pm oh no...don't let her freak out about his buffy-shrine!!! i love how tender she's being with him, don't let anything spoil it...and giles is starting to tick me off, i hope buffy holds her own in that conversation coming up!! love this update, can't wait for more!!   slaymesoftly Chapter 16 03/05/2006 04:45 pm Oops! Can't wait to see her reaction- although I guess she won't be as surprized as she was on the show...   Karyn Chapter 16 03/05/2006 04:39 pm uh oh! i think she might have found the 'shrine o' buffy' lol...great update! i always get so excited to see them!   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 15 03/29/2006 01:17 am Oh yeah ... awesome chapter. Loved it loved it! I'm more than running to CH. 16 to see what happens next.   angelic_amy Chapter 15 03/12/2006 11:52 pm The whole damn cookie! YAY! Oh wow, this was an excellent chapter. I loved how you had the memories speed up again and the description of Spike being the eye of the storm. This chapter was really clever and you did a brilliant job in writing it. I just hope things work out for the best. I’m assuming the chaos is the scoobies and Dru reacting as one to the awakening Slayer and vampire. *fingers crossed* no one gets hurt. Great chapter.   Spikez_tart Chapter 15 03/05/2006 04:49 pm Poor Spike, Buffy is mean mean mean.   Jessica Chapter 15 02/22/2006 09:13 pm *whimpers* you stopped! Very evil. I hope that Spike will remember the conversation with Buffy in his head. Loved the "whole damn cookie" line. Very cute. Can't wait to see what happens next. Please update soon.   PyroChilde Chapter 15 02/22/2006 07:46 pm Oh my god, this story is absolutely amazing! You've had me in tears here reading the abuse Spike has suffered. The characterization of Buffy here is great, how you've made her slowly change her way of thinking. You've really taken the time to develop the beginnings of her feelings for Spike, not rushing from hate to love in such a short amount of time as to make it seem unrealistic. The raw emotion you've shown from Spike is heartbreaking and so well written. I just love everything about this fic! Really great job so far. I cannot wait to see where you take things from here. Spike deserves so much better than he's been given. I hope that bitch Drusilla gets what's coming to her. The scoobies reactions here should be a good read as well. Please, update asap!!!   vladt Chapter 15 02/22/2006 05:06 pm love the chapter, up until the evil cliffhanger. thanks for the update.   k Chapter 15 02/22/2006 03:35 pm fantastic chapter, update soon!   Bridget Chapter 15 02/22/2006 11:01 am Nicely done. It was good how you had the scenes fly by so quickly. I can't wait to read what happens next.   Joyce Chapter 15 02/22/2006 10:13 am Great tension builder and cliff hanger!   Ariel Dawn Chapter 15 02/22/2006 06:56 am wow, another great chapter! I absolutely love this fic!   SH Chapter 15 02/22/2006 05:52 am I love this story, it is so original, yet captures the truth of the characters! Please, more!!   Lou Chapter 15 02/22/2006 04:58 am Chaos? what's the chaos about? Hurry up with more pleeeease!   kim Chapter 15 02/22/2006 04:17 am Yay!!!!! She got through!!!!! Please update soon. I can't wait for what's next. Oooh, cookie! That's a really good sign, Spike.   Pulchra Nex Chapter 15 02/22/2006 01:27 am Love the update! please update again soon? ;-) we need more of this story! gimme, gimme, gimme!   gaillee Chapter 15 02/22/2006 01:26 am Wonderful update! Thanks so much. Loved Buffy telling Spike: "...you can have the whole damn cookie." Are we going to see how the Scoobies take this.   bloodshedbaby Chapter 15 02/22/2006 12:53 am awesome chapter!! I hope the next one is coming soon. can't wait to read it!   jl1980 Chapter 15 02/22/2006 12:20 am what?? I need to know what happens next!! Ah, i hate that i've read it all now!!! lol...you are incredible, for real...excellent stuff here   akarinacj Chapter 15 02/21/2006 11:53 pm GREAT, GREAT CHAPTER!!!! But... evil cliffhanger. How can you leave it there???? in the best part? Please update soon, today, please??? :-))   Steph Chapter 15 02/21/2006 11:42 pm HOLY CRAP I sooooo need more!!!! that was an amazing chapter you really out did yourself...fanfrickintastic!!!!   Taylormaid Chapter 15 02/21/2006 11:21 pm Sooo soooo good! Please say you have the next chapter all ready for us! And what chaos? Can't wait!   Nikkole Chapter 15 02/21/2006 11:16 pm OOOOOOO!!!OOOOOOO!!! I can't wait till the next chapter!!   Esther Chapter 15 02/21/2006 11:13 pm OMG!!! That was fantastic! Oh man, that cliffy is gonna kill me until there's a new chapter! Ah, thank goodness Buffy's finally gonna give Spike the whole damn cookie....I can't wait!   Kristen Chapter 15 02/21/2006 11:09 pm AH! I hate cliffhangers! Please update soon! Your fic and like one other is the only reason I even check this site anymore! Great job! Keep going!   Dirktavian Chapter 15 02/21/2006 11:03 pm Brilliant update-- Love this chapter, and I can't wait for Buffy & Spike to make those new memories!   UncagedMuse Chapter 15 02/21/2006 10:16 pm OMG! I'll be biting my nails off waiting for the next chap! EXCELLENT!   slaymesoftly Chapter 15 02/21/2006 10:10 pm Woo hoo! At last! Love that she was willing to give him something. Now, don't let her back out when she looks around at the Scoobies. And what about Dru????   pretty_in_fangs Chapter 15 02/21/2006 10:04 pm EEEeeeee!!! You updated. ::happy sigh:: I love updates of this story. Of course, I love this story, so... not too surprising. (:   Isabel Chapter 15 02/21/2006 09:33 pm Great, as usual. I'm always so happy when you update.   Carmie Chapter 15 02/21/2006 09:11 pm Ahh... cliff hanger! Mean! Love this story, keep it up. I hope he attacks Buffy with kisses!   MarzBar Chapter 15 02/21/2006 09:04 pm Yay Spike! He's back and hopeful that Buffy was sincere. More story please.   katakata Chapter 15 02/21/2006 08:48 pm Well you've definitely mastered the cliff hanger ending LOL. Wonderful update and YES we're heading back into the real world. Can't wait to find out what awaits our heroes back in Sunnyhell. More soon please? 8-)   Karyn Chapter 15 02/21/2006 08:28 pm *squeals in delight* wonderful, just wonderful! You know i never really thought about the whole crumb/cookie thing, wonder if that's where buffy's speech came from? (yeah yeah i know...it was the writers...lol) now i'm jumping up and down with excitement! can't wait to see what chaos is going on! lol   Pin Chapter 15 02/21/2006 08:21 pm What!?!? Excellent cliffhanger ending - glad they finally are out of his head. Really looking forward to seeing what happens next. Thanks!   redwulf50 Chapter 15 02/21/2006 08:17 pm LMAO, oh you are evil, Damn good chpter with an evil cliffie   Spikez_tart Chapter 15 02/21/2006 07:55 pm Really liked the explanation of how Spike ended up at Giles house. The show didn't make any sense and JW was too busy making Spike into a comic figure to show something logical or give Spike any sympathy at that point. It's also good to see how cruel Buffy could be, usually without any excuse. She was much nicer before she died a couple of times.   Jackofspikes Chapter 15 02/21/2006 07:12 pm oh boy howdy, can you write! You take my breathe away, Thank you for sharing. More please???   Athenewolfe Chapter 15 02/21/2006 07:08 pm ohhhh i loved it! Excellant ficcie!   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 14 03/29/2006 01:12 am Holy Cow and WOW! Excellent chapter update. She saw just how much she was Cecily ... after she hated what Cecily did ... now she realizes that she did it too! I'm so glad I have four more chapters to read before the updates are caught up for me.   angelic_amy Chapter 14 03/12/2006 11:51 pm He listened to them having sex? Poor Spike! But at least it’s opening Buffy’s eyes now. I’m so glad one of the memories was that moment in the alley – Buffy finally got to see how much of a bitch she was and how much her words affected Spike. The vindictive side of me hopes that it is too late for her to make things right, and that Spike will reject her if and when they come out of this cycle of memories.   Megan Chapter 14 02/22/2006 12:57 am Whoot! The scenes I've been waiting for and how excellent are you for how you've written them? I am so hooked into this fic. Love it completely and you, you stunner. More I say, more!   jl1980 Chapter 14 02/22/2006 12:18 am perfect last line...love this story...   