Scars by JamesMFan
 
DeejEnd05/31/2006 03:56 am
I thought it was very good and I think it was the right ending. I cried a couple of times during the whole thing...it was really moving. Great writing!
 
luxEnd05/13/2006 07:57 am
an aftermath ficlet would be great for this. reactions of the scooby gang...
otherwise i like it. Gathered - if you had done the character death warning thing - it wouldn't have changed a thing.
nice read.

 
betraktorEnd04/18/2006 04:38 pm
I hate you, you made me cry....I loved this story, please write some more. The ending was belivable and great. I still hate you though...but I´ll stop if you write another.
 
EllieEnd04/17/2006 01:29 pm
wow i soo wasnt expecting this butits just total genius!! it just gives the story darkness that just fits in
 
AthenewolfeEnd04/13/2006 09:44 pm
Wow - just wow - what an ending ::blinks:: I wasn't expected that.... I liked it... have to say it is not "agnst" this is more "dark" but what an incrediable read. just wow...
 
MaryEnd04/12/2006 10:03 pm
I've enjoyed this story, which was well written and well crafted. In the end, I'm sad for Buffy, that she lost all hope and gave up on life. I'm sad, too, for Joyce, who will live forever with unbelievable pain.
 
Spikes Slayer2End04/11/2006 07:49 am
awwww... poor buffy and poor spike for having to watch.. *wipes a tear*
 
LouEnd04/10/2006 04:23 am
Unexpected - but it did match the tone of the fic and was completely believable. Nicely done.
 
NikkoleEnd04/09/2006 07:41 pm
I was reading evryone else's reviews after I posted mine, and I also think that an epilogue would be great. Maybe her funeral, how everyone reacts to her death, how they deal and try to move on.
 
NikkoleEnd04/09/2006 07:34 pm
WOW! That was very powerful, and very sad. YOu write it beautifully. I have to say, when it said she flicked the scissors across her wrists, I was completely NOT prepared for that. It made me jump in my chair. Thank you for writing this story and sharing it with us. I hope to see more from you soon.
 
IreneEnd04/09/2006 04:22 pm
I really really loved this story, but there has to be an epiloge, or something! Please, please, please.
 
IreneEnd04/09/2006 04:21 pm
I really really loved this story, but there has to be an epiloge, or something! Please, please, please.
 
chanceEnd04/09/2006 03:43 pm
hey amazing story i've really enjoyed it!! and this last chapter is brill!! it was great!! had me bawling. i agree though with some of the reviewers bout liking 2 see another chapter where we see every1's reactions 2 her death and how it will affect every1. really great job!!
 
claireEnd04/09/2006 03:39 pm
hey i have been reading your story over at sinister attraction and then i found it here and that u ad finished it here. i loved ur whole story & i think this was a great way 2 end it. ' crying my eyes out '. beautifully written. shows that it was very well thought out. good job!!
 
SpaceLordEnd04/09/2006 12:23 pm
Hmm maybe you should name this story...when interventions fuck things up more than they already are....I really think that you got that part right...the judgemental things with the way the scoobies always tried to tell her what was right and wrong with her personal life could probably make her comit suicide if she was already depressed as she was in this story....the feeling of being completly alone...however I would probably think that she would have done "suicide by demon/vampire".

As I already started a nice epi or another chapter with all the reactions after her suicide would have been nice....I can just see all the guilt and the blaming that would go around.
 
RobynEnd04/09/2006 09:59 am
I must admit that you had me sobbing with this chapter. Buffy’s actions made it start, but what really did it was Spike, who by this time wanted nothing more then to save her, and who could no longer get to her. She was so lost, in so much pain that she couldn’t ever see any other way to free herself. I really should have seen this coming, it was so true to your story and everyone’s reactions to her when they found out about Spike would have had to be so completely different for there to be even the possibility of a different outcome. This whole story has been very beautifully written and in this chapter you did another fantastic job.
 
rayning_starsEnd04/09/2006 07:01 am
That was a very moving story, and I her death at the end was not a disappointment to me at all. It sort of fit there. ::puts in favorites::
 
SpaceLordEnd04/09/2006 05:09 am
Wow....not the ending I would have expected. Good really good IMO but not expected.

Would have liked an epi to see how this would have affected Spike after....would it change him completly?

I'm thinking that would be an interesting story to tell.
 
CewcewEnd04/09/2006 01:45 am
Waaa Waaaa soo totaly sad. Butifuly writen thow, an a total tear jurker.
 
UncagedMuseEnd04/08/2006 10:48 pm
It was very beautiful. Yes, I'm bawling and really wasn't expecting her death and Spike being there to witness it but it was still one of the best stories I have ever read.
 
vladtEnd04/08/2006 09:37 pm
really loved the tale. do feel that an epilogue, spreading the guilt to those who earned it, would not be inappropiate. loved the read, thanks
 
Jess MarieEnd04/08/2006 09:18 pm
Gah, been a long time since a story made me cry.
 
idk5743228End04/08/2006 08:27 pm
I was truly all ready to blast away for not putting the character death into the summary. But, I probably wouldn't have read the ending. I'm usually about the fluffy/spuffy. I've read and loved this story from the beginning. The ending was beautifully written and obviously well thought out. You stayed true to the story. Thank you for an exceptional story.
 
Always_jbjEnd04/08/2006 08:11 pm
Gah... just saw 'Richard's' review... don't you just LOVE it when readers tell you where you are or were going with your own story!? *rolls eyes*
I know, right? Jeez. But still thanks for reading and reviewing. Glad you liked it at least.
 
Always_jbjEnd04/08/2006 08:08 pm
*sniff* Sad but brilliant ending! I am glad you didn't put a character death warning on... it really would have ruined the ending. I feel so sorry for Spike I think in his own way he really did love her and to watch her die and be unable to even go to her would have been so hard for him. Fabulous angsty story, thank you!
 
LeslieEnd04/08/2006 07:55 pm
I hated the ending, but at the same time it was appropriate. I'm glad you stuck with your original intentions.
 
FranEnd04/08/2006 07:19 pm
*Sobs* How can I be disappointed or hate you for giving us such a beautiful story?
 
LilachighEnd04/08/2006 06:45 pm
I’ve followed this from Chp 1 and loved it all the way. You write beautifully. I wasn’t sure how you were going to end it, although must admit I never suspected this. I’ll go away and have a good think about it. At present it worries me because basically she gives in and that’s not what she or anyone should do.
 
slaymesoftlyEnd04/08/2006 06:39 pm
Whoa! You are going to get blasted for not warning, I'll bet. But it really is good that you didn't give it away - and in retrospect, there was nothing happy or even particularly hopeful about the story, so you did set it up so well that there shouldn't be too much shock. I was surprised, but found myself nodding my head as I realized there was going to be no last-minute saving of the Slayer. Very well done.
 
just sueEnd04/08/2006 06:11 pm
Bravo! A shock but in keeping with the tone of the story from the beginning. Happiness seemed fleeting for poor Buffy and all too easily shattered by reality. Strangely I think that Spike would truly have made the effort if he'd thought she would do this. How else could he be so devastated at the end? A brave choice and I salute you. Thanks for the ride. Next ne a little more upbeat maybe? *hugs*
 
Missus_graceEnd04/08/2006 06:11 pm
I've been reading this story from the beginning and was drawn into it quickly. I love fluffy endings, so it is a bit disappointing, but you are a great writer. Thanks for sharing!
 
MarzBarEnd04/08/2006 05:53 pm
OMG. I hope Spike is ready to die or run.

Thank you for sharing this very sorrowful story with us.
 
CutieSaiyajinEnd04/08/2006 05:23 pm
Whoa, holy crap. Sad ending, but I think it fits.

