AN: Hi, I'm not so good at English gram. and my spellingscontrole doesn't really work, my beta doesn't return my stories, or she takes 4 weeks to return it. So I'll already post this chapter and I'm looking for a beta right now. So please excuse me for the faults in this chapter. I'll get to it, but I just really wanted to post the beginning of this story.


Big Kisses,

Spikegirl


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~ Chapter 1: Buffy Summers

A small girl was sitting on a couch in a big mansion, that was build in a cemetery. The girl was always alone, nobody talks to this girl... her name is Buffy Summers.

When Buffy Anne Summers was 11-years-old, her mother died because of brain tumour little Buffy didn’t only lose her mother, but also her best friend. Joyce Summers and her daughter were inseperable. Little Buffy with her blond hair and big green eyes cried for months over the loss of her mother. Because of the sudden death of her mother little Buffy Summers had to live with her father, Hank Summers. But Buffy didn’t want to live with him, and he didn’t want her.. so her father pulled some strings and made sure she didn’t have to live with him. Her father paid her a lot of money to stay away from him each month, so it wasn’t hard to get by... money wise.

Because the house of her and her mother had to be sold, Buffy’s next mission was to found a place to stay in. And she soon found it... a big empty mansion. It was Buffy’s luck that the mansion did have electricity. So Buffy found a new home.

She didn’t have to worry about Social Services, because they were to afraid to come to the ‘haunted’ mansion. Nobody worried about Buffy Summers, the little girl without any parents, they had their own lives to worry about. There was only one man that cared about the little girl... that man was Rupert Giles, Buffy’s old teacher.

Her father did give Buffy a lot of money, but not enough to go to school, so Mr. Giles helped her by coming by every schoolday homeschool her. Mr. Giles stayed for dinner almost every night, he didn’t have anyone to go home to. He liked to stay at Buffy’s... she decorated the mansion really nice, it almost looked like a real house. She even had a guestroom for him, where he could spend the night, which he sometimes did. He didn’t only teach her about science and stuff, but also about cooking and cleaning. Rupert Giles was like a father to Buffy. Buffy always talked to him about her mother and her past... that she didn’t like to tell anyone. Mr. Giles suggested to sing about her feelings, because he heard from a friend that, that could help to face your fears. So Buffy sang about her feelings and to Giles’ amasement she could sing like an angel.

Mr. Giles didn’t tell anyone about helping Buffy, but there were rumours tough, about a wild woman living at the mansion in the cemetery. Nobody actually went to look because everyone believed the mansion was haunted. They didn’t know how the ‘wild woman’ looked like, because Buffy never left the cemetery. She went to see her mother every Friday night, but that was as far as she went. Giles often told her that she should go out more, but Buffy was just to afraid to face the real world. Giles was the only man she trusted, but even if he went with her she wouldn’t step a foot outside the cemetery.
She knew that people might find it strange, but the cemetery became her home in the last 6 years.

Buffy used to have friends, before her mother died. They tried to help her through the pain she was feeling, but they just couldn’t. After a while they just gave up and never spoke to Buffy again. After that they couldn’t even talk to her anymore, they didn’t know where she was... they didn’t know that she lived at the mansion.

“Buffy? Buffy, are you there?” she heard someone call her name. She left her bedroom and walked through the hall into the living room. She smiled when she saw Giles standing there with his arms full with books and on top of that a bag of groceries with he always bought for her.

Because Buffy didn’t like to go out, she gave Giles money and a list to buy her groceries. He also bought her furniture and things like a washing machine and a fridge, but he always made sure the delivery boys didn’t tell anyone about the stuff they delivered in the mansion, but that wasn’t a problem, because Giles had friends in ‘high’ places.

“Hi Giles.” she gave him a kiss on the cheek and helped him put the groceries in the fridge. Buffy was wearing a white skirt and a pink shirt. Buffy also did some of her own shopping, she bought clothes from the internet. Her clothes were delivered at Giles’ and he brought them with him when he came.

“How are you?” Giles asked while he put the books on the coffee table.

“I’m fine, I’ve finished my song yesterday. The one you asked me to make, about my dad?” she asked, looking at him with her green eyes.

“Uhm, yes. Yes, I remember. We’ll talk about that later. I brought a couple of books with me.” He said, pointing at the big pile of books. “I want you to read them, they’re not for ‘school’, but they ARE homework.” He said with a strict look. Buffy was just like any other girl at her 17-year-old age, she HATED homework.

“Okay, what are they about?”

“Problems, mostly. Problems that kids of your age have. From a fight with their parents to pregnancy. Talking about pregnancy, I brought you something.” he walked over to his briefcase and grabbed a small box. He handed it to her.

“Condoms?” Buffy said with a smile. “Giles, you’re the (only) person I have contact with, I don’t need condoms.” She said with a smile, not feeling uncomfortable at all. They had the sex-talk years ago, when she asked him about it. Giles wasn’t that comfortable with the subject, but he explained her all about the birds and the bees.

“I know, it’s just... you never know what happens in the future and I want you to be prepared.” He explained, blushing a little, still not comfortable about the subject of sex.

Buffy’s smile faded. “I appreciate this Giles, but even if I went outside, nobody would want a ‘wild woman’.” She said with a sarcastic voice. She knew about the rumours, Giles told her a while ago. She didn’t understand what their deal was, she was just like any other teenager without any parents, she just didn’t live in a foster home or on the streets. Just because she didn’t come out didn’t mean she was a wild woman. There was nothing wild about her actually, even Giles said she was a quiet person.

“You never know...” was all Giles said. “Well... I suppose we should eat... I brought Chinese.” Knowing that was her favourite food, after McDonalds of course.

“Okay, thanks.” She said with a smile. They used to continue with her schooling, but this Friday it was different, not because it was a special day or what not, they both just didn’t feel like doing anything school related.

They both ate in silence, when they were finished eating and had done the dishes they sat on the couch just talking. Giles asked Buffy about the song she made and she made a promise to sing it for him next time, she didn’t feel like singing tonight.

“Buffy. I wanted to talk to you about next Monday. I.. uhm... can’t come then. I’m expecting company,” Giles explained.

Buffy looked sad. “From who?” she asked, Giles never got company.

“My nephew is moving in with me, my sister can’t handle him. So she sent him to move here. She only asked me yesterday.” He explained with a hopeful look that she wouldn’t be all to sad. He never missed a day, so he didn’t know how she would react.

“Okay. I hope he likes it here. But I’m sure he will... with you being there and all.” She said with a smile. She was sad for a little while, but she knew that having family over was a big thing for Giles so it was a big thing for her.

“Thanks Buffy. I just hope he will adjust.”

“What’s his name?” she asked, making conversation.

“Uhm... William. But he likes to be called... uhm... spoke? No, that isn’t it. Oh, right... Spike. Don’t ask me were he got that name from. He’s a...” He said while looking at Buffy’s confused face.

“A bit of a rebel?” she asked with an amused look. “A bit like you in your Ripper-phase?” she asked him. She knew all about his Ripper days, when he was against everything good in the world. She laughed.

“Well, I just hope he’s not as bad as I was.” He said.

Chapter 2: It’s Spike

“I can’t believe this. You’ve been here for like what, 5 minutes? And you’ve already managed to damage something in this town? What were you thinking, wrecking a billboard?” Giles was yelling at his bleached-blond with blue eyes nephew. “I expected more from you William.” He said with a sombre look.

His nephew mumbled something. “What?” Giles asked.

“It’s Spike.” He said with an angry look. “You’d be better to remember it, mate.” He said with a smirk.

‘Oh god he’s worse then me’ Giles thought while looking at his clothes; black jeans, black shirt and of course a matching black leather duster.

“Where are you going?” Giles asked when he saw his nephew walking towards the door.

“Out” he said while slamming the door shut.

