As she rode him and looked into his eyes her body glistening and flushed with their lovemaking he knew he could no longer deny his feelings for this women. She was his woman… It's not just lust; it's so much more over the top than passion. His body and blood sung out in need for this red-haired siren. He felt complete only when they were together, when he could see her, feel her, she is mine… The sound of my name on her voice as she climaxed and the resulting shock wave of pleasure she sent through my entire essence. " Willow" he yelled for all to hear. He took her into his arms "I love you Red, I love you so much."
 
 

" I know", she purred, " I Know", " I love you too Spike"

He kissed her forehead eyes and lips softly. " You do?" he asked red tears in her eyes.

" How could I not, We're connected somehow, I came through time to be with you and love you, fate wanted to take you away from me.. but You fought against fate, came across time for me… You were willing to give up your own life for me… You are my life, you and I are one joined by love, and our child is a gift of grace acknowledging this fact.
 

Willow's stomach growled loudly, " The baby is hungry she laughed."

Spike kissed her nose and rolled out from under her, "Hey where do you think your going" Willow asked in annoyance.

"To fix my wife and child something to eat" he responded grinning broadly.

Willow watched Spike's naked body move about the small cottage, collecting food from a hamper, setting items on the small table. < Mental note to me, Keep the man naked as much as possible> She marveled in his grace and how when he walked the muscles of his lean legs contracted his ass cheeks leaving a concave valley just below his hips. Willow imagined how she could run her hands over this taught flesh between the hip bone, muscle and round back to grab his firm nether cheeks in her hands. She could grip him, and then taste his cock. … < What the hell am I sitting her for, I'm starved>

She bounded out of bed and snuck up behind him as his back was to her making a jam sandwich. She wrapped her arms about his chest and purred into his back. " I'm soooo hungry, baby" as she nipped her teeth against his shoulder blade.

" I know, almost ready.."

Willow, grabbed him about the waist and turned him around and his bare backside was practically sitting in the sandwich.

" I thought"… his voice caught in his throat as Willow knelt before him.

" I'm starved Spike?" " How bout just a little taste to hold me over" she cooed.

Spike swallowed hard and felt his straining erection quiver at the sound of her voice. He griped the edge of the table, to keep from grabbing her head.

" She gazed up at him with innocent eyes and licked her lips" " MMMM looks good enough to eat"

Spike's legs started to shake in anticipation; < Thank goodness for the table behind me else I might embarrass myself further and fall over.

He watched as Willow snaked her pink tongue out of her mouth and she very gently licked the oozing pre cum from the head of his penis. He closed his eyes and moaned deep in his throat. < She's going to kill me> He grabbed her copper hair and pushed her head closer to him.

" Patience, Patience" she said and blew on his head.

" WILLLOWWW PLEASE" he begged.

Willow cupped his sacs between her hands and kneaded them softly.

He blew out small puffs of air between his clenched teeth.

She run her tongue from the throbbing vein at the base of his cock slowly up to the underside of his head. She flicked her tongue at the most sensitive juncture.

He pulled at her hair slightly.

Willow took this as her signal. She grabbed his base covered her teeth with her lips and took him deep within her mouth.

He screamed and muttered incoherent things. < Did he just shout out OH GOD,
>?

She sucked and licked him hard taking his member until it touched the back of her throat. She used her hands to supplement her oral ministrations.

He pulled her hair tighter and she felt his member surge his semen into her mouth.

She swallowed and sucked at him until he was pulling her head away.

He was panting and gasping but totally unable to say anything coherent.

She snaked up his body, licking her lips, " MMMMM you tasted so good"

He kissed her brutally wanted to possess her mouth like she had possessed him.

She pulled back.. "I want.. I want to.. " As she backed away from him towards the hearth. She pulled a blanket from a chair and spread in on the floor.

" What do you want, Red"

Willow kneeled on all fours, arching her backside seductively like a cat.

Spike couldn't believe how hard he was again and how he wanted to take her.

He moved and was kneeling behind her. He ran his hands over her back and around her chest to feel the weight of her breast upon his hands. She gasped softy and rubbed her ass into his pelvis.

