Rating: NC-17
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Pairing: Faith/Xander, Buffy/Graham, Angel/Willow
Summary: Angel gets dumped and a friend wants to help him get over her. Things happen but not what was intended.
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~Part: 1~
Angel rolled over again trying to find a comfortable spot in the bed. He had been trying to go to sleep for the pass two hours but it was hard being a vampire and trying to go to sleep when it is only eleven o’clock at night. Angel was tired of trying to will himself to sleep every night. He should be out trying to help save the world from demons, other vampires and other things that went bump in the night but no he is home as she requested in bed trying to figure out what went wrong in his life. He turned onto his back again and looked up at the ceiling. This was the beginning of another long night.
***
Angel opened his eyes and groaned as he heard the front door being closed in the living room. He had just gotten to sleep about thirty minutes ago and now he had to start all over again. He listened as she walked into their bedroom and kicked off her shoes. He peeked at her as he heard her yawn before she went to the dresser drawer and pulled out another new nightgown to change into.
Angel watched her change and thought back to the times when she used to sleep naked. That’s why she had so many new nightgowns. She never used to wear them before, but now he couldn’t get her to sleep naked to save his life.
Angel just laid there looking and listening, he didn’t move because he didn’t want her to know that he was awake and that meant he didn’t have to say anything to her. It wasn’t really bothering Angel anymore that they barely talked at all because he couldn’t remember the last time they talked in the past couple of months without her yelling at him and he was not in the mood for it tonight.
Angel watched as she walked into the bathroom and he heard her brushing her teeth. He knew it was about five in the morning by now and he definitely knew she wasn’t out all night working as she always claimed to have been. He watched her come back into the room and then he felt the bed dip as she laid beside him like she had every night since they moved in together but lately she didn’t even touch him and each night she seemed to move further and further towards the edge and away from him. She doesn’t even touch him now; she just turns her back to him and pulled the covers over her without a hug kiss or even saying good night.
Angel laid perfectly still, then suddenly it hit him again, that smell on her, that smell that has become very familiar to him in the past four months. The smell of another man's scent and she had taken a bath somewhere else to try to cover it up. Angel just closed his eyes and lightly shook his head. He continued to lie there until he knew that she was asleep before slowly getting up out of the bed. He found some pants and put them on then headed towards the door.
Angel needed to think and the only place he could do that was in the front room on his new favorite couch. He looked back at his sleeping lover as he closed their bedroom door. Angel could feel the tears in his eyes but he wasn’t going to cry…no not tonight. He was going to be a man..er vampire that he is and he would definitely have to have a long talk with her tomorrow and if she snapped or yelled at him it didn’t matter, he wanted answers.
Angel had already come to the conclusion that their relationship was going downhill fast. She was definitely cheating with another man but whom? If Angel really knew it or not he had already come to realize long ago that he really didn’t want to know who the other man was. He just wanted her back.
Angel sighed as he sat further down in the couch and tried to figure out what went wrong in their relationship. He didn’t know; was it him? Was it her? Did she want to be free? If so why did she come to him and want to be with him after Angelus was gone? He knew it was hard on everyone after his return but at least he was trying to make it up to her and everyone else he had hurt when he was Angelus.
Angel almost cried again at the thought of another man pleasing his lover. It wasn’t right that she would cheat on him like this. Angel took a long and unneeded breath; he had to think about something else before he started to cry. Angel focused and rerouted his thoughts to something more pleasurable and the only way to do that was to reminisce about the past when they were each other's soul mates. Angel had to think about when they didn’t fuss and fight and they got on well. He didn’t have to think long before he felt better and had fell asleep as usual.
***
Ten o’clock the next morning Angel awakened still on the couch when he heard her enter the kitchen to make her morning coffee.
He took an unneeded breath, as he pushed himself off the couch. He walked slowly into the kitchen but didn’t speak at first, he was *almost* too shocked to talk. His eyebrow arched as he observed the way she was dressed. She wore a too short skirt, with a tight tee shirt that barely touched her skirt. And when she moved to open the refrigerator he could see her belly button.
As Angel contiued to stare he stopped after noticing what he was doing and shook his head to shake away all thoughts of desire . It wouldn’t help the situation to talk to her with a raging hard on. He looked further down to her boots that came to just up to her knees. Angel remembered the times she used to dress like that for him when she was out to seduce him but he knew she was dressing like that for another man now.
Angel was so far in his thoughts that he didn’t see her when she turned around and spotted him watching her.
“Good morning sleepy head,” she greeted as she switched the coffee pot on.
“Good morning Buffy,” he replied.
Things were definitely different between them. There were no more good morning kisses or hugs. Angel thought back to when they used to go to sleep and wake up in each others arms. At that time he thought that there was no other love like theirs. He thought he had found his soul mate for life but he guessed he was wrong. He watched her as she poured the coffee in the cup.
“How were things last night?” he asked already knowing what she had been up too but he played it as he had for the past couple of months. He was hoping it was a phase she was going through and she would remember where her heart was. Angel always thought about following her around to see who the other man was but it would hurt him more if he actually found out that she was sleeping around. He had even thought about sleeping around himself but changed his mind. Angel knew he could get another woman but Buffy was his heart.
“Things where definitely *up* last night,” she told him as she put the sugar and cream in her coffee.
Angel tensed as he felt that she wasn’t talking about the vampire activities. How could she just talk to him like that? What was wrong with her? He looked at her and decided not to say anything considering that comment because he could be wrong about it. He knew if he did say something she would just get mad and stop talking to him again. He was actually glad that they had talked for five minutes and she hadn’t yelled at him yet. Angel was beginning to think that she might be changing already but it was too soon to know for sure. So he decided to test his theory and see if it was true about her changing around.
“So….mmmm….are you going somewhere today? If not….I thought that we could…you know spend the day together since it’s has been awhile,” he suggested. He watched as Buffy brought the cup to her mouth for another sip. Angel was getting happy because he thought she was actually going to say yes. It has already been too long since he felt her and he needed her but it wasn’t his decision. He watched as she put the cup down to speak.
“Nope….can‘t….Giles wants me in the library to research and that will take all day then I have to patrol tonight,” she told him.
Angel sighed and looked at the floor. He was wrong about her. She still didn’t want to spend any time with him.
“Anything I can help you with?” Angel offered his assistance looking back at her. He already knew she was going to say no that’s all she has being saying to him lately. No you can’t go…no we can do this…no we can do that. After the last time he tried to touch her she almost broke his hand off by how hard she hit it away. Since then he didn’t ask or try to get anything from her. It would be her decision if she wanted him and he was willing to wait until she was ready again.
“I think the gang has it,” she told him as she took another sip of her coffee.
Angel nodded. After a couple minutes of silence Angel couldn’t help it anymore he had to ask. He wanted to know what was wrong.
“Buffy what’s wrong with you?” he asked.
“Nothing?” She answered not looking at him.
“Nothing I can’t tell,” he spoke.
“What do you mean Angel?” She asked getting a little upset with him.
“Are you seeing someone else Buffy?” he blurted out before he had a chance to stop it.
“No,” she replied quickly.
“Don’t lie to me, you reek of him almost every night and we haven’t made love in almost five months,” he confessed his feelings to her.
“Speak for your self,” Buffy spat as she turned to set the cup down.
Buffy had turned and set the cup down so fast; she didn’t get a chance to see the pain that went through Angel. That really hurt him to know that she had indeed been making love to another man.
“Why Buffy? Why would you sleep with someone else? I love you,” he told her. “And I thought you loved me.”
“I do lo..…I care for you Angel,” she explained how she still cared but also letting him know that she didn’t love him anymore. Buffy couldn’t help the last comment; he was really beginning to get on her very last nerve *again* and it just slipped out.
Those words cut through Angel like a stake to his heart. She was not in love with him anymore and he felt that this was the end of the world for him. He could feel the blood tears well up in his eyes but he refused to let them fall in front of her.
Buffy looked at Angel then back to the floor. She thought about it. She could go ahead and tell him what was wrong or she could lie to keep down trouble.
{Maybe I can give him a little bit and that should shut him up for a while} she thought. {No I don’t think so. It’s time for the truth} She agreed with her self.
Angel took an unneeded breath and waited for her to talk.
“You want to know the truth Angel?” she asked feeling it was time to tell.
Angel thought about it for a second. Did he really want the truth? His heart was already broken after finding out she doesn’t love him anymore and she has confessed about sleeping with someone else. So she really couldn’t say anything else at this moment in time that could shock him. After he came to the conclusion that he needed to know he nodded.
“Look Angel you were my first and I loved you I really, really did but you can’t give me the things that I want, you can give me the things that I need….like” she tried to explained as she looked into his eyes ready to stop the whole conversation when she saw just a hint of pain there.
“Like what?” he asked wanting to know.
“Daylight walks, children, going to beach when the sun is out, and………….,” she looked at the floor really not wanting to say it.
“And what Buffy?” he asked. “That can’t be the only reason. You knew I couldn’t have children or go out in the sun when you found out I was a vampire.”