I've really enjoyed this story. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you for reading.
 
bloodshedbabyEnd04/08/2006 05:23 pm
*sobs* Ok, so didn't need the downer ending, was actually trying to get cheered up today. *sighs* Maybe a slight angst warning in an authors note for this chapter won't give it away? Because I would have stayed FAR FAR away from anything resembling angst. Great fic though, I definitely enjoyed the ride!
You are of course right, I can't believe I forgot the angst warning! Added now. Sorry.
Still, thanks for reading
 
RichardEnd04/08/2006 05:18 pm
Well, that was pretty scummy; not including a character death warning. And since I happen to know better, I just thought I'd share with everyone else that it is NOT true "this is where [you]'ve been going with the story the whole time".
Actually, it is. How would you know better? I don't even know you.
 
redwulf50End04/08/2006 04:29 pm
Beautiful, ity fit the tone of the story so well. Anyother ending would have cheapned the impact of the story. It was brutal, it was painful, but in the end it rang true.
I'm glad it did. I really wanted to be true to these characters in this context and in my mind it couldn't really end any other way.
Thanks for reading and reviewing.
 
spikeskatEnd04/08/2006 04:27 pm
You're setting yourself up for this one. But, I thought it was a logical conclusion to this story. It was full of angst, and to suddenly end on a high note of fluff didn't seem quite true. (But, there's nothing to say you can't do an alternate "fluffy" ending... LOL.) Great job!
Thank you! Yeah, I couldn't go with the fluff even if my heart was saying "Go with the fluff, go!" I knew it wouldn't ring true.
Thanks for reading!
 
AthenewolfeLoss04/13/2006 09:38 pm
excallant chapter - I can't wait to see how you conclude it!
 
Always_jbjLoss03/31/2006 09:52 pm
Well Giles and Xander's response was not unexpected.

Spike and Buffy's confrontation was so emotion-charged. Spike coming clean was the right thing to do and, as expected, it has hurt them both... looking forward to the next chap to see how (or if) they can get past it.

I must say I will be sad to see this story end... I have really enjoyed it.
 
LouLoss03/29/2006 07:31 am
He'd probably be better off following his instincts as he'll never get a free pass now!
 
slaymesoftlyLoss03/29/2006 06:42 am
Had two chapters to catch up on, and now I'm going to be late for work! Gah! Wonderful - can't wait for the last chapter.
 
MarzBarLoss03/29/2006 02:50 am
If Spike is still killing, he could have done that universe a big favor and eaten the Whelp. More story please.
 
MorriganLoss03/29/2006 02:42 am
Ouch.  To let down your gaurd and find that you have been lied to.  That's hard to stomach.  Good chapter.
 
just sueLoss03/29/2006 01:21 am
Oh, dear. Her secret world ain't so secret anymore and the foundation is crumbling - to dust? I can't believe that the next chappie will be the last and am fearful for them both. Great story and will be very sorry to see it end. xxx
 
apolloLoss03/28/2006 10:30 pm
please let this have a spuffy ending, make him change or her not care or something but they need each other. i hate the rest of the scoobie anyway, well except tara, dawn and sometimes willow.
 
DeeLoss03/28/2006 10:12 pm
I like where you are taking this and I am looking forward to the big finish.
 
Jess MarieLoss03/28/2006 10:10 pm
ACK!!!

How can there only be on chapter left?!?! =)

Just wanted you to know I've greatly enjoyed this story and will be sad to see it over.
 
CewcewLoss03/28/2006 08:09 pm
Oh man! put on your golashes,its getten deep. And its starten to hit the fan. A good read indeed. The only problem is, the page has run out of words!

More soon please.
 
vladtLoss03/28/2006 08:03 pm
very good chapter. tough place to stop. should make the last chapter very good reading. thanks for the fine tale.
 
RobynLoss03/28/2006 07:17 pm
Thanks for the great update. Spike had it right Buffy's friends do have a habit of ambushing her and making her feel like shit. I'm glad that Spike finally told Buffy the truth about the killing. I am really looking forward to how this ends.
 
McChickLoss03/28/2006 07:13 pm
Ohhhh that chapter was intense! I wasn't shocked to see Giles and Xander attacked Spike, but to have Buffy slap him... I could see the pain that caused him cause your writing was so well done!! I loved this chapter and will be sad to see the story end, but you are doing an excellent job with it!!

-Ashley-
 
LacyLoss03/28/2006 06:53 pm
Oh! Horrible cliff hangers! More please!
 
NikkoleLoss03/28/2006 06:13 pm
I am glad that he finally came clean, but poor Buffy. She will feel so betrayed. Maybe they can tell everyone to sod off and run off together. LOL! Fantasies are a wonderful thing, aren't they?
 
KarynLoss03/28/2006 06:13 pm
oh god!!! last chapter ... already ... wide eyes ... but but but ... lol

great update! now i'm all worried how it's gonna end...sigh
 
KarynLoss03/28/2006 06:13 pm
oh god!!! last chapter ... already ... wide eyes ... but but but ... lol

great update! now i'm all worried how it's gonna end...sigh
 
LilachighLoss03/28/2006 05:20 pm
I love this chp. All so in character. I want it to end and don’t, all at the same time. Thanks for great read.
 
AthenewolfeConviction04/13/2006 09:37 pm
I loved this chapter! it was very awesome!
 
RobynConviction03/19/2006 03:53 pm
This is a very powerful story and it shows great insight into the characters. Although you set up a new situation the characters stayed true to who they are. I loved in this chapter that Buffy faced her greatest fear, rejection of her friends, and found the power to choose herself. Thanks for a great story.
 
LouConviction03/18/2006 07:18 pm
She toughed it out! Well done,
 
RichardConviction03/17/2006 03:19 pm
Oh yeah, excluding Tara. But that's because she's a complete and total Victim.
 
RichardConviction03/17/2006 03:18 pm
Wow, what a bloody bitch Joyce is. She's manipulative, hypocritical, two-faced, simple-minded and downright callow. Very much what she actually is in canon before she got whitewashed and sainted by people too small-minded to appreciate that there's not a single person on BTVS that isn't destined to go straight to the deepest pits of hell. OutSTANDING writing!
 
vladtConviction03/17/2006 02:25 pm
good scene(could 've used a bit of xander slapping, but every fic could.) thanks for the fine read
 
MeganConviction03/17/2006 07:37 am
Love it. Despite the fact that I'd hoped Joyce had learned enough to want Buffy to have what Buffy needed, I thought the Scoobies all acted as expected. Nicely done, though it's sad that Buffy believes him and he lied. That's gonna hurt.
 
KarynConviction03/16/2006 06:19 pm
oh my, great update...ohhhh the angst, and i loved when Joyce walked in on them...every mother AND daughters worst nightmare...lol
 
BridgetConviction03/16/2006 06:07 pm
Great chapter. I am glad that Buffy stood up for herself. I hope that she and Spike come to some type of understanding. I hope it is not just sex.
 
CewcewConviction03/16/2006 05:54 pm
Bad Friends! Bad, bad, bad! Poor Buffy.
more please.
 
bloodshedbabyConviction03/16/2006 05:34 pm
fantastic chapter! Joyce gets the bad mom award though. That was mean!
 
MorriganConviction03/16/2006 05:26 pm
Hmm...  Buffy all alone and seemingly, in shock.  Update soon, please!
 
UncagedMuseConviction03/16/2006 05:14 pm
It always makes me crazy when they all think they know what is best for her. I loved the chp. Will be waiting for more.
 
MarzBarConviction03/16/2006 05:11 pm
OMG! Buffy stood up to the Scoobies!! WTF is up with Joyce? All this time Buffy was not talking to anybody or seeing anybody and totally depressed. Now she's better but so what, she's suddenly all moral and knows more about being a Slayer than Buffy. More story please.
 
LilachighConviction03/16/2006 05:09 pm
Oh I love this story so much. Can’t wait for next chp.
 
kimConviction03/16/2006 04:25 pm
Well...didn't expect Joyce to be so hard on her...that was definitely an uncomfortable meeting.