" You want this," he asked huskily, nipping her shoulder blade and pinching her nipples between his fingers.

She responded by grinding her hips and ass into his cock.

He pulled back and ran his fingers along her dripping velvet channel. She jumped as his fingers pinched her erect clit. " MMMMM she groaned"

He separated her womanly folds and slowly entered her. Willow keened and thrust back, pushing him deeper into her womb.

Spike kept one hand on her hip and one hand on her throbbing clit and he began to thrust into her. He twisted her womanly bud felt her shake with a powerful orgasm. He continued to thrust into her, and moved his hand to her breasts. He enjoyed the way his movements across her breast to rub across his hands. Willow was keening his name, " Spike" He speeded up his thrust and moved his hand back to her core. He flicked his thumb across her clit and she screamed and came again, taking him with her. They lay in a tangled heaps of sweaty limbs.

" What's for dessert?" Willow asked coyly.

~~~~~~~~
 
 

Willow sat Indian style on the floor in front of the hearth devouring her third sandwich. She licked jam off her fingers at looked at her bare chested, < lover>.

Spike watched in amazement as the small women ate three jam sandwiches, two apples, and a half of jar of pickles.

" What are you smiling about?" she asked.

" I've never seen someone so small eat so much at one sitting, Pet."

" I'm eating for two now, beside I worked up quite an appetite." She said and let out a small belch.
She blushed, "Oh God I'm turning into Xander." " Must a been the pickles" " Are there any more?"

Spike laughed, and handed her the jar. " Are you happy about the baby, Red,"

She crunched into the dill, licked the juices from her hand, " Yeah, I was a bit shocked at first, and I never planned to be pregnant at 18." " I mean if anyone told me six months ago, I would be pregnant and in love with you… Well I would have had Buffy stake em." She giggled. " Who a thunk it" Willow's face dropped.

"What is it, Red?" Spike asked moving towards her.

" My parents are going to flip… oh and Xander and Buffy.. God I can just hear Giles make that clucking noise with his mouth. She frowned.

" They already know," Spike stated.

" What!" "My parents.." she cried

" No, I don't think they know, but the Slayer, Peaches, Giles, and the Boy Dunder know." He admitted.

" How, I mean I didn't even realize it?" " The vomiting thing must of tipped off Giles huh?" " How freaked out are they?" she asked her eyes downcast.

It hurt Spike to see her concern about what her friends thought. < She's ashamed of me> " What bothers you the most, that you're pregnant or that it happens to be my baby?" he snapped defensively.

" No!" " It.. just that they have this image of sweet innocent me and.. I kinda feel like I've let them down."

" Right Luv, that's why both Xander and Giles assumed you were the other's lover?"

" What!" " That's the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard.. Your way off base buster" she replied in annoyance.

" Hah, both the pup and the watcher new you were pregnant and assumed the other was the babe's father"
" Care to explain how they got that idea? " Spike goaded jealously

" Where do you dream this stuff up?" she said rolling her eyes, and rising to clean up the mess from lunch.

" They were the one's who believed it, Pet!" " And Angel thought you were lovers with the watcher too" he added.

"The blood loss must of scrambled your brains." " Everybody knows that Xander and I have been friends since diapers, and I'll refresh your short memory, the time he and I explored our… our.. potential.. you kidnapped us and we got caught kissing… and the whole thing was blown way out of proportion.. Why would anybody think anything was going on between Giles…" Willow stopped mid sentence and scrunched up her eyes in thought. " unless someone saw .." she murmured

" Saw what?" Spike said waspishly

" When I went back after you were killed in the alley.. I was kinda in shock and Giles found me and brought me home." She answered.

" And… what.. Did he take advantage of you.. or."

" No, he just helped me warm up s'all" she said her face flushing remembering the shower.

" How the hell did the wanker warm you up exactly?" Spike roared.

"Gee, it's not like you think. It was completely innocent." She replied defensively.

" What" " Your face was flaming a moment ago, and the pup wouldn't just pull something out of thin air." He challenged.

