Home | New/Updated | Completed | Authors | Titles | Search | Sweet Temptation | TopTen | Betas | Challenges | Tools | Chat | Help | Login Of Light And Shadow by FetchingMadScientist   vladt An Act Of Contrition 08/08/2006 02:05 pm sad and very good update. thank you. it seems as buffy and spike have the same idea.   kim An Act Of Contrition 08/08/2006 12:05 pm So sad...and the team seems to be one step behind...not quite grasping what's going on. Dawn understands Spike better than the rest, but she doesn't have the tools to help. And this isn't a situation for standard Slayer thinking.   DeanSamWinchesterfan An Act Of Contrition 08/08/2006 07:17 am Good chapter.Update soon.Poor Dawn and Spike,with Spike thinking that Dawn is Emma.   Miss Rose An Act Of Contrition 08/08/2006 06:54 am What a clever plan Spike came up with, and i'm so glad Buffy is forming a plan too. The flashback was so sad. But i'm really enjoying this journey into Spike's past, and I can't wait to find out what Spike's next memory will be. Great chapter. I think it's clever as well. Maybe there's more to "Spike" than just "Fists and fangs?" What do you think?   Verda An Act Of Contrition 08/08/2006 01:28 am Buffy's going into Spike's mind like Willow did for her, find and kill this thing and then she'll go looking for Spike. If all of this is going to be happening in his head, it's going to be very exciting, I can't begin to imagine all that she'll find there. Can't wait. Wonderful chapter. Thanks. Should be exciting. I hope you can stay for the ride.   vladt Running Deep 08/04/2006 02:50 pm very good update, thank you. dawn makes her peace with spike. now, the name emma will confuse all of them. Maybe not all...   pretty_in_fangs Running Deep 08/04/2006 02:31 pm VERY interesting. Now, is that a real memory? Or one manufactured by the Ukesolrill to create an emotional response? Real or imagined...Hmm, I think Emma's been mentioned before. You tell me. But, does it really matter? He still gets emotional, and that could be bad for everyone.   DeanSamWinchesterfan Running Deep 08/04/2006 08:33 am Good chapter.Update soon.Poor Spike.Emma seems like such a sweet girl. She is. And Spike is on the way out of this, but will Buffy realize it?   Verda Running Deep 08/03/2006 08:28 pm No one writes very much about his family other than his mother of course, Wonder why he's remembering her? To help as he hides? Glad Dawn understands his need for quite, while we all wait. Another great chapter, thank you so much for it. You can't update soon enough for me. Love it. Maybe he's trying to..."short-circut" the thing that has him trapped?   Miss Rose Running Deep 08/03/2006 08:20 pm I liked Dawn's scene with Spike, i'm glad she got a chance to tell Spike how she feels. Looks like Spike has a plan, if he's feeling that good about it then so am I. The interaction between Spike and Emma in the flashback was wonderful, and Dru showing up was really a surprise. I'm really enjoying how you're fleshing out William's past. Loved the chapter! It may be a little scary for a while...but please trust the story, and this authour's love for the couple. I think you will be surprised.   kim Running Deep 08/03/2006 08:17 pm What an idea...to have Dru seeing young William that far back and knowing he would be hers...and Angelus even let her give the doll back...very interesting. That scene with his little sister was so sweet and tender. She must have looked on him as her brave protector. Dawn's innocent faith in him must have brought that all back, when he met her. Still weird thinking of Xander as dead. It's done so rarely. I always thought the brotherly protectivness of Sawn wasn't a new idea to Spike. And, the fact that Willow killed Xander will come into play in the next few chapters; so watch for it.   vladt Endgame 08/01/2006 06:30 pm very good read, thanks. but i have little confidence that giles will interpret the information in away to help spike. Maybe not. But if Buffy and Giles work together they could get this rescue pulled off.   Lou Endgame 08/01/2006 04:06 pm Methinks she should listen to Spike. Suspense time! I think you might be right.   Miss Rose Endgame 08/01/2006 08:00 am This new information Giles found was very intriguing, and more than a little scary, poor Spike it's so awful he has that thing inside of him. As usual I loved the Spuffy interaction. My heart ached for Spike when he misread Buffy's reasons for not being able to look at him, I enjoyed reading both Spike and Buffy's inner thoughts throughout the chapter. I can't wait to find out what happens when Willow and Giles return. Wonderful chapter. Yeah, it is scary. Can Spike ever catch a break? Buffy is important here. Maybe more than she knows. Willow and Rupert are bringing back crucial info. Let's hope they get to Devon quickly.   DeanSamWinchesterfan Endgame 08/01/2006 07:53 am Good chapter.Update soon.Poor Spike and stupid Watchers! Watchers can be very short-sighted, it's true. Thanks for reading.   fallen_angel Endgame 08/01/2006 06:49 am I hate Travers! And I can't even wish him dead anymore because he already dead! Ok I'll improvise, I hope you're making him burn in hell! People that have power, or had it, can be really scary. And don't worry, Q is nice and warm.   kim Endgame 08/01/2006 02:54 am Hmmmm.... An interesting take to explain exactly what it was... If each Slayer makes it stronger, than what does it progressively do to each Slayer? Remember how...witchy Buffy was after she died-each time? What do you think it did?   Verda Endgame 08/01/2006 01:42 am Poor Spike, so afraid of hurting her. Hopefully Giles and Willow will dicover something through the monks to help. Great chapter Please update again soon, sitting on pins and needles here, I'm so worried for them both. Giles will, don't worry. I'll be updating soon. Thanks for reviewing!   DeanSamWinchesterfan Catharsis 07/28/2006 07:54 pm Good chapter.Update soon.Poor Spike. Thank you so much!   vladt Catharsis 07/28/2006 07:28 pm powerful read, thank you. glad to see buffy instictively finding a way to help him.eve if she doesn't know it. It's when Buffy thinks too much that things get mucked up.   Miss Rose Catharsis 07/28/2006 07:08 pm Your doing an amazing job with the scenes between Buffy and Spike they're so emotionally driven and incredibly well written. Willow asked a really interesting question about the Ukesolrill, I look forward to finding out what the answer is. Wonderful chapter! I don't know where it all comes from, really. I just write what the muse tells me. It is a good question. I wanna know the answer too! Keep reading...pretty please.   pretty_in_fangs Catharsis 07/28/2006 06:39 pm It had to be protected. It couldn’t be found, because if it were, all that she could love, and the hope that, maybe one day, she would love, would wither and die. And, if that happened, the demon knew that it would not continue. It would stop. It would die. Beautiful description. I love the image of the demon as the protector of the soul. They had an agreement, remember? What is Spike if he's *not* a protector?   VWalk Catharsis 07/28/2006 05:35 pm Very tender. Poor Spike... he's been through so much already, and it just keeps coming. I dont want him to lose his soul - not after he fought so hard for it. Glad that Buffy is finally pulling her head out of her a** and realizing some things about herself. Great chapter, great story. Looking for the next installment. Spike's well-being kinda hinges on Buffy right now. That's all I'm saying...   Lou Catharsis 07/28/2006 04:26 pm Great chapter. Powerful. Thank you!   kim Catharsis 07/28/2006 04:01 pm Ah, a fresh mind can do wonders, eh, Giles? Willow's question is a good one. Where does the demon essence float when it's traveling from slayer to slayer? And is the same demon's essence in both Faith and Buffy, or is there more than one Ukesolrill? Poor Spike...the soul is dying no matter how hard he tries to protect it. Nice to see Buffy being honest with herself finally. Here's hoping that Buffy can handle a broken vampire. How she handles this could mean the world to Spike.   Verda Catharsis 07/28/2006 04:00 pm Kill the slayer? Can't wait to see what that's about. It's just so damn sad, glad she's there for him,at last. Angsty and tender chapter. Thanks for the read. No, not killing Buffy...again. But she has died before...   Joan Orange-Colored Sky 07/25/2006 01:18 pm Beautifully written! We don't get to see tender Buffy often enough. Tender is tough for Buffy...and it may be more help than she knows.   margaret Orange-Colored Sky 07/24/2006 11:25 pm what a beautifully written chapter. thank you. can't wait to see all the twists and turns. just exactly who was giles' ancestor? Wow...the hints must be subtle, but they are there. And here I tought it was a Big Blinking Bad Arrow. There's another hint...I'm not saying outright for the people who want to be surprised. Sorry. Did the hint help?   vladt Orange-Colored Sky 07/24/2006 01:05 pm excellent update. happy to see buffy reach him and provide strength. thanks for the fine read. Hopefully Spike is strong enough to stay on the "outside" for a little while.   Miss Rose Orange-Colored Sky 07/24/2006 06:43 am Yay! Spike is communicating again, and what a clever way to make it happen. The fact that love and some sweet kisses was all it took for Buffy to reach Spike really touched my heart. I'm really looking forward to Giles's return, I enjoyed the intense flashback. Excellent chapter! Love is a hard thing for Buffy to express. What's easy for us isn't easy for her. And remember the baddie isn't gone yet...   Lou Orange-Colored Sky 07/24/2006 06:32 am Wow. The Power of Love. Beautifully done! There's nothing better!   DeanSamWinchesterfan Orange-Colored Sky 07/24/2006 05:28 am Good chapter.Update soon.Poor Spike. Okay.   kim Orange-Colored Sky 07/23/2006 10:26 pm 5 days...that's a lot of searching. It would make antsy, too. Couple more clues to what Giles recognized, but there's still lots more to reveal about the past. Poor Spike...at least he knows they're really there. Hmm...I thought the clues were a little more straightforward than that. I guess not. Spike has a long way to go but at least now he can ask for the help he might need.   Verda Orange-Colored Sky 07/23/2006 10:12 pm That was so tender and beautiful. He needed that so much and so did she. I do hope that Giles finds out about his and Spike's connection while looking for a way to help him. Just wonderful chapter, thank you so much, update soon! Thank you! I figured the dark needed to let up a little. Glad you liked it.   MARGARET The Still Waters 07/22/2006 06:25 pm PLEASE LETS HELP SPIKE SOON, THANKS FOR THE FAST UPDATE. VERY TISSUE INDUCING Yes,very, hence the warning. But Giles has a plan, so not all hope is lost.   vladt The Still Waters 07/21/2006 04:50 pm great read, thanks Thanks for reading!   DeanSamWinchesterfan The Still Waters 07/21/2006 07:30 am Good chapter.Update soon.I hope that Spike's going to be okay,and the peace thing will happen. Maybe... let's hope.   sirc The Still Waters 07/21/2006 06:32 am great chapter Thanks!   Lou The Still Waters 07/21/2006 05:38 am Yikes - that should be too easy! Not easy at all.   Lou The Still Waters 07/21/2006 05:37 am God that was tough! Travers got off to easy! Yep. He really did. But, sometimes the world doesn't work perfectly, especially with people in it.   kim The Still Waters 07/21/2006 02:31 am Well, I didn't cry, but I'm definitely sad. And Giles is scaring me... There's more to Giles than the tweed, we all know that. But scaring you? Why is that?   Miss Rose The Still Waters 07/21/2006 12:25 am Oh thank goodness Giles has a plan! You weren't kidding when you said there was a tissue warning in this chapter. It was so hard to read Spike's heartwrenching pleas for help. But i'm feeling very positive about whatever Giles has in mind. I'll be eagerly awaiting the next update. Great chapter. He does have a plan. But will Buffy and he be able to reach Spike in time...?   Verda The Still Waters 07/20/2006 10:33 pm OK guys, lets get this ship sailing because I hate to see him in so much pain. He needs to be rewarded for his soul, not punished even more. Thanks for the update, hope you can update again soon. The punishment portion of this will be ending soon. But the journey has just begun.   pramen Means To An End 07/18/2006 02:44 pm I think it's time for Spike to come back...please? Great update! As soon as he thinks it's safe to do so,I'm sure he'll come round.   Lou Means To An End 07/17/2006 02:47 pm Travers was monstrous! Giles will have to excel himself here. Yep. Let's hope Giles can step up and help.   sirc Means To An End 07/17/2006 03:06 am And more is revealed!... Great chapter In dribs and drabs. Please keep reading.   vladt Means To An End 07/16/2006 08:33 pm giles will come up with the wrong answer. it is probably up to dawn and buffy to figure out the correct one. great update, great tale thank you. Spike may already have the answer. But, how will he tell anyone when he can barely move?   falllen-angel Means To An End 07/16/2006 04:03 am Oh God! I second that thought.   SpaceLord Means To An End 07/16/2006 03:40 am Hmm that Travers sure is insane.....hmm I thought that fighting for peace and all was their mission but apparantly not.....isn't that a kicker. isn't though? No one likes to be useless.   Verda Means To An End 07/16/2006 12:26 am Now what are they to do. He's trying so hard to keep hidden from the evil. Well Giles better get his butt back and find a way to remove this thing before it can't be removed with out killing him. Oh this is good! Exciting and suspenseful. Thanks for the great update. Spike may have already found it. Do you remember "Duck and Cover?" Well this time, it might work!   