On My Mind by kittiekat
 
AthenewolfeLightly She Steps05/14/2006 08:20 am
sweet ending
 
jodiLightly She Steps05/07/2006 09:00 am
Love the story. Read it in one sitting. Decided to keep it on hard drive for future enjoyment. Hope you don't mind. Looking forward to sequel. Again well done
 
UncagedMuseLightly She Steps05/03/2006 01:07 pm
I started reading this yesterday. Great fic! I enjoyed every word.
Thanks so much! I'm so glad you liked it, truly I am! I send you many many happy thoughts and a snoopy dance of your very own! ;)
 
astrodexLightly She Steps05/03/2006 09:45 am
This is the first of your stories that I have read. You have wonderfully emotional style. Your descriptions are very evocative. I really enjoyed this and look forward to reading more of your writings.
Thank you so much! That's so wonderful to read, I can't even tell you! I'm very happy you liked it and truly hope I won't disappoint in the future! *shiver* ;) Thanks again!
 
vladtLightly She Steps05/02/2006 03:29 pm
very good read. i believe spike. thanks for the fun read.
Hehe. I'm glad you believe him. ;) Very happy you enjoyed it! Thanks for all the leaving of your mark!
 
pretty_in_fangsLightly She Steps05/02/2006 10:08 am
Yay. Wonderful. And I can't wait for a sequel.
So grand you thought so! Very happy! And it is on top of my list! The sequel is, I mean. ;) Thank you!
 
bloodshedbabyLightly She Steps05/02/2006 09:54 am
Here I am doing the song of SEQUEL!! This was amazing, first to last chapter. Thank you so much for bringing it to us!!
Haha, thanks girl, I appreciate it and hey, I didn't know you could sing so beautifully. Very cool. Thank you so much for HAVING me, are you kidding?! This site truly is awesome. I lurve it in its whole and Spuffiness. Am-a-zing. Thanks ever so much!!!
 
AzelmaLightly She Steps05/02/2006 09:33 am
Hey! Just read this story in its entirety and I have to say that I really enjoyed it. I love the use of the subconscious to show Spike and Buffy how the other really is/feels. Very clever. And I liked this last chapter, too, because instead of just immediately falling in love with him, but there's a chance that she might. Very nice. I'll be looking out for that sequel, as well!
Oooh, I'm so happy you enjoyed the story! And luverly that you read the whole thing, always a good sign. Oooh, so glad you enjoyed the ending which was kinduv a start as well! So nice about the looking for the sequel. I am in the throws of making love to my computer. Eh. Ew. Something like it. ;) Thanks a million!
 
LouLightly She Steps05/02/2006 06:26 am
I completely enjoyed this in all its surrealism, though a bigger crumb would have been nice. Many thanks.
Aw, I am sorry, Lou, about the crumb and it being small, truly! I didn't mean for it to be! It just - as I've said before, though not to you - didn't fit to throw them together at the end. But I AM working on a sequel! I'm happy you enjoyed the fic, though! And thanks for reviewing!
 
RobynLightly She Steps05/02/2006 06:02 am
I loved that she was truthful with him and that she gave him a clean slate. She is right, for her it is too soon for her to love him, but her actions showed that she does care, and by giving him a clean slate and a chance to fight along side her she is giving him hope. I loved how as she was leaving after telling him that she doesn’t love him, he promised her that she will and she didn’t deny it or fight it. By going into his mind and allowing him into hers she really got to know him, and instead of denying to herself what she learned, she followed the best example she could, her mothers, and gave him a second chance. I really loved this fic and am glad that you decided to post here. I will be looking forward to the sequel.
I'm so glad the ending agreed with you. I honestly didn't mean for it to be left hanging when I began the fic, but then when I'd finished it, it just didn't fit to put them together just like that. Neways. I'm so so SO glad you're glad I decided to post on this site because I think it's fabulous here and plan to stick around for a while. Thanks so much, I'll try my best at the making of the sequel! *hugs*
 
redwulf50Lightly She Steps05/02/2006 05:47 am
damn good chappie
Very glad for that sentiment! Thanks a lot!
 
AthenewolfeAll at Once05/14/2006 08:18 am
nice start to the ending
 
RobynAll at Once05/02/2006 05:35 am
She really is very good at denial, she knows that he makes her she feel safe, she knows that she wants to stay with him and not for the safety reason, she just can't put it together that that usually means that when you feel that way about someone it usually means you care for that person. I really enjoyed the fight scene and how you had it all work together.
Yup. Yup, yup and, whatta y'know - yup. ;) Very nice you liked the fight scene. And how it all worked together! Thank you!
 
AthenewolfeFor the Love of05/14/2006 08:16 am
ohhhh what happens next... runs to next chappie
 
CewcewFor the Love of05/03/2006 12:52 am
excelant ending ! I'll keep an eye out for a squal.
Very good of you. I'll try my best!!! So glad you enjoyed the fic! And the ending!!!
 
EstherFor the Love of05/02/2006 01:05 am
Eeee, more, please!! Love the last two, but I gotta know what's gonna happen to Spike!! Great update!!
Hehe, that's a fine reaction. And thanks!
 
RobynFor the Love of05/01/2006 11:20 pm
Buffy is a stubborn one, but boy does she care for Spike. I have to wonder what's all going on with her with her feeling compelled to go to the mansion. The real question is: is she going to help, or hinder, the action inside. Thanks for the great update, I am looking forward to the remainder of the story.
Lurvely that you - still - like the story and on to your comment on the closing chapters. Thanks bunches!
 