Gail Chapter 14 02/20/2006 06:45 pm Fantastic story, I search eagerly for the latest update.   Athenewolfe Chapter 14 02/19/2006 08:49 am AHHH no more story - looks pathetics and begs ... I hope you update soon this is a captivating fic!   Athenewolfe Chapter 14 02/19/2006 08:49 am bingo - give the girl a medal - hope she feels miserable .. hehe I love spuffy i really do.. I just like her to realuze she was a first blass *itch at times. hehe I love this story you are weaving fantastic!   MARGARET Chapter 14 02/16/2006 06:22 pm THIS IS GREAT...I'M SO GLAD TO SEE BUFFY FEELING BADLY ABOUT USING THOSE WORDS TO SPIKE HOPE THINGS PROGESS TO THE PIONT WHERE SHE CAN APOLOGISE TO HIM! LOVE THE STORY   Pulchra Nex Chapter 14 02/16/2006 11:59 am Finally! *does happy dance* sorry but come on! Finally she sees it! :-D you're doing great with this story! please update soon?   Bridget Chapter 14 02/16/2006 09:08 am Nicely done. I am glad you took her to those scenes. I hope it opened Buffy's eyes. It will be interesting to see how you will get Spike to come out of his catatonia.   Lou Chapter 14 02/16/2006 04:49 am At last she has seen the true Spike - can't wait for him to take the antidote!   Dirktavian Chapter 14 02/16/2006 02:17 am Awesome chapter, and what I've been waiting for all along. Wonderful, and I was so thrilled to see you had posted. I love this story; please keep those updates coming!   Rose Chapter 14 02/15/2006 09:12 pm Great story.   gaillee Chapter 14 02/15/2006 08:10 pm Wonderful chapter! "And then. She. Said. It. "You're beneath me.'" That was powerful! Thanks for an excellent update.   Nikkole Chapter 14 02/15/2006 07:56 pm I was waiting for this memory! I knew it would be in here! GREAT update! I love how you incorporate things we know into the story. I think I have said it before, but it makes it a very smooth read.   slaymesoftly Chapter 14 02/15/2006 06:40 pm Still loving this story - Buffy needed that shot of how big a bitch she was to him.   redwulf50 Chapter 14 02/15/2006 06:10 pm Can you like catch her in a feedback loop and make her live through it over and over again Cause Buffy soooooo needed that one Damn good chappie   Allana Chapter 14 02/15/2006 06:01 pm Great story more please!   kim Chapter 14 02/15/2006 05:19 pm Oh, that was beautiful. Very powerful. What better insight into herself than to see who she is through other's eyes?   MarzBar Chapter 14 02/15/2006 05:10 pm It's good that Buffy has to be faced with her cruelty. Can Spike awaken from his coma soon now; before she forgets and once again thinks she and her friends know everything about good and bad.   Stacy Chapter 14 02/15/2006 04:50 pm So good. Ya' know, this a been a consistenly good story. I've enjoyed every chapter I've read. I'm so looking forward to seeing what happens when Buffy gets outta' Spike's head. Thanks for writing.   Pin Chapter 14 02/15/2006 04:42 pm Excellent chapter! I can't wait to see what happens when they are finally both conscious! Is Spike in for a surprise. Thanks.   akarinacj Chapter 14 02/15/2006 04:37 pm Great chapter as always. But I want him to wake up!!!! can´t wait to see how their relationship is going to be!!! Please update soon.   Kristen Chapter 14 02/15/2006 04:06 pm Okay, love your story! I haven’t reviewed before because I am lazy but it kicks ass. The idea isn’t completely original but you have written it fantastically! I love how her attraction and crush to Spike develop over time. It’s not something that just happens at the snap of someone’s fingers. The one thing I did notice though that you could fix would be the errors. You left letters of words. Here is an example for you "The scattered on the ground around him, much like his hopes. " The "the" should be "they". But that’s all, I am just really nitpicking about that stuff, grammar can really ruin a ff for me. Keep it up and update soon! Thank you for reading. I'm sorry for the distraction. My beta and I try, but we do sometimes miss things.   Jessica Chapter 14 02/15/2006 04:05 pm Amazing chapter. I am completely in love with this story. Please update again soon. I really want to see what happens when they get out of Spike's head.   Nemo Chapter 14 02/15/2006 03:51 pm I love it. Very good chapter. Funny how you made Buffy find out about Spike's love for her, guess that was a wakeup call. And she was really a bitch in fool for love wasn't she? I'm glad she realized some things this time around though. I'm looking forward to your next update   Taylormaid Chapter 14 02/15/2006 03:39 pm Wow! An insightful Buffy...now I can't wait until Spike wakes up!   Taylormaid Chapter 14 02/15/2006 03:38 pm Wow! An insightful Buffy...now I can't wait until Spike wakes up!   spikeslovebite Chapter 14 02/15/2006 03:28 pm loved it! wonderful update hun and that last line? just perfect!   Steph Chapter 14 02/15/2006 03:21 pm AAAAAMAZING!!!!!! I love your take on the memories you write so beautifully. wonderfull job can't wait for the next chapter!   Jacquie Chapter 14 02/15/2006 03:04 pm Brilliant, as usual, just a question though, didn't the alley scene happen before the Riley stakeage scene? But yep, Buffy is Cecily! More soon please *shhh!* Nobody was supposed to notice! But being the intelligent person you are, you did. The order is incorrect, but I chose to write it this way because I felt the effect was worth the inaccuracy. Thank you for reading. I'm glad you've enjoyed it enough to come this far.   Shady Chapter 14 02/15/2006 03:01 pm Absolutely loved this chapter. Loved Buffy's reaction to the memory of what she did in the alley. Can't wait to see what happens when they surface from his mind.   Joyce Chapter 14 02/15/2006 02:33 pm Wondering how Buffy will Buffy will make it up to Spike now that she know what's going on?   Isabel Chapter 14 02/15/2006 02:02 pm Soooo good! I absolutely loved it. Every word. Seeing Buffy realize exactly what she'd done when saying those words, how hurtful she'd been, that was very satisfying.   bloodshedbaby Chapter 14 02/15/2006 01:56 pm truly spectacular chapter. I LOVE the way you've used canon here and given it new meaning. Fabulous stuff!   pfeifferpack Chapter 14 02/15/2006 01:56 pm God how I love this story, sweetie! I get so excited every time I see an update and you never disappoint! Yummy and oh how I wish Buffy HAD taken that walk in Spike's mind. Kathleen   UncagedMuse Chapter 14 02/15/2006 01:20 pm Absolutely love it! Glad Buffy got to see how hateful her words truly were. Can't wait for more.   anon Chapter 14 02/15/2006 01:18 pm ::shiver:: OH, oh, oh. Good chapter. I've got chills. "God. She was Cecily." ::shudder::   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 13 03/29/2006 01:06 am Poor Spike ... he ended up getting shot three times because he couldn't defend himself against the humans. How horrible.   angelic_amy Chapter 13 03/12/2006 11:51 pm Nice interaction between the scoobies at the beginning! I like how you’ve described the spell and what not, and I surely hope they’re prepared for what will happen after Spike wakes. The three muggers at the end – that was terrible! I surely hope Buffy tracks them down and makes them pay.   jl1980 Chapter 13 02/22/2006 12:15 am poor spike...good for buffy to have to see what it was really like for him, poor baby...i want to beat those guys up myself...on to the next chapter   Athenewolfe Chapter 13 02/19/2006 08:45 am Ohh i love this I absolutly love this - great ficcie!   Jessica Chapter 13 02/08/2006 12:13 am I'm kinda glad that you didn't show the time that Spike spent with the Scoobies. It is kinda reassuring. Great chapter. The human scene *poor Spike* was also good. It showed Buffy that not all of her precious humans are innocents. More please.   Dirktavian Chapter 13 02/07/2006 12:39 am I was so excited to see that you had updated! I love this fic, and I can't wait for the next installment. More, very soon, please? (Wears most appealing grin and bats lashes)   Stacy Chapter 13 02/06/2006 11:16 pm Love it! Thanks for writing.   