And now she's on her way to Spike...probably...or he'll find her first, since he probably didn't go too far from the house, watching over her and such.

Very well put, "I choose me". This was a big step for her, and they don't even realize it. You just grew up a bit more, Buffy.
 
AthenewolfeReady04/13/2006 09:33 pm
squeals! Oh I do love that - she burst in for that - this is really good :-)
 
angelic_amyReady03/26/2006 09:06 am
I’m glad Buffy’s is going out and doing something with her Mom, about time. And OMG what a way to end the chapter, Joyce walking in on Buffy and Spike! I have to say I’m a little surprised by Buffy’s affections after seeing the news earlier on in the day. She’s not a stupid girl, she’s gotta know it’s Spike.

 
NikkoleReady03/01/2006 01:17 pm
OMG! TOO FUNNY!!
 
LouReady03/01/2006 04:18 am
How come Spike left and came back?
 
MorriganReady03/01/2006 03:11 am
*L*  Busted!  Great chapter.
 
akarinacjReady03/01/2006 02:18 am
Great, great. And now Joyce. That´s going to be interresting to see. Can´t wait!!!!!
 
MarzBarReady03/01/2006 12:46 am
LMAO! How fast can Spike get out of there? Will Joyce figure out that Buffy's change for the better has been inspired by Spike?
 
CewcewReady02/28/2006 10:55 pm
:O Busted! lol
 
Always_jbjReady02/28/2006 09:05 pm
LOL... BUSTED!
Poor Joyce... that's got to be a shock to her system.
Loved the update. Thank you.
 
SpaceLordReady02/28/2006 06:48 pm
Well talk about getting busted....hope that she don't have an axe within reach
 
KarynReady02/28/2006 06:43 pm
“GAH!”'s with Joyce...rofl...well this should be fun to explain...lol
 
LilachighReady02/28/2006 06:27 pm
I love this story. This chapter ending is great. Please update soon.
 
vladtReady02/28/2006 05:44 pm
absolutely wonderful. great setup and fantastic place to end the update. we readers can ponder are own update, until you show us how it really should be. thanks
 
RichardReady02/28/2006 05:32 pm
Damn, I never saw this coming.
 
UncagedMuseReady02/28/2006 05:31 pm
Enter Joyce! ROFLMAO! Great update.
 
ChrissieLinnitReady02/28/2006 05:27 pm
Wheeeee! What a ride that turned out to be!

Got to say... it's a sure-fire way to get it all out into the open! Now, hopefully, Spike and Buffy will have Joyce sort them out - as a couple, and Spike will start to come clean with Buffy and Buffy will reassess her measures of good, bad and those tricky grey areas in between... OR, there could be a fast trip to the land of DeNial on the horizon?

Great chapter and a fantastic punchline. “GAH!”

Spike looked up, surprised. “Oh…shit. Hi Joyce!”

 
neo_trinityknotReady02/28/2006 05:24 pm
Joyce see the full moon, did she?
 
CopyKweenReady02/28/2006 05:06 pm
Heheh! Funny (and evil) cliffie! Joyce's reaction should be interesting lol. Glad Buffy's getting back to normal.....I just hope the dumb ol' Scoobies don't think they're gonna start running her life again.
 
NemoReady02/28/2006 05:01 pm
Oh god, I just loved this chap! Buffy's morning routine reminds me so much about myself in the mornings *lol* I loved the ending, can't wait to see how Joyce will react to a naked Spike in her daughters bedroom. That was just hilarious!
 
AthenewolfeLeaving04/13/2006 09:28 pm
lovely - sigh - i still want J for my own - can i justhave them both - my own vampries!
 
angelic_amyLeaving03/26/2006 09:06 am
Oh no he CAN’T leave, not now! GAH! And Jeremiah came back, but now he’s run off again. *sigh* Oh thank god… Spike didn’t leave town.

 
vladtLeaving02/28/2006 05:32 pm
had to reread this before commenting(and i was having i really bad day during the first reading). i love the story, i like jeremiah, but if he is really gone this time, he seems to be more of a distraction, than an asset.thanks for the read. i really love the story and apologize for the negative comment.
 
LouLeaving02/28/2006 08:39 am
You can't leave me there!!!!
 
just sueLeaving02/25/2006 04:32 am
Well, that answers all the questions I had. Great chapter and am looking forward to seeing what happens next. Thanks ever so.
 
CopyKweenLeaving02/25/2006 01:03 am
Ahhh....you had me worried for a minute! Thought I was going to have to kick Spike's ass lol. Still wondering what Jeremiah is up to, though.
 
NikkoleLeaving02/24/2006 11:49 pm
Jeremiah seems so nice. I am just waiting for him to show his true face. I guess I like him, but don't trust him. Nothing is ever as it seems in Sunnydale. Very nice chapter. I can't wait for more!
 
TaylormaidLeaving02/24/2006 11:06 pm
Really enjoyed this chapter. I'm afraid the sh*t is gonna hit the fan soon for Spike. I'm sad to see Jeremiah go...I've liked him a lot.
 
MarzBarLeaving02/24/2006 11:00 pm
Spike didn't get far this time.
 
slaymesoftlyLeaving02/24/2006 09:36 pm
Had me worried there for a bit. lol
I'm glad you don't have Spike changing his ways overnight just because he has something going with Buffy. This is so much more realistic and true to his character at the time.
 
KarynLeaving02/24/2006 07:56 pm
god you are so not helping me! Every chapter i try to decide how i feel about this fic! and every chapter you leave me staddlin' the fence...part of me hates him for lying to her and part of me hates her for believing him...aggghhh!!! great update by the way...lol
 
Spikes Slayer2Leaving02/24/2006 07:44 pm
HA! i knew he wouldnt really leave.. he's in to deep.. lol
 
Jess MarieLeaving02/24/2006 06:13 pm
Always look forward to a new chapter of this one. Jeremiah is a truly unique idea for a character, and you've used him well in creating interest for the plot. I also like the complexity you've used with Buffy's trust of Spike. She's almost made herself trust him because she needs him so much. It's well done. Finally, I like the fact that he's still not worthy of it. And he knows it.
 
MorriganLeaving02/24/2006 05:32 pm
Classic Spike... Always loves bitch.  Love it!
 
ShannaLeaving02/24/2006 05:10 pm
I do like this story very much. Well written and different is a very good way. Here's hoping that Spike decides to change his evil blood sucking ways due to love and that this love is returned. Fingers and toes crossed.
 
apeLeaving02/24/2006 04:17 pm
who in the holy fuck is this asshole and why is he touching another man's girl.i hope he gets his head torn off, the bastard.
good story though.
 
Always_jbjLeaving02/24/2006 03:33 pm
Gah, I can see badness on the horizon for these two.
Jeremiah was adorable (as always) but I wish he hadn't planted doubts in Buffy's mind. I know it is bad of me but I just don't want Spike to get caught out 'cause that only leads to pain for both of them *sigh*
Fabulous update,thank you!
 
UncagedMuseLeaving02/24/2006 03:32 pm
I really really enjoyed this. Will be waiting for more.
 
AthenewolfeSurrender04/13/2006 09:12 pm
oh now that was a lobely bite fans self
 
angelic_amySurrender03/26/2006 09:05 am
She trusted him to bite her! And then she passed out! And they joked! Fabulous chapter, really like how close they’re becoming, the trust that’s between them. I just hope Spike either a) stops killing humans or b) confesses what he’s been doing before Buffy finds out.
 