CewcewFor the Love of05/01/2006 07:47 pm
Totaly agree with Giles, Oh dear!

Mmmm Mmmm good, more please.
*giggle* "mmm mmm good" Hehe. Thank you!
 
redwulf50For the Love of05/01/2006 04:57 pm
LOL, another bloody cliffie
*smirk* ;)
 
MorriganFor the Love of05/01/2006 03:47 pm
Great story, so far.  Can't wait to see how the rest turns out. And *LOL* @ "Has Giles ever let himself get hit over the head?" I'm really enjoying the Willow Xander interaction in this fic!
Haha. *snicker* Dear, good ole Giles. ;) Very glad you enjoyed!
 
AthenewolfeRolling Stone05/14/2006 08:12 am
excellant chapter i loved the memory loss
 
RobynRolling Stone05/01/2006 11:07 pm
It is interesting how Buffy, without her slayer memories, likes and cares for Spike without prejudice. And out of all her friends he is the one she didn't want leaving her the most. As for Xander, his blaming Spike when it was Spike trying to get Buffy to wake up and is being held by someone else shows how willing he is to place blame without facts. I like how well you showed how different Buffy is now, not by her memories as much as her absolute disbelief in demons and her commenting on the heaviness of the crossbow.
Very nice to read all of your comments, as always! So glad you liked it!!!
 
AthenewolfeLakhai Toh05/14/2006 07:59 am
ohhhh very intriguing wonder wgat is going to happen
 
RobynLakhai Toh05/01/2006 01:31 am
Buffy pain and anger at Spike having dealt with Sykes, even knowing that it was long ago and had nothing to do with what was currently going on, shows how much she has change is regard to her feelings for him. That being said, when is the next update? You left us with one evil cliff-hanger.
Yesss. And, well, you know, that update, it's arrived. ;) Thanks bunches, girl!
 
kgiambrunoLakhai Toh04/30/2006 03:21 pm
NO! Cliffhangers are bad!

God...I love when you update with two chapters though!

I really liked where you took this. I honestly had no idea who the hell the bad guy was so it was finally interesting to see him.

Also loved the sex in the last chapter...inexpected and hawt, lol.

Update soon!
Cliffhangers are necessary! ;) And good, hope you liked the most recent two chappies as well! Glad you liked the spin on the Big Bad. And the sex... well, it really should be hawt between those two, yeah? ;) Thanks!
 
CewcewLakhai Toh04/30/2006 01:27 pm
No!!!! Give it back! Do something Spike quick!

MORE PLEASE.
Hehe, lovely. Here's more!
 
redwulf50Lakhai Toh04/30/2006 06:27 am
OH Shit?????? Bloody hell yuou evil bint get back here!! Gaaaaaaaaaaa and they call me evil that is a bloody evil cliffie from helllll. Grrrrrrrrr
You crack me up. I'm sorry, I realize I enraged you, but your tirade really made me laugh. I like that reaction, very much, I must say. Hope the following chapters... well, will have you yelling at me, too. ;)
 
AthenewolfeBroken Seam05/14/2006 07:56 am
wonder what is goin on .....
 
RobynBroken Seam05/01/2006 12:36 am
I really liked this chapter and how much she has changed from not only when they were in his mind, but from when they first went into her mind. She is softening and has admitted to herself that at least on some level she wants him, all of him, and she has the marks to show for it. Although she has started moving forward with how she feels about him, it is still two steps forward and one step back, but things are changing and even if she wants to deny it they can never change back.
Oh, just so wonderful. Love it! Your thoughts that is. Thanks for sharing them with me, truly!!!
 
vladtBroken Seam04/30/2006 07:24 pm
fascinating chapter. thank you for the fine read.
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vladtBroken Seam04/30/2006 07:23 pm
fascinating chapter. thank you for the fine read.
Welcome. Happy you thought so!
 
vladtBroken Seam04/30/2006 07:23 pm
fascinating chapter. thank you for the fine read.
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redwulf50Broken Seam04/30/2006 06:14 am
very interesting chappie
hehe. good!
 
AthenewolfeBlighting Imperfections05/14/2006 07:52 am
i liked the angel bits - very nice
 
RobynBlighting Imperfections05/01/2006 12:12 am
Buffy is the master of denial, trying to convince herself that Spike put a memory in her brain. And Spike, his questions are very valid, "when do I matter? What do I do to matter?" He has done enough for her that he should matter, even if it is only as a friend.
Hehe, yup. And yuuuuuup!
 
redwulf50Blighting Imperfections04/28/2006 05:08 pm
Oh My God can we just put a bullet in Buffy's head already??
Ouch! Harsh, wulfie. But then again... ;)
 
LouBlighting Imperfections04/28/2006 04:54 am
Poor Spike - will she ever give him a break?
To give or not to give, that is the question. ;)
 
EstherBlighting Imperfections04/28/2006 12:13 am
Oh wow, this is great!! Man, Buffy's got some seriously chaotic thoughts. Nice move in adding Angel and Riley into the mix....very Buffy-esque. Can't wait for more!
Thanks a lot, I agree that they need to be in the mix. Tho I also say yes to the ick-and-eww of Riley. *shudder* Neways, glad you enjoyed!
 
CewcewBlighting Imperfections04/27/2006 10:39 pm
No! Going from mmmmmm Spike snuggles, to... Riley?
From a dream to a nightmare in 2 sec flat.
I oh so hope somthing horrid happens to Riley. Couse, Well couse its Riley. Ewww!

