The Bloodshedverse :: Spuffy with Bite

Now You Decide - Now You Decide

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(I wrote this poem Feb. 2, 2002. I posted it to a mailing list I'm on. I was told it was sweet. I'd like an honest opinion, since I don't write poems often.)

Now You Decide

So now you decide to say hello
When before you never would say good bye.
Now you want to see me,
But just days before you acted as if you never knew me

What day did you decided,
When did you realize
That I actually existed?

Two days ago I was beneath you
Now you want me to hold you up.
I never know when you'll change,
One day I'm loved,
Next day I'm dead in your eyes.

What day did you decide,
What made you change your mind,
When did I become something you would love?

Today you want me
Tomorrow will be another story.
When I cry you close your eyes
When you weep you expect my world to stop.

When did you decide I was good enough,
What day did you decide that you loved me?

Because today is the day I decide to hate you.

Finishing the letter, Buffy clenched her first, crumpling the paper. She
quickly turned and slammed her front door. She didn't want anyone to see the tears fall from her eyes.