Giles looked at the closed door. “I really need a drink.” He said while falling back on the couch.


Spike was walking through the park, just smoking a cigarette and looking at the stars when three guys came walking towards him. They stopped in front of him and looked at him with wide smiles.

“Hi, you must be the new guy right?” the biggest guy with the brown hair asked him. He was wearing white shirt with a black jacket and blue jeans.

“Yeah, what of it?” he answered. ‘God he looks like a big poof and what’s with the hair gel?’

“I’m Angel, we heard there was going to be a new guy. We expected a nerd though.” He said

‘A poof look AND a poof name.’ he thought while smirking. “Why’s that?”

“Because you’re the nephew of a librarian.” He answered. “Anyway, so I’m Angel, this is Parker,” he said pointing at a black-haired boy “and this is Riley.” Pointing at a brown-haired boy that looked like a farmer.

“The name’s Spike.” he said.


“Well, if he isn’t here then I don’t have to be here either.” Giles mumbled to himself. He grabbed his coat after writing his nephew a note and left through the front door.
He didn’t call Buffy on her cell phone that she got from him, he wanted to surprise her.


Angel, Riley, Parker and Spike were just talking and smoking a bit when they suddenly got bored.

“I’m bored” Riley whined while looking at Angel asking him silently to think of something to do.

“What’s the time?” Angel asked him.

“It’s 11 o’clock.”

“Good” Angel said with a smirk. He turned to Spike. “So Spike, ever seen a wild woman before?”

~ Chapter 3: Boeh?


“A what?” Spike asked Angel with a confused look on his face. He has only met the guys two hours ago and they didn’t seem bad. They told him they were the most popular guys of the whole school. He wondered what it would be like to be popular. He wan’t exactely popular in England, no he used to be a nerd ‘till his father died. He didn’t care about his grades anymore and skipped school any chance he got. Which his mother obviously didn’t approve of, so she sent hem to his uncle, hoping that he would chance his ways. ‘Crazy bint’ he thought. He would never chance, he likes the way he is now, not the nerd he was.

“There’s a wildwoman in the old mansion at the cemetery. Everyone says she’s crazy and that she doesn’t talk a word of English.” Angel said with a scary look on his face, hoping to scare Spike.

“Aha, and you’ve seen her?” he asked.

“Uhm... no.” Angel answered.

“Well, then how could you know she doesn’t talk English if you’ve never seen her.” He asks.

The other guys look at each other. “Never mind, let’s go. We’ll find out soon enough.” Angel said with a smile.

5 minutes later they arrived at the old, dark mansion.

“Here she’s lives.” Parker says, hoping he didn’t have to go inside. The craziest stories were spread and he didn’t exactely wanted to find out if they were true or not.

Spike looked at his 3 new friends. They were just standing there, not moving an inch. He smirked. “Well, what are you waiting for? Let’s go and find out shall we?” he said almost laughing at the expressions on their faces.

“You want to go in there?” Riley asked.

“Ofcourse, I would like to see this ‘wildwoman.”

Everyone looked at Angel. Angel, who didn’t want to seem like a wimp smiled. “Let’s go and see this bitch. I bet she’s ugly as hell.”

They all walked further to the mansion. They all walked to the windows in the middle. They all stood next to each other, looking in side.
“I think this is the livingroom” Parker said looking inside with a interested look.

“This doesn’t looks like a house where a wildwoman lives, this looks like any ordinary house.” Spike says, not sure if he believed himself. ‘Who would want to live here?’ he asked himself.

“I think...” Angel stopped talking when he saw someone enter the room.

‘Holy shit, someone does live here’ Spike thought.

They all looked as a girl walked to the door, they couldn’t see her face. She was dressed in black. Black skirt, black shirt and to match this black boots.

They still couldn’t see her face and the 4 friends were waiting ‘till she turned around to see how she would look.

“Some say her face is full of scars.” Riley Finn said.

Buffy walked to the kitchen. She went to grab herself some orange juice, but stopped when she heard someone talking

“... full of scar’s” she heard a guy talk.

She smiled and went to the backdoor.

“Where did she go?” Parker Abrams asked his friends. The others shrugged.

All of a sudden they heard a terrifying noise coming from the bushes. The boys turned around, scared for their lives.
Then suddenly someone jumped out of the bushes.

The boys screamed. The person, which they could now see was a girl, just stood there staring at them. They stopped screaming.

“Uh... boeh?” she said.

The 3 boys screamed again, running away. Spike just stood there, still staring at the girl.
He chuckled and walked towards her. He moved his hands to her face and pulled some leafes and branches off of her face that had stick to her skin, making it look like scars.

“What’s your name, luv?” he asked her.

“Bu... Buffy.” she said.

“Pretty name. Mine’s Spike.” He said while kissing the top of her hand. “I’d better go now. It was a pleasure meeting you Buffy.” He said.

Buffy watched him walk away.

“Yeah, a real pleasure.” She mumbled.

~ Chapter 4: I’m not okay

The next day, the boys decided to come again, after Spike promised them that she wouldn’t hurt them.
They were looking into the window again when they saw someone enter the living room.

“Giles?” Spike whispered to himself.

They saw the girl hug Giles and they could even hear her talk through the window.

“Giles, what are you doing here? I thought you wouldn’t come today either.” She asked with a smile on her face, thankful that he did show.

“I had some time. My nephew went out with his friends.” He said.

Spike looked at the girl, Buffy. ‘She has the voice of an angel, please turn around love, I want to see your face again.’

As if she could hear him she turned around to sit on the couch. The four boys gasped again. She was absolutely beautiful with her honey blond hair and perfect curves all over. They couldn’t really see her eyes, but they guessed it was a hazel colour.

They all looked at each other.
“She doesn’t look like a wild woman, she looks just like any other girl at our school.” Riley said.
The other boys nodded.

“But what is your uncle doing here Spike?” Parker asked him.

“Yeah, how does he know this girl?” Angel asked.

“I have no idea, but...” he started, but stopped when he heard them talking again.



“It’s hard moving to another place.” Buffy said with a sad look. She remembered she had to leave the house she had with her mother and move into this mansion. But she likes it now.
Buffy decided that she wouldn’t tell him about the boy she’d seen, not yet anyway. She wanted to keep this to herself.

“Uhm... yes, of course it’s hard. He’ll come around. I was wondering if you would like to sing that song you wrote about your father.”

Buffy looked at him with a nervous expression, not sure if she was ready.

“You need to face your fears Buffy, it’s better for you and I need to know what happened between you and your father.” Giles explained.

“Okay, hold on.” She said while nervously stroking her hands through her hair. She walked to the corner and grabbed her guitar. She walked back and sat on the couch again.
“Here goes nothing.” she mumbled.


Once upon a time there was a girl
In her early years she had to learn
How to grow up living in a war that she called home
Never know just where to turn for shelter from the storm
Hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face
Every time my father's fist would put her in her place
Hearing all the yelling I would cry up in my room
Hoping it would be over soon

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK

All the guys in the house and outside listened to the words that the girl was singing.

I often wonder why I carry all this guilt
When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built
Shadows stir at night through a crack in the door
The echo of a broken child screaming "please no more"
Daddy, don't you understand the damage you have done
To you it's just a memory, but for me it still lives on

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so, so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday

Buffy was crying now, but she didn’t stop singing.

Giles looked at her with pain in his eyes. He didn’t know what to think and he didn’t want to believe the pain she must have had, the pain she still haves (has).

It's not so easy to forget
All the lines you left along her neck
When I was thrown against cold stairs
And every day I'm afraid to come home
In fear of what I might see there

Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK
I'm OK

Both Buffy and Giles were crying when she stopped and Giles took her in his arms. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry Buffy.” He mumbled, feeling her pain. He didn’t know what happened to her and a part of him wished he still didn’t.