More soon please. Spike needs some loven.
I know, I know. Don't know what my muse was thinking! Haha, ewww is about right. ;)
 
vladtBlighting Imperfections04/27/2006 10:13 pm
excellent update,although you came close to negating with the "riley." thanks for the dine read.
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vladtBlighting Imperfections04/27/2006 10:12 pm
excellent update,although you came close to negating with the "riley." thanks for the dine read.
Thank YOU! And yeah, therileyfactor. Ick.
 
Pretty_in_fangsBlighting Imperfections04/27/2006 04:35 pm
woah. Riley? Ick.
And just as we were getting to the good stuff, too. ::laugh::
*lol* Indeed! ;)
 
AthenewolfeBrittle Walls05/14/2006 07:49 am
lovely chapter
 
RobynBrittle Walls04/30/2006 10:51 pm
She said to him “How could I ever trust you? You’ve no conscience. There’s no remorse. No need for it.” If he felt no remorse he could look much easier, by not looking and just by creating this monument, even if he doesn’t realize it, there is some remorse. On the flip side she also said “no need for it.” On this there is truth. Spike’s killings were usually more about the hunt then the torture. Humans were his food and him killing them for that is no different then a human hunting for food. In Buffy’s acknowledgement that Spike had already started to change, but that she didn’t believe he wouldn’t change back at any moment, she is forgetting a truth, once a person has changed they can never change back. They might change again to resemble what they were before, but there are always differences and new layers. In addition she should be supporting him and encouraging him with his change. Not just as someone who has found him a helpful ally, but because of who she is, the Chosen One, the Slayer.
I loved the use of Monet as a place of peace for her; he is one of my favorite artists. I really enjoyed the imagery of this chapter.
Love it when you review every chapter! And yes, I see where you're coming from with this, it's very very rational. And I agree. Which is FUN to do! And I do love Monet too, though I'm in no way a buff!
 
redwulf50Brittle Walls04/28/2006 05:00 pm
ok, now I know why Buffy is looney, she just is no real reasons
Hehe. *thilly nilly*
 
vladtBrittle Walls04/26/2006 07:51 pm
one of the buffys in her mind should take control, because it is chaos. very good read, thanks
Surely is. Glad you liked!!!
 
EstherBrittle Walls04/26/2006 03:48 pm
Wow, that was fantastic!! You did a great job in writing and describing Buffy's often chaotic thoughts. It's nice to see what's going on in her head. Can't wait to see what she decides before Spike's completely gone.
Lovely you think so! Buffy is a pill sometimes, but she's oh-so-fun to disect. ;)
 
DeanSamWinchesterfanBrittle Walls04/26/2006 03:35 pm
Good chapter.Poor insecure Spike.
Update soon.
Thank you. Yes. And here's two chappies at once. Hope it's not too much!
 
kgiambrunoBrittle Walls04/26/2006 02:53 pm
Wow...just realized I had an account, lol. But of course...cant remember anything about it!

Also wanted to apoligize for the horrible spelling in the first review and tell you that I also learned you have a ff.net acount so I will hop on over there so I cant get email updates!
Hehe. Funny. Oh, no worries, as I said in tag the other day, the only one I'm strict about spelling with is myself. ;) Hehe... I wonder if a bunch of you have hopped over to ff.net. Hmmm. ;) Thanks though, glad you liked the story!
 
Kristen (kgiambruno@gmail.com)Brittle Walls04/26/2006 02:36 pm
God...you must (or have, sorry dont know your age!) kick ass in Lit class. Metaphors, writing, you got it all down. Loved it so SO much! Especially that last part...could she grant him any sort of understanding? Because she has to understand him somewhat to actually know him enough to fall in love with him. She is not like Spike who can read her easily but can still fall in love with her without really knowing her.

Really...words cannot express my love for this story. Do you post at fanfiction.net? Because I would love to add you as one of my favorite stories.
*strokes of flattery marking her cheeks* Thank you so much, can't tell you how much that means to me! I'm 23, for the record. And I totally agree with the understanding bit. So glad you're loving the story, truly! Thanks for your wonderful words! And yup, I post at ff.net under the pen mjaw.
 
LouBrittle Walls04/26/2006 01:58 pm
More magical dreamscapes and the little advances and setbacks. Yum.
Hehe. Yum.
 
AthenewolfeBarely Ajar05/14/2006 07:46 am
Ha serves her right - when will she ever learn that Spike is the one for her - shakes her head!
 
Spikes Slayer2Barely Ajar04/25/2006 05:37 am
oh crap..
lol
 
CewcewBarely Ajar04/25/2006 12:02 am
Oh crap is right! What'd you do to Spike! Bring im back! Please!
Hehe. Where oh where has the little Spike gone? ;)
 
EstherBarely Ajar04/24/2006 10:53 pm
Oooh, great story!!! I like the way you've written their memories and their reactions to those memories. Can't wait for more!
Lovely to read you like it! Thanks a whole lot, and here's a little more...
 
