BUFFY: And the joke is... he loved me. I mean, in his own sick, soulless way, he really did care for me. But I-I didn't want to be loved.

HOLDEN: Didn't you?

BUFFY: I have all this power. I didn't ask for it. I don't deserve it. It's like... I wanted to be punished. I wanted to hurt like I thought I deserved. I sorta think?you know, this is, um, complicated. If you'd rather just fight...

HOLDEN: Tell me.

BUFFY: I feel like I'm worse than anyone. Honestly, I'm beneath them. My friends, my boyfriends. I feel like I'm not worthy of their love. 'Cause even though they love me, it doesn't mean anything 'cause their opinions don't matter. They don't know. They haven't been through what I've been through. They're not the slayer. I am. Sometimes I feel? this is awful?I feel like I'm better than them. Superior.

HOLDEN: Until you can't win. And I thought I was diabolical?or, at least I plan to be. You do have a superiority complex. And you've got an inferiority complex about it. (laughs) Kudos.

BUFFY: It doesn't make any sense.

HOLDEN: Oh, it makes every kind of sense. And it all adds up to you feeling alone. But, Buffy, everybody feels alone. Everybody is, until you die. Speaking of... you ready for our little death match?

BUFFY: I suppose. Thanks, for listening.

HOLDEN: Oh, you know, there's some things you can only tell a stranger.

BUFFY: You're not a stranger. That stuff with Spike is pretty?

HOLDEN: Hold it.

BUFFY: What?

HOLDEN: Did you say Spike?

(...)

BUFFY: What do you mean? How do you know Spike?

HOLDEN: What do you mean, how? He was the guy that, um?oh, what's the word?

BUFFY: Sired.

HOLDEN: Yeah, he was the guy that sired me.

(cut to Spike biting the woman we've seen him chatting up all evening from a distance)

• Buffy & Spike
• Buffy's Love Life in general
• Slayerhood

written by: Jane Espenson & Drew Goddard; Transcribed by: CariCranberry. Edited by me.. Full transcript at:
http://www.buffyworld.com/buffy/season7/transcripts/129_tran.php