vladt Chapter 13 02/06/2006 08:59 pm can't believe i missed this. fantastic read. thanks   Isabel Chapter 13 02/06/2006 04:42 pm So glad to see a new chapter. This was great. Well, not so much because I don't like seeing Spike hurt, but it so great to read about those memories of his. Stuff that could have happened on the show and they just didn't show us. Great job. I can't wait for more.   kim Chapter 13 02/06/2006 04:33 pm The memories are rough, but I like seeing these behind the scenes glimpses - or rather, that Buffy is seeing these memories. She won't be able to go back to her old vision of him after this - ever. Once Spike is awake, he can deal with Dru. Most likely, she won't flip out and become dangerous if he still doesn't want to return to his life with her. She might scold him, or be sad. Saying her poor Spike is lost to the Sunshine.   Jordan Chapter 13 02/06/2006 03:49 pm more please! can't wait to see what happens when he wakes up...   MarzBar Chapter 13 02/06/2006 03:02 pm GRRRR ARGH! Will Buffy get it that protecting the world against evil should definitely include protecting us against humans? No? Thought was too much to ask. More story please.   Steph Chapter 13 02/06/2006 02:57 pm Awww poor spike geez he's get screwed over a lot...love the chapter excited to see what happens next!!!   redwulf50 Chapter 13 02/06/2006 02:22 pm LOL, can we torture Buffy a few more chappies with this??? If we wait for a boput four she'll be shagging Spike as soon ass he wakes   Bridget Chapter 13 02/06/2006 02:22 pm This was a good update. It was really hard to read the torture Spike experienced. It was painful.   pfeifferpack Chapter 13 02/06/2006 02:11 pm Excellent chapter (you KNOW I adore this story BTW). This scenario is so very believable it might as well be canon. Really am glad you are updating. Kathleen   akarinacj Chapter 13 02/06/2006 01:25 pm This story is just so emotionaly good. Poor Spike. Please update soon!!!!!   Nikkole Chapter 13 02/06/2006 11:35 am Very good chapter. My heart just breaks for him, you know?   Pulchra Nex Chapter 13 02/06/2006 11:34 am oh I really love this story... it's something that gets stuck in your head...   gaillee Chapter 13 02/06/2006 10:38 am Good chapter. I really like how Buffy is reponding to what she is seeing. Eager to see how it affects their relationship. Will be happy to see next update. Thanks for this one.   UncagedMuse Chapter 13 02/06/2006 10:04 am Please, I need more! Love it and can't wait to see what you do next.   bloodshedbaby Chapter 13 02/06/2006 10:00 am that was sad! looking forward to seeing what happpens next. I love this fic!   SpaceLord Chapter 13 02/06/2006 08:46 am Well good chapter, alot of interesting info about Spike.   Karyn Chapter 13 02/06/2006 08:22 am Great update! poor spike! hope buffy can get through to him!   angelic_amy Chapter 12 03/12/2006 11:51 pm The scene with Spike’s capture was terrible! I can’t believe Riley could be so callous. Actually… I can, but still. Nice chapter!   jl1980 Chapter 12 02/22/2006 12:04 am i love your take on all these moments from the show...very good and refreshing..on to the next chapter   Athenewolfe Chapter 12 02/19/2006 08:41 am excellant chapter I love this story I am lokoing forward to seeing what happens next ...   Nemo Chapter 12 02/06/2006 09:28 am Love your story, and this chapter. Funny how you made that scene with Willow (that one's hilarious *lol*) one of his painful memories. And it feels like Buffy is getting even softer... that's of the good. I wonder what will happen when he wakes up... Love the update, please keep up the good work! ~Nina   Spikeschilde Chapter 12 02/04/2006 10:46 pm I finally got caught up on reading this fic! I love where you seem to be headed with it and the depth in each memory! I can't wait to read the next update Great work!   margaret Chapter 12 02/03/2006 06:02 pm thanks for the update.. i love getting to see all these scenes through buffy's eyes as she reevaluates them great work   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 12 02/02/2006 12:17 am Loved the latest update. I always look forward to more. The flashbacks are great. I like the insight that Buffy gets from each one. I wonder what you will highlight next. Will you use the Something Blue episode to show how he truly felt about it all? I look forward to the next update.   Isabel Chapter 12 02/01/2006 12:47 pm Always happy to see an update for this story.   Jessica Chapter 12 01/31/2006 01:00 am Ooh! Lovely chapter. I can't wait to see what'll happen when Buffy finds out her little crush isn't completely one-sided. And I'm glad that she recognizes how unfair the chip was. Can't wait for more. Please update soon.   Carmie Chapter 12 01/30/2006 09:18 pm Love this story, keep up the good work! I'm looking forward to more memories!   kim Chapter 12 01/30/2006 08:47 pm Yay, update! I love seeing this perspective to things. You're taking us through the memories we know well without making them a boring re-hash. More please! So cute that Buffy's developing a crush.   Didi Chapter 12 01/30/2006 05:20 pm more please   Lou Chapter 12 01/30/2006 04:31 pm Buffy's starting to get him at last. I loved that she got to see the scene with Willow.   MarzBar Chapter 12 01/30/2006 04:13 pm Glad to see Buffy's getting a little friendlier to Spike by having to see things from his POV.   anon Chapter 12 01/30/2006 02:38 pm I love your updates. I hope school doesn't take up too much time, but I'll read your updates whenever you have time.   akarinacj Chapter 12 01/30/2006 02:10 pm What do I think of it??? I just love your story.!!! But... I want him to wake up... or her to find out that he´s in love with her... you know... I just want to read another chapter as soon as possible. Please update soon.   jess Chapter 12 01/30/2006 01:02 pm I really like this story. It's very inventive and real. To bad it didn't actully happen!   Bridget Chapter 12 01/30/2006 01:01 pm Good update. I am glad you showed Spike being nice to Willow. Will Buffy see when Spike figures out that he is in love with her?   SpaceLord Chapter 12 01/30/2006 11:17 am Good chapter, not sure if these memories are really as bad as the first ones that he had. These seems more like his biggest regrets than his worst nightmares that the first ones were.   steph Chapter 12 01/30/2006 10:56 am awwww...I love that you replayed the scene with willow it always cracks me up and I love how buffy gets to see all these things! WELL DONE!!!!!!!!!!   bloodshedbaby Chapter 12 01/30/2006 10:06 am I LOVE this story and how you're rehashing canon through Spike's eyes with buffy along for the ride. Can I be really selfish and ask if you update this one next again instead of your other ficcie? *bats eyelashes* Please!   UncagedMuse Chapter 12 01/30/2006 10:05 am Excellent chap! Waiting for more.   gaillee Chapter 12 01/30/2006 09:56 am I think it's great! Thank you for squeezing in another chapter. I hope you can do so again, soon.   Dar Chapter 12 01/30/2006 09:50 am I like that Buffy can compare their experiences. I never thought about it that way. Great job. Too bad they didn't have the Initiative experience to share.   Pin Chapter 12 01/30/2006 09:09 am Love this rewriting of history, although I was really hoping that Buffy would see what Spike went through in the Initiative. That seems like a pretty important experience for him. That said, I think that this is a great journey and I really like that she got to see this episode between Willow and Spike. Thanks!   angelic_amy Chapter 11 03/12/2006 11:50 pm Poor Spike – he just wanted it all to be over with. And I agree with Buffy’s thoughts, I’m glad he failed in walking into the sunlight because otherwise the world would have ended. Buffy seeing the argument with Dru in Brazil was good as well, she’s finally learning more about Spike’s feelings for her.   jl1980 Chapter 11 02/21/2006 11:59 pm that attempted suicide was again, heart-breaking...this story is beautiful and sad and very very well-written....loving this ;)   Athenewolfe Chapter 11 02/19/2006 08:38 am ohhh lovely scenes! I can;t wait to see what Buffy finds out about herself. *smile*   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 11 02/02/2006 12:13 am Wonderful update. I'm glad that there is another chapter already here too. {smiles} I enjoy this story. There is something to be said for being behind in updates. You get more chapters to read at once. {Chuckles}   anon Chapter 11 01/20/2006 03:47 pm Yay! Update. Updates make me happy.   Lou Chapter 11 01/19/2006 02:47 pm Terrific chapter - all Spike's earlier problems must be a revelation to Buffy. It's great that's she's learning from them.   