“I can’t tell you Angel,” she spoke.
“You can Buffy…I need to know what would make you go and be with another man,” he explained.
{Should I tell him?} She thought. {I might as well}
“Buffy,” he almost yelled getting impatient.
“Orgasm,” she spat. “You can’t make me have a God damn orgasm.”
Angel was wrong about his earlier thought. He thought that nothing else she could say would shock him but he was shocked again at what he just heard. In all his 240 plus years he had never had a problem pleasing his women and he was for damn sure that he had pleased Buffy…..hadn’t he? If he didn’t she was a good pretender because she always acted like she enjoyed it.
“Orgasm?” he asked confused as he looked at her. “Are you saying that I never satisfied you?”
“No you have never made me cum.”
Angel didn’t know what else to say. She had just told him that he couldn’t make her cum. That was something he couldn’t believe. “Then why did you ask for sex so much?” he asked.
“I didn’t want to hurt your feelings. I tried everything Angel. I read books on helping me get you to my spot without just telling you and I talked to people about it and most of them said it could be me and not you.”
{Them? How many did she talk to?} He thought.
“But you didn’t talk to me,” Angel replied.
“I know and I should have talked to you Angel but what was I going to say? Hey! Angel how about you do this to make me cum or how about you do that because you are just not satisfying me,” she spat.
“Not so vulgar but you could have talked to me about it. I would have being willing to try something new just to satisfy you and you know that,” he explained.
“I know but I didn’t want to have to tell you that when you should already know,” she told him.
Angel shook his head he couldn’t believe the way this conversation was going.
{I should have known that she wasn’t satisfied} he thought.
He took an unneeded breath he needed for this conversation to go another way so he thought about it before asking, “So……..what is his name?”
Buffy looked at Angel and thought about should she tell him. She had indeed loved him at one point in time and she never wanted to hurt Angel not after all he has been through. But to tell her now ex-lover about her new and damn good lover was plain not comfortable.
She looked up at him and took a breath. “Graham,” she finally confessed.
Angel thought about it for a second before asking because that name sounded so familiar. Too damn familiar if he would say so.
“Isn’t that the guy I meet at the library about a year ago?” Angel asked as he thought about the time when they all had been researching when Buffy and Graham walked into the library after patrolling. Buffy had told them that he was an old friend and he had been attacked and she had saved him.
“Yes,” she answered looking down at the floor again.
“You two weren’t dating then were you because if you were then I really feel like a complete ass because I believed your story about saving him,” he told her.
“No. He was really attacked that night but then a couple of months later I ran into him again and…,”
“And you decided to fuck him,” Angel said before he had a chance to stop the words from coming out. {Damn it} he thought.
“You weren’t doing it right so I…” she stopped and took a long breath. “Look Angel I am not going to argue with you today things are already out of control as it is,” she told him as she got some of her anger under control.
Angel nodded and asked the one question he thought he would ever be asking his lover, “So Graham satisfied you when I couldn’t?”
“He does, very much?”
After that answer if Angel would have been Angelus he would have ripped her tongue out and made her eat it just for the hell of it. Angel could still feel some of Angelus in him and he wanting him to let go of that anger and rip her open and let every vampire in the Sunnydale feed off of her. Instead of doing that he just closed his eyes and calm the inter demon.
“So I guess it was me then,” he spoke with his eyes still closed.
“Yes it was,” Buffy answered.
“Then why did you stay with me if I couldn’t satisfy you and you didn’t love me anymore?” he finally asked while opening his eyes after a long pause in their conversation.
“Like I said before because I didn’t want to hurt you Angel. You had been through so much in the past.”
“Well thanks for worrying but you are hurting me now,” he said sarcastically.
“I’m sorry Angel.”
Sorry, was that all she had to say for breaking his heart? He couldn’t believe he has wasted almost two years with this women and she acts like it is alright to go and sleep with another man.
“So what are we going to do now?” he asked. Buffy just humped her shoulders and shook her head identifying that she didn’t know.
Angel didn’t know what to do up to this point. He wanted to know the truth and he guess he got the truth. He looked at her, she was his heart and he was still willing to try to make it with her.
“I am…..still willing….to make this right if you are …I mean if you are willing to try this again and be faithful this time,” he suggested.
Buffy held off for a second she didn’t want to hurt Angel anymore but she knew what she was going to say next would rip him apart. She didn’t want to try it again. This was the second time around and she didn’t want to do the third strike and you’re out deal. Buffy also thought about Graham, she didn’t think she could stop seeing him anyways he was just too addictive. She almost cried to herself as she spoke, “Graham and I have been tal….talking about living together for a couple of….of weeks now….and….”
“And what?” he asked.
“And I think it’s a good idea and it’s probably best that we do move in together since everything’s out in the open now,” she confused.
“But I love you Buffy,” he spoke trying once more to see if she would understand how much he cared. “I know you still love me. Love just doesn’t go away over night.”
“No it doesn’t but it’s been years Angel. I was with you for two years and wasn’t sexually pleased and I still loved you.”
“Then what happened?”
“A couple of months ago my love for you faded. I couldn’t take it anymore. I got tired of pleasing myself. That’s when I started dating Graham to see if it was me or you.”
Angel was almost in tears. He looked at Buffy and she seemed unaffected by the conversation. She seemed almost happy to him.
“Buffy,” he called out making her look at him. “Do you love him?” He asked.
“I really think I do,” she confessed.
Angel only nodded. He was willing to give it another chance but he has doubts about that now. He couldn’t trust her and if there is no trust then you can’t love. In their case it was only a one sided love. He walked off without another word and headed back to their….well his room now. Buffy followed him and watched as he lay down on the bed. She just walked in and went to her closet to pack up her things.
***
Two hours later
“Angel,” Buffy called out as she packed her last bag. He hadn’t said anything or even acknowledged her presence. He just lay in the bed and looked up at the ceiling as she walked around and gathered her things.
“Yes Buffy,” he answered from the bed. He wasn’t really in the mood for talking. She didn’t love him anymore and she didn’t want to be with him so what was the reason to start talking now?
“I am sorry things happened like this. I just want to be happy,” Buffy told him as she placed her last bag on her shoulder.
Angel turned his head to the side and looked at her.
“I understand Buffy. If Graham makes you happy then go and be happy. That’s all I ever wanted was for you to be happy, even if it is with another man,” Angel almost broke down with that last statement.
Buffy smiled, “I knew you would understand. Could we still be friends?”
{She still wants to be friends after ripping my heart out. I could say no and just leave it like this or I can say yes and maybe get her back one day} he thought.
“Yes we can,” he answered. “Nothing could ever take our friendship away,” he spoke.
“Thanks Angel,” she told him as she walked out of their room but this time she would not return. Angel finally let the tears fall when he heard the front door close. Today was a truly a bad day for him. He just lost the love of his life and that was enough to make a 240 plus year old vampire cry.
~Part: 2~
"Ah come on Wil's my mouth is right here and you tell me that you can't hit it," Xander told her as he opened his mouth again.
"I'm trying," Willow wined. They were sitting across from each other at the table in the library. "It is hard to throw popcorn that's as light as air, across the table."
Willow grabbed another kernel of popcorn from the bowl and squared her shoulders. She raised her hand and threw it. It bounced a little off his nose and landed in his mouth.
"Score," Willow cheered.
"Now that's how you do it," Xander told her as he ate the popcorn.
"Ahem," Giles cleared his throat making both Xander and Willow jump like children that had got caught with their hands in the cookie jar. "That is not considered research," he told them as he removed his glasses to clean them.
"Sor…ry…Giles," Both Xander and Willow sung in unison as they looked down at their books again.
"Just taking a two minute break," Xander told Giles as he looked as if he wasn't going back into his office.
"Alright then two minutes are up so lets get to work on finding out about this prophecy," Giles told them.
"Yes sir," Xander told him.
Xander looked at Willow who was trying to suppress her laughter. Xander then mumbled, "Slave master Giles." Willow giggled and covered her mouth.
Giles shook his head, turned and walked back into his office. Willow and Xander waited for Giles to shut the door before looking at each other and laughing.
"Hey Wil's are we going to that fair next week?" Xander asked giving Giles a little time to get back into researching.
"I don't know. That is kind of middle school isn't it?" She told him. "Fairs are mostly for the younger generation."
"Yes it is…I just wanted to go for the food," he explained.
"True…me too. But if you and the others want to go then I'll go," she replied.
"Ok I will ask them. Now where were we?" he asked. "Giles should be back in research mode by now."
"Round 3," Willow told him.
"How is that round three you only got one popcorn in my mouth you have to get one more in first," Xander explained. As Willow prepared to throw another popcorn but stopped when Buffy walked into the library with Faith.
"It's the two magnificent slayers," Xander announced.
"You better know it," Buffy quipped.
"Hey Willow….Xander," Buffy greeted them both.
"Hey Buffy," Xander responded but ignored Faith by grabbing a book to pretend to read.
"Hello, Buffy…Faith," Willow greeted the slayers.
