Loves Lost by slaymesoftly
 
NiamhFive06/28/2006 03:08 pm
And this one ended with such a bang. . . . Angel gone, Drusilla gone and Spike alone amid the ruins.

This one hit all the right notes. Well done.
Thank you. I'm so glad you liked it.
 
AthenewolfeFive06/06/2006 02:26 pm
Just wow - even the second time through just wow - incrediable story Patti I am amazed at the tale and emotion you wrought in just five chapters. Looking forward to the sequel greatly~!
thanks, I'm glad it held up for you on the second read.
 
BuffyRatFive05/22/2006 01:10 am
So dark, and then quite a quip for an ending. Looking forward to the sequel. So glad she saved him.
Thanks for reading.
 
RobynFive05/21/2006 01:55 pm
What an amazing heartbreaking fic. Although Buffy couldn’t exact more vengeance on Angelus at least she was able to look him in the eye when she staked him, and what a way for Dru to go. I like how Spike continued to protect Buffy’s dignity even after her rescue. Now onto the sequel.
I'm glad you liked it. Not a happy ending for anyone, but at least our two main characters survived.
 
bloodshedbabyFive05/20/2006 12:16 am
wahoo, now i get to read the first part of the sequel! I loved this fic, but then, I love all of your stuff!!
Hee! Dennis is alive and well...
 
bloodshedbabyFive05/20/2006 12:16 am
wahoo, now i get to read the first part of the sequel! I loved this fic, but then, I love all of your stuff!!
 
bloodshedbabyFive05/20/2006 12:16 am
wahoo, now i get to read the first part of the sequel! I loved this fic, but then, I love all of your stuff!!
 
bloodshedbabyFive05/20/2006 12:16 am
wahoo, now i get to read the first part of the sequel! I loved this fic, but then, I love all of your stuff!!
Thanks! Glad you liked.
 
MarzBarFive03/24/2006 02:54 am
This is a wonderful, dark story. I look forward to the much Spuffier sequel. Thank you for sharing.
Sequel is definitely Spuffier, although still not all roses and wine.
 
KarynFive03/23/2006 11:07 pm
great job, Patti! wonderfully dark fic! Some many emotions for one chapter! And oohhhh sequel! lol
The sequel isn't quite as dark, but still not happy-Spuffy. I guess there will need to be a sequel to the sequel. lol
 
jl1980Five03/23/2006 05:50 pm
wow...this whole story was incredible and i absolutely cannot wait for the sequel!!!! i can't wait to see what happens next!! the end was heartbreaking, poor spike....fitting end for drusilla, poor mad thing.... and for angelus too, though it could have been a bit more painful ;) great, great story!!!
Angelus pain would have been good, but it just didn't work out. Buffy gets a bit tougher in the sequel, though...has her spot of vengeance.
 
vladtFive03/23/2006 05:39 pm
very good read. glad to see sequel is on the way, this tale screams to be continued. thanks for the read.
Thanks for the regular reviews. Sequel soon.
 
maryperkFive03/23/2006 05:26 pm
Can't wait for the sequel, Patti.
Just waiting for C to start sending chapters back to me.
 
NiamhFour06/28/2006 12:26 pm
Ahuh. . I so would have made him stop, just like she did.

I swear, I would. Really.

Not buying it are you?

Didn't think so.

Okay, so I'd never let him stop. . . .
ROFL
 
AthenewolfeFour06/06/2006 02:19 pm
poor spike and buffy - unlikely allies but they will need each other to escape from Angelus and his devious plans. Great update!
 
BuffyRatFour05/22/2006 12:52 am
Sweet Spike, even if he is trying to disguise it as being completely self serving. A bit of a lighter part to a dark story. Loved it.
I'm glad you're liking it.
 