Miss Rose Means To An End 07/16/2006 12:11 am Wow! This was one informative update. The extent of Quentin's evilness was positively mind boggling. The info about the Ukesolrill is so discouraging, no wonder poor Spike is in hiding. I like how determined Buffy is though, loved her line about always finding him. Wonderful chapter. Not all hope is lost, Rose.   kim Means To An End 07/15/2006 10:48 pm A vicious curse on a being like Spike. Has there ever been such an emotional vampire? At least he understands what it's feeding on, smart boy. Even older than that, Buffy, if you count human years. He was about 28 when he was turned. Okay, Giles, work on a remedy, 'cause there's really not much time. So, the Council made him head man, huh? I guess he did still have some noticeable influence. It sure is. And Spike is smart. Now if only he could get the message out to the others.   margaret Means To An End 07/15/2006 10:27 pm poor spike, now the thoughts he's having are starting to make sense. i hope buffy and dawn can fix this...dawn's green key energy is older than the demon isn't it? Yes. But remember what Dawn was going to be used for? Evil can recognise its own.   sirc Eggshells 07/17/2006 02:56 am great chapter Thank you!   Verda Eggshells 07/15/2006 12:22 am Please tell us what the prophecy is? What is in there that wants to kill them all and where did it come from? Has it been in him all the time or is it like the First and using him? So many questions...and only you have the answers! Now I'm going to beg like everyone else for updates. Please! You know I love it. I've given you portions of it, the parts Quentin was working with. Some of it still is lost. Quentin was more of a monster than Spike could ever be. Remember the headaches Quentin asked about? No, this is not the First evil. But this does go back to the beginning...so...   pfeifferpack Eggshells 07/14/2006 12:31 pm Oh my dear, so talented, Wendy! I have been reading but unable to post (still iffy most of the time)......This story is captivating! LOVE the intereaction with the characters. I have always been a sucker for Dawn and Spike friendship and it is wonderfully shown here. Poor Spike trying to save his loved ones and frustrated by not being understood. My money is on Giles figuring it out enough to help his uncle (?) William. (and can't wait for his reaction to learning the connection with the vampire!) Just keep it coming it is a masterwork hon. Kathleen *Jumping for joy* Wahooo! you're back! Thanks so much for the comments. This thing that Spike's dealing with may be the worst yet. (Our normally animated hero being still as the um...dead? There's got to be a reason.) Please keep reading and comment when you can.   fallen_angel Eggshells 07/14/2006 05:55 am :-( If Travers wasn't already dead, I'd go kill him! Does Giles know he's related to Spike? No. Only Spike knows that.   vladt Eggshells 07/13/2006 11:43 pm typical giles. has decided it is too late for spike. glad dawn sees that something is wrong. thanks for the great update. It's not too late...but Giles has always been a "Glass half empty" person.   kim Eggshells 07/13/2006 09:54 pm Parasite/possession...I had a fear of that, when Spike kept talking about holding something back, not letting it hurt his family. I thought for a second he meant the demon, but that doesn't work because the demon loves them just as much. Released an Old One, even? No this isn't Illyria. Could be something muvh more damaging to Spike.   Pin1 Eggshells 07/13/2006 06:02 pm Another great chapter. Looking forward to finding out more about the prophecy. Thanks!   SpaceLord Eggshells 07/13/2006 04:40 pm Hmm what is Giles thinking? I mean if he suspects he needs to act and not hope.....better safe than sorry. Spike was just now strong enough to get through to someone. It may not be Giles's fault. You can't fight what you cant see.   Miss Rose Eggshells 07/13/2006 04:25 pm Yikes! This new development is absolutely terrifying. But at least on the upside Spike was able to get his message across to Dawn. I can't wait to learn more about what Quentin did. Great chapter. Yes it is. This may be Travers's revenge from beyond...let's hope not.   DeanSamWinchesterfan Eggshells 07/13/2006 04:14 pm Good chapter.Update soon.Poor Spike,Buffy,and Dawn. Okay   Verda Old Hats 07/15/2006 12:09 am Poor soul, he loves them all so much, it's so hard to see him like this, still trying to protect them even in his mind. One more 'til I'm caught up, then I must wait like the rest of your fans. Another heart-wrenching chapter. Incredible story. It's what he does. What more can I say?   vladt Old Hats 07/12/2006 06:23 pm giles killed travers much too quickly and much too gently. great update to a fantastic tale. But Spike is "out" at the moment. I haven't explained why Giles did what he did. Vengence is swift. If I waited for Spike to be set right before it was meted out, it might never come. And, it would only prove Travers's point.   pramen Old Hats 07/12/2006 12:42 pm poor Spike, can you please make him feel better soon? Great chapter! It'll be a while. Please be patient.   kim Old Hats 07/11/2006 09:20 pm So what did the bastard set up? They're going to have a really hard time reaching Spike before his physical pain is reduced. He'd have a hard time thinking straight with all his body went through, let alone his mind. Read and find out. It may have something to do with why Spike is "hiding."   redwulf50 Old Hats 07/11/2006 06:17 pm Can we killl Travers again????? Grrrrrr I'm all for that!   pretty_in_fangs Old Hats 07/11/2006 04:13 pm Beautiful chapter. Just lovely. Thanks!   Lou Old Hats 07/11/2006 03:52 pm Excellent chapter - but gruelling! Poor Spike is so broken. yep, he really is, but it;ll be better. I promise.   Miss Rose Old Hats 07/11/2006 02:27 pm Poor Spike, I feel so bad for him. The Quentin flashback was really disturbing. Any man that knows he's facing death and is acting that cocky can't be of the good. Can't wait to find out what happens next. Great chapter as always. Meant to be...He was a teal creep. And Spike is on the long road home now.   SpaceLord Old Hats 07/11/2006 02:27 pm Poor Spike....wonder what old Travers had set up and how that is to play out. Should be fun to learn. Read and find out.   MARGARET Old Hats 07/11/2006 02:19 pm THANK GOODNESS SPIKE IS RESCUED. CAN BUFFY GET HIM OUT OF HIS DELUSIONAL STATE? PLEASE UPDATE SOON Not delusional, though he is extremely stressed.   fallen_angel Old Hats 07/11/2006 12:44 pm I think i'm gonna be sick...I can't stand pain or torture at the moment. *shudder* I hope you continue to read though.   DeanSamWinchesterfan Old Hats 07/11/2006 12:28 pm Good chapter.Update soon.Poor Spike.He's most likely going to be suffering from PTSD with his reaction to that. Most likely. There's no telling what could set Spike off. Buffy may have to tread lightly for a while.   sirc Forget Me Not 07/17/2006 02:34 am I got an error before, so apologies if this comes twice. It confused me a bit to see Giles and Buffy get to cell fast enough to still see Travers. It didn't seem like enough time had passed, since they would need to drive there, find the right cell and be quick enough for Travers not have finished, yet. Giles seemed to know where to go, so that lessens the searching time, but there's still the getting there part. While Travers would want to be thorough and not too quick, I don't think he would have too much time that would have been needed if Buffy and Giles drove there. So, maybe they did a teleportation spell? I guess I'll see that in the following chapters. Sorry about ranting. I really did like and I hope I didn't sound the opposite. Through the magic of my imagination- and a little date tag that you may have missed- four days have passed between Buffy's arrival and the ruscue. So much bad can happen in ninety-six hours.   Verda Forget Me Not 07/14/2006 11:38 pm Thank you! thankyou thankyou. I yelled so loud, I scared my poor kitty, James. To easy for him, way to easy, he deserved worse soooo much worse. Can't wait to see Rupert's reaction when he finds out the connection. Another amazing chapter. Oh your poor cat! I agree, he did deseve worse. Spike however is in no condition, and so it falls to the next generation. Giles may not find out. Spike has kept the secret this long, why not a little longer?   pretty_in_fangs Forget Me Not 07/07/2006 10:57 am Oh my. It's not all dark, I promise.   Miss Rose Forget Me Not 07/06/2006 11:05 pm *breathes a sigh of relief* Thank you so much for the quick rescue, i'm so relieved Spike is finally out of Quentin's evil clutches! I can't wait to find out where the story goes now that Spike has been reunited with his loved ones. Fantastic chapter! You're very welcome. It'll be a while. They have to find out what Quentin wanted Spike for in the first place.   Robyn Forget Me Not 07/06/2006 10:51 pm As much as I would like Quentin to be given even a part of what he gave Spike, I like the way he was stopped, shot down with far less consideration then would be given a rabid animal. I really hope that Buffy will be able to reach Spike, and do we get to find out what happened between Giles finding the video and them finding Spike? Thanks for the update, it was nice to see that they have found Spike. The rescue will be spelled out in the next chapter.   vladt Forget Me Not 07/06/2006 07:19 pm very good read, thanks. if spike isn't imagining this, it way to easy on travers. Not dreaming.   redwulf50 Forget Me Not 07/06/2006 06:12 pm *snorts* oh yeah can Willow raise him where we can kill him again??? Don't worry, flashbacks can be fun. You get the play-by-play.   DeanSamWinchesterfan Forget Me Not 07/06/2006 06:08 pm Good chapter.Update soon.I'm glad Spike's rescued now. Me too!   Lou Forget Me Not 07/06/2006 03:44 pm Great chapter -- such gruesome torture for Spike and such well-crafted drama at the end! Kudos! Thank you so much!   fallen_angel Forget Me Not 07/06/2006 12:53 pm wait what's in the pictures? Why Spike's family of course!   SpaceLord Forget Me Not 07/06/2006 11:26 am Hmm so I take it that William and Rupert are related in your little world then? Sweet. Yep. After "Band Candy" I had to do it!   kim Forget Me Not 07/06/2006 10:48 am They mounted a rescue that quick? I think someone's dreaming... Good to see Lydia's not too bad off. All of it recoverable. Cauterizing the fang holes - that's just mean! Not so fast. I know it's easy to miss, but the last time I gave you a date Willow was answering doors and waiting for Buffy. Where did four days go?   ~*~Tasha~*~ Secrets 07/22/2006 05:11 pm {growls at Travers} You are writing this very well, but it is hard to read the darker stuff. I might skip ahead to the last chapter you have up and see if it is light enough to help bring it around. Otherwise I might have to stop reading for another day. Sorry. Rescue coming very soon. Ripper makes a breif but memorable appearance. Then, the real battle begins...   Verda Secrets 07/14/2006 11:01 pm Wanted to finish this, this morning, but kept getting Fatal error, finally got the rest of the night to myself. Just love it when writers use Giles as Spike's nephew. Since most writers don't review old chapters, I was surprised that you did and I appreciate it as well. BtVS writers may have wanted Sid Vicious persona, but James is to hot not to be compared to Billy Idol, and that's face it, "Rebel Yell" doesn't get any badder than that. And you, dear girl, have emotions pouring off these pages. Great chapter. Thanks. I am always interested in new readers and what they think. About Billy...I toyed with the idea of giving our, "William" the sirname "Broad," which as it happens, is the name on Billy Idol's birth record.   spikes_wish Secrets 07/04/2006 12:12 pm Ugh, Travers, ugh! He's so evil! It's about time Buffy and Giles got to England though. Did I mention- Travers = ugh! lol, great update, can't wait for more Yeah, I think you did. I'm working on the next chapter. It should be up very soon.   sirc Secrets 07/04/2006 06:24 am great chapter Thanks   Robyn Secrets 07/02/2006 07:57 am What a fantastic update, you are doing a great job of showing that Quentin’s evilness is not because of misplaced beliefs but because of his desire for power and control. I also like how Spike is using the pain from the horrors that has been committed against him to fight from giving into Quentin. Thank you so much for the comment. I sometimes think that I get too caught up in the motives and not in the action of a story. I worry that I bore readers with my involved characterisations, so I am glad you're staying with it. As for Quentin- we all know power corrupts, and those who have power tend to do unspeakable things to hold it and gain more. When this all comes to light... I wouldn't want to be Travers. It could get messy.   DeanSamWinchesterfan Secrets 06/30/2006 04:59 pm Good chapter.Update soon.After being rescued,I can see Spike suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Could be...   Lou Secrets 06/30/2006 03:05 am Could Travers be more evil? Now there's a real monster! Giles needs to get his finger out. He sure is evil, isn't he? And, I don't think Giles is the problem. He dosen't see the entire picture yet, after all.   Miss Rose Secrets 06/29/2006 11:24 pm Oh my gosh! Travers just keeps getter more diabolical with each new chapter. The insight into his way of thinking was really scary, he's so desparate to hold onto his beliefs. I'm really worried for Spike and Giles. Nice twist to have Spike and Giles related by the way. I'm really looking forward to when Giles gets his mail. Wonderful chapter! The real evil is those who cannot accept change. I've always had the idea that they were related. Ever since "Band Candy." I have another story on SR with this particular plot twist, check it out if you like. Just click the "Authors" link. I know, shameless plug. I couldn't help it.   vladt Secrets 06/29/2006 09:42 pm excellent update, thanks . it seems travers has another ace to play. i am sure there is a joker or two in the deck, that he has overlooked. thanks for the read. There is a power at work here that Quentin hasn't taken into account.   