Always_jbjSurrender02/21/2006 06:24 am
Just read this fic in one sitting... and what can I say... I LOVE it!!
Buffy's confidence and trust returning slowly as her and Spike's relationship grows is lovely.
I hope Spike stops killing before he destroys Buffy's trust when she discovers his deception.
Fabulous job... I look forward to reading more
 
Spikes Slayer2Surrender02/21/2006 05:32 am
haha.. lol trust her to say that lol great story.. i love it!!!
 
bloodshedbabySurrender02/21/2006 01:12 am
very awesome chap!! I always love it when Buffy 'lets' Spike bite her and the part about trust was just fabulous. Can't wait to read more!
 
just sueSurrender02/19/2006 02:39 pm
Wonderful chapter. Am assuming that Spike is still having hs Happy Meals on legs and that it will all come out at some time to explode in his face. Which is such a shame as, with or without intent, he's helped Buffy so much.

Looking forward to more. Thanks ever so.
 
NikkoleSurrender02/19/2006 08:35 am
Very nice update. I don't think it is good for her to trust him just yet, but we will see what happens!
 
lilmamadaySurrender02/19/2006 08:11 am
Great update! I love how Buffy is finding herself again! I just hope that Spike doesn't screw it up!
 
LouSurrender02/19/2006 08:07 am
There's hope for them if they can be honest.
 
MorriganSurrender02/19/2006 06:47 am
Cool chapter.    I wonder when Spike is actually going to start *earning* the other part of trust that she has given him.
 
JackofspikesSurrender02/19/2006 05:47 am
brilliant! I'm all aflutter!
 
akarinacjSurrender02/19/2006 04:53 am
Great Chapter. I´m still curious about Jeremiah...though.? And please, don´t let Buffy find out Spike is killing... if he still is, that is. Please update soon.
 
NemoSurrender02/19/2006 04:09 am
Bitey! Yum! I'm so glad that Buffy trusted him and that she's starting to work things out with Giles. Love the update, can't wait for more!
 
UncagedMuseSurrender02/19/2006 12:38 am
I love this chp! She trusted him not to kill her and then when she woke up the worry that someone had died for the beauty of them was just funny. Excellent and cant' wait for more.
 
vladtSurrender02/18/2006 09:43 pm
wonderful chapter. ending was beautiful. thanks
 
MarzBarSurrender02/18/2006 09:34 pm
Oooooh! Sexy biting!
 
CewcewSurrender02/18/2006 09:22 pm
Loven the read! cant wait for the next update.
 
AthenewolfeGoodbye04/13/2006 09:09 pm
ohhh and the plot thickens... did i mention i really love J - sigh .... i like em a lot ...
 
angelic_amyGoodbye03/26/2006 09:05 am
Fantastic chapter! I loved the confrontation between Spike and Jeremiah. Spike got so jealous! And Jeremiah is such a gentleman. *sigh*

 
LouGoodbye02/13/2006 08:19 am
Oh-oh - this is going to go badly.
 
FiriGoodbye02/11/2006 01:14 am
more please!
 
ShannaGoodbye02/10/2006 09:42 pm
Like the story and I wish you had more reviews!!! Nice story telling and original. I just hope that it doesn't get any darker and Spike comes to his senses before he loses the girl before he even gets her!
I wish I had more reviews, too. heh. Well, I can't really say whether it'll get darker but it's definately not going to get any easier.
 
DeeGoodbye02/10/2006 06:22 pm
I like Jeramiah, although I still don't have him figured out. Friend or fough. You have left him very ambiguous. Great OC.

Thank you, I find myself liking him too. I wanted a friendly OC that you couldn't quite work out what his motives were (if he has any) and that you sort of like, despite wanting Spike and Buffy together.
Thanks for reading.
 
KarynGoodbye02/10/2006 06:17 pm
part of me is like 'kick his ass for lying' and part of me is screaming 'don't tell her, she'll kick you ass'...sigh, i'm so conflicted!
Oh, don't worry, that's how I am too. It's strange, cos you want Buffy to know but you also don't want Spike to get slayed. What a dilemma.
Thanks for reading and reviewing.
 
akarinacjGoodbye02/10/2006 06:08 pm
I just read all the story up to now. I like it very much. It´s different from the others. With a scarred Buffy and a Spike that still kills. (Hopefully he´ll stop soon) I´m very curious of who this Jeremiah is... Please update soon.

Thanks for reading and reviewing. I was kind of hoping to be a bit different I like the idea of an emotionally vulnerable Buffy and Spike who takes advantage of it...then starts to feel guilty.
 
romeroGoodbye02/10/2006 04:01 pm
I'm sorry to see Jeremiah go..I wish Buffy would wise up to Spike's ways.
 
NikkoleGoodbye02/10/2006 03:01 pm
HMMMMM? I see some very possesive thoughts from Spike (yes, I know I am stating the obvious). He obviously feels more than he is letting on. I like where the story is turning and can't wait for more!
 
MarzBarGoodbye02/10/2006 02:10 pm
I'm having a blonde moment. If I reread the whole story, will I find out who Jeremiah is in this fic? If not, I'll keep reading anyway.
Jeremiah is kind of the ambiguous stranger. You can't really pin him down.
 
bloodshedbabyGoodbye02/10/2006 12:48 pm
aw, I like Jeramiah. Awesome chappie!!
 
NemoGoodbye02/10/2006 11:57 am
It was jeremiah! Phew! I was suspecting Angel or someone equally undesirable. That was good, and it made Spike jealous *lol* good sign! Love the update, and I'm looking forward to the next chapter. ~Nina
Thanks for reading.
 
UncagedMuseGoodbye02/10/2006 11:51 am
Great chap and can't wait for more!
Thankyou for reading and enjoying!
 
just sueGoodbye02/10/2006 11:25 am
Wonderful to see another delicious chapter. Will miss Jeremiah and am wondering if the missed opportunity for Spike to be honest will bite him in the bum later.

Thanks ever so and looking forward to more.
Spike's not gonna have an easy time, that's for sure.
Glad you tookt he time to read it.
 
AthenewolfeDance04/13/2006 09:06 pm
OMG who is watching... great chapter - loved the spice girls line - now must have more!
 
angelic_amyDance03/26/2006 09:05 am
He danced with her! *girlish squeal* This Spike is evil, and a lot of the time mean, but I love him to bits! And then the cliffhanger at the end, EVIL of YOU! I wonder who it is…

 
UncagedMuseDance01/24/2006 08:37 am
Oh yeah! I can't wait to know who is watching them. More soon please.
 
KarynDance01/23/2006 11:57 pm
ohhhh, wonder who's watching...lol...bet it's angel, big dorky stalker guy
 
slaymesoftlyDance01/23/2006 09:21 pm
Uh, oh. That can't be good!
 
LouDance01/23/2006 09:13 pm
Trouble with a big T is what's watching them - maybe with a large forehead?
 
MarzBarDance01/23/2006 09:09 pm
I'm glad that Buffy is getting better from her horrendous injuries. What is she going to with Spike and who is watching them?
 
gailleeDance01/23/2006 07:59 pm
Wonderful update. Have to agree with CopyKween; the dialogue is one of my favorite things in this fic. Will be looking for updates. Thanks
Dialogue is my favourite thing to write, actually. So glad you liked it.
 
bloodshedbabyDance01/23/2006 07:57 pm
Spice girls.. *dies* You know what is really sad is that I have that song on my Ipod. Fantastic update!!
That's not sad at all. The Spice Girls were a class act all the way.
 
just_sueDance01/23/2006 07:35 pm
Aww! Scrummy update and I so loving it! Love seeing Buffy starting to get into life again - and seeing her POV was good. Would love to have another peek into Spike's thoughts and motivations right now - never can rummage in that guy's mind enough! And them being watched? Have several thoughts on that - probably wildly wrong - so will keep to self! LOL Will be languishing in an unfulfilled manner until the next post. Thank you so much.
You'll see more from Spike's POV soonish. Thanks for reading.
 
CopyKweenDance01/23/2006 07:27 pm
Ohh....the plot thickens! Great update I love all of your witty Spike dialog!
Thank you kindly.
 