RobynBarely Ajar04/24/2006 06:52 pm
It’s interesting the huge difference between the different minds. When they were in Spike’s mind he did everything he could to keep her safe, and he had no problem welcoming her in. In her mind she has already tried to kill him and block him out, and now she just sent him away. It’s almost like a physical manifestation of how well they know themselves. Spike is completely honest with himself and open to how he is feeling. Buffy hides from herself and, lies to herself, and runs away from any emotion that scares her or she doesn’t want to feel. I really liked how Spike grabbed her and ran when she wanted to continue fighting. His first concern was her safety, and although she is stronger in her mind, she refused to see that even together there wasn’t much impact on No Face. Thanks for the two updates, I really enjoyed them.
Again I agree. I just get such a kick reading your musings on this. And to have it coincide with my own gives me a high since I must be doing something right. ;) Thanks bunches!
 
vladtBarely Ajar04/24/2006 05:52 pm
very good read. buffy should have stayed in spike's mind; it was not as messed up. thanks for the fine read.
Thanks so much! Shouldn't she, though? Can't you see her setting up camp, getting all cozy, feeling like that's where she belongs?
 
LouBarely Ajar04/24/2006 05:20 pm
Gotta love this surreal dream world. Fabulous.
Thanks so much, you make me so happy! *hugs*
 
redwulf50Barely Ajar04/24/2006 04:28 pm
LMAO, even in her own head she is more than a bit dense
lol. Always good to make you laugh. ;) Thanks for both reviews, my friend!
 
meBarely Ajar04/24/2006 04:26 pm
fantastic update
Thank ever so much!
 
DeanSamWinchesterfanBarely Ajar04/24/2006 03:03 pm
Good chapters.Update soon.I just got Season 1 of Angel on DVD yesterday,and it was the first time I saw "City of".Also the first time I saw the episode where Angel is tortured for the Gem.I loved Mocking!Spike at the beginning.
Happy they agreed with you! Haven't seen any season of Angel apart from three, I believe. I like the show, but some things feel like season seven of Buffy - not all that thought through. But I like David, I think he's a great actor and I enjoy the Angel character, just somewhat away from Buffy. ;)
 
YzbaBarely Ajar04/24/2006 02:46 pm
Perfect chapter........I laughed...oh crap????
Love to make you laugh, y'know. *smile* Thanks!
 
pretty_in_fangsBarely Ajar04/24/2006 12:33 pm
Two updates! Yay!
I love this story. Please, feel free to post multiple updates as often as you want. ::grin::
Hehe, I'll keep that firmly in mind. ;) Very nice to read you're still liking the story and here's a little more of it - hope it won't disappoint!
 
AthenewolfeMeans to an End05/14/2006 07:43 am
Can I strangle Buffy - she is so stubborn!
 
KristenMeans to an End04/25/2006 06:00 am
I love the fact that when I come here to check for updates I always find a new chapter and sometimes more than one! Updates make my day, lol!

Loved the walls she has in her head! How perfect is that? I also loved the interaction between younger Buffy and Spike, sweet and touching.


Cant wait for more!
Oh, I'm happy to oblige! I lurve the updating process, means I get to hear from you guys. Thanks for your comments, happy you're enjoying. Hope you'll like what comes next!
 
RobynMeans to an End04/24/2006 06:30 pm
Buffy has a natural ability for cruelty, she controls it for the most part except when it comes to Spike. It's like she knows exactly what actions or words will hurt him the most and that is exactly what she does. I'm not sure she even realizes how horrible she is at times, and might even be shocked if she had to watch herself. Spike on the other hand has the natural ability for forgiveness. When he cares for someone he will forgive them about anything. Like what happened when she said his feeling didn’t matter, she can no longer deny that he has feelings, so she now discredits her regard for them. And Spike didn’t do anything more then point out that things are never that simple. If he was really vindictive all he had to do is say that he had had enough and wouldn’t participate anymore. That it was Buffy’s job, not his to save the life being threatened. After all as far as everyone else there he is just an evil vampire who doesn’t care for anyone but himself. Your scene when Spike went to talk to Buffy and she felt some of his pain was very interesting. I am looking forward to finding out if it was one time, or if it is a result of them going into each other’s mind and the magic involved. I loved how her last thought was her telling herself that she had nothing to hind.
True. I agree with you all the way. And so so great to read all your thoughts! Thanks so very much!
 
vladtMeans to an End04/24/2006 05:16 pm
good read, thanks. i think buffy is going to be shocked at the amount of things she is hiding.
hehe, really, you think? *smirk* Happy you liked!
 
redwulf50Means to an End04/24/2006 04:21 pm
Excellent chappie :p
I thank you!
 
AthenewolfeStranger Things05/14/2006 07:41 am
lovely and intruiging chapter - I enjoyed it immensely
 
sircStranger Things04/24/2006 04:51 am
sorry I haven't reviewed again. I caught up at FF.net and am waiting for new chapters
Oh, no need to apologize. Good to know where you're at, though. And I'm working on it, but nothing's for certain! :I Much love!
 
RobynStranger Things04/23/2006 08:20 pm
How like Buffy, she sees the truth of Spike, she feels the truth of Spike, but she continues to try to deny the truth, to try to pretend that everything she has discovered about how he feels is ‘manufactured’. She is so comfortable in her belief that someone can’t love without a soul, so comfortable with her pain over Angelus’s inability to love, and later Angel leaving, for her own good, that she is unwilling to allow anything but the hurt part of her to have a say in how things are perceived. And yet each time she sees new proof that her beliefs are not accurate, even though she tries to ruthlessly push away the new, cracks are forming, most not quite visible, that are weakening the foundation of her self-imposed prison. That is something I really love about this story, as much as she might try to deny things, they are traveling through Spike’s mind and she knows that there is truth behind the emotions of the memories, and even the fantasies. A truth that in the real world she has been able to more easily deny, to just declare them as not real and that any actions he takes because of these emotions are for selfish purposes only.

