Gone
"I told you, stop trying to see me." Buffy to Spike, Gone
What would I do if I were invisible for a day? Gone taps into one
of my favorite childhood fantasies. I spent many enjoyable hours
contemplating what mayhem I might cause if no one could see me and
hold me accountable for my actions. Obviously I have something in
common with some of the residents of Sunnydale.
"It was an episode about the dangers of trying to escape from
life rather than deal with it - essentially the arc Buffy's been
going through all season." (Jane, 9-Jan-2002)
Buffy's having a rough year. She's still suffering from the effects
of the resurrection spell. She's not meeting the economic responsibility
of her household. She's not handling her responsibility for Dawn's
welfare. She's not reconnecting to her friends. She's not managing
her non-relationship with Spike. All of these things converge to
overwhelm her in the opening scene at the Summers house. Within
a few short minutes, Buffy fails to meet the needs of three of the
most important people in her life: Willow, Dawn, and Spike.
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"Before Buffy can grow up - in other words accept and balance
her life and responsibilities - she has to accept her LIFE. Period."
(Les, 9-Jan-2002)
She confronts herself in the mirror. In a fit of guilt and self-loathing
at what she sees there, she hacks off her hair. Later, she tells
her hair stylist, "Just make me different." Suddenly we're immersed
in one of the core themes of the Buffyverse: the difficulty of perceiving
what's real and authentic. Buffy is both tired and scared of being
Buffy. She's tired of the very adult responsibilities that have
been laid on her shoulders: earning a living, paying bills, monitoring
Dawn's schoolwork, helping her addicted friend, and maintaining
a romantic/sexual relationship. She's afraid to be seen for who
she really is. What does her attraction to Spike, that "evil thing"
say about who she is? If her friends really understood her, would
they love her? Is she no longer full of love, but hardened inside
like the First Slayer? Is she out of control like Faith?
Then, when Buffy's suddenly zapped into invisibility by the Troika's
ray gun, it suits her perfectly. The Troika are stuck in a state
of arrested adolescence. None of them have been capable of the hard
work necessary to sustain a real romantic/sexual relationship. So
they plan to use the invisibility ray to spy on nude girls. If they
can't have a real relationship, they'll manufacture one through
voyeurism and deception. This is just another shortcut they take
in order to obtain things of value without working to get them.
In her newly invisible state, Buffy is suddenly free to explore
just how much she has in common with them. Instead of working through
her problems in the real world, she can retreat into a world of
games and illusion.
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"Serious things are happening and she's acting like a teenager
with no responsibility, and she's not that anymore." (Ancient Lady,
9-Jan-2002)
It's interesting that Buffy wants to do two things when she's invisible
and the controls on her behavior are lifted: she wants to solve
her problems with Dawn, and she wants to be with Spike. She takes
a very Troikalike shortcut by tormenting Doris, Dawn's caseworker.
ME is rarely kind to bureaucrats and authority figures; Buffy's
treatment of Doris is no exception. But what Buffy fails to realize
is that she's only delayed the inevitable. The caseworkers will
keep coming. She has cheated to get herself another chance, but
she hasn't fixed the underlying problems that are threatening her
guardianship of Dawn.
She also manages to do further harm to her relationship with Dawn.
While Buffy jokes around with pizza boxes, Dawn gets right to the
heart of the matter: "How can I talk to you when I can't see you?"
Dawn knows that Buffy isn't really present in her own life. Dawn
recognizes that Buffy is still going through the motions and that
she'd still rather be dead. She desperately wants her relationship
back with her sister. She's tired of being ignored as if she's the
one who is invisible.
In After Life, the hitchhiker ghost taunts Buffy that she's "barely
here" and that she "won't even disturb the air"' when she dies.
Now she's literally invisible. But Buffy's not ready to handle the
ugly truth Dawn has exposed. She's upset at Dawn's outburst, but
she lets Dawn run away. She just doesn't know how to bridge the
gap that yawns between them.
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"Spike seems to see himself as an important relationship in her
life, even if Buffy can't yet…and is trying to play that role as
fully and best he can. When Buffy tells Doris that Spike is not
her boyfriend, he looks up at her in the pause as if to say, 'What
would you call me then? What would you call the role I play in your
life?'" (Les, 9-Jan-2002)
Buffy's encounter with Spike is strikingly similar to her encounter
with Dawn. Buffy's clearly conflicted about her relationship with
Spike. When she's invisible and "free of rules and reports," she
heads over to Spike's crypt for sexcapades. She's revealing that
he is someone essential to her and someone that she desires. But
circumstances and perceptions keep her from him and the reality
that he represents. She only feels comfortable being with him if
she can separate it from what she perceives her "real" life to be.
She insists on framing her liaison with Spike as something that
is not real, when it may be the most real thing in her world.