AthenewolfeReconciliation04/13/2006 09:03 pm
*giggles* I loved the reconcilation scene - very lovely!
 
angelic_amyReconciliation03/26/2006 09:05 am
Double aww! The gang had a reunion of sorts! I’m so glad that Buffy made an effort. And that he friends didn’t ruin it.

 
Chanel 5Reconciliation01/15/2006 08:58 am
Great update - keep 'em coming !!!
 
just_sueReconciliation01/14/2006 10:22 am
Cracking update. The reconciliation was handled very well and am loking forward to more - soon I hope. Thanks.
 
UncagedMuseReconciliation01/14/2006 05:49 am
Great! Love that they are trying to rebuild the friendship but I hope she doesn't let them push Spike away.
 
bloodshedbabyReconciliation01/14/2006 04:04 am
aww! Buffy has her friends back! *big cheesy grin* So.. is spike gonna show up? Cos that would be fun.
 
idk5743228Reconciliation01/14/2006 02:56 am
You just keep getting better and better with this story. I always smile when I see a new chapter up.
 
LilachighReconciliation01/14/2006 01:35 am
I like this story so much!
 
AthenewolfeLeap04/13/2006 09:00 pm
uh oh..... runs to next chapter cause all i can do is wonder what will happen
 
angelic_amyLeap03/26/2006 09:04 am
Aww… Oz tried to visit her! That was, the whole conversation, was sweet. As for Spike, out right lying to Buffy like that—he’s going to get himself into a lot of trouble.

 
UncagedMuseLeap01/10/2006 06:26 pm
Love it as always! More as soon as you can please.
 
NikkoleLeap01/10/2006 05:18 am
Very interesting! Can't wait for ht enext update!!
 
Chanel 5Leap01/10/2006 04:25 am
Great update
 
SpaceLordLeap01/10/2006 01:30 am
obviously Spike's definition of the word "no" differs from the rest of the population
 
DeeLeap01/10/2006 12:31 am
great chapter. spike is so lying, but at least buffy is able to make some progress in her life.
 
LouLeap01/09/2006 11:18 pm
She's never going to trust him, is she?
 
ComedyofErrorsLeap01/09/2006 11:12 pm
Very impressive. *applauds Oz* I do hope Spike wakes up soon.
 
idk5743228Leap01/09/2006 09:33 pm
Was really good to see another chapter. This was a good one. I like the changes I'm seeing in Buffy. I'm looking forward to the next update.
 
bloodshedbabyLeap01/09/2006 09:24 pm
Still loving this fic. I get a squee-on when I see it updated. Can't wait for the next chappie!
 
neo_trinityknotLeap01/09/2006 09:04 pm
Always glad for another update.
 
just sueLeap01/09/2006 08:45 pm
Yikes. I'm left wondering which way you're gonna go with this - which is way cool. Thanks for the update and still looking forward very much to more.
 
AthenewolfeDoubt04/13/2006 08:58 pm
OMG I love Jerimiah - he is just the best vamp - I keep giggling and picturing him. If spike is taken can i have J?
 
angelic_amyDoubt03/26/2006 09:04 am
ROFL! That chapter was just too amusing. I really like this Jeremiah guy! He’s great! And the stumbling finish for the chapter was hilarious. Keep up the good work.
 
Chanel 5Doubt01/10/2006 04:20 am
I reckon this Jeremiah sounds alright - there must be some evil plan in action... Great update!
 
NikkoleDoubt01/06/2006 06:32 pm
Ok, Jerimiah falling into the open grave? I was laughing HARD at that one, totally unexpected, good work! I really like this story, still, and can't wait for more! I hope you had a good holiday season!
 
bubble_blunderDoubt12/29/2005 03:02 am
Just catching up after Christmas vacation. Wonderful updates! Who is this guy? More soon, please! -Lisa
 
Confused MuseDoubt12/24/2005 07:59 pm
I'm starting to think Jeremiah might atually be a better bet for Buffy than Spike in this fic - which only goes to show what a great job you're doing of building his character. Good job.
 
sueDoubt12/24/2005 12:58 pm
Brills chappie. So happy that you've updated. I am so enjoying the fic and this bit with Jer in it was superb - nice to see your take on him not having abandoned church too - very novel. Wishing you all good things for Chrimbo. Looking forward to more - thanks ever so.
 
romeroDoubt12/24/2005 02:03 am
Jeremiah is a great character. I laughed at his and Buffy's interaction. I'm looking forward to Spikes thoughts of Buffy and Jeremiah.
 
RichardDoubt12/24/2005 12:33 am
This was hilarious, and classic! I think I'll continue with my mental image of Jeremiah though.
Yeah, good idea. After all - everyone has a different image of characters.
 
idk5743228Doubt12/23/2005 11:58 pm
Thank you for the gift. It was just what I wanted. Please allow me to give you a little something as well. I think your take on Spike and Buffy is just perfect. I also love your character Jeremiah. I would also like to know who you modeled him after. Although I don't believe that Spike will enjoy him that much. Happy Holidays to you.
Thanks a lot, I'm liking Jeremiah too. He's really taken on a life of his own. I based his looks on an actor called Daniel Bess. http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v495/JamesMFan/danielbess.jpg
 
bloodshedbabyDoubt12/23/2005 11:50 pm
OMG, this was funny. I like Jeramiah. Who did you base his character on, looks wise? I need a good mental image.
I'm glad you liked it. Looks wise I guess I kind of based him on this guy http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v495/JamesMFan/danielbess.jpg Daniel Bess.
 
AthenewolfeTrust04/13/2006 08:54 pm
lovely chapter as always!
 
angelic_amyTrust03/26/2006 09:04 am
And another hot chapter. Great smut, but what was surprising was Spike’s internal monologue. He’s starting to care, whether he realizes it or not. Fabulous work!
 
spike_spetslayerTrust12/18/2005 11:19 pm
Wow...need a cigarette after that one...you should post a warning....lol...great update, can't hardly wait for the next one....
 
KarynTrust12/18/2005 07:48 pm
damn, girl that was great! wonderful chapter!
 
ComedyofErrorsTrust12/18/2005 06:28 pm
Fine update. I like Spike's reluctance to give up killing. It's a large part of his persona.
 
SpaceLordTrust12/18/2005 12:25 pm
Great chapter, this is a relly good story with a really nice plot twist with Buffy being the way she is. Makes it real fun to read.
 
sueTrust12/18/2005 11:41 am
Super update. Loving this fic and hoping for more soon. Thanks.
 
Chanel 5Trust12/18/2005 08:54 am
Fantastic update. I liked seeing Spike feelings about how he's treating Buffy in this. At first I didn't like the bit when Spike killed the other girl, then I came to think that it was much more realistic that way, I'm sure it will lead to more angst. Will we see any more of Jer?
I think he'll make another appearance.
 
NikkoleTrust12/18/2005 07:59 am
Oh yeah! Have SPike help her with the goopy stuff! I can see where that would lead to, heh! Great update! Hope to see more form you soon!
 
slaymesoftlyTrust12/18/2005 04:24 am
Ah,more Scars! Lovely update.
 
MarzBarTrust12/18/2005 04:17 am
Thanks for the update. We're lucky your computer troubles have given you a break. Could Buffy get Spike to put the goop on her that will help her scars?
 
gailleeTrust12/18/2005 03:07 am
Great chapter! Keep up the good work. Glad the computer's up. Hope that means more soon.
 