kim Secrets 06/29/2006 07:41 pm Heheheheh...Quentin's a pompous idiot. And finally Buffy and Co. are in England. Hurry up and open your mail, Rupert! He will don't worry.   Pin1 Secrets 06/29/2006 06:02 pm Another excellent chapter. Neat strategy to have Giles & Spike related. Travers is incredibly evil and I love Spike's resolve. Looking forward to Spike's rescue. Thanks a bunch.   Pin1 Secrets 06/29/2006 06:02 pm Another excellent chapter. Neat strategy to have Giles & Spike related. Travers is incredibly evil and I love Spike's resolve. Looking forward to Spike's rescue. Thanks again!   fallen_angel Secrets 06/29/2006 05:39 pm Here's a plan, you let us into your story for a while, we kill Travers and then come out or we could get Harry potter to do it? You could do that- but then Giles couldn't have any fun!   ~*~Tasha~*~ In Camera 07/22/2006 05:08 pm Wicked cruel sadistic and evil bastard that Travers is. I don't know how much more of this I can take. {Sighs and cries} I didn't like writing some of this either. But...just who is the monster here?   Verda In Camera 07/14/2006 03:01 am That's really sick, ripping out his fangs, but they'll grow back. Hopefully sooner than later. Who know that he still had family, sick, sick man. No one...except Spike. And, yes Travers is a very sick and evil man.   sirc In Camera 07/04/2006 06:19 am great chapter thank   vladt In Camera 06/24/2006 07:34 pm fantastic read. thank you. hopefully quentin will reap what he has sown. thanks again. The man is fond of quoting the Book of Proverbs. I think he may have forgotten one...   MARGARET In Camera 06/24/2006 03:12 pm I'M FOLLOWING THIS STORY WITH BATED BREATH. CAN SPIKE PLEASE BE RESCUED SOON AND THE EVIL WATCHERS BE BEATED TO DEATH!( OR SORT OF). CAN'T WAIT FOR HE NEXT INSTALLMENT THANKS I love Spike as much as any of us here. I won't let him suffer a minute longer than the story calls for. Don't worry.   Lou In Camera 06/24/2006 11:47 am What a swine! Preaching to the converted here!   Bridget In Camera 06/24/2006 10:46 am I certainly hope Spike gets some help soon and I hope that sadistic Quentin gets what is coming to him. Please update soon. Spike and his "family" will be giving Quentin what he deserves soon.   DeanSamWinchesternfan In Camera 06/24/2006 08:00 am Good chapter.Update soon.Poor Spike.I can see him falling apart in somebody's arms. Me too! But she has to find him first.   kim In Camera 06/24/2006 06:52 am Oh! I think I know who the descendent is...but I won't say anything yet, so the others can be surprised. Good! Now, shhh...   Robyn In Camera 06/24/2006 06:24 am This chapter made me literally feel sick with both worry for Spike and his family, the horror of what is being done to him, and the evilness of Quentin. Ripping out his fangs and torturing him is horrible but to add the threat against his family is beyond the pale. Thanks for the update, I love reading your stories because of how well you are able to draw me in and have me react to what is happening with the characters. Thank you for the kind words. I too was sick to my stomach, because as I write, I see pictures in my head before I write a chapter or scene. This one woke me up in the middle of the night. The good guys will get up to speed soon.   kim In Camera 06/24/2006 03:24 am They pulled his fangs?????!! Oh god...they'll grow back, but it's not a quick thing. And now Quentin wants him to kill his family? He won't do it. He'd die first. That's what Quentin doesn't get. I think the implication was that if Spike doesn't do what Quentin wants, it could be bad for the family's health.   SpaceLord In Camera 06/24/2006 01:57 am I find this guilt about killing humans to be extremly boring and not very bevlievable at all really. I'm of the firm belief that most people would have very little trouble killing another human being given the right circumstances and feel very little guilt about it. I would say that those who wouldn't are more exceptions to the rule than not. I can understand that souled Angel and Spike might feel bad about taking pleasure in torturing people and such but to kill to save one self I just think is rather pathetic. I understand your point completely. Here's mine. In his rational mind, Spike, and I for that matter, would agree with you. Why do you think he attempted that in the first place? To *Get Out* of there! Are you telling me that a crazy thought can't run through a charater's mind, or a RL person's, when faced with stress and pain that is unthinkable? Please stay with me.   pretty_in_fangs In Camera 06/24/2006 01:33 am OOOOOOOOH! I hate Travers. You play his evil so well. Grrr. Thank you so much. I dislike him emmensely as well.   Miss Rose In Camera 06/23/2006 11:32 pm Poor Spike! Things are so bleak right now, I could cry. I can see why you had such a hard time writing this chapter. *sends you a big hug* But you did an excellent job of showing us just how much of a monster Quentin really is. I'm really looking forward to the day Travers gets what's coming to him. I hope Giles gets to his mail soon! Great chapter. Thanks. *Hugs you back* Quentin really is the monster here. What Quentin gets may depend on who is in those pictures on the wall. I hope I haven't given the person away just yet. But, if I have...Shh don't tell okay?   ~*~Tasha~*~ Goodbye, Professor Marvel 07/22/2006 05:04 pm Eeek ... I hope that Giles finds the tape. {whimpers} He will. I promise.   Verda Goodbye, Professor Marvel 07/14/2006 02:51 am Smart womman, making a tape now let's hope that Willow doesn't forget that he's got it. Another wonderful part to this story. You're welcome. Someone has to help Spike out!   sirc Goodbye, Professor Marvel 07/04/2006 06:02 am great chapter Thank you   vladt Goodbye, Professor Marvel 06/24/2006 06:34 pm wonderful update, thank you. you're welcome   fallen_angel Goodbye, Professor Marvel 06/22/2006 05:40 am when is someone going to open the mail? Don't know...   Robyn Goodbye, Professor Marvel 06/21/2006 12:17 pm I love the precautions that Lydia took sending Giles what information she had, I'm looking forward to when he finds it. I like that Giles realized how much Spike means to him and that he was able to express it to Buffy. I loved the flash-back. Thanks for the update. The good guys are finally growing up. That's tough sometimes.   margaret Goodbye, Professor Marvel 06/21/2006 11:07 am just started to read this story and it's great. love all the african action. now can't wait for buffy to kick traver's butt! please update soon thanks Glad you're enjoying it!   Lou Goodbye, Professor Marvel 06/21/2006 05:11 am Interesting back story. Thanks. I wanted to fill in some gaps the show left. I hope you liked it.   DeanSamWinchesterfan Goodbye, Professor Marvel 06/20/2006 08:38 pm Good chapter.Update soon. Thanks, will do!   Miss Rose Goodbye, Professor Marvel 06/20/2006 06:46 pm What a powerful and very realistic flashback. I could totally imagine a conversation like that taking place during Buffy's depression, and I think it's great Spike's words are still giving Buffy encouragement. I'm still worried for Lydia, but i'm glad we know she sent the telegram to Giles. Wonderful chapter! Gotta love a wise old man in a big leather coat! ;) Would I let our hero down? Of course the info will get to Giles and Buffy...sooner or later.   SpaceLord Goodbye, Professor Marvel 06/20/2006 06:22 pm Yes please Willow focus on the important of chatting with Dawn She doesn't know how important the envelope is...be patient.   kim Goodbye, Professor Marvel 06/20/2006 05:56 pm Well done scene, with Buffy begging for the easy way out. Dawn doesn't seem to have gotten a word in yet, with Willow on the verge of being manic in her nervousness. Resulting to torture? He lived with Angelus and Darla. Quentin's going to have to think of a lot worse to get anything out of him that way. Poor Lydia...that truck really did a number. Sending the parcel to Devon was brilliant, and Giles and Buffy will be there soon. I hope the ambulance isn't too late. No easy way out for Buffy, or anyone else Spike cares about. Willow does seem a bit hyper, dosen't she? I hope she remembers to tell Giles about the envelope. Remember the sign at the zoo that says, "Do not feed the bear?" Quentin is getting awfully close to a very hungry, very brassed of vampire. He should be careful. As for Lydia...we'll have to wait and see.   redwulf50 Goodbye, Professor Marvel 06/20/2006 05:49 pm excellent chappie, Quentin has Simba by the tail and ya know when he tries to let go he's gonna get gutted Not gutted. But maybe...bitten?   pretty_in_fangs Goodbye, Professor Marvel 06/20/2006 05:44 pm Oh dear. So, how long does it sit there before they find it again? Don't know...read on and then tell me.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Whitewash 07/22/2006 05:00 pm Uh oh ... That does not bode well for Lydia. What did that bastard Travers do to Spike that Spike can't remember? {bites her nails} No, it doesn't. But don't lose hope.   Verda Whitewash 07/14/2006 02:39 am Good for Spike not giving in hope he can keep it up. Doubt very much if it was an accident, but will the message be sent? Great chapter. Yep.   fallen_angel Whitewash 06/22/2006 05:26 am OMG what did Travers make spike do? May be nothing at all. Spike's alone, you know he doesn't do that well- and his only source of info is Travers. That could be bad for his mental heath.   vladt Whitewash 06/17/2006 09:21 pm very good chapter, even the end where we do not know if lydia sent the telegram. or will live to send it. thanks for the great read and leaving spike in dire straits. Like to see Spike suffer, do you? Well, if it was all "Shiny, Happy, People" *props to Micheal Stipe* the story would be pretty boring. But, it has to end sometime. Or, does it? lol.   Nikkole Whitewash 06/17/2006 11:32 am I finally had the time to catch up on this story. I have not been able to read it since you posted chapter 7! I like the progression of the story. For once, I hope Lydia isn't dead. I can't wait to see more from this story! I'm glad you're all caught up now. Things are starting to get good! Hope you enjoy the ride.   sirc Whitewash 06/17/2006 11:11 am great chapter Thank you very much!   Robyn Whitewash 06/17/2006 05:19 am Wow, lots of twists and turns in this chapter I am looking forward to the follow-up. I loved Spike’s memories of his family, I wonder if Quentin has even a clue of the inner strength Spike possesses. Quentin has no clue. But remember, the fears are just as strong- maybe stronger- than anything else inside of Spike. Quentin may know that. And, he may be using it to his advantage.   zanthinegirl Whitewash 06/16/2006 07:42 pm oh, you evil, vicious woman! (pets evil plot twist) that was truly cruel! Are you *sure* you don't actually work for ME? Looking forward to the next crushing of poor Spike's hope! I'll never tell...but in case I didn't work for them- thank you for saying that my writing is on par with those guys. In case I did- you should have heard the cain I raised during some of season six! I have to make my story worth reading, don't I?   Lou Whitewash 06/16/2006 06:51 pm Dramatic!! Thank you! *takes bow* Keep reading please.   Miss Rose Whitewash 06/16/2006 05:36 pm Spike's memories of his family were really interesting. Poor Lydia, I feel so bad for her. Intriguing conversation between Spike and Travers. I'm really looking forward to finding out where things go from here. Great chapter! It will be a fun ride. Staying with me, are you? You brave soul.   Pin Whitewash 06/16/2006 05:21 pm Oh, wow, they tried to kill Lydia! You are building a lot of suspense - this is a eally thriller and I can't wait to see what happens next. Seems Quentin was watching and he doesn't want his dirty little secret to get out.   pretty_in_fangs Whitewash 06/16/2006 04:55 pm Oh dear. Keep reading...it will get better...I hope.   redwulf50 Whitewash 06/16/2006 04:52 pm Plotty goodness Yay Plots need love too!   DeanSamWinchesterfan Whitewash 06/16/2006 04:08 pm Good chapter.At least Spike is back.Update soon. Yep, at least on the ouside.   ~*~Tasha~*~ A Different Drummer 07/22/2006 04:57 pm {gulps} Oh my gosh ... dissect? Eeek!! Good points int he chapter with Dawn and her realization. Glad for that. Buffy all with the gung ho I have to know where Spike is ... yippee there too. {Smiles} I thought it was about time someone saw reason as to what Spike would and wouldn't do.   Verda A Different Drummer 07/14/2006 02:29 am Did I miss something, because if they aren't going to England then who called Dawn and asked her to meet them there? Tarvers? Baiting Dawn like a worm on a hook? and eewwwww how much can you dissect before he's dust, that's just a gruesome thought. Thanks for that distrubing chapter! still love it! No, you didn't miss anything. They have telephones in Africa.   fallen_angel A Different Drummer 06/22/2006 05:23 am Glad Dawn finally worked outher issues somewhat. She has more work to do.   sirc A Different Drummer 06/15/2006 02:38 pm great chapter Thanks X5!   vladt A Different Drummer 06/15/2006 01:44 am excellent update. so many highlights. spike, knowing not to escape; dawn, finally understanding; and giles being an idiot. fantastic read, thank you Thank you for reading.   