The four friends outside didn’t know what to do, all they could think of was the beautiful girl inside that was still crying. At least, that was what 3 guys were thinking.
The other one was thinking a little differently.

‘It’ll only be a matter of time before I get her in my bed. I’ll break the little girl and turn her into a real slut.’ He thought with a wicked smile on his face.
 

~ Chapter 5: First day at school

Spike walked to school with a cranky look on his face. He didn’t want to go to school. He hated school as a matter of fact. He used to like it though, but that was when he was William, now he’s Spike, and he hated school.

It’s been exactly a week when he saw the girl. He tried to talk about it with his uncle to find more about the girl, but he didn’t know how to talk about it without telling him that he saw them. He didn’t want his uncle to know that.

He saw the guys every day last week and they talked a lot about the girl. That she was hot and that she could really sing, but they didn’t talk about what they saw when they were at school. If they would talk about it or keep it a secret. They explained to Spike that most people didn’t believe in the girl, that it was just a rumour to scare people. No one ever saw the girl or the mansion. But Spike doesn’t believe that, someone must have seen the girl, because if they didn’t, how could they know a girl lived there?

Spike didn’t exactly like the guys, but they were all he had. He really didn’t like the big poof and often showed him that by calling him Peaches, which pissed him off. But he didn’t do anything about it. ‘Probably scared that I’ll kick his ass’ Spike thought to himself with a smirk.

Well anyway, here he was standing in front of his new school, with absolutely no intention of actually going inside.

“Hi.” he heard, but he didn’t pay attention.

“Excuse me?” he heard the same voice again. He looked behind him and saw a redhead looking at him with big eyes.

“Hi, pet. You needed something?” he asked.

“You must be the new kid right?” she asked him. He nodded. “Great. Hi, I’m Willow Rosenberg. I’m supposed to show you around, give you your schedule. ” She said, smiling.

“Hi Will, I’m Spike.” He said, already liking the girl. They shook hands and walked towards the school. After they had everything and Willow showed him around they went to the library to get him some books.

“Hi, Willow, William.” Giles greeted them with a big smile on his face.

Willow looked at Spike with a weird expression. He gritted his teeth. “How many times do I have to tell you uncle... it’s Spike!” he said angrily.

“Fine, fine.”

After they collected his books they disappeared through the door again.

“Hey Spike, what are you doing man?” Angel asked him looking at Willow with a disgusted look on his face.

“Hanging.” he said.

“Yeah, I see that. But what are you doing with her?” he asked Spike.

“Hanging, she’s cool.” He said. He knew what this was all about, but he liked Willow better then the guys and he was one of the nerds when he was in England, and he wasn’t planning on treating anyone like crap just because they weren’t popular.

“She isn’t cool. She’s a nerd, we make fun of her, that’s what we do. Now, make fun of her and come with us.” Angel said.

“Like hell. Piss of peaches. I would rather make fun of you. I mean, what the deal with the hair? How much hair gel can someone use?” he said with a smirk, noticing that Angel was really pissed of.

He was about to comment when someone came running to them.

“Leave her alone Angel.” He heard.

“Get away faggot, this isn’t about you.” Angel said still looking at Spike with a pissed off look on his face.

“Leave Willow alone.”

Angel turned to him. “Fuck you,” he said, pulling back his fist to ram it in his face. But just when he was about to hit he was stopped by... Spike.

“Don’t do it man, just walk away.” Spike said, looking like he was about to hit him.

Angel saw he was serious and left, followed by Parker and Riley.

“Thanks.” Spike heard the black-haired boy say. “My name is Alexander Harris, but everyone calls me Xander, or faggot.” He says with a smile.

Spike laughs. “I’m Spike, nice to meet you mate.”

Willow grabs a hand of both the boys. “Come on guys, let’s have lunch.”

~ Chapter 6: Compromising Situation

Spike wanted to see Buffy again. But first he needed to know more about her. When his uncle left the house to get some groceries Spike went to his study hoping he could find something about the girl.

Giles told Spike at the beginning that his study was private and that he wasn’t allowed to enter it.
Spike smiled, like that would stop him. He opened the door, stepped into the study and closed the door again.
He walked around and saw a big pile of books on the desk. He walk towards it and grabbed the book on top, a book about vampires.
‘Okay, and I thought my mom was delusional.’

He put the book down and grabbed others ‘till he saw a book that looked like a journal. He opened it and began to read.

11/02/2003: Elizabeth Anne Summers, known as Buffy Summers, is a remarkable girl. In spite of the circumstances she had, she’s a bright, young girl with a lot of potential.
Her mother died when she was eleven, and her father didn’t want her so she stayed at the mansion, having no place else to go. I don’t know what happened between Buffy and her father, she doesn’t like to talk about it. But I know she’ll tell me when she’s ready.
The reason she doesn’t leave the mansion is because she’s scared of people, scared of people letting her down.
I asked her to sing about her mother and she must have been a great person, because the song was all about love.
It’s really something that a young girl could take care of herself this way and turn a dark, scary mansion into a home, it’s really comfortable. The house is like any other house in Sunnydale, only bigger. It has electricity, gas and even running water. I buy her food of course, and she can cook better then most teenage girls I know.
A lot of people talk bad about Buffy, known as ‘wild woman’ but they really don’t know her. She’s just like any other girl that I see at work. She’s bright, she likes clothes and chocolate, and loves ice cream. She has a pink stuffed pig, that she calls Mr. Gordo, a present from her mother when she was just seven years old.
I was very surprised when she turned down my offer to live with me. But I understand now, she’s just scared of people. Afraid of their reaction towards her. Afraid of someone leaving her again, just like her mother did. She used to have a lot of friends, but they let her down after her mother died, not wanting anything to do with her, simply because they didn’t know how to react. It was foolish of these children, but they were only 11 years old.
This girl is like a daughter to me and I hope that one day she’ll be comfortable to be around other people again.

Spike turned a couple of pages and saw the date when he was there with Angel, Riley and Parker. He started reading.

01-24-2003: Something very frightening happened today. I asked Buffy to sing about the situation between her and her father and she sang the most shocking song I’ve ever heard. It appears that her father, Hank Summers, used to hit her and her mother. She told me once that her father used to drink a lot, and that he was always working, but I didn’t know he was such a bad father. The things Buffy had to deal with at such a young age is abnormal. Such a things shouldn’t be happening in this world, especially not with children.
I get why she’s afraid now. She always had more trouble dealing with men which I didn’t understand before.
I remember when we saw a movie which involved a girl getting hit by her father. She was quiet during that movie, something that doesn’t happen very often.
I also remember the time when she fell asleep and woke up screaming “Daddy, no!” I thought she had a dream about him leaving her, but now I know differently.
She still doesn’t like to talk about her father, but at least now I know why, at least now I know what happened to her.
And I just hope that I’m a better father-figure for her then her own father.

‘That’s enough for now’ Spike thought to himself. He put the journal down and went downstairs, grabbing his coat before leaving through the front door.

Giles didn’t come over as often as he used to, because of his nephew. Buffy understood, but she was still sad. She missed him, but she also missed Spike. She needed him to come to her, but she didn’t know why. She never reacted to anyone the way she did with him, it took Giles a long time before she really trusted him but with Spike, it went almost naturally.

She was scared of people but sometimes she wished she would meet someone special, a guy she would fall in love with. She wanted to experience love, she loved Giles, but she just wanted to be in love with someone.