AthenewolfeFriends04/13/2006 08:51 pm
giggles! yep not feeding at all *kicks body under the carpet* - I really am enjoying this story!
 
angelic_amyFriends03/26/2006 09:04 am
GRRR! An intervention, that’s exactly what that was. I can’t believe Xander was stupid enough to try and force her to stay. I almost wish Buffy had socked him one! And then the end of the chapter, Spike draining that girl and dumping the body… I can’t say I’m surprised. But I am a little disappointed.
 
gailleeFriends12/06/2005 05:16 pm
I am really enjoying this story. Hope you can upodate very soon.
 
idk5743228Friends12/02/2005 07:14 pm
Wow, exciting chapter. Glad things are getting better on the computer front. The intervention felt just like old times in Sunnydale whenever Buffy didn't seem to be conforming in the image that the Scoobies felt she should. and I don't think that Spike is quite ready for the conforming either. So, what happens next?
 
bloodshedbabyFriends12/02/2005 05:38 pm
I just love Oz. Great chap and I'm sooo happy you have Word back! That means more chappies soon, right? *looks hopeful*
 
slaymesoftlyFriends12/02/2005 01:56 pm
oooh- Spike is still killing. Love this story for not taking the easy way out.
 
LouFriends12/02/2005 01:51 pm
Methinks Spike is pushing his luck a bit - but he then didn't seem suicidal... more please. Lou
 
RichardFriends12/02/2005 08:28 am
Spike killing that girl, you don't do anything the easy way, do you? Damned ambush. And why shouldn't she resent them? They were friends with the old Buffy but she doesn't exist anymore, and they're trying to impose obligations on her to be like she was. Bahhh. The girl gets disfigured and they still manage to be self-centered. Some friends!
 
~*~Tasha~*~Friends12/02/2005 07:46 am
I keep hoping that Spike will give Buffy a reason to believe him. Him just draining every last drop out of that girl is going to do nothing to help his case. {sighs} Glad your computer is fixed.
 
TaylormaidFriends12/02/2005 07:19 am
I'm still loving this fic! Although right now they ALL need a slap upside the head! Can't wait to see how you proceed!
 
UncagedMuseFriends12/02/2005 05:31 am
Great confrontation with her friends and Spike is still killing! Can't wait to see what is to come.
 
NikkoleFriends12/02/2005 05:01 am
Poor Buffy, and Poor scoobies, and damn Spike! I know it will all work out in the end, but the middle is so fun to read! Great update! I was really hoping to see Spike as a blood whore!! LOL! Keep up the good work!
 
ComedyofErrorsFriends12/02/2005 03:09 am
Going strong, as always.
 
KarynFriends12/02/2005 02:48 am
wow great update....running in circles not sure who to feel more sorry for....lol
 
bubble_blunderFriends12/02/2005 01:51 am
Poor Buffy. Glad to see an update. Looking forward to the next one. -Lisa
 
MarzBarFriends12/02/2005 01:43 am
I see Spike hasn't changed and neither has Buffy. Can it really be only Spike making all the new bodies?
 
SpaceLordFriends12/02/2005 01:22 am
I guess Spike just found a way to get rid of the bodies instead of actually stopping his killing
 
spike_spetslayerFriends12/02/2005 12:44 am
Those damn scoobies and their interventions...at least buffy had the balls to stand up to them and tell them how it was...instead of letting them do what they always did on the show...love this fic, and yes, I voted for you at the VKA! Good luck--you deserve to win...
 
AthenewolfeDeal04/13/2006 08:46 pm
*giggles* Spike as a vamp whore.... pulls out my wallet... now which direction did he go in?
 
angelic_amyDeal03/26/2006 09:03 am
Wow. I can’t believe Buffy is actually open to the possibility that Spike has ‘shades of gray’. He’s so… needy, yet not in a pathetic way. Fabulous chapter.
 
LouDeal11/22/2005 10:00 pm
Great job with Buffy's resurfacing Buffiness! Love Badass Spike!
 
FranDeal11/22/2005 06:14 pm
I don't believe it. In the span of 19 chapters you had Spike going from pure evil to willing to quit killing for a kiss. And it was plausible. You rock. You really have a way with visuals too. I am really enjoying this story. *thumbs up*
hee thanks! That put a smile on my face. I thought you were going to be like "This is impossible! Die!" but you weren't so thank you!
 
spike_spetslayerDeal11/21/2005 01:04 am
Guh, how I love this story...Buffy now with shades of gray, and Spike willing to ho himself out for Buffylove...loners, misfits, wanting and needing so much and can't put their fingers on what...I'm sorry for your continued and endless struggles with notepad, but can I just wish most heartily for more story? and hope that the puter gets fixed like, really, really quick?
They're so tortured and angsty aren't they? The freaks. Thanks for reading.
 
DeeDeal11/20/2005 09:50 pm
I stopped reading this story twice after only 3 chapters because it was a little hard to take and kind of graphic with the burn situation. But, then I told myself to stop being a wuss and give it another try. I am glad I did. This story is very interesting. I love Big Bad Spike way better than that other guy! Looking forward to the rest of the story.
I'm glad you conquered your inner wuss! I try to add a sense of realism to these things and not just try to shock. Although I do love to shock too. Thanks for reading!
 
NikkoleDeal11/20/2005 04:37 pm
I am really enjoying this story. this newest chapter was very good! I am also having a hard time seeing Spike working for blood, but maybe Buffy will start getting jealous of the other humans getting his bite? Or she might just start showing up herself! Who knows! Hope you get your computer fixed soon!
Can Spike be trusted in the first place, though? We shall see.
 
Confused MuseDeal11/20/2005 03:34 pm
Am I an evil person to say I actually like Jeremiah more right now? lol I'm loving the ironic tone of this fic, along with the twisted pain
Not evil at all, I like him more right now too! heh.
 
idk5743228Deal11/20/2005 04:25 am
I love that you are soldiering on, even with computer issues. Excellent chapter. I don't really see Spike in a vamp whorehouse selling his big bite (so to speak) But I'm sure one does what one must. Hope your computer is up and running soon. I'll wait semi-patiently for another great chapter
I do what I can
 
bloodshedbabyDeal11/19/2005 06:05 pm
love your badass spike! Thank you for bringing us another chapter. So very much looking forward to more!!
Thankyou! I'll continue to write like someone on drugs, then!
 
sueDeal11/19/2005 09:35 am
Loved the latest chappie, although the thought of Spike working in the whore house is not too nice. Looking forward to the next chappie and more of this fascinating fic. Thanks.
Spike's a big ho'! heh. I wonder if he'll even get that far... Thanks for reading!
 
CewcewDeal11/19/2005 05:14 am
O yah! geting better and better.More please. 8^)=
I'll do what I can.
 
MarzBarDeal11/19/2005 05:08 am
This story just keeps getting better. Who is Jeremiah? Are we going to find some civilized vamps? I hope you get a new computer or fix the old one so we can have lots more new chapters.
I hope my computer fixes itself, too. Jeremiah will probably be back soon enough.
 
ComedyofErrorsDeal11/19/2005 02:06 am
I love how much more 'Buffy' Buffy is in this chapter. And the repartee with Spike is great. Wonderful deal.
That's the effect I was going for. The Slayer is back in town. So to speak. Thanks for reading!
 
SpaceLordDeal11/19/2005 12:47 am
This is a very interesting story and I can't wait to read the next chapter.
Thank you. I can't wait to have the next chapter done.
 
~*~Tasha~*~Deal11/19/2005 12:37 am
Hmmm ... kiss him when he's earned it ... Buffy is really starting to get more of her snark and spine back. Look forward to what you have on tap for us next.
Snarky Buffy is our friend. Yeah, she's back! Or is she? mwhaha! ahem.
 
AthenewolfeStranger04/13/2006 08:43 pm
Ohh I really enjoyed Jerimah - he was such a great character - hehe and another vampire goes free. Oh well - the council can send help if they care that much about the rise in activity!
 
angelic_amyStranger03/26/2006 09:03 am
Oooh! I liked Jeremiah! Very interesting convo they had going. Great chapter.
 