I hope you don’t mind to much me analyzing like this. I have a tenancy to do so, in particular with a fic like yours that you can really see the change within the characters, or in this case, more accurately character.
Oh, I don't mind one single bit! I adore reading what you're thinking in such detail, it's the coolest thing! So thank you! Analyzing is healthy, especially in the Spike/Buffy instance since otherwise you'll get frustrated out of your mind! I know how it is, trust me. ;) Just lovely, honestly, and hope you'll enjoy what is up ahead! Pun not intended. With the a-head. Get me? *smirk* *shaking head* Sorry, it's a bit late in the afternoon for this. Heh. Okay, hope to hear from you! And thanks once more!
 
vladtStranger Things04/23/2006 07:31 pm
that was a fun romp in spike's mind. should be even more fun in buffy's. good update, thanks for the fun read.
Well, I hope so. At least as fun...! Very nice to read you like, and truly hope you'll enjoy what follows! Thanks!
 
pretty_in_fangsStranger Things04/23/2006 06:31 pm
Lovely trip through Spike's head. I can't wait to see what he learns in Buffy's.
Hehe, the end of waiting has arrived. So glad you've enjoyed the first part, hope you'll enjoy what's left as well! Thank you!
 
KristenStranger Things04/23/2006 06:20 pm
Justed wanted to comment on how awsome your story is! I really like how non-fluffy it is. There were so many different ways you could have taken this, like Buffy seeing all his memories and falling in love with him that way, but I LOVE how she sees were he buries the people he kills, how you dont sugar-coat him, and how confusing the memories and traveling around in them are. Its absolutly fasicenating to read! Keep up the good work!
Wow, thanks ever so much! And your comments just made me float. I'm so happy you're enjoying it and that the way you're perceiving it is how you perceive it because it's how I want it perceived. Or something. Thank you!!! Hope the story'll keep holding up!
 
CewcewStranger Things04/23/2006 06:19 pm
Wonderful story as far. I shall await the next update.
Lovely you thought so! Hope you'll continue doing so throughout! Thank you!!!
 
DeanSamWinchesterfanStranger Things04/23/2006 05:39 pm
Good chapter.It's okay to laugh.I would have reviewed earlier except the power went out for three hours.Update soon.
Thanks, glad you liked. Hehe, ok, good that it's ok. Oh, power outage, no fun. Hope you'll enjoy the updates!
 
LouStranger Things04/23/2006 03:26 pm
Delighted to see you posting here - I hope you bring more of your tales. Loving this one - surreal nightmares and all. A great way for Buffy to come to know Spike.
And delighted to get a review from you, my friend! *happyhappy* I sure want to bring more of them over here, this site is so great! And the ppl are wonderfully welcoming. Not that I expected anything less, but... So glad you're enjoying it! Thank you!
 
meStranger Things04/23/2006 10:05 am
update update !!
Here it is! Here it is! ;) Thanks!
 
redwulf50Stranger Things04/23/2006 09:01 am
LOL, poor Buffy having the scales forcebly pyulled off her eyes boy is the girl an idiot
haha, an idiot... well, yeah, she is. ;) Oh, the force is so much fun, though. Hehe.
 
PinStranger Things04/23/2006 08:00 am
Wonderful chapter and very successful, since I am anxiously anticipating the next one. I love the dialog and how the transitions meld with the action - very imaginative! The sequence right before they leave Spike's head really communicates how his feelings eveolved, and I really like how you have Buffy merge into each participant.
Heheh, lovely to read! Thanks for all your wonderful comments, girl, make me all snuggly. Hope you'll enjoy the following!
 
Spikes Slayer2Stranger Things04/23/2006 07:43 am
so the memory they share, is that got something to do with the whole cecily, buffy - beneath you deal? hmm *ponders*
Hmmm. You'll see. Thanks for the review, girl!
 
Pulchra NexStranger Things04/23/2006 06:53 am
"well, then, start declaring your undying love for him!" ;-) lolz...
Loved the update!
*smirk* Thanks a lot!
 
akarinacjStranger Things04/23/2006 06:03 am
More please!!!!
Absolutely. hehe. Thanks!
 
AthenewolfeSoft Momentum05/14/2006 07:36 am
very nice interactions - enjoying the changing scenes
 
CewcewSoft Momentum04/22/2006 11:15 am
wow, grate story hope for an update soon.
Thanks so much! Very very pleased that you're enjoying it and here's the update! Hope it'll be to your taste!
 
DeanSamWinchesterfanSoft Momentum04/22/2006 08:30 am
Good chapter.I love that scene in "Fool For Love".(That was the episode right?)It's after my other favorite scene where Spike's crying cause Buffy said he was beneath her.(I hated her saying that,but I liked Crying!Spike.For some weird reason,I like seeing guys cry on TV,but it freaks me out in real life.)Update soon.
*lol* Your review truly made me laugh. What with the crying Spike and the liking of the crying guys on TV, but them freaking you out in real life. *giggle* Oh, perhaps I shouldn't me laughing. *hand to mouth, regretful* All in the nicest of spirit! Happy you enjoyed the chapter, and that's one of my favorite scenes, too, though her throwing the money at him and walking away always makes me cringe. I feel so bad for Spike it just hurts! Ugha.
 