Buffy sighed and turned towards the t.v again, her favorite show ‘The O.C.’ was on and she didn’t want to miss it. It was a really great show and Ryan was really hot. Ryan and Marissa were making out and Buffy was thinking what it would feel like, being kissed by a guy, a bleached blond guy.
Before she knew it she had put her hand over her breast and gave her breast a squeeze, thinking about Spike doing the same thing to her. She moaned, it felt wonderful. She never felt anything like it. She pulled of her shirt and bra and continued squeezing her breasts and tugging on her nipples. After a while she pulled of her pants and underwear and curiously ran her finger across her slit, bucking up when she found her clit. She smiled and rubbed it slowly. She pulled her finger back and sucked on it, making it wet and then put her finger right back, dreaming it was Spike licking her there. With her other hand she continued to squeeze her rightbreast. She felt amazing, the feeling was so intense. She decided to try something else, something she had seen in a movie once. She put her hand, the one she had on her breast, and put it inside of her.
“Ohhh” she moaned.
She had no idea something could feel so good.
She continued doing this, moving her fingers faster inside of her ‘till she came, opening her eyes and screaming... at the man in the doorway.
 

~ Chapter 7: Boy in my room


Buffy was still screaming when Spike was suddenly standing in front of her.

“Luv, stop. Please stop screaming.” He yelled at her. Hoping she would stop screaming.

“Don’t yell at me!”

“Who’s yelling at who here?” he asked, looking at her with a strange expression.

“Sorry.” she mumbled.

“That’s alright.” He said, still looking at her.
Buffy looked at him, he was still looking at her. She was about to ask him what he was staring at when she suddenly remembered she was naked. Naked! In front of a stranger! She stood up and ran out of the room, up to her bedroom. She grabbed some clothes and put them on, but she didn’t return to the living room. She didn’t know what to think. She didn’t know what had gotten into her. She didn’t feel comfortable around other people, but when he came in and even when he yelled at her, she felt like she didn’t have to fear him. There was just something about him. ‘Yeah, he’s gorgeous that’s what’s going on.’ She thought to herself.
She stopped thinking about it when she heard a knock on her door.

“Luv, are you alright?” she heard him ask.

‘Okay, what do I do? Think, think. I can pretend I’m not here.’ She thought.

“I know you’re here, pet.” He said.

“Damn.” She mumbled.

“Can I come in?” he asked her through the door.

“NO!” she yelled. Her mother always told her that she couldn’t have boys up in her room, what was he thinking? Didn’t he know that a girl wasn’t aloud to have a boy in her room? “I’ll uhm... I’m coming.” She mumbled.

Spike misunderstood her and walked through the door.

“Ahhh!” she screamed. “I told you, I’m coming.” She yelled. ‘I have a boy in my room, I have a boy in my room. Okay, calm down Buffy, it’s going to be okay. Breath... breath.’
“I’m sorry, I thought you said; come in.” He said, apologizing.

“Okay uhm... fine, let’s go. We’ll go to the living room.” She said motioning him to follow her. She walked in front of him, which gave him a perfect view of her ass.

They both sat on the couch, as far from each other as possible, which wasn’t the intention of Spike.

“I like the name Elizabeth. I’m Giles’s nephew by the way,” He said, trying to break the ice.

“Giles told you about me?” she asked with a shocked face. Giles promised her that he wouldn’t tell anyone about her.

“No, I uhm... kinda read his journal.” He confessed.

“Oh” she said.

“Yeah oh.”

“So, what are you doing here?” Buffy asked him, not liking the quiet when she wanted answers. “And how did you come in?”

“I just wanted to see you. And I came in with a key that I stole from my uncle” he explained her.

“Aha.” She said, stunned from the answer he gave her. ‘So he’s a bad boy.’
“What’s life like in England?” she asked him.

They just sat there talking for hours. They talked about everything. Buffy hadn’t laughed as much as she did with him for a long time. Buffy asked him to keep her a secret, and he promised not to tell anyone. Then Spike had to go back, but they decided that he’d come back in two days so they could talk some more and have dinner together. When Spike left Buffy couldn’t help but feel sad that he wasn’t with her. “What’s happening to me?” she asked herself.
 

~ Chapter 8: First kiss

Chapter 8: First kiss

“Hi Giles, how are you?” Buffy asked him when he entered the room.

“I’m fine dear, how are you?”

“Good, peachy even.” She said with a big smile.

“You’re very happy today.”

“Yeah, uhm... about that.” She said, knowing that she could never lie to Giles. “I met someone a couple of days ago, he came here and we just started talking and we became friends... sort of.” She explained to him.

“You’ve met someone? What happened, who is it?” he asked, confused that she let anyone close to her.

“It’s Spike... uhm William, your nephew.” She said, looking down at her feet hoping that he wouldn’t be mad.

“William? You talked to William?” he asked, too calm for Buffy’s liking.

“Yeah, he came here and we just started talking about a lot of things. He’s really nice Giles. He’ll be here tonight after dinner.” She said.

“And you just talked?”

“Uh huh, it was really nice to talk someone of my age.” She explained. “And don’t be mad at William, I asked him not to tell you about us.”

“I see, okay. That’s great, you’re really going forward.” He said, partly proud of her and partly afraid for her.

“It’s going to be fine Giles, don’t worry.” She said, knowing exactly what he was thinking.

Giles and Buffy talked some more about Spike and how his presence would affect her, but Buffy assured him nothing would change, that she just found a new friend. After a while Giles left, not knowing that his nephew was just leaving his house to go see Buffy.

Buffy was freaking out. Spike was going to be here in like 5 minutes and she didn’t know what to do. She was going to have a boy over, a boy that she had feelings for, feelings she didn’t understand. She was scared, but also excited to experience this new feeling.

Buffy walked towards the door when she heard 2 soft knocks on it. She opened it and it revealed Spike standing there with a nervous smile on his face.

“Hi, pet. How are you?” He asked.

“I’m fine thanks, you?” she asked him, nervously.

“Fine.” He said. They both didn’t know what to do, both to nervous to say something. “Oh, I brought some movies that we could watch. Uhm... I have Troy, Sharktale and A Cinderella Story, I thought you might like them.” He said, not wanting to give her the idea that he was into girly movies.

“Thanks, that was really nice of you.” She said with a smile. “You want to see Troy first?” she asked him. When he nodded she moved to put the video into the VCR. She grabbed some chips from the kitchen and joined him on the couch, sitting next to him, closely next to him.

They were watching the movie, sometimes talking about the characters in it. They were only watching the movie with half their mind, the other half was thinking about the other. They couldn’t help noticing how close they were sitting next to each other and how good and natural it felt.
When the movie was finished Spike noticed that Buffy had fell asleep during the movie. He smiled and put his arm around her so her head was against his shoulder. He kissed her forehead, not knowing that Buffy was actually awake. She opened her eyes and looked up at him smiling.

“Hi.” Spike said. Buffy was about to answer him when he leaned in. When his lips met hers she moaned. ‘God it feels good’ they both thought. Buffy moaned again when he entered her mouth with his tongue. He put his hand behind her head, moving her closer to him. They both pulled away after a while, looking at each other with smiles on their faces. After a while Buffy went to put Sharktale on and when she sat back on the couch she sat on Spike’s lap, with his arms around her.
After Sharktale Spike had to go, so he kissed her goodbye and promised to come back as soon as possible.

“Bye.” He whispered.

Buffy put her arms around him and kissed him passionately again. “Bye” she whispered. She was watching him walk away, closing the door when she couldn’t see him anymore.
 

Chapter 9: Bronze

“You should totally come to The Bronze tonight Spike.” Willow told him.

“The what?” he asked, not knowing what Willow was talking about.

“The Bronze, it’s the coolest club in town. Okay, the only club in town but it’s pretty cool.” Xander explained.

“Uhm... I don’t know...”Spike started, but after he saw Willow’s face silently begging to come he said “...Sure, why not.”

“Cool, We’ll see you there.” Willow told him. She and Xander stood up, said goodbye to Spike and left for their way home.

While Spike and Giles were having dinner, Spike was thinking about the perfect way to ask him to go to the Bronze. Giles once told him that The Bronze was a bad place for kids to go and hang out. His thoughts were broking when Giles started talking.