RobynFour05/21/2006 01:37 pm
Poor Buffy and Spike having no escape from Angelus. I like that Spike realizes that the best way of getting rid of Angelus is Buffy, and the advice and help he is giving her. The chocolate chip cookies were a nice touch. Ethan must really have something against Giles to be getting this much enjoyment out of his pain.
Hee! You need to go to her site and read some of Always_jbj's Gethan ficlets.
 
bloodshedbabyFour05/19/2006 11:50 pm
Now how did I miss this one? And damned if i'm glad I did so now I have lots to read!!
:-D
 
vladtFour03/23/2006 01:04 pm
excellent update. they are both starting to be confused. thanks fot the read.
Thanks.
 
LouFour03/23/2006 09:48 am
More please - I likeee!
more soon
 
KarynFour03/23/2006 08:54 am
Oh my, poor Buffy, loved the spike/buffy interaction during the beginning, and despite the obvious ick factor of what had happened, the last scene was both touching and sexy! great job!
thanks, Karyn.
 
maryperkFour03/23/2006 07:29 am
poor buffy. Her life is really sucky right now. And so is Spike's.
yep, giant suckfest - and not in a fun way!
 
jl1980Four03/23/2006 07:26 am
poor poor buffy...and spike, too...angelus deserves to suffer and die in agony...awesome story though, just heartbreaking
"just heartbreaking" Oh, goody! It's working! LOL Thanks lj.
 
NiamhThree06/28/2006 12:02 pm
You know, no one has ever explained that little plot glitch in the Whedonverse. If Angel didn't love Buffy without a soul, just how could Spike love Drusilla for a 100+ years. And you can't argue that it wasn't love, because as you've clearly stated here, Spike laid his unlife on the line more than once to save her. . .

I do like Giles' response to her though, when she asks "what's wrong with me?"

Thanks - yeah, they never did explain how Buffy could use Spike's feelings for Dru to save a room full of humans and yet, when she had him, she could insist that he couldn't love her because he didn't have a soul.

Giles gets to be cool here - because he's such a git later on. lol
 
AthenewolfeThree06/06/2006 02:13 pm
growls at ethan - you really know how to write an evil ethan and good giles - excellant portrayal of characters!
Thanks
 
BuffyRatThree05/22/2006 12:37 am
Did the child get away? A bit of a mystery I suppose. Poor girl, a dark thing all of Ethan's magic. Great chapter.
thanks
 
RobynThree05/21/2006 12:59 pm
I really liked the question Buffy posed to Giles about Spike's ability to love, and although he didn't have a proper response I like how he tried to tell her that Angelus’s reaction to her wasn’t because of her. As for what’s going on with Ethan and Angelus working together, I’m just really glad I don’t have to wait for the next chapter.
Nope - that's the great thing about finished fics - it's all there. Thanks for the regular reviews.
 
MarzBarThree03/22/2006 10:56 pm
ACK!!! I guess this will help Buffy's IQ rise somewhat. Unfortunate it will take such horror for the result. Good to know she's still being fed full of BS by Giles and the Wankers' Council programming. I can tell this is not a nice story but I want more please.
Not a nice story, unfortunately, but the important people survive.
 
vladtThree03/22/2006 10:19 pm
compelling start. looking forward to more. thanks for the fine read
thanks. more soon.
 
KarynThree03/22/2006 10:09 pm
oh god no! *hides eyes again* i'm such a weenie..lol...promises to open eyes for next chapter!
LOL It gets worse before it gets better...
 
YzbaThree03/22/2006 09:16 pm
Please, give me more!!!!
More coming soon.
 
jl1980Three03/22/2006 08:51 pm
oh no.....i hope maybe she and spike can manage to somehow work together to defeat angelus...great, great story so far, loving it
Thanks - hope you continue to like it.
 
maryperkThree03/22/2006 08:48 pm
Bad Ethan. Bad, Bad Ethan. Great chappy.
Ethan is a sleeze-ball.
 
NiamhTwo06/28/2006 09:22 am
Just brimming with sympathy aren't they? From Giles, who is completely ignoring the fact Buffy is only 16 and he's asking her to kill someone she loves to Drusilla, who is ignoring the one person who cared for her for a very long time. Never expected anything resembling sympathy from Angel, so that's just typical behavior from him. Good chapters. . .

And now onward
thanks!
 
