I’m glad Willow and Spike are together. And no, that’s not me being sarcastic. I know, I know, I’m the Slayer, it’s my job to kill vampires, yada, yada, yada. I’ve never exactly played by the rules, have I? (Exhibit A: Angel. I rest my case.) Besides, Spike was always my favorite enemy. Now he’s just my favorite sparring partner. I have to admit, it’s nice not to have to worry about Spike going for the throat while we’re practicing. He’s one of the few vampires I’ve actually been afraid I was going to lose to. But that’s not the point, is it? The point is Willow and Spike, and I’ll tell you what I think.
He’s good for her. Yeah, I know, that’s like saying the Big Bad Wolf is good for Little Red Riding Hood. But, in this case, it’s the truth. I mean, he likes Willow just because she’s Willow. Plus, he thinks it’s cute when she rambles. The last part of the “he’s good for her” theory is a bit selfish, though. I’m glad they’re together because I know he’ll keep her safe. Don’t laugh; it’s true. I mean, let’s face it, Spike protects what he loves, and he clearly loves Willow. You should see how he looks at her. I wish a guy would look at me that way; no one, not even Angel, ever has. Sorry...off the subject again; my nonexistent love life is not what I’m supposed to talk about. Anyway, Spike loves Willow, and he’ll protect her, just like he protected Drusilla. Speaking of Dru, you have got to admit, she’s undead proof that Spike’s definitely not commitment-shy. The guy stayed with her for over a century, and she’s completely loony tunes. (I guess that just goes to show how tolerant Spike is.) Okay, on to my next point...
She’s good for him. I know, I know, you can’t reform a guy, but Willow’s doing a pretty damn good job of reforming Spike. He’s been nicer lately, and he only threatened to kill Xander once this week. Before he started dating Willow, it was three or four threats a day. He’s even nice to me. Plus, he’s been working harder. Before Willow, he was on our side simply because he had been blackmailed into helping us. Now, he’s got a tangible reason to fight with us. He loves Willow, and he wants to keep her safe.
I guess you can tell by now that I’ve thought about Willow being with Spike a lot. It was kind of hard not to. You see, you weren’t there. You didn’t see it happening like I did. It was subtle at first. Sometimes I’d catch Spike stealing a glance at her, and he was always nicer to her than he was to the rest of us. I didn’t really think about it much at that point, though. I mean, Willow tends to inspire most people to be nice (except maybe Cordelia.) I know now that I should have realized what was happening, but maybe I just didn’t want to see it. I think that’s why it came as such a surprise to the others. They didn’t want to see that Spike was falling for Willow, so they didn’t. I guess I can’t blame them for not noticing what was happening. It took a real slap in the face for me to realize what was going on...
It was a couple of weeks before Willow and Spike got together. I had been on patrol while the others were researching, and it was pretty late. Instead of going to see Giles to tell him I’d found nothing on patrol, I headed back to the dorm. I was about halfway there when I saw Willow. I know, big deal, right? But it was a big deal. You see, I sensed a vampire in the area. I almost freaked out at first. I mean, my best friend was out late at night, and a vampire was stalking her. Then I saw who it was. As I’m sure you already guessed, it was Spike, and, being the curious Slayer that I am, I decided to see just what the hell Spike was up to. He followed her all the way back to the dorm, keeping his distance, always making sure that he wasn’t spotted. When she got to the dorm, he waited until she walked in, then turned to go. I figured he was just leaving, but followed him anyway. Instead of heading home, he walked over to where the window of the dorm room I share with Willow is. It wasn’t until after the light came on and Willow’s silhouette appeared that Spike left. It was then that I realized what was going on. I knew Giles hadn’t asked Spike to walk Willow home; he didn’t trust him enough to do that. Besides, if he had, wouldn’t Spike have been walking with Willow instead of trailing after her like a puppy dog? Anyway, I added up all the things I had seen: Spike watching Willow, Spike being really nice to Willow, Spike making sure Willow got back to the dorm safely. It was pretty obvious that the idiot vampire had a thing for Will. That, of course, was when I freaked. I wanted to run after Spike and beat the crap out of him...I wanted to give him a holy water bubble bath...I wanted to stake him...I wanted to...
Sorry about that. What I wanted to do isn’t important. Besides, I’m over it. Plus, it’s pretty obvious that I didn’t do that. Spike’s still among the undead, isn’t he? Needless to say, I didn’t go back to the dorm that night. I needed to vent my rage, and I knew Willow would notice my mood. I wasn’t sure how she’d react to Spike’s infatuation (how was I to know she had a thing for him, too?), and I really didn’t feel like finding out. So I went home. Mom was on one of her infamous buying trips, so I was able to pretty much just throw a fit. I attacked my stuffed animals (poor Mr. Gordo will never be the same), and then proceeded to pretty much scream my head off. It wasn’t one of my best moments. Aren’t you sorry you missed it? Anyway...after a while I calmed down, and I got to thinking about the situation. Scary thought, huh? Me thinking, that is. Okay...back to my point. While I was thinking, the image of Spike watching Willow kept coming back to me. You see, when Spike looks at Will, it’s easy to forget he’s a vampire. He looks so nice...so gentle...so human. So I decided to let it go, to wait and see what would happen. I didn’t have long to wait. Two weeks later, he kissed her while they were working together, and the rest is pretty much history. I’m glad I found out about it before everyone else did. If I hadn’t I probably would’ve staked Spike the second I found out he’d kissed her, and I’d have ended up with one less person (well, vampire) helping me and a really ticked off witch on my hands. And face it, I have enough problems without that happening.
Besides, if he breaks her heart, I can always drive a stake through his.
The End