“Buffy told me that you two talked.” He said, shocking Spike.

“She did?” he asked him.

“Yes, she told me yesterday when I came to visit.” He explained.

“Oh, she said that she didn’t want to tell you yet.” He said, not wanting Giles to think he didn’t say anything to piss him off.

“I want you to know that Buffy has been through a lot and that she doesn’t need more problems in her life. It’s pretty bad enough.”

“I know that Giles. I’m not going to cause any trouble.” He said.

“Okay, I’m going to trust you on that. Just please be gentle with her, she hasn’t talked to anyone except me for a couple of years. She couldn’t handle getting hurt again.”

“I won’t, I promise.” Spike said. He would never even think of hurting her.

When Spike arrived at the club he immediately spotted Willow who wasn’t hard to miss because of her red hair and the fact that she was jumping up and down, waving at him. He smiled, Willow was a pretty cool girl.
He walked over to the table where Xander, Willow and a guy he didn’t know were sitting at.

“Hello.” he said, while taking a seat next to Xander.

“Hi, Spike. This is Oz, my boyfriend.” She said, smiling.

“Nice to meet you, mate.” He said, not knowing what he should think of the brown-haired guy.

Oz nodded. Spike raised an eyebrow. “Oz doesn’t say much.”

“Okay...” Spike said. ‘Weird.’ He thought to himself.

“Oz is in a band that’s called ‘Dingoes ate my baby’.” Willow told him, trying to get a conversation going.

“What do you play?” Spike asked him.

“Guitar.” Oz said.

“I used to play the guitar to when I was in a band in good old England. I sang a little to.” He told him.

Oz smiled and they started talking about their bands. Willow smiled, she really wanted them to like each other.
Spike smiled, he knew this were his friends.

He didn’t notice someone staring at him.

“Who is that salty goodness?” a girl asked her best friend.

“Don’t you know him, that Spike. He’s new, he’s been here for like a week. He ditched Angel and his gang for those losers.” Harmony said, pointing at Willow, Xander and Oz.

“Why would he do that?” Cordelia asked her.

“Don’t know, he must be an idiot.” She told her.

“I need to have him.”

“What? I thought you were totally in love with Angel?” Harmony asked her best friend with a confused look.

“Hello? Have you seen this guy? Angel’s nothing compared to him. I mean, look at him. Have you ever seen a guy like him, he must be great in bed.” She said with a wicked smile. “Don’t tell me you wouldn’t do him in a second.”

“As a matter of fact, no I wouldn’t. I’m perfectly happy with my Jessie thank you.” She said smiling at her boyfriend.

“Thanks sweetheart.” Jessie said, moving in to kiss her a long kiss.

“Uhg, you people are just sick to look at.” Cordelia said watching them with a digusted look.

Harmony and Jessie broke away. “Look Cordy, why don’t you just ask him to dance if you like him.” She said, hoping her friend would go away. She couldn’t believe she was once like her. She used to be terrible to other people, she didn’t care about anyone at all, only about her popularity, but that all changed when Jessie came into her life. He made her see the important things about life, like love and happiness, he didn’t care about money and popularity. Harmony couldn’t believe how lucky she was to have him. He was absolutely perfect, and she wouldn’t do anything that would make her lose him. Okay, she did notice that the new guy was pretty hot, but her Jessie was always number one on her list. He was pretty smart to, he tutored her because she wasn’t doing good at school, but that’s all better now.
She smiled and watched her boyfriend drinking a coke, laughing with his friends Gunn and Forrest. He was smart and good looking with his brown hair and his beautiful brown eyes.
Everyone called her a slut, but the truth is, she hasn’t slept with anyone yet. She wanted her first time to be special, not like Cordelia somewhere in the back of the car. She wanted a bed, with candles surrounding it and the perfect boyfriend, she wanted Jessie to be her first.

“Hello, earth to Harmony.” She heard Cordelia shout.

“What?” she asked her.

“I’m going to ask him to dance alright.” She said.

“Yeah, alright. You go get him.” She said with a smile. She knew Cordelia just wanted to use him, but she didn’t know the guy, maybe he just perfect for her friend. But then why would he ditch Angel and his gang for Xander and his?

Cordelia stood up and walked towards Spike’s table.

“Oh oh, be aware. Queen Bitch is coming.” Xander said with a low voice. When Cordelia reached the table he put up a big smile. “Hi, what are you doing here o holy one?” he asked her.

“Shut up geek, or was that freak now?” she said with a smile, loving to torture him.

“I don’t know, was it slut or whore? Oh wait, it was both.” He said with a mean glare.

“Whatever.” She said, rolling her eyes. She turned to Spike who was watching their interaction with an amused look. “Hi, I’m Cordelia Chase.” She said.

“I’m Spike Giles.” He said, not knowing if he really wanted to know her.

“So what are you doing?” She asked.

“Uhm... sitting here with my friends.” He said. ‘Is she blind or something?’

“Ugh, right. Why don’t you just come dance with me and leave these losers alone.” She said, convinced that he would leave them for her. ‘I mean, come on. They all do!’

“No thanks, these ‘losers’ happen to be my friends, and I would rather be friends with these so-called losers, then dance with a bitch like you.” He said, clearly pissed of at her for insulting his friends.

“Are you choosing them over me? Are you an idiot or something?” she asked him, thinking it had to be a joke or something.

“Apparently I am.”

“Ugh, you just like them, a big fat LOSER.” She shouted, then turning away to walk to her table again.

“What happened?” Harmony asked when she saw her friend come back to their table.

“He choose THEM over ME! How could he. I’ll get him for this.” She said.

“Maybe it just wasn’t meant to be Cordy. Maybe he likes someone else.” She said, trying to calm her friend.

“I don’t care, he’s publicly humiliated me. I’m not going to leave it at that, you’ll just wait and see.” She said, glaring at the back of Spike’s head.
 

~ Chapter 10: Exposed

Buffy was lying on her bed, thinking about... big surprise; Spike. She just couldn’t get over how gorgeous he was, with his bleached blond hair, perfect cheekbones and the deepest blue eyes. He was like an angel. He was a guy, a guy she didn’t know very well and the weird thing was, she felt perfectly comfortable with him, like she has known him for years. She knew it sounded cheesy, but that’s exactly what she felt with him. She couldn’t believe he saw her naked, doing.. stuff to herself. It was the first time she actually touched herself there and it was even worse because the reason why she did it was Spike. He was making her do things she wouldn’t even dream of before. He was making her heart beat faster then she could ever imagine.
If she could only know what he was thinking, so she could know if he felt that way to.

“Hey captain peroxide.” Xander said, taking a seat next to his new friend under the tree outside the school. When he didn’t answer he waved in front of his face. “Hellllooo, anybody home?”

“Sod off, Harris.” he said.

“I guess someone woke up at the wrong side of the bed.” Xander joked. “What were you thinking about, man. It looked like you were on another planet.”

“I was just thinking about...” he said, not knowing if he should lie about it or not. “... about a girl.”

“Jeez man, you’ve only been here for what, a week now? You sure move fast.” He said, looking as if he was the biggest player in the world.

“It’s not like that, she’s special.”

“They’re always special, man. But what’s her name, do I know her?” he asked him.

“Nah, you don’t know her.” He said, hoping his friend would drop it.

“Come on, you can tell me. You’re not ashamed of her are you?” he asked, not planning on dropping the subject before he knew all the details.

“You really don’t know her, she’s not in this school.”

“Well, invite her over to the Bronze.”

“I can’t do that Xand, she doesn’t like big crowds. She might freak out, things could get wild.” He explained.

“What? What’s that all about? What is she... a wild woman or something?” he asked. He looked over at Spike, looking at the expression on his face. “No shit, you’ve met her?”
Spike nodded. “How does she look?”