"He put me in a hot shower, to warm up and let me ware one of his shirts.. and I was crying and he hugged me a little that's all" she stammered somewhat indignantly.

" So he let you use his shower, … and…"

Spike noted Willow's eyes veered nervously about.

Spike's eyes narrowed, " He undressed you… didn't he?"

" It's no big deal nothing happened.. besides I was in shock and had hyperthymia and he just need to help me so I wouldn't.. Willow stopped as she made it sound even more incriminating.

" He didn't … get in with you?" Spike hissed

Willow swallowed hard, " Um.. I think so."

" You and he were naked and showered together." He asked, feeling rage boil in his stomach.

" I told you it was innocent, you make it sound like I'm some skanky ho" she mumbled tears in her eyes.

" Besides Giles doesn't think of me in that way…. You're the only one who seem to think I'm some kinda slut." Willow cried tears running down her face.

" I never said that… I don't think.. that at all… your just… so.." he stammered. < Great upset her just when she's starting to trust you. >

" Just what…" she shouted angrily < How dare he talk to me this way. He knows I was a virgin when I went to bed with William and now he acts like I'm some tease. >

" Your just so desirable and beautiful and any man who looks at you can't help but… want you." He explained.

" What?" " You think I'm some kinda guy magnet?" < Gee he musta hit his
head> She asked in disbelief.

" Yes, and I don't like it at all… men drooling over you and .."

Willow started to laugh, " I should be angry at you, but I'm kind of flattered… I think."

Spike glared at her.

" You're the only man I want to attract," she said wiggling her finger, giving him the come here sign.

" You think you can just wag you finger and I'm going ta come running?" He asked.

Willow slowly unbuttoned his shirt, which she was wearing, and let it slip to the floor.
" Can't we talk about this after dessert, I'm still hungry. " she pouted.

" Is that so, I'm a might peckish myself.," he said smiling wolfishly.

Spike moved toward Willow slowly. He noted her heart began to beat faster as he saw the veins in her neck pulse more rapidly through her translucent skin. He noted her nipples began to pucker. He walked past her and wrapped his arms around her from behind. He cupped her breast in his hands, and kissed her and nipped at her neck. She arched her breasts forward into his hands, and her ass jutted wantonly against his growing erection.

Willow moaned and as Spike slid his hands down her rib cage across her stomach and traced a horizontal line along her tender skin just above her soft curls. She hissed in frustration and arched back into his erection.

He ran his hands up her torso capturing her tawny buds between his thumb and forefingers twisting and pulling them gently.

She groaned out his name in desire

Willow felt so hot and tingly all over. She tried to turn around to kiss Spike. He held her firmly in place.
" Not yet" "I want to feast on you some more" He whispered in her ear. He licked her lobe and ran his teeth against her throat.

Willow felt his whiskers scrape against her tender flesh. Her toes curled.

She snaked her hands backward and grabbed his hips, trying to pull him closer to her.

" Get on the bed, Red" he said huskily releasing.

Willow did as she was asked.

Spike moved closer to the bed and slipped off his too tight jeans. Willow's eyes watched him hungrily and she emitted a low growl as his erect cock was liberated.

" Baby is still hungry" he growled back.

Spike went to the foot of the bed and took one of Willow small feet into his hand. He lifted it and stuck her big toe in his mouth.

" That tickles, " she squealed.

He sucked on the toe and bit into it

Willow sucked in her breath and bit down on her bottom lip.

He dropped the foot and grasped the other. He leaned his head slightly forward and ran his tongue along her arch.

" Does that tickle to baby?"

" Yes she gushed, more.."

He ran his palms over her ankles and up her calf.

" Tickles a little higher" she said weakly, wiggling her hips up off the mattress.

" It does" Spike said waggling his eyebrow.

He pushed Willow legs apart and moved his torso up upon the bed

He bent her leg up and lay his head back upon the mattress to suck and lick at the skin behind Willow's knees.

Her leg started to shake. " She keened.. his name and reached down and grabbed at his hair, wanting to pull him upward closer to her wet core.