Jenna Chapter 11 01/19/2006 08:07 am Great update! I'm loving this story. Your quotes from the scene between Spike, Drusilla & the Chaos Demon reminded me how much I loved that scene, especially James Marsters line delivery. It's fun to see Buffy's reactions to all these moments. Gotta feel for poor Spike stuck in the wheel chair, ignored & neglected by everyone. This is some personal stuff; wonder how Spike will react when he finds out Buffy's seen it all. I wonder when Buffy will finally be able to communicate with Spike; I hope it's soon. Thanks for the fun story & looking forward to the next update.   Dirktavian Chapter 11 01/19/2006 07:45 am I love this story! Thanks for updating-- it's always a treat to see that you've posted. I am excited that now we get to the good stuff-- Now we can see why he still pushes Buffy's buttons, since he's afraid of her rejection. I'm loving that Buffy is finally feeling some empathy for her equal, the blond-vamp of all our dreams. Please post again soon!   Jessica Chapter 11 01/19/2006 06:41 am I like that Buffy got to hear what Dru said about the ashes and the Slayer. Its such a great line. I hope that she figures everything out soon. Can't wait to see what will happen when Spike wakes up.   slaymesoftly Chapter 11 01/19/2006 02:53 am I think I still like this fic and can't wait for the next update!   spike_spetslayer Chapter 11 01/19/2006 01:14 am Great update...can't wait for the next chapter....   2zen2 Chapter 11 01/19/2006 12:55 am I really like this story - I think you've captured Dru's voice well. She's very hard to write for. I'm a sucker for story's that sticks to canon and I like what you've added to story of Buffy and Spike. Very realistic.   MarzBar Chapter 11 01/18/2006 09:35 pm Yuck! Dru and her icky revenge. I hope Giles gets what he needs from the demon he and Dru found. She is going to be dangerous again once Spike comes out of his trance. More story please.   steph Chapter 11 01/18/2006 09:10 pm AWESOME!!!!okay I'm dying for the next chapter....you should have a flashback to when he's engaged to buffy...also a scene where he's all 'doe' eyed at buffy and she didn't notice at the time but does in the flashback...but you're so brilliant I'm sure you've already thought of that! ha ha   Taylormaid Chapter 11 01/18/2006 08:07 pm I can't wait to see where you are going with this and what will happen when Spike wakes up. More soon please!   UncagedMuse Chapter 11 01/18/2006 08:01 pm I love that she got to hear Dru's reasoning for cheating on Spike. Another great chap and really want more as soon as you can please.   Isabel Chapter 11 01/18/2006 07:47 pm Fantastic chapter, as usual. The wheelchair scene was really touching and emotional. It made me teary eye. This story makes me want to hug Spike really bad lol   jane Chapter 11 01/18/2006 07:03 pm Super update.   gaillee Chapter 11 01/18/2006 06:59 pm I think you are doing a fine job. I'm loving this fic. Wish you could update faster, though, 'cause it's that good.   neo_trinityknot Chapter 11 01/18/2006 06:42 pm Great as always, can't wait to read more   akarinacj Chapter 11 01/18/2006 05:05 pm Good as always. But hope you wake Spike soon so we can some interaction between him and Buffy. That´s going to be VERY interesting. :-) Update soon, please.   kim Chapter 11 01/18/2006 04:52 pm Hey, glad I found this. I'd been reading it at BSC. Good job with showing these old scenes without making them a boring re-hash of history.   Pin Chapter 11 01/18/2006 04:27 pm Another excellent chapter. I apologize for not reviewing more, because I love this story and think you are doing a very imaginative job of revealing a new persepctive on familiar events. Looking forward to more. Thanks!   angelic_amy Chapter 10 03/12/2006 11:50 pm Oh wow, now it’s getting interesting. The last one, where Spike realized that he couldn’t move his legs, was incredible. Buffy realizing she’s starting to like Spike was great also. Well done!   jl1980 Chapter 10 02/21/2006 11:55 pm wow...that was heartbreaking, when he realized he was paralyzed...poor thing...this story has brought tears to my eyes so many times...you are an incredible writer you know that?   Isabel Chapter 10 01/18/2006 10:33 am Best story I've read in a long time. Update soon and often! Pretty please.   Jessica Chapter 10 01/15/2006 09:57 pm "She was starting to like him. As in Like." Excellent chapter. Loved that last bit. I have very much missed this fic. Can't wait for more. Please update again soon.   Steph Chapter 10 01/09/2006 08:45 pm WOW!!!! so awesome this story just ROCKS! I'm sooooo begging for another chapter! please!   anon Chapter 10 01/09/2006 08:40 pm I'll add my voice to the others. I don't want to rush you and ruin the lovely quality of this fic, but I'd love another update. This one was as wonderful as the previous ones.   anomynus Chapter 10 01/09/2006 07:44 am i love the story i hope you update soon you do update quickly but the story is so good it is never soon enough   Taylormaid Chapter 10 01/09/2006 05:49 am I absolutely love this story! Like everyone else I want more soon (really can't be soon enough)! Yet, at the same time I don't want it to end. Soooo soo good!!   neo_trinityknot Chapter 10 01/09/2006 04:38 am Thanks for the update! I can't wait to read more of the story.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 10 01/09/2006 02:16 am Awesome update. I long to read more of this wonderful story.   Dirktavian Chapter 10 01/09/2006 01:15 am I absolutely adore this fic-- The writing style and idea are brilliant. Again, willing to beg like the others-- I always have to read a few chapters to get caught back up when you post again. I realize that quality can't be rushed, but please post again soon-- This is a wonderful story that reads like the novel you just can't put down!   gaillee Chapter 10 01/09/2006 12:38 am Yeah! How could she not start liking him? While not wanting to pressure you too much, pleeeease update soon.   akarinacj Chapter 10 01/09/2006 12:11 am How does it feel to have a lot of people on their knees asking for at quick update? Well you can add another one to your listing.... Please review soon. I´m begging... on my knees :-))   idk5743228 Chapter 10 01/09/2006 12:02 am Great chapter. I have to agree with the other comments. I know you just updated but, could we have some more Please?   slaymesoftly Chapter 10 01/08/2006 11:35 pm I think I'm still loving this and wishing the updates were coming closer together!   Nikkole Chapter 10 01/08/2006 10:52 pm I have to agree w/ BSB here! I am on my knees begging for more!!   redwulf50 Chapter 10 01/08/2006 10:23 pm Oh yeah this fic completely rocks the next update is when   Lou Chapter 10 01/08/2006 10:21 pm Mmmm what's not to like? I love that she's finally getting it!   bloodshedbaby Chapter 10 01/08/2006 08:43 pm I always cry when i come to the end of a chapter and there is no more to read. I'm not above begging here. Pleeeeeease update soon! I know you just did and everything, but damn. I love this fic!!!!   angelic_amy Chapter 9 03/12/2006 11:49 pm Fantastic. The scene in the square with Drusilla was great. I really like how you’re piecing together Spike’s history.   jl1980 Chapter 9 02/21/2006 11:52 pm still incredible...loving your story very much...   Athenewolfe Chapter 9 02/19/2006 08:33 am excellant chapter - this is really reallly good..I love how buffy is getting to see how things affect him. she should realize he is not a thing   Pia Chapter 9 01/08/2006 01:13 pm I figured it out! So, just bring on the next chappie and I will review my heart out! As all my other reviews are lost, due to BSC-breakdown I will just make a narrative here: the storyline and the manner in which it's written is just brilliant and captivating. When it's done I will put it among my favorites and reread it more than once! Bless you.   anon Chapter 9 12/31/2005 08:09 pm Wonderful, wonderful. PLease keep it up.   sisterCuervo Chapter 9 12/31/2005 01:04 am This is just marvelous, excellent characterization, flows wonderfully well. Lovely work.   Lou Chapter 9 12/30/2005 05:15 pm The back history flashes are fabulous - can't wait for more.   gaillee Chapter 9 12/29/2005 07:16 pm Wonderful chapter! You are doing so well with filling in the history. I am eager to see how Buffy reacts to Spike's reactions to her. Thanks...will be watching.   