“Beautiful.” He said, not knowing an other word to describe his golden goddess.

“Wow. Uhm... is she really wild? I mean, did she attack you or something, what clothes did she wear?” He asked, wanting to know all about this so-called wild woman.

“She didn’t attack me or anything, she’s just like any other girl. And she wears...” he thought back at when he saw her naked, pleasuring herself. God he could get a hard-on just thinking about it. “... normal clothes.”

“Can I meet her? I want to see her. What’s her name?”

“No, I shouldn’t even have told you this. I promised not to tell anyone about her. I promised. And her name’s Buffy”

“Don’t worry man, I won’t tell a soul I promise.”

“Thanks man, I owe you one.” He said smiling at his friend. They started talking about Buffy. Little did they know that someone was listening, a certain someone who has a big mouth and needed something good to get back at him.



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Chapter 11: Perfect

Spike and Buffy were sitting on the couch making out. It started with watching a movie, but whenever they were close they always ended up making out.
Buffy moaned when his hand came in contact with her breast. He gave it a little squeeze, just testing how she would react, he wouldn’t want to do anything that she wasn’t ready for.
She moaned again and moved her hand down at the buldge in his pants. She smiled when she felt his erection straining against his pants. She knew what a penis looked like for the tv, but she also knew that it could be different in real life.
She put her hand over the bulge in his pants and gave it a squeeze which caused Spike to moan and kiss her harder, wanting to taste all of her.
Buffy pulled back and pulled of her shirt, then his, wanting to feel his naked flesh against hers. She was completely naked above the waist because she wasn’t wearing a bra. She suddenly felt self conscious when Spike kept staring at her.

“Beautiful.” he mumbled before crashing his lips against hers.

Buffy smiled, that’s exactly what she felt when he looked at her; beautiful.

Spike moved to so she was under him on the couch. He broke away from her mouth and started to kiss her neck, trailing down to her breasts, kissing and sucking on the nipples.

“Uggghhh” she moaned, it felt so good, he could make her feel so good.

She moved her hands down and starting to unzip his pants, Spike stopped sucking on her nipples. He looked at her.

“Are you sure, luv?” he asked her. He wanted her so much, but he could wait, he could wait forever if he had to.

“I’m sure.” She said before kissing him again.

Spike picked her up and carried her to her bedroom, before dropping her on her soft bed. He pulled of his pants and then hers, standing again to look at her. She really was his golden godess.
He pulled of her thong and opened her thighs. He smiled at her, he could feel she was dropping wet.
He leaned in and gave a small kiss on her pussy lips. When he heard her moan he smiled again.
He opened her lips and gave a lick from bottom to top, loving the taste of her.
He started licking and sucking her pussy, avoiding her clit first but then he soflty started sucking on it. Which caused Buffy to grabbed the hair on his head, wanting to keep him there forever. When he knew she was about to come he gave a little bite on her clit, she came screaming. He kissed his way back again, making sure he marked every little spot on her body.

“That was wonderful.” She said with a smile before kissing him.

Spike looked into her eyes and she nodded. He moved to her nightstand and grabbed the condoms she got from Giles, she told him all about it and put it on.
He guided his cock into her pussy and when the head was in, he gave a little kiss on her nose, before moving all the way in, up to the hilt.
Buffy almost screamed of pain, she knew it would hurt, she didn’t knew it would hurt this much.
Spike hadn’t moved an inch, he was raining kisses all over her face. She smiled, even if she was in pain, he always knew a way of making her feel better.
When Spike knew she was relaxed he started moving, causing them both to moan.
“Perfect.” He whispered in her ear.
He started with slow strokes, but when Buffy grabbed his butt he started to trust faster and deeper. Buffy could feel she was almost coming. Spike pinched her clit. “I love you.” He said.
That did it for Buffy, she came screaming his name. After a few trust Spike came to, spilling himself in the condom.
He moved out of her, after getting rid of the condom he stepped back in with Buffy, holding her close to him.

“I love you to.” She said with a smile. “And thank you, that was... perfect.”

Spike smiled. “Yes, it was.” He said before falling in a deep slumber with Buffy.





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~ Chapter 12: Fight

Spike was already awake for a couple of minutes when Buffy woke up. She opened her eyes and smiled when she saw Spike who was staring at her with a dreamy smile on his face.

“Hello sleepyhead.” He said with a smile, not believing she was still beautiful with bedhair. ‘Everything about her is so beautiful’ he thought to himself. ‘I’m so lucky to have her.’

“Hi, did you sleep well?” she asked him, not knowing what she was suppose to do or say. She’d never slept with anyone before. She was afraid that she would do something wrong.

“Perfect.” He said. He saw that she was scared so he gave her a little kiss on her nose to assure her that everything was okay. “What about you? Did you sleep well?”

“Perfect.” She answered him, lying her head back at his shoulder.

“What time is it?” she asked him after a while.

“It’s half past ten, I really should get home.” He said, not wanting to leave her, but knowing he had to.

“Why? You don’t have school today right? It’s Saturday.” She said.

“No, I don’t have school. It’s just Giles is going to freak when he realises I’m not home.” He told her, he really didn’t feel like having a fight with Giles. He really liked him, even though he didn’t always show it. Giles really cared about him and that was something that didn’t happen very often. He knew he was trouble when he was in England, but he really wanted to change. Especially now when he founded his angel.

“Alright. When do I see you again?” she asked him.

“I don’t know. If I don’t get grounded I’ll see you tonight alright sweetheart?” he said, not thinking he could take it if he didn’t see her tonight.

“Okay.” She said before kissing him passionately.

“I’ll see you tonight.” He promised before pulling on his clothes, kissing her one last time before dissapearing out of the frontdoor.

“Yeah, tonight.” She said with a smile, thinking about all the things they could do tonight.
Spike walked into the livingroom, hoping that his uncle wouldn’t see him.

“Hello William.” He heard from behind him. ‘Buuusted.’ Spike thougth with a grim on his face. He turned around with an innocent smile.

“Hello uncle Rupes.” He said.

“Don’t worry, Buffy already called me to say that you two fell alseep during the movies. I’m still a little mad, but that’s because I was worried, but you won’t be grounded.” He said. “Please don’t forget to call next time so I don’t have to worry alright? You’re still seventeen and even though this is a small town a lot of bad things can happen to innocent, young people here.”

“Yeah, thanks Rupes. I promise I’ll call next to time. You’re the best” He said with a smile and sat down at the kitchen table. Giles grabbed them both a cup of coffee and they both drank in silence, enjoying the silence. When Spike finished he put his cup in the dishwasher.

“I’ll be upstairs.” He said before walking upstairs towards his room.

He walked into his room, which was decorated in dark shades and had a big bed right in the middle covered with red satin sheets, and fell on his bed. “God that girl is perfect.” He said to himself, falling asleep with a big smile on his face.

Buffy was just about to pour herself some orange juice when she heard a knock on her door. ‘Weird’ she thought, because she didn’t expect anyone. She was secretly hoping it was Spike.
She went to the door and opened it revealing... a guy she didn’t know.

“Hi” she heard the guy say.

“Hi.” She said, not knowing what else to say.

“I’m Xander, Spike’s friend.” He explained, hoping he didn’t scare the girl.

“Oh, hi.” She said, becoming angrier by the second.

“I know I’m not suposse to come by or anything, it’s just, I have nowhere else to go.” He said. Only then Buffy saw the bruises on the guy’s, Xander’s, face.

“Oh, come in.” She said, stepping aside so he could enter.

“I wasn’t sure if you would even talk to me. I couldn’t go to Spike’s because mr. Giles would ask to many questions and Willow, that’s another friend of my, is away for the weekend with her boyfriend.” He explained. “And Spike talks about you a lot so I thought of you.”
“What happened, if I may ask.” She said, knowing what it was like wanting to talk to someone but not knowing how.