"What's up girlfriend," Faith acknowledged then looked at Xander who was looking like he was researching hard. "And Xander," Faith addressed him making him look at her. She blew him a kiss, which made his eye twitch. Both Buffy and Willow smiled knowing about Faith and Xander's night of sex. It hurt Willow at first but now it was nothing. She wasn't his first and it didn't bother her anymore. It was Xander's loss that he didn't see her for who she was.
{I hate it that she knows she gets to me. My God that was one night of hot sex} Xander thought as he nodded at Faith. After thinking about it too much he felt himself began to harden. He jumped up letting the others know he had to go to the bathroom.
"You want to patrol with me tonight Willow?" Buffy asked as she sat next to Willow.
"Sure," Willow answered as she looked up at Buffy. Willow frowned she didn't know why but she felt that something was bothering her friend and she wanted to know what.
"B gotta go to the bathroom," Faith told them as she walked in the direction Xander had taken.
"Sure," Buffy replied looking at one of the books on the table.
"Buffy are you alright?" Willow asked once she knew they were alone.
"Not really but I'll tell you about it when we go patrolling tonight," Buffy told her.
"No problem," Willow told her as she continued researching.
~~~*~~~
Meanwhile in the men's bathroom. Faith walked in. She knew Xander was inside. He jumped as the door opened.
Xander looked at her and grabbed a paper towel to dry his hands. He wanted to run away again as he saw how Faith looked at him as she slowly walked in.
"Look Faith you don't have to tease me anymore. It was one night and you have proven to me that was all it was," He told her as she backed him up into the wall.
"You think," she replied as she reached down and grabbed his cock through his pants. Just touching him made him harder than he was a couple of seconds ago. {Oh God} he thought.
"You don't think that I can't have you when I want you?" she told him as she zipped down his zipper reached inside his boxers and grabbed his cock in her hands.
Xander shook his head but didn't answer.
"You think not…well you are wrong," she told him as she leaned up to his ear. "You want to know something Xander?" Faith asked as she nipped at his ear.
Xander squeaked out a yes as she continued. Xander wanted to grab her and take her right there but Faith had played him in the past and he didn't know if she was serious this time or not. It did shock him because this time she was actually grabbing him before when she played with him she would just talk about it.
"I had a good fight last night and I didn't have anyway to get rid of the stress afterwards," she hissed.
"Oh…really," he squeaked again as she gripped him harder.
"Oh yeah and I am ready to get rid of it right….now," she spoke as she pumped his cock in her hand.
Xander moaned as her hand teased him. "I don't think…," Xander started to say but moaned again as she dropped down on her knees faster that he could respond and took him into her mouth.
Faith pulled back and looked up at him, "Good don't think just feel," she told him as she once again took his cock into her mouth. She started out slow then began to move fast.
Xander couldn't believe it. Her hot mouth on his cock was about to make him cum too soon so he started thinking about other things. {Baseball, hockey….yeah…Oh God more tongue…no no soccer…yes baby right there….God….football is great}.
All thoughts of fighting were gone when she released his balls from his pants and grabbed them as she kissed and licked the underside of his cock.
"Oh God," he moaned as she started pumping him with her hands bringing him closer to orgasm.
Faith stopped her torture not waiting him to cum. She stood up licking her lips. Xander shivered at the thought of where her lips just were. She took off her pants and panties and walked up to him again. She was hot and wet and she wanted him now.
She pushed him back up against wall and told him to slide to the floor. She then sat down on his cock taking him inch by inch. They both moaned as she began to ride him hard and fast, no love making here just looking for a release. Xander almost screamed as she brought him to orgasm fast at the same time Faith threw her head back and moaned as she felt her walls clamp down on him as he filled her with his seed.
They stayed in that position for a couple of seconds before Faith looked into his eyes and smiled and he smiled back.
"Mmmm…that was fun," she told him as she kissed him on his lips before getting up and grabbing her panties and pants.
Xander could only nod as he tried to calm down. Faith looked into the mirror; she splashed some water on her face and grabbed a paper towel to dry the water off. She fixed her lip stick and smiled as she looked at Xander who just stood to fix his clothes but was now leaning on the wall.
"I'm out Xander. Call me tonight," she told him as she walked out of the bathroom.
Xander only nodded again making her smile as she closed the door.
~~~*~~~
"Hey B…gotta run," Faith spoke as she walked past Buffy and Willow.
"Everything's ok?" Buffy asked.
"Five by Five," she told her as she walked out the library doors.
"You know what Willow," Buffy stated.
"What?"
"I will never understand what that five by five means," Buffy giggled.
"I don't even think she knows what five by five means," Willow responded as they both laughed and went back to researching.
Five minutes later a very flushed Xander walked back to the table.
"You alright Xander?" Buffy asked as Willow looked at her best friend.
"Yeah…peachy," he told her as he grabbed a book off the table. He wasn't in a bad mood he just hates that Faith could do that to him.
"Peachy?........looks like to me that Faith took advantage of him in the bath room," Willow mumbled making Xander blush.
"No wonder she was five by five," Buffy teased.
"Quiet up you two," Xander spoke as both Buffy and Willow burst out in a fit of laughter.
"Don't need to be ashamed it's just sex," Buffy teased between laughter.
"I am not up for going there with you Buffy," Xander spoke.
"Yeah Buffy he's not *up* for going there with you," Willow spoke making Xander think she was speaking up for him. "He was already *up* enough for Faith earlier," she teased as they once again starting laughing and making Xander blush and grab a book.
"Ahem," Giles finally spoke come out of the office again.
"You know they have cough medicine for that," Xander told him.
Buffy and Willow were trying to suppress their giggles but weren't doing a very good job of it.
"I just came out to tell you it's eight and you should be off to patrol Buffy," Giles explained wanting to get them out of the library. He knew they weren't researching with all that laughter.
"Eight…already," Xander jumped in. "Man I have to go and….and," he didn't want to say he had to go home to call Faith.
"Wash Faith off him," Willow mumbled to Buffy but loud enough for Xander to hear it. The girls once again started laughing.
"Enough," Xander cut in as he grabbed his bag. "You two will *feel* my wrath when I have a good come back tomorrow."
"You should *feel* fine because we already know that Faith already *felt* you enough," Buffy spoke and they fell about laughing again. Even Giles couldn't hold back a chuckle.
"Not you too Giles," Xander told him as he walked out the library.
"So Buffy," Giles spoke up to try to stop some of the laughing between the girls. "You go patrol and meet me back here tomorrow."
"You don't want to know anything about tonight?" Buffy asked.
"Not really. I only want to know if you run into a demon or something else. I doubt you would run into a lot of vampires because their activity has been down lately."
"I know. I guess they are tired or making minions for me to kill," she agreed. "Ok then Bye Giles," Buffy said as both she and Willow stood to grab their bags.
"Be careful," he stated.
"We will," Willow answered as they made their way out of the library.
~Part: 3~
"You what?" Willow almost yelled as Buffy told her about moving out from Angel's today as they walked through the cemetery.
"I told Angel he wasn't satisfying me and I left," Buffy explained.
"Well it's about time anyway. You and Graham had been sleeping together for months now," Willow told her as they sat down on the tombstone.
"Girl you just don't know what that man does to me," Buffy expressed as she looked at Willow.
"Angel or Graham, I am really lost on way the conversations keeps changing here," Willow stated.
"Graham," Buffy answered rolling her eyes. She looked at her best friend and knew she was concerned about Angel. "Look Willow I know that you and Angel are friends and you don't want to see him hurt. It's not like I meant for it to happen this way but Angel is a big boy and he'll get over it."
"And how do you know that?" Willow asked.
"He has an eternity to find someone and I don't," Buffy explained as she looked at her best friend and her line of questioning. "I only have one life to live but he has several and has already lived several."
"That's understandable but what did you tell him exactly?" Willow told Buffy after noticing the look.
"I told him he doesn't give me orgasms," Buffy told her.
"Okay, that was a little harsh you know, Buffy," Willow told her.
"No it wasn't it was the truth, you always told me to tell the truth didn't you?"
"Yes I have but why didn't you talk to him about it. Maybe you two could have worked something out. Maybe you could have told him what you liked," Willow advised.
"Could have but I didn't, instead I went out looking and I found Graham and that man has an amazing body. It is just right for me. Angel was just too big I guess and that's all he has is size and nothing else," Buffy confessed.
"So what are you saying Angel is above normal?" Willow giggled.
"Way above," Buffy laugh. "That man should have been a horse."
Willow looked at Buffy and thought about when she had been with Oz and he had pleased her with a little advice here and there then once he got it he didn't have any problems getting her where she needed to be but she guessed everyone is different.
"I'm bored. Are you are ready to go home or are you coming to my house for a little while," Buffy asked seeing that it was a slow night for vamps. She thought about it and she might as well go home and goof off instead of standing out here in the cold.
"I'll come over as long as you have Ben and Jerry there," she told her.
"For sure…you know that our two favorite men are there," Buffy told Willow as they walked towards her house. The walk home was kind of quiet but Buffy knew that Willow was probably thinking about a way to stop Angel from hurting.