Pulchra NexSoft Momentum04/22/2006 04:34 am
ooh I really like this story! it keeps you on the edge of your seat trying to figure out what's going to happen! keep it up! :-D
I like it that you like it!!! Thanks so much, that means I'm doing my job right! Phew! ;) And I hope I will keep it up! Otherwise I give you permission to smack me.
 
pretty_in_fangsSoft Momentum04/21/2006 10:22 pm
Well, I must say you have my curiosity up on the identity of No Face. And I like seeing the chinks in the Buffy Wall of Denial.
Curiousity I LOVE! And the chinks - good thing, right? ;) Thanks ever so much!
 
Spikes Slayer2Soft Momentum04/21/2006 09:01 pm
*gasp* great chapter!!!
*claps hands* Happy you thought so!
 
vladtSoft Momentum04/21/2006 08:50 pm
very good chapter. buffy is not as hard or certain, can't wait to get into her mind. and thanks for the evil cliffhanger. (did that last sound sincere?) thanks for the fine read.
Well, the same reply goes for this one. Right? ;)
 
vladtSoft Momentum04/21/2006 08:50 pm
very good chapter. buffy is not as hard or certain, can't wait to get into her mind. and thanks for the evil cliffhanger. (did that last sound sincere?) thanks for the fine read.
Lovely you enjoyed! Great comments, thanks so much. And, hehe, yeah, those evil cliffhangers can be... evil. Muahahahahahahaha. ;) Thank you!
 
redwulf50Soft Momentum04/21/2006 05:53 pm
LOL, member of cliffies R'Us huh?? Damn good chappie.
*giggle* Darn it, that's supposed to be such a secret society! ;) What can I say, I like the on-the-edge-of-your-seat concept that they advertise. *smile* Very glad you liked and hope it'll continue along that path! Thanks bunches!
 
RobynSoft Momentum04/21/2006 04:42 pm
I really like the growth in character that Buffy seems to be having. It is very slow, but it is there. She seems to be less aggressive towards Spike and more willing to work with him. Buffy really liked William and it seems that as she sees William still in Spike she has to force herself to deny it, the denial is no longer as natural to her, but more forced. I am really enjoying this story thanks for the update.
Wonderful to read your thoughts, girl. Yes and yes! So glad you're enjoying it! Thanks so much!
 
letitiaSoft Momentum04/21/2006 03:59 pm
more of this great story. So glad to see this chapter.
Thanks! I'm so glad you're glad. Hope you'll like the following!
 
AthenewolfeSeeking Reverence05/14/2006 07:19 am
what a wonderful sweet chapter. I really enjoyed the William bits and the interaction/ Lovely!
 
DeanSamWinchesterfanSeeking Reverence04/20/2006 04:48 pm
I could hsve sworn I reviewed this morning.I love the pairing of William and Sarah.I unfortunately know a little bit about Shakespeare as we're reading Julius Caseser.(We did Romeo & Juliet last year,and I hated it.)Luckily,the New English version is on the other side of the Old English.I get lost reading the Old English.Update soon.
Hello and you did! I don't mind, though. ;) Oh, don't hate on the Man! *smile* It's awesome you're still liking it, and that you liked William and Sarah, and that you want another update....... Here it is! And thanks!
 
bloodshedbabySeeking Reverence04/20/2006 10:15 am
You're taking us on one hell of a trip, that's for sure. *checks annie's brownie recipe* An amazing tale and recreation of Spike's past and I can't wait to read more!
Well, I do try. ;) Ooohh, brownies. Thanks, girl! You know I absolutely, definitively always appreciate it!
 
kSeeking Reverence04/19/2006 03:53 pm
GREAT update
Thanks a whole lot!
 
vladtSeeking Reverence04/19/2006 02:23 pm
encellent read. thanks for the update.
thanks for the review!!! Glad you still like!
 
akarinacjSeeking Reverence04/19/2006 01:17 pm
What a great story this is so far. But I got a bit confused at the end. Who might the demon be?. Love the interaction between William and Buffy and the fact that she´s extra nice to him just to annoy Spike, he,he. (That´s the beginning of love if you ask me...) I hope she get´s to see when William is bitten and the reasons... Please update soon.
Oh, confusion I like. Well, to some extent. Don't want to make you go HUH?! after every paragraph. ;) *smile* at the Will/Buffy comment. Thanks!!!
 
pfeifferpackSeeking Reverence04/19/2006 01:12 pm
I am enjoying this story so very much. The dreamlike memories mixed with actual literal ones is quite believable. I am enjoying the reservations Spike and Buffy feel about each other and allowing the other to see within themselves. This should be quite the learning experience.

Please keep this coming, it is excellent.

Kathleen
Hello Kathleen. I'm so glad you're enjoying the story! And education is the foremost objective. ;) Thanks so very much!
 
MarzBarSeeking Reverence04/19/2006 09:43 am
Hmmm. Did they find the right demon? Has Buffy found and acknowledged her demon(s) yet? More story please.
Don't you just have to wonder? ;) I'm glad I'm raising the questions. Here's a bit more story.
 
pretty_in_fangsSeeking Reverence04/19/2006 06:33 am
Wonderful chapter. I love the interactions between William and Buffy. And I can't wait to see what emerges from the combination.
Ooooh, I was hoping for something like that. "Can't wait", I mean. Heheh. Thanks!
 
DeanSamWinchesterfanSeeking Reverence04/19/2006 06:07 am
Poor Spike.I like that Buffy wanted to cry.Update soon.
Hey! Look! You did review earlier! I'll reply to the latter one, further down.
 