AthenewolfeTwo06/06/2006 02:12 pm
Poor spike - I know he is tecnhically still evil - but he always felt so much emotion! I love this chapter two and can;t wait to read more.
technically evil, but still a sweetie pie
 
BuffyRatTwo05/22/2006 12:32 am
Poor Spike. Not fun things to bare witness too. Great chapter.
thanks
 
RobynTwo05/21/2006 12:31 pm
You really did a great job in this chapter of showing Willow's growing attachment to magic, Giles recognizing that he has a responsibility to help her with it (hopefully he will follow through), and after everything Spike has done for Dru, her poor treatment of him.
Thanks - all things that should have been addressed in the show (IMHO)
 
KarynTwo03/22/2006 08:48 pm
very good! poor spike! looks at summary 'character death' eck! *hides eyes*...lol
LOL - depending on who your favorite characters are, you shouldn't have to hide them too much.
 
maryperkTwo03/22/2006 06:35 pm
Ugh, Hate Angelus torturing Spike like that, even if Spike is a big bad vampire.
Well, we know which vamp is the most evil, don't we?
 
jl1980Two03/22/2006 06:23 pm
grrr...hate angelus...poor spike...hope he gets better soon...great fic, can't wait for the update!!
Angelus is NOT a nice guy in this fic. LOL Not that he ever is, but, he really picks on Spike here.
 
Mrs MuirOne08/02/2006 07:33 pm
Your Angelus gave me chills. Poor Buffy, having to deal with Angelus and her dense mother. What a lot in life!
Thanks - I wanted Angelus to be pretty unredeemable by that point.
 
NiamhOne06/28/2006 09:15 am
I have been remiss. I've been reading this and the sequels and I haven't reviewed. I'm so sorry, because I think between this series and the Bodyguard one, these are some of your best work. I'm so glad you got back in the groove. . . . Thanks for sharing your talent with all of us.
thanks! Glad you're liking them. The Bodyguard is on its way to Writercon for the Library, even as we speak.
 
AthenewolfeOne06/06/2006 02:09 pm
I know I reviewed on lj - but wanted to reread before I read the sequal - this is a great chapter one. i love how joyce is in denial!
Denial, thy name is Summers. LOL
 
BuffyRatOne05/22/2006 12:27 am
Be safe in your denial Joyce. Great beginning.
:-) I hope you read this one first!
 
RobynOne05/21/2006 03:32 am
Joyce really does like living in denial, it seems that Buffy comes by her ability to live there naturally. I sometimes wonder, even after everything Joyce has seen, she continued denying things out of guilt because of her reaction when Buffy first told her about the monsters.
Canon Joyce fought against Buffy's calling for quite a while, but eventually you have to take those blinders off.
 
LouOne03/23/2006 09:27 am
Joyce is in for a rude awakening, isn't she?
yup - think you could say that!
 
bloodshedbabyOne03/22/2006 11:24 pm
Alright, I know I started this one! Great start and if anyone says anything to you about the lack of true spuffy in the first part of the fic, just tell then I said it was ok! *runs to read the next part*
Hee! - I probably showed it to you at one time. I think I ran this first chapter (parts of it) past just about everybody seeking reassurance and/or opinions about what to do with it. Finally found a different direction from the other "Angel loses his soul during the rite" fics and went with it.
 
jl1980One03/22/2006 06:20 pm
how sad for buffy...wonder if she'll be able to kill angelus?? very good start, reading more now
Sad, indeed. You have no idea!
 
lilmamadayOne03/22/2006 05:46 pm
I think that you have hit Joyce right on the head. She had to have ignored a lot, too many wierd things for her not to have noticed! I am surprised that Angel didn't attack Joyce while Buffy wasn't home, or had he just gotten there?

I am really curious as to how Giles seemed to know that Angel was gone. It was a good thing that he did though!
Thank you - yes, she had to be pretty dense (on purpose) didn't she?
Giles is just a suspicious guy by nature...well, that and he knows a bit about vampire rituals.
 
maryperkOne03/22/2006 05:28 pm
Great chappy!
Thanks!