bubble_blunder Chapter 9 12/29/2005 04:31 am Just got home from visiting family for the holidays and caught up on Chapters 8 and 9. I am still just loving this story! Wonderful updates. -Lisa   Confused Muse Chapter 9 12/28/2005 08:31 pm Keep going, I'm still hooked on this story, but boy, do I hear you with the time issue *blech*   Richard Chapter 9 12/28/2005 06:57 pm Heh, now it's getting mighty interesting.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 9 12/28/2005 06:16 pm Excellent update of this story. The flashbacks have been amazing. You wrote such interesting timeline pieces, and you mingled in the things we knew as well. Loved it. Look forward to more, for sure.   slaymesoftly Chapter 9 12/28/2005 03:26 pm Wonderful update. I'm so glad to see more of this story and will be looking forward to the next chapter.   Steph Chapter 9 12/28/2005 01:26 am WOW!!! That was amazing I love how you so seemlessly fill in all the blanks...this story is fantastic and I think it's on of my favorites!   UncagedMuse Chapter 9 12/27/2005 10:55 pm Excellent! I love the way you show so much in this chp and seeing Dru's attack in Prague is fantastic. Please more as soon as you can!   akarinacj Chapter 9 12/27/2005 10:27 pm I just love this story, everytime I see that there is an update I go "yupee":-)) I very much like the flash backs it´s very interesting to see how he went from William to Spike and that Buffy has gotten the chance to see all this. But as much as I like the flashbacks I´m happy that you are know approching the time when the first meet each other. Can´t wait. Please update soon!!!!   SpaceLord Chapter 9 12/27/2005 09:30 pm Well great chapter, lots of background story that is really interesting. Can't wait to see what's next   jane Chapter 9 12/27/2005 08:54 pm Loved the update.   angelic_amy Chapter 8 03/12/2006 11:49 pm Very nice chapter. Drusilla and Giles’ agreement at the end to track down the demon was… amusing. I like that Giles was clever enough to think of a way to explain what they needed to do to help Spike in a way that she would probably explain it herself. Excellent.   jl1980 Chapter 8 02/21/2006 11:46 pm giles is a brave brave man...lol... have i mentioned yet that i hate angel?? i am glad that buffy's starting to relate her own behavior to the way spike was treated by angelus...loveing this story so much!!   Athenewolfe Chapter 8 02/19/2006 08:27 am excellant!   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 8 12/22/2005 02:26 am This story eternally gets better and more interesting. I do enjoy how Buffy is being able to see different sides of things. I hope she takes this knowledge back into the realms of reality with her. I hope that she learns from it and treats Spike better. Look forward to more.   Taylormaid Chapter 8 12/21/2005 07:53 pm This is an awesome story! It is just getting better and better. I'm enjoying Buffy as "insight girl" VERY much! Hopefully, there will be lots more soon, yes? It is very hard waiting when I get so caught up in each chapter!   UncagedMuse Chapter 8 12/21/2005 06:00 am Giles going into the woods with Dru! Another perfect chp! *begs on knees* PWEASE PWEASE MORE AS SOON AS YOU CAN!   anon Chapter 8 12/21/2005 04:08 am Thank you for posting more. I hope there's a good bit more to come. The realism of this story is lovely. Very well written.   gaillee Chapter 8 12/20/2005 11:14 pm This is an awesome story. I love how Buffy is beginning to change and recognize the changes is Spike. How will she react to seeing his memories of her(especially the "beneath me")? Please update very soon.   jane Chapter 8 12/20/2005 10:56 pm I hope Dru is going to play nice. Update soon can't wait to read more.   bloodshedbaby Chapter 8 12/20/2005 06:55 pm Finals are over right? That means LOTS of free time to work on this story... right? Because you have an amazing fic here, one that makes me scream NOOOOOO when i come to the end of the chapter and I know I have to wait for more. I'm not patient though *sobs* I want more... I loved Buffy's insight here, about her wanting to be Spike's friend. Soooo totally awesome.   CopyKween Chapter 8 12/20/2005 06:32 pm I'm so glad Dru is finally participating again! She's so fierce...I always wanted to see her kicking more butt!   Nikkole Chapter 8 12/20/2005 06:26 pm I am so into this story! I also think that all of the torture definately led to William becomes Spike as a shield. Good job, and I can't wait for the next update!   Steph Chapter 8 12/20/2005 06:25 pm beautifully done!I can't tell you how excited I am to read the next chapter! I love buffy's new insight and how she feels uncomfortable about spike being insecure around her...very good take on the soul and angelus/ william/spike/humanity.....I loved it!   Lou Chapter 8 12/20/2005 04:36 pm I love how you handled this - all the cruelty that contributed to William's becoming Spike - lovely tortures, my dear - and especially Buffy's realisation. All bodes well for a happy outcome, I'd say!! Love it!   angelic_amy Chapter 7 03/12/2006 11:48 pm Angelus’s lesson was… shocking. I’m completely at a loss of what to say. And Xander… *rolls eyes* He’s so narrow-minded. Nice chapter.   jl1980 Chapter 7 02/21/2006 11:41 pm oh that's awful...i hate angel even more now than before...poor Spike...i'm glad Buffy's getting to see what made him who he is... on to read more now...   Athenewolfe Chapter 7 02/19/2006 08:24 am ecellant update -hopefully she will see spike for what he is as well. Just like buffy to be annoyed at him for showing her the truth   Lost in a Jungle Chapter 7 01/14/2006 05:47 am I just wanted to tell you I really enjoyed your story. Hope you update soon, it's very good!   Isabel Chapter 7 12/21/2005 02:41 am Awesome. I was so happy when I saw that you updated this story. I love it. I started reading in at Spuffy central a month ago. I had such a shitty day and I made me feel better.   anon Chapter 7 12/16/2005 06:16 pm Beautiful. Please continue.   Taylormaid Chapter 7 12/11/2005 10:08 pm Still loving this story! Buffy is getting quite the education. It will be interesting to see how she treats Spike after all she has witnessed.   Bridget Chapter 7 12/08/2005 05:10 pm Good update. I imagine this is just how Angel was as a human. He of course is worse as a vampire. I can't wait to read what will happen next and how Drusilla fits in this story.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 7 12/08/2005 04:58 pm Definitely doing much cringing and oh my goshs. Angelus is a cruel and evil prick. It was a hard chapter to read. If I'd had a little warning in the beginning of the chapter, I might not have read it right now, but once I was in it ... I had to finish it. I wonder how many more scenes like this Buffy will have to face and go through. I hope that she gets Spike out safely back to them and realizes that Spike is not Angel or Angelus, and that Angel and Angelus are not good.   Nikkole Chapter 7 12/08/2005 02:13 am Very good. Very graphic, and yet, I too, can see this being EXACTLY what Angelus would have been like. Can't wait for the next update!   Lou Chapter 7 12/07/2005 11:59 pm Gruesome rape - and a truly nasty Angelus. Xander outdoing himself as a git. And Buffy getting some valuable insight. Splendido!   steph Chapter 7 12/07/2005 10:18 pm GULP! That chapter was scary but I'm glad that it removes the blinders from buffy when it comes to angel..and I think's its a realistic account of what probably would have happened...gah I hate Angel/Angelus...honestly what is the difference? Both are ..horrible in their own ways.   bubble_blunder Chapter 7 12/07/2005 08:24 pm Still loving this story. Wonderful update. -Lisa   UncagedMuse Chapter 7 12/07/2005 06:16 pm So glad you're showing how evil Angelus is! Forcing Buffy to see him too. I love the update and will be waiting on the edge of my seat for more.   SpaceLord Chapter 7 12/07/2005 05:22 pm Well you sure like to give Spike some beautiful memories that's for sure Love the story and the chapter, Spike is a complicated person and that's probably why so many people like him. This story brings that out in him I think, he's very gray and not the black and white the scoobies live in.   bloodshedbaby Chapter 7 12/07/2005 05:21 pm Damn, end of the chapter already? *sighs* Very graphic but in a 'good' necessary way. Soooooo cannot wait to read more! This is one of my 'drop everything and read the latest update' fics. You are doing such a great job with this story!   