Spike sat at her desk and smiled softly. He was in her room. Since that night, he had snuck in here a few times. Always in the earliest part of the evening....when she was helping the slayer and the watcher. He could set his clock by her sometimes. She had a routine that rarely deviated. He went to her bookcase and browsed. The titles demonstrated how eclectic she was. Everything from computer books, to books on witchcraft, demons and the latest bestseller by Stephen King. He'd been surprised to see a few romance novels.The rope thats wrapped around me is cutting through my skin and the doubts that have surrounded me are finding their way in I keep it close to me like a holy man prays in my desperate hour it's better that way
He felt as though he had become obsessed with having Willow. He wanted to be deep inside her, to hear her moan with ecstasy, to feel her body writhe beneath his, to hear her beg him to take her. These thoughts consumed him. He knew that it could never be. It was a mistake. He had thought that it was simply lust....something he could be rid of. He had discovered it went far deeper than that. He felt pathetic. He watched her at night to make sure she made it home safely. He had been thinking of stupid reasons for them to get together. Just the sight of her was enough for now. He knew that she deserved better....a mortal boy who would love her and cherish her and give her lots of brats.....The thought of that made him angry and jealous. Why had he started to feel like this?So if I come by and see you again I'll be such a very good friend have mercy on my soul I will never let you know where my mind has been
Spike turned on her CD player and hit play. The soft strains of a female filled the air. He went to her bed and laid down. Closing his eyes, he took in her scent. The smell of jasmine and roses.....baby powder....He loved to lay here and think of her....remember that night. Listen to what she was listening to as she laid in the exact place the night before. He felt a little closer to her. He was glad that the Poof couldn't see him. He'd never live this down. Drooling after some innocent little mortal.....something he thought he'd never see. He was her friend... that was all. She had made her opinion of that very clear in the car. The mortification that filled her face.....he tried to forget that part of the evening. He wondered what he could ask her to do tonight......He could never let her know of his feelings. He had lost Dru. He couldn't lose someone else. He wouldn't.Angels never came down there's no one here they want to hang around but if they knew if they knew you at all then one by one the angels angels would fall I've crept into your temple I have slept upon your pew I've dreamed of the divinity inside and out of you I want it more than truth I can taste it on my breath I would give my life just for a little death
Fate sat back shocked. He couldn't believe what he had just heard. Spike was in love with Willow. How did that happen? I sure missed something there......I'm glad, skipped ahead a few steps. I was aiming for lust and passion then love. That idiot. Sitting here mooning over her instead of out there driving her crazy with passion. What to do....what to do....So I'll come by and see you again I'll be just a very good friend I will not look upon your face I will not touch upon your grace your ecclesiastic skin I'll come by and see you again I'll have to be a very good friend if I whisper they will know I'll just turn around and go you will never know my sin
Fate thought over what he had heard that night.
Suddenly, he smiled. Perfect! I think it will work. Might take some doing
on my part, but it will be worth it. Those two need to face up to their
feelings and act out on their lust. Everything else will fall right into
place. He he he......let's sit back and wait for the fireworks.....