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"Buffy's recovery lies not, as she believed in Wrecked, in staying
away from Spike, but in regaining the will to live. Intriguingly,
this is the very message Spike has been giving her." (Melissa, 12-Jan-2002)
Spike sees right through her. He knows that her desire to be free
of life is unhealthy. Buffy is frustrated and annoyed by his perception.
Spike is a teller of truths in Buffy's life. It's one of his important
roles. He has told her that she shares the Slayer death wish, but
that her friends and family tie her to this world. Spike is now
in the category of friends and family, even if Buffy isn't ready
to see it. He is one of the ties holding her to the world, but the
more she tries to define him as an escape, the more she prevents
herself from reconnecting to the world. Her invisibility will lead
to her death, and Spike knows that, even if he isn't aware that
she's literally turning to pudding.
Spike scares Buffy. It's scary to be seen. Spike's unique insight
into Buffy has been established since Lover's Walk. Even when she's
invisible or uncommunicative, he can read her. Buffy's not used
to this in a relationship. Angel and Riley never really understood
her. But Spike sometimes seems to know Buffy better than she knows
herself. She's betrayed truths to him, most recently about her sexual
nature and her lack of a connection to life. That's giving him a
power over her that she both desires and fears.
She knows Spike thinks they are "birds of a bloody feather," and
that's a truth she's not ready to acknowledge. How can she be a
good person if she's like an evil vampire? It's all too complicated
for her childlike approach to life. Spike just wants Buffy to be
Buffy. He can understand both the woman and the Slayer. But Spike
challenges too many of Buffy's fundamental beliefs. She instinctively
remains blind to him in order to protect herself.
Spike wants Buffy to acknowledge and understand him. This is one
of his deepest desires. But Buffy keeps using the same two responses.
Sometimes, he is the "evil, disgusting thing" that she denigrates
(Crush, Smashed). Occasionally, she is silent when he pursues the
point (The Gift, Gone). Buffy is only capable of admitting to seeing
Spike as he was. When she's confronted with the fact that Spike
has changed, she can't acknowledge it.
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"Twice he stopped before spelling out what he expected from the
relationship. At some point, he's going to have to. She's not going
to figure it out for herself." (Ancient Lady, 9-Jan-2002)
Spike also wants Buffy to acknowledge that they are in a relationship.
In Wrecked, Buffy ordered Spike out of her life and then retreated
to her childhood bedroom armed with the crosses and garlic to ward
him off. But Spike knows that adult relationships aren't that easily
severed. He reminds her that she's "let him in." He's involved with
Dawn, with her friends, and with her work. These are ties that bind.
If Buffy truly wants to sever the relationship, there's going to
be pain. A fiat won't do it. This isn't a mistake easily blotted
out with an eraser. Spike is the mature voice of an adult who understands
how messy and complicated relationships can be. Buffy just wants
to cheat her way through it. Dawn runs away from Buffy, but Spike
is strong enough to throw her out.
The confrontations with Spike and Dawn (as well as the evidence
that she's turning into pudding) push Buffy to a realization. She
doesn't want to die. This is a first, important step to her recovery.
There's a life wish inside her yet, and one that may well have been
kindled by Spike's stubborn refusal to let her slip away. It will
be interesting to see if this epiphany translates into positive
action in future episodes.
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"Most of the evil in our world is banal and offhand." (Ancient
Lady, 9-Jan-2002)
"It's shown this season that humans are displaying monster qualities
as well." (Bluemuse, 11-Jan-2002)
We wouldn't be doing the episode justice without a quick look at
our two other main storylines: the Troika and Willow. Warren is
beginning to reveal that he's capable of fairly significant evil.
He was quite willing to let Buffy turn to pudding and even to accelerate
the process. Andrew and Jonathon have been playing a game, but Warren's
actions in Gone are making it feel far too real. There's no coming
back from threatening to rip off Boba Fett's head. Warren's walking
that thin line.
Willow continues to battle her dependency on magic. Judging from
the numerous bottles of water she's consumed, her lack of interest
in food, and her physical exhaustion, the Metaphor!Fairy is hitting
the audience pretty hard with the drug addiction parallels. Willow
exhibited a fairly typical addict mentality when she immediately
wanted to use Xander's quite understandable question about her role
in Buffy's blinvisibility as an excuse to fall off the wagon. She
doesn't see that she needs to repair the trust she's broken with
her friends. There was no hint of Willow's true underlying issues
with self-image, self-esteem, power, and control. In fact, Willow
got to take a spin as the hero of this episode, since she saved
Buffy from a fate worse than pudding. We can only wonder when the
time will come that Willow really has to pay the piper.
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Memorable Moments from Gone:
1. Xander's coining of the word blinvisible
2. Spike's shockingly hot chemistry with thin air
3. Buffy's appallingly bad attempt at mocking Spike's accent
4. Xander's apparent deafness, blindness, and lack of olfactory
nerves (dare we say his blobliviousness?) when he finds Spike in
bed doing pushups
5. Warren's identification of the Troika as Buffy's arch-nemesises…ses
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