MarzBar Chapter 7 12/07/2005 05:03 pm Gadz! Buffy is living through some of Spike's wonderful memories with the vicious Angelus and Xander is having a "sincere" discussion with the Wanker about good reasons to dust Spike. I hope Buffy comes out soon and punches Xander in the face. Maybe Spike could give him an Angelus treatment.   angelic_amy Chapter 6 03/12/2006 11:48 pm I love how you continued this memory, having Angelus assert his control and dominance. Very believable and well written. And Dru not attacking the scoobies is interesting.   jl1980 Chapter 6 02/21/2006 11:35 pm yeah she *shouldn't* look at angel the same way! poor spike, my heart breaks for him with these sad memories...on to the next chapter   Athenewolfe Chapter 6 02/19/2006 08:19 am goody - she was really to obsessed with that whole soul thing. 0 I wonder if she will get a chance to say hi to angel after all this is over ... would be fun to see her slap him! I lvoe this story so far - great updates!   Oracleholly Chapter 6 12/04/2005 05:44 pm Drusilla's arrival - her allowing Giles to examine Spike. WOW and then the post Angelus/Dru sex scene. Great idea on how Spike started calling Angelus sire.   Nikkole Chapter 6 12/03/2005 04:27 pm WOW! That is really all I can think of to say. Words, for me, can not describe how good this story is to me. You are doing a REALLY good job with this and I can't wait for the next update! Keep up the good work!   Pulchra Nex Chapter 6 12/02/2005 04:05 pm Oh I really hope you update soon! can't wait for Buffy and Spike's reaction to Dru when they wake up!   Bridget Chapter 6 12/02/2005 01:07 am Good update. I hope that Drusilla's arrival won't hamper Spike's recovery or Buffy's exit from Spike's mind.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 6 12/01/2005 11:06 pm I would hope that she could never look at Angel the same way again. Now, I'm not saying that Angel can't be forgiven ... he can ... but his whole get out of jail free pass because she hadn't really seen how cruel he was ... was wrong. Now she can see that Spike was a different kind of demon even without a soul. She'll see how he was formed into the demon he is now, and that his love still remains. Excellent chapter update. Look forward to more.   jane Chapter 6 12/01/2005 03:57 pm More really great update.   Joyful Dayz Chapter 6 12/01/2005 02:59 pm I just read the whole fic thus far, ah it's breaking my heart. Poor Spike. I'm glad Buffy is seeing it, and having an epiphany about Angel. Great story! Can't wait for more.   Taylormaid Chapter 6 12/01/2005 04:21 am This fic is wonderful! I can't wait to see where you are going with it. I absolutely love that Buffy gets to see the 'real' Spike.   slaymesoftly Chapter 6 12/01/2005 03:45 am Gah! This just keeps getting better.   UncagedMuse Chapter 6 11/30/2005 11:02 pm Absolutely love it still! I check everyday for updates on this even though I know you said they would be slow. I can't help it. This fic is amazing.   bloodshedbaby Chapter 6 11/30/2005 10:52 pm fantastic as always!! I love this fic so much. Sooo cannot wait to read the next update!   Karyn Chapter 6 11/30/2005 10:50 pm oh this is great, i just love what you've done with it! wonderful update!   maryperk Chapter 6 11/30/2005 09:59 pm Nice chappy, COE   MarzBar Chapter 6 11/30/2005 09:13 pm How much longer will Buffy stay in there? I'm sure there's lots more and lots worse than what just happened. I hope Glinda and Red find a cure for him soon. More story please.   Lou Chapter 6 11/30/2005 08:40 pm Lots of revelations for Buffy - and not just about poor Spike. A lovely read.   Steph Chapter 6 11/30/2005 08:14 pm Amazing doesn't cover how awesome that chapter was..I like how seemlessly you intergrate the show's scenes with your writing giving us even more...FANTASTIC JOB!!!!!!   bubble_blunder Chapter 6 11/30/2005 08:01 pm Awww, poor Spike. My heart hurts for him. Wonderful update. Can't wait to read more. -Lisa   angelic_amy Chapter 5 03/12/2006 11:48 pm Wow. The scene with William’s Mum was just as powerful as it was on the show. Seeing Buffy’s perspective on all of this is fantastic. Well done! And then the cliffie at the end, Drusilla! *runs off to read more*   jl1980 Chapter 5 02/21/2006 11:22 pm oh wow, Dru's here...things are about to get even more interesting...i love how you show Buffy's reactions to Spike's memories...beautifully done, and can't believe i never found this story before now   Athenewolfe Chapter 5 02/19/2006 08:14 am ohhh captivating chapter - what a great way to show that he cares and actually does love. Cant wait to see what happens next. I love Dru's character as well. so can't wait to see how you utilize her. Great ficcie!   Steph Chapter 5 11/25/2005 10:12 pm Whoa! way to leave a cliff hanger...Oh I can't wait for the next chapter and see what dru is up to and what memories are next...FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!!   Lou Chapter 5 11/24/2005 11:45 am Yikes - where did she pop up from? Poor Buffy can't even have a mindmeld in private!   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 5 11/24/2005 07:01 am Dang, you are evil! Evil cliffie there. Not a good place to leave us, though I am sure we are all craving more. Please write more soon. I do like how Buffy saw him turning his mother. She saw the love he felt ... that his humanity survived past his turning. I fear what she will see next in the confrontations with Angelus, but I hope she learns that Angelus was a waste of space as well as Angel.   slaymesoftly Chapter 5 11/24/2005 01:52 am Oh! Had a lot of catching up to do and just finished the last four chapters. Definitely didn't see that coming! *looks around anxiously for next chapter*   Joji Chapter 5 11/23/2005 11:23 pm More please!   bubble_blunder Chapter 5 11/23/2005 10:25 pm Evil, evil cliffhanger! Love this fic! More soon please! -Lisa   UncagedMuse Chapter 5 11/23/2005 10:11 pm Oh love the Dru twist! Excellent!   MarzBar Chapter 5 11/23/2005 05:48 pm EEK! Is Drusilla really there or is this a product of a vision? Will this mind walk give Buffy the knowledge to be decent to Spike and realize that vampires may be somewhat like the people they came from? Angelus came from a waste of space and wasn't that much better as Angel. More story please/   SpaceLord Chapter 5 11/23/2005 05:46 pm Ohh Dru's back, now that should be interesting. She's alwasy fun.   Pin Chapter 5 11/23/2005 05:34 pm Excellent chapter. I really like the way you replay the turning and death of William's mother and Buffy's growing suspicions that not all vampires are the same. And the arrival of Dru - whoa! Looking forward to more. Thanks!   bloodshedbaby Chapter 5 11/23/2005 05:08 pm ooh awesome! Have I told you how much I love this story? I do! Sooo cannot wait for the next chapter!!   spike_spetslayer Chapter 5 11/23/2005 04:48 pm Ooooh, awesome update, and just before the holiday! I love how Buffy is getting to see some of William's darker times, when his humanity was greatest...maybe she will understand a little more about vampires when she is done...poor Spike, having to relive the horrible moments, the heartbreaking ones...please, let him have some good memories too? Can't wait for the next update of this awesome fic....   angelic_amy Chapter 4 03/12/2006 11:47 pm OMG! My eyes misted at the beginning of this chapter. Poor William! The scene with his sister’s death was well written and very believable. And the scene at the ball was great also. Cecily was such a bitch, and those men who made fun of him deserved what they had coming to them in my opinion. And Buffy feels sorry for Spike too, excellent!   jl1980 Chapter 4 02/21/2006 11:17 pm i like how she's becoming protective of him toward the end...very sweet...this is really the only way she ever would have come to understand...on to the next chapter now...   Athenewolfe Chapter 4 02/19/2006 08:09 am i really would like to slap Buffy ... you think it is so ct and dry demon and sould. I look forward to her learning that it isn't   Oracleholly Chapter 4 12/04/2005 05:12 pm (chaps 3-4) Loved your William flashbacks -- with his sisters, then his mom, then of course the dreadful night of Cecily.   