BUFFY: Better? (Spike nods) Good.

SPIKE: I don't remember anything.

BUFFY: Well, you were having pretty bad withdrawal.

SPIKE: No, not that. I don't remember... what I did.

BUFFY: Nothing?

SPIKE: It's all flashes here and there. It's like I'm watching someone else...do it, kill people. I've been losing time for a while now, waking up in strange places.

BUFFY: When did your chip stop working?

SPIKE: I wasn't aware that it had, you know. Not 'til now.

BUFFY: And the losing time? How long has that been going on?

SPIKE: Oh, things have been wonky since I got back, ever since?

BUFFY: You got your soul.

SPIKE: Figured that's what it was like, it'd been so long since I had one.

BUFFY: How did you do it? How'd you get your soul back?

SPIKE: Saw a man about a girl. I went to seek a legend out. Traveled to the other side of the world, made a deal with a demon.

BUFFY: Just like that?

SPIKE: No, not just like that. There was a price. There were trials, torture, pain and suffering... of sorts.

BUFFY: Of sorts?

SPIKE: Well, it's all relative, isn't it?

BUFFY: Meaning?

SPIKE: Meaning I have come to redefine the words pain and suffering since I fell in love with you.

BUFFY: How can you say that?

SPIKE: Apparently, I just slaughtered half of Sunnydale, pet. I'm not really worried about being polite anymore.

BUFFY: So, that's what this is about. You feeling sorry for yourself, Spike?

SPIKE: I'm feeling honest with myself. You used me.

BUFFY: Yes.

SPIKE: You told me that, of course. I never understood it though. Not until now. You hated yourself, and you took it out on me.

BUFFY: You figured that out just now?

SPIKE: Soul's not all about moonbeams and pennywhistles, luv. It's about self-loathing. I get it. Had to travel 'round the world, but I understand you now. I understand the violence inside.

BUFFY: Violence? William the Bloody now has insight into violence?

SPIKE: Not the same. As bad as I was, as evil and as wretched as I was, I never truly hated myself back then. Not like I do now.

• Buffy & Spike
• Spike's Soul

written by: Drew Goddard; Transcribed by: CariCranberry. edited by me.. Full transcript at:
http://www.buffyworld.com/buffy/season7/transcripts/131_tran.php