Robyn A Different Drummer 06/14/2006 06:21 am I love what Spike did for Lydia and I loved his inner talk while working things out. He was right he had started seeing humans as more then food a long time before the soul. I also really liked Dawn's trip down memory lane and Buffy's comment when Giles said he didn't know. Thanks for another great update. As someone might say,"There's no advantage to hurt someone trying to help him." Paraphrasing Wesley a bit there. Giles does tend to revert to stuffy old Watcher when he doesn't know what else to do. Thanks for the comment.   lIU A Different Drummer 06/13/2006 07:40 am Jeez, Giles, you're such a disappointment after such a promising beginning! He always seems to go downhill, doesn't he? It will get better.   DeanSamWinchesterfan A Different Drummer 06/13/2006 05:51 am Good chapter.Poor Spike.I like Dawn's middle name.I always use "Elyse" for her middle name.U Update soon. Glad you like it. I'll be updating soon.   SpaceLord A Different Drummer 06/13/2006 01:42 am Yay go Dawn. I like happy nice Dawn/Spike friendship. And Giles the moron now It'll get better. I promise.   Miss Rose A Different Drummer 06/12/2006 11:22 pm I just love the way you always portray Spike. I hope Lydia and Giles get in contact with each other soon. Loved Dawn's flashback. Great chapter. Thanks. They all will know what's going on soon.   kim A Different Drummer 06/12/2006 09:05 pm Can't tell you how much I love this story! You're building something so well layered. This info shouldn't be surprising to Buffy about the Council. She's got to have figured out by now that they don't care about what they have to do to maintain their little world. Stop stalling! Time is limited. Spike's inner rant was really well done. Why do you think i sent someone else to England? Quentin might be on the lookout for the Slayer, not her sister.   redwulf50 A Different Drummer 06/12/2006 07:14 pm Oh yeah that was Spike alright, but damn Travers is gonna suffer Oh yeah!   ~*~Tasha~*~ Back To Basics 07/22/2006 04:52 pm First I wanted to say thank you for writing me when you didn't see reviews for this story for a long time. You know that I always review your stories, and it made me warm in the heart to get your letter. Secondly, I am glad that I have several chapters of this one to read in a row. That is the one nice thing about catching up ... you get a lot of good stuff all together. {winks} Glad to see that Dawnie is coming around. I wonder what Spike meant by his watching comment to Lydia. Look forward to reading all there is up to catch up. Tasha- Take all the time you need, I know RL is more important. Yes Dawnie is finally growing up. That's good to see, isn't it?   Verda Back To Basics 07/14/2006 02:12 am Now wants he got in mind? Ya never know with him. Another great chapter. Don't know...keep reading.   fallen_angel Back To Basics 06/22/2006 05:16 am Go Lydia! Can't believe I had disliked her. It's always the quiet ones that surprise you.   sirc Back To Basics 06/15/2006 02:32 pm great chapter   Lou Back To Basics 06/08/2006 07:39 am Yikes - nothing friendly, I hope! Say it with me, Lou. "Spike loves Buffy." He wouldn't do that. And niether would I.   vladt Back To Basics 06/07/2006 07:17 pm impatiently waiting to see what spike is going to show him. great update. thanks for the fine read. Sorry, have to wait just a little longer. Travers will learn just what it means to be human. And, he will learn respect for his elders! That young pup needs to learn a few things he should have learned in kindergarten.   Robyn Back To Basics 06/07/2006 09:11 am I love Buffy's strength and how determined she is to help Spike. Glad that Lydia is helping Spike, and I am really looking forward to the results of his final comment. Thanks for the update. Thanks for the comment. Travers may be in for a lesson in humanity...from a quarter he least expects it.   kim Back To Basics 06/07/2006 05:54 am Oooo, Spike has an idea...can't wait! We all know how fascinated Lydia has always been with Spike, so I imagine whatever he might be thinking is going to replay in her head over and over in the future. I'm just waiting for her to swoon the second he's the slightest bit flirty. Giles truly is the biggest wanker on the planet. Good Dawnie. Made the right choice. If his plan works, Spike might just have to give Lydia a big kiss! Worthy of a swoon, right?   Miss Rose Back To Basics 06/06/2006 07:05 pm I enjoyed reading Spike's thoughts throughout the chapter. I'm so glad Lydia showed up before Spike cracked. I can't wait to find out what Spike is up to... i'm really hoping Travers feels some payback. Wonderful chapter! Keep reading. I think it'll be worth the wait.   redwulf50 Back To Basics 06/06/2006 05:41 pm excellent chappie Can we kill Travers yet *Wulfe Whines* Wanna help?   DeanSamWinchesterfan Back To Basics 06/06/2006 03:52 pm Good chapters.Sorry I haven't reviewed in awhile.I was worried something bad might happened after the last chapter I read,and bad things start happening to characters,it starts to freak me out.But now it's going back towards happy,so I'm back.I'm glad Lydia's helping,but I hope Spike doesn't do anything stupid. Update soon. Sorry if I scared you. You will find that my stories, while roller coaster rides, tend to end nicely. Keep reading!   Verda Heart And Soul 07/14/2006 01:56 am Maybe now Giles will get his head out his ass and find Spike and now that Buffy's mind, is finally working again, they can get their crap together. Still riding that idiot Giles, stupid Buffy train. *sorry* Excellent read. No offense taken. Thanks for reading.   fallen_angel Heart And Soul 06/22/2006 05:08 am Buffy is his soul, it's so sweet. i've always felt that she was too What can I say? I'm a romantic fool.   sirc Heart And Soul 06/15/2006 02:25 pm great chapter   Lou Heart And Soul 06/08/2006 07:37 am The poor guy needs some hope before he gives up on everything!! Hope is on its way!   vladt Heart And Soul 06/03/2006 01:34 am buffy, again, has to straighten out giles. very good read. very dark ending. thanks for the fine read. You're welcome   redwulf50 Heart And Soul 06/02/2006 05:25 pm Damn Spike just rip out his throat Spike has to take time to know that there's nothing wrong with being who he is. As David Banner might say, "Mr. Mcgee, don't make me angry. You wouldn't like me when I'm angry."   pretty_in_fangs Heart And Soul 06/02/2006 07:32 am I'm so glad to see Buffy allowing her intuition to guide her to the truth and then using reason to guide Giles. Well done. (: I'm glad you're enjoying it. Buffy needs her wits with her if she's gonna find Spike.   Robyn Heart And Soul 06/01/2006 08:44 pm I love how Buffy figured out the truth and that she knew that Spike would never hurt her. I really like that it was Buffy and Panya who figured out what Spike had done, but that Giles couldn’t quite grasp the truth. I really hope that something good happens for Spike soon, and with the same token something really bad for Quentin. Thanks for the update. *Speaking in Spike's slow drawl* Soon luv, soon.   pfeifferpack Heart And Soul 06/01/2006 08:31 pm Yeah Buffy (and I love the word Spike has chosen for her.....it fits perfectly either way!) and Panya. Giles is a Special Ed kid isn't he? Put him on the short bus. Quentin needs a sound thrashing (more actually but he claims to be human so we'll settle for a thrashing and perhaps loss of all power). Excellent!! Kathleen Keep reading. Spike and I are still plotting his revenge...   Miss Rose Heart And Soul 06/01/2006 07:17 pm I loved the moment when everything became clear to Buffy. I'm so glad she was able to think clearly enough to realize Spike saved her life. I really liked the Panya/Buffy interaction, i'm really gonna miss him when the story shifts to England. I feel so bad for Spike, I hope help comes soon. Fantastic chapter! Don't worry Rose, Mouse isn't going to be gone for good.   SpaceLord Heart And Soul 06/01/2006 07:16 pm Well now Buffy will be mad as well....this is not looking good for Travers I must say, although with her pussy rule about killing humans I'm sure he's not the least bit threatened by her. She has that rule, but the "Big Bad" mighn't be so charitable.   Verda Exception To The Rule 07/14/2006 01:44 am Thank goodness that Lydia is keeping track of what's going on with Spike, he's going to need all the help that he can get. Didn't Spike say that the drugs kept him calm, now he's afraid of them? Weird. Another great chapter. Not of the drugs, but of what might be happening to him when he's unaware.   fallen_angel Exception To The Rule 06/22/2006 04:55 am Let's kill Travers! Please!   sirc Exception To The Rule 06/15/2006 02:19 pm great chapter   vladt Exception To The Rule 05/30/2006 03:00 pm even chained and drugged, he still scares travers. wonderful ending. loved the chapter, thanks for the read. Well...if the demon visage is jumpin' because he's a little wigged, why not use it to get a little info?   pfeifferpack Exception To The Rule 05/29/2006 07:03 pm Yeah clear headed brave Spike. Love to have Travers pee his pants for a change. Yeah Lydia too. Great update, can't wait for more and to find have Buffy set Giles straight. Kathleen There will be a confrontation. Spike *is* plotting his escape. And his revenge...well the Spike-shaped muse of mine is whispering something rather...creative Will have to see.   Lou Exception To The Rule 05/29/2006 05:49 am Travers!!!! Ugh - vile man. Worse than the "evil,souless thing" wouldn't you say?   ~*~Tasha~*~ Exception To The Rule 05/29/2006 01:52 am Another fine update. I look forward to seeing every chapter. {Grins} Thanks. I look forward to your reviews. :-)   Robyn Exception To The Rule 05/28/2006 10:26 pm I am so glad that Lydia has fully decided which side she is on and has decided to do what she can to help Spike. I love that Spike is bringing back his big bad persona and what he said to Travers. Thanks for the update. "Big Bad" has always been a protector, even of himself, so to speak.   Miss Rose Exception To The Rule 05/28/2006 09:25 pm Go Lydia! I was hoping she would play a part in Spike's escape from the Council. I just hope it doesn't backfire on her. I'm so proud of the way Spike is handling himself with Quentin. Loved his closing line. Great chapter! She will play a Big role in his escape. How much more do you think Spike can take before "Big Bad" starts to fade and maybe even crack...?I'm just sayin' something's got to give.   kim Exception To The Rule 05/28/2006 09:15 pm Lydia's becoming quite impressive here. I figured she would stay an ally once she decided to try to protect Spike. As always, the Watchers are going to underestimate Spike. I wouldn't mind if he bit Travers, except that the guilt would hit him later and make the soul hurt more. Are we back to Buffy's POV, and Giles and Mouse in the next chapter? You figured right. Checking in with Buffy next chapter.   redwulf50 Exception To The Rule 05/28/2006 07:22 pm *snorts* oh yeah the big Bad is back He's fun to see, isn't he?   Verda Nearsighted 07/14/2006 01:23 am How could Giles think that Spike could do anything to hurt Buffy? The doctor said it was a heart attack not an animal attack. Don't no that Buffy's really any better than Travers, at least him wants something, she did it because she could. Like I said, not loving Buffy at the moment, but I love this story. He's falling back on what he knows, is all.   fallen_angel Nearsighted 06/22/2006 04:21 am Awww poor Spike. I hope he'll be ok soon. Giles is impossible you know. What will it take for him to trust Spike? Old dogs take longer to learn new tricks. Giles is an example of this.   sirc Nearsighted 06/15/2006 02:11 pm great chapter   vladt Nearsighted 05/26/2006 05:47 pm very goood read, thanks. you have giles portrayed perfectly. a complete ass. he was infected by the council and was only moderately less a pain than travers. both knew what was "right for everone." If I weren't true to the characters, even the parts I don't like, no one would read my fic.   pramen Nearsighted 05/26/2006 04:33 pm ohh, I hope Spikes suffering will end soon. Love the update though, usually I only read fics that are completed but I can't keep from reading your story. Thanks for sharing it! The tables will be turning soon enough. I'm so glad you found this one engrossing enough to break your "completed" rule! I hope I can keep you interested.   pfeifferpack Nearsighted 05/26/2006 10:52 am Poor, poor Spike (and naughty reactionary Giles!). Wonderful update. Now we just need the "good guys" to get their wits about them and mount a needed rescue. May I just say that I can't wait for the downfall of the Council!!!??? (One GOOD thing Caleb did on the show IMHO). Kathleen You know Giles, when Buffy's in danger he falls back on what he knows. Vampires= bad, even if there is an exception to the rule. There will be an implosion at the Council, don't worry.   Robyn Nearsighted 05/26/2006 01:13 am Giles really doesn't understand Spike at all, I hope Buffy will remember enough to clear Spike's name. I really loved Spike's response to Quentin and I am really looking forward to any kind of justice served against him. Thanks for the update. Nope Giles never did understand, especially when Buffy's been hurt.   SpaceLord Nearsighted 05/26/2006 12:07 am Ohh this should be interesting....now Spike needs to break free and kill QT.....yes he needs to die right now. Enough tension for ya? Soon...   Miss Rose Nearsighted 05/25/2006 11:13 pm It's a shame Buffy's memory is so fuzzy. I hope the fog in her brain lefts soon. When she does get her memories back should be interesting to see if Giles current opinion changes towards Spike again. It's good to know Travers hasn't broken Spike's spirit. Great chapter! It will clear up soon, don't worry. The opinion of Spike is being colored by what the "Other" vamp did to Buffy. Remember, "Oh it wasn't me. I wasn't in control." Spike is the better man, and Giles will find that out soon.