Disclaimer: I own nothing but the ending…
Spoilers from; Graduation Pt 2; This Year's Girl; Who Are You; Five By Five; Sanctuary; and The Yoko Factor
Dedication: To Zetta, a good friend and because she asked for a poem for Sanctuary.
To Kendra…always a support…and a friend. And to all Buffy/Angel lovers and our hope of seeing them together.
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Faith’s point of view…
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I think back on what I did
And what will haunt me every day.
Tell me how to make it better.
Please tell me what to say.
The things I have done
I never can take back.
My guilt - my guilt is drowning me.
Thinking of friends I did attack.
Revenge was my close companion
In that sleep of lonely nights.
All the blame I put on my sister slayer
And my hate rose to greater heights.
So when I awoke, I did not tarry.
I took her face and all she held dear.
Now I - I have the mother, friends and lover
And I left her with nothing but fear.
I used them all for my own pleasure
But was caught in my own deceit.
I didn’t know that love and hate
Were emotions destined to meet.
Then she took back what I had stolen
And I ran from the look of hurt in her eyes.
Ran to the man who had left her broken
And let more pain compound the lies.
So we three were back together
Surrounded again by pain, envy and love.
And once again I came between them.
Another thing I am not proud of.
So again it ended badly
And from each other they did turn.
But one good thing came from the ashes
And from my mistakes I did learn.
Peace – peace is what I am looking for
Peace of mind, of heart and of soul.
I have taken the first step – so they tell me
On the way to being made whole.
Peace – I will find it.
And my being it will infuse.
So then the hand of friendship
From no-one will I refuse.
Go to My Heart's Dilemma