As they walked into the house Buffy went into the kitchen and got the strawberry ice scream, two spoons and bowls.
"Willow…...girl……Graham doesn't even have to touch me good and I am coming," she told her as she scooped some of the ice scream into her bowl.
"Little more information than I wanted to know especially when I am about to devour my favorite ice cream," Willow spoke as Buffy picked up a pillow and threw it at her. Willow ducked the pillow and laughed. After Buffy got all she wanted Willow took the ice cream from Buffy and scooped herself some in the bowl and resealed it.
Willow was getting ready to comment but the door opened and Buffy's new man walked in.
"Hi baby," Buffy called out as she saw Graham walk into the front room.
"Hey baby….hi Willow," he spoke before bending down giving his girlfriend a kiss.
"Hi Graham," Willow spoke.
"What are you doing?" He asked Buffy as he sat beside her.
"Just eating some ice cream and telling Willow about Angel and me today," she told him as she fed him some of the ice scream.
"Ok," he spoke when he swallowed. "So what do you want to do to celebrate tonight since you are home earlier," he asked as he winked at her.
"For what," she asked.
"For our first night we don't have to sneak around anymore," he told her.
Willow snorted as she watched the two. How could they want to celebrate breaking someone else's heart? She ate some more of her ice cream and listened.
"I don't know. Do you have anything planned?" Buffy asked.
Graham reached in his pocket and pulled out what looks like tickets.
"What are these?" Buffy grabbed them from him and read them.
"Graham! Do you know what these are?" She expressed excited.
"Yes I do," he told her with a smile on his face.
"This are plane tickets to New York for two weeks," she spoke after reading the time of return compared to the time of departure.
"Yep and there are four first class at seven in the morning."
{WHAT…A trip NOW} Willow thought. {I guess to forget a man, you go with the man you cheated with and leave for a vacation} Willow stood after to last thought to put the bowl in the dishwasher and the rest of the ice cream back into the refrigerator.
"I can't go" Buffy stated.
"Why not?" Graham asked already knowing why she would say no. Buffy was a vampire slayer and she was needed here but there was no slaying needed to be done lately and it didn't seem to be picking up anytime soon.
"Giles won't let me go," she expressed sadness.
"Yes he will and I have already asked and he approved" he told her he looked at Willow as she walked back into the front room and sat opposite them.
"Why would he approve it?" Buffy asked.
"Because there is hardly any vampire activity and he said it will be good for you to get some rest," he told her about his earlier visit with Giles.
"That's great…but," Buffy stopped mid-sentenced when she thought about it.
"But what?" Graham asked wanting to know what the problem was know.
"There are four tickets in here."
"Me and you, Xander and Willow if they want to go," He explained as he looked at Willow. "We all could use a break."
"That's true…..so do you want to go Willow?" Buffy asked her best friend.
"I don't know Buffy, you know the whole scared of flying thing I have… maybe Xander wants to go and he could ask Faith," Willow explained.
"I know about that. Xander's is afraid too but I'll call him then both of you can be scared together," Buffy told her.
"If Xander goes would you?" Buffy asked.
"I don't know I might but…just call him and see," Willow told her.
"Great," Buffy said as she stood and walked up to the phone and dialed Xander's number. "Hello….Xander….yeah this is Buffy….would you like to get away for a while?…..you would……do you want to go to New York with Graham, Willow, and me…….you do…..good………..two weeks…..when do we leave….tomorrow at seven…..on a plane……………....come on Xander it's going to be fun you don't have to be scared of flying anymore……………….ok..….you'll meet us here…..that's no problem," Buffy hung up the phone and looked at Willow.
"Well Willow, Xander is going and he said he will meet us here with a parachute, Buffy told her.
"Parachute?" Graham asked.
"Yep that's what he said." Buffy told them. "He said it's just a precaution just in case he has to jump."
Buffy looked at Willow as she sat back down next to Graham. "Do you want you go Willow?"
"I want to go but can't," Willow told them.
"Why not," Buffy pouted.
"Parents home….Dad wants to do the father, daughter thing you know… and the flying thing is all too much for me right now," Willow lied about the parent thing.
"Yeah he has been that way since we are almost finished high school," Buffy told her.
"I know and since it's the summer they have been home more," Willow explained. "So call Xander back and tell him to ask Faith to go with him."
"Are you sure? It won't be any fun without you," Buffy tried to get her friend to go.
"Hey! What about me?" Graham said as he sat in silent the whole time.
"You know it's going to be fun in a different way with you," Buffy explained as she slid over and sat in Graham's lap. "It's going to be you," she kissed him and pulled back, "me," she kissed him and pulled back again, "and the hot tub," she kissed him and this time Graham replied by pulling her up against his now growing erection and groaned. Buffy began to unbutton his shirt not really thinking about Willow on the other couch. She couldn't help it Graham had that effect of her.
"And that's my cue to leave," Willow spoke to herself as she saw Buffy and Graham weren't going to stop. She stood and moved towards the door.
"Oh…God…Buffy….yes," Willow heard Graham moan as she closed the door behind her. She shook her head and headed for home. {That will play in my mind all night. I probably won't get another orgasm this year.} She giggled as she walked down the road.
~~~*~~~
Willow didn't even get into the house good enough when she heard her phone ringing.
"Hello," Willow walked over and answered it.
"Hey Will's," Xander greeted.
"Hey Xander. What's up?"
"Are you sure you don't want to go before I ask Faith," Xander asked on the other side of the phone.
"I am sure Xander go ahead and ask Faith," she told him. Willow really didn't want to go with them.
"Ok," he told her.
"Alright Xander. I have to go I am getting another call," she told him as she heard the beep.
"Okay…Bye Wil's."
"Bye," she spoke as she clicked over to the other line.
"Hello," she answered.
"I just wanted to see that you got home safe and sound," She heard Buffy say on the other end of the phone.
{She actually had time to think about me…I'm impressed} Willow thought.
"Yeah Buffy I am here safe and sound."
"Why did you leave anyways?"
"Crazy question Buffy. Why would I want to stay and watch you and Graham….you know?"
"Yes it was a crazy question. I am sorry girl but you know…" Buffy started to say but was cut off by Willow.
"Yeah, yeah yeah, I know, I don't know what that man does to you," Willow teased.
"Better know it," Buffy told her. "Well I just called to tell you bye and we will see you in a two weeks if I don't get a chance to talk to you in the morning."
"No problem. Just remember to bring me back something."
"I will…oops gotta go it's time for round two."
"Way too much info Buffy," Willow stated. "See you when get back."
"Alright girl bye," Buffy moaned and then hung up the phone.
"That's it for my orgasms for the next ten years," Willow joked to herself. "It just might be a little peaceful around here," Willow said to herself as she went upstairs to her room.
~Part: 4~
Willow didn't really do anything for the first night alone but stay home and go into some of the chat rooms on the net.
The second day she had helped Giles and they didn't get any further than when they started so she went home and slept a little.
Willow had offered to help tonight also but he said that he didn't need any help so she was stuck at home alone as usual. Her parents just left and went out of town earlier today. Like that was something new. And now Buffy and the rest of them left she was kind of bored now.
Willow was about to go into another chat room when it hit her she had to go see Angel. She really needed something to do and going to cheer him up would be her good deed of the day. She had been to Angel's house before, but when Buffy was also there.
{The heck with it} she thought. She and Angel were good friends and she knew how it hurt when the one you love leaves you. She had lost Oz to another werewolf so it was no big deal to go and visit a hurt friend.
Willow quickly dress and headed for Angel's house.
~~~*~~~
Once she made it there she really didn't know if he was home or not. He had to be because it was still about an hour until sunset and she doubted that he would go into the sun. Then panic hit her. {God I hope he didn't} she thought as she hurried up to the door to knock.
"Angel," she opened the door and called in. She had knocked at least five times the panic still rising as she hoped he wouldn't do anything like walk into the sunlight.
"Angel it's…Willow," she called as she walked to the bedroom. Willow stuck her head in the room and saw a big lump in the bed.
"Angel," she called quietly as she walked over.
The lump seemed to move and a very demon eyed Angel looked at her. She jumped but then his eyes went back to the brown color when he knew who she was.
"Rua?" He called out. "I'm sorry."
"Yes it's me," Willow spoke as she smiled at the nickname he had given her. "Can I come in?" She asked as relief washed over her. She was thankful that he hadn't done something stupid.
Angel didn't answer her at first. He wondered was she there because of Buffy. Then he saw that Willow was worried about him. He could see it all over her face.
"Yes," he finally agreed.
Willow walked into his bedroom and looked around. To her from the looks of things Angel hadn't moved from that spot in three days.
"How are you Angel….ok…not a good question," she answered herself. "Well…ummmm…….Buffy told me everything and I came by here to see how you were doing because I know that it can be hard and I don't think it was right," Willow babbled out.
Angel almost smirked at Willow babbling, "I can't say I am fine but I do feel a little better than two days ago," he told her as he sat up then Willow could see the blood stains on the sheets.