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Nearsighted 05/25/2006 07:06 pm Oooo ... excellent ending to this chapter. First off ... Stupid Giles. After all that Spike went through when he through Buffy was dead, why the heck would he think that Spike would do this to Buffy? {growls at Giles} There is still so much of the old reservations in him that need to be pounded out. Poor Buffy and Spike. I hope they find their way back to each other before it is to9o late. Angel did more than just screw up Buffy. I had to get Buffy to Jolly old somehow didn't I?   redwulf50 Nearsighted 05/25/2006 05:08 pm I love Spike's final line. Of course the chappie title fits perfect as well I loved it too. Thanks for the comment.   kim Nearsighted 05/25/2006 03:53 pm I want to kick Giles - two stepd forward, three steps back...wanker.... Poor Buffy's going to be worried out of her mind... What's Travers' questions? Been wondering that. Baby steps here. As for the questions- what do you think he would ask?   Verda A Chance of Reign 07/14/2006 01:09 am Great tune, 867-5309, a phone number no one from my generation will ever forget, I like it. All those years of living and torture have paid off, giving him a way to survive. Love this story. And the iinsistence that the writers used Sid Vicious as a model for "Spike?" Total B.S. Billy Idol, anyone?   fallen_angel A Chance of Reign 06/22/2006 04:14 am what does Spike know? I'll never tell. Okay...I will-but later.   Robyn A Chance of Reign 05/21/2006 02:07 am I loved the last line and him thanking his mother for the piano lessons. Thank you for the update. A guy has to love his mum. And, we know Spike does.   ~*~Tasha~*~ A Chance of Reign 05/21/2006 01:03 am Ooooo ... I love that last line ... "If I scare you then I know I can win" That was great! Excellent chapter. Yep, I thought that was good too. :-)   vladt A Chance of Reign 05/20/2006 10:25 pm wonderful setup. love spike's smile. anticipating pain and suffering for quentin. please. thanks for the fantastic read. Hurtin's coming. But who will be doing the hurtin and to whom?   Miss Rose A Chance of Reign 05/20/2006 09:08 pm Despite the grim circumstances Spike is in, this chapter leaves me feeling hopeful. Thank goodness Anne made her son take piano lessons they sure are coming in handy now. It might be wishful thinking on my part but i'm really hoping the character death you're referring to in your warnings is Quentin's. Wonderful chapter. Could be. Read on, Rose! Hope is a good thing to have, especially for our hero.   pfeifferpack A Chance of Reign 05/20/2006 07:49 pm Smart Spike, so often forgotten! His plans didn't work because of impulseness and impatience not lack of brains! You have another winner of a story here. Kathleen He's Waaaay smarter than the *other* vamp! I'm with you on that. Thanks!   redwulf50 A Chance of Reign 05/20/2006 04:39 pm Ohhhhhh Quentin screwed up. Spike is past wanting to die and now has a clear focus Yep he sure did!   SpaceLord A Chance of Reign 05/20/2006 04:13 pm I wanna see a kill the Travers....that would be fun....maybe kill all the watchers too....a good old fashion purge.....yes God does not like it when puny humans try and play God....very bad. Spike might be up for a "spot of violence"   Lou A Chance of Reign 05/20/2006 04:09 pm So pleased Spike is getting it together!! me too!   Verda Xenophobia 07/14/2006 12:55 am Finally! That crap that Angel said about not being able to do CPR, they breath so that they can talk, which means air in the lungs, air in air out. She owes him big time, when they catch up with him. Just not feelin' the Buffy love right now, of course he'd give himself up for her. Excellent chapter. I always thought it was crap too. I thought it was just me.   fallen_angel Xenophobia 06/22/2006 04:08 am i repeat, cruel death for Travers.   sirc Xenophobia 05/19/2006 12:20 pm great chapter thank you.   Pramen Xenophobia 05/18/2006 02:13 pm Ohh poor Spike! Update soon please! Sure! :-)   pfeifferpack Xenophobia 05/18/2006 01:15 pm Oooo they must have taken Spike there and, naturally, he was pronounced dead (easier to get him out of the country that way the wankers). Excellent upadate....SAVE Spike (yeah, I know then there'd be no story). Um....kill Travers??? Yeah that'd work. Kathleen Shame on you with thos Evil thoughts! LOL *Spike-like smirk* wait for it,luv.   Lou Xenophobia 05/18/2006 03:18 am Very dramatic - I look forward to more. More coming.   vladt Xenophobia 05/18/2006 12:06 am very good read. thanks You're very welcome.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Xenophobia 05/17/2006 10:10 pm So that is how they are going ot try to brush off Spike ... that he died. Hmmmmmm ... poor Buffy. I wonder what Quentin meant by why did you do it ... in reference to Buffy? I look forward to more. Another fine chapter you have here, FMS. Thanks! Just what Did he mean? Don't know. Well, okay I do, but I'm not tellin'! :-)   Miss Rose Xenophobia 05/17/2006 09:56 pm Great flashback, Spike was so heroic. Nice touch that Spike performed CPR on Buffy, I love how you blew Angel's lame opinion that vampires can't perform CPR out of the water. I'm so worried that Travers is gonna try to convince the heavily drugged Spike that Buffy didn't survive the lion attack or even worse that he killed her. I'll be eagerly awaiting the next update. Great chapter! I think Travers is more perturbed that the "Slayer of Slayers" actually Saved one. That's gonna be hard to reconcile with his worldview, don't you think?   Robyn Xenophobia 05/17/2006 09:30 pm Glad that Giles found Buffy and I can understand his confusion with the information he’s been given. Buffy going into cardiac arrest was a surprise. I really enjoyed the update, thanks. Hit someone hard enough, and at the right moment. their heart will stop. Thanks for reviewing.   kim Xenophobia 05/17/2006 08:51 pm *whimper* You are evil...another cliffie without all the answers. I knew they'd be pumping in enough drugs to take Spike as Travers new 'pet'...no surprise there...and they'd want him to go down quick for an easy capture. Love that you had him doing CPR...good thing he's paid attention to stuff like that! And the young man was already 'dead', LOL. Poor confused doctors. Why would they have seen him, though, when he was picked up right away by the Council guys? They know a vampire won't die from those injuries. Buffy so owes him now. Good convo with Aunt Darlene...she's a smart one...and Dawn's starting to listen. Time, and someone she can talk to, heals all wounds, eh? Now, for mounting that rescue mission! Yes, Buffy does owe him...Big! Once Buffy got into the plane to go to hospital, the drugs may have caught up with Spike. Do you Really think he wouldn't at least get on the plane with her?   Verda Innocence Lost 07/14/2006 12:29 am When you kill Travers, let Giles do it, so he can give him just what he deserves, exactly how he deserves it. Don't feel bad for Buffy, only that it will hurt Spike. Great angst-filled chapter. You're not supposed to feel sorry for Buffy. Thanks for reading.   fallen_angel Innocence Lost 06/22/2006 04:02 am DO me a favour, when you kill Travers, make it painful! Okay   vladt Innocence Lost 05/17/2006 11:45 pm excellent read. can't wait to see how you resolve this. travers painful demise would not be upsetting. thanks for the great read. That might be fun. Thanks for the idea...lol.   sirc Innocence Lost 05/17/2006 01:22 pm great chapter thanks again   Robyn Innocence Lost 05/16/2006 05:57 am No, no, no Spike can’t be in the hands of Travers he’s already gone through so much and now to he’s in the hands of power-hungry evilness in human form. Buffy in hospital, Spike’s capture relatively easy, what? Did they use her life as a bargaining chip? Please update soon, this chapter was so tense and then to end with that cliffhanger was pure evilness, genius, but still evilness. You’ve got us all chopping at the bit wondering what’s going to happen next. Thanks for the update. Why do you think it was so easy? Of Course it was Buffy!   Lou Innocence Lost 05/16/2006 03:34 am OH NO!! This is going to be bad, isn't it? Could be...don't really know.   Miss Rose Innocence Lost 05/15/2006 09:47 pm OH NO!!!! Poor Spike! Poor Buffy! This new development is positively heartbreaking. You have me really hating Quentin Travers and the Watcher's Council with vengeance right now. Looks like Spike's suffering is really gonna kick into high gear now. *bites nails* I can't wait to find out what happens next. Great chapter! Yep, especially with the half-truths and downright lies Travers likesto tell.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Innocence Lost 05/15/2006 09:45 pm {growls at Travers and really wants to kill him} Poor Spike. I hate Travers so much. I always have. That man is more evil that many of the demons Buffy kills for the Council. I hope that Giles and Buffy can get Spike out of there. There is no telling what Travers will do to him. He should be taken care of and protected for all that he's done to make atonement. He shouldn't have to bear the brunt of whatever Travers wants to do to him. I hope that Buffy is all right. Maybe Lydia can help them all in some way, if she isn't already dead. Yeah, I know ... long review, but I'm really scared right now from the story and moved with your words. Buffy may be the reason Spike is Travers's "guest." Do you really think that Spike would be were he is otherwise?   kim Innocence Lost 05/15/2006 08:45 pm Ohgodohgodohgodohgod.......Evil!! Please tell me they've got the wrong guy...He and Buffy haven't had the chance to talk, yet! Not Travers...nooooooo....Spike.... How can they possibly get him out of a Council cell? It's probably deep under the building... Let's think...just How and Why do you think Travers was able to get his grubby mits on Spike? We know he's a "fist'n' fangs" type of guy. So...how? Could it be for a lady?   pfeifferpack Innocence Lost 05/15/2006 06:12 pm NOOOoooooooooo! The slimy Travers has our Spike! Update soon, mustn't leave this cliffy too long. At least Giles and Lydia are being decent. Kathleen It won't be too long, I promise.   DeanSamWinchesterfan Innocence Lost 05/15/2006 05:53 pm Good chapter.I hope Buffy isn't dead.Update soon. I was deliberately vauge...I know it's evil, but just *why * does Travers have Spike?   Verda Cradle of Civilization 07/13/2006 11:40 pm What the hell's wrong with her? all she had to do was open her mouth. Could smack her myself. Hate it when I get so emotionally involved with a story. Another great chapter. Do teenagers ever make sense?   fallen_angel Cradle of Civilization 06/22/2006 03:54 am i've a lot to catch up on! I hatetravers and feeling a little sorry for Dawn. Yeah, crushes can be hard. Spike knows that too well.   sirc Cradle of Civilization 05/17/2006 01:15 pm great chapter thanks   pretty_in_fangs Cradle of Civilization 05/14/2006 11:17 pm Uh oh. What will Giles and Mouse do when they get back? read on and find out.   Robyn Cradle of Civilization 05/14/2006 02:59 am I enjoyed the memory of Dawn and Spike and you showing some of the reason she is being such a pain, of course she is a teenager and it doesn't take much. Poor Spike I feel so bad for him and now more badness with the man at the end. Thanks for the update. When It rains it pours. Everyone has to learn that just because a love changes, that doesn't mean it stops being love. This is Dawn's journey as well as Buffy and Spike's.   Lou Cradle of Civilization 05/13/2006 07:18 pm Yikes - mega-ghastly Dawn! First crushes can be brutal. Look at how Buffy turned out! LOL   pfeifferpack Cradle of Civilization 05/13/2006 02:15 pm Gaaaah....I despise Quentin Travers, always have, but never as much as this story! Run Spike Run. Excellent update. Poor elephants and in an area they SHOULD be safe too....so terrible that it isn't just fiction either. Kathleen I know- it's a sad thing. In terms of the story though, it needed to be done. Buffy's gone after Spike, do you think the rest of the animals will be as fair-minded as Spike is, should they happen upon the Slayer?   DeanSamWinchesterfan Cradle of Civilization 05/13/2006 08:40 am Good chapter.Poor Spike.Update soon. working on the next chapter now!   pramen Cradle of Civilization 05/13/2006 04:29 am Great chapter! Thanks!   Miss Rose Cradle of Civilization 05/12/2006 11:52 pm I liked Dawn's flashback. Even though she's being a major brat, I can understand where she's coming from. I'm glad Panya and Giles slipped away to get supplies, maybe they can help thwart camouflage guy's evil plans. Great chapter! You know somthing Rose? I think you're right. ;-)   Tamara Cradle of Civilization 05/12/2006 11:37 pm I'm thinking that guy is from the council or the Initative. Either one of them would want Spike and neither one is good news. Your thinking would be on the money.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Cradle of Civilization 05/12/2006 11:17 pm Crap!!! She didn't realize who Mouse was, and now they are targets for the Council. Crap Crap Crap!!! more soon please. I'm with you on that. I'll see your "Oh crap!" and raise you an "Oh, &%@$!!!"   kim Cradle of Civilization 05/12/2006 08:22 pm Buffy, how hard is it to say it was the elephants? Ugh....is there a brain in there? And dude with the night-vision goggles - go away! Well, if he's a mere human, then he won't be able to keep up with them. And damnit! Lydia's telegram was spotted. Blast... You captured the teen angst well...still such a little girl. Elephants or humans, considering Spike is having a hard time with the idea of hurting a *Bat*, do you think it would help him to know that? And there could be more than one nasty guy waiting out there in the dark...HMMM.   Verda Blueshift 07/13/2006 11:15 pm This is wonderful, absolutely incredible and thankfully a chapter that can breath easier with. Yes, maybe now Dawn will start to see things a little clearer. Thanks for this great chapter. Sometimes you need a beather.   