Spikes Slayer2Seeking Reverence04/19/2006 05:32 am
aww.. nice image of sarah and william.. it was cute
Happy you thought so! Thank you!
 
redwulf50Seeking Reverence04/19/2006 04:52 am
excellent chappie
Thank you! ;)
 
RobynSeeking Reverence04/19/2006 04:44 am
Slowly some of Buffy’s preconceived ideas about Spike are being changed. I like that she admitted to herself that what he was before was completely different that what she thought, perhaps this is the first step in seeing that some of her other thoughts might be off as well. Following her change in attitude from the beginning of this chapter to the end is interesting. She is known for her impatience and she shows it clearly at the beginning when they meet a young William, by the end she is willing to sit down and learn more about William and it is Spike who pulls her away, not wanting her to make more judgments.
Oh, so much fun reading your review. I love hearing your thoughts, it's the best thing. Very glad you liked the chapter and love what you got out of it! Thanks!
 
AthenewolfeSifting Through05/14/2006 07:14 am
still very intriguing... i am enjoying this story
 
BuffyRatSifting Through05/03/2006 12:41 am
Love the chemistry between them. Her not wanting to know and him not wanting to tell. And holding her up against that wall... so very, very powerful. Marvelous chapter.
Ooooh, groovy. Glad you liked!!!
 
NativeLightSifting Through04/19/2006 04:55 am
Powerful chapter. His understanding of her nature and her unwillingness to accept that part of herself or to see and accept his full nature is powerfully exposed in their verbal and physical sparring.
Thanks so much for your lovely comments! I'm so happy you thought so. Much obliged!
 
vladtSifting Through04/18/2006 05:44 pm
this is going to be a very long fic, before any common sense,or insight can penetrate buufy's thick skull. which is just great with me. love the magic, thanks for the read.
*smirk* Ya think? ;) Luverly that you're enjoying it! Thanks for reading, is what I say! And, I guess, you're very very welcome. ;)
 
pretty_in_fangsSifting Through04/18/2006 05:07 pm
Oh, this should be a fun ride!
I just found this story and I can't wait to see more.
I hope so! So great to hook you, though! Hope it won't disappoint! Thank you!
 
MorriganSifting Through04/18/2006 04:29 pm
Great chapter!  Lot of tangible tension between those two!  And the imagery you created with the desert turned graveyard was awesome! &nbsoLoving this story.  Hope you update soon!
As is and always always should be! With the tension, I mean. Thanks so much! Very glad you like!
 
RobynSifting Through04/18/2006 04:16 pm
It's interesting how she always thinks that she will beat him, and yet their fights on average have always been a draw. Buffy is as stubborn as ever, instead of recognizing that Spike might be different than what she thinks, she just puts it to him acting out of character. I am really looking forward to her journey through their minds.
I agree. *huge grin* So happy to read your thoughts, girl. And I hope the journey'll be entertaining! Thank you!
 
sircSifting Through04/18/2006 11:29 am
great chapter
Thanks!
 
meSifting Through04/18/2006 11:27 am
loving this story
loving that you're with the love!
 
bloodshedbabySifting Through04/18/2006 10:08 am
Another fantastic update!! *sighs dreamily* I so love this fic.
*hands over heart* Thank you! *big smile!* Hope you'll do nothing but! ;)
 
MarzBarSifting Through04/18/2006 09:50 am
Hmmm. Either of them figuring out anything useful?
Maybe... ;)
 
kimSifting Through04/18/2006 07:59 am
Hi, Annie!

Good story. I enjoyed reading it, as I think you caught on to, LOL.

Wishing you many happy reviews.
Hehe, surely did! And thanks for all the happy ones I received from you! Much love!!!
 
PinSifting Through04/18/2006 07:44 am
Amazing chapter! Buffy's understanding of the universe is being torn apart, bit by bit. Excellent fight sequences. I liked the way you went from the physical fight to the verbal sparring and then back to the physical - a seamless conversation in different modes. Interesting that Buffy is unable to see the larger implication of Spike's glass desert of his victims. I somehow doubt that Angel would even be able to construct such a monument in memory of his victims. Great story!
Oh *claps hands at amazing comments* so so flattered, girl! Thank you! And so happy you're enjoying it!
 
DeanSamWinchesterfanSifting Through04/18/2006 05:43 am
Good chapter.Stupid Buffy and Spike.Update soon.
It's Spuffidity. ;) And thanks!
 
redwulf50Sifting Through04/18/2006 05:38 am
excellent chappie
Thanks ever so!
 
AthenewolfeSomething New05/14/2006 07:09 am
very nice chapter - I can't wait to see what happens next in this lovely story.
 
BuffyRatSomething New05/03/2006 12:27 am
Interesting places they keep going. Wonder what big bad they're looking for. Lovely chapter, btw.
Thank you!
 
MorriganSomething New04/18/2006 03:59 pm
That would be frustrating, bouncing back and forth into one another's minds.  Funny, that Spike got himself busted for snooping.  
Hehe, he was due.
 
sircSomething New04/18/2006 11:11 am
great chapter. I have forgotten how well you write
Awww, wow, thanks so very much! *hat off*
 
vladtSomething New04/17/2006 08:53 pm
fine update. if buffy doesn't start seeeing shades between black and white soon, it will take forever to find what they need. i won't mind the wait. thanks for the fine read.
Thanks! And yes, and she does have a tendency not to see between anything. She's very straight and narrow. Well, sumtimes. And thanks for the fine compliment. Hope the following will be agreeable!