"Are you sure you are ok? Are you cut or something? There is a lot of blood Angel," she asked making him jump a little.
"I am not alright. The blood is only my tears….I have been crying," he sighed as he sat on the end of the bed and Willow sat in the chair in the room. "So she told you everything?"
"Yes she did and I think it was wrong," she expressed.
"Did she tell you that she was sleeping around and she broke my heart?"
"Yes she told me about Graham a couple of months ago…but…but I couldn't tell you Angel and you know that."
"I know Willow. I am trying my best to get over her but it is hard," he told her.
"I know Angel. I really know. I didn't think it was fair but…but I couldn't tell her to what to do," she spoke trying not to sound like a complete idiot.
"It's alright Willow. This is not your fault. The only thing I want to know is why me? She sends me to hell, and I came back, she cheats on me and I was still willing to take her back….what is it am I….," he stop talking as he began to cry again. He couldn't hold it any longer.
"Angel I wish I could help take aw….," Willow was cut off as he kneeled down in front of her and laid his head in her lap.
Willow began to stroke his head letting him cry. She knew it was hard, she wished someone would have held her like this when she and Oz broke up. She had cried every night for a month before she got over it.
With what seemed like an eternity Angel finally pulled back blood stains on his face and her dress. Willow wiped a tear from his face. "I know Angel," she told him. "It hurts."
"I am sorry about your dress Willow," he told her as he sat back on the bed. He couldn't believe that he had just cried on her like a little boy.
"It's ok Angel. I have more dresses I just want you to feel better," she smiled at him and he smiled weakly back as he sat back on the bed. To Willow Angel looked like he hadn't moved or fed since Buffy left.
"I do feel a little better….so where is she now?" he asked. Willow felt sorry for Angel and pissed at Buffy for making him suffer like this.
"New York for two weeks with Mr. Perfect," Willow snorted. "She asked me and Xander to go but I declined and Xander asked Faith."
"Why didn't you go?"
"Didn't want to. For some reason I don't think it's right that she is enjoying her new relationship so soon and I didn't want to go and watch her enjoy it." Willow tensed not knowing how he would take the last statement.
"It's ok…..as long as she is happy."
"What about you what about your happiness Angel?"
"I don't deserve it after what I have done in the past. I don't deserve a woman like her."
"You do," She told him getting a little angry. "You have suffered enough for what you did and that's why I tried my hardest to find that spell to permanently anchor you soul. I did it for you and Buffy and look what that has gotten you."
"It's not your fault Willow."
After a couple of minutes of silence Willow finally spoke, "How about I take you to the movies tonight?"
"Huh," Angel replied not really hearing her.
"How about I; Willow take you, Angel to the movies. I know that you don't want to go to a public place or be around anyone but to tell you the truth the sooner you get out the better," she advised.
"That's a nice suggestion but…"
"But nothing. I know it takes time to get over someone but you can't sit here and cry over her forever," Willow told him as she looked into his eyes. Angel could see the seriousness in her and he knew she meant well.
"I don't want to get over her, I love her Willow. I just want her back," he told her wanting to cry again.
"And I loved Oz I didn't want to get over him but I did. You have to get over her trust me if she wanted to stay here or try to make the relationship right she would have," she told him getting more pissed at her friend. "Look Angel the movie is dark and it is going to be quiet being a Tuesday night. I am not going to leave until you go to a movie with me."
Angel continued to look at Willow in shock as she continued. "Now get up and get dressed …but make sure to take a bath. I don't think you have in a couple of days," Willow teased holding her nose.
Angel laughed for the first time, "Ok…I would be honored to have a beautiful woman like you to take me to a movie."
"It would be my pleasure," she bowed her head at him. That's all she wanted was to him to be happy.
"So what do you want to see?" he asked.
"There is a new Romeo and Juliet movie out," she suggested.
"Urggggg….a chick flick…my first movie in years and it's a chick flick," Angel chuckled as he stood up and walked over to the closet and pulled out pants.
Willow smile at him, "Angel I need to stop for a quick change myself before we go. It should be dark in a couple of minutes."
"No problem. I'll be right back," he told her as he walked out and into the bathroom.
Willow didn't sit still she looked around to find a closet and opened it looking for some more sheets and pillow cases. She found some and walked back over to the bed and replaced the bed linen. Willow gathered the dirty sheets and took them to the washer and put them in, added some washing powder and closed the machine.
Willow walked back into the room and got a comforter and spread it on the bed. As she did this she didn't know that Angel had watched her for a couple minutes from the door way. He didn't know why but she looked beautiful to him.
{No, Angel. You can't use Willow as the rebound women} he thought as he watched her body move. {Very nice though} he thought.
"Thanks," he spoke as he walked in the room.
"You're welcome," Willow replied as she looked up at him. He was dressed in his usual black pants and a white shirt that was open and giving her a great view of his chest. His hair was wet and mussed and he looked good.
He smiled as he saw Willow watching him. "So you do that for everyone or I'm just special; Rua?" he teased. She just didn't know that the shower had done him some good.
"Only for you," she told him.
"Ready to go," he asked as he finished buttoning up his shirt and got his coat.
"Yep," She replied. Night had fallen and they walked out of the room and to Willows house for a quick change. They then headed for Sunnydale Movie Theater.
Angel wouldn't feel right if she paid for anything so he did and after the movie he took her out to eat and then he walked her home for the night.
~Part: 5~
The next night Angel was sitting in his front room reading when he heard a knock on the door. He stood to go answer it.
"Willow!" he said in shock not really expecting to see her. He thought it was a one night time to try to make him feel better, which it did because he was no longer crying over Buffy.
"Shocked to see me?" She asked.
"As a matter of fact I am," he told her as he gestured her inside.
"Well I told you that I wanted to make sure you felt alright."
"I really do. Thanks for last night," he told her as they sat on the couch.
"You're welcome. So….ummm…what are you doing tonight?" Willow asked.
"Nothing but reading," he told her.
"Well then I brought Ben and Jerry over."
Angel lifted his brow at her. He could have sworn that she was alone.
"Are they outside?" He asked.
Willow looked at him and fell into a fit of laughter. She couldn't help it. He looked so lost and cute when he asked that.
"No silly," she told him after calming down some. She set the bag down on the floor in front of her. "This is Ben and Jerry," she held up a container of ice cream.
"Oh," was all he said.
"Would you like some?"
He looked at her funny. "You know that I don't eat but…."
"I know…..you told me last night that you don't too often but you can if you wanted too," she told him as she stood to go into the kitchen. Angel followed as she grabbed two bowls and two spoons. Willow sat everything down on the counter and opened the box and scooped out some.
"Look Angel you have really missed the snack ages. So I want you to try this and tell me what you think," she told him as she held up a spoon full of her favorite strawberry ice cream to his lips.
Angel looked at Willow as he opened his mouth slowly and tasted the ice cream. Willow watched as he opened his mouth and tasted the ice cream {I wonder do those lips taste as good as they look} She thought and shivered. As Angel tasted the ice cream, he closed his eyes and his nostrils flared.
{She can't be… getting aroused by this} he thought as he opened his eyes and saw the way Willow was looking at him. {If she isn't…..I am… God she is beautiful}
{He is handsome…now I know what Buffy was so crazy over…..Ok…..Bad Willow} she thought as she took the spoon away slowly but didn't move from her spot in front of him.
Angel looked at Willow and smiled. "That tasted good," he spoke her breaking the trance.
"Good," she squeaked. "So let's have some Ben and Jerry and watch 'Legally Blond'," she suggested. {I think he knows I got turned on by that….Damn teenage hormones} She thought getting a little embarrassed. Angel was a handsome man and it has been a long time for her. She had just got caught up in the moment.
"Legally Blond, What is that?"
"It's another chick flick but I think you'll like it," she told him as she finished fixing their ice cream and putting the rest in the freezer.
***
Two hours later Angel looked down at Willow as she slept. He smiled as he got up from the couch and turned off the television. He really did like the movie. Angel looked back at Willow he didn't know if he should wake her so she can go home or let her sleep in his bed. He decided to let her stay so picked her up carefully and carried her to the bed after laying her down and covering her up Angel grabbed a pillow and went back into the front room and laid back down on the couch and fell asleep.
***
Willow woke the next morning a little lost as to how she got back home into her bed. She looked around and noticed that she wasn't in her bed.
"Oh God. I fell asleep," she spoke panic as she looked around for Angel.
She stood and walked out of the bedroom.
"Good morning Rua" Angel spoke from the kitchen scaring about 10 years off Willow as she tried to sneak out.
"Hiya Angel….ummmm…sorry about falling asleep on you last night," she tried to explain as she walked into the kitchen.
"It's ok before Buffy I didn't have much company. I like having sleep overs," He told her as he took a cup of coffee and sat it on the table. "Now come and sit down so you can eat."
Willow didn't notice at first but Angel had cooked her some eggs and toast, and had made some coffee.
"Thanks," she said as she sat down to the table to eat. She felt a little bad about falling asleep but she knew he was alright with it.
"You're welcome," he told her.