“Uhm.. My dad and I. We don’t get along so well. Well actually alcohol and my dad don’t get along so well.” He said with a smile. Buffy went to the kitchen and grabbed some ice.

“Here.” She said. “It will stopp the swelling.”

“Did you go to the police?” she asked him.

“No! I mean, it’s my dad. I can’t do that. He might be a jerk, but I can’t do that to him. Even if I didn’t care about him, I wouldn’t know what would happen to me if I did. And I want to finish highschool here.” He explained.

“I know what you mean.” She said. When he looked at her funny she tried to explain. “My dad used to hit me when I was little. He had a problem with alcohol too and he kind of took it out on me and my mom. I didn’t tell anyone, but sometimes I regret that I didn’t. Maybe if I did it would’ve stopped earlier.” She didn’t know why she was telling him this, she didn’t tell jsut anyone about her past, but something in inside of her told her that she needed to tell him.

“How did it stop?” he asked, desperately wanting to know the answer.

“He left us, my mom and me, for another woman. After my mom died I couldn’t go back to my father, first of all, he didn’t want me and seconded I really didn’t want to go back to that bastard.” She explained, actually feeling happy that she could talk to someone about it.

“That sucks.” He said.

“Yeah well, that’s life.”

“Don’t you ever get lonely here?” he asked her. Not understanding how she could live all alone in a big house.

“Sometimes, but this is my home now. I wouldn’t want it any other way, maybe when I’m older. But not right now. I’m not ready to leave yet.”

Xander smiled.
They both didn’t know what to say for a while.

“What do you say about pizza?” She asked Xander with a smile hoping that will give them something to pass the time with. The answer she got was a big smile from him.
A half an hour later they were sitting on the couch eating pizza and watching a movie.

“So, you and Spike. You’re pretty close right?”

“You can say that.” She said with a smile, thinking about the other night. But then she remembered that he lied to her and the smile dissapeared.

“You know, if you need a way to take out your anger and frustation, you can try singing, it always helps with me.” She said.

“Thanks.” Xander said with a smile. “But I’m not really a good singer, I’m bad... really bad.”

Buffy smiled.

“I’ll try something else that’ll work for me.” He promised her. “I’ll be okay.” He said, not knowing himself if he was telling her the truth. ‘I hope I’ll be okay.’

When the pizza was gone and the movie was finished Xander stood up to leave.

“You can stay here if you want, you know.” She said, liking Xander and not wanting him to leave if that meant that he’ll be getting into trouble.

“Thanks, but I should really head home. Thanks for everything though, it was great just talking to someone. Knowing that I’m not alone in this.” He said.

“You’re welcome, and whenever you need anything, I’ll be here okay.”

“Okay, thanks again.” He said before giving her a small hug and dissapearing through the front door.

“Bye” she said waving to him. She closed the door when he was out of sight.

She knew Spike was coming in a little while and she didn’t know what to do. She knew she was mad at him, really mad, but she never had these kind of feelings for anyone.

When she heard a knock on the front door she slowly walked towards it. She opened it and saw Spike with a big smile on his face, but the face dissapeared when he saw that Buffy wasn’t happy.

“What’s wrong, luv?” he asked letting himself in.

“Who else know about me? I mean, actually know me, know I excist?” She asked him.

“Uhm... let’s see, me, Giles, Riley, Parker and Angel You know the guys that you saw the first time we met?” He said forgetting that he talked to Xander about her. “Why?.” He asked, not knowing what she was talking about.

“You know that’s really funny, because I’ve just talked to a Xander for about 2 and a half hours.” She said hurt that he didn’t tell her the truth. “How can you just stand there and lie about it?”

“Xander? Oh god, luv I’m so sorry. I wasn’t thinking when I told him about you. I just really needed someone to talk and he... why was he here anyway?” he asked.

“He needed a friend.” She said, not satisfied with his answer. “I’m really angry with you Spike. A couple of weeks ago nobody actually knew about me, only Giles and suddenly you come along and there are like 5 people who know about me and they’ll tell their friends and they will tell theirs. Sooner or later this whole town will know, and then what? It won’t be pretty. Social services will send me back to my father and then I’m right back where I started.” She said, terrified that she had to leave Sunnydale to go live with that jerk of a father.

“You won’t have to go to your father, luv. I won’t let that happen, you know that... Wait, why didn’t Xander come to me?” he asked with a confused expression.

“He wanted to keep his problems a secret, so he couldn’t exactely come to you now could he?” she said.

“Look, I’m really sorry luv. I just, I needed to talk to a friend about you. I needed to know that I wasn’t living a dream, that you and I were real.”

“Then why didn’t you just come to me? If you’re having second thoughts about us don’t you think I have the right to know?” She said.

“I know, I’m sorry. But I wasn’t having second thoughts I promise, I would never doubt anything that was between us, it’s just... I’m just confused. It’s all moving so damn fast and I don’t even care. I love you more then anything and I don’t care about anything else when I’m with you. Who I’m a kidding? I don’t even care about anything when I’m without you, I just have to think about you and all clear thoughts wash away. I’m really sorry. Please forgive me. I don’t know what to do without you. I need you.” He said, taking her hands in his and placing a kiss on the top.

“You know I can’t stay mad at you. You and your manly charmes. And I need you to, I need you right now.” She said with a sexy smile before leaping into his arms and kissing him passionately. After a couple of minutes kissing, which seemed like hours, they started undressing each other and fell on the couch together. They were so engrossed into each other that they didn’t notice that they were being watched by 2 people who weren’t found about the new couple. Two people who decided to work together so they could get what they wanted from them.

~ Chapter 13: Lies

Buffy was sitting at her kitchentable eating pasta and thinking about Spike. She was always thinking about Spike. ‘He’s so sweet and caring. And gorgeous!’ she thought to herself with a huge smile on her face.
She wouldn’t see Spike for a couple of days because he had big exams coming, she hated it but she also wanted him to pass the tests.
They talked about college last time he was with her and Spike promised her that he would go to college in Sunnydale, he couldn’t stay away from her. Buffy had kissed him, which had lead to a very passionate lovemaking.
Buffy didn’t know what she would do without Spike. Her life was so empty without him, she didn’t want to go back to that place in her life.

Buffy was just finished eating when she heard a knock on the door. She smiled, she always liked company. She would really like if it was Spike who was knocking, but she would also like if it was Giles or Xander.

She walked to the door and opened it with a smile, but the smiled dissapeared when she saw a girl standing there with tears running down her face.

“Please, can I come in?” she asked, while already stepping into Buffy’s livingroom.

“Sure.” Buffy mumbled, while looking at the strange brown-haired girl who was still crying. “Are you okay? What happened?” Buffy asked her.

“I’m Cordelia, but my friends call me Cordy. You’re Buffy right?” she asked her with an innocent look.

“Uh, yeah. But...” Buffy started with a confused expression.

“Spike. You’re all he talks about.” She said.

“Really?” Buffy asked with a smile.

“Yes, he’s SUCH an asshole. I came here to warn you. He shouldn’t be trusted.” She warned Buffy.

“What are you talking about?” she asked, not getting what the girl in front of her was talking about.

“He’s a real player. He sleeps with every girl he wants. His motto is ‘use them and lose them’. He and his friends have these ways to make a girl sleep with them. And then they humiliate them. And... he did it to me to. He humiliated me in front of the whole school!” She said, fake crying again.

She looked at Buffy and smiled when she saw the look on her face, a look of full horror.

“A...a..are you sure?” she asked.

Cordelia nodded. “Yes, he even said that you were his next victim. He said he was really going to humiliate you.” She said.

Buffy had trouble to keep her tears in check. She just couldn’t believe it. ‘You should’ve known Buffy, everyone you ever loved has betrayed you. And it happened again.’ She thougth to herself.