He chuckled, "What's matter Red?" " Are you full yet?" He rolled onto his stomach and slid farther up the mattress his hands caressing the inside of both her thighs with his fingers. He could smell her desire and see her core opening to beckon him in. He saw her womanly juice run from her center down to her puckered anus. He dipped his head low and stuck his tongue in her anus. She shrieked and bucked in surprise. He grabbed her pelvis with his hands to steady her and ran his tongue across her perineum up to her lower lips. She was mewling her need for him. He moved his tongue away and she whimpered in disappointment. He nipped at the inside of her upper thigh. She again tried to thrust her pelvis forward. He was savoring her every sound, smell and taste. He wanted to drive her wild so she would understand the effect she had upon him.

Willow clutched the sheets beneath her and was panting. "Spike"

" Yes, Pet?" I want you to fuck me! Please"

" Not yet, I'm enjoying my dessert. He blew on her clit and she swore at him. " Just for that Pet, I may save my dessert for later." He teased moving back.

" No" her head shot up. " I'm still hungry she stammered."

The look in her eyes made him want to climax. He growled and dove his tongue into her center. He lapped at her juices and pinned her squirming hips down upon the mattress. He moved his mouth across her clit and he felt her tremors start to build. He pulled back. " No" she shouted

Spike started again at her anus and licked and sucked his way towards her clit. Willow was thrashing her head and hands against the mattress. He bit into her clit gently and she screamed and her whole body shook from her explosion. He slid forward and thrust into her with a groan. He held her head, but her eyes were not focused on his. He pumped into her as she continued to climax. He couldn't last with her clenching his cock in her hot velvet channel and he climaxed in a groan. He lay his head against her heart and
listen to her blood beat wildly speaking words of love only he could hear.

~~

Willow and Spike spent the next several weeks in a routine of blissful solitude. Spike had explained the concern and worry that the Scooby gang had for Willow. Spike shared the detailed plans Giles had developed to ensure their safety until they could return home. He begrudgingly, admitted Xander's concern and devotion to Willow's rescue. He chuckled when he described Buffy's insistence she slay some warlock ass. He even admitted Angel's effort to stop Willow from being abducted and how close he came to losing his undead life because of this. He laughed out loud describing the looks on both Xander and Angel's faces when Angel drank Xander's blood during his crisis.

Willow enjoyed the time she and Spike spent alone. They spent a great deal of time outdoors upon the moors. They rode the horse miles each day exploring the endless mysteries and beauty of the moor. They teased and taunted one another in sexual delight as they explored their endless desire for one another. They didn't question the mystery of their fated love.

Spike got used to Ox blood, as he needed to consume large quantities to be able to maintain the magical healing spell, which enabled him to remain warm to the touch and walk in the sunlight. He reveled in the sight of Willow in sunlight. Her red hair shimmering pure copper silk, her fair skin flushing under the warmth of the sun or under his fevered carnal delight.

He smiled thinking about how long it took for the kitten Saber to warm up to Willow. The kitten appeared insanely jealous. She continued to follow him like a shadow. She hissed and spat at Will every chance she got. She expressed her displeasure in their lovemaking by leaving nasty presents upon the bed and near the hearth, the two most frequent locations of their erotic exploits. His gentle Willow went about wooing the kitten. She talked to Saber and fed her treats of milk and chicken. Saber appeared to have entered a tolerable truce with Red.

Tonight was the full moon. Both Willow and Spike were a bit nervous about returning home. Spike mind was a bit boggled in thinking that he had spent the best thirty days out of his century old life with this women and that her friends have been waiting in the clearing only about five minutes for their return.