NikkoleStranger11/18/2005 10:36 pm
I was so happy to see that you had updated! It wasx a very good update. I am curious to see how she will react to him, and he to her, when she gets to the cinema. Very nice conversation between Jeremia and Buffy. I wonder if we will be seeing him again, or if this was a one time thing. Keep the updates coming!
 
ComedyofErrorsStranger11/16/2005 05:06 pm
Great moment between Jeremiah and Buffy. Very funny and enlightening.
Who knows I may start shipping Jeremiah/Buffy! Jeruffy! Or add a bit of Spike in there to make it Jerspuffy! Mmm OT3.
 
~*~Tasha~*~Stranger11/16/2005 03:43 am
Enjoyed the update. Glad to see one. I look forward to reading more. Interesting twist with Jeremiah.
You will see more! Hopefully soonish.
 
slaymesoftlyStranger11/16/2005 12:48 am
I'm so glad you found a way to update this wonderful story. I've been enjoying it and wondering where it went. I hope you find a way to keep it going soon. (Boy, that's a lot of "me,me, me" for a review of your wonderful fic. LOL) sorry!
hehe, that's quite alright. Thanks for reading and taking the time to review. Glad you're liking it.
 
spike_spetslayerStranger11/14/2005 08:35 pm
Guh, I love this story...who is this Jeremiah character? some unknown player-yet-to-be-named? Simply adore that shades of gray comment...you know how to write em...keep those chappies coming, if you can....
Well, he'll probably be popping up in the story again, that's all I can say. Another update a lot sooner than this one, probably. Thanks for reading and reviewing.
 
bloodshedbabyStranger11/14/2005 07:00 pm
Oh now I love this twist!! I like your Jeremiah! Can't wait to read the next chap. sorry about teh evilness that is your computer!!
Thanks, I like him too Yeah, my computer sucks but I'll find ways to defeat it's evilness! Hopefully, have another update soon.
 
idk5743228Stranger11/14/2005 05:09 pm
Glad you're back. Hope the evil computer kinks get worked out. Great update. So what part will Jeremiah be playing in this story? Sounding board for Buffy, I'm pretty sure that Spike won't be taking to kindly to him.
He'll probably be back in some form or other, for what purpose? I can't possibily say And Spike deserves to be a little bit jealous in this story, I think.
 
ChrissieLinnitStranger11/14/2005 12:59 pm
I've missed this story. Glad you've found a way to update. Another great chapter, and one with a difference. This time Buffy gets to question the black and white view she has of good and evil through interaction with a being other than one she's in love/lust with. Interesting.
Yeah, I think it's important that she be aware of the fact that "demon" doesn't necessarily mean "utter evil". I mean, just look at Clem!
 
RichardStranger11/14/2005 10:26 am
Oh man, this is sweet. It's a very funny situation too. I like it very much.
Glad you like it
 
TaylormaidStranger11/14/2005 10:14 am
Really interesting and different story. I'm totally hooked. Can't wait for more!
I'm glad you think it's different, I don't like to be "samey" heh. Keep reading!
 
bubble_blunderStranger11/14/2005 09:28 am
Awesome update! This Jeremiah bloke sounds kinda interesting. Hope you're computer problems get squared away soon, so we can see more of this story. -Lisa
Glad you liked, you'll probably be seeing a little more of him. Not in a naked way though. Probably.
 
sueStranger11/14/2005 08:49 am
A very interesting development. Hoping for more soon. Thanks.
Definately more soon. Cheers for reading!
 
msberryStranger11/14/2005 07:03 am
Jeremiah...hmm...bet Marster's scalp would have appreciated them going that direction ;>> Seriously, I think this story is a very neat, different take on Spuffy and I eagerly look forward to updates!
hehe but he wouldn't be the same without the bleached locks! Thanks for reviewing
 
AthenewolfeDifferent04/13/2006 08:40 pm
nice update! am enjoying!
 
angelic_amyDifferent03/26/2006 09:03 am
God dammit Buffy, your friends care about you! I like that Xander tried. And so did Joyce. But Buffy wouldn’t have a bar of it. I wonder if and when the gang will find out about Spike, and if they’ll still have their meeting even without the slayer.
 
~*~Tasha~*~Different11/08/2005 08:26 pm
Look forward to seeing where you go with this next.
 
DebDifferent10/28/2005 04:37 am
Interesting twist on Buffyverse. Am impressed with the excellent characterization of unchipped Spike. Buffy really is in a dark space within the fic. Hope seems a very fragile for her. I'm rooting for her to overcome her pain. Great heat generated between the two when they get together. Impressive fic...also appreciate the warnings at the sections that are particularly tough (I'm skipping a little through those). Looking forward to additional updates.
Yeah, she's having a hard time of it and that really appeals to me! heh. From a writing standpoint only, of course. I will continue to warn if the chapters get nastier
 
Chanel 5Different10/21/2005 02:22 pm
I hope it hasn't been Spike being a naughty boy, but it will be and poor Buffy, whatever will she do??? bummer about your computer, I hope it all works out soon!
 
LouDifferent10/21/2005 01:01 pm
I'm really enjoying this - I like how Buffy is starting to question herself. I look forward to more.
 
ComedyofErrorsDifferent10/21/2005 12:22 am
Fascinating look inside Buffy's head. I'm enjoy her conversations with Spike, so I can't wait for next chapter.
 
UncagedMuseDifferent10/20/2005 11:55 pm
Very good filler if you ask me. Its going to be so hard waiting for the next chap because I love this fic so much but completely understand the computer problems. I hope it gets fixed soon.
 
spike_spetslayerDifferent10/20/2005 11:39 pm
for filler, that was a good chappie...hope the computer gets fixed soon, so we can read more of this awesome fic...thanks!
 
SpaceLordDifferent10/20/2005 11:36 pm
Hope u get your comp working soon, cause I really like this story so far. It's a nice twist to the Buffyverse without being totally AU.
 
AthenewolfeTalk04/13/2006 08:37 pm
*evil grin* great chapter - here spike is being funny and Buffy is just like I will kill you. Kinda spoils the after sex cuddles!
 
angelic_amyTalk03/26/2006 09:03 am
Spike’s light-hearted banter/taunting was great. It was very in-character for him to go all with the relationship talk! Very nicely done.
 
~*~Tasha~*~Talk10/11/2005 03:35 am
Definitely one twisted story. Very dark. Well written though. I don't read this one always as soon as you have an update (at SR or here) because I need to be in a certain frame of mind to handle certain subjects. I am interested in seeing where you go next with this one.
 
Chanel 5Talk10/08/2005 11:23 am
This is the third time one of my reviews has taken some ecstasy... I don't know. Anyway... “You can't just screw a guy, then threaten to kill him, break up with him, and then steal his clothes. That has to be my all time favourite line ever! I love this chapter! He's so nasty, yet sweet. I think that Spike's ability to be nice while being bad is one his best attributes ;) I can't even pick out the paragraphs I like best cause this whole chapter was sooooo good. More please!!!
 
Confused MuseTalk10/07/2005 10:10 pm
Wonderfully dark and twisted...keep going, please
 
redwulf50Talk10/07/2005 12:42 am
LOL, poor spike all slayer whipped
 
Chanel 5Talk10/06/2005 09:42 am
You can?t just screw a guy, then threaten to kill him, break up with him, and then steal his clothes.
 
SlaymesoftlyTalk10/06/2005 05:23 am
Just stayed up waaay too late catching up with this story. I love it! Reminding us that Spike was still an evil vampire when he cameback to Sunnydale - even if he is harboring feelings he doesn't want to admit for the Slayer, it hasn't changed his basic nature. And excellent job of portraying an unfeeling, uncaring Buffy years before the events of the show made her so.Will be anxiously watching for an update.
 
AthenewolfeNeed04/13/2006 08:34 pm
She is going to kill him after that? I got twenty that says she can't do it. *evil grin*
 
angelic_amyNeed03/26/2006 09:02 am
They did it! *squeals!* This was a fabulous chapter and I am SOOO glad now that I started reading this late so that there’s more chapters for me to read.

 
janeNeed10/15/2005 11:36 pm
Absolutey fantastic I love it.
 
