BUFFY: The funeral was... it was brutal. But it's tomorrow that I'm worried about.

ANGEL: What's tomorrow?

BUFFY: That's exactly what I don't know. Up until now I've had a roadmap. Things to do every minute, having to do with Mom.

ANGEL: Tomorrow the stuff of everyday living resumes.

BUFFY: And everybody expects me to know how to do it because I'm so strong.

ANGEL: You just need some time. I'm sure everybody understands that.

BUFFY: Time's not the issue. I can stick wood in vampires. But Mom was the strong one in real life. She always knew how to make things better. Just what to say.

ANGEL: You'll find your way. I mean not all at once, but...

BUFFY: I don't know. I keep thinking about it. When I found her. If I'd just gotten there 10 minutes earlier...

ANGEL: You said they told you it wouldn't have made a difference.

BUFFY: They said *probably* it wouldn't have made a difference. The exact thing they said was "probably". I haven't told that to anyone.

ANGEL: Doesn't make it your fault. You couldn't have done anything different.

BUFFY: I didn't even start CPR until they told me. I fell apart. That's how good I am at being a grown up.

ANGEL: Buffy...

BUFFY: It would be okay if it was just me I had to worry about. But Dawn...

ANGEL: Look it's okay. I know you don't feel like it right now, but you are strong, Buffy. You're gonna figure this out. And you have people to help you. You don't have to do this alone.

• Buffy & Angel
• Buffy & her mom
• Dealing with Joyce's death

written by: Marti Noxon; This is my own transcript; short on description, but hey at least it's here today (April 24). Full transcript at:
http://www.studiesinwords.de/95forever.html