He had not broached the topic of what was to happen when they got back to Sunnydale. He was extremely worried that her friends would turn her against him and try and break them up. He was more worried that Willow would realize how much more she deserved, and cut him out of her and their child's life. He still didn't quite believe that Willow was having his child. Willow thought she must be almost three months along by now. She kept asking him if she looked pregnant and if he would still want her when she was a big as a whale. His repeated reassurance usually led to them making passionate love.

Willow was worried about going back to Sunnydale and facing everyone. Part of her wanted to remain here with Spike and live happily ever after. Willow had used the past thirty days to strengthen her magic powers. She had amazed herself. As Willow was led to believe her powers seemed to be influenced and increased by her pregnancy. She meditated every day for at least two hours. She was able to levitate large objects. She was able to call upon the forces of Mother Nature, such as wind, fire, earth, and water in small measure.

As dusk approached, Spike and Willow had their last meal together. Both were extremely quiet, lost in separate worries about how their lives and love may change upon return. Neither shared their fears with the other, instead they gazed at one another with bittersweet longing. Their unspoken need for one another erupted in their fierce coupling. The only sound to fill the cottage was their passionate gasps, moans, growls and cries, as they loved one another in their desperation to remain as one.

Spike had turned the animals loose, and was checking the cottage for the final time. Willow was making final preparations in the magic circle under the bright moonlight. Spike entered the circle and went to the small wicker basket he had placed Saber in to remove her.

"Bloody Hell" he said.

" What?" Willow asked

" Did you see Saber loose?" he asked with annoyance.

" No", maybe she went back to the cottage, knowing her she probably went back and took a big dump in protest over our wild sex she laughed.

" I'll go and look for that damn cat." He replied.

Willow watched Spike retreat into the night.

Willow called out softly to Saber, stepping outside of the magic circle and moved toward the barn.
Willow felt the hairs on her neck raise. < Oh Goddess, It's Aaron, he's here.. I can feel him… Oh No.. got to get Spike. > Willow felt a strange tingling and pushing inside her head. She saw an explosion of color, Red, screaming.. She saw Henry begging Spike in full vamp mode to spare his life as Spike viscously tortured his friend with a railroad spike. The image flashed to Spike violently killing Randy and Mary, she felt sick as she saw her dear friends lifeblood being drained away by her lover.

Spike entered the cottage and in the dim light saw the Warlock Aaron petting saber gently.

" You are like the pox, incredibly difficult to get rid of." Aaron chuckled. " You know, I have pondered my fascination upon this mortal sortilege a great deal. At first I thought it was her powerful magic, I admit I find her strong passions appealing also but… I couldn't figure out what it was exactly.. and why in all my present incarnation I desire her above all others… until recently."
" Willow was to be mine before a long long time ago, you stole her from me before but I stopped you, It seems time keeps repeating itself, as you managed to take her from me yet again. However as before, she shall be mine and you shall die." Aaron menacingly growled, Angelus, Dru " Let's teach this wimpy vampire a lesson."

Angelus and Dru blocked the cottage doorway.

< Willow> Spike's mind screamed out.

Willow turned around to run toward the cottage to alert Spike, but she ran head long into his form.

She yipped, "Oh Goddess you know their here too" she noted his vampire game face. She hugged him and noted he felt very cold, too cold. She felt his strong arms pull her back and she so no recognition in his yellow demon eyes. " Spike, It's me, Come on, we've got to get in the circle and get back now!" she hissed pulling at his arm. "Aaron's put some sort of spell on you.. We'll take care of it once we get back to Sunnydale".

Spike growled, " You're not going anywhere Cutie!"

Willow dropped his arm, bile creeping into her throat, < NO NO> she screamed out for Spike.

The demon grabbed the women in his arms and lowered his fangs towards her neck.
Willow struggled and twisted trying to brake free from his grip. She felt his fangs puncture her neck and felt her hot blood flow into the demon mouth.
<Spike, her mind cried out>