sirc Blueshift 05/07/2006 02:29 am great chapter thanks.   Robyn Blueshift 05/07/2006 01:17 am Starting with the end, I love the outside perspective of Aunt Darlene about Spike and the very important lesson she is trying to teach Dawn. I loved hearing Willow's thoughts on what she had done and how it didn’t help her with her pain, and her realization that she was no better then Spike, the individual she had considered completely evil. I felt so bad for Spike and his nightmares of Buffy’s death by Warren. And I love the help that Lydia is trying to give those in Africa. Thanks for another great update. It's always easier to see what's really going on if you're not mixed up in the emotions of the moment. Thanks for reading.   vladt Blueshift 05/06/2006 08:29 pm very good read. crammed alot in to this update. dawn's aunt sounding like joyce; red actual seeing how far she has to go; buffy being blond; and lydia being very brave. thanks for the fine read. Well they all have to grow and change. And she is Joyce's sister. Why wouldn't they sound alike?   ~*~Tasha~*~ Blueshift 05/06/2006 07:31 pm Go Aunt Darlene ... set that brat of a Key sister straight. I hated how Dawn turned on Spike. Yes, she heard what Xander told her, but she never tried to take what Buffy said and let it go. Dawn, of all people, should have known that Xander would turn things any way he wanted it to make Spike look the worst. Another excellent chapter. You are bringing all things together in a unique plot that I am enjoying reading. I think part of Dawn's extreme reaction had to do with a tiny *crush* she had on Spike. "Love makes you do the wacky," doesn't it?   Lou Blueshift 05/06/2006 06:52 pm Please put Dawn out of her misery. It'd be a mercy! I agree, she's stupid. But to do something that drastic? Surely you jest.   arba Blueshift 05/06/2006 06:46 pm There is a typo on the summary. It's canon, not cannon. They have a completely different meaning. Fixed now...thanks.   pfeifferpack Blueshift 05/06/2006 05:55 pm Yes Dawn listen to auntie! Am I sensing an alliance with the Initiative clowns? Yeah to Lydia for the heads up BTW. Wondering about those dreams of Spike's....Warren???? Great job as always. Kathleen Maybe she will. Nope there is no alliance. But it doesn't look good for Spike unless Giles gets that wire in time. *Crossong fingers* Here's hoping! Spike went to a demon, you think maybe said deamon let him see things he knew would be painful for Spike?   Miss Rose Blueshift 05/06/2006 05:29 pm Good for Lydia! I like the way you're portraying her. The scene when those beetles crawled into Spike's nose and ears was so creepy, no wonder Spike is having nightmares about it. I couldn't agree more with Willow's assessment about her actions, especially her coming to the conclusion that Spike is a better person than her. Aunt Darlene seems like a nice lady, I hope Dawn listens to her. Wonderful chapter! I knew what they were supposed to be, the beetles, when I first saw the ep. I knew what they ate and what Spike was, and I thought,"That's gotta hurt." It's about time Willow faced up to what she did. Don't you think?   fallen_angel Blueshift 05/06/2006 05:24 pm Dawnie issues r being addressed i see. i think i like Buffy's aunt Yep. I like Darlene too.   kim Blueshift 05/06/2006 05:20 pm Growing up is painful - you made wonderful, accurate illustrations of exactly that, here. A turning point for so many. And adding that conversation with Aunt Darlene is genius. You keep managing to bring up little throwaway tidbits from the series, like a name, and making them relevant...enriching the 'verse. It's still weird to me that Xander's dead, just because people rarely take that choice to have Willow go that way. I think it was a good call, though. It adds even more impact on Willow's recovery, taking away the crutch he'd been for her...and removes the obstacle he often represents. And Buffy thinking poachers wouldn't be on a nature preserve....LOL....try reading National Geographic once in a while, kiddo. How did she blind herself so badly to common human scumbags? Sure, every soul has the potential to make good choices, but there's still free will - it is a bitch. ;) As much as I like Willow, her behavior creeped me out and I thought I should deal with it. Why mention an Aunt if you're never going to use her again?   DeanSamWinchesterfan Blueshift 05/06/2006 04:57 pm Stupid Dawn,acting all bratty.I'm still in shock from Supernatural's season finale. Update soon. Let's face it. Dawn was a brat.   Verda Speaking Louder 07/13/2006 10:50 pm Please put a warning up so that we are better prepared for this raw, emotionally draining chapter. Tissues are a necessity. I can barely wrap my head around the emotions that are so fresh on the page. My heart broke as he fell to the ground. Loved the line "she was the Alpha and Omega"...his beginning and end! You ROCK!!! Thank you! I know how I feel when I write, but I'm never sure if I'm conveying the emotions. I'm so glad it came through.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Speaking Louder 05/06/2006 07:25 pm At least Buffy isn't cruelly dense here. She is innocently dense, not understanding all of what she's seen. I loved how you handled all the emotions of the first meeting again. Very powerfully written. This is in the top of your fics that I like. I was concerned about that. I didn't want to go too over the top, but I didn't want to gloos over it either. I know Buffy as written on the show was cruel. I hope I wrote a more believable Buffy.   sirc Speaking Louder 05/04/2006 10:12 am great chapter Thank you:-)   fallen_angel Speaking Louder 05/04/2006 06:43 am awww so sweet. more please. More is coming   Lou Speaking Louder 05/03/2006 02:21 pm The reunion was beautifully done. More soon please. Thank you. More is coming. Keep an eye out for it,please.   pramen Speaking Louder 05/03/2006 01:54 pm I love your story, the reunion between Buffy and Spike was beautiful! Looking forward for more. More is coming. This is the Spike and Buffy I *Wish* had been on screen. (where's Halfrek when you really need her, huh? LOL)   vladt Speaking Louder 05/03/2006 01:33 pm powerful update. love the tale. Thank you for the review   Robyn Speaking Louder 05/03/2006 04:31 am Thank you for another great chapter. The emotions were so strong and touching, and I really liked how you did things first from Spike's perspective then did it again from Buffy's. Thanks. Sometimes the double perspective is hard to pull off. I'm glad you think I did it well.   SpaceLord Speaking Louder 05/03/2006 02:31 am Buffy and the obvious are not mixy And, I quote Spike: "To coin a popular Sunnydale phrase, 'DUH!'"   pretty_in_fangs Speaking Louder 05/02/2006 10:56 pm I just sat down and read everything thus far. Wonderful story, filled with such honest emotion. It's beautiful, and I'll be watching for more. Thank you for giving this a read. I'll try to keep you interested and coming back for more.   pfeifferpack Speaking Louder 05/02/2006 08:51 pm WOW what an emotionally powerful chapter. Beautifully written heart wrenching scene you have here. The Council, of course, must be destroyed as it currently is or the words Giles has spoken of endless pursuit willl be prophecy. Wonderful! Kathleen Things will change but something drastic will have to happen first. Please keep reading.   DeanSamWinchesterfan Speaking Louder 05/02/2006 08:37 pm Good chapter.Hopefully Buffy won't freak out.Update soon. I think she is floating on a river in Egypt about now.   Azelma Speaking Louder 05/02/2006 08:34 pm This was such a beautiful chapter, and such a cliffhanger, too. Evil! I really like this story and the way you've written Spike, Buffy, and Giles. Very realistic and true to their characters. I hope you update soon - I can't wait to see what happens next! I think cannon was messed up. The one person who should have reacted differently to the soul was "Giles." And yet, there was nothing. GRR ARGH. This is my attemp at "Fixing" things   Miss Rose Speaking Louder 05/02/2006 08:09 pm You did an amazing job with Spike and Buffy's reunion. This update really left me all teary eyed. Excellent chapter as always! Thanks! I'm worn out too. Give me a few days and I'll be ready to continue the tale.   redwulf50 Speaking Louder 05/02/2006 07:50 pm oh yeah, so loving this I'm so glad! :-p   kim Speaking Louder 05/02/2006 07:48 pm Wow...you continue to put out these powerful chapters...just gorgeous in the emotions and images shown. And I'm so glad Giles is ready to protect Spike from even Buffy. That's fantastic. He's going to have to lead her by the hand until she assimilates the new setting. So slow... And Panya...ahead of his years, for sure...a truly good kid. Thanks Kim, I try. Buffy was always a little dense, but I wanted more emotion than there was in "Beneath You." I think that I succeeded.   Verda Why, Oh You 07/13/2006 10:17 pm You're killing me here. The exchange between Panya and Spike in this chapter is remarkable. The young man cares so much for his new friend and is so supportive of him, it's a sight for all to see. Now for Buffy. Great chapter. There's nothing like the faith of a child. Angel knows that very well.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Why, Oh You 05/06/2006 07:21 pm Excellent chapter update! I'm so glad that I have 2 more to read. {grins} I LOVE this story FMS. I really do. Oh good, you're back! I was starting to think I scared you off. I'm glad you enjoy the story.   sirc Why, Oh You 05/01/2006 03:54 am great chapter Thanks so much!   DeanSamWinchesterfan Why, Oh You 04/29/2006 07:58 am Good chapter.Hopefully,Spike won't freak out when he sees Buffy.Update soon. Thanks. Of course he's gonna freak out a little. The question is what will Buffy do about it?   akarinacj Why, Oh You 04/29/2006 04:28 am I want to cry. It´s not fair. How can you finish your chapter there?!!!! Please update soon!!!!! Next Chapter will be more to your liking. Most of it, anyway. Thanks for reading.   Robyn Why, Oh You 04/28/2006 06:24 pm I really like Panya all all the support and care he gives Spike. And I am so glad that Buffy finally got there, and that she realized how cruel she was towards Spike. Thanks for the great update. Thanks for reading.   Dar Why, Oh You 04/28/2006 05:48 pm What a beautifully written chapter, Kudos Thank you for the compliment.   Miss Rose Why, Oh You 04/28/2006 05:28 pm Great interaction between Spike and Panya, I love the friendship their developing. Powerful flashback... very interesting glimpse into Buffy's head, i'm glad she's showing remorse for her actions though. Wonderful chapter... loved the ending! Thanks Rose. I know it's lame but, what else can I say? :-)   fallen_angel Why, Oh You 04/28/2006 05:00 pm oh common you can't end it like that! they just met. update soon please.Gr8 chappie. Oh, yes I can. LOL Keep reading, okay? ;-)   kim Why, Oh You 04/28/2006 04:40 pm Squee! Gah...why'd you have stop there? *pouts* Yeah, it's a good place literature-wise...that coat must be dragging on the floor, dwarfing her, as it was a looser cut on Spike. And they've been followed! Oh, no! And Quentin got info he liked....eeeep!! Love the exchange between Spike and Panya. Children can be very easy to talk to... Gotta give you a reason to keep reading, don't I? Children, and strangers are very non-judgemental. Makes it easier to talk and let out feelings you may not know you have.   redwulf50 Why, Oh You 04/28/2006 04:17 pm Oh yes, Wulfie much in love with this fic Feeling's mutual, Wulfie. I love your reviews!   vladt Why, Oh You 04/28/2006 04:14 pm very good update, enjoying the tale. thanks for the read Thank you.   Verda Tightrope 07/13/2006 09:05 pm Another gut wrenching chapter. This amazing relationship between Giles and Spike is incredible. Damn! Travers, of course he's found out. Come on the Buffy, get there soon. Great chapter. She'll be there soon.   akarinacj Tightrope 04/26/2006 01:56 am Ahhh.Please update soon!!!! Send Buffy to Africa as soon as possible. I want to see them together. Se how they both react when the see eachother. Great story. Will do! Thanks for reading.   fallen_angel Tightrope 04/25/2006 06:01 am Kill Tavers! and um poor Willow she seems to be going through something similar to what spike is too. maybe they'll become friends. Maybe they will. Killing Travers? HMM...I'll think about it.   sirc Tightrope 04/25/2006 05:24 am great chapter Thanks again.   ariadne Tightrope 04/24/2006 09:27 pm just read this through. great story. lovin it! Thanks for reading.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Tightrope 04/24/2006 08:54 pm Egads ... scary stuff. Quentin always gave me the willies. I'm scared for Lydia, Giles, Buffy and most of all Spike. Quentin will try to hunt Spike down. I hope that Buffy and Giles can save Spike. I can't wait to see what happens with buffy gets to Africa. Excellent update. I was worried about parts of this chapter. But, it just proves that you can be just as scared without the graphic gore. Thanks for reading, it'll get better. I promise.   Miss Rose Tightrope 04/24/2006 08:48 pm I love the relationship Giles is building with Spike. As usual you did an excellent job of capturing Spike's pain. I was pleasantly surprised by Lydia... but then again she always did seem to be somewhat of a Spike fan. Wonderful chapter! Thanks Rose. I'm always happy to surprise you.   vladt Tightrope 04/24/2006 07:54 pm fascinating tale, thanks for the fine read. is giles for real? HMMM...this is AU remember? Of course he's real.   SpaceLord Tightrope 04/24/2006 07:14 pm You need to bring up the time table of the first and blow the council to hell The Lion thing you mentioned as a coment for my view of good and evil works very well. Not just yet...this is AU after all.   