Willow ate while Angel sat at the table reading the paper.
"So how did you sleep?" he asked laying the paper on the table.
"Good you have a comfortable bed. I could stay there for days without moving," Willow said without thinking, {Stupid, stupid} She thought as she just thought about what she said. "So…ummmm…where did you sleep last night," she asked as she ate a slice of toast.
"On the couch," he told her.
"I am sorry Angel I didn.." she started to say. "It's ok Rua trust me I have slept on the couch plenty of nights lately." Willow noticed that Angel was using her nickname more lately. The way he said it always made chills go down her spine. She nodded as she continued to eat.
Willow and Angel talked while she finished her food then she told Angel she had to go. He seem to be a little disappointed but cheered up some when she said that she would be back that night full of energy.
~Part: 6~
Later on that night Willow skipped as she walked to Angel's house. She didn't know why but she was happy because this was a chance for them to really get to know each other.
Willow walked up and knocked. She heard Angel tell her to come in. She opened the door slightly and walked in.
"Hey Rua. How was your day?" He asked as she walked over to the couch and sat beside him.
"It was ok. I talked to Giles and he wants me to help him tomorrow for a while at the library," She told him. "How was yours?"
"A little lonely but I am good," he told her.
"So what should we do tonight?" She quickly added not wanting him to go back down the Buffy path.
"How about shopping for some of this snack food you were talking about?"
"You want to go shopping for snacks? Well….well Angel you might actually become hip to our times yet," she teased. "You only need a computer now and then you are in."
"Are you teasing me?" He asked standing up looking down at her.
"Yes and what are you going to do about it?" She jumped up and stood firmly in front of him looking into his eyes.
"Nothing but get my coat and come like a good vampire," he spoke looking down at the floor letting her know she won their little game.
"That's right," she teased as she grabbed his hand and pulled him outside.
***
They walked to the store talking about nothing important. Once they were inside the store Angel grabbed a shopping cart and followed her around.
"Does that really taste like pizza?" He asked as Willow picked up so small pizzas that that looked like bread to him.
"Yes it's just smaller and individually wrapped," she explained.
"If you say so," he told her as he placed them in the cart and followed her around the store.
After Angel paid for the groceries they walked back to his house and put them away. Since his house was closer. He then walked her home just to make sure she made it home safe.
"Oh great," Willow spoke as she walked up to the house.
"What is it?"
"My parents are home," she told him.
"Are you going to be alright? You want me to come in and explain things to them?"
Willow lifted her eyebrow and looked at him.
"What?" he asked.
"Thanks Angel but no thanks," she told them. "My parents would not understand a handsome man walking me home well after midnight and the only thing we did was go shopping," she explained.
"Good point," he answered seeing her point. "Well I'll see you tomorrow."
"I'll try. You know Giles wants me to help research."
"No problem just come by when you can," he told her.
"I will," she replied as she walked up to hug him. It shocked Angel a little at first but he hugged her back.
"Bye Angel," she told him as she let go and walked up to her house.
"Bye Rua," he replied as he watched her go into the house before walking back home. Neither one of them noticing Willow parents looking out of the window.
~Part: 7~
The next day Willow woke up around five at night. She didn't know why but she was tired after last night. She got up and took a quick bath then got dressed. She had left the house so fast that her parents didn't get a chance to stop her.
On the way to the library Willow stopped off to get something to eat from the deli. She got a sandwich and something to drink then headed for the library.
***
"Did you find anything Willow?" Giles asked about three hours into researching.
"Nope….nothing….nada….," she told him wanted to leave after about three hours of researching for something that neither one of them understood.
"Oh..okay…just keep looking," he told her as he walked back into the office.
"Great," she mumbled as she typed some more on her keyboard.
***
Angel on the other hand was going crazy. He was feeling lonely again and Willow was the only one to make him better. He stood and grabbed his coat and headed for the library he had to see Willow.
***
Giles looked at his clock it was after midnight. He walked back out of his office and looked at Willow. She seemed tired and he said that he would let her go home.
"Are you ready to go Willow?"
"Yeah…The only thing I find out about was something about special night, ring or jewelry, daylight, that's all I have been able to come up with," Willow told him.
"At least it is a…." Giles stopped talking as the library doors opened and Angel walked in. Giles was surprised to see him. Angel hadn't been to the library in a long time. Giles felt that it was because of Jenny but he was over her now.
"Hello Angel," Giles greeted making Willow turn to see Angel walking in.
"Hello Rupert," he greeted back.
"Angel what are you doing here?" Willow asked as Angel walked up to her.
"Lonely," he whispered as he walked passed her so that only she would hear. Willow smiled knowing that he had come to her to find something to do.
"I came to see if you all needed any help," he lied to Giles.
"Thank you very much but I was getting ready to take Willow home for the night," Giles explained.
"I…I can walk her if she doesn't mind," he offered.
"No problem Angel I don't mind," she quickly jumped in.
"Are you sure Willow?" Giles asked.
"Yeah....I feel safe with Angel," she told him as she shut down the computer. "Come on Angel," she spoke as she got her book bag and walked out of the library.
***
"So you were lonely?" Willow asked as they walked towards her house.
"Yeah I am used to having someone around to talk too," he expressed.
"I understand," she said. They walked in silence, Angel feeling better with just being around her. They were quiet until they reached her house.
"Damn it….don't they ever go to sleep?" Willow cursed as she walked up to her house seeing the light on in her mother's room.
"Don't you think they worry about their daughter out all times of the night?" Angel asked.
"No not really. They didn't worry about leaving me home alone as soon as I was able to take care of myself."
"That's sad Willow. I would kill to have a child but…we all know that I can't and never will," Angel spoke.
"Have you ever thought about adopting?"
"Yes when I married Buffy but that dream is gone," he explained.
"It doesn't have to be," she told him.
"I know but I don't want to do it without…..," he stopped talking. "Lets' change the subject," he told her.
"Okay…so what did you do today…duh you sleep," Willow joked as they walked up to the house and all of a sudden her parents' light went off. "I guess they're sleep now."
"Probably is," he said looking back at Willow. "Anyways I sleep most of the day," he told her. {And thinking about you} he thought.
"That's good," she spoke. "Well this is my stop," she told him from the top of the porch.
"Yes it is," he told her as he looked at her. "Will I see you tonight?" he asked her.
"Yeah," she said as she put the key in and unlocked the door. She walked in as Angel began to walk away.
"Angel," she called out.
"Yes Rua," he answered making Willow smile. She really loved when he called her that.
"Pick me up after sunset if you don't mind," she suggested. "My parents should be gone by then."
"No problem," he told her.
"Thanks," she said as she walked in and closed the door.
Angel smiled and walked off.
{Take it easy Angel. This is Willow your ex - girlfriend's best friend. You can't go having feelings for her} he thought as he walked home.
***
Willow smiled as she walked up to her room and began to undress for bed. He was doing exactly what she wanted him to do. Be happy and not think about Buffy.
~Part: 8~
Willow woke around two in the afternoon by her stomach growling. She got up and dressed and went down stairs to fix something to eat. Once Willow ate she went back into her room and got online looking around for nothing just trying to pass the time.
"I told you. She has to be," Sheila said as she and Ira looked out of their bedroom.
"We are going to have to talk to her tonight before we leave," he told her as they walked downstairs to watch a little television and wait for Willow to come down.
Twenty minutes after sunset.
Willow had just taken a bath and brushed her teeth. She was dressed and decided to wait downstairs for Angel.
As she stepped off the last step she saw her mother and father looking like they were asleep. {Damn it…..don't they know they're supposed to be gone.} She thought as she decided to sneak past them.
"Willow Rosenberg," Ira called.
Willow almost jumped out of her skin. "Ummm…hey mom, dad…well gotta go."
"No you don't young lady. Sit down and talk," he explained.
{Not tonight} she thought as she walked back to the couch and sat beside her mom.
"Willow honey we are worried," Sheila started.
"About what?" Willow asked.
"Well…you being out all times of the night," she stated.
{You never cared before} Willow thought. "Mom you know that I help out at the library," she told her as she looked at her mother.
"But isn't everyone gone?" her father asked.
"Yeah…why……I still have to help Giles and the other students," Willow explained.
"That's the problem we don't think you are helping Giles or the other students," Ira told her.
"Well who do you think I am helping?" Willow asked.
"You tell us. For the past two nights this man that looked way too old to be a friend walked you home," Ira told her.
{He's older than you think} Willow giggled to herself. "Angel…well Angel is just a friend that ummm…helps me with ummmm ..I just ran into him the past two nights and he asked to walk me home."
"A friend?"
"Yes," Willow told them.
"Is he at your school?" Ira asked.
"No he is a college student," Willow lied not ready to tell them he was a vampire. They think she helps tutor at the library at nights.
Willow didn't like the way her parents looked at each other after that last statement.
"Willow…..are you…you know having sexual intercourse?" Ira asked.
The question shocked Willow to the point she almost busted out laughing. {Yeah right like I am going to say….yes dad I sleep with a werewolf and now I have bad nasty thoughts about my best friend's ex the vampire} she thought.