AthenewolfeChoices04/13/2006 08:32 pm
ohhh nice choice - I love this scene!
 
angelic_amyChoices03/26/2006 09:02 am
Hot, hot, HOT! *runs to next chapter*

 
AthenewolfeClarity04/13/2006 08:29 pm
and the plot thickens... lovely! is it bad that now I keep seeing scenes from Secretary. giggles I kieep seeing this happening in my head and it is so fascinating!
 
angelic_amyClarity03/26/2006 09:02 am
I was wondering if they’d tried magic, it’s a shame it didn’t work at all. And WOW was Spike bold in this chapter! Appearing in her room, basically undressing her, massaging the gel into her skin and then showing her just how touching her affected him… just awesome. Great chapter.
 
AthenewolfeWalls04/13/2006 08:26 pm
great chapter- I am really enjoying the twists and turns of this story. I love how Spike is fighting his attraction to buffy and how buffy thinks he is just being cruel.
 
angelic_amyWalls03/26/2006 09:01 am
Buffy’s frustration is totally understandable, I think I’d probably react the same way she did if I were in her position.
 
AthenewolfeTouch04/13/2006 08:06 pm
Wow very powerful! I can't believe that spike just saved the slayer - I wonder how he will try to Convince him self that he hasn't gone soft on this one!
 
angelic_amyTouch03/26/2006 09:01 am
Oh no she didn’t! I can’t believe it. Well, I can, but still with the shock having here! Buffy tried to take her life. And Spike SAVED her! I’m alternating between fish like gaping and little squees. Wonderful chapter.

 
AthenewolfeClash04/13/2006 07:40 pm
ohhh - nice kiss! I can;t wait to see his reaction to that! Great update!
 
angelic_amyClash03/26/2006 09:01 am
Another trap. *sighs* Buffy’s right, Spike’s all with the lazy and getting his minions to do the dirty work for him. I really liked that you didn’t have Buffy be all super-girl and fight them off without getting injured at all. It was very believable.
 
AthenewolfeRemembering04/13/2006 07:35 pm
poor spike is all confused! I love it! I can;t wait to see how there next encounter goes!
 
angelic_amyRemembering03/26/2006 09:01 am
Oh wow, I almost feel sorry for that minion! The flashback was beautifully written. The sympathy I felt for Buffy before is nothing compared to what I feel now. It’s not fair.

 
AthenewolfeEscape04/13/2006 07:28 pm
great emotion from Buffy - this is a really good story!
 
angelic_amyEscape03/26/2006 09:01 am
Okay, gross! Poor thing, being drenched in sewage. *shudders* Nice chapter.

 
AthenewolfeRuined04/13/2006 07:23 pm
wow! intense reaction from Spike! How wonderful to see his feelings portrayed and the depth of feeling and anger that Buffy was feeling!
 
angelic_amyRuined03/26/2006 09:00 am
Oh wow. That was a powerful, intense chapter. Spike’s shock and disappointment was beautifully described.

 
AthenewolfeDistress04/13/2006 07:18 pm
How cruel - not that spike knows that he is being cruel of why buffy cares so much - but still. poor buffy she is so self - consious. Wonder what his reaction will be?
 
angelic_amyDistress03/26/2006 09:00 am
Evil Spike, he’s not going to let her off, is he? Very nice chapter.
 
AthenewolfeContemplations04/13/2006 07:13 pm
Ohhh me likey - what an excellant and evil Spike. He is so commanding I love it! hehe I can not wait to see his reaction to Buffy's scars once he sees them!
 
angelic_amyContemplations03/26/2006 09:00 am
OMG… my earlier mention that Spike was cruel was an understatement! I can’t belive… gah! Speechless!
 
AthenewolfeEncounter04/13/2006 07:10 pm
oh no! Poor Buffy! Spike has captured her - it will be intriguing to see what he does with her. very intresting story - I am enjoying it!
 
angelic_amyEncounter03/26/2006 08:59 am
Evil double crossing Spike at his best. You really encapsulated why you’ve gotta love and hate the vampire at the same time. His taunts were cruel but I wasn’t expecting anything less. Nice chapter.
 
redwulf50Encounter10/06/2005 01:05 pm
Ohhhh bnasty Spike I love it
 
AthenewolfeUgly04/13/2006 07:03 pm
poor buffy - what a lot for any girl to deal with - but buffy is the chosen one - she feels even more helpless - I feel so sorry for her!
 
angelic_amyUgly03/26/2006 08:59 am
This is heartbreaking! Buffy is so shattered by what has happened to her and has literally become a shell of the person she once was. Three chapters and I’m hooked.
 
redwulf50Ugly10/06/2005 12:57 pm
angsty, yumm
 
AthenewolfeFractured04/13/2006 07:00 pm
really intriguing chapter two - can';t wait to see where you take this story!
 
angelic_amyFractured03/26/2006 08:59 am
Nice follow up to the intro. This Buffy is hard and cold, very different to the one we know. I look forward to watching this fic unravel!

 
redwulf50Fractured10/06/2005 12:55 pm
ohhhhh, the plot thickens
 
AthenewolfeBroken04/13/2006 06:55 pm
poor Buffy - what a sad beginning for her. I keep having visions of the craft and the back surgery there. What a horrible fate for te sun worshiping girl Buffy was!
 
angelic_amyBroken03/26/2006 08:59 am
OMG, I had tears in my eyes! I can’t believe I’ve only just got around to reading this fic now! The description from Xander’s point of view was a fantastic opener and really set the scene well. The ordeal Buffy went through at the hospital was horrible.  I’m hoping more about why she isn’t healing despite her Slayer-powers is explained in further chapters.
 
Chanel 5Broken12/08/2005 02:53 am
I just read this from the start again. Fantastic story. And who is Jeremiah? I have lots of questions, please update soon!
 
spuffylovingjessBroken11/07/2005 12:28 am
I just have to say how much I love this story! Very well written, and it has a great premise. This fic may be angsty and dark, but the story has me intrigued. Buffy's insecurities and the whole story with how she sustained her burns is just heartwrenching, and the characterization of your 'big bad', pre-soul, unchipped Spike is spot on. (Oh, and did I mention the smut is HOT?!) Anyway, I'm done gushing now. Great job, and can't wait to read more!
Thanks!! I've never really written an "evil" Spike before, so I was somewhat nervous of going too far in either direction, there - making him too evil or too good. Buffy being insecure about her body, and it affecting her whole demeanor has been something I've wanted to write for a while now, and the smut had to follow of course
 
redwulf50Broken10/06/2005 12:52 pm
excellent beginning
 
bloodshedbabyBroken09/30/2005 11:59 am
More!! *whines* What? I can do that because I KNOW you have it!
 
lynpBroken09/28/2005 05:03 am
Looking forward to more of this story
 
ComedyofErrorsBroken09/27/2005 07:12 pm
Great descriptions of Buffy's life, really setting the tone and mentality. Good stuff.
 
KittenunoBroken09/26/2005 03:46 pm
An amazing and great start. I have so many questions? What happened to the Incinerato Demon in the first chapter? What has happened to the scooby gang? Where is Giles? Will they make an appearance in later chapters. So many questions...need answers!
 
ComedyofErrorsBroken09/26/2005 07:11 am
Interesting concept. I'm enjoying it and would like to see more.
 
MarzBarBroken09/24/2005 07:59 pm
OW!! What a miserable existence for the Slayer. I've had 3rd degree burns and still have scars and will never forget. I hope some angel (not Angelus) will come along and help her heal. More please.
 
DreylinBroken09/24/2005 07:14 pm
Nice start. I like the flow, and Buffy's POV is well done. I'm curious to see where you take this.