Robyn Tightrope 04/24/2006 07:09 pm Thank you for the update. I really like how connected Spike and Giles have become. How willing Giles is to be there for Spike, and how much Spike wants him there. I really like that Giles was able to give to Spike the knowledge that Buffy was alive and would want to know what had happened to him. Buffy and Spike’s reunion is something to be looked forward to. Dealing with Quentin will also be very interesting. Keep reading, reunion coming soon. A bond forged in war is a very strong one. These two have a common experience and a love for Buffy. It makes sense.   DeanSamWinchesterfan Tightrope 04/24/2006 06:16 pm Good chapter.Poor Spike.I'm glad Giles is helping him instead of trying to kill him.I hate the Watcher's Council.Update soon. Well, whether he admits it or not, Giles *owes* Spike. Time to pay it forward.   kim Tightrope 04/24/2006 06:00 pm Wow, just...wow. You can FEEL Spike's anguish.And how Giles is trying to reconcile all he's witnessing, and help as best he can. "Hauntingly beautiful" - oh, yes. Lydia, the sacrificial lamb - at least she knows it's for a good cause. And Panya rocks. Thanks, it's good to know I can get the emotions across.   redwulf50 Tightrope 04/24/2006 05:55 pm Oh yes, you are truly bloody evil I love that in a writer Evil? Little old me? Nah! Well...maybe a little.   Verda Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 07/13/2006 08:20 pm OMG! that was such an emotionally powerful and raw chapter, it still rips at my heart and sticks in my throat. Yeah, Dawn's still upset, she only heard what happened from Xander and now that he's gone why should she betray the last things he said to her, that would he lied to her just before he died and she can't deal with that now. so excellent of a chapter. Can't wait to keep reading. It all depends on how you look at things. I hated the "Poor Helpless Buffy" of season six. Spike and Buffy both did dispicable things. I hope you keep reading.   ariadne Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/28/2006 08:08 pm *giggles* i just love hte pb&j analogy. thats the best. love rupert and i'm glad he has come to some realizations. the counsil is such a bunch of wankers. can't wait to see what happens when buffy gets there. I liked the analogy too. And the sandwitch. Glad you are enjoying the story.   fallen_angel Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/21/2006 07:49 am yup Dawn's got issues alright. Can't wait for the big peanutbutter meets jelly scene. thanx 4 the update. Just a little longer now. Thanks for reading.   sirc Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/20/2006 11:01 pm great chapter Thanks!   vladt Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/20/2006 07:36 pm very good chapter. really like this side of giles. thanks for the fine rread. You're welcome.   kim Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/20/2006 06:33 pm Everything happening is very appropriate, and a lot of it makes more sense than cannon, for sure. I'm not surprised Dawn doesn't want to go. She's really angry that Spike left her. The bathroom incident is just an excuse for her, and I'm glad her last quote was the truth behind Dawn's attitude: "He left me. Now I'm leaving him!" And Buffy so needed to come clean with how she treated Spike. There's a lot of making up to do. Cannon made no sense at all IMO. There will be making up, but only after some time.   Robyn Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/20/2006 05:44 pm You did so well with this that I could feel Spike's pain. I am so glad that Giles is there with him, and that Buffy did not cave to Dawn's temper tantrum but made arrangements and went to Africa. I am really looking forward to when Buffy and Spike meet again. Thank you for the great update. You're welcome. My Buffy is a bit more grown up, isn't she?   redwulf50 Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/20/2006 05:19 pm LOL, I truly love this chappie Glad you like :-D   pfeifferpack Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/20/2006 05:12 pm Just discovered this WIP and am hooked. I am looking forward to more of this. Nice to see Giles sympathetic for a change! I always felt he was out of character on the show when he had almost no interest in how and why Spike went after his soul. The Giles I had seen in the past would have been endlessly fascinated. I believe the most important caveat to what Spike did in SR was that look on his face, as you point out in the story. He KNEW what he had tried to do was wrong and he STOPPED....yes, she kicked him off (rather like slapping a hysterical person to get their attention)..but he stopped and he felt remorse. The startling thing was what he did NOT do rather than what he did, or tried to do. The chip didn't work on Buffy, he had no soul....he should have just been like any other vampire and continued with no conscious....that was not what happened and that was what was remarkable. Sorry forbeing long winded. Do carry on with this excellent fic. Kathleen Will do! I'm with you on this. A souless vampire feeling GUILT and going out to get his soul to protect the ones he LOVED? Impossible, right?...Right??? Not bloody likely! ;-)   SpaceLord Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/20/2006 04:58 pm Don't know bangers and mash either....not english....swedish I have had peanut butter but I think it just sticks in your mouth and is really annoying Tasha I don't agree with you in that what Buffy did was worse. It was bad and I really did not like Buffy for that and thought she was a really poor hero but in the end a lot has to be put on Spikes feet too cause he let her do it. I do agree that they weren't willing to see anything wrong with the way she treated Spike or the fact that if you have a soul and do wrong it's ok and you can be forgiven but not if you don't have a soul. Now I'm of the opposite side here, I mean if you have a soul you and you know right from wrong then when you do wrong/evil it really is evil but if a soulless creature who is only acting in his nature does that how can it really be evil? Let me see if I can get my point across clearer. I think you have it SL. Just whant to make sure. IMO what Buffy did is worse, *because * she has a soul and still did questionable, even evil, things to someone she knew had feelings for her. Now, if you, the reader, liken Spike to a lion, that by its nature has to kill in order to live, and does not have a soul as we understand it, if the lion can go against his nature and cease to "follow his blood", why not a Slayer? And, who ia worse, the "souless thing," or the one with the soul who does evil just for power? Let's not kid ourselves, Buffy had all the power and control in the Buffy/Spike dynamic on the show.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/20/2006 04:29 pm Loved the analogies. I hope that Dawn gets a kick in the arse and gets out of her mood. I always hated that no one was willing to hear what Buffy did ... or they didnt' want to recognize what Buffy did to Spike as being far worse than what he tried to do to her. What he tried ... she succeeded in doing to him all the time over and over. Excellent update. I look forward to more. Thanks tasha. I always thought what Buffy did was much worse than what Spike did. And don't worry, bumm kicking to come, once "Big Bad" brother can get himself together.   Miss Rose Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/20/2006 04:12 pm I really liked Giles in this chapter. I appreciate how much compassion and support he's giving to Spike. It's so great to see Buffy so determined. After Buffy's cookie dough speech on the show, peanut butter and jelly seems like something Buffy would think to herself about her feelings for Spike. Great chapter! I like peanut butter and Jelly. Much better than some stupid cookie dough.   SpaceLord Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/20/2006 03:23 pm Don't eat that much peanut butte or jelly so I can't really say I understand how well they go together Sorry..an American thing. Should I have said "Bangers and mash?" Trust me it's quite tasty.   DeanSamWinchesterfan Peanut Butter Needs Jelly 04/20/2006 03:21 pm Good chapter.Actually,peanut butter is better without jelly,but whatever.And no I don't expect David to go all fang-y in "Bones".Did you see last night's episode?It was about voodoo,and it was asked what religion David's character was.He said he was Catholic,and I laughed at the irony.I almost got the first season of Angel today at Barnes & Noble,but didn't have enough money.They're holding it for me until Monday.Then I'll have all seven seasons of Buffy and the movie(I haven't watched it yet.),and four seasons of Angel.I'll just need Season 2 then.Update soon. I like both peanut butter and jelly. But,IMHO they are better tegether, much like our hero and heroine. BTW, be aware that the "Buffy" movie is Nothing like the show. And, I'm glad you're reading my story.   Verda Deconstruction 07/13/2006 07:58 pm Very happy that Lydia took Giles' threat to heart. Wow! Buffy kept the duster and wears it, at least Giles had some good news. Love this story. That often happens when you love someone but can't admit it. You tend to keep the stuff they leave behind.   fallen_angel Deconstruction 04/16/2006 06:05 am hope this isn't the last we see of Panya, really like the guy. If Buffy is going to Africa Dawn istoo i mean with Tara, WQillow and Xander gone who'll watch her? oh and how is Anya dealing with Xander's death? Dawn's not going. She has "issues" to work out for herself, by herself. Dawn does have a father, and an Aunt Darlene. Remember her, from "Pangs?" Dawn may choose to stay with either of them.   sirc Deconstruction 04/16/2006 04:41 am great chapter Thanks!   redwulf50 Deconstruction 04/15/2006 12:26 pm damn I am loving this fic, sorry for not reviwing before That's quite all right. But dont let it appen again!:-D How am I to know people are reading if they don't respond?   ~*~Tasha~*~ Deconstruction 04/15/2006 12:51 am Awesome update. {claps} More more ... pretty please. {giggles} More is on its way!   ~! Deconstruction 04/15/2006 12:50 am ?   Miss Lesley Deconstruction 04/14/2006 06:17 pm Hello great story. Very wel written. I am enjoying a dead Xander. Although, I wish he had died before he told Dawn about what happened between Spike and Buffy. Question what about Dawn? With Tara and xander dead, willow and Giles gone who will watch over her if Buffy were to leave to go to Africa? Thanks Dawn does have a father, remember? Last known whereabouts were Spain, I believe. There is no way Dawn is going to Africa!   Robyn Deconstruction 04/14/2006 05:46 pm I hope Lydia really took Giles serious, by the sound of her telegram she did. Loved the Willie and Buffy exchange. He wouldn't be him if he wasn't at least a little scummy acting. I can completely understand Buffy's anger at Willow, and I loved her thoughts when she compared Willow's actions and Spike's actions. For all of Spike's love of action and his inpatients, he had a tremendous amount of self-control, particularly when it came to someone he loved. Willow on the other hand is a control freak, with very little self-control. She has often done damage to those she loved, when she was in pain, because of this. Thanks for the great update, I did a little happy dance when I saw it. Aww, you did a happy dance? That's nice that you like this story so much. I always thought that Willow was more dangerous than Spike.   Miss Rose Deconstruction 04/14/2006 05:20 pm I like this version of Buffy, I couldn't agree more with her opinions about Spike and Willow's actions. I was pleasantly surprised that Lydia actually kept her mouth shut, but I still don't trust her. I'm so glad Buffy's on her way to Africa, i'm really looking forward to her reunion with Spike. Great chapter! Maybe she did...maybe she didn't. Read and find out!   SpaceLord Deconstruction 04/14/2006 05:19 pm Hmm so what is this all about? I keep forgetting stuff as I read a new chapter. Like what was the prophecy that was to be fullfilled with Spike getting his soul? Damn I probably need to go back and re read the other chapters.....the horror....the horror It shouldn't be too difficult, SpaceLord. It's only one timeline and only five chapters so far. So what's to be confused about? ;-)   DeanSamWinchesterfan Deconstruction 04/14/2006 04:25 pm Good story and chapter.I can see Buffy wanting revenge for Xander's death.Do you watch "How I Met Your Mother" or "Bones"? Update soon. I just figured this was a better and maybe a truer reaction than they showed in cannon. Willow killed people, no one's going to be even a *little* put out by that? The updates are coming. And, I am soo loyal to the Jossverse alum. "Prof. Fine" has my first loyalty, but I do watch "Bones" from time to time. Is it just me, or do you expect "Booth" to break out in fangs, too? ;-)   Verda Agrapha 07/13/2006 07:05 pm Good ol' Ripper, you can always count on him in a pinch. Very exciting. Excellent chapter. Gotta love Ripper!   sirc Agrapha 04/08/2006 02:19 pm great chapter Thank you for reading, sirc.   fallen_angel Agrapha 04/07/2006 01:19 pm sanskrit is not my strong suit either, i had to take it school but i think i forgot it the moment i passed. oh i hate Travers, once again love Panya! Glad Lydia was stuck in a stupid lorry. Oh yah, Go Giles! Glad you liked this chaptper! I thought it was about time Giles got to play the hero.   zanthinegirl Agrapha 04/07/2006 07:22 am Very interesting! This is *such* a cool story! I hope we'll get to see more of what happened in your version of "Grave"-- I'm very curious what happened differently in this verse. *See Above* ;-)   zanthinegirl Agrapha 04/07/2006 07:21 am Very interesting! This is *such* a cool story! I hope we'll get to see more of what happened in your version of "Grave"-- I'm very curious what happened differently in this verse. That's coming in the next chapter. Stay tuned!   