Opal Chapter 4 11/19/2005 10:57 pm More please!   Steph Chapter 4 11/19/2005 09:36 pm OH wow that was awesome You did a wonderful job in depicting Buffy watching everything play out, I can't wait to see what's going to happen next!I LOVE IT!   Karyn Chapter 4 11/18/2005 03:00 am ohhhh! have a feeling vamp spike isn't going to be what buffy expects either!...lol...great update!   Taylormaid Chapter 4 11/17/2005 10:18 pm Another wonderful chapter. I have to say I was all choked up with the death of William's sister. I love that Buffy is having to witness all of this first hand. I can't wait to see if she will witness the 'turning of his mother'. Will this let her see Spike in another light or will she think 'William' is gone entirely? I am begging for more updates soon........I check every day.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 4 11/17/2005 09:35 pm Excellent story update. I really do like how you are revealing William's life to Buffy. I hope that she sees that even though William was turned, he still wasn't quite the demon Spike that she has seen. The poet is still within him, and it would have been apparant for quite some time after he was turned. Look forward to more, eagerly.   bloodshedbaby Chapter 4 11/17/2005 07:45 pm I LOVE how you are rewriting Spike's history through Buffy's eyes. This is some seriously good ficage you got going on here and it's making me want MORE! And I usually don't do that begging thing but *whines* I wanna know what happens!   jane Chapter 4 11/17/2005 07:42 pm Very moving chapter felt a bit tearful reading the death bed scenes. Looking forward to more.   UncagedMuse Chapter 4 11/17/2005 07:32 pm Loved all these memories you have written in this chp! I can't wait for her to see his first memories after his turning! She felt sad now that William was gone, and that Spike was all that was left of the poor, lovesick poet. I love that line because I am sure she is going to be shocked to find William is still there!   spike_spetslayer Chapter 4 11/17/2005 06:32 pm Oh, how wonderful--just read all the chapters that I missed somehow, and you have captured scenes from his life perfectly...can't wait to read more...at least, perhaps, this will give Buffy some insight into the man inside what she believes a monster...   Angie Chapter 4 11/17/2005 05:44 pm This was a great chapter, it made me want to pimp smack Cecily. Poor William...   Pulchra Nex Chapter 4 11/17/2005 05:40 pm Awwww! I always thought it was soo sad when I read it or saw it on the show but you actually got me here with tears in my eyes! love it! please update soon?   SpaceLord Chapter 4 11/17/2005 04:42 pm I'm always a sucker for the sad things and this was just great in a sad way.   angelic_amy Chapter 3 03/12/2006 11:46 pm Lovely! The flashes into Spike’s past were well constructed and written very clearly. I feel so sorry for poor William! And Buffy does too. Nice chapter.   jl1980 Chapter 3 02/21/2006 10:30 pm duh, Buffy...that's my comment to the last line *rolling eyes*... poor Spike....i'm getting totally drawn in here, absolutely hooked by this point...on to the next chapter now   jl1980 Chapter 3 02/21/2006 10:30 pm duh, Buffy...that's my comment to the last line *rolling eyes*... poor Spike....i'm getting totally drawn in here, absolutely hooked by this point...on to the next chapter now   jl1980 Chapter 3 02/21/2006 10:30 pm duh, Buffy...that's my comment to the last line *rolling eyes*... poor Spike....i'm getting totally drawn in here, absolutely hooked by this point...on to the next chapter now   Steph Chapter 3 11/11/2005 10:31 pm Um yeah..sorry..just passing by and thought I'd be a pest and ask for an update...I really was serious when I said I'd beg! *LOL*   Laura Siri Chapter 3 11/11/2005 08:33 pm I love it! And I desperately want to know where you're going to take us. Your depiction of William is so vivid. More please!   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 3 11/11/2005 11:09 am I'm with an earlier reviewer on the chapter ending too soon. {Smiles} I mean that in a good way. I am way longing for more. Look forward to reading more of this. Thank you for sharing your muse.   Taylormaid Chapter 3 11/10/2005 06:23 am That chapter ended way to fast! I am pulled in completely everytime. I have anxiously been awaiting updates!! Pleeeeeeease continue soon.   bubble_blunder Chapter 3 11/10/2005 03:00 am Once again, I am loving this story! Can't wait to see more! -Lisa   Spikeschilde Chapter 3 11/10/2005 12:53 am This should be interesting. I'm looking forward to seeing how the rest of the memories play out. You wrote William beautifully. Great work   steph Chapter 3 11/09/2005 11:06 pm Okay that was awesome!!! I love your writing and I've been dying for an update..and now I'm sad that the chapter is over..PLEAAASSSEEE send in another chapter soon...I will beg!   Karyn Chapter 3 11/09/2005 08:42 pm ohhh! it's so good, even better than i imagined it!   UncagedMuse Chapter 3 11/09/2005 07:30 pm I like the way you did his memories moving so fast it took her a while to adjust! Will be biting my nails as I wait for more of the updatey goodness.   Max Chapter 3 11/09/2005 06:17 pm Great portayal of William before he was turned.   Dreylin Chapter 3 11/09/2005 05:17 pm That was really well done. I'm itching for more!   Jenna Chapter 3 11/09/2005 05:05 pm Great update. Really enjoyed your snapshots of Spike's youth. Can't wait to see where you go from here and what happens once Buffy gets through to him.   Lou Chapter 3 11/09/2005 05:05 pm Beautifully done - you got great Victorian atmosphere there.   SpaceLord Chapter 3 11/09/2005 05:04 pm Great chapter, now we will see how you will show Spike as human. Should be interesting.   angelic_amy Chapter 2 03/12/2006 11:46 pm Excellent! Buffy being honest with herself was fabulous. Although I doubt she’d admit out loud that she trusted Spike. Beautiful writing, very true to character, on all counts.   jl1980 Chapter 2 02/21/2006 10:24 pm very cool...can't wait to see what she sees in spike's mind..it's sure to change hers...   Athenewolfe Chapter 2 02/19/2006 08:02 am I have a feeling buffy is going to be in a huge surprise. this is a really good ficcie so far and can't wait to find out what awaits buffy is his mind.   Oracleholly Chapter 2 12/04/2005 04:58 pm Liked how Buffy started questioning her own actions with regards to Spike. (Prepare for much review spammage)   Lou Chapter 2 11/03/2005 01:54 pm An interesting twist - can't wait to see what his mind is like!   ~*~Tasha~*~ Chapter 2 11/03/2005 08:56 am Love the idea behind this story. Good plot, and good chapters that I've read so far. I just found it today. So, I read the Prologue and both of the chapters available. Look forward to more.   Franchesca Chapter 2 11/03/2005 03:34 am I really like the idea behind this story. I can't wait to see how you portray spike's inner workings. Great 3 chapters.   Spikeschilde Chapter 2 11/03/2005 12:25 am Now that was just mean leaving us hang like that! Lol, great chapter though. It will be interesting to see what Buffy finds on entering Spikes brain. I hope you update soon!   MarzBar Chapter 2 11/02/2005 10:31 pm She's going into his mind voluntarily and this could be good. I guess the demon could make faces at her and taunt her but if she finds William it should be OK.   Bridget Chapter 2 11/02/2005 10:18 pm Thanks for the update but how could you leave us hanging like that. I hope that when Buffy goes into Spike's mind that she sees his whole life. I am sure that by the way you are writing the story that it will fit Joyce's description of Spike. I hope Buffy gets to see how lonely Spike is and discovers his true feelings for her. Please update soon.   Steph Chapter 2 11/02/2005 09:14 pm OH man that's just teasing! *L* I can't believe you ended the chapter there of all places chapter 4 better have her in his head! *pouting* But seriously I absolutly love it!   PulchraNex Chapter 2 11/02/2005 09:01 pm Oh I just know this is gonna be fun! *evilgrin* please updat soon?   Dar Chapter 2 11/02/2005 08:53 pm Whoa hope Buffy likes a roller coaster of emotions. So looking forward to more. Great story   spike_spetslayer Chapter 2 11/02/2005 07:31 pm This is wonderful...need more ficcie!   