All My Luv.
 
MarzBarSomething New04/17/2006 08:20 pm
It was a good guess about her and her pointy slayer boots. She's so callow. Hope there is something in Spike's memories to wise her up before she breaks more of his heart.
Truly was! She can't help it, though, she was born with them, somewhere deep down, and they just planted themselves firmly around her feet once she was Slayered. Or sumthin. ;)

All My Love!
 
RobynSomething New04/17/2006 07:06 pm
Spike had it right, Buffy is very young. Adding her age with her calling and it's no wonder that she has never learned that the world is not black and white, but filled with all shades of grey. This is a really great chapter and I am looking forward to the next update.
Innit the truth? Very glad you agree and here it is, the next update! Hope you'll like!

A.M.L!
 
spikeslovebiteSomething New04/17/2006 05:53 pm
amazing! more please?
Thank you! Here it is!

All My Love, A.
 
redwulf50Something New04/17/2006 02:39 pm
Damn they are both hard headed But Buffy is a bit stoopid
haha, and we love her for it! Not. ;)

A.M.L!
 
bloodshedbabySomething New04/17/2006 12:04 pm
That was a trip! Looking forward to the next chapter. This story is really amazing, can't wait to see where you take it!
Aw, thank you! I'm so so pleased you're enjoying it, truly! Very glad!

All My Luv - A.
 
PinSomething New04/17/2006 10:10 am
I love the way you shape the vignettes and the transitions. Excellent imagery - I can really picture the scenes. Thanks so much!
Ooooh, nice compliment, I must tell you! Very happy! Thank YOU!

A.M.L!
 
Spikes Slayer2Something New04/17/2006 07:29 am
hmm.. getting intriging..
lovely I managed it! Thanks!

All My Lurve.
 
DeanSamWinchesterfanSomething New04/17/2006 06:56 am
Poor Spike.I hope she realizes how much she's hurting him.Good story.Update soon.
Yes, I hope the bitca in her isn't too overwhelming. Thanks, very glad you like!

A.M.L - Annie.
 
AthenewolfeUnwanted Particulars05/14/2006 07:03 am
oh very intriguing first chapter. I am very interested in seeing where you go with this!
 
BuffyRatUnwanted Particulars05/03/2006 12:13 am
What an interesting way to find out someone is completely in love with you. Love it!
hehe. I'm glad!
 
MorriganUnwanted Particulars04/18/2006 03:40 pm
Ooh, I wonder which brain is going to get picked first!  Intriguing concept.  I'm really enjoying this, so far!
Lovely to read you think so! Hope it'll continue!
 
sircUnwanted Particulars04/18/2006 10:57 am
great start
thanks!
 
RobynUnwanted Particulars04/17/2006 06:50 pm
This sounds very intriguing. I am really looking forward to this fic.
Why, thank you so very much! I hope I'll be able to keep you hooked!

All My Luv.
 
Wolf116Unwanted Particulars04/17/2006 05:10 pm
Hello Miss Annie,

I've already read this on ff.net, but I think that maybe there might be more to the story. Than what was posted there.

Although, it's a really great story, as always. Maybe more smut can be involved on here. HINT, HINT.
Hello, my dear!

I'm happy you approve of the story, and darlin', I dislike having to disappoint you, but I must be honest - it is and will be the same. Don't hate on the writer, now! ;) I hope you will still enjoy it!

All My Love!
 
bloodshedbabyUnwanted Particulars04/17/2006 11:54 am
oh my god, this is incredible! I love, love LOVE your dialogue! For some reason, this line made me laugh She liked his door, though. It was so easy to kick in. I am sooooo glad you are posting here now!!!
Oh, girl! Thank you! And I just love, love, LOVE that you love, love, LOVE it! ;) And the laughs are good! And I'M soooo glad I'm posting here now!

All My Love!
 
NeartUnwanted Particulars04/17/2006 10:47 am
Ohhhh, a very intriguing start. More soon pls.
Happyhappy you like! And the more is of the same variety, I do pray.

A.M.L.
Annie.
 
PinUnwanted Particulars04/17/2006 10:04 am
Annie - Delighted to see you here! I've been following this on ff.net, but haven't had the chance to comment. Great story, as always. I hope you like it here and will transfer your other stories.
Very happy to hear from you! And glad you like/liked the story. I lurve it here, feel sorry it's taken me so long to break out of the safety of ff.net. ;)

All My Love!
 
MarzBarUnwanted Particulars04/16/2006 11:34 pm
I certainly hope Buffy doesn't stomp through Spike's memories with her fashionable but pointy slaying boots. More story please.
Oh, goodness, no! I think she messes with Spike's head enough as it is! ;) Nice that you want more! Here it is...

A.M.L, Annie.
 
vladtUnwanted Particulars04/16/2006 10:47 pm
very good start, should be highly entertaining when they "see" each others'thoughts. thanks for the interesting read.
Always more than glad to oblige! Thank YOU! And hope I'll not disappoint!

All My Love, Annie.
 
maryperkUnwanted Particulars04/16/2006 09:26 pm
Interesting start.
Happy you thought so. Hope you'll enjoy the following.

A.M.L, Annie.
 
redwulf50Unwanted Particulars04/16/2006 08:53 pm
excellent start
Why thank you! Lovely you thought so and do hope you'll approve of what comes next!

All My Lurve, Annie.