"Willow," Ira called again.
"No dad I am not. Angel is just Buffy's ex that I am just trying to cheer up because SHE HURT HIM BY SLEEPING AROUND ON HIM," Willow yelled.
Willow parents looked at each other again. Had she just yelled at them?
"Ok young la…," Ira words were cut off but the doorbell.
Willow got up and walked to the door opening it. She smiled as she saw Angel on the other side.
"Hi Angel," Willow greeted.
"Hello Willow," Angel spoke as he looked at Willows' father walking up behind her.
"So this is Angel?" Ira asked as he walked up on Willow without her knowing.
"Hello sir," Angel greeted. "Yes I am Angel."
"Well I am Willow's father and she won't be able to go anywhere tonight," he explained making Willow very embarrassed.
"Daaaadddd," Willow wined.
"Dad nothing now say goodnight to your friend and come back inside," Ira instructed.
"Okay," Willow said as she walked out of the door.
"Bad night?" Angel asked.
"Yeah parents tripping because they think we are sleeping together," Willow explained.
"I heard. That's why I came to the door once I heard you yell," he told her.
"They make me so mad sometime," Willow express.
"Well I better go," Angel told her.
"No…...just meet me in my room later they are supposed to leave in a few anyway," she told him.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes…..the door is already open," she told him as she walked back into the house.
Her parents looked at her as she sat back down on the couch.
"Look Willow we just want to know that we can leave you here alone and don't have to worry about you being with boys and in his case men. You know we love you and we don't want you to get pregnant before you had a chance at life," Ira stated looking at his watch.
"Look dad I am not sexually active," she lied, "And you don't have to worry about men in the house when you are gone," she lied again because Angel was upstairs in her room as she spoke.
"As long as we can trust you," Sheila spoke as she walked over and gave Willow a hug and a kiss and her father did the same.
"Sorry baby but we got to run we have about ten hours of driving ahead of us," Ira spoke.
"Okay dad," she told them wanting them to go.
"Love you sweetie," Shelia spoke as Ira grabbed the bags and headed out the door.
Willow waited until they were gone before she walked up stairs into her room.
"What a night," she said as Angel walked out of the shadows and walked up to her.
"You okay?" he asked.
"Yeah," she told him.
"You still want to go out or I can bring your surprise here," he told her.
"I think I'll stay in tonight just incase they turn around or something," she told him.
Angel smiled and walked outside and grabbed a picnic basket.
"Angel what's that for?" she asked.
"I just thought it would be nice to have a picnic on the mountain top but here is just as good," he told her.
"But you don't eat," she teased.
"Hanging out with you I don't have a choice. I have a refrigerator full of snacks because of you," he told her.
She smiled as she opened her room door and went down stairs into the front room. Angel followed and placed the basket on the table and began to unpack the things.
"I didn't know which one you liked so I fixed both roast beef and turkey sandwiches. There are also some grapes, apples slices, oranges slices, and coke for the drink," he told her.
"Thanks Angel but you didn't have too," she explained.
"I know I just wanted too," he told her. "Which sandwich do you want?"
"Turkey," she told him as he gave her the sandwich.
"Thanks."
"You're welcome my dear," he told her as he took out a plastic container with the grapes, apples and oranges all mix together. Then her pulled out a drink and gave it to her.
"You're not eating?" she asked.
"No thanks this was for you," he told her.
"Thank you Angel," she said as he sat on the couch beside her. Willow ate her sandwich as they watched television.
"That was good," she told him as she finished.
"Want the fruit now?" he asked.
"Yes," she said.
Angel leaned up and grabbed to container.
"Sit back," her told her. Willow arched her eyebrow and looked at him making him smile.
"Here you are," he told her sitting the container in her lap. Angel wanted to feed them to her as she did with the ice cream to him but he thought that it won't be a good idea after the way she looked at him.
Willow opened it and ate some grapes, then some apples, then the oranges. She continued to eat as they watched television. Once she couldn't eat anymore she closed up the container and set it down on the table and sat back, watching television and falling asleep.
Three Hours Later……….
"Willow," he called out.
"Huh," she sleepily answered.
"I have to leave so that you can go to bed," he told her.
"Ok," she yawned out as she stood. Angel stood behind Willow as she gathered the things off the table.
"I got it," Angel spoke.
"That's alright. I want to keep it so I can eat and you can get the basket tomorrow," she told him.
"Ok," he replied as she walked into the kitchen and back out to the front room.
Willow walked Angel to the door where he stopped to look at her. "Thanks for being here for me Willow," he told her.
Willow smiled and looked up at him. "No problem. I will always be there for you," she told him as she hugged him. Angel pulled back a little and looked into her eyes. He bent down but stopped after he thought about what he was doing. Angel let her go quickly. Willow waited for the kiss but jumped when he let her go.
"Bye Willow," he spoke as he almost ran out of the door.
{Willow... what happened to Rua?} She thought.
"Bye Angel," she spoke.
Willow smiled and closed the door. She headed up stairs thinking about what happened well almost happened.
~Part: 9~
Willow groaned when she was woken by a knock at the door. She looked over at the clock.
"Man it's only seven in the morning," she said as she slipped out of bed.
She walked and opened the door still half sleepy and seen Angel at the door.
"Angel? What are you doing here at seven in the morning?"
"Willow…are you alright…you know that it's night or I would have been dust by now," he teased.
Willow shook her head and looked out the door seeing for the first time that it was actually night.
"I am sooooo…embarrassed," she said as she looked at Angel smiling at her. She invited him in and walked back into the room.
"You must have slept all day?"
"I guess," she said as she sat on the bed.
"I think I have been keeping you up to late…so I guess I need to go," he told her.
"No Angel stay. I am ok….I am used to sleeping like that anyways," she explained.
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah…so what do you want to do tonight?"
"I don't know," he explained.
"How about we go to the fair?"
"Fair…you…..want…to go….to a………fair?" Angel said dryly.
"Yeah," she said.
"With rides….and a lots of people…..and stuffed animals ……….. and games," he spoke.
"Yeah…come on Angel it will be fun," she pouted.
"Ok Rua just for you," he told her.
Willow smiled. "I have to jump in the shower first ok?"
Angel nodded as she walked around and gathered her things and walked into the bathroom. Angel grabbed one of Willows' magazines as he heard the water start running.
His head snapped up twenty minutes later as Willow walked out in some jeans and a tee shirt that was tied in the front so that you see her skin.
{Skin like silk} He thought.
"Ready," she asked.
"Always," he said then he thought about what he meant compared to what she meant. "Yeah I'm ready to go," he corrected himself making Willow giggle.
They walked out of the house and headed for the fair. As they walked through the cemetery Willow felt Angel grab her hand and stiffen up.
"Angel…wha…," she started to say but he shook his head letting her know he didn't want her to talk.
Willow let Angel lead her to a tomb stone. He turned her to look at him as he pushed her back to the tomb stone.
"Willow do you have a stake on you?" He whispered shielding her from view from others. Willow shivered at how close he was to her.
Willow nodded, "How many Angel?"
"Two," He told her as he looked into her eyes. "You have to thrust me Willow," he spoke as he bent down and planted a kiss on her neck. Willow almost jumped out of her skin when she felt his lips on her throat. Angel also had gotten a feeling that wasn't supposed to be there. Angel was so lost with kissing Willow's neck that he almost forgot about the vampires.
"They're coming out," he spoke against her neck. Willow nodded. As the two vampires walked up to them Angel snarled and grabbed Willow around the neck pulling her in front of him.
"Who dares disturb me while I am trying to feed?" Angel said putting on his best Angelus impression. He hoped that they didn't know he was back to Angel again.
The two vampires stopped and looked at Angel then to Willow. One shook his head and whispered to the other making Angel grabbed Willow closer to him. He didn't know what to expect.
"Sorry Master Angelus. We don't mean to disturb you but we have to tell you that she is special," One of the vampires spoke.
"What do you mean?" Angel asked and pretended to grab Willow tighter around her neck.
"We can't say but she needs to live," the same vampire spoke and then they both walked off.
Both Angel and Willow were confused. They watched as the two vampires walked off before they had a chance to speak.
Angel let Willow go and looked at her, "That was…."
"Weird," she completed his sentence.
"I wonder what that was all about?" She asked.
"Don't know…maybe we can ask Giles about it later," he replied.
"Maybe….I want to know why they said that I am special?" she asked. "I am not special."
"Yes you are Rua. You are very special," he replied making Willow blush. "We need to be careful and find out what they are talking about," he added.
"Ok," she breathed.
"Ready to go to the fair? We can talk about it tomorrow."
"Yeah," she agreed as they walked to the fair.
***
Two hours and three candy apples later Willow and Angel came up to what looked like fun house.
Willow didn't like to ride and she doubt Angel would if she asked so they just walked around and looked.
"Do you want to go in?" Willow asked.
Angel arched his eyebrow at her. He looked to her as though he was going to ask 'do I have to?' but lost the battle to say no when she began to pout. Angel took an unneeded breath and nodded.