jane Chapter 2 11/02/2005 06:45 pm Good start I wonder if his hallucinations will include Angelus or just center on his human life< Looking forward to more   Max Chapter 2 11/02/2005 06:10 pm Buffy has no clue whatsoever what she's getting herself into. It takes ALOT to turn a poet with a heart a gold into a one of the most cold-blooded and lethal killers to ever exist - and it was the so-called love of her life that did. Buffy going to get a firsthand view of the side of Angel that she always ignored.   SpaceLord Chapter 2 11/02/2005 05:59 pm Very interesting start and I'm very interested in reading more, gonna be fun to see what's in Spikes head.   bloodshedbaby Chapter 2 11/02/2005 05:14 pm What do I think? I think wanna know what happens! I love Buffy's self-revelation over what Spike is and how the others want to help. Can't wait until the next chappie!   idk5743228 Chapter 2 11/02/2005 05:10 pm Great chapters (1,2) I really loved both Dawn and Joyce's determination. I can't wait for an update. Tremendous start   idk5743228 Chapter 2 11/02/2005 05:10 pm Great chapters (1,2) I really loved both Dawn and Joyce's determination. I can't wait for an update. Tremendous start   angelic_amy Chapter 1 03/12/2006 11:26 pm Wow, wonderful suspense you’ve created in the beginning of this chapter with Dawn visiting Spike. Excellent observations about William from Joyce, she really is a very observant woman! And I loved that she pulled the Mom card and is making Buffy help Spike.   Pierrie Chapter 1 03/05/2006 10:08 am So far, I have read the two first parts of Sympathy for the Devil and I am so impressed. You are right into the heart of the feelings. I have read many fanfiction so far. Several of them are very good. But you are amongst the best. Your insights are brilliant. Please, keep writing   Pierrie Chapter 1 03/05/2006 10:07 am So far, I have read the two first parts of Sympathy for the Devil and I am so impressed. You are right into the heart of the feelings. I have read many fanfiction so far. Several of them are very good. But you are amongst the best. Your insights are brilliant. Please, keep writing   jl1980 Chapter 1 02/21/2006 10:21 pm i love joyce *silly grin*...i love your voices of the characters in this story...i'm especially impressed with dawn... on to the next chapter now !!   Athenewolfe Chapter 1 02/19/2006 07:58 am excellant chapter - I loved Joyce in this chapter - very perceptive of her on both views of her daughter and spike. I really enjoyed it and can't wait to read what happens next   Oracleholly Chapter 1 12/04/2005 04:54 pm Go Joyce with the insight and telling Buffy to basically stuff it (without doing so).   Bridget Chapter 1 11/02/2005 10:15 pm Great chapter. Joyce was very insightful about Spike. Buffy is her usual stubborn self. Can't see the forest for the trees.   Spikeschilde Chapter 1 11/01/2005 01:51 am Just finish reading both chapters. Fantastic start, i am hooked already Update soon please!   Kristen Chapter 1 10/28/2005 09:27 pm Great story so far! I love the idea of Buffy having to go into Spike's brain. Cant wait for that! Update soon!   Karyn Chapter 1 10/28/2005 04:48 pm oh ! very good i like this very much, can't wait to see where you take it.! ;-)   jane Chapter 1 10/26/2005 11:51 pm I'm definately interested so far. I loved the Joyce pov that women can do no wrong.   Steph Chapter 1 10/26/2005 09:48 pm I would say that this story is awesome so far , but you MUST already know that! *L* I'm teasing but seriously, it's two chapters in and you already have me hooked..I can't wait for the next chapter! I REALLY can't wait for buffy to be in spike's mind...   bloodshedbaby Chapter 1 10/26/2005 07:00 pm Love it!! I loved Joyce's self-reflection over William and she is so deadon too! PLEASE update soon, i am completely hooked on this fic!!   Confused Muse Chapter 1 10/26/2005 06:59 pm I loved Dawn and Joyce's thoughts and relationship int his fic. And poor Spike - you can really feel the loneliness. The man needs a hug!   MarzBar Chapter 1 10/26/2005 06:44 pm Poor Spike. His only friends are Dawn and Joyce. The rest of the people who should know better, don't know him at all and feel they don't have to lower themselves.   SpaceLord Chapter 1 10/26/2005 05:44 pm Great start and I love Joyce, she is always good. Hope to see the next chapter soon   Max Chapter 1 10/26/2005 05:42 pm I love how Joyce has Spike all figured out and is sticking up for him.   spike_spetslayer Chapter 1 10/26/2005 05:29 pm This is an excellent start--I've looked at this challenge more than once, thinking to do it, but couldn't find a satisfactory beginning. You've done so well, makes me glad that I didn't. Wonderful....   Pulchra Nex Chapter 1 10/26/2005 03:56 pm Love it! I hope you update again soon! :-D   angelic_amy Prologue 03/12/2006 11:26 pm Interesting beginning! I like how you had Spike end the relationship with Harmony. It was a nice change from what you’d normally get in fics – Spike being hurtful. I feel really sorry for him, you’ve done a fabulous job of constructing how alone he is.   jl1980 Prologue 02/21/2006 10:08 pm knowing what happened to buffy when she got stung by that thing, i don't think it's going to be the break he's expecting...you've made me feel his loneliness, his pain, so well already, i am already well involved in this story...can't believe i haven't started it til now   Athenewolfe Prologue 02/19/2006 07:55 am wow - the first chapter of this story was really good - you made me feel sympathy for Spike abd really got into his emotions of how he would feel and what his thoughts would be. excellant porttayl of why he wouldfight fot the forces of good. Great start!   Robbyne Prologue 02/07/2006 04:22 pm An interesting start of things makes me want to read on, so I will.   jacquie Prologue 01/10/2006 06:07 am Clearly, as I'm agreeing with all the previous reviews, I can't call myself a Rebel....but I do cry for 'more, more, more'....Brilliant!   Chanel 5 Prologue 12/08/2005 12:14 pm Fantastic story! I'm really glad I read it.   Oracleholly Prologue 12/04/2005 04:49 pm Really promising beginning and liked your mature end to the Spike/Harm whatever that was.   elm Prologue 11/09/2005 09:31 pm Really enjoying this story arc. You are giving us some very original glimpses into William's past. Can't wait to read more!   Taylormaid Prologue 11/03/2005 01:52 am This has me hooked already! Can't wait to see what happens next. Please continue soon!!   UncagedMuse Prologue 11/02/2005 05:42 pm I can't wait to see what is in Spike's mind! I am hooked. More as soon as you can please.   Steph Prologue 10/21/2005 09:56 pm You know I've always hoped someone would write a story like this and I simply can't wait to read the rest of it!!! Fantastic start! I thought the challenge was great and I couldn't resist. Thanks so much!   Bridget Prologue 10/21/2005 07:03 pm Great story. I can't wait to read what happens when Buffy enters Spike's mind. Please update soon. Thanks very much for reading!   Karyn Prologue 10/21/2005 04:40 pm SQUEEEEEE!!! *points at screen* she's doing my challenge,..rofl....i'm so excited...i love the start can't wait to see more....i loved the whole Harmony scene it was great ....have to give one more SQUEEEE!!!! Glad you approve! I love the idea you had in your challenge! I couldn't resist. I even glad the plot bunny attacked, because I like this so much!   Chanel 5 Prologue 10/21/2005 02:37 pm great idea! can't wait to see more! Thanks! I hope you like the rest!   Lou Prologue 10/21/2005 12:11 am Shaping up nicely - this'll be fun. Thank you!   SpaceLord Prologue 10/20/2005 10:50 pm Very nice start, I think this has real potential to be real good. So how long do you plan on making this story? It won't be too long because I don't want to stray too far from the original concept. Maybe ten chapters, give or take. Thanks for reading!   bloodshedbaby Prologue 10/20/2005 10:13 pm this is a fantastic start!! Oh I can't wait to see the next part... I so glad you're working on another ficcie!! I love your Harmony. You made me feel sorry for her, LOL! Thanks BSB! I worked hard on getting the right balance with Harm. I'm insane to work on more fics, I have too much to do, but I'm a slave to the bunnies.   Disclaimer If you are under the age of 17, please use your head and do not read fics that are labeled "NC-17". 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