“Oh my god, is that the time?” she said, faking her shock. “I really should go. I hope you won’t make the same mistake as I did.” She lied. “Ciao.” She said, giving her a little wave before dissapearing trough the frontdoor.

When Cordelia was standing outside, she grabbed her cellphone and dialed a number. “Mission accomplised.” She said with a smile before hanging up.

When Cordelia was finally gone, Buffy let the tears fall. She walked over to the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of scotch, which she bought for Giles if he ever felt like drinking it. She opened the bottle and drank.

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~ Chapter 14: There’s no more messing around

Spike was lying on his bed, studying for his exams when suddenly his phone rang. ‘Bloody hell’ he thought to himself.
He picked up the phone with a angry voice.

“What?” he asked.

“Well hello mister sunshine.” He heard Xander.

“What’s up, Whelp. This better be good.” He said, not liking that he was disturbed while he was studying.

“Oh it’s good my man... for me. We need to go to the Bronze” he said.

“And why do we need to go to the Bronze?” he asked, not knowing why they had to go, especially at a time like this. He was studying really hard, something that didn’t happen very often.

“Well, here’s the thing. I met a girl at the Bronze yesterday, a beautiful girl I may add. And she asked me to come to the Bronze again today and I need you with me.” Xander said, really hoping that his friend would go with him.

“I don’t know whelp, I’ve got stuff to do...” he started, really wanting to help him, but also really wanting to study.

“Please”

Spike sight. “Alright, but if I get a F, it’s totally your fault, mate.” He said. His uncle would kill him if he’d fail. But more imporantly, he would also kill himself. If he didn’t make it, he would have to be in highschool for another year and he really didn’t want that. He wanted a future with Buffy, not a future that only consisted of highschool hell.

“Cool, thanks buddy, I owe you one. I’ll be at your house in a half an hour.” He said, before quickly hanging up the phone, not wanting to hear his best friend yelling at him.

“Half an hour!?” Spike yelled through the phone. “Couldn’t you have told me sooner. Xander?” he said when he didn’t hear a reply. “Xander? Oh bloody hell.” He said, hanging up the phone.



Buffy was walking on the streets, with a bottle of scotch in her hand. “I didn’t know being drunk could be this good!” she exclaimed. “What a pretty lights.” she said smiling at herself. She walked over to the ‘pretty lights’.
“The Bronze.” She read to herself. She smiled and walked in. She saw all kinds of people, but it didn’t scare her. Alcohol had that effect on her. She smiled at the music they played and walked further into the club.

“Hi.” She said at the guy who was watching her.

He walked towards her. “Hi beautiful.” He said, looking at her leather skirt and blue top, which almost didn’t cover anything. “What’s a girl like you doing in a place like this?”

“Oh my god, lame. Here’s a tip buddy, use a better pick-up line.” She said, patting the guy on his shoulder before walking over to the bar.
The bartender looked at her. She put the empty bottle on the bar. “It’s empty, I need more... uhm...” She said, looking at the name on his shirt. “Bert?”

“Yeah, doesn’t really suit me right?” he said.

Buffy shook her head. “Drinks please.”

“Are you sure? Maybe it would be better if I gave you some coffee or something.” He said, hoping that the strange girl would take his advice.

But Buffy wouldn’t have it. She grabbed some money out of her jacket and put it in front of the bartender. “I’ve got the money, you’ve got the booze. Gimme.” She said, giving the man an innocent smile.

Bert sighed. “Alright, but don’t tell me I didn’t warn you.” He said.

“Don’t worry, I’ll be fine.” She said, turning around, looking at the stage. “Who’s playing?” she asked at the nice bartender.

“Everyone who wants to sing something.”

“Cool” she said before grabbing her drink and paying Bert. “Bye, and thanks for the drink.” She said, giving the bartender a fake kiss.

He smiled. “The guy that left her must be a moron.”

Buffy went to sit in the corner at the Bronze, a dark place where no one could see her. ‘Everyone who wants to sing something.’ She kept hearing.

“I feel like singing tonight.” She said before standing up and walking towards the stage.

She didn’t notice that the reason she was drinking tonight just entered the club.


“I can’t believe you dragged me here.” Spike mumbled to his friend.

“Well, how could I know that Anya would bring Cordelia with her? All Anya said was to bring a friend.” Xander explained to his seriously pissed off friend.

Spike sighed. “I know. Let’s get this over with alright?”

Xander nodded. They went to a table. A guy went over to them. “Is this seat taken?” he asked, pointing at the fourth chair. Spike was about to answer him when Cordelia interupted him. “No, take it.” She said.

“Thanks”

“Why did you do that Cordy? Now one of us has to stand.” Anya asked her ‘friend’ while all of them took a seat, except Cordelia. She didn’t really like Cordelia, but she begged to come with her so she took her with her.

“Oh that’s alright, I’ll just have to sit on Spike’s lap.” She said, sitting on his lap before he could protest.

He was about to knock her off when he saw his best friend’s look, that screamed: ‘Please don’t ruin this for me!’

Spike sighed. They were talking when they heard the guy announce a new singer.

“Ladies and gentleman. Here’s our new star of the night, Buffy!” he yelled.

Spike and Xander both looked at the stage. Spike eyes went wide with shock when he saw his girlfriend standing there.

“What the hell is she doing here?” Xander asked him.

Spike didn’t answer him, to shocked to speak. When Buffy looked at him he smiled, but that turned into a frown when she gave him an angry look. ‘What the hell is going on?”

He looked at Cordelia. ‘Oh shit, this can’t be good.’ He said to himself. He gave Cordelia a little push, but she wouldn’t move.

“Cordelia, could you please move?” he asked her.

“Why? I’m comfortable.” She said, giving Buffy a wicked smile before throwing her arms around him.

“Hi, my name is Buffy, and I’ll be singing Party up.” She said through the microphone.

She put the cd into the cdplayer and hit play. The music started of slowly and she took a deep breath. ‘Here it goes.’ She thought to herself. ‘Tell him what you think of him now.’

You... are driving me out of my mind
Cause you... take me everywhere but out at night
What more do you need for me to get with you

She started singing, looking directly into Spike’s eyes, trying to forget that the queen of bitches was sitting on his lap, and that he wasn’t doing anything about it. ‘Well what did you expect Buffy?’

I didn’t see this coming,
Why don’t you start me up?
There’s no more messing around

This could be the start of something
Why don’t you party up
Time for you to come on down

She had trouble keeping the tears at bay, she really didn’t want to be messed around with anymore. She should’ve known, letting people in would only bring her more pain.

I... dream about it in my sleep
You... seem to like me better when I creep
This time I won’t lose

I didn’t see this coming,
Why don’t you start me up?
There’s no more messing around

This could be the start of someting
Why don’t you party up?
Time for you to come on down

She could see in his eyes that he knew she was singing about him. But she could also see the hurt and confusement in his eyes. ‘He hasn’t even figured it out yet. There’ll be no more messing around Spike.’ She thought to herself.

You roll me, you use me, you love me and then
You wrap me up and reel me in and use me again
You love me, you hate me, you say it’s the end
I know your gonna do it again and again

I didn’t see this coming,
Why don’t you start me up?
There’s no more messing around

This could be the start of someting
Why don’t you party up?
Time for you to come on down

I didn’t see this coming,
Why don’t you start me up?
There’s no more messing around

This could be the start of someting
Why don’t you party up?
Time for you to come on down

“There’s no more messing around.” She said through the microphone again, looking at Spike with tears in her eyes. She gave the microphone at the host and ran out of the Bronze, with almost every eye in the room on her.

Spike watched her run away. He needed to know what the hell was going on. He pushed Cordelia off of him and ran after her as fast as he could.
 

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