Willow smiled and grabbed his hand and walked him inside. There were no other people in the fun house because it really wasn't scary or anything thing. It just had smoke flying around and a couple of mirrors. Angel was bored as they walked thorough it but he did it for Willow. They continued to walk until they came up to a door that said 'moon'.
"You want to walk up on the moon?" Willow asked.
"Sure why not," he replied as Willow pulled him in.
On the inside it was gray all around and the floor was made of air filled mats so you can bounce like you were on the moon. Willow walked in and began to jump.
"Come on Angel…jump with me," she pleaded.
"I don't jump," he said.
"Party pooper," she teased. "Come on just one bounce."
"Nope….but feel free to bounce as much as you want."
Willow shook her head as she began to jump around him. Willow continued to jump around him until she made it in front of him and tripped making both of them fall down with her on top of him.
Angel opened his eyes and looked at this woman. She was everything but he couldn't have her. Willow smiled down at Angel as she tried to catch her breath.
"Sorry Angel…I slipped," she said as she moved to get up but was stopped by Angel grabbing her back down and kissing her.
Willow responded she couldn't help it. The kiss was soft at first but when Angel thrust his hips upward towards her a little making her gasp he took advantage of that and slipped his tongue into her mouth making both of them moan. Willow was so lost in passion she began to rub up against Angel making him groan. Angel was lost. It had been a long time but what excited him more was he could smell her arousal and that's what made him hard. He began to remember that he had *never* smelled Buffy's arousal at all.
Angel pulled back all of a sudden. He was a little embarrassed that he had gotten aroused like that, "God Rua I didn't mean to…I did…..but that shouldn't have happened."
"I know," she told him as he let her go and stood up. "I think I better get home."
Angel stood and watched as Willow walked to the door. He followed but didn't say anything.
The walk home was quiet. They didn't know what to say to each other. They knew it was wrong to kiss and they vowed to themselves that it wouldn't happen again.
Angel wished Willow a good night and walked back home. Both of them not knowing how they really thought about each other.
"God Angel she might not ever want to go anywhere with you again," he spoke to himself as he walked down the dark street of Sunnydale.
Angel all of a sudden stopped and smelled the air.
"You might as well come out Whistler I know you are there," he called out to an empty street as he walked past an alley.
"Hello Angel. How are you?" The Whistler spoke as he walked out and beside Angel.
"Great….what do you want?"
"Geez, no how are you whistler," the whistler said sulkily
"No thanks after the last time I saw you, you set me up with Buffy and that was not a good thing," Angel told him.
"Look Angel, I told you to help the girl not go and get a happy and try to kill all of them," he explained.
"What….do…you…want," Angel growled out as he stopped walking.
"Angel I see you are fond of the new girl…just be careful ok…she is special and when the time comes you will be greatly surprised ."
"Yeah…yeah I know two vampires said something about her earlier tonight," he looked at the Whistler and when it seemed he wasn't going to say anything else he asked, "Anything else?"
"Nope," he answered.
"Then go. I am not falling for Willow ok," he told him as he began to walk off leaving a shocked Whistler behind.
"On the contrary my friend you are and that is good this time. This world needs you to be with her but it will happen in due time," he spoke to himself as he walked off.
~Part: 10~
The next five days were spent in crowded areas, like the mall, movies, and anywhere they could go where they wouldn’t really be alone.
Angel had tried to forget about the kiss but it wasn’t working it only made him want to kiss her again which was not good. Willow was also not taking it well her thoughts had been bothering her more now than before the kiss.
Compared to an awkward start from the other day they were going back into friendship mode that they were once in. Angel was really falling in lo….no…he couldn’t say love…..could he? He did care for her but he had the feeling that he cared a lot more than he should.
Willow was so comfortable around him now that she had even slept at his home in the bed once or twice while he slept in the front room when it was too late to walk her home and he wasn’t going to let her go alone.
“That was ok I guess,” Angel told her as they came of the theater.
“Yes it was,” Willow snorted at how terrible the movie really was.
“So what’s next since this is the last night we can spend together before they come back.”
Willow had thought about it. Buffy was going to be back soon. Buffy had told her yesterday that their flight would leave tonight sometime. It disappointed her that she and Angel weren’t going to be able to hang out like this anymore. In these two weeks they had become really good friends and he was finally starting to forget about Buffy.
“Mister broody wants to do something else….well how about we go to the new club that just opened up. It about a block away,” Willow suggested.
“The Trilogy…don’t you have to be twenty-one to get in that one?”
“Yes.”
“How can you get in?”
“With this,” Willow told him as she pulled a fake id out of her purse.
Angel took it and looked at it. “Where did you get this Rua?” He asked.
“Don’t worry about it. We all have one, so come on let’s go,” she told him as she pulled him down the road.
Angel followed he was ready to have a good time tonight he knew Willow wouldn’t spend as much time with him once they come back. They walked up to the club and Willow flashed her fake id and they were in without any questions.
“Told you I would get in,” Willow told him over the loud music. The reason they called it The Trilogy was because it had three different floors. The first was for just hanging out, the second floor was for meeting areas and the third was used for rooms.
“I can see that,” he answered as they walked up to a table and sat down. Angel didn’t know why Willow wanted to come here. This was a very fast paced club mostly for people that wanted to meet someone and probably have a one night stand.
“Do you want something to drink?” Willow asked.
“Yes and I will get it,” Angel replied.
“You didn’t let me take you to the movies when I asked two weeks ago; you paid for everything at least I can get the drinks,” she told him.
“Nope sit down, I’ll get it. I wouldn’t be a gentleman if I didn’t,” he replied as he got up to get the drinks.
Angel returned with a bottle of wine and two glasses.
“Angel,” Willow looked at him. “I am not old enough to drink that. I was talking about a coke or a sprite.”
“You are old enough to sneak in a club you are old enough to at least have one drank,” he told her as he sat down and poured her a drink.
Willow shrugged her shoulder and took the drink from Angel.
“One drink and that’s it,” she conformed.
“Yes milady. One drink,” he replied as they clinked the glasses and sipped their wine.
Four Hours Later
A very drunk Willow and a tipsy Angel walked back to his house. Angel and Willow had drunk the first bottle of wine at the club and then Angel had brought about 3 or 5 more bottles neither of them could remember. After the last bottle they danced for a while then went back to the table for some Jack and Coke, after having downed that, they left.
Willow giggled and looked at Angel.
“Whaaaat so funny Rua?” Angel slurred.
“You’re drunk.”
“I am not madam.”
“Yes you are I bet you couldn’t walk that straight line,” Willow told him as she pointed to the line on the side of the street.
“I bet you I could,” Angel stumbled over to the line and tried his best to walk a straight line which he failed at.
“I guess I am drunk,” he confirmed.
“Told you so….” Willow giggled again as they made their way to his home.
As they walked up to his door they were playing an awful game of guess the number I am thinking.
“One,” he guessed.
“Nope,” she replied.
“Ummm…three.”
“Nope,” she shook her head.
“One.”
“I think you already asked that one,” she looked at him trying to think.
“I did?”
“Yep.”
“Ok I give up. What is it?”
“I win….it’s four,” she clapped happily.
“I said four,” he tried to cheat.
“No you didn’t.”
“Yes I did right after one,” Angel told her as he walked up to his home.
“Well sir I am going home…where ever that is,” Willow slurred.
“No you are not you can stay here tonight and you can go home in the morning as usual,” Angel suggested.
“I guess I am too drunk to go home,” she told him as she walked in.
“This way to the bed room,” he pointed towards the room.
“Thank you sir,” she spoke as she walked in.
What happened next was a blur to Willow, she remembered him saying that he had to get his pillow but that was the last thing she remembered. She didn’t even remember undressing and going to sleep.
***
Willow knew she was dreaming. She had to be dreaming this because things were too prefect. She didn’t want to wake up because this was better than her Oz dreams this was her first, her and Angel dream. This dream couldn’t get better because it was raining and it was pattering against the window making the most wonderful sounds. The thunder storm was the perfect setting for love making.
Willow could feel him thrusting in her and it was much better than when she had sex with Oz, she had to almost tell Oz where to move or move him where she needed him to be but Angel knew what she needed. She was close and she knew he knew it because he slowed down as the lighting once again flashed through the window making it possible to see his golden eyes looking at her full of lust. It should have scared her to know that he was in full game face but it didn’t; it turned her own more. Angel bent down and grabbed her around her waist to pull her up until he was on his knees and her slender legs were wrapped round his waist. With the change of movement they both moaned out. Willow began to ride him slowly taking him as far as she could. Another flash came through the window and she could see Angel head thrown back in ecstasy as he grabbed her hips and pulled her down hard.
They seemed made for each other; each thrust was bringing her closer and closer. Willow threw her head back when she felt him lean up and began to suck on her breast. She could hear herself moaning louder and she bet the whole town heard her as she screamed out his name as she came if she would have been awake. She could hear and feel him moan out her name against her skin as lighting flashed and then everything went blank.