~~~~~~~~~
 
 

Spike snarled his game face slipping into place as he moved toward Angelus.

" I HAVE SO HAD ENOUGH OF YOU!" He screamed lunging toward Angelus, midsection.

Angelus growled. " Get him Daddy" Dru chimed stepping back out of the way.

Angelus lashed out at Spike's midsection, causing him to double over in pain. Angelus then took his fist and slammed into Spike's jaw. " She must be quite the tempting treat for you to savoring her like candy." Angelus retorted. " Aaron says I can have a taste as soon as I dust you." Angelus laughed. " Why don't you show him what he'll be missing" Angelus taunted.

Spike rolled out of Angelus left jab and nailed him with a shot to his kidneys, and followed up by kicking his kneecap. Aaron projected the vision into Spike head. He felt pain and saw Angelus pinning down a naked and bleeding Willow and Angelus savagely biting her nipples and pounding into her as she screamed in pain. He saw Angelus climax and move his head lower to his lover's center to lick the blood off her legs. Willow was crying in pain and trying to get away. Angelus used his hands and reached up into her torn vagina and pulled out a small, bloody mass. Spike howled in rage and fury, trying to block the horrific images from his mind.

Saber startled by her master's distress tried to escape from Aaron's hands. He clutched her tightly. She bit his and got loose launching herself into his face scratching, and clawing him viscously. Aaron's concentration was broken for a few moments as he threw the damn cat off him.

Spike came out of his stupor and fought Angelus with ever fiber of his being. The man and demon would not loose her. Angelus was driven to the ground by Spike's attack momentarily dazed. Dru stepped closer wielding a slab off wood to whack the bad mad who looked like Spike off her Daddy.

Willow struggled against the demon Spike and felt her life ebb away. She had a flash of what her life was like, she saw her friends and family, she saw William and Spike, she saw a smiling red hair boy with blue eyes and sharp cheeks hugging Spike. She wouldn't let them take this away from her. She used her magic powers to call upon the Goddess of Winds and earth. A small whirlwind slowly built up twisting with all the rage Willow felt. It began to suck up rocks and stones. She called upon the Goddess of earth to help her move a large stone. Willow visualized with her minds'eye the stone smashing the demon in the back of the head. Willow felt the demon fall to the ground pining her underneath him. Willow was sucked into the darkness.

Spike caught the board and wrested it away from Dru. " Damn bloody Bitch" and used it to hit her up side the head. He bolted out the door calling Willow's name. He saw in the moonlight her lying on the ground, himself pinning her to the ground in a deadly embrace. " No.. No.. He saw blood seeping from the wound in her neck."

He picked her up and moved into the magic circle. Willow had lit all the candles. < Got to get her away. Giles will help. Think.. think.. of the words you heard her practice. Saber dashed into the circle and scrambled up Spike's leg over his back onto his shoulder. Willow lay unconscious in his arms. He clenched the charm bracelet so tightly in his hands bloody welts arose from the charms.

A white light and sensation of falling. Spike was back; He immediately started out of the circle.

" Oh God, Willow.." Xander cried.

" Is she all right.." Giles asked taking in her inert form.

" She's been bit" Angel gasped.

" What happened… Buffy" yelled.

" We need to get her to the hospital, now" Spike yelled moving toward the car.

Everyone piled into the car, Willow's form clutched upon his lap.

A deathly silence permeated the car.

" Faster, drive faster," Buffy chided, craning her neck around from the front seat.

" She' so pale" " Hurry"

" Xander had his eyes shut, he was crying unashamed and he was whispering a prayer softly.
 

Willow's body felt cold to the touch. Spike could barely hear her heart beating. " No … NO.. Please don't leave me Red, Stay with me baby… I need you.. Stay with me.."

He pulled her unscious form closer into his embrace and buried his head into her neck.

Angel saw and Buffy felt Spike vamp out.

" No they both yelled in unison." Angel grabbed at Spike, and Buffy practically jumped over the seat.

" Stop it, you vamp her and you DIE." Buffy screamed.

" Think about the baby, man.." Angel pleased, into Spike's yellow eyes.

" I don't care about anything but her." Red tears fell from his vampire eyes. Giles said they were almost there and practically crashed into the ER room entrance before he was able to stop.

Spike was out of the car and yelling for help, "She's lost a lot of blood"

A nurse came forward with a gurney, " OK" what happened?" A doctor approached and barked out "get her cross matched and typed for transfusion"

Xander on Spike's heels, " No time, she AB positive the same as me."

" Are you sure, the doctor asked?"

" YES YES HURRY.

The doctor wouldn't allow anyone into the triage room. Spike had to be physically manhandled by Buffy and Angel to let Willow go. " If you don't stop there going to call security and kick us all out" chided Giles.