Robyn Agrapha 04/06/2006 10:19 pm Thank you for this really great update. I am glad that Giles showed up when he did, and I loved the flashback of how Panya met Spike. Glad you liked the flasback, more will be coming.   vladt Agrapha 04/06/2006 09:00 pm go giles. nice to see rupert didn't trust travers. good read, thanks Why would he trust the Council. They're all a bunch of paper-pushers.   Miss Rose Agrapha 04/06/2006 08:25 pm *does a happy dance* I'm so glad Giles showed up when he did. I liked the flashback between Spike and Panya. The info on the prophecies was really interesting. Great chapter! Change is a threat to people in power. And, of course Giles figured Quentin would cover all the angles. He's not stupid.   kim Agrapha 04/06/2006 05:09 pm Oh, thank goodness, Giles got there in time. Make Lydia go away! And yay, Spike's not afraid of Giles. That will help. I like Panya. Cool kid. I wouldn't do that to Spike. He has enough on his mind. Glad you like Panya. I do too.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Agrapha 04/06/2006 03:47 pm YES! Get her Giles. Don't let her put even a pinky nail on Spike! Excellent update. Look forward to more soon, I hope. Not so much as a manicured claw! ;-)   Nikkole Agrapha 04/06/2006 01:17 pm Very good chapter! My last review didn't take for some reason, so I will just say, I can't stand Lydia, never could, I hope they leave her for the desert animals! Can't wait for the next update! Do you think Giles would do that? Oh wait, remember "Ripper?"   SpaceLord Agrapha 04/06/2006 12:18 pm Hmm to be honest from what little we saw of that Chambers chit on the show she would pose no threat what so ever. But looks can be deceiving I guess. Not the Chalmers woman herself. It's what the Council wants with Spike that's the threat.   rayan Agrapha 04/06/2006 11:56 am i cant tell you how excited i am right now *grins*....keep it comin!! Okay...keep reading!   Verda Living 07/13/2006 05:42 pm What a perfect metaphor for him! Surprised that the Council would send a female to capture Spike ensouled or not. Great chapter, thanks for the read. No,no,no... it's not the fact that she's female. It's because she knows what he might do. She wrote her thesis on him, remember?   ~*~Tasha~*~ Living 04/05/2006 01:33 am Uh oh ... Travers is sending Lydia behind Giles. I hope that Giles finds Spike first and gets him away from the Council's grasp. Spike so doesn't need to be dealing with the Council poking, prodding, imprisoning and torturing him. Excellent update. I know. Here's hoping Rupes gets ther first. ;-)   zanthinegirl Living 04/03/2006 11:00 am Very interesting premis! Looking forward to seeing how you develop this one. Me too! You up for a ride?   Lou Living 04/03/2006 09:03 am Poor Spike - and good old Giles is doing himself proud with his concern! Great stuff! I always thought Giles had it in him...Angel just sapped all his empathy. Well not in my 'verse!   fallen_angel Living 04/03/2006 05:45 am alright and update! spike's thought were touching, i'm glad he didn't go ahead wih it cos spike is no coward. Angel trying to kill himself because of the first showed how weak he was and how weak his faith in his love was but spike is not like that. i really like this Panya. what's the council up to? i mean first they send Giles and then they send someone after him? can'y wait for Giles to meet Spike. What is Sharpei? Spike is, and *Always will be* the champ. A Sharpei is a breed of dog with very loose skin. Kind of like Clem's. They're so ugly that they're cute, especially as puppies.   Robyn Living 04/03/2006 01:10 am Thank you for the great update I really enjoyed this chapter, and I am looking forward to the next one. So glad you enjoy the story!   vladt Living 04/02/2006 11:52 pm travers is double dealing again. the tale has an interesting start. looking forward to many more updates. thanks for the read. Of course. Does the Council do anything other than double-deal?   idk5743228 Living 04/02/2006 09:05 pm Very powerful chapter. I think I actually groaned when I got to the end. I loved the scene at Xander's grave. I look forward to any and all updates You groaned...is this a good thing? Glad you're enjoying the story.   Miss Rose Living 04/02/2006 08:33 pm I'm so glad that Spike's inner strength kicked in before he went through with doing something drastic. It's nice to find out that Buffy is worried about Spike. The Lydia situation definitely can't be of the good. I liked the Weeping Lion description of Spike, it fits him at the moment. Great chapter! LOL Rose you know Spike's no whimp!   kim Living 04/02/2006 06:45 pm Oh, I was so afraid for a while, there. Lydia on her way...hiss! I hope Giles doesn't trust her a lick. Better yet, that he and Spike can keep out of her reach. At least Giles knows full well not to trust the Council when it comes to Spike. The boy playing with him, seeing if he knew the language..priceless. Giles would look so out of place there. But, he'll be seeing Spike soon. I hope he can help. Don't think I would dust Spike, do ya? I wouldn't...but I'm not so sure about others;-)   jl1980 Living 04/02/2006 03:57 pm loving this so much...can't wait to see what happens when giles finds spike....and hope the council dont get them....this story has me hooked already Giles will find him, but someone's looking for them both...what's gonna happen? Stay tuned.   Verda Monsters And Iconoclasts 07/13/2006 05:07 pm Excellent job of expressing his thoughts, his poor tortured soul needing relief. Even tough Giles knows what he tried to do to Buffy, I'm sure he'll help him. Buffy dead? why would he think that? Suspenseful story. Great read, thanks. Spike has always been sensitive to Buffy's feelings. He may have ficated on the pain she felt. After all, in a way, Spike has "died" too. And Buffy was shot at the end of "Seeing Red."   jl1980 Monsters And Iconoclasts 04/02/2006 03:54 pm oh no!! i hope giles gets there to help him before he dusts himself!!! poor spike! you write his reaction to the soul beautifully...very well done update If I did dust him, it Buffy wouldn't have the chance to be nicer to him than she was in cannon. And, thanks for the compliment!   ~*~Tasha~*~ Monsters And Iconoclasts 03/29/2006 09:04 pm Wow ... amazing chapter. I hope that Giles gets to Spike in time. Awesome work. I like this plot, and I'm really looking forward to seeing more of it. I get a "Wow,"...wow. And it's only one timeline...think I can handle it? *wink*   Lou Monsters And Iconoclasts 03/28/2006 05:58 am I'm so pleased Giles is the one to see the good in Spike. More please. More is on its way:-)   Robyn Monsters And Iconoclasts 03/28/2006 01:41 am You do such a great job of getting into Spike's head. I like how Giles touched base with everyone before leaving to Africa, and his distrust for the council is very loud and clear. I am looking forward to this fic. What can I say? I sort of identify with "Spike," so he's easy to write. Touching base is a good thing. It cuts down on the ugly rumors. Stay tuned!   MarzBar Monsters And Iconoclasts 03/27/2006 11:28 pm Lucky for Spike he's only a vampire. Most of what he did, he did to survive. What was Hitler's excuse? His soul didn't seem to suffer at all. More dark story please. Shows you just how strong our hero really is! And, don't worry, more is on its way soon.   Nikkole Monsters And Iconoclasts 03/27/2006 09:06 pm WOW. That was powerful. You painted the picture in my mind, very good. I can't wait until Giles finds him. I can't wait for more! Won't have to wait too long. I promise   Miss Rose Monsters And Iconoclasts 03/27/2006 06:21 pm I like the direction you're taking story... I always thought it was such a waste of a good storyline not to explore the fact that Spike sought out his soul. Great glimpses into Giles' and Spike's heads. I'm really looking forward to finding out what happens when Giles gets to Africa. Great chapter! Thank you Rose. I thought it was a waste too. I read that Mr. Marsters told a convention croud that he wanted "Giles" to be the first to find out about "Spike's" soul. Well, I aim to please. ;-)   fallen_angel Monsters And Iconoclasts 03/27/2006 05:20 pm buffy dead? can't be. what's up ur sleeve? Nope. She's not dead. But she did get shot at the end of "Seeing Red" this fic starts to AU after that point. Spike's in Africa. Maybe he "missed the memo?"   vladt Monsters And Iconoclasts 03/27/2006 03:30 pm excellent beginning. thanks for the fine read. You are very welcome. :-)   kim Monsters And Iconoclasts 03/27/2006 02:16 pm Really feel the pain he's going through, here. Well done. Thank you. I never can tell if I'm getting the emotion across to you guys.   Verda Rumor Mill 07/13/2006 04:51 pm I'd noticed this story's updates a few times but had so many others that I'd been reading and didn't make time for it till now,and WOW! I'm sorry I didn't start this sooner. Can't wait to get caught up, it's so good. Thanks for the read. You're very welcome. I'm so glad you're enjoying it, and have the time now to read it.   VWalk Rumor Mill 06/30/2006 05:00 pm Wow - I discovered this story quite by accident. BUT I AM TOTALLY HOOKED BY THE FIRST CHAPTER. Keep the updates coming cause this looks like a great story. I always thought it too strange that no one seemed to make a big deal or even care that a "demon" went and voluntarily got his soul. But they made such a big deal out of Angel's curse. Never made sense to me... I like how you started out - can't wait to see where it goes. I try to update and respond on a fairly regular basis, so no worries there. I never understood that either. I curse implies just that- it wasn't wanted. It'll be a ride. I hope you stay with me, I think it'll be worth it.   ariadne Rumor Mill 04/24/2006 08:34 pm i like this story. getting the council involved is very interesting. i loved Quentin going to Giles. that was too funny. can't wait to read the next one. Glad you're enjoying it.   ~*~Tasha~*~ Rumor Mill 03/29/2006 09:00 pm Excellent start here, FMS. I know that I reviewed this at the BSC because I saw Ch. 1 there first when I was reposting there. I'll be reading it here from now on. Thanks! I'll look for your comments here then.   Robyn Rumor Mill 03/28/2006 01:34 am Very interesting chapter. I like that Giles doesn't trust the council, doesn't like them and doesn't hide it. And the way he made sure that Willow received help and didn't fall under the uncaring hands of the council. I'm glad you liked it. I always thought that Spike and Giles were more alike than they liked to think. And we all know Giles thinks of the Scoobies as his kids. He would never turn Willow over to the Council.   fallen angel Rumor Mill 03/22/2006 01:40 pm he's already got his soul or still trying? cos interuptions in spike's soul-getting gig r not wanted. but i like ur fic so far. hpefully u'll keep me glued If you'll notice, this story is cannon up to "Seeing Red." Spike left for Africa during that episode. Travers implied that the vampire had already requested restoration. Giles just has to play catch-up.   idk5743228 Rumor Mill 03/22/2006 09:39 am Whoa, the idea of Xander dying as well would put a different slant on Willow's recovery. I'm assuming that Willow was responsible, but I didn't see any details. Season 7 would truly play out differently. I am seriously looking forward to this fiction. Willow is indeed resposible. No "Yellow Crayon" speech this time, just the knowledge that she killed her friend.   kim Rumor Mill 03/22/2006 06:53 am Interesting premise, to bring Giles into this from the beginning of Spike's soul-having. I'm hoping for a more compassionate Giles this time? Don't worry, Quentin. No other vampire is going to go trying this any time soon. Spike's doing it because he loves more than most anybody you could ever find. I'm right there with you, Kim. Could be a more compassionate Giles. But remember a certian Slayer's angry son? He could be coming into play soon.   redwulf50 Rumor Mill 03/22/2006 05:26 am ohhhhhh excellent start Thank you.   Lou Rumor Mill 03/22/2006 04:59 am I'm guessing they're wanting Giles to do the bad thing. More please Maybe...read and find out;-)   yangchencen Rumor Mill 03/22/2006 04:34 am This is an interesting start! Please write more! More coming very soon.   SpaceLord Rumor Mill 03/22/2006 02:02 am I take it that this story will be more straight forward and not such a brain challenge as vanishing point ;) Not so much with the thinking, but I still hope it's a good story.   Miss Rose Rumor Mill 03/22/2006 12:33 am Great start! Looks like you've got another really interesting story on your hands, I like the plot. I can't wait to find out what kind of journey you're gonna take Spike and Buffy on this time. Stay tuned for more. Thanks for the B-day wishes;-)   jl1980 Rumor Mill 03/22/2006 12:10 am i hope the "existence" of the council ceases to exist! if that makes sense...lol...this is an interesting start...like this so far...it's sad that xander's dead, though It'll be interesting. It would have been something to see if M.E. had kept that in though. Could you imagine the kind of torment the "First" could have unleashed on Spike using Xander's form?   Disclaimer If you are under the age of 17, please use your head and do not read fics that are labeled "NC-17". Parents, I cannot control what your children are reading, so please be advised that the majority of the fics archived here are NOT suitable for those under the age of 17. I do not own Buffy the Vampire Slayer and I am in no way making any profit from this site. This is for pure entertainment purposes only. 2004 copyright-bringonthebloodshed.com