Spike relented and paced the waiting room as the doctors and nurses ran back and forth behind the curtain.
< This is all my fault.. all my fault.. I almost killed her.. how could I not know… She should have never came back in time.. I never should have…" Spike berated himself over and over.

~~~~~~
 
 

" Spike what happened?" Giles asked putting his hand upon his shoulder.

Sike ran his fingers through his long dark hair. " I went back looking for Saber and ran into Aaron and HIM and Dru." Spike growled and confronted Angel. " Ever bloody time I turn around there you are"
Spike said grabbing Angel by the neck and lifting him up against the mint green hospital wall.
" You're just as obsessed with her as the Warlock!" he shouted, banging Angel's head against the wall.

Buffy ran to her love's side, punching Spike in the lower back. He turned on her in full vamp mode.
" He wants to fuck her… and hurt her…. How can you care about his sorry ass?" Buffy recoiled at Spike's words.

Angel moved away from Spike's grasp and sat in a chair looking guilty.

" So let me get this straight, you left Willow to go back for a saber and then dead boy and company show up?" he asked angrily.

" No… Yes… I went back for the cat… and they were waiting. I managed to fight them off but it was too late." He whispered as he hung his head.

" So who bit Will, Dead Boy or your Skanky Whore?" Xander demanded, getting in Spike's face. " Cause I say we do some slaying and finish this once and for all!"

Spike turned his back on Xander, began to pace again, and ran his hands across his taunt neck muscles. He squeezed his eyes shut trying to stop the tears from falling. < I did this… I did this all. Me..>

" Well, you still didn't tell me what happened to Will?" Xander asked in annoyance, grabbing Spike by the arm.

" I DID IT!…. I FUCKING BIT HER…. ARE YOU HAPPY NOW!" he yelled. < Maybe the puppy will stake me and get it over>

" You Bastard" Xander punched Spike hard. Spike stood there making no effort to defend himself.
Xander realized he needed wood. He moved away and grabbed an armchair and threw it against the wall near Spike's head. The chair broke.

Spike stood immobile. Buffy and Giles moved forward, nurses and other ER patients looked on in shock. Angel was across the room and grabbed Xander's hand armed with a deadly stake. " Stop it.. Xander.. I don't think you could do that Spike… what really happened?" Angel asked softy pulling a still swearing Xander back. Two security guards were on the scene.

Giles admonished his charges, and approached the security guards apologizing for the outburst, reassuring them that everything was under control, just upset about their friend.. no problems and that he would pay for any damages. The guards offered a stern warning and left.

" I want to know what happened?" Buffy said to Spike as he leaned dejectedly against the wall

" When I got back I found William and sent him to London. I rescued Willow from Aaron and Angelus lair and we went to the cottage on the moor. Everything was fine… we were so happy.. ."

"Angelus changed me in London about three weeks ago… that was three weeks ago in 1869. I was with Willow in the cottage but I felt it, I relived my death and life… If Willow hadn't helped me I'd be dead."
"Aaron put some sort of spell on me.. on the me in 1869 so that I wouldn't have any recollection of Willow."

" Tonight as I fought Aaron and Angelus… The demon I was bit her… I don't think Aaron planned it.. When I got away I found her on the ground him/me knocked out… she must have injured him somehow."

" Let me get this straight, both your evil twin and Angelus's evil twin demons have tried to kill Will." Xander sarcastically spat.

" Xander stop it,This isn't helping Willow," Angel pleaded.

" Well with you two as her buds why the hell does she need any enemies!"

" Please try and calm down Xander, we're all upset about this" Buffy said hugging Xander.

At that moment the group heard loud shrill equipment sounds coming from behind the ER bay treating Willow. They heard the doctor yell for the crash cart stat.

Spike slid down the wall and sat on his haunches, weeping openly. < Please.. Please let her live.. I 'll never hurt her again.. She deserves to live .. She has so much to give.. Please take me in her place… I'll leave her to her friends to watch over.. please.. please.>
 

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